let me have two seconds to rant about akechi.
for one, his living circumstance was not great. shido in no way supported him, or his mother, thus she was alone in raising him and supporting him. this, was the initial moment of realising his father was absent in his life.
when his mother died he was passed around the foster system, which means each experience he had with a family would have been transitory, nothing ever lasted, if it was by his fault or another fact idk but there was no space for even a semblance of healing from his grief or an opportunity to form an attachment to anyone else.
his father views him as nothing, an inconvenience, a useless piece of refuse that he didn't want anything to do with and this has been instilled him in since the day he was able to form a thought about his father. he has worked tirelessly, endlessly to prove that he's worthy of love from someone. his foster families, his father. anyone. |
the way he envies joker and the others is because he could never have that.
he doesn't even have an identity of his own. the sole thing that kept him clawing his way up the ranks and towards his father was hatred. it's all he's ever known. the festering hatred for his father was the impelling force that kept him going, the only thing that was keeping him upright. if he hadn't harboured that hatred, hadn't let it be his driving force he probably wouldn't have made it as far as he had.
he cannot form meaningful bonds because he doesn't have anything other than his hatred. he spent so much of his life in the depths of despair that he possibly didn't even have respite or indulgence in the way of hanging out and having fun with others until he spent time with joker and the others so.
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Blind date with ex-husband price. It was like 4 peoples doing. It was your coworkers' yoga instructors, then the yoga instructors' supermarket bag boy and then his girlfriends who set up the date. How did we even get there?
Anyway, your dressed up, all pretty, excited to meet someone new. It's been a while since you've been on a date, a blind one at that, alot of guys take one look and either get too 'excited' or extremely deflated, both of them are horrible, but it's been a while since you've been on the scene after you finally got over your husband...
Annnndd, it's your ex. Fuck he looks good, fresh trim and his shoulders look so broad, he's wearing his 'going out, need to impress shirt'.. damn, he really wanted to appeal whoever his blind date was... maybe it's not to late to leave, he hasnt even no- oh.. his hand is on your lower back
"Sweetheart!" He smiles in a way that doesn't reach his eyes,
"John..." you acknowledge, looking up at him, "dont call me sweetheart."
"Sorry, love, bad habit."
You roll your eyes, but don't correct him. Is he doing it on purpose?
"Well, red bag," He smiles.
"Red tie," you respond
"So we're with each others company for the night then," He grins and looks at you, sheepishly, "well, that's if you want to continue the blind date?" He sounds hopeful...
He leads you to the table. Obviously, he pulls the chair out for you and gives you a bouquet of flowers, its only the gentlemanly thing to do, he says.
It starts off strained but you find yourself picking up the little things he does that you used to love, pointing out your favourite foods in the menu, listening intently to everything you say, stupidly lovey-dovey puppy eyes as he nods along, his hand on yours, stroking his thumb on the back of your hand, he even said some stupid line about 'me n u' and says soap put him up to it, fuck, you missed his laugh. You find yourself asking about the boys, work, it feels like you and price are just on a date night, like you two used to do before the divorce.
He walks you home at the end of the night, he started with hand holding, and now his arm is somehow around your waist, and he's closer than any ex-husband should be, really. When you get up to your apartment, he looks a little nervous,
"I'm not inviting you over for a nightcap, John."
"I know, love," he says smoothly, "just wondering... if it would be appropriate to end the night with a kiss,"
You feel a faint heat in your cheeks, unsure of what to do... after a few seconds, you nod, looking up at him. You feel his hand tentatively reach out for the back of your head, cradling it while he kisses you, you missed this, the tickle of his beard, his big hands on you, soft lips, soft kisses.
You can feel him actively try to hold back tongue, but the way you open your mouth slightly in the kiss makes him go for it immediately. You feel yourself melt. It's so desperate and carnal, but still so soft, like he doesn't want to push it, but it goes on longer than expected, neither of you really wanting to pull away, eventually you pull back, lips sore, heated faces, you wonder if you should withdraw the nightcap thing and just let him in.
"I had a lovely night, sweetheart, I... would really love to see you again." He says with a flushed face, his hand on your lower back again, going in circles.
"Me too, John."
"Text me, okay? We can go to that tex-mex place you really like, or somewhere fancier," he smiles softly, "I wanna see my woman happy."
"Not your woman, John."
"Yet." He says with a grin, leaning down and kissing you softly again, "thank you for giving this a chance, love, ill see you tomorrow, hopefully?"
You nod, and he walks home with a smile. Can't believe you had such a nice date with your ex-husband, thanks coworkers, yoga intructors, bag boys girlfriend...
(You probably wouldn't think it's so sweet if earlier you saw gaz in the back alley with bloody knuckles, after beating up the guy that was meant to be your date, texting price
'all done, sir.'
'Knew I could count on you, garrick.')
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AINT NOBODY’S BUSINESS
summary : charlie bushnell and reader have a secret relationship that isnt so secret anymore…
warnings: fluff !! use of y/n bad writing (sorry yall im trying) social media au !! slut shaming, not proof read, this is really short !! if i missed any just let me know💗
therealbambi: beach day !! its nice have a relaxing day after so much stress😔
comments:
iamcharliebushnell: HEY!! wheres my photo creds ? i worked hard to get these amazing pics
therealbambi: photo creds: this weirdo
diorgoodjohn: you hung out with CHARLIE?!? instead of me?!? this is criminal
therealbambi: he forced me i swear
iamcharliebushnell: i did not!! you asked me to come with you
therealbambi: liar.
iamcharliebushnell: your the liar sorry babe.
user7: BABE?!??
leahsavajeffries: these photos are so cute!!
therealbambi: thank you leah!!
user10: charlie and y/ns banter is so cute STOP
user1: FOR REALLL ALSO HIM CALLING HER BABE?!?
diorgoodjohn: hung out with my fav girls last night ‼️‼️
comments:
therealbambi: last night was so much we need to hang out moreee
diorgoodjohn: WE DOOO !!
leahsavajeffries: the food last night was actually to die for🙏🙏
therealbambi: i told yall i know good restaurants 🤗
y/nupdates: y/ns been hanging out with the pjo cast alot maybe her in season 2?!?!
therealbambi: maybe who knows🤷🏽♀️
y/nupdates: STOP WHAT?!?
@iamcharliebushnell: why wasnt i invited to this little get together😞
diorgoodjohn: since when you a girl?
user4: NOT CHARLIE TRYING TO JOIN THEM LMAOO
user5: how much you wanna bet he wanted to hang out with y/n
*liked by dior and charlie*
user5: BOTH DIOR AND CHARLIE LIKED MY COMMENT IM TAKING THAT AS A YES
iamcharliebusnell: i definitely only wanted to hang out with bambi
user5: I FEEL SO LUCKY RN STOPP
user2: Y/N AND CHARLIE STANS RN ARE GOING CRAZY RN OVER THIS (its me im y/n and charlie stans)
walkerscobell: real
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mtv: spoted singer and actress y/n making out with a mystery man outside her house in LA last night👀
comments:
y/nfan1: STOP WHOS TAKING AWAY MY WIFE FROM ME WTF
y/nupdates: realest thing ever said
user11: that kinda looks like charlie ngl🧐
charliebushnellupdates: STOP YOUR RIGHT AND THEY HAVE BEEN HANGING OUT ALOT
user1989: if it is i think ill actually die imagine the album she would write about him STOPP
haterngl: she doesn’t deserve Charlie shes gonna break up with him in a week and write a break up album about “how horrible he was”
user0: fr ngl shes kinda a slut i mean how many boyfriends has she had
user89: if your jealous just say that boo😘
pjofan13: STOPPP I MEAN Y/N HAS BEEN HINTING ABOUT A BOYFRIEND AND HER AND CHARLIE HAVE BEEN HANGING OUT ALOT RECENTLY OMG
therealbambi: y’all are fucking detectives or something i mean damn
y/nismywife: IS THIS HER CONFIRMING HER AND CHARLIE?
user07: Y/N WHAT?!? WDYM
user13: WHAT DOES SHE MEAN BY THIS ARE HER AND CHARLIE DATING WHAT😔
authors note: sorry if this is bad 😔 im new to writing and stuff !! anyways part 2 will be posted soon !! i just ran out of photo room bc i made this on my phone💗
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Bill kaulitz☆ headcannons (with nsfw)
Word count:560
Sorry yall i was thirsty and bored
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Sfw
☆-When you two met you two instantly clicked like puzzle pieces before you knew it the both of you started to become friends .
☆-Bill started the first conversation (he's chatty ) you were tense and nervous at first i mean why wouldn't you he's Bill Kaulitz!!
☆-The favorite thing you two do together is either shopping or just talking to each other about anything (gossiping).
☆-Bill sometimes ask for your help with writing songs and translating it to english (he wants it to sound good in both!!).
☆-But before you realised it you started to have feelings for Bill , He's always so sweet and nice about everything but he's also a menace .
☆-Bill was the one who confessed , The two of you was just watching Tv and hanging out and he just dropped the bomb and blurted it out .
☆-"I like you" He suddenly said and you were like "Huh" (but of course you accepted but it was very unexpected).
☆-Tom's really happy for Bill ! He sometimes makes jokes that he's not gonna be a virgin anymore infront of everyone which makes Bill flustered.
☆-Bill's public about his relationship with you which makes some fan girls sad and some of them bad mouths you but you don't care (At least you got your mans).
☆-Bill writes songs about you!!
☆-He likes to go on dinner dates with you and watch movies at home after.
☆-He likes cuddling , he doesn't mind if he's the big spoon or little spoon he just wants to hold you.
☆-He makes you wear matching bracelets or rings with him (It's really cute ngl).
☆-Even when you aren't looking you sometimes feel him looking at you and smiling.
☆-Holding hands ✅✅
☆-You sometimes hug him or kiss him before he performs (he gets really nervous).
☆-If you don't like the Paparazzi he'll take off his jacket and cover you with it .
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Nsfw
☆-He likes to make out with you after performing .
☆-He's really sweet in bed but also very kinky(Chains , collars , blindfolds , handcuffs , ect) .
☆-He likes to take his time , not that rough but if he's extra sexually frustrated buckle up and get ready.
☆-When he makes out with you there's always tongue if it's heated then expect it.
☆-Whenever you two make out he leaves alot of hickeys like a shit ton of it all over your neck , collarbone , shoulder ect(Mans just kinky like that).
☆-He's a switch don't fight me ,i get that feeling he is , (he radiates that feeling jk).
☆-He likes to grunt , groan if he's really feeling it he'll softly moan .
☆-He likes to eat you out like a full course meal .
☆-When i say he's sweet he really is , when you feel uncomfortable he'll stop immediately and ask you "what's wrong?" "Are you ok?" softly almost a whisper.
☆-Foreplay.
☆-Whenever you two make out he rubs his knee on your crotch .
☆-He wants to make out with you anywhere anytime if you're up for it , against the wall , On the bed while he's on top of you , Just as long as you give him permission it's all good .
☆-He's good with his hands.
☆-If you do want to lead it's fine with him , he doesn't mind .
☆-alot of teasing like alot lot , but he'll feel bad eventually and touches you where you want him too.
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Nah bro why did i write this i haven't even held someones hands romantically before what am i doing😦
I was once an innocent gorl just a year ago idk what happened 😭😭
But hope you guys enjoyed and ill write more don't worry (i was also bored when i wrote this so )
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