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curledupinmyarmchair · 3 months

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tokenwarningsigns · 2 years

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TW: ED RANT

i wish more people talked about the guilt that comes with having an eating disorder.

having to lie to my sweet, lovely boyfriend who thinks i’ve recovered is worse than the starving. if i’m honest with him, i know he’ll convince me to eat.

nobody talks about how much it sucks to have to lie to everyone around you just because you want to be thin, to have control over something in your life.

anyway, just a little rant. i hope all of you are doing well (or as well as you can be on ED tumblr in 2022)

#tw ed vent #a4a #pro a4a #notprojustusingthetags #vent blog #personal vent #ed guilt

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smthing-new · 13 days

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ed tip, if you binge, hold soap in your mouth for a second for every calorie you ate, youll regret it damn fast

also the aftertaste will say in your mouth unless you eat food, so you'll remember for next time

#tw ed but not sheeran #an@rexi@#tw unhealthy eating habits #tw self destructive behavior #unhealthy diet #low cal diet #tw sh related #does this count as sh?#tw disordered eating #tw ed #ed tips #ed guilt #tw ana #i need to be weightless #ana0rex1a #an0rexic

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suffersinfandom · 5 months

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Controversial opinion (?): the Kraken Era wasn’t all that dark.

There’s a whole lot of meta and fic out there that portray early season two Ed as a bloodthirsty, hyperviolent monster, and when that portrayal is challenged, the rebuttal is usually along the lines of, “I’m just doing what canon did. Did you even watch the show?”

I did watch the show, and honestly? I expected Ed to be so much worse than he was! When I see people say they didn’t think Ed did enough to redeem himself or that he went past the point of no return, I just… don’t understand.

I already went into this in my way-too-long meta about Ed and abuse, but I do think it bears repeating (in a shorter post) because it seems like Ed’s actions -- more than the actions of any other character -- are scrutinized and discussed outside of the context of, y’know… a comedy about pirates. There’s tons of casual violence in Our Flag Means Death. Sometimes the violence is even funny!

So what does Ed actually do?

As far as I can remember (I’ve only seen season two a few of times, so correct me if I’ve missed something!), we see Ed directly harm someone twice in the first two episodes: first on the wedding boat, and then when he shoots Izzy in the leg. Kind of unimpressive numbers, yeah? Tbh, I'd expect more out of a heartbroken Blackbeard.

The first instance involves Ed shooting a man during a raid. That man has a sword through his chest before Ed fires, leading me to believe that Ed’s still following his season one pattern of keeping himself a step removed from murder (technically, the sword killed that guy). We also don’t see the murder happen; the man tumbles offscreen before Ed shoots. This makes the action less brutal. If the writers wanted us to be appalled by Ed’s violence, we would’ve gotten a graphic kill (or several).

And the second instance is Izzy. Ed shoots Izzy in the leg after he suggests that the shitty atmosphere is because of Ed’s feelings for Stede. Hot take, maybe, but I don’t think that was entirely out of line -- definitely not for a pirate captain whose first mate is acting out! Ed’s feelings for Stede are not the only problem; a significant chunk of the problem is Izzy. Izzy called in the navy and led to their capture and, more importantly, Izzy bullied Ed back into the Blackbeard persona. This is what Izzy said he wanted.

We’re also told that Ed has taken more of Izzy’s toes between seasons. This isn’t cool -- bosses definitely shouldn’t be asking for their employees’ toes -- but there is a precedent for it: in season one, Ed told Stede that he used to feed people their toes for a laugh (yuck). For a laugh. This, to me, implies that it’s not a huge deal. It’s certainly not completely unexpected pirate behavior, and it seems more lenient than, like, a keelhauling or a whipping. I think both of those things would've felt way more gruesome and dark.

As far as violent actions go, that’s not a lot. Like, numerically.

Things get darker in S2E2 when Ed becomes increasingly desperate for someone, anyone, to send him to doggy heaven. He’s unhinged and working his way up to a murder-suicide before he’s stopped, but he doesn’t lay a hand on anyone. He orders Archie and Jim to fight to the death. He ignores anonymous crewmembers as they’re swept overboard in the storm. This is bad! It’s self-destructive and selfish! But violent? Monstrous? I don’t really think so.

In my opinion, the worst thing Ed does is force his crew to do violence for him -- not because it’s violence (again, they’re pirates), but because the violence hurts them. THIS is what traumatizes them! Their trauma flashbacks are scenes of them hurting others, not of Ed hurting them directly. Ed didn’t physically torture his crew (with the exception of Izzy, and that’s complicated). His crime was driving them to do one violent raid after another, killing and plundering without any joy or theatrics. Ed feels trapped in the role of Blackbeard -- the role that he’s been desperate to escape -- and, in his heartbreak, he opts to trap his crew with him.

Yeah, Ed is messed up in the first two episodes of season two. I don’t blame the crew for almost killing him; it’s what needed to be done. I think that Jim, Archie, Frenchie, and Fang had every right to want Ed gone after Stede’s return.

But I don’t think that Ed was a super violent monster who tortured his crew and murdered his way through his breakup. He engages in very little onscreen violence, and the person that most of his violence is focused on -- Izzy -- is the same person who told him to be violent. I think that anyone who says that Ed’s actions in the first part of season two are extremely dark is either looking at them out of context, misremembering what actually happened and just recalling the dark tone, or working with some kind of motive.

In conclusion: Ed is a man who, at his very darkest, was still operating pretty firmly within the bounds of "stuff pirates do" (but not stuff Ed has historically done, presumably).

Also look at him. Thank you.

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#ofmd #ofmd meta #edward teach #me typing things #idk i just keep seeing this thing?#this 'ed is irredeemable to me personally' thing #and that's fine?#hate characters if you want to?#but i don't think the kraken is all that evil #i mean i guess ed disagrees #hence the guilt and agreeing to humiliation and apologies #my poor mentally ill blorbo

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you-makestedehappy · 7 months

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Line deliveries that play on repeat in my brain.

Season 1, episode 4 - Discomfort in a Married State

🐈‍⬛❤️‍🩹🍆💦🏴‍☠️ [ep 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10]

Bonus :

#i'm on FIRE guys #any time i tell myself “this line isn't going to make the cut” i feel like i'm committing a war crime #trying to appease my guilt by making bonuses yeah #today's runner-ups are :#“Yes - abso... oh you can tell”#“I'm not a fucking mermaid.”#“Useless fuckin' fuckers!”#“Ed! Do you know this guy? He's a complete asshole!”#“Maybe they understand ecclesiastical Latin.”#our flag means death #ofmd #my gifs

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lazylittledragon · 6 months

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what’s the worst mental illness-adjacent take you’ve ever heard someone say because mine is the time someone told me i was fatphobic for having an eating disorder

#ramble #i wish i was making it up #tw ed #as if i didn’t feel enough guilt thank you so much

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babykittenteach · 3 months

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This post (suggestive) came along the dash and I had to use those knee tattoos.

#OFMD #Our Flag Means Death #Ed Teach #Important Notes:#The person who reblogged that was sherlockig but I don't want to guilt them by association in the post esp since I didn't ask.#Used different pose ref and didn't keep any of the model's other tattoos hopefully that's alright #and ikea's got other problems than bits of shark plushie in backgrounds tbh #art i'm proud of

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celluloidbroomcloset · 4 days

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Also props to Ed Teach for spending his time in purgatory relentlessly psychoanalyzing himself in the form of arguments with Monstrous Father 2.0, who at one point tells him that he has daddy issues.

Edward Teach inventing Freudianism as he hovers between life and death.

#ofmd #our flag means death #edward teach #so much of ed's arc is about escaping from the cyclical pattern of parental abuse in which he has been trapped his entire life #the combo of guilt and love and hate is so dang rich #not an accident one of the shots in the montage is izzy pointing a gun at him

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pettyeti · 6 months

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Would that I could sink into the earth, the sand, the sea. Breathe deep my last breath and return home.

#my edits.#etienne.#Some context:#Eti d*ed once. Mama H plucked him from the Lifestream right before he was about to dissolve.#While he's not technically undead there's a general sense of “wrongness” he constantly feels within his body/soul.#On top of the survivor's guilt. It's agonizing for him to be alive until shb.#Once ew is over and he gets closure with Mama H and his clan he is in a much better spot mentally/emotionally.

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ourflagmeansgayrights · 2 years

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ok but speaking from experience as someone who's had first kisses w a crush. y'all KNOW ed was getting his plan in place thinking abt that kiss the whole time, playing over every tiny detail while he robbed a guy for a dinghy. motherfucker probably got all fluttery and giggly thinking abt the little noise stede made. probably couldn't stop smiling when he thought abt the way stede's jaw fit perfectly in his hand. probably sat down to take a minute when he remembered how stede's eyes took a moment to flutter back open. probably got DIZZY thinking abt stede's crooked smile and the way he'd whispered, "you make stede happy"

rolling up to the dock with his bag of stuff already planning how he's gonna kiss stede again, kiss him properly, as soon as they're safely away. maybe thinking he won't be able to wait, that he'll kiss him again as soon as he sees him because his heart literally feels like it's going to burst out of his chest he's so, so happy

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thepeacefulgarden · 1 year

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#fuck diet culture #give yourself permission #joyful eating #intuitive eating #self care #self compassion #ed recovery #healing #recovery #no shame #no guilt

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saltpepperbeard · 2 years

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There’s something so domestic and sweet about Ed asking Stede if he needs his clothes folded while they’re captive. Just the gentleness to his voice, barely above a whisper, asking, “Do you need anything folded? Your shirt? Your socks?”

It just seems like a glimpse of all the love and care to come.