#digresser

[abowlofpetuniasandawhale]

honestly the worst thing about adhd for me is that a new hobby or hyperfixation is one of the greatest sources of joy, but its always haunted by the knowledge that it won’t last and i don’t get to decide or even know how long. I can’t count on being interested in anything long term.

it feels like theres a clock ticking above my head and i cant see how much longer i get to enjoy something. i can’t start big projects for fear of never finishing them. i have to hold myself back from anything that requires long-term commitments or consistency because i can’t rely on future-me to follow through.*

when i pace myself and try to casually keep up with something after the hyperfixation ends it just isn’t the same, the joy is gone. when i say fuck it and just let myself run, i end up trying to cram years of a hobby into weeks or months. i bite off way more than i can chew, burn out spectacularly, and spend the next month feeling guilty every time i look at the pile of expensive, unused materials that i sat down one day and never picked back up.

Theres a toll that years of it takes on your self-trust, it compromises your ability to make decisions without second guessing the most basic things. “What will I want?” and “what will I like?” aren’t any less opaque at six months from now than six years. I can’t count on what I want. In a way, I can’t count on myself and there’s a grief that comes along with that.

i see so much about dealing with adhd shame, but i dont think i’ve heard more than one person express the grief that comes with losing something you really love, not because it leaves you, but because your body simply decides without your permission to stop loving it.

#*theres a larger digression i want to make about the gulf between the me and future me with adhd and how much it feels like planning a life #for someone else and really hoping the things you love won’t make them miserable #adhd #actually adhd #hyperfixations

[varilien]

he’s like if a rubber chicken were a person

#trigun #trigun anime #trigun crack #vash #vash the stampede #the notes on this post are so fucking funny omg #edit: the notes are less funny now that ppl are using them to complain about the new show :\ but i digress #videos

[tangerinesteve]

one of my favorite things about season 4 is how Steve has NO IDEA how to handle or react to Eddie. Like, it doesn't help that eddie has no personal space. And yes eddie did shove a broken bottle into his neck, but steve forgave him for that I'm betting immediately after he heard Eddie's story and realized how fucking TERRIFIED he was. And this is like, shipping them aside. Steve has no idea how to handle this nerdy guy who is HIS age, and who is just... so fucking OPEN about how he's feeling, telling him he feels like a coward, and how he's jealous of steve cuz dustin talks about him so much and clearly cares so much about steve. And eddie like... JUST met steve, officially anyway, they clearly knew of each other before, but he JUST met and is just... telling him all this personal shit while swaying in and out of Steve's personal space, and Steve is in pain and is just like, who the fuck IS this guy. And then Eddie's like... the way you bit that bat was..... kinda cool as fuck my dude... kinda attractive... very very badass on the whole my guy. And steve just.... has no idea what's happening cuz this guy is A LOT.

#okay the last bit was shippy BUT I DIGRESS #steve harrington #eddie munson #stranger things #stranger things spoilers #steddie #mine

[oxavane]

this gorgeous ruby-eyed bastard <3

#obey me #obey me lucifer #obey me shall we date #luci #do you have any idea how difficult it is to draw this man with a realistic nose #also yea he has earrings #they look good #anything looks good on him but i digress- #sheep draws

[sosaysdean]

parallels

#it’s ‘are you giving me the last night on earth speech’ not ‘your’ but I digress #it cannot be fixed #anyway #spn #supernatural #spn edit #spnedit #spnvideo #spn video #destiel #deancas #sosaysdean.edits

[aimasup]

Just some thoughts I had to combine one of my favourite holidays with a fandom I'm currently in.

Bonus abandoned moon sketch:

I originally planned twin pieces for sun and moon, basically moon's one was going to be like the more calmer versions of the lion dance, with improvised softer music (courtesy of Music Man). It was also gonna be one of those costumes with LEDs that make it glow in the dark with sparkles and stuff twas gonna be dope af

Anyways Happy Lunar New Year/Chinese New Year to all who celebrate it! May your belly be full and the firecrackers/fireworks be set off far far away from you because those buggers are loud. So loud.

#chica would definitely love this holiday #food everywhere #I chose lion dance for sun and moon because of the massively impressive acrobatics and choreography #and acting skills to make the lion feel 'animalistic' #I have cute lion dance videos saved like puppy photos but I digress #anyways lion dances are super cool and important and stuff but also very loud and overbearing sometimes #scary to a lot of kids :( and sometimes adults #my art #my post #fnaf #security breach #fnaf security breach #fnaf gregory #fnaf vanessa #glamrock freddy #freddy fazbear #five nights at freddy's #glamrock chica #roxanne wolf #montgomery gator #fnaf sun and moon #sundrop #moondrop #fnaf daycare attendant #lunar new year #2022 #fnaf sun #fnaf moon

[sunnfish]

Grooming! 🚂✨🪶

#throws more low effort drawings at u #these actually have a little more effort but i digress #these guys take the best care of their pokemon you cant tell me otherwise #pokemon #sunnfish #sunnfish.pdf #sketchbook #submas #archeops #excadrill #ingo #emmet #ingo and emmet #subway masters #subway bosses #gen 5 #April 2022

[mobius-m-mobius]

#growth™ (insp)

#lokius #mobius #loki #mcuedit #marveledit #lokiedit #managed to focus on something besides their hug for a sec and !! #when you take in how understandably closed off loki was #the stance and set of mouth especially #and see how that's melted into such open and trusting body language around mobius 🥺🥺 #genuinely insane for the way their eyes reflect everything they've been through together oml... #(also slightly so for attempting to match the coloring of the tva elevator my detested and the void but i digress lol) #owen wilson #tom hiddleston #marvel #owenwilsonedit #dianagifs

[boobchuy]

hi yes hello i have a lot of feelings about this family

#amphibia #anne boonchuy #mr. boonchuy #*grabs matt by the shoulders* WHAT ARE HER PARENTS NAMES. #n-e-ways #apologies if this makes no sense #i tried. believe me. #this is a Bit awkward for me bc i #dont have a good relationship w my dad really #but i digress #i love them so much ;-; <3 #arting

[repmet]

The Pendragon Sword Twirl™

#bbc merlin #uther pendragon #arthur pendragon #morgana pendragon #merlinedit #bbcm #theyre all so dramatic #arthur should have beat and killed uther in that tournament tbh #but i digress

[aurosoul]

I feel like I’m at the stage where I need to start advertising this more but I have a webcomic!!!

it’s about cetacean sapience - the idea that dolphins and whales have the capacity for conscious thought and language. the link above goes to Webtoons, but you can also read it on Tumblr and on DeviantArt!

(3D model and animation by The7thSea)

ps: reblogs appreciated to spread the word!! 🐬💙

#dolphins #cetaceans #dolphin #cetacean #whale #whales #animal comic #webcomic #webtoon #comic #'dolphins and whales' is somewhat of a misnomer because all dolphins are in the order of toothed whales #meaning all dolphins ARE whales but i digress #sunderverse #anyways i still struggle with getting over the anxiety of self promotion #but i'm really trying to kick it in the butt here because i've let anxiety hold me back for too long!!! #i'm learning the importance of being a fan of your own work as a content creator #because being proud of your work is the first step towards getting others excited about it too!! #anyways check out sunder!! it's got dolphins! it's got WEIRD SCIENCE!! it's got a scientist lady with big glasses and a gray hair streak!!! #basically all the essentials for a balanced breakfast

[queenrisa14]

I’M SORRY???

IS THAT THE UGLY GREEN JACKET IN CRYSTAL FORM?!?

#and the ugly green jacket rises again #it's almost green #I'll take it #crystal you are HITTING ME IN THE FEELS #you know it's serious when they break out the fan favorite ugly green jacket #well fan favorite laughing stock of the whole fandom really but I digress #sailor moon cosmos #sailor moon #stars arc #the stars arc is coming #my feels are hitting

[palipunk]

Religion does play a part in what’s happening in occupied Palestine, but we can be aware of this without framing what’s happening as a “religious conflict” - its an issue of settler colonialism and ethnic cleansing - its not a Islam vs Judaism issue, this type of rhetoric erases the very real experiences of Palestinian Christians, Palestinian Jews, and Palestinians of other minorities, religious or not.

#as a Palestinian muslim this makes me very annoyed #i think islamophobia specifically would’ve worked better but I digress #it’s 2022 and people still talk as if the problem is religion and we should ‘all get along’ #saif talks #palestine #free palestine

[skellizo]

Dude not people turning against Marc because of this ep like my dudes…

This man is under high fucking stress like

not only is his wife back and now her lifes on the line again,

his big enemy is now a step closer to resurrecting Ammit, an egyptian goddess,

if he doesn’t fulfill Khonshus wishes, his wife is gonna be the next avatar and we don’t know if you have to be killed and resurrected for that to happen

and he had to watch from the sidelines how Steven almost got them killed and has put the whole operation/mission at risk

Mans allowed to be a bit on edge wouldn’t you think…?

#moon knight #it’s also a bit hard to compare all the problems Marcs having with smth in real life like… #but I digress #anyway tl;dr please give my man Marc a break he is dealing with QUITE a lot right now #moon knight spoilers #moonknight #marc spector #mcu

[happy-xy]

gentlemen???

#ohmnanon #Nanon Korapat #Ohm Pawat #ohm x nanon #bad buddy the series #he just...opened his mouth...like a reflex #.... #and ohm totally knew what he was feeling #how he put his fingers in his mouth as soon as nanon opened his mouth??? #but i digress

[meggo-my-eggo]

A short bob would look so cute on Marinette

#my art #Adrien thinks it's a funny coincidence ladybug and Marinette got haircuts at the same time #cat noir adores the hair #ALSO I KNOW ANIMATION IS A PAIN BUT PLEASE GIVE THIS GIRL A BETTER OUTFIT #SHES SUPPOSED TO BE AN ASPIRING FASHION DESIGNER #Everybody's outfits in this show pain me but I digress #miraculous ladybug #marinette dupain cheng #marinette fanart #ml ladybug