#god i missed your asks

[goodpvppy]

Rubbing my sweaty bulge on your face to wake you up...

please, please please… i will be so good for you, your perfect toy my dear owner, i will be ready to be used whenever you need me darling ♥︎ please, make sure everyone knows you own me by marking your scent on me. let me drink you and kiss your bulge?

#thank you thank you #my owner 💚 #god i missed your asks #ask your puppy #anonymous #ftm nsft #pet pl@y #puppy sub #dumb puppy #pet pl4y #p3t play #puppy barks #mlm kink #mlm puppy #trans puppy #nsft asks

[vigilskeep]

a quick guide to dog lords, telling your arls from your teyrns, and generally how ferelden works

okay, this isn't quite what anon asked for, by which i mean not at all, but unfortunately they activated my interest in some of my favourite lore. it should hopefully contain a lot of the relevant stuff and i’ll try to branch out to less fereldan specific information in other posts!

okay, let’s start with the hierarchy. there’s four kinds of noble in ferelden

royalty: you know who these guys are. except for during the orlesian occupation, ever since ferelden became one kingdom, it’s been ruled by the theirin family. which i think is for 388 years, i really hope that’s right, i got out a calculator

teyrns: these are super powerful lords, basically banns so powerful that other banns swear fealty to them. they’re second only to the king, who is essentially just the most powerful one of them. there used to be a lot of them, but with one dynasty in power for so long, that kind of opposition has been eroded away. there are only two remaining: the couslands of highever in the north, and the mac tirs of gwaren in the south

arls: these are extra special banns. they answer to a teyrn or king and hold a strategic fortress for them. we know of six—amaranthine, south reach, denerim, redcliffe, west hills, and edgehall—but i’m unsure if that’s because they are only six or because there are unnamed others

banns: these are your common or garden noble, the lowest ranking and most common. this is your local lord type. they seem to vary the most in power, though, with some banns having big speaking roles in the landsmeet

but i kind of should have written that list in the opposite direction. what do i mean by that? well, in your standard medieval hierarchy, and in a lot of the rest of thedas, power comes down from the king, who lets you hold the land. but in ferelden, most of the land is owned by freeholders: commoners, well-off enough to own their land but still not by any means nobles.

how does that work? well, let’s say i’m a freeholder.

i own my land, but thedas is a rough place. if i want to keep my land, i’d better swear fealty to a bann. i’ll pay him a portion of the goods produced on my land, and in return, he’ll protect my land from anyone wanting to beat me up and take all my goods... and also, you know, not beat me up himself, as he probably would if i didn’t have any bann looking after me. it kind of sounds like he has all the power, right? like a medieval protection racket? it’s certainly how he gets his power and wealth

so i, freeholder harker, have signed up with bann jeff. it makes sense, because he’s the closest to my freehold, and i want soldiers to actually get here in time if i’m in trouble. that’s why my family has been swearing fealty to his family for generations. it’s just how things are done

but the thing is: i hate bann jeff. maybe he takes too much of my harvests, maybe he sides with a different freeholder when we go to him with a dispute, maybe his men don’t mind their pleases and thank yous when they come for my goods. i’m well within my rights to say fuck bann jeff and leave him. especially if there’s another bann nearby who would be perfectly happy to take my goods instead and treat me right. and the less freeholders bann jeff has, the less resources and men he has to make a fuss about it with. if bann jeff pisses off enough people, he might not have any freeholders left at all. and where will his wealth and power come from then? maybe soon he won’t be a bann at all

of course, bann jeff’s family might feud with the family of the bann that stole me away for a few hundred years. but that’s hardly my problem, is it? “courting” someone else’s vassals is apparently the biggest cause of conflict within the bannorn

anyway, this isn’t just how banns work; it’s how all power theoretically works in ferelden. there are no serfs/“unfree” men. every peasant has a right to go where he will and choose which freeholder he works for, just as every freeholder has the right to choose their bann, and banns who swear to teyrns can break away. (the latter is probably less common because a teyrn could fuck you up. i’m guessing you’d have to get the king’s backing about it to survive that.) and even the king answers to his lessers in the landsmeet, the super ancient gathering of nobles where law is made, which can override the king on any matter of law. (but they’re not going to do it if the king is really popular or powerful, because. you know. there’s a limit to all things called common sense and they would prefer not to get squashed about it.) but generally, everyone who holds power in ferelden has to curry favours with their so-called lessers in order to keep their goodwill.

everywhere else in thedas thinks this is weird as hell, by the way. having to court the approval of those beneath you? even the king having to do that? wtf? but the level of freedom means everything to fereldans. it’s their highest ideal and they’re really proud of it.

(the people who really don’t have a voice are what the ttrpg calls “low freemen”, which according to its handbook, consists of criminals, prostitutes, and elves. they still have the right to freedom of movement and to be paid for their work, but they’re not going to have freeholders and banns seeking their favour and speaking for them, and they typically have to resort to bribery for entrance to cities, their homes are bought and sold by others on a whim, things like that. ultimately it makes their position incredibly vulnerable to abuse, as we see in the games. i’m sure we’ve all played the tabris origin. there’s a reason the potential boon to get a bann for the alienage is so wild.)

so, let’s say you made it, everyone loves and/or tolerates you, and you’re a noble. what good does that do you and what can you do? firstly, you have a voice in the landsmeet, which is super important and means the king wants your goodwill and advice. more generally, you have three basic functions of a noble: raising taxes/tribute, commanding soldiers, and dispensing justice. nobles are expected to live off the wealth provided by their land and it would be hugely looked down on if they did work instead, with exceptions for, like, military careers and the chantry, which are respectable for their status. they raise militia from the commoners when necessary, and they also have trained soldiers or possibly knights (see postscript) in their service. that means you can protect your land and you can win glory and spoils when the kingdom goes to war, it also means you’ll be expected to provide those men when your liegelord calls for them. and lastly the law is their responsibility. remember how in the awakening dlc you had to make judgements as the arl of amaranthine? like that! the smaller scale you are, the smaller scale it’s going to be. in turn, if you want a dispute sorted by a higher power, you have to go up to your liegelord, maybe a teyrn or the king, or if you can’t get one of them, a more powerful bann or arl in the area. possibly the chantry would be an alternate option? if it’s just about finding someone you will both listen to, which is usually the main issue

some privileges other than the standard “power over those beneath you” that you can typically expect to belong to the noble class, even if it’s not specific to dragon age: the right to carry a sword, the right to have a coat of arms, the right to precedence on formal occasions and a special seat up front in your local chantry... sometimes niche ones, like fabrics and clothing that are only permissible to wear for people of a certain rank, so it distinguishes them. you can expect favours from/common class interests with your king, you would expect to be given a trial or treated chivalrously if things did not go your way, depending on era you might be captured for ransom in battle rather than killed outright, you probably have exemptions from certain royal taxation... etc. etc.

that’s what i have! i hope these are some helpful fundamentals and that anyone who has more knowledge than me on any aspect feels welcome to contribute it

P.S. as an aside, i’m a little confused about the fereldan use of knights. they definitely exist as lesser nobility, but i don’t understand how they fit into the hierarchy. a real knight was typically a vassal who held land from his liegelord and fought for him in exchange. i... don’t know how that works in the context of land ownership mostly going upwards. they’re definitely around, anyone addressed as ser is a knight, you have the knights of redcliffe and people like ser jory and ser cauthrien. (someone in an order like the templars has the rank of knight and gets ser and everything, but is not a noble.) as a rule of thumb i think generally they’re probably just members of noble families with that dedicated military training and no greater title to lay claim to? i’m basing that on stuff like nathaniel howe being sent as a squire to his mother’s cousin, a chevalier; if he’d completed that he probably would have been a knight unless/until he inherited his father’s place? i don’t know. i’m making this up. and on the other hand, there’s very little distinction in fereldan between your regular noble and a some kind of warrior class, which is why i struggle to see the purpose. (there are also inexplicable career soldiers who are not knights. what the hell is funding that upkeep and armour, buddy. you and whose land ownership? this is why you were fighting the darkspawn with your whole arms out, aveline. stop trying to imply ferelden has a standing army you can go off and join. yes i see you carver lore. i will not buy it.) ANYWAY, because knights are more prevalent in certain areas, i do wonder if it’s an import from the long orlesian occuption, based on the knightly order of chevaliers? i don’t fucking know. worth chewing on

#dragon age #ferelden #dragon age: origins #sorry to anon for asking specifically what your exact question was #and then going off on one anyway. that is my bad. if anything is not answered here let me know #and to anyone who has noticed the probably obvious things i missed pls be gentle #god this is so fucking long AGSHSJSKKS i thought i was being brief i dodged powerpoint... anyway #i just couldnt get to grips with what a noble can do until you know what different kinds there are and where there power comes from and. #well here we are

[taikanyohou]

"Good job."

TAIKAN YOHOU (2023). Episode 3.

#my personal weatherman #asianlgbtqdramas #asiandramasource #asiandramanet #dailyasiandramas #jdramasource #* #faiza gifs #COME BACK TO MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE :((((((((((((((((((((((((((( #god segasaki's THUMBBBBBBBB. #its so funny bc in their previous fanmeeting someone asked 'do you consciously stroke acchaan with your thumb?' #and he was like oh yeah no its just ... when i find someone or something adorable it just happens AND IT BECAME ... A Thing ... FOR HIM. #ANYWAY I DIGRESS. THE EYELID KISS. MY BELOVEDDDDDDD. #YOH LITERALLLYYYYYY STRAINING HIS NECK UP JUST TO KISS SEGASAKI!!!!!!!! #SEGASAKI DENYING HIM AND SMIRKING JUST TO OH SO SOFTLY KISS HIS EYELID AND STROKE HIS FACE AND TELL HIM HE DID SO WELL. #GOD ... I MISS THEM SO BADDDDDDDDD. #the way they gave me EVERYTHING. E V E R Y T H I N G. now COME BACK and GIVE US ALL A SEASON 2!!!!!!!!! YALLS STORY ISNT OVER YET!!!!! #WE ALL KNOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[hopeinthebox]

you needed to see this OKAY BYYYYYYE

#APRYL HOW ON GOD'S GREEN EARTH DID I MISS THIS #i hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me #i'm sure it's what jeon jungkook the people's princess would want #i'm cackling and i love you MWAH #aprylynn #💜💜💜 #ask #rip diana you would've loved seven (feat. latto) (david guetta remix - extended)

[buwheal]

I'm sorry, Spamton. I know you won't believe me, but I'm sorry we hurt you.

#GOD this fucker corrupted my gif again. #Ignore the page is missing im not gonna fix it. Hes looking at the paper. its just uhhh out of your view #made this one up on the spot lmao i dont have many inbetweens planned... if its not up to par to the others thats why #i wish i did do inbetweens but i only have the main ones planned #btw usually when he asks stuff like this he's looking for a response (im looking for a response. me.) #thank you anon oh my goooooodddd you were my descending angel while looking for an ask along these lines #this ask is perfect. Not too overcomplicated. nothing that would set him off. Short and sweet and to the point but its got nice impact. #in this context at least. I rlly needed it lol. #some were.. too much and some were really half assed apologies that go immediately back to asking him stuff LMAOOO #Guysss work with me here im actually trying to guide you to really apologize to him #[you've got mail!] #spamton #spamton g spamton #deltarune #deltarune spamton #deltarune chapter 2 #Ill fix the inside of the dumpster later. its not to scale goddamnit. #Typos in his speech are on purpose to clarify lol #spent a damn hour fixing the gif. grrhhhhh....

[unpretty]

Hi Unpretty. I am a BIG fan of yours. I love your work, and while I've read tens of different fanfiction writers, I find you have real talent, real sophistication, real kix, more than anyone else I've ever read. But this is not some soft and fluffy compliment comment. Please read on. The thing is - this.

I've sent you so many comments, begging you, pleading with you, asking you to PLEASE write more Bruce. And you've ignored each one. So now. Here's the thing. While on bedrest, I did a lot of Internet research. And - guess what.

I found out your real name.

Kitty Mxxxxy.

Don't make me put it out there for the world to see, god. They've been no Batman stories from you for so long! So here's where I make a threat. You've probably never been threatened on a safe fanfiction website before, but there's a first for everything, isn't there?

WRITE SOME MORE BRUCE or I reveal to everyone your real name 😈😈😈

I've got almost a thousand followers on my Tumblr 💀. I AM a big fan, I enjoy your DC tremendously, but you need to write more in that genre, because fanfiction is your strength. Do it do it do it, I NEED a next story by next Sunday. You probably don't understand, but having asthma and not being able to leave bed makes a person sociopathically obsessive, or maybe that's just me.

Sorry not sorry.

Do it or I reveal your name to your fans. I don't know what's so bad about that, but you must be hiding your name for a reason. I love you.

teenagers are wild

#original #i can't decide what my favorite part is #the fact that you think my name is a secret (proving you've never supported me financially lmao) #the 'almost a thousand tumblr followers' #the fact that you think outing yourself by posting my name to your Almost A Thousand Followers would end well for you #this onion has layers and i am giving them to staff because i can't eat onions #it IS funny that now whenever anyone asks me about fanfic #i can just point to this ask and blame anon #(i'm actually just busy but i love a scapegoat) #i missed 'tens of different writers' oh my god

[roseworth]

having spent most of my life on the internet sometimes i wonder if my online paths have crossed with people multiple times without us even knowing. what if i’m tumblr mutuals with my club penguin girlfriend. maybe we even played checkers together in the webkinz tournament arena

#i used to put on boy clothes on club penguin so i could date the girls #but my name was in my username #so one time a girl asked ‘if you’re a boy why is your name lauren’ #and i panicked and logged off #another time i had club penguin sex with a girl by taking our clothes off and sending heart emoticons #then after we were done i cried because i thought god would be mad at me for having gay pre-marital online penguin sex #i miss club penguin so much

[silverskye13]

not yet/love run (reprise) by the amazing devil feels very tanguish and helsknight to me, honestly, with not yet being tanguish and love run being helsknight.

(also i finally caught up and, uh, have been singing my praises. woe, five million comments upon ye.)

🎵

Aaaaaa Amazing Devil how do you always hit so hard, pull your punches, you destroy me

But I held your hand

As you shook in the middle of the night

Without waking you said

Not yet not yet

Not yet not yet

Not yet not

Sing me awake with a song about pirates

And I will try to harmonise

And sip the sunlight from your eyes

Oh sing me awake

With all the things we’ll do today

//////////////

Let foul men band and heed your hum

For that ancient hymn you heard me strumming?

Is nought but fumble-falls and guns

And tumbleweeds. Love, run!

It's nought that rum won't solve

Though some would harm you, none - not one - no none

Will raise to you a hand nor thumb

Not while by you I stand and hum

Love run!

#rns asks #adding this to the playlist..... god amazing devil #they never miss i swear #also thank you for the kind words and nice comments anon! #im glad youre liking RnS so far :D

[not-poignant]

Hope you're doing okay, sending love & support from America! If you need to slow down for a bit, that's not a bad thing -- you're an incredibly prolific author, which is wonderful, but there's only one of you and there's plenty of stuff already out there that we can read (or re-read!) if you need some time to take care of yourself. Your fans will understand.

Hi hi anon <3

Tbh I was looking at my output and it's hilarious to me. So from March 1st to March 11th I wrote 10 chapters. From March 11th to April 13th I've written three chapters. So I'm definitely doing a good approximation of like a corpse floating downstream right now! Wait that's kind of dark, um...

Definitely not being prolific lately, and I'm so glad I have a buffer (April is written, May is written except for one chapter) but at some point I have to keep that buffer going so - but having a break while I need it most.

Tbh it's not even the writing getting me down, it's my personal life. There's been some disintegration of important relationships with other people and it's just kind of all happened randomly at the same time. It's not for any bad reasons, none of those people are horrible, it's just...how it shook out. But that + Toby + life stuff has just left me in a weird, lonely place. The most socialising I do each day is like here and on the Discord lol.

But I've taken some steps to work on it, and in the meantime, my body is appreciating the rest!

#asks and answers #i'm also very tired so it's hard to initiate or start new friendships #and new connections #so i'm in that grayspace of recovering from like #missing a lot of contact with a small number of folks #but also not having the energy #to build new things #you know when all your buildings come down #and you can't rebuild yet because all your buildings just came down #it's that sdlkfjas #god i'm melodramatic #i just have the sadsies that's all #administrator gwyn wants this in the queue

[orpheuslament]

on the way back from the gym i saw two teenage girls on scooters in the middle of the road & they kept crossing each other & interlocking their feet & they looked like they were having so much fun i hope they have the best summer of their life

#it did make me fucking miserable bc i lost all my teenage years to crippling mental illness + being closeted so i never got to experience #that feeling of freedom. or at least i cant remember & i cant help but feel like something was stolen from me #i wish i could grab 13 year old dante by the shoulders & tell them to please please please make the most out of it #i know it feels like the world is going to end every single day but theres so many beautiful things to experience #& one day you will be 25 & you will miss yr friends & ask yourself why you wasted so much time #i know its not your fault you were just trying to survive & you did do beautiful things!!! but God #dante.txt

[green-tea-lemonade]

OH MY GOD YOU'RE BACK I'M SO HAPPY!!! YOU ARE MY FAVORITE ARTIST EVER EVER EVER AAAAHHHH

AAAAAA thank you that literally means so much for me to hear!!!!! YESSS!!! I am back!!! >:33

I have so much SolNep content I wanna spew out from silly doodles to very random AU art to actual stories and more!!!!

#art #digital art #procreate #homestuck #solnep #nepeta leijon #sollux captor #i have so many ideas bumping around in my brain its actually nuts #but thank you so much for your extremely kind words #its so crazy to me that people genuinely like my art so much and it makes me tear up from joy every time!!! #i met a vriska via cherubplay who when we were talking about art gifts or something i had sent them my art and they went !!!! YOU!!!! #they informed me they were a big fan of mine and i just freaking flipped out in excitement #god i miss roleplays and cherubplay and still look back over my old chats and miss all the people who were so nice #its okay though bc they fueled my writing for fics #which i will probably ask if yall would want that or a comic or something about these random ass aus #ill probably make a post or something like that within the next couple days #thank yall though fr for so much love and support yall are amazing <333

[timeisacephalopod]

The type of Christian who asks atheists how they don't like, murder people on the reg are so funny to me because they seem to think their religion makes them the Peak of Morality when statements like "if you don't believe in God how comes you don't do X thing" all but outright state they have no idea why shit like murder and rape is bad except that God doesn't like it lmao. Like way to admit you have no intrinsic sense of morality and need to be afraid of a higher power to be a decent person, but I promise if you're not a piece of shit it's actually very natural not to want to do heinous evil shit all the time potential punishment from a higher power or not 🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️

#winters ramblings #seriously its SO funny when that happens because every time its like ??? the FUCK kind of thoughts do you have #to ask HOW i resist doing evil shit all the time because i dont fear god because i dont believe in God?? #what kind of fucked up person do you haveto be to only resist killing people because of fear of a higher power?? #these are people to avoid because typically they also come with the issue of using their religion to make any action they want #perfectly Good and Moral because GOD said it its in the BIBLE whether thats true or not and like bible or no #if you have no intrinsic sense of morality i dont want to hear about atheist morality from you lmao #not that athiests lack issues i swear to god white dudes who evangelize atheism like its their new religion #have WILDLY missed the point and often suffer the same problem as the aforementioned Christians #wherein the onky thing thats ever given them any kind of pushback is the church so they decide RELIGION is horrible and bad as a whole #which isnt true religion can be a perfectly lovely amazing thing for people but that brand of atheist #doesnt seem to understand that people turned away from the church because of wide spread abuse and discrimination not because #believing in god makes you literally mentally ill like some of these fuckos act like. abelist AND shite to religious folks in one fowl swoop #so you know atheists have problems too but like they arent making laws in their beliefs images across the world so you know #temper the criticism with how influential the group actually is although richard dawkins types DID get a lot of space to spew their idiocy #like dawkims if you think youre SOOOO much smarter than christians how come you have ALL the same misogyny problems?? #youre not that smart and logical if youve decided a whole kind of person is inherently less than you buddy. in fact thats very Christian #of him actually. funny when that happens but again if you dont actually know WHY something is a problem #its very easy to say Thats Bad and then literally do the exact same thing you just condemned because when YOU do it its no longer bad #because its got YOUR flavor of fucked up morality on it now instead of being like hmm maybe Christianity isnt a problem #because it EXISTS but because a lot of people use their religion as a pointed barb to discriminate against huge swaths of people #and often the intolerance becomes a legal issue when Christians and other religious majorities shove through laws based on EXCLUSIVELY their #religions and opinions and that doesnt mean religion should be dismantled it means we ahould tell religious folk who would know what #morality was if it fucked them up the ass to shut up and figure out what morality is outside of rekigion before they start legislating about #it and whatnot. also i wish extreme opinions werent ALL the news focused on exclusively on the political right #can we platform some NORMAL well adjusted christians who are god loving AND not a bunch of wingnuts #who are two steps away from arguing thou shall not kill only applies to people they LIKE because they dont seem to understand #maybe murder is bad when EVERYONE does it not just The Bad People??!?!

[ramdotexe]

HI happy valentine's day, I'm sending cards to all my mutuals!! please enjoy your mini reeses cup and also, uh, him face

HELP

#I missed this by two days im so sad this is so fucking funny #the Reese’s taped to the card and everything oh god #oh catboycafe my beautiful mutual of cours i will be your late valentine #asks #disco elysium

[fingertipsmp3]

This is the spiritual successor to Four Seasons Landscaping. To me.

#the political career of rishi sunak over the past two years is something that is absolutely fascinating to me #mans kicks off the mass resignation of virtually everyone of relevance in the johnson government just for a shot at power #manages to climb over everybody else in the leadership campaign; loses at the last hurdle to liz truss #(the human embodiment of a soggy ball of iceberg lettuce you left in your fridge and forgot about) #when truss’s premiership imploded he was right there to… further cock things up? #his highlights include hiring back a cabinet minister who had literally been fired the previous day #after 18 months; his party finally got sick enough of him violently hydroplaning down the highway to hell that they threatened him #with a vote of no-confidence #so he went out in the rain and went straight to charles iii of all people to ask him to dissolve parliament. as you do #and called a general election WHILE STILL IN THE RAIN and while the most unserious music imaginable played in the background #because i guess he thought ‘if i’m going down i’m bringing all of you with me’ ????? #knowing that unless something absolutely bananas happens; he is essentially handing over the country to keir starmer mind you #and then today someone placed him in front of a morrisons sign in such a way that his big head makes the sign look like it says ‘moron’ #and photographed him as such. i’m obsessed. no notes #i will not miss this idiot but i can’t say i haven’t been entertained. because i have #i’m like genuinely impressed with how much the tories have managed to fuck up in so many different ways #to be honest ever since david cameron resigned and walked off humming; nothing has been normal here #i mean things were bad before that but good god #personal

[forestmossling]

when i was younger (and i don’t mean like “a literal child” younger, i used to do this up until i was like 16) i used to go around barefoot all the time. literally. i would walk around my yard barefoot, i would walk my dog barefoot (i lived in private sector at that point so there weren’t as many people around on the street), i even walked barefoot in the center of my town a couple of times. when i went to summer camps i would just go around barefoot for a whole month straight (in the beginning the counselors tried to stop or reprimand me but at some point they just accepted it as i thing i did).

and i really think that eddie would be like that too. he would definitely walk around barefoot all the time when he was younger because shoes felt weird sometimes and he would like feeling the ground, the grass, the asphalt under his feet. and wayne would be really worried about it at first, but then it would become another “eddie thing” for him and he would just sigh and tell him to be careful and watch where he steps. and at some point, as he grew older, eddie would stop, but i can imagine him showing up to school with no shoes on at some point and just walking around the school barefoot the whole day for the chaos. and he would still sometimes do that around trailer park when he’s alone.

#it’s time to project on your favorite fictional characters o’clock folks #god but how i miss walking around barefoot #it genuinely feels so cool #but now my ocd doesn’t let me #yes i am autistic why do you ask #and imagine this becoming like a private indulgent thing he doesn’t tell anyone about #but then he starts dating steve and tells him about it #and they just go for a walk with no shoes on #eddie munson #eddie munson hcs #eddie munson headcanons #neurodivergent eddie munson #stranger things headcanons #stranger things

[milo-the-professional-yapper]

Working through Penumbra season one and oh god fuck I forgot about the kissing.

As someone who’s aroace and hates the sound of literally anyone kissing, this is my personal hell.

#the penumbra podcast #juno steel #peter nureyev #they fr making out all the time and I’m like PLEASE STOP YOURE KILLING ME #Jupeter is cute as hell tho so I’m willing to overlook it but Jesus Christ #I honest to god just skip through it 😭 #missed my wife Juno Steel though #honey I’ve returned from the war #what was it you ask??? #just my depression #recent self diagnosis of autism #and complete lack of any social presence both irl and online