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defectivevillain · 1 year

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pairings [can be platonic or romantic]: mammon & reader, leviathan & reader

reader’s pronouns: unspecified but masc-intended

author’s note: the MC in obey me! is so nonchalant about everything.... I started thinking about that and before I knew it, I was writing a fic. lmao. I'll be honest, this is likely how I would react if I were in the MC’s place.

cw: panic attack, hyperventilation, anxiety

Your anxiety has been bubbling inside you for a few weeks now. Your sudden unexpected entrance into the Devildom was jarring. One moment, you were talking with your friends and the next, you were standing before intimidating demons that looked ready to eat you. During your stay at the House of Lamentation, you become closer to the demon brothers. As you're submerged in draining tasks and intensive schoolwork, the thought of your home in the human world gradually slips your mind. Just as you grow comfortable with your surroundings, however, the carpet is ripped from underneath your feet.

You’re sitting down at the dinner table, listening to the brothers chatter and argue about random things. Asmodeus is engaged in a conversation with Satan. Beelzebub is eating so ravenously that he’s taking bites out of his silverware, too. Mammon is seated at your side. Lucifer sits at the head of the table, as always. Even Levi is present, to your surprise. You suspect your newly formed pact might have something to do with that.

“I’m glad to hear your transition to the Devildom is going smoothly,” Lucifer remarks, leveling you with a cool gaze over his clasped hands. He seems to be contemplating something for a moment. “I’m sure the difference was quite pronounced.”

“Humans don’t have TSL...!” Leviathan interjects disbelievingly, out of nowhere. You’re kind of amazed that he's just now realizing that. You nod to confirm that you don’t have TSL back at home.

“Man, that sucks,” Mammon remarks sympathetically. You know he’s only aware of the series because of your late-night binge the other night. Levi seems to think the same thing, as he sends his brother a malicious glare. Mammon is oblivious to it, however. He continues on about things that you likely don’t know, about how much better the Devildom is than the human world. Something about that last sentiment makes you pause.

The human world... You take a shuddering breath in. How could you have forgotten? Dread coils in your chest as you think about your home, your family, your friends. You’re ashamed that you could have ever forgotten the fact that you’re stranded in the Devildom—entirely alone and with nothing from your old life.

Levi continues to prattle on about Henry, but his words sound warped and muted in your ears. You vaguely recognize Mammon glancing at you out of the corner of your eye. You see Levi’s eyebrows furrow and your vision sharpens around him, creating harsh contrasts that hurt your eyes.

Your heart is racing in your chest and your hands are fidgeting at your sides. You push yourself to your feet and murmur some flimsy excuse before promptly leaving the dining room, quickly retreating to your bedroom. Shadows are creeping around the edges of your vision and you can’t see anything except the carpeted hall in front of you. The moment you make it back to your room, you close the door behind you and mechanically move to sit on your bed. Knees drawn to your chest, you finally let your emotions free.

Tears slip down your face as the brutal reality crashes down upon you. You’re trapped here for the foreseeable future. Diavolo mentioned that you’d return upon your completion of the school year, but that could have easily been a lie. What if they keep you here forever? What of your family, your friends, your pets? How differently does time pass here in the Devildom? What if, when you return, your friends are all decades older than you?!

It feels like there’s a rose bush growing in your chest—thorned vines wrapping around your heart and squeezing. Your breaths are sharp and raspy. You claw at your chest and try to breathe deeply, but no air comes.

“Oi, human!” A loud rapping sound resounds throughout the room. You clamp your hands over your ears and close your eyes, overwhelmed with the sensory input that seems to hit you all at once. As much as you appreciate his concern, you just want the demon to go away. Please go away. Please go away. Please-

Your door quite nearly falls off of its hinges, as it swings open to hit the adjacent wall with a bang. You look up in surprise, only to find Mammon and Leviathan in the doorway. Mammon has his fist raised and he’s evidently the one who forced the door open. Even their sudden appearance can’t get rid of the panic rising in your chest or the chills running up your skin. You bury your head back in your knees and close your eyes, wishing everything away.

“Hey, come on, ya have to breathe,” Mammon says, placing a hand on your shoulder. Despite the knowledge that he wouldn’t hurt you, a shudder crawls up your spine. You curl into yourself even more, shutting your eyes as hard as you can. Maybe if you blink enough, you’ll open your eyes to see the human world once more.

“Mammon, stop it,” Levi chastises. You can hardly hear the demon’s voice over the roaring in your ears. “I know you’re trying to help, but it’s not working.” Silence settles across the space for a few moments and you peek your head out from your arms. Levi extends an open palm out towards you. He lets his hand fall flat on the mattress, as if to reassure you that he won’t move unless you wish him to. Your breaths are just as choked and harsh as before. With a trembling hand, you reach out to clasp Levi’s hand.

“What-?” Mammon remarks.

“Here, breathe with me,” Leviathan says to you. He takes a deep breath in and exhales out slowly. The demon then turns to Mammon. “I saw this in an anime once.” You try to breathe along with him, but it takes several tries. After a few minutes, your chest only stings mildly. You rub your eyes roughly and your vision clears for the first time since the brothers entered the room. Levi is looking at you expectantly and Mammon has a guilty expression on his face. You take one look at him and promptly throw yourself at the Avatar of Greed.

“Oi-!” You throw your arms around him and dig your head into the crook of his shoulder. Mammon stiffens for a moment, before hesitantly patting your back. His apprehension only lasts a few seconds, thankfully, before he wraps his arms around your waist.

“Thanks, Mammon,” you murmur, stepping back from him once you recollect your composure. “Thanks, Henry.” You say to Levi, who then turns a marvelous shade of red. Mammon visibly deflates at his brother’s side and you blink at him in confusion.

“Why don’t I get a nickname?” Mammon whines. You roll your eyes fondly. Admittedly, your chest still feels a bit tight and your hands are still trembling, but you feel much better than before.

“Thanks, first man,” you respond. Mammon splutters, as if he hadn’t actually anticipated you granting his wishes. You reach out to squeeze his hand reassuringly and he averts his eyes, his cheeks flushed. You grasp Levi’s hand with your free hand and the demon looks down to the ground, a hint of a smile working its way onto his face. “Thanks, guys.” You’re still lingering in a massive void of uncertainty, and the more you contemplate your future, the more panic you feel. But, with the two brothers at your side, you’re sure you can handle anything that comes your way.

#obey me #obey me x reader #obey me x gn reader #obey me x male reader #masc reader #gn reader #gender neutral reader #male reader #leviathan x reader #leviathan x male reader #mammon x reader #mammon x male reader

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trans-advice · 2 months

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I'm a newly hatched egg and something I'm struggling with is I had a mom who was very supportive of the lgbtq+ until it came to her own kid. Like she had butch lesbians and femme gays as friends and I could talk to her about Elliot Page and Caitlyn Jenner transitioning. She even constantly told me it was fine if I was a lesbian. But whenever I would express my gender dysphoria to her, she would always shut it down with "it was always my dream to have a daughter" and "i kept having kids until I had a daughter". She put so much pressure on me to be more femme, to wear more makeup, to put on perfume, to wear dresses and skirts.

I also feel dumb for letting it affect me so much because I cut contact with her years ago for other reasons so why am I letting it bother me so much? And idk who to talk to about this and I feel dumb for bringing it up when there are people whose families are way worse than mine. I can't afford therapy.

Idk i'm just so confused.

1: your mother basically told you get entire relationship with you, including pregnancy, (including introducing you to her friends) was a relationship where you were constantly dehumanized & objectified the entire time, like waiting for a candy egg with pink paint to come out of a candy machine.

2: part of your self esteem as a trans person was seeing realistic examples of queerness via your mom's butch lesbian & femme gay friends.

3: the strictness of the gender binary reinforces the boss-worker heirarchy your mother had with you her child. This is why she felt so comfortable telling you that she ordered a girl as if you were a server who gave her a wrong item from the restaurant kitchen. Then, when she sees that doesn't get her anywhere, she does conversion torture on you, basically treating you like a piece of food on a restaurant plate that she has to fix the seasoning herself, whether it's like removing mushrooms or scraping meat or adding sweet 'n low to a stir fry dish. She's never recognizing that you & your body are not a product to consume. She never recognized your right to bodily autonomy. (To say the least of it, I do mean there's probably more bugs under those unturned stones.)

Point being, part of seeing living, actually existing, realistic, queer adults, is part of building our self esteem. By the way, realistic transition goals is part of building positive self esteem in general. (This is why TDOV in March was developed by trans people, because we didn't trust cis people to help us back then, and we wanted to combat genocidal narratives that lied about our prevalence & life outcomes.) And so your mom's queerbaiting anti-trans conduct hits hard because now you've found out that you need new role models (other than the ones your mom gave you), in order to build your self-esteem with, which will shake some expectations you had for your own life for a while until at least you make more pro-trans lgbtqia+ friends to help you secure your bearings.

Like I'm going to also be blunt here too and I'm going to say that your mom probably would've abused your girlfriends in a similar way she abused you because she would've seen them as yet another candy egg covered in pink paint. So yeah, it's good to keep no-contact with your mom, especially to help protect your new support network including yourself.

Good Luck, Peace & Love,

Eve

#tw discussion of food

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seleniangnosis · 2 years

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𝓽𝓲𝓶𝓮𝓵𝓮𝓼𝓼 𝓪𝓭𝓿𝓲𝓬𝓮

Pile order: 1 -> 2 -> 3

Pile one 🤍

Dear pile one it seems that you are right now getting out of a situation that has caused you a lot of stress, pain , agony ( especially in terms of mental health).

This situation might have been caused by untrustworthy people, backstabbers, but you proved yourself to be strong and steadfast whether you feel like it or not , or you have put your trough self confinement due to past situations which hurt you deeply.

You are now ready to enter a new phase of new found strength and fulfillment! Good things are coming and you are encouraged to to look forward no matter what your mind tells you. You won't get an instant reward or gratification, but slowly things will come into place , don't become frustrated if improvement takes time to show up, nothing happens overnight.

The relationship you have with your friends and cherished people in your life will show helpful in anchoring you into the reality of your situation and mentain you on the right track.

The way trough which you can navigate this new phase of your life is by giving yourself and your mind a rest. If you feel like you have to do something all the time in order for change to take place... in this case you'll be quite wrong.

Action is for sure welcomed, but it can also burden your mind and bring you back to where you started, changing your focus from the outside world to your inner world will prove to be tremendously beneficial in dealing with the remains of your struggles. Rest , meditate ( if this is something you already practice) and ponder upon what has brought you here, don't become too impulsive!

Pile 2 ⚔❤

My dear it seems that you are currently blocking your own path and your own success. Theres is a spark of creativity and determination present, but you fear taking a leap of faith and a direct approach. If you've always had a desire to control everything that is happening in your life ... this won't help you now , we can get opportunities for change everytime but they won't stay open forever. Whatever opportunity you're afraid to take, whatever change you're afraid to make, it won't keep you safe. You'll look back to this moment and regret not taking action sooner.

The circumstances will provide you with some help in changing your mentally and viewing your limbo state from a different perspective, you have pondered and analysed the situation for long enough, now it's time to act.

Find your courage, passion and bravery, and redirect your course!

Something that can help you navigate this transition period would be to take a more unorthodox approach. Do it your own way. Have a fresh start , don't let yourself bothered by what others tell you to do. Break the established pattern and dare to let your aptitudes shine !

If what's keeping you stuck is the fear of shocking, being too different, or not making your family proud ( be a disgrace to them ) , you should ponder upon what is making YOU happy, because in the end is your life and you are the one who has to be satisfied with the results!

Have more faith in your uniqueness!

Pile 3 ✨💛

I'm happy for you because whoever chose this one seems to be at a point in life where they feel emotionally stable and counting their blessings, yet you feel like you haven't put enough effort into your life/ actions.

You are a diligent and hardworking person, who is a bit concerned with the amount of accomplishments they have. Even if you might feel like your efforts weren't enough, or they will not prove themselves that helpful, you have to give yourself more credit!

Soon you might be faced with a new decision that might affect the course of your life a bit. A chapter of your life has ended, and you are invited to let go of unnecessary baggage that's hindering your progress. If you recognize having an important lesson to learn lately, then your lesson has been learned and this experience will serve to your future development.

If a new idea or inspiration hits you out of nowhere, do not dismiss them, they might prove to be useful. Other than that , what follows for you is a period of slowing down and rethinking your options.

Be kind to yourself, do not rush and use this time to nurture your creativity, your mental state and do not rush into the action of taking immediate control of your life. Sometimes the best answer comes with time.

If you deem your past experiences to be helpful lessons for others , consider sharing your wisdom with those who are in a similar situation.

#tarot spread #tarotblr #tarot reading #pick a card reading #pac reading #tarot community #tarotcommunity #divination

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souma-stars · 1 year

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🌿🌹KEITO HASUMI THE VAMPIRE🌹🌿

keito hasumi x fem reader

warnings: slightly nsfw-ish, yandere, slight horror, biting

word count: 1.6k

a/n: ok keito is kinda ooc but its bc of the vampire charm ya know. also this one is super long so i added a word count :D i had so much fun writing this i hope y’all enjoy!

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You were invited to a banquet held at Sakuma Residence, a mansion that had seemed to stretch from one end of the Earth to the other. It was a celebration for a vampire tradition significant to the Sakuma family, but many were invited and were dressed to impress. Ladies in lavish ball gowns and men in neat and fitting tuxedos. Nothing about this banquet screamed poor.

You had heard rumors circling around that there were actual vampires among the guests invited to the banquet. They could not be easily distinguished from normal humans, but if recognized, it would be best to avoid encountering them as they could change your life right before you know it.

These mysterious rumors made you wary and a bit afraid, but at the same time excitement was pumping through your heart. As you danced through the night, taking turns with different strangers, you wondered if you were yet to encounter a real vampire, or if you had already met one.

Eventually the clock had struck midnight, and the deep, rich sound of a bell echoed throughout the hall. It was already the next day, but the night was far from over.

As you danced, a distant figure caught your attention. It was a man with dark-green hair and glasses, who was standing alone with crossed arms. He seemed to be watching something that was in your direction, but you denied that it could possibly be you.

Until a few more dances later, as you were in the midst of switching partners, a hand was outstretched in front of you. You looked to see who it was, and low and behold, it was the man.

"My lady, may I be honored to have this dance?" The man asked courteously with a small smile on his face. Your face began heating up. He was the only person that night that had actually asked for a dance. Throughout the night you were simply transitioning between partners with no formalities.

You took a breathe and said smiling, "Yes, you may."

The man smiled and gently took your hand within his, pulling you close to him as his other arm wrapped itself softly around your waist. You placed one hand on his chest and looked up to admire your partner.

From afar, you wouldn't be able to tell that he was handsome, but now that you were this close, you could see how all of his features aligned. Now you were not only charmed by his polite demeanor, but you were also charmed by his handsome features. Your heart raced as you thought about this man and wondered if there could be more to this night.

"My lady, I am delighted to be dancing with you tonight. May I get to know your name?" the man had asked.

"O-oh yes I am delighted as well! My name is y/n. What is your name?" You blurted nervously as you were brought back to reality.

"My name is Keito Hasumi. It is a pleasure getting to know you, y/n," he stated coolly.

"It's a pleasure getting to know you too, Keito," you said with a shy smile.

Keito Hasumi was his name, and you made sure not to forget it. As you two continued to converse, you gazed into his lime-green eyes and felt yourself falling deeper. Unfortunately, what had remained out of your sight were the fangs behind his lips.

Before you knew it, your dance had come to an end. Keito slowly released you and held one of your hands to his lips for a small kiss.

"It was a pleasure dancing with you, y/n. I hope we can meet again soon," Keito said as he let go of your hand and smiled at your slightly saddened face.

"I hope to see you again too," you whispered with a small smile.

And like a swift breeze, he was out of sight. You were lost for a second and had felt slight panic in your chest as you hoped to not lose him. Though you were sad, you had truly hoped that you would meet again that night.

Little would you know, you would.

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After a few more rounds of dancing, you felt yourself getting exhausted for the first time this night. You left the dance floor in search of a restroom where you could be alone and away from the the extravagant orchestra and the chattering voices.

As you turned this way and that throughout the dimly-lit halls, the silence began to creep up on you and you wondered if you actually knew where you were going. In efforts to remain calm, you opened doors and peeped inside to see if you had found the restroom, but to no avail, you remained lost.

The hallways became more dim as you wandered through unexplored territory. You knew for sure you were lost, so now you searched with hopes to find a person to help you. As you closed the door to a room you looked into, you suddenly felt a cold breath tickle your ear.

"Y/n." a familiar voice whispered.

You gasped and turned around to meet Keito's face inches away from yours. You nearly let out a scream before his hand covered your mouth as he dragged you into a nearby room.

You found yourself on the wooden floors of an old bedroom, directly within the moonlight that shone through the large glass windows. Your heart raced at the sudden change of scenery as well as the sudden appearance of the man. You were secretly a bit happy that you were able to see him again, but you couldn't push away the fear in your heart.

Keito held you within his arms as his face inched closer to yours. He cupped your cheek with his hand and shifted your face so your eyes could meet his.

"Y/n, I'm happy to see you again. Are you glad to see me too?" Keito asked softly.

You couldn't get a word out. Thoughts about the mere distance between you two had completely clouded your brain. All you could do was stare hopelessly into those lime-green eyes.

Keito chuckled, revealing his fangs that glinted in the moonlight. Your eyes widened when they shifted to the source of the glinting. The truth hit you hard: Keito was a vampire. Now you were frozen and shaking with fear, your heart nearly exploding out of your chest as fear crept up within you. You didn't think vampires were actually real, did you? You had no clue of what they could be capable of. You won't die, will you...?

Keito tightened his grip around you as his expression became serious and his eyes locked on yours.

"I've waited so long to have you, y/n. You could not imagine how much it took for me to hold myself back... days and nights I spent watching you, dreaming of you, to hold you in my arms like this and have you all to myself, draped in the sweet scent of your blood... I wish you could just be mine."

One truth was already hard enough, but finding out that he's been after you for who knows how long? You felt like a deer caught in headlights, he had you trapped under his spell before you even knew it. This entire time you had left yourself so vulnerable, there was no escape to this and that fear haunted you.

"K-Keito..." you spluttered out shakily.

"Y/n please don't worry, I won't hurt you, I promise. You're so precious to me, I cherish you as if you are the rarest gemstone to exist on this planet. There's nothing to fear, you're safe in my arms," Keito attempted to assure you, panic clear in his voice. The look of fear in your eyes, he didn't want you to go farther away...

He didn't want you to go farther away. You couldn't, you shouldn't. You were his and only his. He decided you were his. No one could take away anything that belonged to him. Now that he had you this close, there was no way he was letting you go. No matter what it took, he would make sure that you will truly be his in the end.

Your breathes halted as Keito suddenly pulled you into a strong embrace, holding you so close you found it hard to breathe. You tried pulling away but his grip was indestructible.

"Keit-" you tried calling out to him as you made poor attempts to escape. Every time you tried, he pulled you in even closer.

"Please y/n, please cooperate. I'm doing this for your best, for our best. I told you, you don't have to worry."

"What are you going to do-"

"I'm turning you into a vampire. That is the only way we can be together forever..."

You stopped resisting as the words struck you. You had felt it deep inside of you: There was no hope in trying anymore. This was the end. You lost.

Your body went limp within his arms as you finally gave up on yourself. Keito smirked at the sight of you surrendering yourself to him. He secured one hand on your cheek and exposed your neck, leaning in to plant a small kiss on your skin.

"Thank you for cooperating y/n. I'm sorry, this will hurt just a little..." Keito whispered into your ear.

You gazed soullessly at the wallpaper of the old bedroom, eyes barely held open by heavy lids. As you felt the sharp tip of his fangs touch your skin, your thoughts drifted from reality to another world. A world away from the banquet full of lavish dancers. A world where it was just you and him, together for the rest of eternity. The thought of it didn't seem so bad after all, did it?

The moment his teeth sunk into your skin, your vision went black. It was the end.

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#ensemble stars #ensemble stars x reader #enstars #enstars x reader #keito hasumi #keito hasumi x reader #yandere #yandere enstars #yandere keito hasumi #vampire #enstars vampire #enstars keito

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ofsvnshine · 2 months

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‘ hwang hyunjin, non binary, they/them, 25 / 250 ’ ― cauldron save you. it seems AERI ASHWAY has finally made it to the capital, the LIEGE from AUTUMN COURT is said to be PASSIONATE and is said to describe themselves with A SPLINTER OF SOUL CUTTING THROUGH SKIN, RAVEN HAIR PULLED BACK INTO A TIGHT BUN, THE JAGGED SIDE OF A CLIFF’S EDGE and with all of this in mind their BLUNTNESS always seems to get them into trouble. may the mother hold them as they navigate this unthinkable time.

statistics :

label: the icarian.

positive traits: passionate, maverick, loyal.

negative traits: brazen, guarded, fickle.

orientation: homosexual, homoromantic.

gender: nonbinary ( they / them pronouns ).

age: 25 250.

species: high fae.

profession: leige.

court: autumn.

abilities: immortality, winnowing, fire manipulation, memory manipulation.

mbti: enfp.

zodiac: gemini.

notable features: dark raven colored hair often pulled back into braids or a bun, a smirk pulling up the corners of their lips, a piercing above their left eyebrow.

introduction :

you are the youngest of the ashway family and have never quite felt as though you belong. perhaps being the youngest has always lead you to feeling left out, never getting enough attention from your parents and always growing envious of your older siblings who did.

at first you tried to be the very best child you could be, following all the rules, so incredibly well behaved. but all that did was make it easier for you to fade to the background - the child that never needed discipline, the child that never needed their parenting.

and as you grew older you very quickly started to test the waters going the completely opposite direction. you acted out, you caused problems. you were snarky and opinionated, very willing to start a fight with anyone who interacted with you for too long. they had to pay attention now, right?

still nothing.

but at least this time you were gaining reactions from everyone else around you - that was something. so you didn't change. it became something you very easily slipped into, a personality far more confrontational and troublemaking than you were really deep down.

but you learned very quickly how to make yourself guarded, to keep your emotions hidden so that you didn't get hurt. because nothing was worst than others seeing you upset. this was far easier. not caring about anything, getting attention even if it was negative.

and that definitely shaped you into the person you are today. you know it's all on the outside though, that deep down you are still the soft child still just searching for attention and love.

the transition into the high family was one that you went along with happily. how could you not? it was just another way for people to finally recognize you, to finally give you some sort of attention. and it was another way to get you out of trouble too, which only got worse with the more power your last name held.

wanted connections :

exes (messy ofc), one night stands, unlikely friends, best friend, good influence on them, someone that joins in on causing problems with them, enemies, more tbd !

#* aeri / introduction.#ofcourtfables:intro #not my best work but we vibing

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lycanthropdyke · 8 months

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🖊 + any of your splatooning agents <:D

i think about these mfs so damn much. OKAY!!! i will just talk about the Toxic Yuri that is Captain 3 and Neo Agent 3 (Or as henceforth referred too as San and Mittsu)

When San first started helping as Agent 3, she only knew Mittsu as this annoying Octo Sniper that would always splat her. Day in and Day out she would get got by that same sonnabitch. It honestly pushed him to get better as an Agent until one day, she finally splatted Mittsu. What first started as a simple enemy grew to become a full on Rivalry. Some how if they were on the same stage they would find each other and would not STOP until one of them was "DEAD". It only got worse after San rescued the Great Zapfish, becoming more and more intense.

That is until one day, where San just never saw her again. Since he never spoke octoling he obviously could just go up to someone and ask, so he just kinda stewed with it.

SO what happened to Mittsu, you must be asking yourself. Well she was on a helicopter ride outside of octo territory when something broke. She was barely able to super jump out of the falling machinery, and when she finally came too, she was long far away from where she knew. Slowly but surely she made her way to civilization (the Splatlands), picking up Little Buddy on the way. There, with no money or means to get home, she was forced to start working her way up and saving money.

Its not till the time of Splat 3 that the two reunite, less angry, more knowledgeable. The two recognize each other, but do not call it out. They do not attempt to reminisce, they do not try to catch up, until Mittsu realizes something. Agent 8 (Hachi), someone San help escape the underground and recover some of their memories, was their long lost sibling (Hachi transitioned between the time Mittsu last saw them and now).

This event makes them both something. They aren't crazy scary battle hungry kids anymore. They're adults, with families, with friends, and together they know each other better than anyone else could.

#my post #asks #splatoon #catbirdstations #Captain 3 San #Neo 3 Mittsu #I LOVE THESE DYKES SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#THANK YOU FOR ASKING ABOUT THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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frankiistein · 7 months

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the only story content of the alt timeline is one comic (i know some of the mv stuff shows it but its just art with no words) and i decided to reread it today

general comment: i rly like the art for this update, the color scheme is nice and the seamless horizontal transition is so cool

anyway commentary time:

i think the all black shadow forms is just a symbolic thing because nobody comments on it, so to other characters bon and bien just look human

still its interesting that in the main timeline their default is the shadow forms and in the alt tl its the human forms. personally i also like how it emphasize the gulf between bon and bien in this tl i think, because they look very different and not related at all, compared to their shadow forms that look practically the same.

i think its a good way to portray how in the main timeline they see their father/son relationship as important probably to the point of codependents that they look so similar to each other, while in the alt timeline they seem more distant

i also like their outfits here, i think its like royal-ish outfits since theyre arguably the equivalent of the royal family because theyre the monarchs "children" there main color is blue instead of red too

wires on the tail so spooky

reality is "brought about by the sounds of wires vibrating" and media and jacques are connected with a wire in the annotations, i dont fullt get the "rules" of how to "use" them yet but i think they tie things down to "reality" (in the annotations you use a wire to make the hypothetical "real" sorta) so ig guess the idea here is that jacques is manipulating reality (or, closer to what he does in a1 too, is used by a tether by someone else who is manipulating reality)

"from violence comes the birth of you" is a based title

bien once again forced to listen to The Analogies. i noticed a trend where people try to explain things to him using analogies and he just finds it more confusing than ever hes so autism coded

this lines here by media are rly interesting especially because medias relationship to bien has never been showed yet. we dont know how exactly bien was made (afaik it doesnt seem they know either because it was accidental but we dont know either if they found out eventually) so we dont know the extent of his demon powers esp since hes probably not a "real" demon or at least not a "pure" one

in the main timeline he obviously has his powers so i wonder if media is just wrong int thinking bien has no powers or if he rly just never had them in this timeline. my personal theory is that (main)biens powers awokened as a teenager (or whenever it was bon started having problems with him) maybe triggered by him killing animals so much? just that since (alt)bien never got exiled his powers never awokened because hes never had/wanted to kill

demons need to get their powers by communicating with hell so that also means (main)bien does (idk yet if hell is meant to be a place, a state or things like that)

"golly" let him say FUCK

theres not a lot of bien and jacques interaction in either tl but tbf it always seemed like they get along nice enough? in main tl bien at least recognizes jacques for giving him bday gifts and doesnt have a want to kill him lol. in this tl jacques shows concern for bien in the tyam mv, the vibe i get so far is like that child who helplessly observes one of their parents get abused by the other and cant do anything abt it. so sad :(

a rly interesting thing to me is that media shows concern for jacques here ("did you hurt yourself?")

jacques stim toy so cute :3

jacques is the weirdest behavior here bcuz he acts rly... idk confused? stupid? just very different from his main tl self. but in ch3 and tyam he actually acts more "normal" so 🤔🤔🤔 thinking emoji

my first thoughts was, maybe something happened that effected his intelligence but this comic happened before the scenes in tyam (bcuz alt!bien already lost his hands there) so i think it just shifts around? idk

he explains it as the annotation effects but i just dont trust him lmao xD

'that or i have stuffed him full of way too much ink' lol innuendo spotted jkjk

'mind consummation' so basically theyre married in this tl (obvi they have the rings) and this is some. idk marginal marriage ritual that eats ur mind ig

i think whats more itneresting to me than whats happening to jacques is why he agreed to marry media in this tl (or if he didnt agree why media forced him to here when he wouldnt in the main tl)

from main biens wish this tl is basically the au where bon wasnt exiled so assuming all the other events before that point were the same, then the presence of bon and bien as me/ja's "children" rly had a strong effect for their relationship

this is main bread idk how she got here shes so hardcore

alt! jacques recognizes her too 🤨🤨

this is biens 18th bday so this happened four years ago (since main!bien has been dead for four years) so bread essentially not only went to the alt timeline but did so in the past. the chronology in the story is homestuck-shenanigans style weird tho so im not going to look too deep into that

the question is how she got here from curators world specifically

are you a construction worker? because you are building😘🥰🤗🤩

OOOO SUSSY WIRES

once again media here listens to jacques instead of bien. that media seems to hold some regard for jacques despite abusing him so much in this timeline makes their relationship feel a lot more complicated than "just" abuse

i think bcuz i have a hard time grasping why media loves jacques so much in the main timeline its rly hard for me to gauge how media "really" feels abt jacques in any situation? medias clearly sadistic and in the main tl its implied hes embarrassed of himself bcuz he doesnt want to actually kill jacques, although its vaguely implied that his resistant may not necessarily be out of an empathetic concern for jacques, but that if jacques dies then..... well hed be jacquesless lmao.

i think in the alt timeline we already saw media behead jacques so it feels like to me this is a tl where jacques cant die and so media has no reason to resist hurting him so much.

i do think media enjoys both harming jacques AND spending time with him in normal loveydovey ways though, so even int he alt timeline he has his usual "simps for the hj"personality that he has in the main

this hasnt been stated in the comic yet, only in one of the scattered posts i think, but i think its confirmed that media is so sadistic specifically because he loves the "caretaker" role and wants others to be as helpless and unable to be independent as possible, so it makes sense for him to simultaneously love coddling jacques and want him to get hurt to the point of utter dependence (jacques "stupidity" is most likely medias fault)

bien cant catch a break frfr

at least give him anaesthesia bro

#me rereading bread every few days like my life depends on it (i am also just rly bored)#breadavota

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birth chart reading for @csmiclxtte

hello! welcome to your reading. l'm gonna give you a quick overview of what l'm going to analyze about your natal chart. feel free to ask me anything if something isn't clear, of course. you'll find out your dominants' influence on your persona, your physical appearance, impression on others and the way you approach the world; your ego, identity, the real you; your reactions, your desires, inner emotions; your way of expressing your feelings, your mind and ideas; your desires and approach to love; your energy tank, instincts and temperament; in-depth analysis of each house with their rulers and analysis of heavy aspects; love life + soulmates/karmic partners interpretation; your relationship with your friends; your family life; your approach to career and work in general + possible jobs suggestion; your style, fashion sense analysis; life purpose and past life description; basic transits' analysis to describe your current mood and, last but not least, your secret skills, how to make the most out of your soul and manifest what you desire based on your birth chart.

🦋 chart shape, dominants

your chart is a seesaw shape. your life focuses on different ideals and interests, often contrasting between each other. from one side, this gives you the ability to be adaptable and find solutions easily. on the other hand, you may struggle with balance; for example, you might find yourself dedicating your life to your relationships, neglecting your ego or vice versa. you need to learn how to harmonize these energies.

your dominant planets are the moon, jupiter and the sun. you are probably quite creative, or at least you have a passion for creative outlets; you may like music, reading, cooking, etc. you may be a trendsetter among your peers, or you may even become pretty well-known in your field. you are very sensitive and empathic, it comes natural for you to understand and absorb others' feelings. as a result, you might be quite introverted, you get tired easily when in social contexts.

your dominant sign is aquarius. you're eccentric and rebel, you don't like being told what to do. you're very considerate of others, as you focus more on the development of a group rather than your persona. that's because you want the people you frequent to be as open-minded as you are. aquarius people are capable of elaborating different ideas in a short amount of time; hence, you either overwork yourself, or you're not able to keep up with all your ideas, leaving projects unfinished.

your dominant element is water. you're very intuitive and empathetic, you care a lot about others, and you may seem like a healer to people you know. in fact, you always try to help them if you can, almost in a therapeutic way. you're also very spiritual, and you're attracted to anything related to discovering your higher self and soul purpose.

🌎 ascendant in leo, 27° / 3rd decan ruled by the sun and mars

you’re an extremely confident and bright person, or at least you have a very strong aura around you that makes you look like you are. you have exceptional charisma and presence, in fact this is usually a celebrity placement! you surely don’t go overlooked. you naturally always try your best to make people feel at ease, and you mostly succeed thanks to your warmth, which makes you even more attractive. you probably like being recognized, and you may want to be famous. in fact, you like being in the spotlight and loaded with compliments and appreciation, they incredibly boost your self-confidence. your charisma may sometimes be too noticeable, resulting a bit dramatic; you may gesticulate a lot, imitate voices… basically, you would do amazing at acting, for example. in fact, most celebrities have a leo rising, or leo placements of any sort. you’re very playful, you most likely look younger than you are for your personality. you may also be a savage, and you’re most likely good at jokes of any kind. you appear as a very bubbly and outgoing person, yet you may be quite secretive. you don’t open up easily, especially about family / private matters. especially with your water influence, you’re very picky when it comes to trusting people. in addition, you’re a perfectionist; you care a lot about everything that revolves around you, from physical appearance to your job, you want it all to be perfect. that can cause you a lot of stress, as you always want to seem at your best state, you despise being seen as weak or unprepared. physically, all leos have beautiful hair. you may have curly, perhaps red or dark hair, or at least it’s very thick. you may also get tanned easily, an olive skin tone or any kind of warm undertones to your skin. you may have full, plump lips, or at least they have a defined cupid’s bow. you may also have bushy eyebrows, a wide forehead and a pointy chin, as well as a prominent bone structure.

leo ascendant square sagittarius pluto: you're aware that the world is too nasty for your honesty, hence you may have trust issues. even though you are friendly, you're very picky about who you decide to actually call your friend. you may constantly feel lonely, as if no one were willing to listen and understand you. you live with the fear that others may take advantage of you, hence you end up doing it yourself, unconsciously. you may be controlling, but your chart hints that it's not too much of a big deal. you may have the tendency to do it sometimes, but it's mostly a bad trait of your past life. the universe is testing you to see if you've learned your lesson or not. you have all the skills to avoid this type of behaviour now that you're aware of it.

🌞 sun in cancer, 15° / 2nd decan ruled by the moon and pluto

even though you may not show it due to your heavy fire influence, you’re actually very vulnerable and sensitive. you may be a crybaby, as crying is a way to vent your emotions. you may even overreact, and be considered too dramatic. you’re extremely moody; you could be all happy and relaxed with your friends, then suddenly you get sad, or even angry. it’s hard to deal with this, especially because your emotions are quite intense. this could make you argue a lot with your peers. even though it takes you a while to find someone willing to stay, when that moment finally comes you’ll embody cancer’s best trait: that is, you’ll become a ‘mother’ to your friends, lover etc. you have a very nurturing soul, you have a knack for affection and care, and you could even get kind of clingy, even though you may feel limitated to give your love to someone else. cancer is a cardinal sign, hence you may be the one to take initiative, yet you do it indirectly. you’re probably the passive-aggressive type. you’re most likely also quite patient, even though you don’t forgive easily. once someone tries to take advantage of you, it’s over for them.

🌙 moon in sagittarius, 26° / 3rd decan ruled by jupiter and the sun

you're an outgoing and warm person, who always tries to make others feel at ease. I assume you try to be nice to everyone, but you can't help but be a little awkward around people you don't know. with your sagittarius moon, you go with the flow and don't shy away from challenges. they're moments to prove your potential and abilities. you are an extremely open-minded person, you rarely judge a book by its cover. you probably despise racism, homophobia, misogyny etc. with a passion (as you should tbh). you may also be into poetry, philosophy, and just anything that can stimulate both your mind and feelings. in fact, your mind is constantly wandering somewhere else, allowing you to travel with your fantasy. you're also probably attracted to foreign things, like people, music, fashion, languages, movies etc. you love learning about anything, and you may also have a good memory. in fact, it’s common for you to be the one who explains things and possibly even leads a group, and this could unluckily make you seem as a know-it-all. you do take pride in your wisdom, indeed. your deep way of thinking is also where your desire for freedom comes from, as you wish to be able to expand yourself through travelling and new experiences. when you get angry, you can actually get very rude and offensive, even towards authorities. you’re short-tempered, and you despise being told what to do. you’re also a good, loyal friend, and you’re the type to stand up for them and defend them during a fight. you’re friendly, especially with people you feel comfortable with, and you probably love talking. you’re able to put a smile on others’ face just by telling your stories, even though you never truly go in-depth. you're quite optimistic, as you see good in everyone. yet, while this is a good trait that allows you to be more at ease in relationships, you may also be fooled easily due to your blind optimism.

sagittarius moon opposite cancer mars: your feelings are very intense. you may tend to react aggressively, or at least overreact. you feel the constant need to express your emotions, but you also want to be understood by others. you tend to be aggressive because you're actually afraid that others may be the first ones to hurt you. you don't really do it with malice, it's your way to defend yourself from eventual enemies. this placement also indicates that your childhood / family life was or will be quite turbulent. to cope with this placement, I'd suggest you to be a little bit more mechanic when you express your feelings. you don't have to hide them, just try not to vent all your anger around.

sagittarius moon square pisces jupiter: you enjoy making different experiences and living your life to the fullest, making you also a risk-taker. you may lack self-control. with this trait you get bored easily, and you may have a reputation for being flaky. you tend to overindulge; you may spend too much money, or even develop eating disorders like binge-eating. at least, you're able to build your life again and have a fresh start, but you risk to get stuck in this cycle. you have the potential to master different talents, but you may struggle to develop them due to this placement. you're a procrastinator, and you find it hard to focus on more things at the same time. you may also attract people with different beliefs and ideas from you, causing you to fall out with them easily. there are also positive sides to this placement, though! you're probably naturally lucky, even though luck may not always be by your side. you have a nice sense of humor, making you more likeable.

🗣️ mercury in leo, 10° / 2nd decan ruled by the sun and jupiter

you take a lot of pride in your intellect and ideas. leo is a fixed sign, hence you’re quite stubborn with your thoughts. you have a spectacular way of speaking, almost dramatic, that could make you come off as a know-it-all. when telling stories, you may exaggerate a bit, but at least you’re entertaining to listen. you could also gesticulate a lot while speaking, and maybe you like mimicking voices as well. you aim to express your feelings through creativity, it’s very important for you to write poetry, songs, drawings etc., it’s also a way to relieve stress and worries. your way of speaking is very attractive, it’s like a magnet. with this charisma of yours, it’s impossibile not to listen to you, you most likely have an extremely soothing and entertaining tone of voice. you would do amazing as a teacher or even as a (voice) actress, especially with your cancer placements, as you’re able to fully convey your emotions in your speech.

leo mercury square taurus saturn: this placement gives you limitations and lessons regarding the way you think and talk. it may be that you’re too shy to approach others and to say what you think, so you just don’t try. otherwise, if you actually take action and try to overcome this problem, you could get into trouble. that’s probably caused by the fact that you don’t really pay attention to your words. you’re quite straight-forward, and due to your leo energy you always seem as if you’re up for a fight. you may be particularly pessimistic, or maybe you lack confidence in social interactions due to these problems, which could be possibly caused by your parents, or perhaps interfer in your relationship with your family. in fact, you may argue quite often with others, and misunderstandings are also common. this is something that gets naturally better with time, but in order for it to happen you need to take action. you may for example start speaking with others more at work, anything that allows you to challenge your mind and voice, in order to make you gain experiences and become a master at it. many celebrities, once they mastered this hard aspect, got loads of success. you can do that too, you just need to work on it.

❤️ venus in gemini, 16° / 2nd decan ruled by mercury and venus

this is the flirtiest, most romantic gemini decan, but also the flakiest and most indecisive. your flirting style most probably includes jokes, teasing… things like that. even though you may seem flaky, as you like experiencing romance with different types of people, you’re actually quite picky. in fact, in order to fall for someone, you need to feel mentally attracted to them, not just physically. someone ignorant and stubborn that doesn’t care about learning something most definitely isn’t for you. you’re not the type to be super romantic and sweet with your partner or just people in general. you show your affection for example by sending them memes, making ironic jokes about them etc. also, when you’re into someone, you probably get very talkative! you start asking them simple questions about their life, even things like 'did you have lunch?’. also, you talk about them with all of your friends, and you find yourself thinking costantly about them. you’re very curious of nature, but you’re only interested in getting to know what catches your eye.

☄️ mars in cancer, 1° / 1st decan ruled by the moon

in life, you have the need of feeling grounded and stable. you want to feel secure, and that makes you think deeply about your decisions, you don’t rush them. you’re not much impulsive, you think deeply about what to do and / or say, you are very cautious. this sense of being careful makes you quite indecisive, especially since you also have your sun in the sign of cancer, this energy is even stronger. you may change your mind often, or perhaps it takes you a lot to finally make a decision because you kept changing your mind. you tend to try and be collected whenever someone is getting on your nerves, but your feelings are extremely intense to totally bottle them up. you either get slightly passive-aggressive, and hence you could get very sarcastic and call them out indirectly, or perhaps you just lose your temper and face them angrily. possibly, you could even be the type to bottle up all of your feelings, until you explode all of a sudden. that can also make you more furious than normal, as you have all these repressed, strong feelings inside of you that were screaming to get out. you’re also extremely protective of your loved ones, especially of your family.

cancer mars square pisces jupiter: you easily come off as more assertive and arrogant than you actually are. you say things impulsively, and sometimes you’re too blunt and hurt people’s feelings. you don’t do it on purpose, though, there’s no malice behind your acts; it’s just your natural way to express your opinions. you’re also very competitive, and this may make you look selfish. on a positive side, you probably have a naturally nice body (or maybe you react fast to diet/workout). you’re a risk-taker, and if you’re not you should try breaking the rules sometimes (obviously not doing illegal stuff lol). in fact, it’s when you’re both physically and mentally active that you’re able to come up with even better ideas, as you’re full of creativity. to cope with this placement, you can try doing something fun to challenge your mind, basically get out of your comfort-zone. of course you don’t have to overdo it, but it would be beneficial.

🏡 houses

your 1st house is in leo. with this placement, you care a lot about your persona, both physically and also mentally too. yet, you may start feeling like you need to be perfect at all costs to be accepted, especially during your early years. for example, you may be the type to follow fashion trends to look cool, and you may subconsciously force yourself to like them. you need to understand that you should enhance your individuality, and ask yourself who you are. it’s not all about who you are outside, the inside matters even more. you’re free to stand out, but make sure that you do it in a comfortable way for you, or it will start becoming toxic as time goes by. the ruler of the 1st house is in the 11th house: you have big goals for your future, you may even want to be famous. they’re basically the centre of your life, it revolves around your goals and achievements. you’re naturally charismatic, you may have lots of friends or at least it’s easy for you to get known in your community. you may also be very attached to your friends, you could have a very long-lasting, almost family-like bond with them.

your 2nd house is in libra. you find beauty and aesthetic in material things; you most probably love clothes, art, music… anything that isn’t exactly a priority in life, but that allows you to express your personal taste, which is very refined. with this placement I’d suggest that you should pursue a career that allows you to express your creativity, as arts and beauty allow you not only to make money, but also to increase your security and confidence. you could also spend money in venusian things like clothes, make-up, decorations and anything that involves beauty and aesthetic.

your 3rd house is in scorpio. you probably love witty jokes and sarcasm. you’re extremely honest when you think and speak, and most of the time you have no problem expressing your opinions. you could possibly be very good with words and be good at convincing and manipulating others. usually this placement makes someone kind of mischievous when it comes to words, especially with your impulsive aquarius energy that may make you hurt people unintentionally. your mind is very deep, you’re probably not really into small talk. you may also love anything that is considered taboo, like astrology, horror, nudity, death… you’re also quite secretive, you’re seen as an enigma. you don’t want to share much about you. last but not least, you value honesty above all. you only speak the truth, and hence you also want it back. you may as well be into conspiracy theories, science and anything that can expose what’s behind the universe, the government etc. you have amazing communication skills and also an entertaining sense of humor that is able to light up the room.

your 4th house is in sagittarius. the moon and pluto are also placed in this house. you could come from a foreign place, or perhaps you moved houses a lot during your childhood. perhaps, you have someone in your family that is from a different culture or religion from yours, or perhaps they’re able to speak more than one language. your parents could have been very successful at school, they could actually be professors. you might’ve always been a smart kid, you could’ve grown up learning more languages and you were most likely good at school too. you also got to make lots of experiences during your childhood, you might have travelled a lot. your relationship with your family is most likely very good. it could be that there might have been a few misunderstandings between you and your parents, but nothing too serious. maybe, they could have been a bit distant, it could be that they had to travel a lot for work and hence you felt lonely; or maybe, it’s the opposite, they were a bit too affectionate and overwhelming, possibly possessive too, and you may have been babied or spoiled a bit too much.

your 5th house is in the sign of capricorn. capricorn usually brings a feeling of seriousness to the house it’s in. you could be a bit more introverted, probably you’re not the type to frequent clubs, parties, etc. you’re more serious from that point of view. your hobbies could actually drain your energy for you; let’s suppose you’re into videogames. you could literally spend the whole day playing videogames, as you take your hobbies very seriously. you’re not the type to start a project and then leave it, you’re very resolute. also, you most likely have ‘mature’ hobbies; you could be into politics, economy, history… you could be into slower types of music, for example, or perhaps you like reading about world issues. with your children you may be quite strict, as you see them as a responsibility. also, you may often be attracted or attract older or more mature partners.

your 6th house is in capricorn, with also uranus and neptune placed there. usually, people with a capricorn 6th house are very responsible and work-oriented. they generally don’t leave much space to fun and amusement, but the presence of uranus and neptune here may change this a bit. you do have a strong sense of duty, but you don’t overwork yourself. you’re able to find balance between work and hobbies, and that’s obviously great. yet, you may sometimes procrastinate in your day-to-day life. that can possibly cause you issues in your career; you may be indecisive about your future path for example, or you could even not be much precise in your work. uranus here also indicates that you may often come across unpredictable events in your daily life. you may often see strange, unordinary things, or perhaps it’s your routine that is like that. you may lack consistency when it comes to diets and health, for example; you may start a diet and keep it for a month, then you get tired and drop it all of a sudden.

your 7th house is in aquarius. jupiter is also sitting in this house. you do like the idea of marriage and love, yet you need your space as well. you don’t want to feel committed in a relationship, it would be suffocating for you. that could make you appear as emotionally cold or detached, when you’re really not. you just care a lot about your personal growth, especially after your turbulent childhood. perhaps, you could even attract mentally unstable partners, they could be a bit moody for example. last but not least, you may meet your future spouse in an unexpected situation. people may consider you flaky, as you value freedom above all. you may be the type that likes making new experiences regarding love, and you often date your crushes. yet, you feel too limited in a relationship. you don't enjoy committing to someone if that someone isn't perfect for you, you're only completely loyal to the one you consider your true love. you can't give up your freedom, your thirst for adventure and experiences for someone else. basically, your ideal partner would be a risk-taker, someone loyal but not too clingy, that is down to go on a road trip in every moment. someone impulsive, that could help you stepping out of your comfort-zone. you're probably into those youthful love stereotypes, e.g. high school dates. you want your relationships to be filled with excitement, you despise boring, traditional and cheesy things. you may also find yourself being attracted to unavailable people; that is, you could fall for people that are already taken, or maybe they're physically unavailable, e.g they live abroad or in another city in general. you're also attracted to foreigners, and people that have a wise, yet bubbly aura around them. the ruler of the 7th house is in the 6th house: you may meet your future spouse during your everyday life, hence perhaps at work, or just doing anything you do daily, even at the gym for example. you may also meet them in a hospital.

your 8th house is in aries. saturn is also sitting in this house. generally, people with aries in their 8th house are very confident when it comes to taboo topics; they have no problems showing their interest in them, especially with people they’re intimate with. you constantly try to improve yourself by coming up with new projects, you love challenges. they help you growing up into the person you want to become. you may come across some hardships regarding yourself, your identity. but, when you face those fears and start loving yourself, you’ll naturally become more mature and 'transform’. you may be prone to die old, and you may feel attracted to people that are older or more established than you. you are most probably going to have a peaceful death, yet it could be unexpected though. or maybe, you’re surrounded by unpredictable events of loss of any kind in your life. you’re fascinated by the occult, and you may even be/been able to talk to dead people. you’re very intuitive, and it’s easy for you to read through people’s words. you may as well have prophetic dreams. with this placement, there are also high chances that you’re going to marry someone quite wealthy, possibly a business person.

your 9th house is in taurus. with this placement, I feel like you may use your intellect to gain financial security and material possessions. while this is a good thing, as it helps increasing your confidence, don’t forget that your intellect is more important than money or any other thing. don’t underestimate it. you’re totally capable of learning and understanding things by yourself, hence don’t wait for others for help. you should start dealing with your own experiences alone, without anybody else’s help. this placement can also be someone a little close-minded; in fact, you’re probably very stubborn and firm about your beliefs. you hardly ever allow others to change your mind. you may also be into poetry, philosophy, and just anything that can stimulate both your mind and feelings. in fact, your mind is constantly wandering somewhere else, allowing you to travel with your fantasy. you’re also probably attracted to foreign things, like people, music, fashion, languages, movies etc. you love learning about anything, and you may also have a good memory. in fact, it’s common for you to be the one who explains things and possibly even leads a group, and this could unluckily make you seem as a know-it-all. you do take pride in your wisdom, indeed. your deep way of thinking is also where your desire for freedom comes from, as you wish to be able to expand yourself through travelling and new experiences.

your 10th house is in gemini. venus is also sitting in this house. you may actually pursue more than one career throughout your life! you’re very flexible and skilled at multi-tasking, so you probably wouldn’t feel stressed about it. perhaps, you could alternate a creative profession with a more logical career, like working in an office for example. also, your suitable jobs should include communication and creativity at the same time; you could be a writer, for example. or perhaps, you could keep these two things in two separate jobs. what matters is that you use words in both of them, and hence you could even be a judge, a singer, a translator, etc. you may also have to interact with other people in your job, I don’t see you working from home for example. you may also be very popular on your work place, and you may even be in the public eye for your job. in addition, I see you acquiring fortune and abundance from your career, not only financially but also emotionally.

your 11th house is in cancer. mars and the sun are also sitting in this house. this placement indicates that your friends, they’re your comfort-zone. you feel understood when you’re with them, they’re pretty much like a family to you. you can tell them anything, you put all of your trust in them. or at least, if you haven’t met anyone like this yet, you’ll surely meet a friend that is like a soulmate to you. they’ll also be very important for your growth. in addition, it could also be that you’re still friends with someone from your childhood or even high school days, and hence you could literally grow up together. you could also have some step-siblings. you could also have very big goals you want to achieve in your life, probably since your childhood. as a result, you may end up pursuing your dream career for instance. you find strenght and energy in your innovative ideas. when you’re having a hard time, you often come up with solutions by yourself, without anybody’s help. you enjoy being at the center of attention for your intellect. you may be very competitive, and sometimes you don’t even realize it, making you ask yourself why people always try to fight you. you’re very driven by your sense of humanitarianism; you have no problems defending someone apparently weak, even though that someone may not be right, making you look like the devil’s advocate. you may also be interested in everything that stimulates your mind, from reading thrillers to playing mind games. you may also have a knack for stuff like technology, science, maths, media and education.

your 12th house is in cancer, with also mercury placed here. you’re an extremely spiritual and intuitive person. you may be attracted to dreams, religion, astrology, spirituality… anything that can wake you up, spiritually speaking. you may also be particularly talented at reading birth charts, tarots, even talking to spirits. you may have prophetic dreams, or you could even have deja-vus. the 12th house is also the house of fears, so having cancer here indicates that you may be afraid of your childhood, emotions, past memories. perhaps, even of your home environment or directly of your parents. it’s a part of your life that you’d rather keep secret. you may also have some escapism tendencies, such as oversleeping, overeating… or perhaps, you could easily develop addictions, so be careful to that, as you’re particularly sensitive to drugs, alcohol etc. you probably lose yourself in your own thoughts very often, starting daydreaming instead of doing what you have to do. you’re very creative and artistic, and you’re also able to fully convey your emotions in your words, even though it may be perceived as confusing sometimes. that’s because not everyone is as empathetic as you are. on the other hand, you may have the tendency to lie, or just being confusing in any way. you may not always express what you want crystal clear, as you want to able to modify the story just in case you encounter some hardships.

❤️ love life, soulmates

in love, you attract aquarius, sagittarius, pisces, scorpio and virgo. your future spouse will most likely have scorpio and virgo traits placements, maybe also some pisces too. they’ll be very similiar to you: secretive and hard-working, but also with a warm, loyal heart and a hidden insecurity to them. as I’ve already mentioned before, you may meet them at work, or in any place where you go in your day-to-day life. it may be the gym, a bar… literally any place you attend regularly. your children will most likely have strong sagittarius or pisces traits: they’ll be very daring and brave, but also very funny and warm. also, they’ll be extremely intelligent and more mature as time goes by. they’ll also have a tender side to them, but that is often overshadowed by their playfulness.

👶🏻 family life

your mother was probably the more dominant figure in your family. she’s very smart and optimistic, and she could be into fashion and self-care. yet, she could be a bit moody, over-emotional and impulsive. overall, she’s a very joyful person who’s always ready to crack a joke and put a smile on others’ faces. she may be a sagittarius, a pisces, a gemini or a cancer. as for your father, he is more laid-back, but probably very stubborn and also quite protective too. he may have gemini or virgo placements in his chart, as well as aries and scorpio. if you have siblings, your relationship with them may be quite pleasant. probably, you used to get along very well with them, it was pleasant for you to hang out and talk to them. they could have gemini, leo, virgo, libra or taurus placements in their chart.

📊 career

as I’ve already mentioned above, your future career will most likely involve communication of any kind; you could have to interact with other people, and hence you may work in a place that allows you to communicate with others and that can get quite crowded, like a shop for example. you’ll most likely start from these small jobs, like working in a cafe for example. above all, communication and creativity are the most indicated fields for you to be successful. you would do amazing as a writer for example, or perhaps you could even become an amazing teacher / professor. yet, you may even choose to pursue a more complex career, like a career in the med field. you could become a nurse for example, as it allows you to both help and communicate with other people. you could even do well in politics or in a company, especially in marketing. you will start from simple things, but as time goes by, you’ll be able to become more independent, maybe even a leader. you probably won’t have to depend too much on other people.

👗 fashion sense, style analysis

I imagine you put a lot of effort into your outifts, yet you don’t show it. you want to look effortlessly good, you don’t want to give the impression that you tried. your style may be quite minimalistic and simple, with lots of jeans, sweatshirts, plain t-shirts… I see you being more into natural shades, like white, grey, beige etc. you’re also not very fond of using too many accessories, you’re stylish but still very simple. you have this natural charm to you, hence you still look good even though your outfits may not be too complex.

👁️ past life, life purpose

in your past life, the focus was on your relationships with others. maybe, you had troubles with self-esteem and identity in general and you used to depend on others. you had to work hard and finally understand how to build healthy relationships with others to fulfill your past life purpose. hence, this lifetime your focus will be yourself. even though at first you might feel quite insecure, this lifetime you're here to develop this matter. after all, saturn will give you many lessons in order to transform yourself and grow into a better person.

🤔 major transits analysis / september 20

transit saturn is currently retrograde in your 7th house in the sign of pisces. these next 3 years could be tough for your love life; people from the past or even exes may resurface, and you might be having a hard time getting along with them or established a healthy bound in general. you may have the impression that dating or even meeting new people could be harder for you, you may have to put extra effort to create a network. however, if you do actually try to socialize and meet new people, you are going to be rewarded once the retrograde ends. for instance, you may meet the love of your life (or, more generally, a reliable and long-term partner) or even people with useful connections for your career.

🧿 manifest what you want, secret skills

with your water placements, you probably have a 6th sense. you’re able to manifest what you want if you subconsciously predict it, even though it may be hard. you’d have to get in touch with your higher self to do so, and hence I would suggest you to light up some candles and meditate for a bit before manifesting, in this way it will be way more effective. you may manifest something while daydreaming, for example. or perhaps, you can also try listening to your own affirmations while you sleep, as you won’t be consciously aware of that. it’s probably the most effective way.

this is the end! thank you again for booking a reading, hope it resonated with you :)

- libramc xx

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taurussoulastrology · 6 months

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With the Moon, Sun, and Mars all being conjunct during the new moon, we also should note that Ceres and Part of Fortune will also be conjunct.

It's essential to be aware of transits that may influence your moods and emotions. This is intense energy that one way or another you're going to feel. I'm going to be talking about the negative aspects, mainly with the sun, moon, and Mars. It's just to bring awareness to yourself. If you see yourself responding in a way that isn't typically your M.O. than you know where this is coming from and be able to consciously change it. That's really the most important point. Becoming consciously aware of these feelings and actions so you can step back, take a deep breath, and change it for the better. This is truly transformational energy. It's about honing in on the positive qualities. Recognizing when we're acting out of character.

Sun conjuct Moon, your ego and vitality will combine pleasingly with your emotions and your self-sufficiency. Although ego and emotions can be a recipe for a mess and disastrous events. As we know, under a new moon, this is an ample time for wishes and manifestation. The Sun and Moon play significant roles in shaping your personality. This aspect will emphasize the sign Scorpio. Scorpio is determined and sees things thru until the end. They don't deter from a path that they believe in. They can also be over-sensitive and can imagine an 'injury' when there isn't one. Sometimes, they may also feel others don't bother to recognize them for their true worth. They can be arrogant, clever, proud, or even devious and ruthless. I'm not picking on Scorpio; these are just facts, all signs have negative traits, and with all these planets conjunct, it's better to be aware of the negative energies that come along with this sign. Scorpio has that stinger for reason.

Moon conjuct Mars. Mars Co- rules Scorpio with that thought in mind think of those negative traits I spoke of. Add in the combined energy of action, sexual drive, and your feelings to this component. There's a chance of feeling overly sensitive or even acting emotionally insecure and juvenile. This conjuction is psychological by nature. Heightened passions, confrontation, and emotional outbursts can come into play. Those erratic and volatile emotions can help stimulate inner agitation and fiction inside of you. Tantrums, verbal abuse, those are on the menu, too. Now add in the egocentric (sun) aspect to this. Being able to consciously identify and recognize when this is happening brings in an evolving and transforming process.

Ceres brings in energy similar to the Moon combined with a green thumb. With Ceres conjunct the Sun, it carries a psychological ability to heal and nurture others. It's time to focus on yourself and develop an individual identity. With that being said, having the Moon and Ceres can bring a double dose of being in 'the feels'. Emotional intensity may be highly likely, and this may also play out as intensity towards your family, in a nuturer or care taking capacity. Then we add in the Mars element.

Ceres conjuct Mars you may come across as aggressive. But it gives you the opportunity to be resilient, bold, and courageous. It can also show aggressiveness towards others when it comes to your family. An attitude like, " Don't mess with my flucking family or else!" Under the correct circumstances, this is okay, but if it's just you reacting to something minor, then this behavior isn't typically warranted. So if this type of behavior arises and it's not your everyday behavior, know that it's going to pass. But being aware of it helps you to take the appropriate steps to dial it down.

P.F. aspects bring in opportunities, so keep an eye out for things that just happen and are in your favor. Having P.F. conjunct is favored for manifestation and wishes! It adds in an element of luck.

The P.F. conjuct Sun will bring in opportunities to explore and express your authenticity. This is a good energy to create abundance and explore your true passions.

P.F. conjuct Mars gives you the chance to control that aggressiveness and to explore your creative self-expression.

How can you use these aspects to navigate challenges and embrace opportunities in a way that encourages variety and uniqueness in your experiences?

How can you balance your assertiveness with consideration for others that encourages both personal growth and cordial relationships?

#Astrology #AstrologyPost #AstrologyCommunity #conjunction #Sun #moon #Mars #Ceres #partoffortune #newMoon #Scorpio

#i love astrology #astrology community #taurussoulastrology.com #astrology #astrologyismysecondlanguage

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uncle-fruity · 2 years

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[Image description: a sceenshot of user @fen-thenobling replying to a different post. The comment reads:

Hi, sorry, I know this is probably annoying but, I really want to go on T to deepen my voice, but I'm really scared of losing my hair.. I can't find any good direct sources from trans people, just vague medical papers. My hair is really important to me, it's something that I take pride in and that people talk about and compliment a lot and I play with it and I really don't want to lose it. Could you, if you have the ability to, maybe talk about your hair?

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So fen-thenobling asked this in the replies of that positivity post about T & singing. I hope you're okay with me answering this question this way. Also, not annoying at all that you asked -- I welcome talking about this stuff, and my ask box is always open if you ever wanna talk more. Anyway, I have a lot to say about this, so I wanted to give it its own post!

So, I haven't noticed a significant thinning in my hair so far. I'm officially one year on T, and I'm 30-years-old, as a point of reference. My hairline has changed a bit, but nothing dramatic, mostly just squared out a bit. I'm pretty sure my mom's side men have some balding patterns, so that's probably going to be my fate down the road. Then again, my dad has pretty thick hair still, so maybe I'll take after him. Hard to say, though I tend to resemble my mom's side in general, so 🤷 I also shaved my head a few years back, and that really helped me process some feelings about my hair before I ever started T.

That said. You know, taking T comes with a lot of changes, and you have to be prepared for the possibility of any or all of them. Personally, my logical/self-comforting thought process is that no one gets to choose everything about the body they have. I've known cis women who have extremely thin hair/are balding. I've known cis guys who kept their thick hair until they died of old age. I have a friend whose brothers all had white hair before they were in their mid-30s. I've known people who have lost their hair due to cancer treatments or other medical situations.

I know that's not necessarily a comfort to someone who is afraid to lose their hair, but this is my point: bodies are so varied and unique that it's hard to say what will and won't happen to your hair on T without my having a better understanding of biology and your particular genes (which probably isn't going to happen). However, it is my opinion that no matter what direction your body grows and changes, it will be a beautiful act of creation and existence. I often feel alone in these sentiments, but I think all bodies are important and beautiful in their own ways. I do a lot of work to really internalize that viewpoint, because I think it's important to recognize how dang incredible and unique existence is. Besides, I know from experience that all types of people are attracted to people for things that are not even close to mainstream beauty standards.

So, I guess all that to say... T is a big decision to make. I won't sugarcoat it. If you have a lot of balding folks in your family, then you may share the same pattern of hair loss, and that will be something I suggest you come to terms with before you start T. If that ends up being a deal breaker, that's extremely valid. Only you get to decide how to prioritize your transition goals, and it's important that you weigh the pros and cons for yourself.

Personally, I don't think it's such a tragedy to go bald. It wasn’t even a concern of mine when I decided to start T, despite having a pretty nice head of hair myself that I have a lot of positive feelings about. Certainly, it feels good to have a nice head of hair/hairstyle that's important to your own self image, and I would never mock anyone for being disappointed in losing a part of their appearance that they really felt good about or admired for. But I guess I just want to say that if you do end up experiencing that: you are more than your hair, your self worth isn't solely based on your hair, and there will always be something about you that people will want to compliment and gush about. You will always have traits that make you shine.

I think the idea of knowingly making permanent changes to your body can feel really scary. I think there's a feeling in some transmascs that if their transition doesn't perfectly match their vision, if they don't turn out to be their version of Hot, then they'll be the ones who are to "blame" for losing the nice things they liked about their old bodies. That can feel like a difficult burden to shoulder. I think that stems from the fearmongering/coercive detransition tactics we face as well as how often so many of our bodies have been objectified by society, how many of us have internalized that we have to be attractive to be worthy. But the truth is that no one has full control over the future of their bodies, and it's important to know that everyone's bodies will change with time in so many different ways. What's important is that you learn how to adapt to that change as it comes. What's important is that you enjoy the ongoing creation of yourself.

But, you know, for some actual comfort, T doesn't rapid-fire make your hair fall out when you start to take it, and especially if you're young, you probably don't have to worry about balding until at least your mid-to-late 30s -- but I'm pretty sure the average age for balding is older than that even. If you can ask about the hair patterns of cis men in your family & get a timeline of when they started to lose hair, you'll have a better idea of what to expect for yourself. I would also suggest you really explore your fear surrounding hair loss. What qualities do you think you would lack if you don't have your hair? Are there other qualities that can take that place? Are you afraid of letting yourself or other people down? Are you afraid of regret? What is the worst case scenario if you lost your hair? What's the best case scenario if you go on T? Can you find comfort if you end up compromising one thing for another? I think exploring those root emotions will help you process the subject and help you decide how to move forward.

Anyway, I'm rambling at this point. I really think you will make the decision that feels right for you, but I hope you don't fear your future self whichever path you choose. You don't owe anyone your hair, nor do you owe anyone to rush your decision about hormones. People who love and respect you will support you and trust you to make decisions for yourself. And I'll be rooting for you to find the direction that makes you happiest.

Hopefully that helps! Please lmk if you have any thoughts or feelings about this! Mine is only one perspective, and you've asked a guy who is extremely comfortable with & honestly revels in the idea of having an "imperfect" body. I can sometimes be annoyingly optimistic/passionate about this stuff, so please forgive me. I just really love transitioning & becoming a new version of myself & everything that comes with it.

#hrt #transmasc #trans man #testosterone #balding #transgender #gender #queer #fen-thenobling #transmasc positivity

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that-hippie-user · 10 months

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hedonism as a means of healing

seems tumblr sh@dowbans posts involving w33d in the tags, so let’s try this again, sft style

yesterday i achieved ego d34th and entered a state of animalistic bliss without fear. i became fully freed of all my worries, and developed a new leese on life

i’ve always been a hedonism in practice, agreeing that pleasure seeking is an ideal way of living when done within reason. no other philosophy is as succinct and easy to argue as “pleasure good, pain bad.” but until now my own depression and self loathing had twisted that mindset into an unhealthy one.

i was content to, as my therapist put it, lie on the ground and be miserable. because it may hurt, but it’s easier than taking risks.

anyone who knows me knows that’s no secret. yes, i’m on disability for legit reasons, i got ptsd, autism, panic anxiety, among several other things which prove i’m not ready for the workplace. that much is true and the diagnosis have already been made. but i can’t deny it’s been a massive weight off my shoulders to not have to work. by the end of highschool, i became so dissolutioned with capitalism that i actually considered joining a group home to get away from my family and not have to be employed. literally i was willing to sacrifice personal freedoms for the sake of a miserable safe space. i’m glad i didn’t go through with it, that would’ve been hellish for me

but the problem with embracing base pleasures and avoiding uncomfortable risks, is that i conditioned myself to waste away into nothing. letting my ai roommate (the youtube algorithm) decide my entertainment all day every day, laying in bed binging leftist video essays, game reviews, and niche indie music as if ANY of that would give personal fulfilment.

i avoided painting despite my legit talent for it, i avoid guitar lessons despite investing in a decent starter guitar and lessons being free, i avoid learning game design despite Unreal Engine 5 being FREE and free assets being given away every month on the Unreal storefront. literally i can buy, and have bought, premade assets that bestow full freedom with minimal effort to make my own games with assets that are easy to rearange and rework, yet i do nothing.

i have this idea in me that i’m some kind of genius, that fame and fortune are already set for me, and that someday in some vague future i’m going to end up beloved by all for my achievements.

and i LOVE getting praise. somehow i get gender euphoria from being called a game designer, or any other fancy title. if i was a beloved novelist, game dev, musician, heck ALL these things, my transition would be complete. i’m beautiful when people recognize my talent.

but that’s just it. i like results, i like when i have something finished and can show it off. but i HATE the learning process. writing comes easy to me because i’ve got years of practice from fanfic and essay writing in highschool. but music? games? art? i don’t have definitive results to tell me i’m good enough to persue those things. writing is easy cuz as long as you can string together some nice words in a good order, the work is good. comprehensive knowledge on english is all you really need as a baseline for writing. do it right and you can SEE genius on the page in front of you. but game design takes programming and troubleshooting, art takes mountains of bad sketches before you see the good stuff, music takes hearing yourself fumble with an instrument until you get something good.

art, in all its forms, is built on a MOUNTAIN of garbage. name any artist you look up to, they’re bound to have some shit work from their early days.

but yesterday, i got st0ned. i let go of all my worries and fears and achieved complete and full embrace of human id, and knew what it truly was to stop second guessing myself. and now i have a new lease on life.

youtube, gone. deleted and replaced with youtube music. i can watch essays on my tv while i eat bekfast. but during the day? when i have stuff i can do? i want ALBUMS. i want albums and nothing BUT albums reccomended to me on the regular. i don’t wanna have to deal with the bullshit of ENDLESS essays to detract me from my work. i may as well be shoving potato chips and twinkies into my gullet till my stomach aches for all the good it would do me. the youtube algorithm is a curse that destroys your ability to create.

i’m still autistic, i still need SOMETHING to occupy my headphones while i do stuff. so i’m getting the app that gives nothing but music.

i was paying for youtube red anyway, i use mobile for the most part and can’t easily install adblock on my phone, so i get premium access to youtube music by default. might as well use it.

my lesson, to whoever may be reading, is thusly: EMBRACE IMPULSE. dare i say, get STOOPID.

i congratulate my romantic partners every time they misspell or mispronounce something. know why? because humans are beautiful and so are our mistakes. if you’re neurodivergent, chances are you’ve spent your whole life being put down by authority figures telling you you “don’t work hard enough” or are “too lazy” dogging on you for every mistake you make. well FAWK THAT.

i say this now because you likely don’t hear it enough. I’M PROUD OF YOU.

let your mistakes flow freely, your genius is somewhere inside of it. embrace your impulses no matter how insane they may sound, and that means embracing whatever hobby or hyperfixation you get that month, LIVE YOUR LIFE WITHOUT HESITATION OR SHAME.

here’s a maxim for you. BE MORE BOLD. because the bigots and morons of the world get stronger every time you beat yourself down for them. YOU are strong. stronger than you know. so prove it.

cringe culture is dead, life is too short to worry about wether your place in it is significant, wether you exist or not means nothing next to what you do with yourself, and you CAN get out of bed and do something, if you address the things that are leaving you miserable in the first place and find passions to follow.

i write this ramble/essay on a keyboard built by me. her name is Eva. Eva is a beautiful purple and green 65% gasket mounted keyboard with ASA keycaps, modded with electrical tape, polyethaline foam, and fitted with custom switches lubed by hand. it is the product of years of research, obsession, craft refinement, and embrace of cringe.

i divined this keyboard in a fanfic i wrote for my own entertainment, and diving headfirst into cringe i built it and made it my main.

her name is Eva because of the Evangeleon Eva-01 keycaps i chose for her, she’s neurodivergent cuz she has LED lights that don’t always function like they should, and she’s trans cuz she’s had trans affirming surgery (mods to the top and bottom of the pcb) and voice training (parts assembled in such a way to achieve a WONDERFUL sound profile)

i made this. i did this through my own hardwork and effort, and it’s paid off.

and now, i’m gonna write my magnum opus, work on making my first game, dedicate the year to learning guitar, listen to LOTS of new music while i do, avoid the brainrot of 24/7 essays, and become the jack of all trades genious i wanna be.

i have chronic clinical depression. i’m in pain. i cry at night and lie in bed wondering if i’m worth anything in this world.

and i. can. do this.

you can to.

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