#hadn’t done that in years

[happyheidi]

#there’s something so lovely about strawberries #strawberries and milk! #I had that the other day! #sprinkled sugar all around #hadn’t done that in years #felt good #tasted good!! #cottagecore #nature #naturecore #flowers #flowercore #strawberries #strawberry #berries #warmcore #fox #animals #apples #wildflowers

[pippin-pippout]

Also loving that Luffy is just happy Ace talked about him to Sabo. And Ace and Sabo are clearly both very smart and calculating and Luffy is… not. And Sabo is like you do realize everything he said about you is an insult…

They want to kill him. They actively create a plan to try to kill him. They encourage each other to kill him.

Jokes on you both you end up loving him enough to die for him!

#if they hadn’t been interrupted I wonder if they would’ve done it #10 year olds don’t necessarily have a sophisticated view of what it means to kill #especially 10 year olds that grew up under these circumstances #one piece #portgas d ace #revolutionary sabo #monkey d. luffy #but I do wonder if Ace regretted that and that was part of his loyalty to Luffy

[moltengoldveins]

broke: Technoblade is the deity of blood/war/anarchy/violence and his power comes from shedding blood/waging war

Woke: Technoblade is the deity of covenants/blood bonds/family/vows and his power comes from people’s (and dog’s) fealty and devotion

Bespoke: Technoblade is the god of the harvest and the anarchy blood thing is like… just the Way He Is. His power comes from like, veggie sacrifices. He makes peoples potato farms flourish.

#Help this is so funny to me #Like he’s just Like That #Ten thousand years ago he had an emo phase and it Slapped so hard he never left #The potato war was a conflict of some random minor god thinking they were the biggest harvest deity #Because techno hadn’t done any blatant farming in centuries #Only for Techno to return in a blaze of potato glory like “whomst the Heck has summoned me on my Day Off?” #Phil: you’ve been off for three centuries now mate #“My DAY OFF PHIL” #technoblade #mcyt

[angeltannis]

The way Frey and Auden are “opposites” yet both are basically just taking two different paths to destroying themselves in the same way….Frey’s “I’ll never lose anyone if I push everyone away first” vs. Auden’s “I’ll never lose anyone if I never disappoint a single person and I help everyone all the time at my own expense”…..hrnghh

#the way they both spent their formative years as orphans and the way it damaged them in different And similar ways…. #both of them feeling like it was somehow their fault they were ‘abandoned’… #Frey building walls and becoming embittered while Auden basically destroyed her entire self to become ‘Whatever Other People Need From Me’ #and the two of them learning from the other and starting a healthy exchange of habits #Frey learning how to let people in and Auden learning how to tell people No Fuck Off #hhhhrgghh #Freyden you would’ve done numbers on this site if your game hadn’t flopped 😭

[mc-tummy-blur]

It’s been a whole year since I made this TSP:UD art, so I decided to remake it.

I have… a lot of thoughts about the original art piece… thoughts I’ll put under read more

Ko-fi

I don’t have a lot of followers, nor a lot of interaction on my art. So when I made the original shitpost meme art a year ago, it was a surprise to see it suddenly gain traction and rapidly get notes. It was exciting to see honestly.

It was so exciting to see that it got to my head, and it felt like I needed to make more art relating to The Stanley Parable, and also of shitpost meme quality. That other art didn’t get as much traction as the original did. But the notes from the original art piece kept getting bigger and bigger. I guess in a way the combo of not getting traction from that other art yet the rapid increase of the original art put me in an art block of some kind. Or left me feeling stuck creatively.

I began to resent the og art, as it was still getting notes and it put me in a creative rut. I didn’t wanna draw, or really didn’t know what I should draw and post onto here. Didn’t do anymore TSP:UD art either, I just didn’t have the creative drive for it. These feelings of resentment for that art and sadness that I was only getting traction for that, lasted for a while. Even when I was doing other art for other fandoms in the next months. It may seem ridiculous that some shitpost art had that much of an impact on my art in general, and I found it ridiculous too.

But, slowly, I began to accept that the shitpost art was going to keep getting notes for a good while. It’s a little over six thousand notes now. The acceptance helped me do other art that I found enjoyable to do, as I was doing it for myself again

I’m not sure what’s the main moral of me telling this, besides that you always gotta do art that’s for yourself and to not expect to get anything out of it

Also the irony is not lost on me that when creating fanart of The Stanley Parable: Ultra Deluxe, a game that centers around the idea of what happens when we are so caught up in something because it was good/popular/made people laugh, and how it’s not healthy to just try to recapture that magic and expect it to get the same results because it’s just not possible, resulted in me having experience of making something so popular and wanting to recapture that experience again, and how future work felt more forced, and it was much harder to make, causing me to be in a rough mindset

It’s quite scary on how relatable The Narrator really is.

Anyway, onto some positive stuff, imma share a compilation of my favorite reactions to my og art.

And perhaps the best reaction/commentary that I think about constantly:

#the stanley parable #the stanley parable ultra deluxe #tsp #tspud #tsp stanley #tsp bucket #mcart #decided to change the perspective because idk if I could done that perspective again #also I change Stanley from staring directly to the viewer cause I saw someone put eye contact tw #and I forgot that was a thing and hadn’t put that tw in the og #so I decided to not have it in this one #besides he’s still looking at the narrator #also I guess I changed the way he held the bucket too #anyway this is the only one year later drawing that I’m gonna do #for this drawing #really this was to get my thoughts out there about the og fanart #I feel better now that I’ve done this #now I think I can move on from that part

[pallases]

PASSED ALL MY CLASSES YIPPEEEE

#personal #the engineering chronicles #on the one hand how the mighty have fallen etc but on the other. thank FUCK this semester is over #it wasn’t even that bad objectively like if i hadn’t had the musical im pretty sure this semester would have been a breeze. but w the #musical everything was so scattered i never had time to do hw and i had to skip classes to meet w ppl for group projects bc the only time #any of us were available was in the mornings except then the meetings would go later than planned and i wouldn’t be able to make it to #my morning class and. etc. rehearsals till 10 like 5 times a week just did not work on in this regard. BUT WE DID IT <3 scraped a b- out of #physics w my highest test score in that class and will likely end probability w a b #<- he put in my final exam grade (88 🥳) but there are still three labs that need to be graded so technically my grade could fall to a b- or #c+ but neither is likely #still mad abt that 60 i got on the last exam bc if i had done as well on that exam as i did every other exam for this class i could have #ended w a b+ or a- but. whatever i’m just relieved this courseload is over with. even if i will be thrown right back into everything in a #week at least there is this week for me to relax and not feel awful for failing even more classes this year lmao

[leieryx]

seeing 2024 graduation cakes and realizing hm maybe I’m not over that

#long story short in my last year I kept doing school late into the summer thinking I hadn’t done enough #and then my mom said ‘oh you never needed to do any of that; you’re done basically #I had done way way more than any requirement but no one bothered to tell me I didn’t have to do any of that #I never got to enjoy graduation. it was just hell and then over. #maybe I’ll buy myself a cake today.

[cinewhore]

I did something today.

#i know this is like a journal thing #and I’m gonna put it in there #but i finally threw out the blanket i was assaulted on #god it took YEARS and i think the only reason i hadn’t done it sooner is because i grew connected to it #like it was a way of me holding onto who i was at that point #i was innocent #but i was violated and that’s not ok #I’m still working through that and forgiving myself cause it wasn’t my fault #and while there are folks who don’t believe me (hello mommy issues) #i felt like i grew some of my power and autonomy back #it was scary and i was crying by my apartment garage bins #but I’m happy #because this means i can buy new blankets and make new memories #and I’m looking forward to that :) #don’t worry this will self destruct #now that’s what i call blogging

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

SHOW US THE CORPSE FLOWER

OKAY

here it is, the corpse flower (amorphophallus titanum)

(click for better-ish quality)

it looks kinda wilted here because these plants only bloom for ~24 hours before they wilt completely. it bloomed at midnight and since i cannot drive i had to wait until morning to go see it :/

this was more of a lab setting than a garden setting and they had cut a section of its flesh out so they could study and collect the fruit/seeds to send them to other places for cultivation (they’re endangered)

if you see inside you’ll see the fruit. when the flower wilts it leaves just the fruit for birds to eat (ignore this god-awful photo quality i was still getting used to this camera)

these shots are from the top-down. it looks cool from here because you can see the folds and texture that the plant has plant has. it was actually very warm to look from here because these plants warm up to help spread their corpse-scent. i think at it’s highest it was over 90-something degrees fahrenheit (32-ish degrees celsius). these pictures were hard to take because the plant was probably about 8ft tall excluding it’s elevated base. they had a stepladder but i’m short so i couldn’t get the best pics from the top.

and the smell! there’s a reason these are called corpse flowers. it actually wasn’t too bad in this area because it was so well-ventilated but the second you stepped out into the hall it smelled sooo bad. now, i haven’t smelled an actual rotting corpse before but this was probably a good substitute

it was fun to visit. apparently not a lot of people get excited to go see a giant flower that smells like a corpse and only blooms for 24hours every few years if it’s in the right cycle after meeting maturity (10ish years). i found a few people to go see it with, though. and i guess it did make it nice and mostly-empty to see it. i was there for a few hours trying to get the best pictures that i could because i thought it was cool :)

#sorry this took so long to do #i had to actually extract the photos from my camera bc apparently i hadn’t done that yet? even though this was years ago? #and tumblr absolutely hated me trying to upload images today >:( #anyways i also have so many pictures of just nature in general and i’m always always open to looking at pretty pictures of plants and bugs #so if anyone wants to see anymore plants just ask and i’ll talk alllll day about them #and if you want to talk bugs dm me bc i know a lot of people have phobias and i want to make sure everyone’s safe #but i do have a bunch of cool pictures bc i like to bring a camera with me when i go out #ask #corpse flower #amorphophallus titanum

[appropriatelystupid]

My (maybe) unpopular opinion is that katie probably is not all that crazy about being famous or doing challenging/longlasting roles which is why she takes these roles that have a clear end date by plot design.

I think she probably does acts because it's a good job, makes her enough money to hide away in her cozy apartment with her dog and read/drink tea, and avoid the corporate hell the rest of us live in (a queen, love that for her).

Especially with the way actors are expected to be self-promotional/"on" all the time, and the total lack of privacy that has developed as a result of social media in the past 12 years since Merlin was at it's peak, I can imagine she wants to take roles that allow her to fly comparatively under the radar and avoid all of the shit that so many actors have to deal with these days. Forever a legend!!

oh i definitely think the length of time filming is a factor for her decisions (totally valid and healthy of her)

but also if the project is only 5-6 hours runtime then i still need her to look for parts that have at least double digit minutes of screen time

#to be fair she’s really only ever done 2 projects that were multiple years #a third if you include dracula since i’m sure she had committed to additional seasons if it hadn’t been canceled #frontier should’ve been multiple but they clearly hadn’t accounted for how powerful she’d be in that role so that got cut short too #kmcg #anon #appropriatelyasked #stupidlyanswered

[say-al0e]

Dealing with the remnants of someone else’s life is fucking impossible.

#my dad passed yesterday and i’m having to sort through his stuff #and it’s kind of insane because he was a hoarder who hadn’t touched my bedroom since i left fifteen years ago #literally there is still a box of rainbow goldfish on the nightstand (obviously mice have gotten to it but still) #i got a bunch of photos because i had little evidence i existed before age like thirteen #and all i really wanted from his house was a photo of me and my grandmother #his siblings are going to make it impossible for this to be easy because his brother is like nothing in this house is yours except the #photos that’s it you have no claim to anything because this is my land take your photos and leave #and his sister is the worst #lots of family drama and honestly i don’t want any part in it #and everyone has so much to say about me and the way our relationship ended fifteen years ago but that’s on him not me #but i don’t want anything i just want this to be done and to go home #i want it to be over with #i’m exhausted and hungry but i also don’t want food #i’m not grieving but maybe i am i don’t know #I just want to leave now #txt

[muirneach]

my day today 😵‍💫

> school starts 9:55. wake up at 10:05. get there at 10:20. not looking good so far.

> leave at 12:00 promptly cause i don’t have any afternoon classes so why bother sticking around for lunch (my only w)

> get home and bust my ass cleaning my room so i can get my trash out before the garbage truck gets to my street

> make a singular egg sandwich. this takes like 40 mins for no reason

> stare at phone for 4 hours (boooo)

> now 5pm and i have to do a bunch of packing because i want to finish packing sometime tomorrow, finish a math thing before tomorrow thats 10% of my grade and will be vital for another 10% of my grade + study on the entire semester’s work before 9am tomorrow, edit important internship final paper cause tomorrow’s my last day there, edit my resume and write cover letter for a job i’m applying to on friday? NOT LOOKING GOOD GUYS

#this is entirely my fault if i hadn’t stared at my phone for so long but goddd. you know #i also have to finish editing for a final project for a separate thing for the internship for friday but its mostly done so whatever #should probably practice guitar sometime cause i got my final lesson for the year on friday but also not worried about that #cause my teacher and i mostly just talk shit rather than play #throwing my phone under my chair and not gonna look at it bye bye

[mintmentos]

The Grace Year / Yellowjackets venn diagram that’s almost a circle >>>

#something about a group of teenaged girls being left to their own devices with no outside influence and being allowed to revel in their #anger and power #something about it being the worst thing that ever happened to you but simultaneously yearning to return to it #soemthing about the recovery from trauma and the expectation that one day you’ll wake up and be fine. be the way you were before #as if you hadn’t undergone the most important part of your life and you’re just expected to forget about it #something anoht the transition from girlhood to womanhood but also the way some people never get to just be a girl #anyway both are excellent go forth and read/watch whichever #one you haven’t (or both if you’ve done neither) #the grace year #kim liggett #yellowjackets

[ilguna]

literally the last thing i want to do right now is serve and i got three managers trying to get me to do it

#ilguna #i look like i haven’t slept in days #and i have the attitude of a 13 year old rn #and my fucking coworker was all ‘they only have the bartender and the one server rn’ #‘the stadium parking lot is full’ #and i went ‘LOL so they fucking over staffed yesterday and today they’re understaffed?’ #go fuck yourself 💀💀 #i’m trying to get some writing done too #and they could’ve used the money arguement on me 3 days ago if they hadn’t moved me to bussing 3 mornings in a row #i am chilling until the end of the month #come back to me in march #ALSO they should’ve been scheduling me for spring training from the get go 😤 because i refuse to be a back up server all the time #genuinely wtf

[burtsmores]

Metroid, I guess (and the lineart because I like it more)

#Metroid #samus metroid #art #i really need to work on backgrounds ugh #Halfway through I decided I was done but I think it turned out ok anyways #I hadn’t drawn Samus in a few years though

[mishtershpock]

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#right so #firstly: oliver stark i love you please never stop #the way he talks about buck is so nice!! not to mention always reiterating that the show was queer before bi buck was confirmed #secondly: oliver stark i love you but please stop!!! #lmao. ben affleck smoking jpeg #i completely understand his reasoning behind what he says about tommy #he can’t confirm or deny anything and changes are he doesn’t even know anything. just like before #when he was waxing poetic about natalia and buck’s future #i just do not like the whole narrative of tommy being a perfect queer elder who can do no wrong and is there to guide buck through this #it’s a disservice to his character. and to buck’s #and to eddie’s if you really wanna go there #tommy is the perfect first boyfriend because he’s got experience. right? that’s what we’re saying? #experience does not equal perfection #and like i said the other day. it suggests eddie is not worthy of being a queer love yet because he has no experience #they hadn’t written the final episodes yet for a reason. they’re posting positive b/t posts on social media for a reason #they’re testing fan reactions to decide what to do with b/t. sorry but i genuinely think that’s the reason #and this characterisation of tommy as perfect and ideal for buck and they’re smitten etc #a second ben affleck smoking jpeg #i have nothing against tommy or b/t together or multi shippers. nothing at all #but i sweaaarrrrrr #if i lose out on the ship who have 6 years friendship and a history of getting through neg and pos experiences together #coparenting and saving each others’ lives. literally and figuratively #being so intrinsically linked to each other #not to mention oliver and ryan’s chemistry #if i lose out on that because people can’t stop screaming about tommy on social media #i will implode and take this place with me #especially because focusing on buck’s lovely new perfect relationship will probably mean that eddie is pushed aside #with a shitty storyline they put no effort into. wait what who said that that’s crazy #i agree that bi buck isn’t about eddie (it’s not about tommy either) and potential queer eddie isn’t about buck #but i’m so done with people saying we can’t hope the two storylines come together in the future. why is it suddenly bad to want buddie