#compulsive multitasker

[longeyelashedtragedy]

#IT WAS IMPORTANT #compulsive multitasker

[maaarine]

The Myth of Normal: Trauma, Illness and Healing in a Toxic Culture (Gabor Maté, 2022)

“There is nothing radical about the idea that certain personality traits can pose risks for illness; in fact, it is a restatement in modern scientific terms of insights that date far back. (…)

Whether a person exhibits one, a few, or every one of these features, they all, each in their own way, speak to self-suppression and/or repression. 

I have found them not only present but prominent among people with all manner of chronic illnesses, from cancer to autoimmune disease to persistent skin conditions, through a gamut of maladies including migraine headaches, fibromyalgia, endometriosis, myalgic encephalomyelitis (ME), also known as chronic fatigue syndrome, and many others. 

In no particular order, these traits are 

an automatic and compulsive concern for the emotional needs of others, while ignoring one’s own; 

rigid identification with social role, duty, and responsibility (which is closely related to the next point); 

overdriven, externally focused multitasking hyper-responsibility, based on the conviction that one must justify one’s existence by doing and giving; 

repression of healthy, self-protective aggression and anger; 

and harboring and compulsively acting out two beliefs: “I am responsible for how other people feel” and “I must never disappoint anyone.”

These characteristics have nothing to do with will or conscious choice. 

No one wakes up in the morning and decides, “Today I’ll put the needs of the whole world foremost, disregarding my own,” or “I can’t wait to stuff down my anger and frustration and put on a happy face instead.” 

Nor is anyone born with such traits: if you’ve ever met a newborn infant, you know they have zero compunction about expressing their feelings, nor do they think twice before crying lest they inconvenience someone else. 

The reasons these habits of personality, as we might call them, develop and grow to prominence in some people are both fascinating and sobering. 

At root they are coping patterns, adaptations originally formed to preserve something essential and nonnegotiable. 

Why these features and their striking prevalence in the personalities of chronically ill people are so often overlooked—or missed entirely—goes to the heart of our theme: they are among the most normalized ways of being in this culture. 

Normalized how? Largely by being regarded as admirable strengths rather than potential liabilities.”

#gabor mate #the myth of normal #book

[astroshitter]

The houses in astrology

The first house, the ascendant- House of the self.

the horizontal calculated position of the constellation of stars that was behind the sun at the time of birth, the sign that opens the first house. The house of the ego, physical features, what people perceive of me.

The energy I radiate, the aura, the physical health. Personality and external physical characteristics that the world perceives from me.

Impulses, can also indicate childishness. House of new beginnings.

natural position (original sign in the division of the zodiac); Aries, and planet Mars.

Second House - House of our value to things, people and ourselves.

Property, finances, comfort(our comfort zone).

The sensory (the 5 senses), also connects to the throat, possessiveness, stubbornness, fixation.

Can represent early childhood, responsible for what a person needs in his life to feel stable and relaxed, a house also responsible for financial conduct.

Natural original ruler - Taurus and planet Venus.

Third House- The house of sharing.

siblings, the neighbors, the general close environment surroundings in childhood, short trips, public transport and cars in general. Communication, information, transfer of information, daily routine.

Thinking, receiving information, intellect.

Recognition of Patterns and boundaries (our ability to separate), objectivity. head>emotion|emotion=head

duality. Focusing on small details.

The neurosis alongside a constant need to learn and teach, to do something all the time. multitasking.

Natural ruler - Gemini, planet Mercury ruled by day star Mercury.

Fourth house- the family base house.

Parents, the environment we grew up in, the place we refer to when we think of our original home.

Our comfort zone, subconscious emotional security (what we need to feel emotionally secure). Roots, heredity.

Inclusion, hospitality, parental emotional care. (sometimes shows how we express love)

How we act when no one is around, what comes naturally for us

Natural ruler - Cancer and the Moon

The bottom ray on the chart that is called IC (imum Collie)

Fifth house - the house of pleasure and vitality.

Vitality, creativity, close friends, romance, being in the spotlight, ego, addictions.

The house of children (the inner child, our children and the children of other people). theatrical dramatics. Sex and dating, flamboyance, selfishness, the heart. (physiologically as well as emotionally), give and take.

Seeing the picture through the story of events from the subjective eye.

Natural ruler - Leo and the Sun.

Sixth house - House of health and service.

Bills, documents, medical treatment, medical nurses, technical daily routine, giving, criticality, patients, digestive system, perfectionism, work, practice.

Doing things behind the scenes (managing things behind the scenes)

Anxieties, obsessions, psychosomatics.

animals and pets.

Natural ruler - Virgo and night star Mercury.

Seventh house - The house of balance.

Relationships, romance with partners, political correctness, boundaries, beauty, connections, our partners. Intimacy

Behavior of partners, self-renunciation/no compromise, balance, superficiality, qualities we are not aware of (alter ego), visible enemies (of which we are aware).

Natural ruler - Libra and planet Venus.

Eight house- House of transformation.

Sex, death and rebirth, taboo, obsession, secrecy, thoroughness, research, psychology, suspicion, skepticism.

Compulsivity, fears, truth, underworld (Witchcraft), astrology, mysticism, traumas, closure

Repetitive patterns of behavior. karma; Previous generations of the family (grandfather, grandmother, etc.), awareness - to see the truth as it is without the ability to beautify

manipulation.

Natural ruler - Scorpio and Pluto, second ruler Mars.

Ninth house- The house of expansion and essence.

Trips outside the borders of the country, languages, different cultures, philosophy, optimism, the big picture without being able to get into the small details (not thinking about consequences).

Tactlessness, religion, spiritual outlook, publishing.

In-depth research, spiritual or physical journeys alone,

Lack of boundaries, lack of absolute truth (related to boundaries).

Freedom, claustrophobia, unwillingness to commit, fear of missing out , desire to see everything from everywhere.

Natural ruler - Sagittarius and Jupiter.

Tenth house- House of career, public persona.

Status, how people see me (public reputation for better or for worse).

This is a house that is crossed in the upper horizon in the chart, after all, it is the midheaven of the Sky MC (medium Collie)-

Self-fulfillment, preoccupation with how I am seen from the outside,

Investment in work, persistence, tradition. represents one of the parents. Materialism, personal promotion, pension, making yourself name in your workfield.

The 10th house reflects our ACS, the first house, which by understanding our first house, it could shows us why we want to attain the qualities of the 10th house in the first place.

Natural ruler - Capricorn and the planet Saturn.

Eleventh house- the house of the extended society.

Politics, social promotion, anti-primitiveness, anti-framework, progressive, new age, ideals.

Courts, demonstrations, action for the common good, activity for our inner ideals, the God complex, arrogance, emotional distance, feeling like an alien, strangeness.

Natural ruler - Aquarius and planet Uranus, second ruler Saturn.

Twelfth house- The house of sacrifice and mysticism.

Things that the owner of the chart is not aware of (but other people see them), hidden enemies, hospitals, institutions, prisons, closed places, emotional withdrawal, solitude, cinema, directing, music, closure, escapism, rose-colored glasses on reality, dreaming, emotional overflow, visions, tarot and astrology,

Secrets, subconscious connection to others (intuition), feet, wisdom of life, the fool / naivety / childishness,

Peter Pan complex. A house that closes the zodiacal wheel (closure)

Natural ruler - Pisces and planet Neptune, second ruler Jupiter.

#astro #astro notes #astro observations #astrology #astroworld #astro posts #zodic signs #astrology 101

[heart-songs]

Interview

by Jordan Kapono Nakamura

I want this job because  it sounds like something I could do  and I’m hungry, physically.  I have extensive experience  in studying what water says as it plummets. Yes, I can carry more than 35lbs, but what  does that have to do with anything?  I’ve wrestled angelic beings  and the nine lives of pathological compulsion. I have sworn an oath against the roman calendar  and its derivative mutations.  I can be firm as cold turkey.  My two letters of recommendation are f and u. They can be used in surf, which  is one way to step on what wants me drowned.  I have heard the hinges of the doors of the sea  creak, so I read a book beneath a tree.  I think a lie can be worse than murder but also  I have never died. I can definitely think of a time  when I had to multitask while under immense pressure,  but would prefer not to. My goal is to recall my past lives  and be free in each. My strength is being scattered  and rooted at the same time. My weakness is entertaining  a party of every kind of consequence.  My kink is a copless land where no one hoards anything. I can start on any day you are prepared to train. I can end on any day that ends in why not,  for real, I don’t need this,  the people got me you know,  I’m with the people. 

#beautiful words #poetry #poem #life #work #balance #sarcasm #wit #jordan kapono nakamura #Interview

[pluckywallflower]

Interview

By Jordan Kapono Nakamura

I want this job because 

it sounds like something I could do 

and I’m hungry, physically. 

I have extensive experience 

in studying what water says as it plummets.

Yes, I can carry more than 35lbs, but what 

does that have to do with anything? 

I’ve wrestled angelic beings 

and the nine lives of pathological compulsion.

I have sworn an oath against the roman calendar 

and its derivative mutations. 

I can be firm as cold turkey. 

My two letters of recommendation are

f and u. They can be used in surf, which 

is one way to step on what wants me drowned. 

I have heard the hinges of the doors of the sea 

creak, so I read a book beneath a tree. 

I think a lie can be worse than murder but also 

I have never died. I can definitely think of a time 

when I had to multitask while under immense pressure, 

but would prefer not to. My goal is to recall my past lives 

and be free in each. My strength is being scattered 

and rooted at the same time. My weakness is entertaining 

a party of every kind of consequence. 

My kink is a copless land where no one hoards anything.

I can start on any day you are prepared to train.

I can end on any day that ends in why not, 

for real, I don’t need this, 

the people got me you know, 

I’m with the people. 

Copyright © 2024 by Jordan Kapono Nakamura.

#poetry #poem #jordan kapono nakamura #job interview

[gothmods]

Mega tmi below the cut (sex stuff again)

Well.

I think i can definitely conclude that while i do have a lot of sexuality baggage from yknow christian upbringing cisheteronormative society etc etc and i still think i have a low sex drive and am not very sensitive down there at least to my own touch and still resent the universe for denying me a dick

I can conclude that i am not asexual. The decade long quest for answers reaches some type of end.

I feel good. Yes in that a weight has now been lifted but more that this is one of like, less than a handful of times getting off has felt good, has been something i enjoyed.

All things considered its a mild enjoyment, it was fun but not earth-shatteringly brilliant. But i think it would be more fun with a partner, which like will probably still not be life changing or anything...

And yet that kinda is why its life changing for me. Years of all this anxiety and self harm and its like, its like ive been standing stuck on the doorstep for so long and the doors started to look bigger and heavier but now they are finally open and i can just. Let go? just sit with sex and sexuality as just another part of [my] life.

I liked it, i want to do it again. This is the first time ive been able to feel that way.

Moving on to less emotional notes

- douching, not as much work as you would think. Ive worked out how my body usually is so its a matter of scheduling but the actual prep was straightforward.

- vibrators are a godsend. Still figuring out what feels best but defs beats the hand by a long shot.

- arms and limbs are awkward. Multitasking very hard, suddenly very much understand the appeal of the suction cup dildo. Towel is very good idea also because lube can and does get everywhere.

- have definitely decided i like anal though. Its fun, reminds me a bit of the gentle burn you get from doing muscle based workouts. But without the pain of doing muscle based workouts.

- i like how i feel afterwards too. Front hole stuff has never felt good to me but also would give me abdominal cramping afterwards :/ i dont remember if that was the case pre-t but its never felt good during anyway so

- clean up is a pain. Wish i had my own bathroom. Picture if you will a guy carrying two different glass toys, a wand vibrator, an enema and a bottle of sex toy cleaner through the yard at night and then having to open multiple doors to get to the bathroom all while trying to be quiet enough to not wake his grandmother up (granny flat bathroom is only accessible via the bedroom 😬)

So yeah probably not something i will be doing often unless there comes another time i get the house to myself for a week or something.

Nonetheless excited to keep trying things.

I feel kinda embarrassed writing all this but the thing is i am 24 and having to learn these things for the first time and thats okay. But also i think the past decade and my relationship with sexuality would have been a lot easier to navigate if i had known anyone with similar experiences. I mean i know a lot of people had similar upbringings to me and we all live in a society but its been. Its been very isolating because of how that affected me.

I dont think ive seen much shared at all in terms of experiences with compulsive self harm in a sexual context. If it had just been anxiety and self-loathing i would have been able to deal with it much sooner i think.

But the self harm was a kind of feedback loop of like, you self harm -> you feel shame and disgust and misery -> those feelings become your primary association with sexual thoughts and behaviour -> the only sexual thoughts you get are intrusive and distressing -> self harm becomes a means of feeling in control of the distress -> and on we go again and again and again

But its over. Its actually over and i want to cry. Its been weeks and i havent self harmed and im finding it a little easier to deal with triggers and just. I want to cry so much because i feel so fucking relieved.

The power of anal sex....

[galechives]

I want this job because  it sounds like something I could do  and I’m hungry, physically.  I have extensive experience  in studying what water says as it plummets. Yes, I can carry more than 35lbs, but what  does that have to do with anything?  I’ve wrestled angelic beings  and the nine lives of pathological compulsion. I have sworn an oath against the roman calendar  and its derivative mutations.  I can be firm as cold turkey.  My two letters of recommendation are f and u. They can be used in surf, which  is one way to step on what wants me drowned.  I have heard the hinges of the doors of the sea  creak, so I read a book beneath a tree.  I think a lie can be worse than murder but also  I have never died. I can definitely think of a time  when I had to multitask while under immense pressure,  but would prefer not to. My goal is to recall my past lives  and be free in each. My strength is being scattered  and rooted at the same time. My weakness is entertaining  a party of every kind of consequence.  My kink is a copless land where no one hoards anything. I can start on any day you are prepared to train. I can end on any day that ends in why not,  for real, I don’t need this,  the people got me you know,  I’m with the people. 

Jordan Kapono Nakamura, "Interview" (2024)

#jordan kapono nakamura #poetry

[waitimcomingtoo]

Hey love, I was the anon that just dropped in a quick thank you and said I saw myself in you. And I just saw you said you have OCD and I found out about mine like 2 years ago, but it's the obsessive kind more than compulsive so it affects me quite a lot. But do you have any tips or anything that helps? Thank you sooo much for everything, I lovee your stories. Also do you know which emojis are left?

I saw something online called marbleizing that helps me. It’s when you take the obsessive thought and literally with your hands “pull” it from your head and roll in into a ball and throw it away from you like it’s just a tiny marble. Physically doing the action usually helps me clear my head. I will also put on a tv show or something and paint or write to distract myself if I can’t stop thinking about something. Multitasking makes it hard to think about whatever I’m obsessing over 💖 and most emojis are left so you can just pick one and I’ll let you know if it’s taken or not 💖

[lindsayrps]

sebastian 'baz' calhoun dev

BASIC INFORMATION

FULL NAME: sebastian thomas calhoun NICKNAME(S): seb, bastian, baz PREFERRED NAME(S): baz BIRTH DATE: july 14, 1981 AGE: 40 GENDER: cis male PRONOUNS: he/him ROMANTIC/SEXUAL ORIENTATION: heterosexual/romantic NATIONALITY: canadian ETHNICITY: white CURRENT LOCATION: wayfield, bc LIVING SITUATION: a 3 bed, 3 bath townhome near the water that he shares with his daughter and sister.

BACKGROUND

BIRTH PLACE: toronto, on HOMETOWN: toronto, on PLACES LIVED: all over, honestly. 6 months here, 6 months there. the longest he ever lived anywhere was 5 years in ottawa and 4 in vancouver. SOCIAL CLASS: upper middle EDUCATION LEVEL: masters in [blowhorn noises] FATHER: joseph calhoun, 72 MOTHER: claire calhoun, 70 SIBLING(S): jenna, 35 and harper, 30. BIRTH ORDER: baz, jenna, harper CHILDREN: ivy calhoun, 12 PET(S): none currently but ivy's banking hard on getting a dog and baz will probably cave. OTHER IMPORTANT RELATIVES: none PREVIOUS RELATIONSHIPS: a string of failed relationships, including his marriage to ivy's mother, none of which bother him at all because he's moved on. ARRESTS: no PRISON TIME?: no

OCCUPATION & INCOME

PRIMARY SOURCE OF INCOME: freelance work as [blow horn noises] SECONDARY SOURCE OF INCOME: n/a TERTIARY SOURCE(S) OF INCOME: n/a CONTENT WITH THEIR JOB (OR LACK THEREOF): it's been a long road to get to a place where freelance work can be a primary source of income for baz and he's really happy with it because it lets him be around more for ivy PAST JOB(S): many, many, many service jobs before "graduating" to corporate which he loathed but made good money at. SPENDING HABITS: fairly frugal. MOST VALUABLE POSSESSION: probably the television in his living room, honestly.

SKILLS & ABILITIES

PHYSICAL STRENGTH: A+ OFFENSE: B DEFENSE: B+ SPEED: B- INTELLIGENCE: A ACCURACY: A- AGILITY: A STAMINA: A+ TEAMWORK: A+ TALENTS: he honestly doesn't think he has any but he's good at math (take that, math homework!) and multitasking SHORTCOMINGS: he tends to take things a little too seriously, though he blames this on being a dad, tends to not know when to take breaks LANGUAGE(S) SPOKEN: english, french DRIVE?: yes JUMP START A CAR?: yes CHANGE A FLAT TIRE?: yes RIDE A BICYCLE?: yes SWIM?: yes PLAY AN INSTRUMENT?: no PLAY CHESS?: not very well BRAID HAIR?: by virtue of having a daughter, yes TIE A TIE?: yes PICK A LOCK?: yes

PHYSICAL APPEARANCE & CHARACTERISTICS

FACE CLAIM: eric winter EYE COLOR: blue HAIR COLOR: brown HAIR TYPE/STYLE: close cut, more shaved on the sides than the top, rarely styled in any significant sort of way. GLASSES/CONTACTS?: no DOMINANT HAND: right HEIGHT: 6'2 WEIGHT: 175 lbs BUILD: athletic EXERCISE HABITS: he goes to the gym pretty consistently, less because he wants to work out and maintain and more because he likes the way he feels after SKIN TONE: more tan than pale TATTOOS: no PIERCINGS: no MARKS/SCARS: none NOTABLE FEATURES: intense stare only exacerbated by those blue eyes, wide smile when it happens USUAL EXPRESSION: a slight resting bitch face but unintentionally so CLOTHING STYLE: 90% casual, jeans, casual sneakers, opened button downs over tshirts, henleys, casual jackets, workout hoodies JEWELRY: a watch ALLERGIES: none DIET: he will eat what he wants, in moderation, but will indulge in some things every once in a while PHYSICAL AILMENTS: none

PSYCHOLOGY

ENNEAGRAM TYPE: 8 MORAL ALIGNMENT: chaotic neutral TEMPERAMENT: melancholic ELEMENT: earth PRIMARY INTELLIGENCE TYPE: intrapersonal MENTAL CONDITIONS/DISORDERS: anxiety, mostly relating to his abilities as a father and doing what's right for ivy SOCIABILITY: with the right people, he's fairly sociable but don't expect him to be that way if you've just met him for the first time EMOTIONAL STABILITY: fairly strong, not one to let his emotions guide him unnecessarily but prone to letting them take over when certain people are involved or situations arise OBSESSION(S): none COMPULSION(S): none PHOBIA(S): none ADDICTION(S): none DRUG USE: no ALCOHOL USE: socially PRONE TO VIOLENCE?: no

MANNERISMS

SPEECH STYLE: fully enunciated, clipped if he's less than happy ACCENT: none QUIRKS: he's worn the same watch every day since he got it 15 years ago HOBBIES: pretty well anything his daughter is interested in he'll pick up in an effort to understand the things she likes even if it means dropping it in six months bc she's no longer interested HABITS: chewing on his bottom lip, chewing on pen caps NERVOUS TICKS: none DRIVES/MOTIVATIONS: making sure ivy is happy and well rounded, not screwing up his freelance job. FEARS: something happening to ivy, not being a good father. probably the top two and most important, everything else is unimportant POSITIVE TRAITS: adaptable, compassionate, decisive, disciplined, hardworking, objective, loyal NEGATIVE TRAITS: blunt, cautious, strong willed. SENSE OF HUMOR: 50% dad humour, 50% dry humour DO THEY CURSE OFTEN?: tries not to around his kid but otherwise he's a believer in the right curse word adding emphasis to certain thoughts

FAVORITES

ACTIVITY: spending time with his daughter doing whatever it is she wants to do ANIMAL: dogs BEVERAGE: orange juice BOOK: not an entirely voracious reader but the classics are good CELEBRITY: celebrity culture sucks COLOR: forest green DESIGNER: no FOOD: a good sandwich FLOWER: ehh not really GEM: no HOLIDAY: christmas MODE OF TRANSPORTATION: car MOVIE: honestly anything as long as it's not disney MUSICAL ARTIST: journey, pink floyd, aerosmith. classic rock ftw QUOTE/SAYING: your life isn't yours if you always care what other people think SCENERY: lush and green SCENT: anything clean, fresh cut grass SPORT: hockey SPORTS TEAM: canucks TELEVISION SHOW: anything funny WEATHER: warm and sunny VACATION DESTINATION: anywhere. it's been a long time since he's been on a vacation

ATTITUDES

GREATEST DREAM: honestly he's pretty content with his life, for the most part. he's not sure he even has a greatest dream. GREATEST FEAR: something happening to ivy or his family MOST AT EASE WHEN: around his kid, with people he trusts LEAST AT EASE WHEN: around people he doesn't know well WORST POSSIBLE THING THAT COULD HAPPEN: anything happening to ivy BIGGEST REGRET: nah, no regrets. life is too short for that. MOST EMBARRASSING MOMENT: literally any time he's been roasted by his twelve year old BIGGEST SECRET: none really TOP PRIORITIES: ivy, his family, his job, everything else after that

#( ch: baz calhoun ) #( t: development )

[fadingthingcoffee]

How to stop wasting time- (productivity hacks)

1. Have a proper plan of execution-

           If you have a regular job, you will have plans for the day, or someone else will plan the day for you. If you are a freelancer or if you are in a position to take ownership of your regular job then if you have no plans, you will be clueless. If you don't have the compulsion to finish a particular task, you might end up doing tasks that you like at random which would all be incomplete. So, not having a plan is the first reason for wasting time. 

2. Procrastination-

            If we don't have a plan, we tend to procrastinate without a time limit. When there is no time limit, a task can be done anytime.  We can even have a simple reason to get things done. The reason can be as simple as we planned to do the task.

3. Perfectionism-

            We tend to put things off because we expect to do things perfectly. I expect perfection in doing workouts and hence I do it very rarely. Perfectionism stops us from doing things. Instead of striving for Perfectionism, start the work and do the best that you can.

4. Organizing-

            Instead of doing the work that needs to be completed immediately, we might look to other pending work. Because we might not be in the mood to complete priority tasks and hence, we would focus on other tasks. Only when we are organized, we tend to focus on immediate priority tasks. If my desk is not properly organized, I might focus on tidying up the desk instead of working. If we get things then and there, there wouldn't be a mess and we focus on our goals. So being organized is another way of not wasting time. 

5. Multitasking-

we get distracted with bombarding notifications on our mobile phones and lose focus, when we try to multitask. And we can't focus on one work if we try to multitask. It's okay to do a few things instead of multitasking.

6. Resources-

Onlywhen have access to the resources required, we could plan and do the work. Analyse and confirm the availability of resources, for anything you want to do with life.

7. Deadline-

Having a deadline is predominant to achieve your goal and would help to work efficiently towards the goal. fix a deadline for any of your goals in life to achieve them efficiently and with ease.

#self improvement

[ukdamo]

Interview

Jordan Kapono Nakamura

I want this job because it sounds like something I could do and I’m hungry, physically. I have extensive experience in studying what water says as it plummets. Yes, I can carry more than 35lbs, but what does that have to do with anything? I’ve wrestled angelic beings and the nine lives of pathological compulsion. I have sworn an oath against the roman calendar and its derivative mutations. I can be firm as cold turkey. My two letters of recommendation are f and u. They can be used in surf, which is one way to step on what wants me drowned. I have heard the hinges of the doors of the sea creak, so I read a book beneath a tree. I think a lie can be worse than murder but also I have never died. I can definitely think of a time when I had to multitask while under immense pressure, but would prefer not to. My goal is to recall my past lives and be free in each. My strength is being scattered and rooted at the same time. My weakness is entertaining a party of every kind of consequence. My kink is a copless land where no one hoards anything. I can start on any day you are prepared to train. I can end on any day that ends in why not, for real, I don’t need this, the people got me you know, I’m with the people.

#poetry #work #job #interview #questions #hoops #individuality #agency #Jordan Kapono Nakamura

[w-ht-w]

Limiting the number of computer tabs you open

You should work, as much as possible, in a single browser window at a time. Your results may vary, but in the six weeks I've been "unitasking" online, I've felt calmer, more creative, and able to sustain deep attention for longer periods of time. I rarely feel the mental whiplash This newfound discipline doesn't mean I've stopped tab hoarding altogether. ... Our tabs are deeply significant, even if they seem like digital clutter. Instead, they're elements of our to-do list, reflections of our anxiety about losing valuable information and labor, and signals of our aspirations to be well-read, smarter, or adventurous.  by no fault of our own, we bought into the myth that we can multitask our way through each day, crossing off items on the list, reading that 5,000-word article on climate change, and researching a post-pandemic trip to Hawaii. When we cling to tabs, we're often holding tight to an illusion of productivity. This mirage isn't our own but the product of a corporate obsession with efficiency, and business models that reward speed above thoughtfulness, quality, and equity. When we're handed far more tasks than we can complete in a single day, we rush to find shortcuts and try to finish unrelated assignments simultaneously. It's no wonder we spend the day zig-zagging between tasks. At the same time, social media algorithms are eager to steal our already fractured attention, armed with staggering information about our preferences and ready to serve up ever-enticing content. the act of using one window as "precommitment." In behavioral science, precommitment is the decision to limit your options for temptation or impulsivity in advance.  the gospel of productivity primes me and other workers to believe that multitasking is humanly possible, and even ideal. Research tells us that it is not. Humans can only consciously think about one or two things at a time. What we mistake for multitasking is actually task switching. Digital technology makes our erratic online movements appear frictionless, but research suggests that it takes significant time to regain focus after an interruption or distraction. ... " the typical office worker is interrupted or switches tasks, on average, every three minutes and five seconds. And it can take 23 minutes and 15 seconds just to get back to where they left off." (x) With a manageable number of tabs, which varies by person, participants in his study felt "in-control and productive." But when the number exceeded a participant's tipping point, they felt emotions like shame and stress, along with the compulsion to close tabs they'd worked hard to collect. (For the 103 participants, eight open tabs was the median number that triggered stress.)  many of us are aware of the disconnect between the amount of information we aspire to consume and our capacity to actually process the content in those tabs — and yet we're still scared to close them. In that regard, tab management is about recognizing and accepting that there's far more knowledge on the Internet than we'll ever be able to meaningfully acquire.  "How do we help people cope with the fact that they're never going to process all the information they want to?" says [a] research scientist at the Allen Institute for AI. "I don't really have a concrete answer on how to get there."  I was also surprised at how different I felt after using a single window, as much as possible, for six weeks.  I'm unsure of what I've missed when limiting my attention to a single activity, whether online or off, but I've also made peace with not knowing. (x)

#productivity

[bewearyofthefroghead]

The Attention Span Crisis: Why We Can't Focus (and Why We Probably Never Will)

In today's hyper-paced world, our attention spans are dwindling faster than a snow cone in a desert. It's a daily struggle to concentrate on anything longer than a 10-second TikTok video. But hey, why should we even bother trying to focus when life's a never-ending, mind-numbing circus? In this blog, we'll delve into the cynical abyss to uncover why our attention spans resemble a goldfish's memory on steroids.

The Digital Nightmare

Welcome to the digital age, where focus is a quaint relic of the past. Smartphones, social media, and email notifications have become our digital overlords, summoning us with the subtlety of a sledgehammer. Trying to focus on a task? Well, good luck with that, because your phone just buzzed, and it could be the latest "breaking news" about someone's avocado toast.

Multitasking Madness: The Joke's on Us

They say multitasking is the key to success, but it's more like a cruel joke played on us by the universe. Attempting to juggle a dozen tasks at once is akin to trying to herd cats. You might look impressive doing it, but the result is a chaotic mess. Multitasking has turned our brains into a three-ring circus without a ringmaster.

Information Overload: The Horror Show

The internet is a vast, gaping maw of information, and we're the helpless victims being devoured by it. Trying to concentrate when every click leads to a new rabbit hole of conspiracy theories and cat memes is like trying to find meaning in a David Lynch film. It's all a blur of confusion.

Instant Gratification: The Tragicomedy

We've become the "I want it now, or I'm throwing a tantrum" generation. Delayed gratification is so last century. We binge-watch TV shows, microwave our meals, and expect instant replies to texts. If it takes more than a few seconds, we've already moved on to something else, probably equally pointless.

The Sedentary Spectacle

Physical activity? Why bother when we can exercise our thumbs by scrolling through an infinite abyss of content? Our sedentary lifestyles have turned us into unwitting participants in a global experiment: "How much screen time can a human endure before they become a vegetable?"

FOMO: The Tragic Reality

Fear of Missing Out (FOMO) is the sad, relentless drumbeat of our existence. We compulsively check our devices because heaven forbid we miss out on the latest Kardashian drama or a trending dance move. It's like watching a train wreck in slow motion, and we can't look away.

The Zen of Mindlessness

Mindfulness? It's a quaint concept from a bygone era. In a world where distraction reigns supreme, the idea of being fully present seems like an absurd joke. We've traded in inner peace for more screen time, and we're all the worse for it.

Conclusion

In this bleak dystopia, our dwindling attention spans are just another symptom of the impending digital apocalypse. Blame the digital nightmare, multitasking madness, information overload, instant gratification, our sedentary existence, FOMO, and our disdain for mindfulness. They're all players in this dark comedy.

But hey, there's a glimmer of hope. We can start by setting some boundaries with our digital overlords, practicing mindfulness despite the chaos, and maybe even stepping outside to remember that life exists beyond screens. In this cynical landscape, we might as well salvage what's left of our focus amidst the chaos, because in the end, we're all just extras in this absurd, never-ending play.

#positive mental attitude #mindfulness #attention span #mindset

[jameswrites]

How my brain works

So my brain works kinda like this: imagine you are a security guard and there are like, 20 monitors in front of you at any given time. There are 100 channels total. You can switch those 20 monitors to 5 or more (some overlap) channels at any given time. All 20 monitors are on at any given time, but you can only focus on about 5-8 at any given time. Some are showing things that you pay even more attention to, some are kind of dimly important so you notice them, some are annoying because there are oddly adverts in this (intrusive thoughts and OCD compulsions) But you can always try to switch to focusing on another set of monitors, but you have to focus those monitors to the right channel and sometimes there is not overlap of channels you need on the monitors grouping that you have to look at for some reason. Then I took that med I mentioned and my mind went from 20 monitors, to 1, with one window, and I could not pick the channels. I’m up to 50 channels and maybe 10 monitors. So when I am multitasking, this is what is going on I am just kinda grouping things in ways that make my brain go yes.

When I am on abilify, it removes my ability to multitask, but it also makes it so I cannot avoid OCD thoughts or impulsive thoughts. I had things like "kys kys kys kys kys" on repeat in my head, I had things like "No one loves you no one loves you" etc in my head.

It is so important to be able to push those thoughts down and that is what I can do off that med, but on the med I am drowsy all the time and I am so glad I am off it now, but it makes me so sad that I still have drowsiness from it because everything from being upright to talking to friends is more difficult with only some of my monitors and channels opened up and drowsiness seeming to be the cause of that.

#mental health #bipolar #abilify

[mentalhealthquestions]

"Overcoming Technology Addiction: Online Counselling for Digital Detox"

In an increasingly digital world, technology plays a vital role in our daily lives, enhancing communication, productivity, and entertainment. However, excessive and compulsive use of technology can lead to addiction, affecting our mental and emotional well-being. The good news is that breaking free from technology addiction and adopting a healthier relationship with screens is achievable. Online counselling serves as a valuable resource to guide individuals towards a balanced and mindful approach to technology usage. In this blog, we'll explore the impact of technology addiction, common challenges faced, and how online counseling can facilitate a successful digital detox journey.

Understanding Technology Addiction

Technology addiction, often referred to as "digital addiction" or "screen addiction," involves compulsive and excessive use of digital devices such as smartphones, computers, and tablets. It can lead to negative consequences for mental health, relationships, and overall quality of life. Common examples include excessive social media use, online gaming, and constant checking of notifications.

Challenges of Technology Addiction

Reduced Real-Life Engagement: Excessive screen time can lead to decreased engagement in real-life activities and interactions.

Negative Mental Health Impact: Technology addiction is linked to increased stress, anxiety, and feelings of isolation.

Sleep Disruption: Blue light emitted by screens can interfere with sleep patterns, leading to insomnia and disrupted sleep quality.

Impaired Focus and Productivity: Constant multitasking and distractions hinder focus and productivity.

Strained Relationships: Excessive technology use can strain personal relationships as it takes away from quality time spent with loved ones.

Online Counselling: Guiding Towards Digital Detox

Personalized Strategies: Online counseling provides tailored strategies to address specific technology addiction patterns.

Expert Guidance: Trained therapists offer guidance on setting healthy boundaries with technology and managing cravings.

Behavioral Modification: Therapists help individuals identify triggers and develop healthier habits through behavioral modification.

Mindfulness Techniques: Online counseling introduces mindfulness techniques to enhance awareness and self-control.

Accountability and Support: Regular sessions provide accountability and a supportive space to share progress and challenges.

Steps Towards a Successful Digital Detox

Self-Assessment: Reflect on your technology usage and identify areas where you feel addicted or excessively reliant.

Set Goals: Define clear goals for your digital detox journey, such as reducing screen time or specific apps.

Establish Boundaries: Set specific times for technology use and designate screen-free zones in your daily routine.

Practice Mindfulness: Engage in mindfulness techniques to become more aware of your technology habits.

Seek Professional Support: Reach out to online counseling to receive expert guidance and strategies for a successful digital detox.

#mental health #amitabh bachchan

[syneilesis]

I have this compulsion to work on my WIPs one at a time. I can't multitask; I ignore other fic inspirations to focus on the priority fic, which I think is unproductive. I have to listen to all bouts of inspiration, regardless of whether it's the priority fic or not. It's the only way I can make progress 😭

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