#nat is just like

[albatris]

I have a full day tattoo tomorrow, maybe 8 hours, I'm going to get so much rental car writing done on my phone! (lying)

#best of intentions #but probly I'll be 2 sleepy and out of it lol #gotta get up earleeeeeweey #tomorrow i will be working on the tag on my murderboard titled #Nat Finch had the single most distressing week of his young life so far #<3! #his eyes bleed in front of his mechanic! he has a panic attack in a doctor's waiting room! he has sudden murderous cravings! the #mysterious force that's plaguing his body and altering his organs starts doing freaky agonising shit to his stomach and STOPS as #soon as someone calls an ambulance on nat again and people try to help him then STARTS AGAIN immediately after they leave #like it doesn't want to get fucking found out and is sentient enough to know it's being observed :) #nat is just like #why does the sun hurt make me hurt. what is this new allergic reaction. why is everything so loud all the time. wow these #intrusive thoughts sure are rough. why am i so hungry all the time no matter what i eat. whats with this fucking #perfume i keep smelling on everyone its so annoying it smells delicious and keeps reminding me how hungry i am :((( #whats happening to me :((( #lmao looks like someone didn't read the blurb before they signed on to be protagonist <3 #but yeah lmao he goes to beg his mechanic not to charge him extra but midway through the conversation #he coughs up blood and his eyes start glowing and bleeding and get kinda red and demonic lookin n whatever n #his mechanic is suddenly just like UH ACTUALLY NEVER MIND DONT WORRY ABOUT PAYING HAVE A NICE DAY #aka ''whatever the fuck this guy is i want nothing to do with it'' #n nat is just like #aww that was nice! i dont really get why he did that but I'm not complaining! maybe he just thought i was a bit down and took #pity on me? #<- has no idea he looked like a fucking demon sent straight from hell

[nattousan]

i love people's willingness to get hype over dumb shit.

I was driving home today and pull up to a light. As i'm slowing down i 👁️👁️ lock 👁️👁️ eyes with the dude in the car next to me. I spring into action, this is the moment I've been waiting for.

Now, something you must know about me is I drive around with several small plastic 🦀crabs 🦀 on my dashboard, One: for the whimsy of it all and two: on the off chance i encounter another driver who i think could benefit from witnessing them.

This young gentleman was one such someone.

As i pull up, as previously stated, our eyes lock and I hold up one☝️ finger☝️

Perplexed by my unprompted gesticulation, the young man rolls down his window, "what the devil could this perfect stranger be about to tell me?" he might have been thinking.

I present a singular dashboard crab, green and brown, homely but not without its charm.

I study his reaction, grinning encouragingly. He's nodding, obviously intrigued by my plasticine crustacean.

I wag my finger and shake my head, removing the crab from view. Confusion again, but he leans forward, invested. I have him now.

I grab my second dashboard crab, a rotund white and brown crab, easily the most beautiful of my crabs as it sports large discernible claws of an attractive size and silhouette.

✌️ TWO ✌️ i tell him.

He's cheering now, and rightly so, as these are delightful little beasts that anyone would be happy to encounter. But now comes the clincher, time to seal the deal.

My finger wags once more. He's awestruck, I have him completely enraptured. If a car had come and smeared us both into the pavement we would not have noticed, so wrapped up in my display were we.

I bring out my showstopper: a bright pink spider crab with delicately long legs the likes of which had never before nor since been seen in mid afternoon traffic.

As emphatically as i can express, I display all three of my dashboard crabs to this man, three fingers pressed triumphantly to the glass.

the guy is losing it in his car, mouth wide in what i assume to be a primal shout of crab derived excitement. His arms are pumping so vigorously its shaking his stationary vehicle.

We sit there, sharing in a moment of mutual jubilation, and then the light changes, and we move forward in line. He drives off, honking his horn in rapturous exultation,

and we part ways, exactly the same perhaps but changed nonetheless.

🦀

#nat chats #like i tell it very flowery but that's literally what happened #i wanna make a bumper sticker that just says “ask me about my crabs” #just so i can show people #og post

[inkskinned]

yesterday while feverish i wrote about how boats can moor next to each other like pigeons, cooing with the gentle rap of water against their hull. you once said that that the way i see things - birds in the water, feathers in marina paint - was "childish and naive." you said i'd been misdiagnosed - "it can't all be adhd. you might be just kind of stupid and lazy."

i still do certain things like how you taught me - turn the pillow case inside out before putting it on. drive defensively. hate myself entirely.

the prompt for this poem is "mahler's fifth." i wish it wasn't, but mahler's fifth was our song. it ended up in my book. every person that knows your name has promised me they'll give you one swift rabbit punch, right to the face. dean read the book and showed up on my front porch, drenched in sweat from running the 8 miles at 4 in the morning. he was shaking. pacifist and gentle - he works with children - i'd never seen him furious. a punch isn't going to do it, he said, and then said i'm sorry. i had to come to see if you were okay.

mahler's fifth was mine first, like my girlhood. i like the way each movement piles onto the next movement, each instrument bleeding into the next. i like the horn version the best. before i met you, i danced to it on grass still-wet from sprinklers.

later you would tell me that the way you heard it was somehow better. you understood something in it that i couldn't quite wrap my fingers into. once, on our anniversary, you asked the classical music radio station to play it for us. we missed hearing it because we were fighting. one of the things people get wrong about abuse is that sometimes victims are, like, brutally aware of the stupidity of our situation. what do you mean that you thought i wasn't good enough for you? you? you're just... nothing.

sometimes people can pull the poetry out of your life. i watched my words become clothesline, and then thin out into kite twine. i watched you chew through every good syllable of me. so many good songs and places and moments were ruined. i am glad you didn't like most of my music - less to tie back to you.

but still mahler's fifth. the music swells, and i am 21 and throwing up in a bathroom on my birthday. a woman i will later refer to as lesbian jesus runs a cool hand down my back, her perfect pantsuit starch-pressed. she told me to leave you. she said - and this is true, and not an invention of rhyme or fantasy - i'm you from the future.

i am 22, and i got home from an award ceremony, and i remember you telling me - you act so proud of yourself when you're actually so fucking embarrassing. i took you to disney world. you took my virginity. i gave up visiting spain for a week with my family - i instead choose you, to spend the time just-cuddling. you called it "our fuck week." the music swells. it probably should have been a red flag that for about 3 years - i just gave up on crying. my grandfather died and you said nothing. my uncle died and you ghosted me for 3 weeks. you said i need to protect myself from your ongoing tragedy.

every so often i come back to the memory of one of our last afternoons in person. i had just told you that i wasn't going to law school, despite the free ride - i was going to join a creative writing program. master's in fine arts. i was going to finally do it - i was going to follow my dreams. this blog was already internet-famous. however reluctantly, i would occasionally refer to myself as a poet. i got into umass amherst's writing program for fiction authors. it is one of the the top 5 programs in the country.

wait are you seriously considering actually attending that? dumbfounded, you turned completely towards me in your seat. for the 3rd time in our relationship, you almost crashed the car. you actually want to be a writer?

the first time i went viral, it was for a poem i wrote about you:

he wants to say i love you but keeps it to goodnight because love will take some falling and she's afraid of heights.

every time i see that, i want to throw up. you weren't in love with me, you were in love with the control you had over me. a little truth though: i am afraid of heights. you caught a rabbitgirl and skinned her alive.

mahler's fifth still makes me sick.

give me that back. give me back music. give me back everything i had before you. give me back fearlessness. give me back bravery. give me back a scarless body.

give me back what you took from me.

#nosebleed club #sorry stephen not ur fault #just like. thinking #writeblr #spilled ink #warm up #every time nat is like - oh let me get that for u #im like .... this is a trick right like ur gonna be mean now bc u did something nice rn #so obviously if ur being nice now either u did something mean and im about to learn about it #or you're going to BE mean #or ur gonna hold this over my head forever and i'll never get a nice thing ever again? #and every time nat is like .... babe i just actually like u #lesbian jesus story is 100% real btw. she also told me not to be an event planner #literally changed the shape of my life

[grayintogreen]

“Shauna tries so hard to be a good person but sucks at it” vs “Natalie tries so hard to be an awful person but sucks at it.”

Shauna is fully capable and willing to kill and lie and cheat while maintaining this perfect apple pie illusion of a wholesome life and her family stays by her but even they’re starting to see the cracks in the veneer.

Natalie believes she destroys everything she touches, is constantly on a downward spiral of self-destruction, and hates herself for everything she did and yet she can’t even kill a goldfish on purpose and despite being openly antagonistic to everyone in the wellness center, they all seem to really like her.

FASCINATING dichotomy here.

#I feel like there’s so much Lottie vs Nat or Misty vs Nat foil comparisons #but dude she and Shauna are just representing two violent differences in the coping with trauma spectrum #Shauna bottles everything up #Natalie bottles NOTHING up #Shauna causes more destruction on ACCIDENT than Natalie causes on uproar #it’s so interesting!! #and I feel for them both #yellowjackets #yellowjackets spoilers #shauna shipman #natalie scatorccio

[zzztlk]

MONSTER YURI PART 4 / END. Thanks for reading! See you for the main comic!

#ttb #nat #regan #Low key felt like I should've just left it at part 3 #But I like to keep to keep my comfort:terror ratio a nice 51:49 #webcomic

[the-cat-and-the-birdie]

Good googely moogely somebody get this boy an ADHD evaluation immediately

#omg he's just like me #he has the attention span of a nat #Miles JUST STARTED and he's like 'hurry up 😭😭' #relax pavitr #spiderman #atsv #spider man #marvel #across the spiderverse #pavitr prabhakar #pavitr #spiderman india

[nataliesscatorccio]

Shauna and the baby were probably both going to die. depending on your interpretation of the dream realm, maybe for a time Shauna did die. something brought her back, or kept her from staying there. but it wasn't Mari's "wilderness, I hope Shauna doesn't die" or Travis' well intended but useless blood magic (recall Lottie "can't this just be enough? please?" it was never enough) or even the baby's death covering the symbol on the blanket in blood. those are futile hopes and bargains. the baby was already doomed. and the wilderness doesn't trade, we know this. it chooses. someone has to die. it took Crystal and spared Shauna. Shauna thinks she's been snubbed by the group and by extension the wilderness when it takes Javi and Nat is crowned, but what she fails to see is that she was chosen first. she keeps being chosen! not to die, to live. Coach Martinez dying to put her oxygen mask on. Jackie dying to later feed her. the wilderness taking Crystal (where is her body? it belongs to the wilderness now) to get Shauna through a dangerous labor. Nat dying in her place as the queen of hearts twenty-five years later. maybe it always did like Nat best, but it killed for Shauna first. and it kept killing for her. for girls like Shauna (and for girls like the Wilderness) isn't that just the shape love makes? a knife wound.

#shauna: i just want to be seen and loved and worshiped for the crazy bitch i am #the wilderness: i see and love and worship you for the crazy bitch you are #shauna: not like that i miss jackie #i think there's a solid argument that it killed nat's dad for her first but since it's pre-crash timeline i am going to respectfully exclud #that from my analysis lololol #for nat the shape of love is a bullet hole in this essay I will #shauna shipman #yellowjackets #lottie matthews #travis martinez #coach martinez #crystal yellowjackets #natalie scatorccio #mari yellowjackets

[vanpalmr]

TAISSA & VAN (FEAT. NATALIE) YELLOWJACKETS 1.02 | 1.04 | 1.05 | 2.03

#van palmer #taissa turner #yellowjackets #natalie scatorccio #* #taissa x van #vantai #taivan #liv hewson #jasmin savoy brown #sophie thatcher #i just love these moments #it's just like Just for Them you know. #gfs who snark together... reunite 20something years later :-) #and add nat to the mix. i love this trio. #i'm trying a new font... big day for me

[jacobglaser]

Crowley + Aziraphale Appreciation Week // Day 4 - Tropes or Emotions ➼ Romance tropes

Now that sounds unlikely. Works every time apparently.

#good omens #ihaw23 #dailyineffablehusbands #ineffable husbands #aziracrow #aziraphale x crowley #aziraphale #crowley #david tennant #michael sheen #goodomensgifs #goodomensedit #dailygoodomens #goedit #mygifs #nat gifs good omens #trying to remember how to do the background colouring almost broke my brain. i havent done something like that in maybe 2 years #and it wasnt that hard! my brain just completely forgot how to do it

[poppytuft]

trying not to talk too much abt the bear s2 but im Really fuckin frustrated that even with everyone demanding that they’re sooo media literate and sooo smart that no one has talked about claire and the way she sparks audience discomfort. like, she feels out of place within the show because CARMY cannot accept that he is getting this good thing—she feels out of place in HIS life. she’s actually crafted to be the ideal girlfriend, with glowy bokeh lighting in a grocery store and beauty shot close ups and a sweet instrumental leitmotif to show to you, an audience member, that she’s too good to be true in carmys eyes. if you’re an audience member, she raises alarm bells in YOUR head because she raises alarm bells in HIS. he literally tells us that—that’s the crux of his final monologue, that he doesn’t believe he can have the life of food and wines best chef and a life of love and human connection. he doesn’t believe he’s deserving of good things because his family has always been so fucked, because nothing he’s ever tried to hold together has held together—except for his cooking. it’s done this way on purpose, to make you feel that anxiety that he feels around this relationship, and to make you question why you feel it too

#the bear s2 #the bear spoilers #the bear #eenposting #carmy berzatto #the bear s2 spoilers #the bear season 2 spoilers #IDK IF THIS IS PHRASED RIGHT BUT LIKE #DO YOU REAAAALLY THINK THAT THE WRITERS WHO GAVE US FISHES ARE GOING TO DO SOMETHING UNINTENTIONAL #LIKE YOU. YOUUUUU #oh my GOD #everythifn in this show is so fucking meticulously crafted. CLAIRE WAS PURPOSEFUL #claire was PURPOSEFUL she was kind and lovely and beautiful and lived a perfectly mundane life which is NOT THE LIFE YHAT CARMY LIVES #and he can’t find the place where those two things meet #he can’t find the place where calm and peace and love and adoration exist next to or inside the chaos of culinary life #and while there IS A PLACE WHERE THEY CAN LIVE TOGETHER. everything that happens to him this season yells at him that it’s impossible #and confirms this ridiculous notion #his uncle sydney the fridge moment. they’re all just fuckin yelling at him that it doesn’t work #BUT. RICHIE NAT AND CLAIRE HERSELF. ALL CONFIRM THAT THEY COULD EXIST TOGETHER #he just can’t find it. and he won’t find it till he makes peace with himself and his childhood #and figures out WHY he got into this business (he still is trying to prove something. he’s still trying to prove he’s worth it) #edit: INCH RESTINNG YOU ALL TOOK THIS TO SHIPPING AND SYDCARMY. NEVER SAID ANYTHING ABT THAT GUYS #NEEEEEVER SAID ANYTHING ABT TJAT.

[lefthandarm-man]

Steve Rogers & Natasha Romanoff The Avengers (2012)

matching each others freak

#marveledit #dailymarvelgifs #steverogersedit #blackwidowedit #steve rogers #natasha romanoff #black widow #captain america #the avengers #my gifs #another one baby #this came along a lot easier and faster #helps that it was all one scene so i could do basically the same coloring and stuff #anyways i love this scene it makes me fucking crazy #i love these two im so sad about what happened to them individually but also as a duo #they barely know each other at this point in the avengers but steve totally goes with her completely bonkers idea to hitch a ride on one #of the aliens?? like shes out of her mind #shes not enhanced or anything either the way steve is like yeah shes a badass and very capable but shes also very much human #but he doesnt argue with her at all he sees her throughline and is like well she wouldnt suggest it if she couldnt pull it off #and his like.... awestruck look as she zooms away...... i know he thinks shes so cool #i just love them i love nat and steve as friends i love their dynamic #i dont ship them romantically but like. i do get it

[25shadesoffebruary]

That night, you said you keep looking at me. I want a reason, why?

#kiseki: dear to me #kiseki dear to me #ai di x chen yi #chen yi x ai di #taiwanese bl #taiwan bl #taiwan drama #nat chen #louis chiang #chen yi x eddie #eddie x chen yi #asianlgbtqdramas #asian lgbtq dramas #25shadesedit #userjap #userspicy #there is something about chen yi eyes in this scene that i was just like !!!

[katsmtmsdoodles]

D...Day 3 of drawing Matt's teen facts TvT this got out of hand

S2E3: Link's favorite class was P.E. aka Personal Entertainment which he did whenever Grant had to do taxes, run errands...or whatever else it was that dads did!

#i. this series was supposed to be like. a drawing for each fact 😭😭 #I COULDN'T HELP IT #it was good practice tho lol #i love grant teaching link its so cute #look IK HES A MASS MURDERER BUT REMEMBER LINKS NAT 20 FOR HOW MUCH HE LOVES HIS DAD #i will never shut up about it #anyway #Marco gets random calls from Link when he's having PE #marco just stops in the middle of giving a house tour to a client and holds up a dad finger while he's on the phone with him #my art #dndads #dndads art #dndads s2 #dndads fanart #lincoln li wilson #grant wilson #marco li #dungeons and daddies #dungeons and daddies art #dungeons and daddies s2 #nick close #hes sort of there lol #how tf do people tag for nick #nick foster #wtf?? #nicholas freeman next??? nicky swift??? #idk lmao #li wilson family #ignore the last pose i was losing steam 😭😭😭 #and the background pls for the love of dood 😭😭

[luck-of-the-drawings]

[OLD ART ALERT] A COLLECTION OF SCENES FROM THE GILLIONS CATSCRATCH ARC THAT BROUGHT ME GREAT JOY. i love fishy chips especially when its just gillion being delirious and violent and hostile

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi riptide #jrwi riptide spoilers #JUST NOTICED A MILLION MISTAKES FUUUUUUUUCK BUT WWHATEVERRRRR IF I STARE AT THIS ANYMORE IM GONNA HHUURRRLLL #SO I REALLY LIKE FISH AND CHIPS RIGHT. IVE BEEN IN LOVE W THE SHIP EVER SINCE THAT NAT 20 KISS #BUT I THINK I SHIP IT WRONG. OR LIKE. I AM CORRECT BUT EVERYONE SHIPS THEM DIFFERENTLY #THE FISH N CHIPS I SEE EVERYWHERE ELSE IS SO FLOWERY AND SWEET AND ROMANTIC. AND THATS NICE! THAT STUFFS NEAT #but gillion and chip would NEVERRRR enter anything similar to a romantic relationship. chips too damaged and gillions too uninterested #I LIKE MY FISH N CHIPS ONE SIDED AS FUCK #bc 2 gillion chip is his best friend in the whole wide world but hes also kinduvagross little man that took him a MINUTE to really warm up2 #but to CHIP gillion is this powerful and gorgeous and heroic paragon of destiny and his best friend in the whole world who will #bring about the eschaton. 'i didnt believe in destiny until i met you' until i met a champion radiating with a light thatll alter the world #OHH REMEMBER THE FIRST ICE ARENA?he was so mad.still probably shaking from the ordeal.NEVER had he felt true divine radiance CLEAVE through #his SOUL like that.do you remember that moment in the forest w the bugs. an alien from the ocean; lacerating the land w lightning #when the realization flickered in chip for a moment.that the thing standing before him was more powerful than he could ever fathom #remember when grizz mentioned that the nat20 kiss was the 'best kiss chip ever experienced'. that has nothing to do w this. where was i. #LOST MY TRAIN OF THOUGHT. BUT HEY. I THINK at the beginning chip absolutely knew that gill was smth grand n powerful n scary #when gillion revealed what exactly the prophecy was;chip got defensive and mad.sure he was sleep deprived but OOH. HES SCARED! #he believes gillion too! he believes that his destiny is to eradicate either the sea or land and that scares him! #but then he gets past it bc ultimately he trusts his bestfriend gillion so so much. he fuckin loves this dude. #he would throw himself intothe path of fire for this dude. he would boat across the ocean for this dude.he would build arenas for this dude #even if this dude will end half the world.even if this dude wields the power and the obligation to eradicate him at any second. #even if this dude is going to throw himself into harms way for his own comrades.even if this dude is just going to sacrifice himself. #one way or another one shall die for the other.these self-sacrificial bastards click so well with eachother!! #chip believes his body is best used to pave roads and gill believes his body is destined to pave prosperity.WHATEVER!! #i really love their dynamic!! they care for eachother so much!in MY heart tho. the icing on the cake here is the fantasy that chip is #just a bit more In Love w gillion than he realizes. like this powerful fish guy is HOT and PRETTY and KIND and FUNNY and LOYAL and STRONG #but gillion would never rly feel that same sort of attraction towards chip. its just not rly his thing. aroace as fuck man. #thats how it is in MY little heart atleast. and i sit here and play w my touys in my brain n i explore my silly lil one sided fish y chips.

[zzztlk]

so so excited for The Ties That Bind, I love keeping up with it's progress and can't wait until the final product!!! Here's a quick question: Is Rabel pronounced Rah-bell or Ray-bell? I keep pronouncing it Rah-Bell but idk if that's correct. Love ur work and have a good day! :)

Thanks! It's the first one, like scrabble

#rabel #nat #Rabel's name has had a different explanation pulled out of my ass for every different version of the story #the honest truth is that i took it from the word rabelaisian without really knowing the definition #I was just like yeah that looks like what his name would be #I don't think he's even called by name at all in the current version #ttbasks

[natroze]

ok star rail. you got me. you made a hot nonbinary god that kisses the protagonist upon their introduction and a weird charming man who a) has access to that god's powers and b) really hates them. it's my exact favorite warlock/patron dynamic come ON

#honkai star rail #hsr #luocha #luocha hsr #yaoshi #yaoshi hsr #hsr spoilers #nat's fanart #don't expect more out of me i have zero intention of getting into this fandom #i just like yaoshi i think they should kiss EVERYBODY