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Operation Bosco: Revisited, IV
Jemma had always been prettier than her.
Smarter.
Funnier.
More charismatic and friendly.
People gravitated towards her, when they were kids. She had an air about her that was captivating and made her difficult to forget.
It helped too that, genuinely, she was just a nice person.
She was always the first one to speak to someone new, encourage her friends in their studies and activities and oh shit, just thinking back to those days made Shaeâs head hurt.
Jenna was everything she wasnât.
Or at least Shae thought so, when they were teenagers trapped in their town, with their peers, and everything else felt out of reach. Jemmaâs ability to easily express herself, draw others to her side, seem like she really listened when others spoke, those were all traits that made her appealing, when they were younger.
But that felt like forever ago now, to Shae, as she and Jemma began their walk. It was in the opposite direction that Locke had been drug off to, but the pathway was no less lush. Fall was upon them and in the summerâs dying gaze, the flowers and foliage had begun to prep for the coming winter, so perhaps the maze wasnât at itâs maximum beauty, but Shae felt captured by it all the same.
Jemma had changed her hair color recently, the same light blonde that her mother had, and Shae was off-put by it at first, given it wasnât how she always pictured her former girlfriend, but as they walked silently along beside one another, it was hard to deny that it contrasted her skin tone perfectly.
âWhoâs the guy?â Jemma finally asked when it was clear, after her ten second explanation, Shae had found herself lost for words once more. âThat you came in with? Is he-â
âI work with him,â Shae reiterated softly, glancing over at the other woman. âHe and his girlfriend are helping our team infiltrate Bosco.â
âWhy?â
âBecause of the slave trade, Jemma,â Shae replied, somewhat confused, but the woman only shook her head.
âI meant,â Jemma questioned, âHow did you and your mother get caught up in all of that? Last I heard, you were out on the coast and-â
âAnd,â Shae finished for her, âwhile we were there, slavers struck and they captured us. I-IâŚâ
âOh, Shae, I had no idea.â Jemma stopped suddenly, turning to face her with. âI heard about them hitting the coasts, but I had no idea you⌠Are you-â
âI escaped,â she insisted simply to the other woman with a nod. âBut my mother and I were separated. Iâve been searching for her while working with a group I met. Itâs a rebel operation, I guess, but we all just want to help the enslaved in Bosco.â
Sheâd been poised, Jemma had, to comfort the other woman in some way, but before she could even reach out to rub at her shoulder or draw her in for a hug, Shae had sealed any portion of herself off that required pity. The wetness behind her green eyes dried and her stance became closed off, retreating maybe, even, as she couldnât meet Jemmaâs gaze, instead staring off into the hedge behind the woman.
âIâm not asking you to get involved in that or help find my mother or even feel bad for me about any of it.â Shae held her head higher as, finally looking the other woman in the eyes, she insisted, âI just want you to help remove some rocks. Thatâs all. Weâll get you into Bosco, you do a few days work for us, and then we can go back to not talking.â
Jemma didnât back down her gaze, instead giving her head the tiniest of shakes as she insisted, âYou have some nerve, you know that?â
âI really donât,â Shae insisted. âLocke had to practically drag me here. I wouldnât have come if it wasnât absolutely necessary.â
âThese tunnels⌠Theyâll help you find your mom?â Jemma asked and, when Shae nodded some, the other woman let out a bit of a sigh before remarking, âI love your mother. If itâll help save her, Iâll do whatever I can.â
It felt like a victory, even if it was just a small one, and as Shae found it difficult to hide her grin, Jemma only stepped up to finally hug her, and it would be worth it, Locke was assuring himself, on a separate path, where his arm was wrapped up just as tightly by the younger of the two sisters. Jessica was the name that she gave him while she only continued to nuzzle her way against his arm.
âGod that sounds so exciting,â she was remarking as Locke explained, uncomfortably, what the day to day life of a mage might look like. The profession was hardly a standard one in the Kingdom of Joya, given its lack of innate magical energy, and instead seemed to be more part of the mythos of the kingdoms blessed with it. âAnd you come from a family of mages?â
âMother, father, yep,â he agreed with a nod. âMy dadâs a pretty big deal especially, back in Fiore.â
âWow.â And she seemed to grip his bicep harder then and, after finding every attempt to gently pry her off not working, Locke decided it was time to bring out the big bomb.
âYeah,â he went on. âMy girlfriendâs Dad is pretty famous too. All the Dreyars are, I guess, in some way. Most of them, anyways.â
âGirlfriend?â
âHaven.â He thought of the woman then and all the trouble and havoc she was no doubt raining down on poor Jed. âWeâll be meeting back up with her on the docks.â
Locke had banked on this being enough to draw the disinterest or even ire of the younger woman, but though her grip did relax some, she held tight to his arm anyways.
âLong way out,â she remarked softly. âThe docks are.â
And he could do little more other than frown and try once more to slip his arm away.
âSheâs a demon,â he kept up, almost like a warning. âHonestly. One resides inside her. Through her magic. It can still come out at times, if sheâs angry enough.â
âI donât believe in that.â
âAnger?â Locke asked, incredulous, but the younger woman only giggled and, when she brought her hands up to cover her mouth, he was able to free his arm, quickly taking a faster pace down the path, hoping to avoid being captured once more.
âNo, silly.â And she was sure to match his pace. âDemons.â
âTheyâre real,â he insisted to her. âWhether you believe in them or not.â
âIâve never seen one,â she kept up.
âThen youâre lucky,â Locke assured. âAre you religious?â
âNo,â she answered honestly.
âNeither am I,â he said. âBut thereâs true evil in this world and it delights in our terror. Itâs better not to awaken such things.â
Their path would eventually butt into the one Jemma and Shae was idling down and Locke wasnât sure heâd ever been so happy to see a friend.
âWeâre staying for dinner,â Shae informed him and, suddenly, he wasnât so happy to see her.
Still, he was in a better position that Haven that early evening as she and Porter returned to the bar to collect Jed. He was clearly uneasy by the appearance of the other man and eyed Haven in a way she didnât quite appreciate as she explained theyâd be journeying with him for a day or so.
âUntil we go back to the docks,â she remarked. âYou donât have to come. You can stay at your fatherâs cabin and Iâll collect you later.â
âWhat exactly are you doing?â Jed asked. âHaven?â
âPorterâs going to find us that woman. The one that sold you.â
âHaven-â Jed started as heâd already told her, earlier in the evening, that this was not something that he wanted to happen, bu the woman merely shook her head.
It was awkward. The whole thing. Like threading pieces of her your life together that didnât quite fit. Haven was someone new now, that Porter didnât know, and that really, Jed didnât either. The time sheâd spent with both men, one more recent than the other, but the former more intimate than she quite wanted to admit. It would be difficult, in better circumstances, to blend these different faucets together seamlessly, but Haven had never shied away from the difficult.
âThis is your last chance, Jed,â she insisted to him, pleaded, almost. âIâm not saying that we hurt her or anything. Iâm just saying⌠I died once. Thereâs just shit that you have to do before that happens. And in Bosco⌠You should should at least see her, before we leave. Or her fucking brother. Whichever we find.â
Jed was different. Than Haven. Than the people sheâd grown up with. Much like Locke, she was seeing just what a lack of easily accessible magic could cause. Vendettas and revenge were for novels and movies; they werenât meant to be something you actually partook in. The standard morals and laws of Joya had been built in a way to reflect itâs population; it was far more heavily regulated than the lawlessness that could oft be found in Fiore. You had officers of the law who werenât just around to insure then integrity of the Kingdomâs capital and keep its Queen protected; most municipalities had their own jails and systems of governing that felt wholly unknown to the blonde.
âItâs not,â he tried, one last time, Jed did, to make her understand this, âthe way we do things here.â
âAnd selling people to slavers is?â
âNo!â he huffed. âBut-â
âBut nothing, Jed,â Haven asserted then, feeling the winning tide wash over her as, slowly, the man seemed to be won over by her words. âThis is closure.â
âThereâs no such thing,â he retorted. âAnd you know that. You have to.â
âI know that I didnât get it, the first time around,â she agreed. âBut that doesnât mean that Iâm not going to this time. Now come on! The more time we waste, the more likely we are to miss the boat and then Locke will be his whiny little bitch boy self for the entire ride on whatever other boat we find. I really wanna avoid that.â
âSo you enlist the help of him?â Jed couldnât quite say he knew much about Porter, but heâd seen how Locke had reacted to the manâs presence.
At the moment, Porter was standing off to the side, observing and silent in a way that Haven wasnât accustomed. He seemed to be someone new now as well, or at least processing something heavy, and while Haven had no interest in what was eating at the man, his earlier mention of some sort of evil magic he and his gang had run into had her somewhat intrigued.
Even if only in passing.
To Jed though, she merely shrugged as she remarked, âYou canât always choose your connections.â
âIs that what youâll tell Locke?â
âI donât have to tell Locke shit.â She soured immediately. âIâm doing this for you. If you donât want my help, fine.â
âIâŚâ Jed sighed some, glancing around the bar, as if looking for some sort of sign. When none appeared, he found himself gazing into the deep blues of the blonde. âI want to make it back to the dock in time. I do not wish to inconvenience neither Shae nor Locke.â
âMe either,â Haven agreed with a nod before glancing over at Porter. âSo letâs get started, huh?â
The evening, for them, would hardly be interesting. Instead, after finding a communication lacrima, Porter would have to play a quick game of verbal tag with anyone he knew in the area. It was slow going, cooped up in some motel room with one another, as Porter sat hunched over the desk, writing down info as he listened to various people give him clues and hints, while Haven paced and Jed sat on the end of the bed, alternating between nervous sighs and toying with his fingers.
It would be slow going for a few hours.
Though Locke would have certainly put a stop to Havenâs ideas of getting revenge or closure for Jed, he absolutely would have rather been off doing that sort of menial work than where he found himself.
The man was a schmoozer, having been born with the natural charisma of his mother (luckily avoiding the awkwardness of his father), and usually enjoyed such settings. He was a cut up who fed on the attention of others praising his quick wit and losing themselves in his tales of bravery.
Haven wasnât the kind to be schmoozed. She was too combative and defensive to let someone drone on about their own accomplishments and life. Which was fine, Locke reasoned many times that if he was attracted to her, and this was one of her more prominent qualities, then surely he must find it attractive.
Somehow.
Still, this left him a bit deprived at times from the attention he typically drew. Most every other girlfriend he had was enthralled with his job and magic and just him, really, and it was nice to be appreciated sometimes.
ButâŚ
When they sat down for dinner that night it was in the company, of course, of the two sisters, but also their mother. And while she seemed rather interested and disheartened when she heard of Shaeâs troubles (though her daughterâs future involvement in the work was not mentioned), but far more interested in Locke.
Which was nice, as stated previously, because he did enjoy throwing on his most personable traits, but there was another at the table who was also eating up every word out of his mouth.
Jessica across from him at the eight person dining table, fully intent on staring deeply in his eyes any time he accidentally caught her gaze. She found his magic intriguing, his life more so life and how long, exactly, was he staying in Joya anyways?
More than once, Locke looked to Shae, hoping she would, well, help him somehow, but she kept her eyes on her plate and only spoke when spoken to.
Across from her and beside her sister, Jemma sat prim and proper as she mostly picked at her dinner and made similar small talk with Locke as her mother. Things seemed pleasant yet tense and Locke could hardly wait for it to all be over.
âSo when you collect a reward for a completed job,â the mother was questioning then, tilting her head a bit as she looked to the man, âmust you give some of it to your guildhall? Or do you pay fees?â
âWell, they get a fee directly from the client, for getting their job posted in the first place,â he said with a bit of a shrug and he would have left it at that. Really, he would have. However, beneath the table, Jessica again tried to brush her foot against his and he was sure to add, âMy girlfriend, Haven, her younger sister works in the bar. They know more about the behind the scene stuff than I do. At least, her sister does. Not Haven. Actually, you know, weâre supposed to be meeting with her, soon. Weâll probably have to take off right after dinner.â
âReally?â The mother sighed some, looking off as she remarked, âMy father was quite the adventurer, once upon a time.â
Shaeâs head lifted then as, suddenly, a thought occurred to her. Without much thought, she questioned, âHow is your grandfather?â
Even Jessica stopped trying to gather Lockeâs attention then as all three women looked rather distraught.
âHe passed,â was all Jemma seemed willing to offer up, but her mother filled Shae in on the details.
âIt was awful,â she admitted with a shake of her head. âHe started feeling ill at the beginning of the month and the illness took him before his end. It still feels unreal, at times.â
âIâm sorry.â Shae looked around to all three of them, frowning some as she insisted, âI didnât know.â
âOh, sweetheart, how would you?â Jemmaâs mother shook her head. âNone of us quite know when our time is. What can you do in the mean time other than live?â
Locke frowned some, shifting uncomfortably in his head. Death wasnât common in his life, prior to Havenâs demise on the gauntlet, it and was difficult for him to associate it with anything other than his one foray into the topic. Â
Still, with a nod of his own head, he remarked softly, âItâs sad all the same.â
âLiving, though,â Shae decided then, glancing over at Locke, as if to get him to follow suit, âis kind of why weâre here. Adventure and all that. Right, Locke?â
âUh, yeah, I guess so.â Nodding his head, he remarked, âWorking in Bosco can be, uh, veryâŚ.eye opening.â
âIâve heard itâs beautiful,â the mother remarked with a bit of a sigh. âWell, certain parts.â
âMom,â Jemma interrupted with a frown towards her. âThey literally harbor slaves. They captured Shae.â
âIâm not saying that people are beautiful, Jemma,â her mother retorted with a roll of her eyes. âJust the landscape.â
âItâs okay,â Locke told them both with a shrug, hoping to keep the peace. âI guess thereâs beautiful people everywhere.â
âYeah.â Jessica sat to attention once more as she stared at lock with wide eyes. âI guess there are.â
âJemmaâs right though,â Shae remarked. âBosco needs to be dealt with. And weâve been making progress, but weâve run into aâŚ.slight problem. And⌠Jemma could help us.â
There was an awkward beat then, as Jemma hadnât quite planned to inform her mother of the venture in this manner, while Jessica and their mother merely froze, thoughts racing for both but in different directions.
âHelp you,â the mother finally repeated and Locke was quick to take over.
âThe tunnel system weâre using to transport slaves out of Bosco is run down,â he explained, âand certain parts are now inaccessible. But with Jemmaâs ability to easily move rocks-â
âYou wanna go down in a gross tunnel and shovel rocks?â Jessica couldnât help it. She laughed, staring over at her sister in amusement. âYou canât honestly be considering that.â
âShut up, Jess,â Jemma retorted with a glare.
âJemma, you cannotâŚtravel to...Bosco.â Her mother shook her head at the thought. âI donât know what theyâve told you, but-â
âItâll be fine, Mom.â Jemma shrugged a bit as she said, âIâm not a slave. I can freely visit Bosco as I wish. If I happen to get there and sneak off into some tunnels-â
âAbsolutely not.â
âMom-â
âYou think that Iâm going to agree with you going to Bosco after your friend came here, telling us her own mother was captured and sold?â
Jemma shook her head a bit at her mother before remarking, âItâs not your decision.â
And it wasnât, maybe, but there was a stickiness, Locke found, in that transition between being a full adult and still remaining under your parents roof. It was something he avoided, easily, given his chosen profession had him earning jewels from a young age, but sympathized, all the same.
Maybe.
Shae hadnât fully explained to him all that had gone wrong with she and Jemma (given they were kids, he figured it was standard shit) and was cautious about getting too chummy with her. It was easy for him sometimes to forget that his relationship was the outlier and heâd had plenty fail before it.
The night was awkward from there.
It was very clear that Mrs. Ainwise wanted them out of there and Shae was very obliging. She told Jemma to meet them at the train station tomorrow morning if she truly intended on traveling with them and then she and Locke kicked off into the night.
Ronan was a beautiful city in the day, but at night, with all the shops lit up and the electric vibe running through the crowd of people that filled the heart of the city, it was hard for even Shae to stay mad for long.
Sheâd been kicking at stones, their entire walk away from the Ainwise residence, and Locke left her to whatever thoughts she was having.
They were a bit aimless, wandering around the city with no real place to be for another two days. Shae had some family in town, but no one she seemed keen to drop in on so late at night, and theyâd get a room at an inn or something, she muttered eventually, and Locke echoed agreement.
Before that thought, they had a drink at one of the pubs, Shae even recognizing the guy behind the bar.
âWe went to school together,â she offered to Locke softly and he thought, again, of what it would have been like. To be able to do something like that. And how much more heâd known about breaking down magical spells.
Then he remembered Shae probably didnât spend a lot of time working on that and he thought about how he should open a magical school, where they only taught those sorts of things.
But then he realized that a magical school implies learning a magic, not necessarily studying it, and he would have kids apply who just wanted him to teach them things, as opposed to learning about the things, and that made him think of Haven, and how she never wanted him to really explain how he discovered a new spell for her, just to give it to her, and that made him sigh.
Because he didnât wanna think about Haven then.
He thought about Haven constant.
âShe isnât going to come, you know.â
âYes, she will,â he retorted, automatically, with a bit of aggression behind his words.
âI mean, maybe,â Shae backtracked some, frowning at him. âDidnât know you and Jemma were so close.â
They were seated at a sticky table in the bar, him hunched over his drink about the same she was, each giving off unpleasant energy. Locke drank a lot, in the years he was a single man, and spent a lot of time in bars that werenât just his guild. Drinking wasnât what he did when he got down on himself; it was a social activity for him, one he partook in with friends when he needed a break from the constant grind of jobs.
So his beer offered nothing, but slow drips of sweat across its frosty, glass mug that pooled at the bottom of the glass, adding its own marking, own ring to the table filled with plenty.
âJemma?â Locke shook his head. âI didnât⌠I was talking about Haven.â
âOh.â Frowning, Shae shrugged some as she said, âSheâs fine. Why wouldnât she show up?â
âDunno.â Locke went back to watching the water slowly drip down the side of his mug. âWhy do you think Jemma wonât? Because of her mother?â
Shae wasnât staring at her drink. Or him, even, really. Her eyes were constantly drifting, scanning the others in the bar, looking up every time the front door was opened. It wasnât fearful glancing, rather, Shae seemed to still be soaking it all back in again.
Joya.
Ronan.
Locke wondered if heâd feel the same, whenever he made it home to Magnolia again.
âI donât know.â Shae picked up her mug, but didnât take a sip. âI think she would have gone, the second we left the garden, but once she has more time to think of it, to think of me-â
âWhatâd you do to her, anyways?â
âW-What?â
Locke shrugged some as he sat up then, pulling his own mug to him and taking a swig. After it, he repeated, âWhatâd you do to her, Shae?â
âI donât know what you mean.â
âCâmon.â He even laughed some, forcing himself to feel better just as much as he was attempting to do the same to Shae. âYou wanna hear about how I fucked up once? Â As a primer?â
âI really donât wanna fucking hear about-â
âNot with Haven.â He sniffled some, looking off as he said, âWhen she was gone, in Bosco or whatever the fuck, I⌠I dated a lot and there was this one woman that I was super into. But Iâd just seen Haven, in Crocus, and it made it difficult because she was sending me letters and-â
âAwe.â Shae couldn't help it. She smiled some, more of a sneer, really, as she joked, âYou wrote little love letters?â
âI guess so,â Locke shrugged as she giggled and took a drink. âI did, anyways. Haven just wrote about herself.â
âSounds like her.â
âBut they meant a lot to me. Then. And now, I guess.â He took another swig and sighed as he remarked, âBut I thought that I was falling in love with that other woman. I didnât know what to do about it. Like, what if Haven came back? Or...or⌠I donât know, what if I actually liked Terra more, you know? So you have to weigh all your options.â
âBird in the hand, two in the bush,â Shae offered around her drink to which he nodded.
âShe was at my place one day, when the mail came. And one of Havenâs letters.â Setting his drink down, Locke scratched at the back of his head as his stomach clinched and he felt like an ass, still, all this time later. âAnd she knew about Haven. I guess. Everyone knows something about her.â
âYou never shut up about her.â
âI was better at it,â he retorted with a frown, âbefore she died. Especially when she fucking ditch. But⌠She was still my friend. So it made sense for her to write me. And for my parents to ask about her. Or her parents and sister to talk to and worry about me so much. Or at least thatâs kinda how I played it off, I guess, because who wants to be with someone like that, you know? When theyâre all hung up on some other person?â
Shae considered this for a moment before asking, âSo what happened? Haven came back or-â
âShe saw the letter, remember?â He laughed some. âShe got the mail and was like, âOh, your friend Haven sent you something,â and I tried to take it from her, but she was laughing at me, thinking it was a joke, the way I was so upset by her not giving it to me, and then she opened and Haven wrote⌠Itâs stupid. It was justâŚâ
His laugh that time was even less humorous and Locke wasnât even sure why he was sharing this story. Heâd never even told it to Haven. His friends. Maybe only Pantherlily, as he told the Exceed mostly everything. Â
The story wasnât awful; he wasnât even certain heâd done anything wrong. Dated a woman while he waited for another to come home. People did that shit all the time. He wasnât sleep with Haven then, going out to meet her in motel rooms or anything. Just writing one another.
While he was very openly in a relationship with someone else he expected monogamy from.
Maybe he didnât usually tell the story because it made him out to be the bad guy. And no one in his life, not even the people who hated his guts, would call him that.
He just patently wasnât.
Locke was a good person. He always had been. He was kind and considerate. He wasnât bully and actively looked out for the younger members of the guild. Heâd never purposely disrespect a woman, whether he was dating her or not, honestly, but with some extra special care to the ones he did.
He wasnât so sure this story would even lead to tarnishing that opinion. Haven was mock him, his father would snort and recall his own youth, all his friend had done far worse in relationships.
It was really a non-issue that heâd blown up because he knew it was wrong, deep down, as he was doing it. He could have written Haven, to tell her he was seeing someone and that until she came back to Magnolia to fully commit to him, then he was going to have to move on.
She might have come home.
She might have not.
But that had nothing to do with him and his decisions.
Terra probably didnât think he was a nice person.
He hoped she didnât think about him at all. He hardly did her, now. He imagined, in a few years, as he thought even less about it, when asked to describe the relationship, the best heâd be able to give with a shrug and cite it as a few month fling while he was separated from his girlfriend.
But that wasnât wholly true.
He fell in love with every woman he dated, in silly ways that faded in days usually, but sheâd been different. She really helped him feel better about himself in a time period where he wasnât in the best place mentally. Terra had never heard of breaking down magical spells before and they bonded over it, as he taught her all about it, and it was fun, having someone actively engaging with you and genuinely interested in your interests.
âShe said it was her or Haven.â Locke dropped his arms. âIt wasnât that hard of a choice.â
Shae regarded him for a few moments before remarking, âYouâre stupid, you know that?â
He laughed at her, Locke did, reclaiming his drink as he said, âNow your turn.â
Rolling her eyes, she took a sip of her own. Around it, she replied, âItâs nothing as dramatic as your perfect little love story.â
âYeah thatâs what I think of when I think of perfect,â he agreed. âEmotional cheating and guilt.â
âThere isnât, like, some story about it or whatever.â Now in the hot seat, Shae wasnât enjoying it near as much. âI just⌠Sometimes⌠Locke-â
âWeâre friends,â he told her. âDo you remember when you were kids and youâd, like, cut your palm and smash it into the other personâs and that meant you were bonded?â
âIs that what you and Haven did?â She seemed aghast. âIs that what the fuck is wrong with you?â
âWhat the fuck do girls do then?â he asked. âTo become blood brothers?â
âUh, we just donât, Locke.â
âYouâre missing out.â He laughed then and the joy was back in it, the ease. Tilting his head a bit, he said, âIf itâs that bad, you donât have tell me. Iâll just fill in the blanks myself, huh?â
Shae snorted as she remarked, âGross.â
âWhat?â Confused, he asked, âHow is what I said gross?â
âI donât know,â Shae admitted. âBut whenever straight men say that shit, fill in blanks and imagining shit, you always- No, you donât get to act like thatâs not what you meant.â
âItâs not.â Locke was laughing though, while he was trying so hard to seem innocent. It wasnât difficult, as his intentions were pure, but Shae was laughing too and he didnât press her again.
Not while they were at the bar.
It was nice to have a night completely free of their obligations, something that wouldnât be common, the deeper into things they got with Bosco, and Locke forgot.
A lot.
That night.
He forgot about how shitty Bosco made him feel. He forgot about Alwoodâs assistant. He forgot that Porter and Haven had that weird meeting at the docks. He forgot he hated Astra. He forgot who she even was. Maybe even who porter was.
He forgot that theyâd freed people from being horrifically abused and forgot that there were still people, as he drank and loosened up, actively being horrifically abused.
He felt like himself again, for the first time since coming to join the early stages of the resistance.
Shae wasnât a drinker. She never had been. So she kept far more of her composure that night, when they left the bar and stumbled through the streets, laughing and giggling to one another. Sheâd forgotten things too.
Like how good it felt to have someone you actually consider a friend.
Xavier was a kid. Astra was her boss, sort of. And Richard was a gross, older dude she had to put up with. And some of the women theyâd freed, she liked enough, but there wasnât enough space to call them true friend yet.
But that night sealed the deal between her and Locke, it seemed.
They shared a room at the inn, each falling into a separate bed the second they could.
Shae was just buzzed enough to not care that she hadnât had a chance to shower off, but not to comfortably drift off to sleep.
Locke was in a similar state, too drunk to care to tidy himself, but so drunk that sleep wasnât comfortable to him either.
It was while he was moaning, softly, about how much his stomach hurt, that Shae found herself whispering his name softly.
âWhat?â he whispered from over on his cot.
Theyâd chosen the lowliest of inns to rent a room in, purposefully, to save funds. This meant, however, that the room was small, the sheets were stiff, and there was a strange, dripping spot in the ceiling in the corner. Neither was sober enough to care.
Shae was facing away from him, looking towards a painting that hung on the wall of some beach scene, with happy families dotting the little specks of dark and light brown mixing, over looking the blue waves beyond.
To the painting, rather than the man, she said, âI⌠When my dad died, I started to kinda⌠Sometimes I just have to be alone. For long periods of time. Like I shut people out, I guess, sometimes. When they⌠If they get to close. I canât do that. Again. You know? Like itâs one thing to date or fuck around, but⌠Jemma was the first girl I ever felt that way about, when I was a kid, and when we were dating, it was all so good until⌠I donât know. I donât understand that part of me. What makes me like that? And⌠You know, you start to think, are you broken? Why arenât you feeling the same way as everyone else around you? And thenâŚand then school ends and you have to make serious decision and you run off. And donât talk. For weeks. Because youâre trying to figure out what the fuck is wrong with you. And then you come back and youâre dealing with your fucking family behind pissed at you and oh, your girlfriend is fucking done with you, everyoneâs done with you and all you needed was...wasâŚâ
âDowntime.â
âWhat?â Sheâd kinda forgotten he was there. She was just rambling, truly, to herself, and Lockeâs voice shocked her out of it.
âDowntime.â Locke pushed up some, over on his bed, so he could stare at the back of her head more clearly. âThings got too real and you needed time away. Thatâs okay.â
âItâs not though.â Sniffling some, she ran a hand across her face, ending the streaks of tears rolling down her face. âYou canât just fucking take off, Locke. You canât do that to people. And then never even tell them why.â
âThen tell her why.â
âWhat?â
âDo you want Jemma to be your friend again?â He fell back into the bed. âLike not even your girlfriend. Just straight out, do you want her to be your friend?â Without waiting for an answer, he said, âThen tell her why you ran away. Even if it happened a long time ago. We all get scared sometimes, Shae. We all need a break.â
âThat doesnât mean, like, you can just take off though,â she said.
âIâm from a guild.â He rolled over onto his back, groaning some as he said, âI was lucky. My parents loved me. Not all the mages do. Your parents leave for weeks, on jobs that pay shit, then come home and just fucking drink it all away anyways. My still left, but when they were back⌠Maybe my viewâs fucked. I dunno. But a few weeks out of a lifetime?â
âI should have at least told her,â she whispered then, the last hold over of guilt she felt and Locke couldnât spare her it.
âYeah.â He blinked up at the ceiling. âYou should always tell someone. Before you leave.â
âSo-â
âSo,â Locke kept up, âyou didnât. You fucked up. And youâve paid for it. It ruined things between the two of you. Apologize.â
âI canât.â
âJust say youâre sorry.â
âI canât, Locke,â she insisted. âIt was so long ago and-â
âAnd? You think pain goes away because it was a long time ago? It doesnât. People are fucking liars. Time doesnât heal shit. Just helps you forget.â
Shae sat up then, pressing her back against the wire headboard of her cot as she looked over at the man. âAnd you think,â she asked him softly, âthat some stupid words can do it then? Take pain away?â
âYeah.â He tossed an arm over his eyes. âI know they can.â
This was considered silently, from Shae, and for a long while. Long enough, even, that Locke was pretty sure heâd fallen asleep, even if just for a moment, when she began to speak again.
âWhat do you think,â she whispered softly as she sunk back into her bed, âtheyâre doing right now? Back at base?â
He groaned a bit, not even opening his eyes as he said, âMutiny. Against X.â
âYeah,â she agreed. âI could see that.â
âItâs what Iâd do,â he added to which she giggled, maybe a bit.
âWhat about Jed?â she asked. âAnd Haven?â
This one got a different groan out of the man as he rolled onto his side, giving her his back now.
âI dunno,â he admitted softly, âbut probably something dangerous and stupid.â
He wasnât wholly incorrect, given she definitely was going to be attempting, in a two day span, to track down a human trafficker, but at the moment, she wasnât doing anything that different from him.
She was asleep, in the room Porter rented, her breathing so stilled and nearly silent that Jed could only just pick it up, when he concentrated on her very hard.
He didnât sleep, instead sitting up at the end of the bed she was curled up in, silently watching Porter do his best to schmooze others through the lacrima into giving him information.
Jed didnât trust the younger guy. At all. His vibe was off. Not to mention, Locke had clearly disliked him when they met. There was some sort of tension there that Jed didnât understand and had no desire to. Childish chatter about romantic entanglements were for youth, which all three were, and not of his concern.
Haven was his friend, more so than Locke, and his main focus was more making sure she wasnât harmed.
He was putting in the hours though, Porter was, on tracking down names and locations, Jed would give him that. Though he wasnât certain if this is what he wanted (and if it wasnât, what he did want instead), the idea that Haven would cash in a favor with Porter on his behalf was a nice confirmation of just how deep their friendship had become.
YetâŚ.that wasnât the only reason they were there in that moment.
Because whether she could admit it aloud or not, to herself or not, Haven chose to keep Porter around for selfish reasons.
Maybe even part of her had been hoping, that morning on the docks, that heâd be there, like he warned he might.
It wasnât so much that she wanted to sleep with him. Not anymore. Sheâd gotten her fill of Porter, before their final fight, and even if she hadnât gotten killed on the gauntlet, Haven didnât imagine sheâd ever find herself rekindling anything with him.
In fact, the plan had been to hunt him down, once she and Ravan accessed the new power from the gauntlet.
She was still angry back then, though. About everything. Now, removed from it by so long, the man just looked like a shell. A ghost.
Itâs why she wanted to spend more time with him, honestly. It was gnawing at her to know what happened to the others that they palled around with back then. Not out fear for their safety or anything; Haven was just fucking nosy.
She also just really, really wanted to do something fun for once. A mission that didnât end with the absolute misery of knowing, yes, youâve friend a fraction of the silent trapped in Bosco.
Haven wanted a victory.
Just enough to sate her to the next.
When Jed gently shoved her awake, she was a bit dazed and even surprised, maybe a bit, when Porter spoke.
âGot a lead,â he said as she rubbed the sleep from her eyes. âSmall one, but I think itâll take us where we need to go.â
âCool.â Haven, finally, just jammed each palm into her eye sockets, pushing and twisting hard enough that the pain woke her fully. As she dropped her hands, she looked over at the man, blonde hair askew following her slumber. Grinning at him, it was hard for Porter not to return it at the woman said, âThen letâs head out.â
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