the thing is, hypochondria isn't just random weirdos and old ladies googling symptoms and going to the doctor insisting that they have such and such illness or disorder. it's me, not even 20, tweaking my neck weirdly, as you do, and my automatic certainty is that I've pinched a blood vessel and am going to have a stroke. it's me reading that one long, informative post about rabies and immediately going oh my gosh, I live in a rural area and my dog occasionally gets to run loose, he's going to get rabies and then my whole family is going to get it and we're all going to die. it's me, lying in bed at 1am, hearing someone in the house cough and my whole body going into momentary panic mode and my mind instantly throwing out a prayer: please let them be okay please let them be okay please- it's my mom getting sick and me going to stand in the yard to cry because what if it's worse than a normal sickness. and more than that, it's that I almost never breathe a word about this to anyone. the only way anyone might know anything is bothering me is if they recognize the distant look in my eyes as I try to process the anxiety. and the other thing about hypochondria is that all of those examples I gave seem completely logical to me. I see a symptom and it seems only logical, there can't be any other reason for this except for the thing I'm afraid of. point A to point B. I read a true story about a woman who turned her head wrong and burst a blood vessel and was comatose for months, so it's perfectly reasonable to imagine the same will happen to me. hypochondria isn't always pestering doctors or googling symptoms for everyone, often it can be shutting down and turning inward and deliberately not looking anything up because if I do, I will spiral so badly that I won't be able to pull myself out of it. and more often than not, no one will ever know anything was bothering me.
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Question. How do I fandom?
Those who've been in fandom spaces for longer... how do I do it? How do I obsess over blorbos? How do I share my silly little aus? Am I just stressing over being perceived and how I'll be perceived?
I see y'all share your cool aus and cool blorbo analysis... I wanna do that, too.
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hobie brown (spider-punk!!) is giving me severe brain rot, i love him sm 😭
if you ever decide to write for him, could you do some relationship hcs??
ty ^^
Not sure wether this is what you wanted but I hope it was worth it.
Music from the heart:
One of the most obvious ones is that Hobie would have a plethora of songs about you, it’s fucking adorable and so sweet, and so he would play them for you within the comfort of your room because where else would you rather be serenaded?
If anything it makes the moment more special and memorable for the both of you as something you can look back on with fondness.
Though you probably try teasing him one day by asking how many more songs of you he had in the works and Hobie would either say ‘too many to count.’ Or ‘a whole albums worth.’ He’s not going to hide the fact that he’s got notebook after notebook filled with song lyrics dedicated to you.
Pda though not quite:
Hobie isn’t the type to heavily involve himself in PDA but isn’t against the likes of:
holding hands.
his hand being placed on the small of your back when guiding you somewhere else.
the classic arm over the shoulder.
Thigh holding
His/ your head resting on each others shoulders and or laps.
Guitar pick:
This one came to my head out of the blue but I’m gonna add it here even though I’m not too certain but here it is anyway:
if Hobie uses guitar picks to play his guitar -which he probs doesn’t but idk- I’d like to think he’d make you a guitar pick necklace from one of his old picks.
Sure he hates gifts and such but this is the sole expectation alongside any and all handcrafted jewellery you may give him because he wears that shit with pride.
Terms of endearment:
Love
Darling
Sweetheart
Impromptu sleepovers:
Hobie crashes at your place more often then not to the point he might as well be living with you in regards of how often he leaves something of his at yours, so much so you’ve begun to wonder if he was doing it intentionally or accidentally.
Either way you made sure that his stay was comfortable by having a makeshift bed set up for him so he didn’t have to constantly sleep on the uncomfortable couch and wake up with a crooked neck.
Hobie appreciates all that you do for him but would often tell you it’s not necessary but you weren’t about to get into a discussion about whether or not he was deserving of help because the answer was obvious and that answer would always and forever will be; yes.
Also he’s a bit of a cuddle bug but only with you but that’s your little secrete.
Date nights:
Most, if not all of your dates are either just the pair of you being your natural selves in the comfort of your own home where’d you would talk about anything and everything that came to your mind, free of judgment.
or
showing Hobie your undying love and support by showing up to his gigs and scream the loudest because he is talented as shit and deserves a lot more in your eyes.
Either way as long as you were within each others company, anywhere you both went could be considered a date.
Spidey business:
Now this is all dependant on wether or not you know he’s Spider-Man:
If you did then you’d probably would help him patch up his wounds after every fight he had
Or
If you weren’t due to Hobie wanting nothing more then to keep you and that life as far from each other as possible, you’d most definitely would be concerned when you see him with any sustained injuries he tried patching up himself.
No matter how hard you try to get him to tell you what’s wrong, Hobie would just tell you it wasn’t anything he couldn’t handle.
Meeting his friends/ Bragging rights:
Before introducing you to the likes of Pavitr, Miles and Gwen(if you haven’t already met her), it’s almost an 100% guarantee that he brags about you anyway he knows how which only intrigues them more and more to the point they’re just pleading with Hobie to introduce his cool, kickass partner to them.
So when he does, the three are practically hounding you about your relationship with Hobie and when you looked back at him for help in wrangling in his over excited friends, the little shit merely smirks and shrugs his shoulders as though he had no idea they’d react like this, all the while leaning on the wall with his arms crossed over his chest; happy to see all his favourite people he cares about a lot interacting with one another to the point that by the end of the day you’re very good friends with each of them.
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