#relationship lesbian

[genderfluid-fujoshi]

Maybe they are just waiting

I've been reading this book: Children of Emotional Inmature Parents by Lindsay C. Gibson PsyD. It's been an long awful process, I've never take this long into reading something I like, but it is because every chapter is so heavy to me, mostly because I can reflect myself in so many of the stories that are shared there.

I've been suicidal for the longest time, for the last 20 years to be exact. There was a time, around my 20's that I felt like I was finally done trying to scape this plane of existence. You see, when you are a very dramatic teenager you make some stupid promises to some friends… In my case was "Fine, I'll stop cutting myself If you stop talking shit about yourself". Wasn't the healthiest deal, but it helped us both. So, fast foward to me on my 20's and been in therapy and working my shit with a psychiatrist, I kinda felt like I was done trying to run away from everything. I remember very clearly the night I was having a few drinks with one of my siblings and they asked me if I was still suicidal and I told them: - maybe been unnecesary honest - that even tho I wasn't presicely enjoying been alive, I was not trying to scape anymore.

As I said before, I've been feeling reall stressed out about debt and maybe, be facing homelesness (you can be sure I'll be homeless first before going back and living with my parents), and out of 10 interactions with my partner, 2 turns into an argument.

Yesterday, while reading one of the last chapters was this seccion of: "Trying to break yourself from that selfcurated image you made to keep peace" But I don't know how to explain that, It makes sense, but also it fucking doesnt? Let me explain. I feel EXACTLY how the book describes this feelings of not been enough, this intense fear of not been wanted and that in any minute my partner of 12 years will be done with me just because I parked their car wrong - I didn't say it made any fucking sense, did I? - But ALSO, I'ven't been "that abused" if that means anything. And this is something I maybe didn't explore enought with my therapist, I recently knew that seen your theraphist once a week is a sign that something spicy is going on.

So, I have this feelings piling up, and me wondering if its worth living all of this. I mean, yes I've had amazing experiences that I could not have If I've killed mysefl at 14 y/o, but also I would have not experience so much abandonment and broken relationships.

Somedays I'm jealous of my friends who have passed away. So damn envious. Most of my inner circle knows how I feel, not as much as knowing if I have a plan(s), and it makes me wonder, if they don't see me get any better, are they just waiting for that call?

When some other person really close to me, tells them that I just scaped forever. I wonder about that sometimes.

#tw depressing stuff #social anxious #emotional abuse #actually autistic #relationship lesbian #fucking empathy #tw suicide #tw sui ideation

[elainiisms]

non sexual intimacy!!!! bathing together, washing each other, playing with each other's hair, kissing every inch of their body, writing love letters on their back with your finger, connecting their moles and freckles to create constellations on their skin, running your hands up and down their thighs, ugh just expressing physical love without it having to be about sex!!!!

#yearning #wlw #lesbian #sapphic #wlw yearning #love #romance #relationship prompts #lesbian yearning #sapphic yearning #yearncore #yearnposting #couple prompts #intimacy #elainposting

[squarecloud73]

*I worship you Tumblr don’t remove it

…So about that leg pouch

#kiki is so majestic #dom lipstick lesbian energy #and Namari is so cute #like she’s badass and cool and it makes her blushing EVEN CUTER #shes gonna have that consensual workplace relationship with her boss’s daughter #yaaaaah #kikimari #namari #Kiki #dungeon meshi #SquareCloud

[benzodiazebeans]

When you’re riding them and they grip your hips to start fucking up into you hard and fast, and you can do nothing but take it, moaning and shaking against them; digging your nails into their shoulders while they stretch you open over and over. You start to rock your hips against them, and you reach down to rub your clit because you feel so close and you just want to cum all over their strap. “That’s it, baby, so good, you take my cock so well, I know you want to cum, my love.”

#femme #femme4masc #femme4butch #femme4femme #femme lesbian #lesbian ns/fw #sapphic nsft #wlw #bd/sm blog #bd/sm relationship #lesbian #lesbian nsft #nsft concept #wlw nsft #bd/sm community #dom/sub #daddy k!nk #sapphic ns/fw #ns/fw content #lgbt nsft #ns/fw blog #wlw ns/fw #queer nsft #hornyposting

[t00thpasteface]

part of the reason i love mean, bitchy, rude, domineering, firecracker female characters and loathe seeing them defanged is because the prickliness repels men and the defanging is ALWAYS to make them more fuckable for whatever man they have a weird sexual tension with. like yeah i don't like the Mean Lesbian stereotype either but at least the mean lesbian isn't shelving her career to become a tradwife after spending however many episodes/chapters/issues saying how much she didn't want to do either of those things

#i'm drawing saucy pinups of houlihan but this also goes for catwoman and honestly lois lane #only defanging i like is harley and ivy and that's because it was in service of a fun interesting quirky lesbian relationship LOL #shebbz shoutz

[amu-says-hav-says]

I can’t believe I went through all of Season 2 assuming Nina was the stand-in for Crowley when you actually pay attention it’s so CLEAR that she’s Aziraphale. I was tricked by her spiky, sarcastic, cynical outer shell and lulled into a false sense of security by Maggie’s bubbly optimism and wholesome goodness, because on the surface they reflect the ineffable husbands perfectly, in their personalities, their aesthetics, even many of their actions and morals. but not, and this is the real key, when it comes to their “relationship”. but those first impressions really had me damn fooled. 

I missed the blatantness of Nina’s “we’re just friends. actually we’re not friends. we barely know each other.” the same thing Aziraphale said in season 1.  the way he still struggles to quantify their friendship when Nina asks. Nina’s sarcasm when Crowley asks about rain and awnings because it worked for him (we all know it LMAO). hell, that whole convo the girls have in the rain is so AziraCrow (“I know. I’m not your type” “...You have no idea” hits so much harder the second time, help meeeee.) “Lindsay” maybe being symbolic of Heaven and Aziraphale’s toxic relationship with them and their abuse? (the handwritten text messages in red pen make me think of angry notes on paperwork, anyone else?) because Crowley has never actually cared about what Hell thinks of him, just not getting into trouble (or him or Aziraphale getting hurt). Maggie is always chasing Nina. NINA NEVER GOES IN THE RECORD STORE. Just like Crowley always goes to the bookstore, to Aziraphale, Zira NEVER WENT TO THE FLAT (apart from The Swap but that doesn’t count imo). Crowley has always chased Zira, not the other way around. Always there to rescue him, always going to him for company, always relying on their shared connection, always US. OUR SIDE. All through season one, he comes to Zira every time to work together, never trying to work alongside Hell in any way that isn’t to save their skins or Earth, while Zira hides things from Crowley because he STILL thinks Heaven is ultimately good and will do the right thing if he can just show them. fix it from the inside. 

Maggie working up the courage to finally say something, to put herself out there, while Nina is utterly oblivious and then when she does realise Maggie has feelings, becoming standoffish, putting up that barrier, fighting it, denying it, ITS SO CROWLEY AND AZIRAPHALE IN THAT ORDER. the way I was fooled into thinking Nina’s trust issues are Crowley because he does have trust issues ofc he does BUT Crowley has ALWAYS TRUSTED AZIRAPHALE. has always relied on him. has always been hurt when Aziraphale doesn’t immediately reciprocate the way he expects (the holy water request, the bandstand, the “off in the stars” etc). he’s always the one putting himself forward. Aziraphale has always been the one to second guess everything, to fight their connection, their similarities, their friendship. the girls really made me think it was going to be okay when they sat Crowley down, even as my inner sirens were going haywire about Metatron interfering, they were telling Crowley he just needs to open up and it’ll all work out BUT HE’S ALREADY AT THAT POINT. he may not say it, and by gosh is that part of their damn problem, but he’s always SHOWN IT. he’s not Nina who needs time to heal and recover from her broken trust, he’s always been Maggie believing it doesn’t matter, they’ll end up together in the end anyway AND I WALKED RIGHT INTO THE TRAP THAT THIS MEANT THEY WERE GOING TO BE OKAYYYYYYYYYYY

#good omens #good omens spoilers #good omens season 2 #good omens 2 #GO2 #GO2 spoilers #ineffable husbands #not me going to my basically unused sideblog that isn't GO related because I NEED TO YELL THIS SOMEWHERE #I mean outside of the relationship thing there are so many ways #that Nina and Crowley line up and Zira and Maggie #but the girls story isn't about them as people #it's about this relationship the boys are tryna push on them and what that relationship reflects about the boys #anyway I'm on my first rewatch for all the clue I missed #so I imagine I'll only spot more clues to berate myself about as I go #HOW DID I FALL FOR ITTTTTT #I can't believe I was so blind #OFC the Disaster Puppy Lesbian was Crowley #and OFC the Emotionally Abused Tortoise was Aziraphale

[babygirlbondage]

girls (me) should hump things (your thigh) and cum in their panties more often

#lesbian nsft #wlw nfst #petpl4y #bd/sm puppy #bottomposting #puppypl4y #bd/sm community #bd/sm dynamic #humiliation kink #degrade and humiliate me #bd/sm breeding #bd/sm pet #bd/sm relationship #dumb wh0re #dumbification #babygirlbondage

[mommyownsmee]

I want you to ride my thigh. Not delusional like others would want it from you. No, I want to kiss you deeply while you do it, our tongues exploring each others mouth. I’ll have one hand in your hair, grabbing it and swirling it around my fingers. I want you to lay your head on my shoulder, sloppily kissing my neck while you‘re moaning into my soft skin. Your mouth slightly open, your eyes squeezed shut. I‘ll put my other hand on your back, pulling you a bit closer with every single time you chase your high. Little whimpers escaping between your beautiful lips, while I whisper into your ear how good you‘re doing. How breathtaking you look like, how sexy your noises are. How much you turn me on. How much I want you. How much I want you to cum all over me without having to waste a single thought about what is happening. I‘d whisper your name and feel your heart beat hard against my chest. Little drops of sweat trailing down your back, meeting my hand that‘s grabbing you even harder. I want you to thoughtlessly let your legs shake as you feel your high coming closer and your moans getting louder. Shamelessly clawing your nails into my skin, leaving marks on me which you know I will return after. I want you to ride my thigh knowing once you came, I‘ll flip you over and slip my tongue into your beautiful pussy. I‘ll taste your sweet cum, not even letting you completely come down from your high. Keeping your legs shaking, as I’ll let my fingertips caress your collarbone, down your breasts. You still moaning, while your brain slowly turns to mush, trying to find hold on the bedsheets. I want you to feel so much how much I want you to be completely mine. Making your back arch as my hands trail over your stomach down to your inner thighs and my fingers slip into you. You’ll be under me, crying out in pleasure, not being able to process the feeling my upwards curled fingers will rise in you. My moans against your overstimulated bud will find it‘s way in electric shocks upwards your spine and explode in your head. You‘ll return them with crying out my name in every thrust I do, while your pussy will tighten around my fingers. Your brain won’t be able to understand why you’ll be moaning my name over and over, falling off your lips like a prayer. Until you forget what is really happening here. And still my fingers be mercilessly fucking into you, I’ll be flicking my tongue all over your clit, until you release all over my mouth, your lungs not even able anymore to find the air they need to keep your body function. Making your body a complete mess under me. I want you to ride my thigh so bad.

#bd/sm mommy #domme mommy #mommy k!nk #mommy #bd/sm blog #bd/sm community #lesbian nsft #bd/sm relationship #sapphic nsft #lesbian #lesbian smut #mommy issues #sapphic smut #sapphic #bd/sm lifestyle #bd/sm kink #queer #queer nsft #queer relationships #queer ns/fw #queer community #queer writers #wlw ns/fw #ns/fw content #ns/fw community #ns/fw #ns/fw blog #wlw nsft #ns #mommylovesbunny

[untitledlez]

Nothing quite like finger fucking a whiny girl’s cunt.

Watching her spread her legs more for you subconsciously because she loves the feeling of your fingers stretching open her cunt n hitting the spot she loves the most.

#wlw ns/fw #wlw smut #wlw post #lesbian #mommy k!nk #soft masc #wlw community #bd/sm kink #wlw #wlw nsft #lesbian nsft #nsft switch #butch dyke #masc4femme #bd/sm switch #bd/sm relationship #stupid slvt #k!nky thoughts #k!nk talk #nsft concept #sapphic

[elainiisms]

#yuri #wlw #lesbian #sapphic #gl #i favor the villainess #bloom into you #asagao to kase san #tamen de gushi #the guy she was interested in wasn't a guy at all #handsome girl and sheltered girl #relationship guidelines #she is still cute today #adachi to shimamura #revolutionary girl utena #can't defy the lonely girl #otherside picnic #elainposting

[hauntedmoors]

this show rules sorry

#I’m thinking about the other caps I posted where a lesbian entraps a partner into a relationship by donating her liver. great stuff. #I don’t have the chops for it but someone could say some really interesting things about how the show plays with genre awareness / the tug #and flow relationship between love and pain / religion and playing god as a healer / sexuality and love framed by corporate settings #and some good old surgery as sex metaphors #text #house md #liverisms tag

[hauntedfemme]

what’s a girl gotta do to get tied to a fucking machine and overstimulated around here

#bd/sm kink #nsft concept #queer nsft #sapphic nsft #wlw ns/fw #bd/sm blog #lesbian ns/fw #nblw nsft #wlw and nblw only #bd/sm brat #bd/sm relationship #bd/sm mommy #bd/sm dom #lesbian nsft #femme nsft #ns/fw #ns/ft

[kajamnikk]

get it cause shes not obedient like the others but also shes mute

#chelldos #glados #chell #portal #portal 2 #portal fanart #art #myart #digital art #anthro glados #lesbians #yuri #toxic yuri #lgbt #wlw #btw on the second pic theyre not toxic anymore okay theyre in healthy relationship ato #atp* #fanart #android glados #human glados

[benzodiazebeans]

Fuck, I really love eating pussy. Giving soft kisses to their lips before teasing their clit with my tongue, flicking softly, tasting their wetness, and just inhaling the lovely scent. Looking up at their face and watching their expressions morph into pleasure, their eyes rolling back and hearing them tell me, “Just like that, baby, fuck.” Feeling their thighs shake and tense when I start sucking and licking their clit, giving it so much attention. The feeling of their cunt dripping down my chin. Their moans getting louder and desperate when they get closer and closer to cumming. The way they grab my hair and hold my face down when they finally cum all over my lips. The way it just so delicious and lovely, and fuck

#I love pussy #wlw #men dni #femme #femme4masc #femme4butch #femme4femme #lesbian #wlw yearning #wlw nsft #wlw ns/fw #wlw smut #wlw community #sapphic ns/fw #sapphic yearning #sapphic #sapphic nsft #ns/fw content #lgbt nsft #ns/fw blog #lesbian ns/fw #queer nsft #lesbian nsft #hornyposting #bd/sm blog #bd/sm relationship #bd/sm community #bd/sm kink #nsft concept #dom/sub

[hergoddes]

i love calling her small names. "c'mere little one" "i got you pup" "that's my little girl". anything that reminds her that she's so small, and soft, and delicate for me. just my little princess to take care of

#puppy pl4y #puppy pl@y #bd/sm puppy #bd/sm relationship #petpl4y #petpl@y #lesbian #puppy sub #t4t puppy

[juliewlters]

#ofmdedit #ofmd season 2 #our flag means death #ofmd spoilers #rhys darby #taika waititi #* #when you headbutt your partner to repay him for emotional damage #and your relationship is still healthier than the lesbians who try to murder each other over dinner