#feeling positive

[goblingirlpicnic]

I’m sorry i know i just posted about the coat but I’m so in love with it.

#my friends confirmed the Dana Scully vibes #my bangs a lil goofy #do I look professional?? #trans girl #trans #selfie #feeling positive #new coat goofin #kinda silly but I’m just hyped #makes me feel good #trans femme #queer #lesbian #femme

[filet-o-feelings]

you know what? I’m an absolute delight and fucking adorable and I love me

#feeling positive #I’m excited about my rainbow pill organizer because I’m queer and nerdy and aging 😁 #and for some reason that made me feel cute? #gotta document this moment of self confidence #also I think you are all delightful and adorable and I love you 😘

[yellowgnomeboots]

Been having a bizzarely turbulent few weeks mental health wise but feel I'm back to normal ("normal") today. Feels so weird!

It's like when you have a stuffy cold and then you get better and you're like, wow breathing through my nose is just the bomb I forgot what this was like.

Today I'm like, wow internal stability is so great. And in a couple of days I won't even appreciate it anymore but today I'm so appreciative.

#gnome post #feeling positive #health stuff

[soniabigcheese]

Today's update

A bit of brighter news for you

After some brainstorming with Occupational Health, we figured out the problem with the top of the stairs/our tiny little landing.

It was suggested that it should be a wall mounted platform that could be folded up. Then another idea to have chocks of wood fixed to the landing itself.

After some thought, the better option would be to have a sturdy, removable platform built with the chocks of wood fixed underneath.

That way, I could remove it when not in use, so that I could manage the stairs/stairlift.

I've asked our neighbour if he knew someone, he would sort it out next week, bless him.

The front door is too narrow for hubby's wheelchair, so there's an order for one that is a couple of inches narrower. Or he would get stuck.

I'm making progress with moving stuff around and packing away almost everything. The carpet is being removed, strips at a time, that way it is more manageable. Paintwork, like the skirting boards and fire surround will be painted by myself. As those are at a safer height.

Just need to pick up the wallpaper, paste and contact a decorator.

Once that is done, and paint dry, carpet will be fitted. And stuff moved back/rearranged.

Will be posting before and after pics.

Yay

I was considering doing the wallpapering myself but ... yeah, there's a safety issue with me being on my own.

Feeling more upbeat right now. Hopefully there won't be any negative vibes *coughBossycough* that will put the kibosh on things.

#feeling positive

[stop-weighting-for-change]

UPDATE 9

Hi!! So ok wow, it’s been yet again a lot of time passed since I last posted (exactly a year and week to the date of UPDATE 8 lolllllll).

So A LOT of shiettttt has changed so I’ll just begin:

-I kinda moved to new york city and got my dream job. The dream job I was devastated about not getting and posting about this time last year- HOLY SHIT. I always felt like in my heart it was supposed to/going to happen but it hadn’t allllllll the other (5 times) i applied and I told myself when applying the time I got it that it would be my last time bc i just needed to move on and... i got it. HOLY SHIT. -Although it was not as fast as I would have liked for it to have been, I’ve lost 21lbs in the last year- TWENTY ONE. Last June I weighed in at 195 again and as of THIS MORNING I’m 174.5. I NEED to keep it off this time. I WILL keep it off this time. -While i definitely do still suffer from anxiety, body dysmorphia and depression, I overall feel like things will work out this time. THEY WILL. -I miss my family (who live back on the west coast of the usa) more and more and more every single day. But I’m getting through it. The tide has been high but I’ve been holding on. -Diet Coke by Leanna Firestone is my anthem, my church, my everything and I feel v grateful to that song. -I miss my old coworkers bc while I have my dream job at my dream company I realized since being here that a lot of the glamour was built up in my head and it’s HARD to find a group of strangers bound together by work who are supportive and wonderful and funny and genuinely care about you. So when you have that/find that, TREASURE IT! Because it’s temporary. and compared to my last job, the new jabronies I work with aint shieeeeeeeet (:). -Finally I had a stellar 4th of July in The Washington Dictrict of Columbia with two of my favorite people and it was sooooooo needed.

That’s what I have in terms of updates which is pretty major: now looking towards the future!!

I get to see my mom and brother in 13 days and I could cry, i’m so happy. and i get to see them two weekends in a row!!!

AND THEN i’m meeting my family at wdw for a couple days and were gonna ride all the rides including COSMIC REWIND AT EPCOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can’t believe that last time I updated I hadn’t rode that ride yet........ wow what last July me didn’t even know what she was missing. Srsly if you haven’t rode that ride before ur missing out, i’ve never had that kind of serotonin boost before ever in my life.

Finally, I’m attempting to Chloe Ting again and become a runner (pray 4 me).

That’s it for now, but I forgot how good it feels to literally write this shit down even if -14 people read this. IT”S MY JOURNEY AND THIS IS FOR ME :’).

P.S. I need to pick up a library card- I signed up for one in March and haven’t gotten it yet. WHAT’S WRONG WITH ME.

P.P.S. My love life (or last there of) is a disaster but what else is new. At least I’m getting my hair braided for the first time in a few decades and I’m v excited!!!!!

#weightloss #weight loss #weightlossdiary #thinspo #gettingstronger #getting stronger #getting healthier #gettinghealthier #losingweight #losing weight #feeling positive

[downtheschizoaffectiveroad]

Many people throughout my life have said things like “I’ll always be here for you if you need me” or act as they are part of ‘my support’ during my struggles with my inner demons but never truly were or meant it…

As I got older (and a bit wiser) and saw many disappear or eventually leave, I began to realise that to keep surviving and fighting my daily battles that I needed to conquer being able to do it on my own …

I had to sit with myself and find who I was as an individual and how to accept myself and accept my diagnosis to finally begin years and years of healing from the hurting, past trauma and my very messy wiring in my brain.

The past 18 or so months have been the hardest and most challenging months of my life but I’ve made the most growth and progress in myself as well of healing from certain moments in life I never spoke about because I kept it all inside.

Where I am now is the best I’ve been in some aspects of personal strength and growth in my journey and battle of struggling with my inner demons for over 12 + years.

I still have a long way to go but I’m proud of how far I’ve come . It’s a big Mental Health Achievement for me and my long battle/journey !

#mental illness #schizoaffective #mental health #schizoiaffective disorder #personal #posotivevibes #spreading some positivity #feeling positive #personal story #putting your mental health first #inner growth #self help #bit of happiness #bit of everything #spread hope #give hope #spilled thoughts #feelings #spilled emotions #mental health achievement #mental health recovery #mental health support

[theimprobabledreamersworld]

Long post incoming, but I'm super happy right now!

Sooo I've been at Comic Con London this weekend and it was amazing!! 😄

I got to meet Michael Sheen; got both a photo and autograph with him! He made me laugh during the photo op and was such a nice guy to chat to!

I got to meet people that I never thought I would be able to meet, and it was so amazing to see people dressed up in their outfits! 😊 Spent so much money on buying stuff but never mind 😂

I also cosplayed; mainly as Chloe Price from Life is Strange and Kiki from Kiki's Delivery Service... And people liked it! I definitely loved it... This whole weekend just made me realise something, I've definitely changed as a person 💙

The me of last year wouldn't have dreamt of going to such a huge convention full of that many people, the me of last year certainly wouldn't have signed up to meet a celebrity and chat with them.

The me of last year would have hated how she looked so much that she wouldn't have dared to try cosplay because she would immediately assume that people would judge her... For the first time in forever, I actually liked how I looked and I enjoyed cosplaying... Maybe a new hobby? 😉 People even asked for pictures with me which was so unexpected...

Who knew that three days would show me just how far I've come 😊💛

For those of you who made it this far... Here's a sneak peak of what I looked like today in my cosplay 😄

#dreamer talks #not ts related #london comic con #cosplay attempt #feeling positive #happy vibes

[bluebird-mccord]

❗️❕Possible Trigger Warning ❕❗️

Just cause I know what some people are like!

On this day 3 years ago, I self harmed for the last time! It’s not something I’m ashamed to talk about - it’s really hard to fight those urges. But I look at my girl and I know that she doesn’t need to see me all cut up and wonder why I’m injured! She’s old enough to realise!

My mental health is still in a place where I don’t want it to be, the depression and anxiety is pretty crippling and I’ll put ALL my energy into leaving the house only to be exhausted later!

I go to work on the weekends and no one realises just what goes through my head because I am so jovial, most of the time I don’t remember who I’ve spoken to - and CoVid did not help the anxiety side!

I’m working through it, I’ve got a brilliant psychologist and we focus on what can help me during an anxiety attack! My most recent one being while I was in hospital - my head hasn’t fully understood that stay and the treatment given! Everyone’s experience is different!

This just happens to be mine!

But I’m happy with 3 years down! And so many more to go!

Me with my girl 🥰🧡❤️

#mental health #My Journey #trigger warning #anxiety #depression #self harm #feeling positive

[bookwormiam]

Every day is a new chance to live your life with joy 😊

#me #feeling positive #positivity #happy #yayyy #vibes #book blog #positivity blog #good vibes #day #new #a new day #life is good #joy #my words #thoughts

[monochromekitten]

I knew I had fucked up relationships before but I never really knew how much I’ve mentally healed over the past 10 years until just recently when talking to my husband about our fitness and body goals. I openly talked about how I want to be slim and muscular with a smaller butt and smaller boobs. That I want a more masculine physique and to look hot in a suit. He was totally supportive and mentioned his goals and that he wants us both to get to our goals and to go out in well tailored suits together.

I’ve never had that before. I’ve only been around people and been in relationships with guys who’ve made me be feminine. Even had a boyfriend who forbid me from cutting my hair.

#taking a break from monster fuckery #feeling positive #positive relationship #mental healing

[bonglife420]

It feels so nice going to bed in a good mood ☺️

#feeling positive

[fade-and-loathing-in-thedas]

psssst just wanted to let you know that I love your writing and your OCs and I hope you have a lovely day 💞

💕💕💕 omg thank you!!!! I will be having the best day. Like seriously, best day ever. All thanks to your beautiful message!!

#answers #feeling positive #thank you so much for this

[yourlocalarchivistkinnie]

i think it’s so neat that it’s ace week and me and my partner and two of my closest friends are all on the asexual spectrum. how cool! 

#feeling positive #:) #ace week

[hotteaandhistory]

#dreams #finding myself #musical theater #getting back on the horse #body positive broadway #inclusion #back to my roots #feeling positive #singer #authencity #authentic self #encouragement welcome

[stop-weighting-for-change]

UPDATE 8

Wow! So it’s been almost 2 years (like literally almost to the day) since I posted "Update 1″, and boy oh boy did a lot of shit happen.

- I went back to work - I never got that internship that woulda changed my life (oh well) - I’ve gotten to travel way more than I woulda thought possible 2 years ago (not the traveling itself, I love to travel and have access/ability to but moreso in terms of the pandemic/state of the world) - I still don’t have a great grasp on my depression. I know I have it. I know. And its definitely a rollercoaster but shit triggers me and idk what to do ya know? I end up feeling like a zombie. - I almost got my dream job. But didn’t. When I say dream job, I mean I have literally been dreaming about it since I was 12 or 13 years old. I reapplied when a reopening was posted but I think I’m just not meant to be. Like that scene in La La Land (god I love La La Land, like its my favorite movie of all time kinda love) when Mia is explaining that maybe her dreams will never pan out bc maybe shes not good enough? Or maybe she’s just one of those (many) people who has always wanted something but its just a pipe dream that needs to be moved on from. Its not like thats what I want, but its whats realistic and you cant be disappointed if your expectation is disappointment, ya know? - My sister moved out and I’m really happy for her but things seem to be happening for her and other people and it feels like everyone around me and I’m just stuck??? I’m not sure theres a better way for me to explain it other than that. Its no ones fault, but everyday of my adult like theres this slight, nagging feeling that my life is simply one long series of unfortunate events. And yes, good things are woven in and its not like everyday is some big, unbearable catastrophe but some days definitely are. I really don’t know how else to explain it. I think its beyond depression. I’d never hurt myself or someone else but I had this shit realization the other day that I don’t remember the last time I was like really, truly, unbelievably happy (not just with one thing, or day, or event) but like GENUINELY happy in life. And I don’t know that I ever will be again. Idk I sound so shitty rn. - I hate my job but love the people. I also have no other options in life it feels like. WHAT DO I DO?!

Anyways the absolute lunacy of the bullets above, I’m trying to move on in/through life as well as possible. And I wanna become better. In all facets. I gained a lot weight back. Which makes me angry and disappointed. My highest ever was 197 and the other day I was 195 again. Again. Can you believe that shit? My family while I love them are bad influences and have been for a really, really long time. I feel like I just give in bc 1) their expectation is that I’m fat and thats never gonna change so who are you kidding and 2) were all doing it (eating and being fat) so who cares? and 3) its like they think im judging them or being unfair to them when I wanna better myself. Idk. Its not intentionally malicious but the consequences feel dire.

SO ANYWAYS!!!!!!!! God I need to learn to shut up. I’ve lost 3lbs in the last week and back to 192. Slowly making progress but FOR REAL THIS TIME. And I know I said that last time, but circumstances are different and theres no more excuses.

On that note I’m gonna go to Safeway rn and go buy some fruit bc I’m hungry and if I wanna eat thats what I’m gonna let myself eat. I know I shouldnt starve but also eating like a piggly wiggly has so far gotten me no where.

I’m gonna end this here. This is therapeutic for reezie and I feel better just reflecting on this insane rambly episode I’ve just had. Yall pray for me for reezie and I shall be doing the same. LETS STOP WEIGHTING FOR CHANGE YALL!

P.S. My cat keeps walking across my chest and around the room yapping to be let out but I don’t get why he doesn’t get that I love him too much and I wanna be around him 24/7 bc he makes me feel better. But also he’s a cat and a dummy at that so I guess I should be happy he spends any time indulging me at all.

P.P.S. I, like the rest of the world, am in the middle of a Stranger Things Binge and volume 2 of ST4 was released today. V1 was released at the end of May but I waited til now to watch bc I wanted to rewatch and I wanted to be able watch all of ST4 at once and not have to wait which was deff the right call. I started V1 yesterday and finished it this morning and am now on ep 8 of 9 and idk WHAT I woulda done if I woulda had to wait a month to continue, like fuckkkkk that lmao. But anywho I’m gonna continue but I want some fruit to have so I’m gonna finish the other half of ep 8 and then ep 9 when I get back from the store (also holy shit ep 9 is apparently 150 mins???? thats 2 and 1/2 hours thats a fucking movie bro!!!!) but yeah. I’m lowkey stressed to finish it though bc 1) i lowkey dont like this whole steve/nancy plot. I know a lot of ppl do but I really like her w jonathan so yeah. and 2) I’m scared Eddie will die. He’s a really great character and I think hes really cute and its not fair that the worst has been assumed of him. I relate to that. I know some major character is expected to die in these final two eps and I really hope its not him, but also I really hope they were just lying to us bc I literally dont want anyone to die. I mean mike is prob my least fav but still i love mike and dont want him to die. also theres no way in hell theyd ever kill off finn wolfhard so thats an unrealistic expectation anyway. So heres to eddie, steve, and all those mfers bc I really do love this show and these crazy ass characters. But most of all, to my fav character, erica. BC YA CAN’T SPELL AMERICA WITHOUT ERICA BITCHHHH.

#weightloss #weight loss #weightlossdiary #thinspo #gettingstronger #getting stronger #getting healthier #gettinghealthier #losingweight #losing weight #feeling positive

[their-we-go]

#a reminder #my art #id in alt text #feel good #art #comic #positivity