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I got all the way down to 5lbs before my goal weight a couple of months ago. I can’t believe I ruined it like this. I’m a fat fucking whale again for the fourth time after being skinny for a whopping two weeks. Yeah, I’m doing well starving myself and walking and working out every day so far, but I want it back now. I don’t know how many more times I can do this.
If you are new to disordered eating or are just seeing warning signs, RUN.
Get help. Some FEW people can maintain the ultra skinny body but they aren’t healthy they aren’t happy. Most likely disordered eating will just keep you miserable and you will gain all the weight back over and over and over like me. Please log off tumblr and Ed Twitter and don’t look back if you can.
#tw#tw ed vent#tw Ed#4n4rexia#4n4#4namia#bul1m14#bulimix#tw disordered eating#not pro#pro recovery#self h4rm#sk1 not#skinnyyy
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blood of the covenant/water of the womb
The Black sisters are so tragic.
I mean, imagine:
As kids, Narcissa is the baby sister that the elder two dote on, while both Narcissa and Andromeda look up to Bellatrix, the proud, beautiful, powerful, accomplished, perfect eldest sister, who has always known who she is and where she's going, but especially Andromeda, since they look so alike she's always been encouraged to act like her too but since Narcissa doesn't have the stereotypical Black looks and her parents didn't follow the Black naming scheme she's encouraged to be her own person a little bit more.
At Hogwarts they're all Sorted into the same House, Slytherin, which only increases their bond. Bella does really well at school, probably the top of her class, which makes Andy, who's only a year or two behind hyperaware of where the bar is. She walks, talks, and dresses like Bella.
Until
Andy follows in Bella's footsteps (who's probably Head Girl by now) and becomes a prefect, but she gets assigned to do rounds with a Muggle-born Hufflepuff. And despite everything she'd been taught, everything she knows to be true, she finds herself falling for him and the worst part is she can't tell anyone, even Bella, the one she has always been able to confide in, always reassured her and set her on the right path.
Meanwhile Druella and Cygnus are arranging Bellatrix's marriage to Roldophus, someone she doesn't even like never mind attracted to but because she's the perfect Black and the perfect daughter she has to do it. And Andromeda sees and fears how she could get trapped, too, how there's another Lestrange boy in her year.
Meanwhile a strange foreign Dark Lord comes to dinner and he's so different to Roldophus and all those other men who think because she's a woman she must be weak and she's just a vessel for their pureblood children. And despite the way she shouldn't feel this way, Bella doesn't care. He listens to Bella's opinions and he takes her seriously and he sees her magical talent and her thirst to prove herself and he's not scared of her in the way others say that she's 'too intense.' And when he offers to train her, and adds that he never does this, she says, one better, I'll follow you.
Andromeda and Narcissa watch this strange man burn the Dark Mark into their sister's arm and they don't know what to think. Narcissa's scared Bella will put herself in danger, that she'll do too much, give too much of herself because she doesn't know when to pull back. And Andy's scared Bella's going down a path she cannot follow, because deep down she can't say she believes in blood supremacy, can't say she hates Ted and she can't figure out a way through so she leaves.
It's like part of Bella's heart has been ripped out. They were all close, the Blacks, but Andy and Bella had a certain je ne sais quoi, they were thick as thieves and inseparable. Bellatrix is the one who burns Andromeda off the tapestry, crying while she does it, the scorned love for her sister, the anger and shame that Andy chose that Mudblood over her turning that love to bottomless hate.
Meanwhile Narcissa, the lucky one, watches it all. Narcissa is the one that gets it all, she's the only one who's able to marry for love and stay with her family but there's also this Andromeda-shaped hole in her and there's a Slytherin resentfulness of being Bellatrix's supporting act.
Every night that Bella is on a mission, Narcissa stays up, even while pregnant with Draco, until she knows her sister is safe.
That fateful Halloween she waits and waits and waits but Bellatrix never comes home. When she finds out her last remaining sister is serving life she completely breaks down. Won't sleep, won't eat. The thought of leaving Draco without a mother is the only thing that helps her hold on. Regulus, Andromeda and Sirius are dead/burned off the tapestry/imprisoned; she and Draco are the last Blacks, that makes their bond even stronger, makes her scared of losing him like she did her sisters. She curses Voldemort for putting her in danger, aware of her feelings for him and that Bella would do anything for them, swears she'll never let that happen to her son.
All the while Andy raises her daughter, who hates the name she gave her in the same way Andy know she would hate the Blacks. Narcissa and Andy watch each other from across crowds; Tonks and Draco are never at school together, never know more than scattered off-hand mentions of a cousin on their mother's side. But both Narcissa and Andy fantasize of a reconcilation, of Tonks babysitting Draco while they rekindle their bond. Neither bridges the gap. That burn, that rift cannot be healed. But they still ache for each other.
When Voldemort returns that fear for Draco grows, but it's tempered with the joy of having Bella back after mourning her for 14 years -- Bella, traumatized, starved, jagged and torn up at the edges, different, but alive.
And just like knowing he was innocent kept Sirius sane, Bella's love and trust of Voldemort is what made her able to hang on. Yes, they're both drastically different physically (the snake face and the emaciation) and mentally (both shaken, less confident), but everything else can be the same. Maybe better.
But everyone is scared. It's not the same world, where the Death Eaters have control and are undefeated. Voldemort is scared of that boy, Narcissa is scared for Draco. It's clear things are not the same, things are not normal. Far from it. Fear makes Voldemort angry, and cold, and distant and nothing she does feels good enough.
And that boy -- lying hateful filthy boy -- he dares suggest that her Voldemort's filthy-blooded like him. No, he must just be taunting her, scaring her. But there are things Voldemort's said, things he's done -- she would notice, the way she hangs on every word he speaks and plays their conversations in her head over and over again in Azkaban -- Bellatrix just does her best to silence it and block it out, all these confusing things, she's a great Occlumens after all.
She'll make things certain, make things right, trim off the weakness, cut out the sickness. Like Sirius. Like that young woman with Andromeda's face and Andromeda's laugh, that filthy half-blood Andy left her to create.
Narcissa can't keep Draco safe like she, the baby sister, couldn't keep Bellatrix safe. When Voldemort burns the Dark Mark into his skin she sees her son emaciated and dead-eyed.
To assuage Narcissa's fears Bellatrix trains Draco like Voldemort trained her; but he's not the same, he's weak, he's moralistic, he looks at her with wide scared eyes and he's a failure. The glory of the Blacks is gone.
All the while, Narcissa's fear grows, when Lucius is imprisoned, when Voldemort's ire turns on her family, on her son, sets him an impossible task. The despair she feels, she hasn't felt for nearly sixteen years -- Bellatrix more interested in eking out morsels of approval from Voldemort and turning her frustration on Draco, and Narcissa by extension.
All the while, Andromeda's fear for her daughter grows, of the danger she puts herself in as an Auror and a member of the Order, and she's reminded of Bellatrix, of how she gives everything of herself and how Nymphadora does too, begging, begging her to hold back.
She's not good enough for him, not with the sickness, the weakness still clinging to her. Bellatrix very much wants to kill the woman with Andy's face. She's always been perfect. It's everyone else around her that's wrong, everyone else who has to go. She'll do better. Try harder.
And when the Snatchers catch that filthy boy, and he slides out of her grasp like a buttered eel, Bellatrix hits the bottom rung of the ladder of despair. She doesn't know who she is, anymore.
Voldemort's retaliation and rejection breaks Bellatrix's heart, but it hardens Narcissa's.
Bellatrix will do anything to make him happy. She finally kills the witch with Andy's face -- do you see -- do you love me now -- but he's still cold, still frightened, still different, and she despairs, but it will be all over when Harry Potter is dead and he can breathe again. They've won. It will be alright. It will go back to normal. She can have it all again -- Voldemort and Narcissa and her perfect, pruned family.
Narcissa will do anything to keep him safe. And so she chooses Draco's life, she lies, her heart in her throat, in front of her beloved sister, to the Dark Lord, with unshed tears in her eyes and Harry Potter's 'corpse' before her.
Bellatrix's death is something Narcissa knew was coming, deep down She mourned her sister sixteen years ago and she mourns her now, but it will all be worth it if Draco survives this ordeal; Potter must win, he must live, Voldemort must die. And Bellatrix will never allow this.
She wishes she could tell Andy that she understands.
#the black sisters#bellatrix lestrange#andromeda tonks#narcissa malfoy#bellatrix black#andromeda black#narcissa black#bellamort#tedromeda#andromeda has middle child syndrome i don't make the rules#been brainrotting about the black sisters a lot while writing these next few chapters#hp meta#long post#fic outline??#maybe? can i handle other wip?#voldemort doesn't say i love you like a normal person he turns up at bellatrix's front door with the corpse of someone who insulted her#like a cat with a dead mouse#it's okay she knows what he means#sk1 rambles#this is why i have a rambling tag
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Being on Tumblr while on the stationary bike at my gym is unmatched
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I'm making a few flowers of different sizes to go with the Big one and idk I like how it came out :] I missed freehanding
#first layer is done in green but you cant see it bc i did it wrong#layer 1 green: chain 19. (skip 1 sc 9. ch10) x6 sc9 back up the original chain ch 1 cut off the green.#layer 2: in one of the central stiches of l1 (ch 8 sk1 sc8) x7#layer 3: in one of the central stiches of l2 (ch 6 sk1 sc5) twice per previous layers petals base stich (14)#layer 4: in one of the central stiches of l3 (ch 4 sk1 sc3) x14#add button center#layer 5(missing from image because im adding it now) : sc2 in the bases of l4's petals around the button
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10-11
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loads of enemies in bot lane, a single defender generally cannot hold them, they clearly want you to nuke them with the cannon which wouldn't be an issue if the defenders could kill them fast enough to make them into the little squid beasts
top lane is very sparsely populated but has a lot of heavier units
also those giant attack bastards go through bottom lane sometimes too and they are Amped because there's loads of squids at any given time
might be time to give up forte only chapter 10
there miiiight be something to be done with wind chimes because she does blow through the first health bar of most of the enemies but hmmmmm
#also need to swap back to matterhorn sk1 so he can get his monster res back#there is definitely a lot of arts damage flying around#bats speaks#arknights posting
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as a pusher how do i value enforcer? i already have a promoted weedy who wants skill masteries, is there a point in e2ing him?
#arknights#i want to use him but i dont know how to value his skills#like his sk1 stuns longer than weedys does but hers does damage and im more likely to use sk2 or sk3 on her in general
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Katsu do Strike Team SK1
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Jon Hammond Show 06 04 2022
#WATCHMOVIE HERE: Jon Hammond Show 06 04 2022
Jon's archive https://archive.org/details/jon-hammond-show-06-04-2022
Jon Hammond Show 06 04 2022
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Jon Hammond Show 06 04 2022 - Music, Travel and Soft News
Special guest sitting in on Jon Hammond Band in Germany is Joe Lamond President CEO of NAMM, dankeschön 2 Wolfgang's, Wolfgang Lücke and Wolfgang Haffner - Peter Klohmann tenor sax, Giovanni Totò Gulino drums, Joe Berger guitar, Jon Hammond Sk1 Hammond Organ
We will be in the Reunion NAMM Show January 3 - 5 2022 Anaheim California
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Funky Swinging Jazz and Blues instrumentals original compositions by organist Jon Hammond featuring international soloists. As seen on cable TV for 38 years Jon Hammond Show, long-running music, travel and soft news program. Jon Hammond and band members have been performing at NAMM Shows and Frankfurt musikmesse for 33 years, as well as Music China, Japan Musical Instruments Fair and toured Germany with 21 piece Landesjugendjazzorchester German Youth Jazz Orchestra. ASCAP Composer Publisher and Member American Federation of Musicians Local 6 and Local 802, 2014 NAMM Believe in Music award recipient.
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28 minute program, cable access TV show from Jon Hammond the organ player & accordionist - Music, Travel and Soft News. Photography and original music recordings and performances by Jon Hammond with an international cast of featured soloist musicians. During the pandemic, Jon Hammond is also producing daily Hammond Report podcast shows incorporated in to this program.
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Taps across America - Jon Hammond accordion Taps on Memorial Day 2022 joining in
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Jon Hammond Show, Public Access TV, Manhattan Neighborhood Network, Frankfurt, Hofheim, Anaheim, NAMM Show, President CEO, Joe Lamond, Jon Hammond Band, Funk, Hammond Organ, Travel, Soft News
#jonhammondshow#public access tv#manhattan neighborhood network#frankfurt#hofheim#anaheim#namm show#president ceo#joe lamond#Jon Hammond Band Local 802 Manhattan Neighborhood Network Musikmesse NAMM Panasonic LUMIX DMC-G3 Jazz Session Sk1 SK2 Soul Suzuki Musical In#funk hammond organ#Blues Briggs and Riley Combo Organ Gator Cases GKPE-49-TSA Hammond Sk1 Jazz Local 802 Musicians Union Travelware#soft news
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i can’t believe galleon gives everyone kissies during battle
#granblue fantasy#she literally just kisses the other party members for her sk1 i'm dying squirtle#i'm tempted to spark for galleon but summer banner is right there...
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Two Trees SK1 Review: 3D Printer Testing
Review by Will Zoobkoff StudioZombie3D
Featured designs: Pipe Cox, fixumdude
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#whatwesmoke #SUNGROWN #SK1 #smallbatch #familyfarm #boutique #cannabis #connoisseur #culture #flower #dank #ganja #weedstagram #1620 https://www.instagram.com/p/Cn5t373LkI4CFRBiMdj9qzC9SKdTDteGqvJ9lw0/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=
#whatwesmoke#sungrown#sk1#smallbatch#familyfarm#boutique#cannabis#connoisseur#culture#flower#dank#ganja#weedstagram#1620
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Tom Riddle became an Animagus after graduating from Hogwarts but never used it because he was embarrassed of the form it took, which didn't befit Voldemort (a magpie)
#tom riddle#lord voldemort#voldemort#sk1 rambles#so obsessed with magpie!Riddle#one of the most intelligent animals and a thief and an omen of misfortune#it fits so much better than a snake i think
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The hard bit is over 😌😌😌
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made another miku 😳😳
I'm trying to play around with sk1 but using rgb color sliders are tough 💀💀
#miku#miku hatsune#vocaloid#vocaloid art#anime art#vector#digital art#artwork#artists on tumblr#my art#art#illustration#digital illustration#digital drawing
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