#relapse mention

[florenceisfalling]

i have so much fun writing anti as such a specific brand of shitty guy that it makes me insane its so sad that i havent been posting writing of him consistently in years and all my old stuff is garbage. you guys would be insane for the shit i exchange with june on discord. my version of anti is so distant from canon in a lot of ways but not in his pathetic, attention whore, mockery-intolerant, "i will kill everyone in this room including myself" bullshit. like he's not scary because he's skilled or has self-control, he's scary because he will literally do whatever the fuck for attention. he will break his own bones and show up at your house sobbing about it. he will relapse and fuck his dealer and send you pictures of his own fresh and oozing cigarette burns alongside a text that says "wish you were here". he will threaten to kill himself and force you to watch. he will gut your boyfriend alive and deliver you a tape of it. he will break into your house while you're gone, cook you food and leave it on the stove with everything else inexplicably untouched. he will start impersonating you online and blackmail you so bad all your family members block your number. he will test every single boundary you give him. or, he will be self-indulgent, and just kidnap you to torture you every day. and he would rather you beat him to a pulp than abandon him or ignore him.

#what do i even tag this with #my ego posts #my ego hcs #idk i felt like this specific post wtih the inclusion of the word ''you'' was a little too real to leave warnings untagged #i finished some more homework lol #antisepticeye #torture mention #cigarette burn tw #suicide tw #suicide threat tw #stalking tw #death tw #kidnapping tw #blackmailing tw #relapse mention #abuse tw #manipulation tw #addiction tw #drugs tw

[abagrotiscupida]

RANT ABOUT PEOPLES WEIRD ATTITUDE ABOUT SHANE STARDEW VALLEY INCOMING!!!

saw people complaining about shane today and saying he is a bad and awful husband and they divorced him after seeing his room and that he becomes boring after he starts getting therapy because the interesting thing about him is his struggle with addiction and after you "fix him" what's the point of being with him And just?? Why?? Did you even marry him?? Like?? I dunno, people are allowed to have opinions on characters but so many peoples' opinions are just?? Really bad and rooted deeply in ableism and misconceptions about mental health/addiction and are super saviory??

I have said this a thousand times but you can't fix people. That's literally not how people work. You can, however, be there for people and try and create a safe environment for them to be able to help themselves!! AND THATS EXACTLY EHAT FUCKING HAPPEMS IN STARDEW!! Shane gets help ON HIS OWN because he is being supported by both his family and the farmer. And to see that just fucking fly over peoples heads makes me so mad because DID WE PLAY THE SAME FUCLING GAME?? YOU DONT FIX SHIT!! YOU ACT AS PART OF A SUPPORT SYSTEM!! (Which is very important but like) YOU AS A SINGULAR PERSON CANT FIX PEOPLE!!

I also just hate the "I can fix them" attitude because, at least in this specific situation, the people saying this are the same people who divorce him because his room is ugly or because he is implied to relapse and still is depressed??? It feels like the same thing as when someone has "spread kindness!" or "love each other!" in their bio and then is the most rancid hateful person ever? The room thing in particular makes me mad because LIKE WHAT DID YUOU THINK IT WAS GOING TO LOOK LIKE?? YOU SAW HIS ROOM AT MARNIE'S, WHAT MADE YOU THINK HIS ROOM IN YOUR HOUSE WAS GOING TO BE ORGANIZED AND SPOTLESS???

Idk like, again, you can dislike Shane and even regret marrying him. He's not very nice to you until you really get his hearts up there so he comes off as rude and abrasive. You don't HAVE TO LIKE HIM!! But so many people just spout hateful shit and it's like god, I hope you never have anyone in your life who suffers from mental illness because even though Shane is a video game character, the stuff you're saying and the ideas you have surrounding addiction and mental health are super toxic and weird and I hope no real person ever has to be subjected to them.

edit (put this in the tags but then wanted to add it to the main post):

#stardew shane #shane sdv #stardew valley #its like also #relapse is often a part of recovery. it doesnt mean the person has given up trying to help themselves or anything it just happens. #and people are so weird for demonizing it or chalking it up to shane not loving you or something?? #i cant speak on relapsing based in addiction but ive relapsed on other things and i know that it makes you feel so disappointed im yourself #to on top of that awful feeling have someone who you thought cared about you get mad and make your crisis all about them must be so painful #again like Shane is a character but the things he goes through are incredibly realistic and mirror a lot of peoples real life experiences s #just think before you fucking speak ig #tw: alcholism #tw: addiction #relapse mention #mental illness #rant #cupid.txt #tw: ableism #🌶️

[princeofyorkshire]

so i’ve been kinda back (not really) (literally just waiting for louis to drop the latam dates) but this has been on my mind for a few days now. it is not fandom related, just some personal stuff involving death and grief, so if that triggers you or you’re simply not interested in reading, keep scrolling and stay safe!

ever since october 31st, 2017 i haven’t been very fond of october (and halloween, for that matter). that’s the day God took my favorite person in the world, my grandma, and reunited her with her husband she hadn’t seen in over 30 years.

it was the first time i lost someone so close to me. and i just didn’t know what to do. no one teaches you how to grieve. i felt guilty feeling relieved she was not in pain anymore; i hated that i couldn’t say her nickname, yaya, without my voice breaking. i felt so weak and shitty for being unable to talk about her, someone i loved more than life itself.

time went by and i didn’t think of her as often, and the guilt came back. one thing i knew i didn’t want to do was to forget her. but i couldn’t even mention her without this weird feeling in my stomach.

this year i opened up to my mom about how difficult october is. i always get extra anxious, and my parents were going away for a bit and it was the perfect opportunity for me to relapse. so far, i haven’t.

on october 2nd, i got a job offer from my godmother. earlier that day i had lit up a candle in my grandma’s honor, cause she would have been 95 that day. my godmother told me she had thought of telling me about the job for a few months now. and she did it, right after i talked to my yaya, prayed and hoped she was doing alright in heaven with grandpa.

so far, october has been kind. i have passed my linguistics exam that i was so sure i wouldn’t pass cause i didn’t have the energy to study. i got a job. i have amazing friends by my side. it’s only the beginning, but i am willing to look at this month in a positive way from now on. let’s go, october. show me what you got. just continue being nice, please.

#v long v sentimental that’s just me. hope everyone is doing good 🤍 #death tw #grief tw #relapse mention #effie talks to the moon

[i-am-confused-always]

why do I feel like people are sooo nice when they first find out about your mental problems or sh but like a month later the novelty and their ability to care dwindles away and they stop caring at all? They stop checking if your ok. They stop asking about bl00d or new cuts. They stop responding to cry’s for help. They stop caring. And then once again your left to deal with everything alone. Why does it keep happening? Why does it hurt so bad every time? I’m sad again and tired. Might relapse. Idk.

edit: I did lol.

#self h@rm #mental illness #tw self destructive behavior #send help #baby cvts #funny shit #cvtaddict #tw sh joke #tw sh related #sh cvt #Vent #Bad friends #Abandoned #Abandonment issues #Why don’t they care #I miss them #I need help #relapse #relapse tw #relapse mention #tw selfhate #mentally unstable #sewer slide #tw depressing thoughts #self destructive behavior #all my friends are toxic #all my friends #they stop caring

[a-non-event]

The thing that really struck me about this episode was that TK still had some measure of doubt. He still thought that maybe, just maybe, the love he's been offered was conditional. So much so that he actually balked at Carlos' easy dismissal of TK's offer to not go through with the wedding.

I just know that TK has agonized over what would happen if he relapsed. If he became a different version of himself. If Carlos would leave him because he wasn't worth the effort anymore. He holds tightly to these insecurities and this health scare gave him a chance to, more or less, safely confront them.

And now, he's able to have that shred of doubt that still lingered, even after everything, washed away.

TK can finally rest easy knowing that Carlos will love him, no matter what, until the end of forever.

#these two!!! #911 lone star #tk strand #carlos reyes #episode thoughts #4x16 #addiction mention #relapse mention

[pluralcultureis]

plural culture is another alter relapsing and them being forced to switch out, "ok i understand why you relapsed but i wouldn't-" 3 mins later "i lied." them switching out. now im fronting, Jack switching back and relapsed again and now i having to ask to get a app that tracks how long we've been clean. and another alter saying threw all of this "and i though emmett was the negative impulse holder" fuck you whoever said that. -seann

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#endos dni #osdd #pdid #did #did system #pdid system #osddid #actually did #traumagenic #actually dissociative #plural culture is #tw relapse #cw relapse #relapse mention

[skinnysui-ide5426]

#disordered eating in tags #bulimist #depressing shit #i relapsed today #rexi euphoria #tw restriction #low cal restriction #relapse mention

[sunshineysprinkles]

i think that something that doesn't get talked about a lot with relapsing is how it can instantly flip that recovery switch in your mind.

at some point, after having healed so much for so long, the amount of time between relapses can serve as a really good motivator to avoid doing so again. but when you do relapse after, there's a chance of instant spiraling; you've only been clean for a short time, you might think, it's not that big of a loss if you do it again right now, if you get it out of the way before you fully commit to recovery. and then pretty soon you can just find yourself caught up in the addiction once more.

it's hard. i know it is. sometimes after a relapse you might even find yourself wondering if recovery is worth the effort in the first place. but it is! you deserve to feel better. you deserve gentleness and kindness and patience from the world around you, yes, but yourself especially. there are better ways to cope, HEALTHY ways that will lead you towards a better headspace.

all this to say: this is an encouragement to stop the cycle for yourself right now. the effort is worth it. try the methods you have to fight the urges, talk to people, reach out and get help. you can do this! you've taken a step back in a miles-long journey, don't keep backtracking <33

#hope this is coherent #i have thoughts #but i'm proud of anyone struggling with relapse rn bc even the action of relapse proves that you are trying to help yourself #you've got this pls keep going!!! #you deserve sm better and you can get it #i love you <33 #relapse #relapse mention #tw relapse #recovery #healing #mental health #depression #anxiety #self harm #sunshineysprinkles

[navillerainlove2]

TW: sh

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Just passed an entire month without cvutting, actually i don't know how to feel about this, like i'm proud of myself but at the same time i'm scared.

I tried to quit multiple times, i even reached 2 months, but i always relapsed.

Also my oldest scars are fading away and i kinda don't like it, like i want a reminder.

Anyway i hope i will stay clean as long as i can.

Hope you guys going better too<3

#self h@te #self h@rm #notprojustusingthetags #tw sh #sh talk #relapse mention #sh shit #recovery #mentally fucked #tw depressing thoughts #scars

[paranoidpdsuggestion]

Hi, anon with the friend, here. First of all thank you so much for responding <3 I read through the page you shared, it was super helpful & I will come back to it again and again for sure. I think I did OK last night, my friend is currently safe and seems to be feeling calmer rn. I do have a few follow-up questions if you feel ok answering, I will go into specifics this time, so if you or any of your followers want to stop reading, this would be a good place to do that- I just truly wanted to say thanks.

Anyway, to answer your question: he does trust me & feel comfortable confiding in me, . Last night he was in a state of crisis and he called me for help. He believed he needed to get out of his place for his own safety, so he packed up his most important stuff and asked me to go get him. I went, and like 3 minutes in I realized he was having a delusion. So I parked somewhere safe and just sat with him in my car for like an hour and listened. I did the best I could, didn't try to argue or convince him he was wrong, just did my best to make sure he both WAS safe, and FELT safe. He did calm down a lot, but was still convinced he'd be in danger if he went home, so I helped him check into a hotel for the night. I did convince him not to drop his job, and to wait a few days before making any big decisions, which im super grateful for, but that was it. He was really not in a good place. This morning he texted me & said he felt safe enough to return to his place for now. All good so far.

BUT, here's the thing. This was a really big crisis, I've never seen him this bad. And I don't know how I should talk to him about this, or when. Or shit, idk if I even should try to address it at all. He sometimes believes his roommate is dangerous to him, and so is his family. These are not great people so, fair enough, he's 100% right to be guarded around them, even if sometimes his reasons aren't quite real. Overall though, he was doing so, so well. He was dating this girl and was happy with her, he was self-aware about his delusions and trying hard to keep himself grounded, he was doing great. New job, new apartment. He'd been sober for 2 hard-fought years before this. Then two days ago his piece of shit roommate gave him the stuff he used to be addicted to, and that's what sent him into a spiral. He started feeling threatened by everyone around him, which is why he needed to leave. But he also started to VERY strongly mistrust his girlfriend, he was pretty heartbroken about it but he was CONVINCED she was a part of the thing his delusion was about, and that she was 100% malicious/deceitful towards him from the start. And I just couldn't dispute that at all last night. I don't know if this suspicion will go away or not... The stuff must've worn off by now, but obviously his delusion won't just stop like it never happened. So how can I help him work through it & hopefully get himself back to where he was? I also don't want this to damage his relationship, I would hate to see him lose her or push her away bc of this. Is there any way at all I can help him trust her again? How do I try to ground him without making him suspect me as well? Im so worried, I just want him to be OK.

It's really good that you're able to be there for a friend, that's very sweet of you. I'm really glad your friend can trust you to this extent!

Basically you can address these things, but ensure he is calm and in a good state as well as willing to discuss these things. I think at some point there definitely needs to be a discussion about this roommate and how he can potentially get away from them? Or just... avoid the roommate at the very least. Because if they triggered your friend AND sent them into a relapse that isn't good at all, i'd be concerned for your friend's safety.

And you can definitely talk to him about why he feels his girlfriend is a part of his delusions, but you may need to wait until he has calmed down enough to talk about it without becoming accusatory towards you. If you're in contact with the girlfriend, it's definitely worth it to get her to try and be understanding and have her talk to him as well, to try and reassure him that she is there for him and not against him.

You can remind him about everything good she has done for him and all the good times they had! Maybe even gather some pictures and screenshots he can send to you for safekeeping so when he's in crisis you can send him these things so he can have something to remind himself that his girlfriend is a good person and not somebody to be afraid of. I know that sort of thing helps me when I start having delusions that are against my partner.

-Mod Clemont

#ask #anon #not a suggestion #delusions #delusion #addiction #addiction mention #relapse #relapse mention #drug mention #drug tw #drugs are implied but not explicitly mentioned #sorry for taking a bit to answer this one!

[doublel27]

Interesting! A fan who’s at the fan thing where Ronen is at in Italy said that Ronen said he doesn’t actually know if Tk told Carlos about his almost relapse in ep8 but would hope he has…. But kept reiterating it was a good question and joked that he would ring Ryan up and ask him! I’m wondering whether LS kinda forgot about that storyline hence why it’s never been brought up again or whether they’re keeping it for another time 🤔 but it wouldn’t really make sense for them to bring that up episodes later after we had a whole storyline about TK’s addiction with Carlos in ep13! 🤷🏻‍♀️

I don't know if they forgot about it.

Lone Star is really vicious with cutting storylines (OG is too), to the point where actors get caught promoing scenes that are already on the cutting room floor by the time the show airs. Tim admitted to writing enough to get 90 minute initial cuts back (TIM RELEASE TH TAPES) and needing to move storylines and cut things. Like he wanted to introduce Nancy/Mateo during the ice storm and didn't get to them until the second half of the season (but you can see them seeded since 3x01 throughout the season with Mateo's interest)

A lot of what people claim is missing from the show are scenes that the writers/producers/editors use other scenes to expose what happened. For example, we didn't see Carlos ask TK to move in, but what we did see was Carlos and TK actively moving in where Carlos had zero problem finding a place to put all of TK's belongings (which is just such a good contrast to Owen and Gwyn having a passive-agressive argument about Gwyn's stuff until Owen just conceded for the most part. I'd rather have the scene where Carlos shows that TK moving in with him isn't going to be a burden of blending their lives but he just does it.

I think the near relapse from 3x08 doesn't come up in 3x13 because Carlos isn't worried about that, not really. The issues in 3x13 are far less about TK, who is going to meetings and being really transparent with Carlos about what is happening, when and with whom. The only thing he's bad at is saying WHEN he'll be home, and that's because he's working on his stuff until he can come home without wanting a fix. Carlos isn't worried as much about TK as he's worried that HES not helping TK enough. So, the near slip in 3x08 isn't what Carlos is focused on, he's focuse don if he's doing enough to be there for TK.

And he IS doing enough to be there for TK, just not in the way Carlos wants to be there for TK, which is not what TK needs. TK needs Carlos to do the things he's doing and then have Cooper for the things Cooper is doing. I honestly don't think Carlos is half as worried about TK potentially using as he should be, but then I think Carlos trusts TK very deeply by the time we get to 3x13 and I think it's for good reason. TK doesn't really like to Carlos, ever. In 3x08 he says he doesn't know why he went to the firehouse, which is a vastly different answer than he gave both the 126 crew and Owen earlier that he just wanted the day to be normal, which I find really telling. He couldn't sell the lie with Carlos and settled for something else. He opens up to Carlos about stuff way before he does with other people. Carlos TRUSTS TK, deep down, and I think that's part of what makes their relationship work.

Anyway, my point is, I have long agreed with Ruben that TK probably told Carlos because he has no reason not to after telling Owen and he's more honest with Carlos than he is with everyone else. Carlos IS TK's safe harbor.

I think they didn't show it because they didn't need to. Watching him tell Carlos would have been satisfying, sure, as a Tarlos fan, but it wasn't what the storyline needed and would have been repetative. TK needed to be honest with Owen because he'd been lying to him since Owen caught TK in the bus. TK needed to be honest with Owen because the last time he was on a plane with Gwyn he lied to her about using, and this time he needed to change the narrative with this parent.

#anon ask #ronen rubinstein #tk strand #carlos reyes #tarlos #addiction #substance abuse #relapse mention #near relapse #anon reply #doublel27 talks #911 lone star 3x08 #911 lone star 3x13

[fierrochaseist4t]

i hate when people in tv shows and movies say stuff like "we've gotta get you better FOR GOOD this time" and the character they're speaking to has only been a couple months clean from addiction. like???? addiction recovery is a long and very very difficult process, relapse is entirely normal. it should absolutely be treated but putting someone down for relapsing only makes it worse 💀

#stfu sparky #rant #cw addiction #addiction cw #relapse mention #i PROMISE it isnt the end of the road for someone if they relapse during recovery #shit happens and if someone relapses you should help them not make them feel worse #sorry ik its stupid to be agitation over fictional characters but ARGHHH as someone who's helped numerous friends with addictions and been #thru similar things it irks me a lot 💀

[insecuregodcomplex]

“hm, i feel like ive been kind of off all day, kind of in a rut,” I say, then remembering I had a dream that I relapsed

#txt #personal #I woke up and was like wait what and then apparently forgot about it til now #hormones pls work with me instead of against lmfaooooooo #v talks #relapse mention

[bp-demonz]

It's weeks like these that make me wanna relapse and binge drink again. Like, I am damn near my limit, and shit just keeps piling on 🙃

#relapse mention #tw binging #binge drinking cw #tw alchohol mention #tw alcohol #addiction #addict in recovery #when does it get easier?

[havens-positivity-corner]

relapse doesn't mean that you'll never stay sober or that the progress you had made doesn't mean anything.

relapse is a perfectly normal step in recovery. pick your head up, dust yourself off, and lean into your support system. you're gonna be ok.

#haven says stuff #recovery isn't linear #relapse mention #i believe in you!! #we got it

[cherrypens]

infloresence : on not being ready yet

they throw those sort of words around a lot in treatment. it is enough, they tell me, that i maintain my weight. i scroll through supercuts of other people's recoveries, they tell me life blossoms infinitely if you can just cut out the rot.

it feels like i eat and eat and eat. recovery is monotony. i am exhausted and lying in wait in a way i never did when i was starving myself. i do not get out enough in the summertime. i lie awake until waking is a lie. what a thing to admit, that i miss the risk. undying was necessary. living is a choice. i am meant to be growing up but sometimes it feels like i've entered a second infancy instead. all i do, these days, is eat and sleep. and to add insult to injury, i'm not gaining.

maybe all i know how to do is grow inwards. my mind is fig-like. the wasps of doubt come and make love to my senses and all my wills and wants bloom compulsively in tangles around some superlative or another.

it isn't that i'm not ready yet, if i was ever ready i wouldn't be here.

#recoveryrambles #therapyfeelslikecircles #thinkingaboutgoingtofrance #just to find things i can't revolve around #relapse mention #tw disordered eating #tw ocd mention #tw mental illness #pro recovery