#he could have dean

[wormieapple]

cas immediately took that deal with the empty cause he never thought he could be truly happy cause he thought he couldn’t have dean. he was constantly miserable cause he thought couldn’t have dean.

#spn #supernatural #castiel #dean winchester #destiel #i don’t know y it never fully sunk in that he was literally suffering the entire time *because* not only did he want dean #he thought he couldn’t have him and thus could never be happy #and it’s not just that he has an absence of happiness he’s suffering feeling the loss of something he can never have #but he can #he could have dean #he didn’t just have to have happiness in being and saying #he could have happiness in having as well

[found--family]

cas would not kiss dean first. dean would also not kiss cas first. this is their tragedy. but a shapeshifter or some kind of monster clone or djinn dream would initiate the first kiss and they would 100% return it. or the real dean and cas would've just simply fallen together somehow like tripped and fell and gravity would bring their mouths together whoops anyway they'd both take it from there - and that's not fate pulling strings it's just dumb luck for these two dumbasses (affectionate)

#destiel #thoughts #and btw: i don't know why everyone thinks i'm trying to woobify cas by saying he wouldn't kiss dean first. #fact: dude literally waited for death's door to confess his love so he wouldn't burden dean with his feels - but at least he could #use them to save dean. and he thought he couldn't have dean (the one thing he wanted..) which is why he didn't make the first move #bc he thought there would be no further moves. i don't understand what's not clicking. anyway they're both dumbasses #don't bother fighting me i know i'm right

[clairenatural]

okay but you see sam has ALSO fallen for dean's act. sam also believes dean to be the macho, daddy's soldier, beer boobs cars guy he presents himself as. this is why sam makes fun of dean whenever he even lightly steps out of that mold and thinks it's harmless banter instead of attacking an insecurity. it's why he laughs when john talks down to dean in the early seasons and it's why he seems surprised when dean is more comfortable with himself in the later seasons. it's why he just scoffs but doesn't push it when dean puts up a front and refuses to talk about his emotions and just accepts whatever excuse he makes at face value. it's why he offers dean a strip club to make him feel better when cas dies. and this isn't his fault!! dean has spent a very long time perfecting this image in front of everyone and ESPECIALLY to sam because along with it comes safety and security and stability and the only person. who has consistently been able to see through it. is castiel

#charlie also a bit bc dean doesn't have to be desirable to her as a man or as a son #altho i would argue that she doesn't see through him he just doesn't perform as much for her. cas actively sees through it #this is why sam has never caught on to dean being queer also. btw. dean isn't closeted he's just never made a big deal of telling sam #you never really know your parents just the version of them they want you to see etc etc #anyway this is also why sam is thought to be More Sensitive in comparison #by people who have also fallen for the Act. i call this the General Audience Dean Act #because it was who he was SUPPOSED to be from kripke's pen until jensen went ummmmm no. he has trauma :) and forcibly gave him layers #this is also not samcrit btw i always need to clarify that #i am bad at sam studies but i think you could also write posts (and ppl have) about how dean doesn't truly know sam either #bc he has Little Baby Brother zoned him forever even though he is almost 40 by the end of s15

[runraerun]

*noisily pulls up a chair* 🪑 do you guys ever think about what HunterCorp!Dean thought of Cas? Like he was already clearly of jealous of Dean Prime, with his cool shirts and rugged trauma, so he must have been like, ‘what! you have a hot angel sidekick too?! Lucky!’

And Dean would have just floundered and gruffly tried to shut him down like, ‘what’re you even talking about? Cas—hot…?’ *manly, sputtering deflection*

And then HunterCorp!Dean would be like, ‘oh?👀 so you’re not together then? Interesting. Very interesting…’ *slicks back his already over-slicked hair* *huffs into palm to check if breath stinks* *readies himself to make his move*

And then Dean would have internally combusted, obviously. because now he has to explain to his very queer alternate self to cool his jets and step away from his not-boyfriend because…. Because…. Well just to back the hell off okay that’s why!!! >:/

Both Sam’s just -_-; -_-; *deep sigh*

#Sam: we gotta go kill god rn Dean we don’t have time for bi panic #Dean being confronted with his queerness really speaks to me #like maybe if he had been raised with a little more of his needs met maybe the top of his pyramid could have been explored more #y’know #so then when spoiled Hunter corp Dean waltzed in #who was imo played as an openly queer character #Dean really got to see a mirror of himself #like a what if version #the show spends like ZERO time exploring this #but I still find the whole idea interesting #Dean Winchester #Hunter corp Dean #Destiel #castiel #Dadstiel #supernatural #spn #destiel au #Destiel headcanon

[destielwarmsthecocklesofmyheart]

heh… hey guys… remember when dean confessed in a freaking confessional that there were people and things he wanted to experience differently than before and maybe even for the first time? remember how that was never mentioned again? heh… yeah me neither… *clawing my eyes out*

#what could he have possibly been talking about #why even put that in the script if he wasn’t talking about cas #I mean who the fuck else could he have been talking about #im dead #destiel #cockles #dean winchester #deancas #jensen ackles #jenmish #castiel #supernatural #spn #misha collins

[youchoseeachother]

12x11

#why's this so cute....... #they're having a little waffle date and dean is giving sam his waffles because he has to make sure sam eats!!! #(he's got a man who needs waffles! 😤🥰) #sam winchester #dean winchester #spn 12x11 #wincest #samdean #married #.anna #(hii everyoneee - i'm still here even tho i'm always really busy irl!) #(some of you have tagged me in things these past few weeks and i'm so sorry for not replying 😭 but i really appreciated it!!! <3<3) #(i also got a new computer monitor which is why these gifs could be too bright? too red? yellow? i have absolutely no idea :| )

[bloodydeanwinchester]

god the number of things they wrote for dean on spn that were just meant to be silly funny moments but then actually when you think critically about them they actually point to the deep childhood trauma he’s dealing with. like how did they write something so layered and meaningful by mistake like that???

#actually this is true for sam too #like haha sam’s a health nut and dean is basically a vacuum when it comes to food how funny right?? #but no actually sam is just enjoying having control over what he eats after growing up eating whatever they could afford which was likely #often junk food or fast food #and dean is remembering what going hungry felt like and can’t bear to waste anything now #spn #jenna.post

[ghostl-yy]

Cant stop thinking of John begging Sam to kill the demon (and him) in 1x22 and Sam is locked and loaded, colt aimed and ready to fucking fire and Dean whispers a little 'Sammy no' and Sam just stops. And his face - he knows John is gonna tear him a new one but he still makes his fucking bed (and lies in it). Sam literally could not have shown the fact that he chooses Dean over John any clearer than he does in this episode.

#spn #sam winchester #dean winchester #john winchester #spn 1x22 #supernatural #the way sam literally could not have won #he was fucked no matter what he chose #set up to fail is pretty much his life motto ig :( #gencest

[pollsnatural]

These are just things that I kind of associate with Cas, but the options are endless. I'd be interested to read what you think Cas might've created beyond these options!

#you can ask me 'but pollsnatural how could he have created longing' #'he didn't feel anything until he met dean' #and i answer that he has been lobotomized many times #he felt longing and didn't want to lose that feeling so he gifted it to humanity #or something like that #polls #spn #supernatural #castiel

[monstermoviedean]

dean is the only reason kevin makes it past 08x01 so jot that down

#does dean bear a lot of responsibility for kevin's death? absolutely. and he knows that!!! #is he not as nice as he could be? yeah and that SUCKS #but without dean kevin would have died in 08x01 #also like. apart from abandoning him and turning off his phone. sam isn't all that nice to kevin either #you're confusing actual sam with fanon sam again. actual sam is not that nice #spn

[coca-colas-truck-driver]

my absolute personal favorite moment of dean solo w a monster is for sure dean’s face after the siren just casually mentions how deeply rooted his feelings are for his brother by saying “i should be your little brother.” and while thinly veiled as a brotherly “haha omg no hes so silly he just wants his brother back 🤗🤗” thing by everybody and the show, “no. i gave him what he needed. and it wasn’t some bitch in a g-string. no; it was you.” which is a crazy line in itself, (like he might have been spitting facts i fear) the siren is telling sam this as dean holds a knife to his throat as per the sirens instructions?? its just so revealing too. like dean doesnt want a girl, he wants sammy, his little brother.

#wincest #samdean #sam/dean #spn #this makes no sense #oopsie #but also #theres such a delicate dynamic sculpted by their upbringing #like john was not nearly the worst he could have been #but he could have invested in a babysitter idk #maybe like personally i wouldnt even leave a four year old to look after my cat #sam winchester #dean winchester

[saltbind]

it was father’s day yesterday here and i had some thoughts

#sam winchester #dean winchester #samdean #could i have put john in this? yes. but i think his fatherhood is more defined by his absence so he’s absent here too

[laniidae-passerine]

I made my post about Dean Highbottom and then as I was writing my tags realised that his Hunger Games counterpart is Haymitch. and now my head is in my hands and I don’t think I’ll ever recover

#IM GOING TO CRY. I am part of the system I never wanted anything to do with it #I killed so many people without laying a hand on them. I never ever asked for this. I tried to say no. my hands are still bloody. #both turned to drugs to cope. both had a mentee who reminded them of someone they hated so much #(snow reminded the dean of his old friend. katniss reminded haymitch of himself) #both knew exactly how the games worked and all of its consequences because one made it and the other lived it #both lived in the shadows of the past and never really got out from it #but in the end one of them chose to be cruel to the children who they were asked to mentor #and the other loved even when it was killing him #god. twenty three years and they never managed to drown the fire out of him. his heart broke again and again #but he held onto those shards even as they made his hands bleed. and then one day two children appeared and pieced it back together #and some of it was missing and always would be. you can’t undo twenty three years of alcoholism and pain and grief and self loathing #but a lot of it was still there. far more than he ever even believed could have survived #Haymitch I love youuuuuuuuu I will always love you #and Dean Highbottom you were kinda cringe and lame. guynobody ass bitch. do better #haymitch abernathy #dean highbottom #thg #the hunger games #a ballad of songbirds and snakes #abosas

[deancasbisexual]

the fact that dean ignored sam's call and just sat there on the floor crying after cas died speaks volumes.

#sam could have been in danger #the world could have been ending #and yet dean didn't care about anything else #he only cared about cas in that moment #deancas #destiel #dean winchester #castiel #supernatural #spn

[angelsdean]

imagine cas annoys the empty so much again it spits him back out except...it spits him out into the wrong universe (and time) and that's how *our* cas ends up in the winchesters universe. and at first he doesn't realize it's not the right time or universe and he goes looking for dean and instead finds the Lebanon bunker closed off and eventually finds john + mary and he thinks it's his universe's past john and mary and he tells them he needs help to get back to his time (bc his grace is still too low). he tells them he's from the future and needs to get back to someone and he pulls out his wallet and shows them a picture of dean and they're like "whoa whoa we know that guy!!!!" and cas is like, "that's impossible. he hasn't been born yet." and they're like "no no he was here. he helped save our universe. he's from another universe and he came here from heaven because he's dead and there was this young guy with him, jack? and an older guy, robby or bobby or something...." and cas is just slowly losing his mind, all the color draining from his face because first of all what do you mean he's dead?!!! and then all the other universe stuff and then jack? and bobby??? and yea anyways they team up to help get cas to dean and along the way hmmm what if jack pops in again....only this time he's acting even weirder than before, because chuck / the god power are gaining more control / corrupting him more. and jack becomes the big bad, thwarting their attempts to get cas to dean, and wreaking havoc on their universe, so the winchesters squad help them save jack and then dean and cas can eventually get their proper reunion (which everyone in the winchesters squad is now nvested in, especially carlos, number one deangirl and destiel stan) oh and the whole time they also do not know dean is mary and john's AU kid because cas never gives a last name just keeps calling him dean. and so john also grows invested in seeing these two people get their happy ending and BOY would it be cathartic for dean to see a version of his father who is so happy to see dean happy with a man-shaped person<3

#like yes i still think deancas should be addressed in a mini series / it's own spinoff #but. this is how i think deancas *could* work in spnwin. by making it relevant to the spnwin universe and characters #having *our* cas become an ally to the spnwin characters and having them get invested in cas's happiness and story w/ dean #plus they already feel like they owe their mystery man one after he saved them #and god i just need scenes of *our* cas with carlos #ALSO. another fun twist / addition to this scenario is. the empty spits out a few others along w/ cas #like crowley !! meg !! gabriel !! #and they *all* are trying to figure shit out and they become a little OG universe squad trying to get back to their universe #and *handwaves* gabriel's archangel powers don't work in this universe so they can't use them to travel between worlds #spnwin #vic.txt

[writinginthesecrettrees]

Dean Winchester meets Cordell Walker and is immediately obsessed. And gets him naked in record time.

Sam walks in on it and the instant rage! Because Benny... well. Whatever, they bonded in Purgatory, it's fine. But this guy...

He looks like Sam. He looks exactly like Sam. And Sam can handle unrequited love, he can handle Dean fucking everything on two legs throughout the continental US, he even handled it when he found out Dean was cool with fucking dudes...

but this.

Dean is cool with fucking this guy, this guy who could be Sam but isn't, but he's never even looked at Sam...

Sam can't handle this.

#wincest #dean/cordell #what sam doesn't know #is that dean wants him too #and doesn't think sam could ever be screwed up the same way he is #and his obsession with cordell is because it's almost like having sam #the way he really wants him #requited unrequited love