#just out of my head

[mycrazyramblings]

Tea and Biscuits with Pandora 5: The Perfect Present

by @ulmo80​​

When he left the office, the streetlights competed with the LEDs in the advertisement boards. He hoped it wasn't too late to go to the antique store where he had seen the perfect birthday present for his girlfriend.

Keep reading on AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/47291977

#my crazy ramblings #tea and biscuits with pandora #birthday present #i can't tell more #it'd be spoiler #one-shot #oneshot #one shot #just out of my head

[epicsauce]

text conversation from my dream that i desperately wish was real

#its 4m this is just scribbles but i hadddd to jot it down before i forgot #0600 #i cant get he's vagina? out of my head

[gravitycoill]

lil comic i’ve had in my head for a bit

#digital art #cons art #adventure time #fionna and cake #fionna and cake fanart #marshall lee #fionna and cake marshall lee #fionna and cake gary #fionna and cake garry #gary prince #prince gumball #ice queen #fionna and cake ice queen #gumlee #also i’ve had this idea in my head but i just used the designs n stuff from ep 9 #uurrghhh i’m also such a lil nerd like erm ice queen has a dif story from simon 🤓☝️ but IDC RN…. #like most the times i geek out about ice queen being different from ice king and how she might not be simone but whatever

[chloesimaginationthings]

William Afton into the FNAF-verse

#myart #chloesimagination #comic #william afton #dave miller #steve raglan #dayshift at freddy's #the fourth closet #fnaf movie #sister location #dsaf #dsaf dave #dsaf fanart #fnaf #fnaf fanart #five nights at freddy's #spiderverse #I’m so sorry for this comic guys #I couldn’t get this idea out of my head #HUGE DAY for DSAF likers though!! #Book Dave doesn’t really like DSAF Dave pff #also finally drew my game William design again #also first time drawing anything from the fourth closet! #so many firsts SO many wills #don’t gotta worry about them all meeting up #cause I doubt the wills will get along enough to do anything evil #just an ego competition

[snarkspawn]

the devil you know

#baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #bg3 fanart #bg3 raphael #stuff and things #userpharawee #yeah I know everyone and their mum has already done something like this #with the shadow and the exact caption and all lmao I *know* ok #I just. wanted to do it too #and I've had it in my head for months it needed to get out #anyway. moving on!

[miscellaneousrenaissant]

#izutsumei #dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #izutsumi #meijack chils #meijack #flertom chils #flertom #I imagine they started dating because Izutsumi was freeloading at Meijack's place and she just decided to stick around lmao #*proceeds to eat your hair* #my head-canon is Meijack's hair has Chilchuck's color but her mom's texture #so it ends up wavy/curly when out of braids #art #having more fun with screentones

[inkskinned]

you're in the habit of denying yourself things.

if someone asked you directly, you would say that you love a little treat. you like iced coffee and getting the cookie. you drink juice out of a fancy cup sometimes, and often do use your candles until they gutter out helplessly.

but you hesitate about buying the 20 dollar hand mixer because, like. you could just use your arms. you weren't raised rich. you don't get to just spend the 20 dollars (remember when that could cover lunch?), at least - you don't spend that without agonizing over it first, trying to figure out the cost-benefits like you are defending yourself in front of a jury. yes, this rice cooker could seriously help you. but you do know how to make stovetop rice and it really isn't that hard. how many pies or brownies would you actually make, in order to make that hand mixer worthwhile?

what's wild is that if the money was for a friend, it would already be spent. you'd fork over 40 without blinking an eye, just to make them happy. the difference is that it's for you, so you need to justify it.

and it sneaks in. you ration yourself without meaning to - you don't finish the pint of ice cream, even though you want to. the next time you go to the store, you say ah, i really shouldn't, and then you walk away. you save little bits of your precious things - just in case. sometimes you even go so far as putting that one thing in your shopping cart. and then just leaving it there, because maybe-one-day, but not right now, there's other stuff going on.

you do self-care, of course. but you don't do it more than like, 3 days in a row. after that it just feels a little bit over-the-edge. like. you can't live in decadence, the economy is so bad right now, kid.

so you don't buy the rice cooker. you can-and-will spend the time over the stove. you can withstand the little sorrows. denial and discipline are practically synonyms. and you're not spoiled.

it's just - it's not always a rice cooker. sometimes it is a person or a job or a hug. sometimes it is asking for help. sometimes it is the summer and your college degree. sometimes it is looking down at scabbed knees and feeling a strange kind of falling, like you can't even recognize the girl you used to be. sometimes it is your handprint looking unsteady.

sometimes it is tuesday, and you didn't get fired, and you want to celebrate. but what is it you like, even? you search around your little heart and come up empty. you're so used to denying that all your desires draw a blank.

oh fuck. see, this is the perfect opportunity. if you had a mixer, you'd make a cake.

#warm up #this isn't good #writeblr #this is complicated by the fact i can't stand up too long or i fuckken pass out and <3 hit my damn head <3 #but i did take a deep breath and buy myself the stupid rice cooker #and!!! a very cheap sushi kit!!! i have been wanting to try making sushi for literally YEARS #the kit was only like 15 dollars!!!! and i haven't purchased it bc?!!??!?!?!?!!? #..... i didn't get the mixer tho that felt. like a lot. like too much. #on my list is a kitchenaid. one day when i get a check and i have paid off my student debt #and medical debt #i will put that first little bit of cash #into a kitchenaid 5qt stand mixer (with attachments) #i really do just go into their refurbished section and stare lustily at each option #but yeah i feel guilty about the rice cooker even tho i know for a fact this damn thing is gonna be a lifesaver #oh shit also fuck i forgot to mention . poached eggs

[go-go-gadget-autism]

”Right. And what’s his name?”

“Simon.”

you stare at your husband for a second, dumbfounded. “and… what’s his last name?”

“Riley.”

“…You named your dog Simon Riley.”

He grinned from ear to ear. “Bloody handsome name, innit?” You sighed, dragging your hand down your face. “You are so stuck up sometimes.”

“You always said you wanted a guard dog.” Right, and now you’ve got two of them. “Is he chipped-?” “Got him all ‘is necessary shots and the like, birdie. Don’t worry your pretty little head.” He presses a kiss to your forehead, and you can’t help but smile at him. As strange as your husband may be…

You think he’s perfect.

#just a really short thing i couldn’t keep out of my head hehe #cod mwf2 #cod modern warfare #ghost cod #cod #cod mw2 #cod x reader #call of duty #simon ghost riley #modern warfare #simon ghost riley x reader #ghost simon riley #simon ghost #simon riley #simon riley x reader #simon riley x you #simon ghost x reader #ghost modern warfare #ghost mw2 #ghost call of duty #ghost #simon ghost riley x you #simon ghost x you #call of duty modern warfare #call of duty mwii #call of duty simon ghost riley

[wishingformoredogs]

Tired of “oh Percy would be a marine biologist” “oh Percy would be a teacher” that man is a stay at home dad. And I mean that.

#that is the only thing that makes sense in my head #boy is going to college just to hang out with his gf bsffr #a marine biologist absolutely not #the only ‘ist’ that boy is ever gonna be is a feminist #Annabeth is an architect #Percy is a stay at home dad #they live by the beach #during summer they help run the camp when their kids go #headcannon #percy jackson #percabeth #percy jackson and the olympians #annabeth chase #heroes of olympus #rick riordan #percy jackson and the heroes of olympus #fanfiction #wishingformoredogs #chalice of the gods

[kaban-bang]

Farcille

#just something quick between commissions because I needed to get this out of my head #dungeon meshi #farcille #marcille donato #falin touden #cw blood #muh art

[mycrazyramblings]

Té y Galletas con Pandora 5: El Regalo Perfecto

by @ulmo80​

Cuando salió de la oficina, el alumbrado público competía con los LED de los anuncios publicitarios. Esperaba no fuera demasiado tarde para ir a la tienda de antigüedades en donde había visto el perfecto regalo de cumpleaños para su novia.

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#my crazy ramblings #té y galletas con pandora #regalo de cumpleaños #birthday present #No puedo decir más #sería spoiler #oneshot #one-shot #one shot #cuento #relato #cuento corto #relato corto #Cosas que escribo #just out of my head

[nicolinocolino]

#ok i'm getting a hold on the wacom now #sirius black #remus lupin #wolfstar #marauders #hp #* #they're just disgusting dogs #still figuring out how i see them but honestly every time i read a fic they look different in my head so.

[decideroffacts]

not active in the wc fandom here but sometimes they say cool shit

#warrior cats #warrior cats fanart #moonpaw #moonpaw wc #i drew this in the wrong colorspace and now it looks so much worse on my monitor than my tablet im so upset!!!! #i just wanted to get this image out of my head and onto a screen tho so its fine i guess

[izacore]

You remember Jane Austen? Yeah. I'm not gonna forget her in a hurry, am I? The brains behind the 1810 Clerkenwell Diamond Robbery. Brandy smuggler. Master spy. What a piece of work. She wrote books. Novels. Jane? Austen? Yes! Whoa, bit of a dark horse. Novels, eh? Yes. They were very good. Good Omens (2019-) || Pride and Prejudice (2005)

#good omens #goodomensedit #ineffable husbands #pride and prejudice #good omens 2 #good omens season 2 #gomens #good omens spoilers #michael sheen #david tennant #aziracrow #aziraphale x crowley #aziraphale #crowley #my gifs #i hope you guys see my vision akjxj #i just couldn't get it out of my head #also i love how it took this concepted and subverted it and used it #there's crowley putting his pride aside in the final confession #but aziraphale is still prejudiced towards the hell and demons #convinced that heaven are good guys #also side note but finding a good quality pride and prejudice online was a piece of work #pls don't let it flop #edit: this post is officially neil gaiman like approved #i can't believe i got to write this

[giantkillerjack]

Today my therapist introduced me to a concept surrounding disability that she called "hLep".

Which is when you - in this case, you are a disabled person - ask someone for help ("I can't drink almond milk so can you get me some whole milk?", or "Please call Donna and ask her to pick up the car for me."), and they say yes, and then they do something that is not what you asked for but is what they think you should have asked for ("I know you said you wanted whole, but I got you skim milk because it's better for you!", "I didn't want to ruin Donna's day by asking her that, so I spent your money on an expensive towing service!") And then if you get annoyed at them for ignoring what you actually asked for - and often it has already happened repeatedly - they get angry because they "were just helping you! You should be grateful!!"

And my therapist pointed out that this is not "help", it's "hLep".

Sure, it looks like help; it kind of sounds like help too; and if it was adjusted just a little bit, it could be help. But it's not help. It's hLep.

At its best, it is patronizing and makes a person feel unvalued and un-listened-to. Always, it reinforces the false idea that disabled people can't be trusted with our own care. And at its worst, it results in disabled people losing our freedom and control over our lives, and also being unable to actually access what we need to survive.

So please, when a disabled person asks you for help on something, don't be a hLeper, be a helper! In other words: they know better than you what they need, and the best way you can honor the trust they've put in you is to believe that!

Also, I want to be very clear that the "getting angry at a disabled person's attempts to point out harmful behavior" part of this makes the whole thing WAY worse. Like it'd be one thing if my roommate bought me some passive-aggressive skim milk, but then they heard what I had to say, and they apologized and did better in the future - our relationship could bounce back from that. But it is very much another thing to have a crying shouting match with someone who is furious at you for saying something they did was ableist. Like, Christ, Jessica, remind me to never ask for your support ever again! You make me feel like if I asked you to call 911, you'd order a pizza because you know I'll feel better once I eat something!!

Edit: crediting my therapist by name with her permission - this term was coined by Nahime Aguirre Mtanous!

Edit again: I made an optional follow-up to this post after seeing the responses. Might help somebody. CW for me frankly talking about how dangerous hLep really is.

#hlep #original #mental health #my sympathies and empathies to anyone who has to rely on this kind of hlep to get what they need. #the people in my life who most need to see this post are my family but even if they did I sincerely doubt they would internalize it #i've tried to break thru to them so many times it makes my head hurt. so i am focusing on boundaries and on finding other forms of support #and this thing i learned today helps me validate those boundaries. the example with the milk was from my therapist. #the example with the towing company was a real thing that happened with my parents a few months ago while I was age 28. 28! #a full adult age! it is so infantilizing as a disabled adult to seek assistance and support from ableist parents. #they were real mad i was mad tho. and the spoons i spent trying to explain it were only the latest in a long line of #huge family-related spoon expenditures. distance and the ability to enforce boundaries helps. haven't talked to sisters for literally the #longest period of my whole life. people really believe that if they love you and try to help you they can do no wrong. #and those people are NOT great allies to the chronically sick folks in their lives. #you can adore someone and still fuck up and hurt them so bad. will your pride refuse to accept what you've done and lash out instead? #or will you have courage and be kind? will you learn and grow? all of us have prejudices and practices we are not yet aware of. #no one is pure. but will you be kind? will you be a good friend? will you grow? i hope i grow. i hope i always make the choice to grow. #i hope with every year i age i get better and better at making people feel the opposite of how my family's ableism has made me feel #i will see them seen and hear them heard and smile at their smiles. make them feel smart and held and strong. #just like i do now but even better! i am always learning better ways to be kind so i don't see why i would stop

[slaughtersafe]

“The great angel, Arthur, shall smote you down”

#arthur morgan #can't get that line out of my head I'm just ddkwjwjsjsdndjs #rdr2 fanart