#does this post have any reason to exist?

[theforestknowsmydreams]

so i started testogel today, and i noticed something:

online listings, the paper inside the package listing how to use it, side effects, etc...

none of it mentions trans people at all!

i didn't expect it to use super inclusive language or anything, but i didn't think it would so incredibly cis men focused?

like. it says explicitly that you shouldn't get any on your genitals - which makes sense. but then it goes ahead and clarifies it means penis and balls?

it also says "this product is for men only, pregnant women should avoid contact (...)" etc etc. but completely ignores any other reason someone using testogel might have questions about it and pregnancy

i get why they might not see a reason to word it differently. but it still is medicine, and one that heavily impacts you to boot.

it shouldn't be so hard for me as a patient to figure out those things. what if i was in a situation where i couldn't ask other trans people or even the internet?

#does this post have any reason to exist? #not really #just something i was thinking about #the forest speaks #hrt #testogel

[sergle]

When ppl will create a "curvy" girl character and get pretty much the whole body's proportions right, obviously they're putting emphasis on bust/hips but it seems like it's being executed well--- except that they completely, fully, and deliberately, skip the stomach entirely. Just nothin there. Not even a whisper. I'm like. Just sack up, make it make sense and be honest with yourself by making it official and say it's canon that they got a tummy tuck. You cowardly ass, yellow bellied, wet brained, upside-down dog mouthed dirty bitch.

#it'll look so uncanny bc it'll be like oh this more or less looks like it could be a body type I've seen on a real pers--- oh wait #you TOTALLY flattened the stomach for like no goddamn reason and you still want points for making her curvy. pass. #if ppl clown on this post I will not hesitate to turn off rbs and call a bomb threat to your house #sergle.txt #do you know what I mean though. like actually #you want EVERY aspect of a body type that does in fact. exist. very commonly actually. in the proportions you want #you want it all but you are so allergic to ANY substance on the stomach. so what now. #anything but the stomach. literally impossible to draw apparently #I'll be like ah maybe it's obscured with the clothing or pose but I see other art and I'm like oh no nvm it's on purpy. #''why does it have to be a plausible body type'' why put in any effort at all. why draw. why depict women ever. why wake up in the morning #nut up or shut up.

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

wondering about Frank and insects but specifically about how it looks like the WH insects are highly stylized, so does Frank even know anything about real butteflies/insects?

& if he saw a real one, would he recognize it? are all of the species names he applies to the WH bugs real, or are they all made up like "Vibrant Eyespot" or "Fluttering Heartwing"?

and then there's the question - does the neighborhood have some of the more 'undesirable' bugs like moths, worms, roaches, spiders? does it have bugs outside of the generic groups of beetles and butterflies? like are there mantids? leafbugs? dragonflies? weevils? or are those too specific/complex/not-cute for the Playfellow Workshop to have included?

and then there's the question of what are the bugs? props? puppets? are they alive or do the neighbors just perceive them as such? Do they even exist outside of art, storybooks, and animated segments? I highly doubt they're alive like the neighbors are, since in the gif of Frank's head spinning, the framed butterflies' wings are moving. which is kind of horrifying if you think about it for more than a second.

just... the critters Frank loves so so so much being a complete fabrication... every piece of knowledge he prides himself on / delights in knowing being utterly Untrue... oof

#by not-cute i mean that most bugs dont sell well as marketable plushies #cute butterflies? round adorable beetles? those fit right in with a vibrant puppet-y world #so it'd make sense if those are the only two bug groups that exist #along with like. caterpillars of course. i can also see bees being a probable candidate for Existing In The World #AGHHHHH THIS HAS BEEN EATING AT ME FOR DAYS NOW #been questioning how the neighbors' consciousness and awareness manifests as well #might make a different post on that since this one has a Topic and id like to Stay On It for once #well. its related. but that deserves its own Pondering #welcome home speculation #i dont know what else to tag this as! #absolutely unprompted #ALSO ALSO are there any animals outside of insects? #does the neighborhood have birdsong but no birds? if one listens real hard to it will they notice it looping? #do they have squirrels? critters in general? is that why wally doesnt know what a rat is? he'd have no reason to. #in his world they simply don't exist. #anyway but i wonder how frank would react to seeing a real butterfly (& insects in general) #the WH ones are gigantic in comparison and overly-colorful and friendly & cutesy #wouldnt it be painful if he was scared of them. if they look too alien. would it be the spongebob butterfly episode all over again #many many thoughts tonight.... #but also.... #what if he tried to frame a real one. expecting it to be Fine and Alive when he pins it bc they always have been #theyve always been perfectly happy fluttering in their frames #but a real one would fucking die. so. yikes #traumatic core memory unlocked! frank frankly has discovered Death

[majorshatterandhare]

Them : “There’s no platonic explanation for Tim blowing up the moon when Bertie died.”

Me, a borderline aroace thinking about QPRs and FPs and idolization and the white hot rage felt when someone hurts my closest friend : “Y’all are cowards.”

#im not *against* shipping them. i dont really care. bertie is a prop to me. #what i *am* against is claiming it cant be platonic because of tims reaction #im not sure any of you who say this kind of thing know what its like to have explosive uncontrollable anger #or friends. like jeez guys. #and you might be thinking that no ones actually said that. considering how qpr happy this fandom is *but i have seen it* #*im not against shipping them romantically/sexually. in fact i think i view most ships as qprs/alterous. just because i genuinely dont- #understand romantic attraction. its when you say it cant be platonic citing something that in no way supports your point. #the mechanisms #gunpowder tim #bertie #gptvtmk #i think a lot of users forget the chat font exists. i very rarely see it. #<- i said that and then immediately saw a blazed chat post… #for some reason the chat font does not increase in size when you increase the text size in your phones settings. as at least the plain text- #does for me.

[spider-man-2o99]

“why are you always only ever talking about, like, spider-man 2099’s childhood and mental health issues instead of posting panels of him Biting People” uh. because... spider-man 2099 the comic book... also does this.?

#talking tag #spider-man 2099 #spiderman 2099 #miguel o'hara #xina kwan #marvel #comics #comic panels #i earnestly am not trying 2 gatekeep here lol i Desperately Want people to read spider-man 2099 and ALSO Like The Thing I Really Really Like #but. (deeply bitter) The Internet Does As The Internet Is i guess. #plus i Already Have posted every single panel of him Biting People that currently exists. and then ppl left viscerally uncomfortable tags. #..well. Viscerally Uncomfortable for Me. obv the people Leaving those additions seemed pleased as punch to publicly puke em onto my lap. #urgh woof i Know it's a Bad Idea 2 bring attention 2 it bcuz this specific breed of Pest thrives on Attention but like. i am so Tired #like one of those panels was an instance of the main character rebuffing an attempted assault Put Your Pants On And Quit Moaning. Christ. #this is My Personal Blog. i post abt this comic because im autistic and it's been my special interest for going on like 10yrs. #if i decide i want to Stop Posting about it then i will just Stop Posting About It. and i will tell people Why if it is for any reason. #but i just. /jesus/ yall. go be intolerably Straight somewhere else. my house isnt the place for that i just Block Creeps.

[martyrbat]

[ID: an uncoloured drawing for a panel next to the publicized version. They're both from the comic Batman: Legends of the Dark Knight #194. In them, Batman is shown from the waist up. He's looking at Jim Gordon, who's off panel, with a penitent expression after being accused of something he secretly did do. He has his palm pressed against his chest and is blocking the bat emblem as his other hand is clasped ontop of it. In the initial drawing, there's a halo floating above his head as well as several tiny hearts mixed in with the lights that surround him. In the publicized panel, the hearts and halo has been removed and two speech bubbles have been added. He's in front of a terra rose background and is starting to say, “Jim, I don't even know what you're...” But Jim cuts him off, saying, “Stop it. I'm tired of this.”

The third photo is a description of the drawing from the artist's (Seth Fisher) website. It reads: This is another page that the DC editors changed: no halos or hearts around Batman, no matter how (disingenuously) contrite he is. In the final edition, the halo and heart in the center bottom frame have been excised.]

#happy sad boy sunday !!! #this counts because he's getting broken up with and because im sad bc they removed the halo and hearts #included the link to the website on the word too :3 in case any of u wanted to see his unpublished work too #deleting a big ol rant that no one cares about but basically: #hate seeing how much creativity and personality gets edited and removed despite it being the artist's job & how you have rememberable #and remarkable art. i get the editors got an important job but at the same time at what point do you allow art and personality to exist #just to make comics more fun to read/look at instead of basing everything on a capitalistic stoic reputation that #youre responsible for creating?? turning batman into a symbol of unwavering compassion and empathy and the reminder theres always stars #even on the darkest night if you remember to look up. him going from being a symbol of hope and humanity to being a character #that cant fucking have a heart or visual compassion out of fear they cant market him more or ruin that fragile reputation. #they make editing decisions based on it as a product instead of it as a character/story or an artform and god does it show. #happy sad boy sunday bc shutting down artistic freedom and expressionism for capitalistic reasonings is making me want to shoot myself 🥰🥰 #c: batman: legends of the dark knight | i: 194 #crypt's panels #batman #posts from the crypt

[suffarustuffaru]

Just wanted to say thank you for the ottosuba posting you've done lately. The English speaking fandom is absolutely barren with Otto content, let alone ottosuba content. So to have someone as awesome about it as you post via Tumblr posts, fanfic, fanart, etc. on a good(-ish) website like Tumblr is like finding a diamond in the rough. Anyhow, looking forward to any future ottosuba content from you!

(｡･ω･｡)ﾉ♡

anon you made my day fr these are very high compliments T^T <3 i appreciate it a lot pfft a part of me is always like "I CANT REVEAL HOW MUCH MY BRAIN IS ROTTING OVER THESE CHARACTERS..." bc i get a little embarassed a little shy bc what if i am posting the same things too much...??? but then i simultaneously go "lol my blog my rules anyway im gonna make a gazillion billion content *clicks post*" which is how all the otto and ottosuba content gets churned out alsdflj. especially bc - like you said - the english speaking fandom is a BARREN DESERT when it comes to otto and ottosuba content T^TT ive been thinking about it lately bc they seem to be a lot more popular in the japanese speaking fandom i think, but theres next to Nothing with the english speaking fandom :o interesting difference there.

but regardless :o yeah i keep making otto and ottosuba content bc i am in Desperate need of it... its a desert and i gotta feed myself too HAH theyve always been interesting to me but in the years ive been into rezero that Interest has skyrocketed bc of all the interesting developments pfft (and also the lack of english fancontent for them HAH). i just think theyre so underrated in the english fandom.... thank you for liking my stuff anon <3 :DD

#ask #also you made me remember that ive been otto(suba) posting in like so many mediums lajdfljsl #i ended up sneaking a bit of meta into these tags oops aljsdfljsf but. #also i just think otto and ottosubas feralness is super interesting and my taste in characters totally isnt predictable (i say this as a p #five shuake fan also. cries.) but also like. people in the english speaking side of the fandom dismiss otto a lot which is interesting to m #like its u know that typical fandom tendency to sometimes only see characters for how they look on the surface. and its also interesting b #ive also been seeing a few people like. almost kind of miss how toxic ottos being in arc 8??? and also ottos general. subaru obsession #things yeah. like why do people miss this stuff??? he literally says his reason for being / existence is to oppose subaru??? what sane #person does that lajdslfjsldfj what sane person is so ride or die theyd rather leave a whole country + their bffs daughter figure to die?? #what sane person manipulates all their friends in order to save them??? understandable motive but literally insane lajsdlfjsld #yeah so anyway im super curious on why english vs japanese fandom have different attitudes towards otto and ottosuba HAH #being an emilia otto AND astrea fan is so weird bc people are so kind with the astreas usually and then being an emilia fan means suffering #through all the sexism and then being an otto fan is just going “YOU GUYS WERE FOOLED BY HIS SOFT BOY AESTHETICS???” and begging people to #remember that he cares about subaru. but that goes for many emilia camp members treatment in fanon. #and also yeah being a fan of almost any character in this fandom is suffering i think alsjdfljsd #granted i was also fooled by the soft boy aesthetics but that was way back when okay. i know now. hes my silly fucked up little guy now HAH

[is-the-owl-video-cute]

also its really fucking telling that you think lesbian = terf. trans men and cis men cannot be lesbians. lesbians do not and cannot fuck cis/trans men. really insane that y’all see anything about lesbianism excluding men and automatically think it’s about.. women? i don’t know why y’all are so fucking obsessed with weaseling your way into a sexuality and gender identity that is exclusive of men, it’s almost like you hate it when ppl want to be away from them. lol

Oh it’s the TERF again lol.

I don’t associate lesbians with TERFs, but responding to someone mentioning trans issues with essentially “god forbid lesbians have anything” is the most obvious TERF calling card you could leave because we weren’t even talking about lesbians.

#Also you don’t know my gender or sexuality #and I’m not going to reveal it #but it would be very funny to come out as lesbian from this post #it’s just honestly fascinating that you assume I’m not lol #and anon I have never tried to ‘weasel’ into any identity or whatever no one actually does that #be normal and log off for a few hours a day and go outside #This weird obsession you have with a nebulous bogeyman trying to sneak into lesbian spaces for an unspecified reason #isn’t actually something that exists in real life #no one is doing that #drink some water #eat a food #because your takeaway from any of this being that I’m a big Man Fan is really funny sorry #I mock cishet men almost daily #it’s my favorite hobby #I would love to put them all on a little island far away from normal people #so the assumption I’m mad at lesbians for not liking men #peak comedy #lol #lmao even

[endworldbroadcast]

I wish I had a job cleaning up dead bodies because it feels like the only job I might fidn tolerable long-term. No need to do much thinking, minimal socialising and I'm not spooked by dead bodies so it wouldn't weight down on me.

#I'm doing this thing again where I'm posting but I can't get myself to look at the dash #I'm really antsy over other people #I always am but more than usual #I feel like even though my circumstances are better now than before #I feel worse than I've ever been #I can neither move on from the few relationships I botched and the lack of 'subtitute' worsens things #I just feel a different form of suicidal #Neither antsy and impulsive nor passive in the background #It feels like an active looming suicidality but one of resignation #A verh definite feeling of wanting to give up because nothing's going to improve #I cannot make the people I look up to even recognise I exist #And I have nothing going on for myself in isolaion #I just can't think of a reason to live and nobody's giving me any or answering my questions and pleas #It's like my frantic resentment is just a small sort of gloominess #One where it's difficult to resist the impulse for dying because it makes no meaningful difference #My life isn't valuable to the people I like so it's evident it makes no difference when I die #I've become too weak to sustain myself so I'm dependent on people who ignore me no matter how directly I try to ask for them to help #And I feel sick that I still feel like people think my problem is just that I'm too stubborn to 'ask for help' #As if there's anything subtle about how I feel and what I want #It may simply be pointless to ask and I disappoint myself by holding hope for anything #What a loathsome existence... years of effort to find I have never done anything meaningful or good is haunting me forever #At the very least I would die with a little more contentment if I could feel like my existence and actions were valuable #Not in the half-hearted 'everyone is intrinsically valuable' way #I want merit for something I chose to put effort in #Not because I want 'merit' alone but because I want the choice itself to matter #Because it just feels too much like it doesn't matter what I choose because everything I do is pointless and ineffectual #Knowing an action I did had the desired consequence makes me feel like there is still a 'point' to actively choosing and doing and changing #But because nothing comes out of my attempts despite the amount of effort suicide does not merely feel 'simple' #It feels inevitable in the way that the sun must always set at night #It's rare for anybody to be worthless and ineffectual that it's almost astounding

[arcaneyouth]

just for the record, related to the tags of that last post, i am extremely uncomfortable with the concept of people making archives of any of my art that isn't my comic. while i currently have no intentions to do so, if i ever decide i want to destroy my art off the internet, then it is probably because i do not want my art in stranger's hands. i would not ask you to remove my art from your personal files on your computer if it's just some piece of mine you liked cause i don't really care about that, but if i ever remove my art off the face of the earth, if you share it with anyone i'm hunting you down for sport. if you meticulously save every piece of art i have ever made and shared, if you "archive" my art, you need to stop and you need to delete it. my comic is the only exception to the archival rule because it's an entire story that goes together it's basically one big art piece in my head, so it doesn't count for that

#queued post #if the internet hasn't changed so drastically that any blogs n places i dump my art still exist by the time i die then i likely #will be deleting all my art from the internet. (once again my comic does not apply to this) #this is a deeply personal thing to me and a deeply beautiful part of my art for me #if i ever make the choice to destroy my art it is an act of love. and if you try to keep my art alive somehow #you are against every reason i have ever made art for #do not archive my art. do not try to preserve it. #if you do then i do not want my name attached #and you have no say in this #the only exception i can think of is if i literally made the art for you. if i drew your character thats yours go wild #most of this doesnt matter until either i die or my art is removed from the internet and neither of those should happen for a long time #so until then don't worry about it

[hexcitrine]

randomly looked at this account to update my age and holy shit it's been a while since i posted here..........i have a small pile of art i have yet to post but hbhbshdbshbd too lazy

#part of it is that i haven't posted any of my recent art but in addition #i haven't made new art in a WHILE (abt 3 months) which is highly unusual for me but the reason for that is #3 months ago i suddenly remembered that i tried learning mandarin for three (3) days before forgetting about it for 9 months #(amusingly the reason why is not because of danmei......i did not even know danmei existed when i first decided to learn it) #anyways i have been insanely fixated on learning it for the past 3 months #however since art is primarily a way for me to process my interests and that only really be done when i'm fixated on media........well #let's just say i have not been making art at all #that might change soon tho #rn i'm reading 撒野 (saye) in chinese bc it's at a level i can read and i fucking love it so far #idk why i picked a book longer than svsss (which took me a week to read in english)...u would think there's no chance of me finishing it #or even reading it #especially when the only novel i've read before this is a chinese translation of the fucking magic finger by roald dahl LMFAO #but it's been a week and i'm a fifth of the way into it which i was not expecting at all #it was initially an exercise of “i will get as far as i can and try my best to read a chapter a day” but i've been zipping through chapters #last night i was up until 3 AM reading it and i was so tempted to read more but had to stop myself #of course this is all aided by pleco which lets me quickly look up words that i don't know yet. pleco ily #that being said...this all does mean i know words like 收銀台 before i even know the word for “orange” (the color) which is pretty funny #but idk considering that the sum of my time spent learning chinese is just 3 months..........i think i am doing pretty damn good #i thought it would be a LOT longer before i could finally start enjoying some interesting things #god but it really has been a while since i last read a high school romance...but i am quite fond of the leads and their respective baggage #sorry for the whole tag ramble.........i haven't really had anyone to talk abt this stuff with #oh also it's my birthday #that is why i am even here to update my age in the first place #happy lan wangji birthday #actually the only reason i realized it was gonna be my birthday soon is because i saw chinese artists posting lan wangji birthday fanart #and then remembered that we share the same birthday #also re: the art i haven't posted yet.........a good chunk of it is misvil fanart...song qingshi my beloved #and there's also a luo binghe drawn on an art app i PROGRAMMED MYSELF (!!!!!!!!!) in there #actually that piece is the main reason i haven't posted the art i HAVE made. how the fuck do i explain that i drew it on an app that i made #sorry this is genuinely the most off the rails tag ramble i've ever done. okay i'm done

[down-thedrain]

"cesar doesnt have any canon character traits how can he be your favorite" THEY HAVE CHARACTER IN THE MARGINS OF THE STORY-ITIS OKAY. OKAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#posts in a drainage system #i made a post about this ages ago before sol got confirmed for vol 5 but honestly. unless ro comes out of the ordeal still alive #i think the whole thing still stands #without sol the story wouldn't exist. without them mark would be alive. without rose sarah's arc could have never began #without mark dead. thatcher may not have been so compelled to help jude (which gets ruth killed; i.e. thatch's arc would have never becan) #dave would still die i guess? but we would have no reason to care. because he would just be some guy helping thatcher #who we also wouldn't have any reason to care about. hell ae'd probably be the antagonist #letting innocents die in this war ☕ has no way to win. simply stalling aer inevitable demise. #that's why i'm so infinitely excited for ce's and mark's backstory. they are the foundation of every major character's arc and motivation #the story portrayed does not exist without them. and when you put it that way it's kind of insane that we know nothing about them yet yk #anyways i hope cesar's the most toxic motherfucker imaginable with no excuse or justification as to why #and i hope sol dies a horrific onscreen death ❤❤❤❤

[icewindandboringhorror]

Daily Log 4

Trying out (probably just temporarily) making short daily-ish notes about things, in an attempt to see if it helps me be more reflective or productive lol.

Activities: Woke up late because I went back to sleep with a headache briefly, then kind of struggled to focus all day ToT

Worked more on the aforementioned tapestry/painting type of thing. I've done the base layer of painting for the main image, now I'm lining in darker outlines. I wanted to finish the center art before getting into the intricate borders. Still haven't translated the text lol..

Made a small bowl and also a little box with a lid out of more avocado pits. Still just with random nail cuticle tool things and kitchen knives, as I don't have proper carving tools.

Finished editing and proofreading the new poll adventure post!! I don't have time to post it tonight because I need to get to sleep early but.. I have it Completely 100% Ready.. finally..

Also washed the clothes I got together yesterday. Called about the bloodwork. Sent an email to a doctor.

Reviewed some writing documents to get back into my game maybe?? (basically, I started working on a visual novel type game a few years ago, decided it was a huge project so kind of put it on the backburner for a while in favor of things that were more easily finishable/tangible. then later on a game website I play (similar to neopets or something, there are collectable little creatures, etc.) there was an opportunity for me to design a pet on site, so I made a smaller shorter visual novel centered around that, where people on the site have to play the game in order to earn the pet, and I have a google form for them to answer a few short questions about it. All of the feedback is quite positive (reached 200 responses a while ago! though still only like 4 comments on the itch.io page lol.. Mandatory Form vs. Optional Comments evil showdown), but sometimes I get commentary that's really enthusiastic and inspires me to start back working on the OTHER bigger game. The small game was kind of like, a proof of concept that was safe because I had a guaranteed audience, that has helped me gain more insight for the larger one.

Anyway, since I've abandoned the Main Large Game for so long, I have to re-read and review/probably rewrite A LOT of things just to pick it back up again as A Thing I'm Actively Working On, so it's another one of those tasks that I do maybe 45 minutes of and then realize it's going to take days and days and get discouraged lol..

Notable sights: Saw two cats in windows. No clovers. It rained a little today but I didn't get to go outside and see it. One of the pieces of asparagus in the fridge was like the size of a carrot, comically overgrown downright ridiculous looking asparagus. Maybe I'll get taller after eating it.

Goals moving forward: Consistent sleep schedule. Focus on social activities, finding new friends in the places I want to move, communicating with ones I have. Physical therapy exercises. Plant nasturtiums. Finish and upload videos, edit costume pictures & etc.

Notable foods: ASPARAGUS AGAIN BABEY.. yeaAAAAGHHH asparagus squad !!!!!!

#just posting these publicly since it feels more like I'm doing something or easier to hold yourself accountable if you make public #declarations of goals and progress or etc. .. perhaps.. for now.. #I wonder if you can eat too much asparagus. Hopefulyl I don't get sick ghjbj #Still craving lots of savory foods and soups. Also in a big big worldbuilding mood. #Not enough to actually edit the worldbuilding slideshow videos apparently since I've barely done any of that all week #>:Y #(they are different though.. actively writing wolrdbuilding is different from like.. editing recordings of you talking about it #BUT STILL...) #In an ideal world I have a little house in scotland or canada or something and am sitting cozy by a window watching it #rain whilst I eat lasagna and like a huge buffet table of every single hearty food I am having Anemia Cravings for #and my cat is sitting near me and I am furiously sketching various designs for different worldbuilding details. I have finally found #a weird hermit platonic best friend I'm compatible enough to live with and they are up in the attic doing their own weird little hobbies #but every once in a while I can call them down and tell them about an idea so we can bounce concepts off of each other. I somehow walk away #with no heartburn or stomach upset or nausea despite eating 800 plates of craving foods. It's cold and summer #does not exist anymore but not in a Catastrophic For The Earth type of way more in a like.. I am in a magical bubble #that only affects my direct vicinity and sheilds me from the temperature ever getting above 65F #(also I have a comfortable amount of money and good doctors and reasonable health etc. etc. but that's a given in any Ideal Scenario lol) #oughh... I just want to eat hearty breakfast foods and think about elves for 5 hours.. is that so much to ask #Why must... responsibilities... capitalism... limited time and no energy to focus on 100 projects at once... why these things... #ANYWAY #daily log

[obliviousriki]

Night on the Bionis’ Shoulder.

#xcde #xenoblade #had to fucking FIGHT the xc2 lighting engine for these ones #ive definitely talked about this before. the xc2 lighting engine makes everything look like shit at night #what looks okay at night? glowy things #so i sought out glowy things #all things considered i think these turned out pretty good #but at any rate #what happened with gael gar. like what purpose did he serve #the final quest with him was just annoying to be honest like he basically asks melia to come kill him #like i didnt think he even had a reasonable point of view #which could be interesting to investigate from a position of 'he's a fanatic and isn't logical' but it isn't played like that #he just kind of exists #blows up a lab #says some weird unjustifiable shit and then leaves #melia's comebacks were not exactly that good either #anyways im sure theres more analysis to be done about that character but i just dont want to #he does not interest me and neither do his perspectives #which i think is kind of sad because there could have been some really interesting stuff about how the post-zanza world should be run #considering everything that has changed #like who put shulk and co in charge? they are mostly essentially children who grew strong enough to kill god #i feel like they could have done something really interesting with some people reasonably pushing back against the new people in charge #but instead we get 'i dont like the ancestors!' vs 'i like the ancestors!'

[sunniestshark-archive]

totally and completely platonic embrace while you tenderly heal your totally and completely platonic partner's head wound that you're super not worried about at all, no big deal it's fine it's cool (Fleur (pink hair) belongs to @theriversarebroken)

#I don't think there's going to be any rhyme or reason to the art I post on here sorry lmao #this is Fleur (pink hair) and Roshon (white hair) who travel the world together searching for Fleur's sister and they TOTALLY ARENT IN LOVE #they totally don't pine after each other for like 10 years while everyone else thinks they're already married bc of the way they act #nope #super normal bff behavior #Fleur belongs to my gf as does the story they're in! #the covenant that fell #tctf #fleur chevalier #roshon brightrun #digital art #lesbians #wlw #original story #couple art #fantasy #they also exist in my original story ghosttowns #but covenant is where my gf had the brilliant idea of having them kiss

[samwisefamgee]

Every day I grow closer to throwing my phone into the river and when I do I won’t fucking regret it

#i have been. dodging scams all morning #i don’t have any fucking money please just leave me alone #my friendships have been rotten to the fucking core #my mind poisoned #what the fuck is the point in having a smartphone when a fliphone still lets people contact me but doesn’t fucking make my life worse #not that I could afford a flip phone anyway. or service. why would someone want to scam me specifically when I posted my account overdrafted #you can SEE I don’t have money why do you BOTHER #SCAM SOMEONE RICH YOU FUCKIN MORON #alas that the desperate make for such easy targets for the heartless #it’s been so hard to keep going and every day for two months something has happened to convince me it isnt fuckin worth it like its ONLY bad #but god or fate keeps dangling juuuust enough hope in front of me that I keep going. it’s been like that for eight years #and I’ve fallen apart in that time completely. my hair is gone and my teeth will be gone soon too #my bones and joints will follow suit they’re already deformed and weak #the ringing in my ears only gets louder. i haven’t known the familiar peace of silence in years and it’ll only ever get further #and I’ll never afford the medical or psychological care to actually help those things #why bother??? I’ll keep bothering out of spite and stupid foolish hope but I still don’t fucking know why I bother when it never gets better #and it might not! hope is called hope for a reason sometimes shit just doesn’t work out #i could suffer on for abother year or five just to have it all fall apart even more. no payout #hell does exist on earth for some people. if I die and there wasn’t ever joy enough to outweigh everything then my hell was real all along #and I will have been fuckall stupid enough to suffer it for years instead of dying in high school like I planned. or college. or after. #so many times life pushed me to the edge and I crawled back just for things to get worse. every time #and still I hold onto my hope like it’s all that ever mattered. and if life turns out that way maybe it’ll be all that ever did #false ​hopes and a terribly misplaced heart #fate willing we all find peace