#sorry for being so emo

[liesmultixxx]

finally deleted my (ex?) crushes number 😀 as someone who is profusely bad at letting go & moving on, this seems like a big step

i don’t even believe in love anymore lol so it’s fine i guess

for other people? sure, definitely!

for me? nope, no one’s gonna love me (romantically)

#daily life #personal #sorry for ranting #i just need to rant #personal vent #vent post #venting #unrequited feelings #unrequited affection #unrequited love #crush #having a crush #love is a lie #lol #no one loves me #no one wants me #sorry for being so emo #i just can’t help it #moving on

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Assisting Acquaintance Acquired.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wen ning #wei wuxian #Ignore how Wen Ning's hair looks here because I messed it up. Let's pretend he just sported a different hair style for a brief moment. #I am not exactly great at consistency but I am trying very hard to work on that (immediately messes up again). #Absolutely *love* how Wen Ning clearly remembers and admires WWX...who does *not* recognize him. #This is the best day for Wen Ning and it means *nothing* to WWX. A painful one-sided crush made worse. #It is bittersweet to realize that we care about someone more than they care about us. Sometime we pour love into a relationship- #-with someone who just can't reciprocate. It isn't always a conscious things either. Some people just aren't aware we care. #And painfully - so painfully - You can't make them aware. No act of kindness or gift or self sacrifice will make someone care about you. #You can martyr yourself for someone and they will continue on unchanged. #I think a lot about the parallels between WN and LWJ. Not foils - just reflections. A theme repeated. #People who give so much of themselves to someone who doesn't have the capacity to give any part of themself away. #I will die on the hill of 'Wen Ning would be the love triangle romance if that trope wasn't being avoided'. #And to be honest - thank the stars above that is the case. I do not know any good love triangles in media. #We are skipping some of the sad Jiang Cheng content because I really want to finish season 2 before May. #Sorry JC emo moment lovers...I'll deliver another time.

[cult-of-the-eye]

When does relating my pain to a character's start working? There's a hole in my heart btw and I don't think calling it Jonathan Sims core will make it go away

#i dunno #its nice to see these facets of myself be loved in a character #but at the end of the day #its me who has to live with myself #people might love that about me from the outside #but in reality jon had a terrible fucking time #and so am i #i dont know man #tma #the magnus archives #jonathan sims #tma meta #tma vague #sorry for being emo on main :/

[potatobugz]

yeah we turned your boyfriend into shadow the hedgehog. sorry

#south park #sp #given. how sp fandom is i am terrified 2 post this actchually #trans flag was there at first due to spite bc there was this one person that just said 'damien is cis' in a post & i thought it was funyn #but then i was like 'wait no him being trans fits him quite well actually' #so here we are #i am. projecting. a little bit. but thats fine #also i just wanted tk draw him wearing something cool & it turned into this #sorry if this is cringe except im NOT sorry bc I LOVE BEING CRINGE!!! #damien thorn #pip pirrip #pip pirrup #sp dip #dip #also one of these accessories is not like the other (smiles) #pip gave him . the little bracelet methinks #this is so funny to me bc 1 OBVIOUSLY he is going to be the most emo little shit teen evar #but then. he goes outside to hang out with his best friend pip who is Normal #potatart

[sinnabee]

quick life update:

I BOUGHT A FUCKIN HOUSE!!!! AAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it’s absolUTELY crazy you guys!!! i had to pull from my retirement to do it, there were a few oh god it’s gonna fall through moments, but i did it!!!! :DDD

not gonna be online as much for a bit, because i’m moving!!!! i paid my rent for april and my roommate is giving me the month to move out. the plan is to get as much stuff moved over in boxes myself before renting a truck so my brother can help me cart all the furniture over there ^^

ideally myself, my girlfriend, and some friends are also gonna try and get the rooms painted before we get the BIG stuff in there.

to all of you who still have sticker or charm orders that haven’t gotten to you yet: i know!!! i’m so sorry, but this is what’s been putting it off and off and off! i’ll try and send out what i can, but most likely, i won’t be able to get anything out right now until the end of april. i probably also won’t be able to stream much if at all, since i’m packing! (this is why the shop is closed atm also)

i’ve gotten most of my utilities sorted out, but i’ve still gotta file my 2023 taxes and do some other house things, like mess with the security system (??) they left.

but yeah!!!! i’m really pumped!!! i can finally have my furniture and stuff in more than one room! paint the walls! hang up shelves!!! once i’m settled i should finally have a dedicated space for stickers and art and streams, instead of doing it all out of my bedroom haha. so hopefully in the future, i’ll be a LOT more capable of keeping up with demand. ^^

i also just wanted to say thanks for all of the support from all my friends and moots and just!!!! everybody!!! special shout-out to the dca fandom for getting me into streaming and sticker making and just being a delight in general, y’all have changed my life for the better <3

ANYWAY. that’s what’s going on with me! i love u guys and i’m still around, just busy for a while! <3

#sinna babbles #life update #aaaaaa #fr fr i love the dca fandom so much #those silly little jester boys have changed my brain chemistry /pos #i have made a ton of friends and just;;;; sorry y’all i’m being emo and gay on main lmao #YIPPEEEEE

[priapussdick]

no but kinnporsche cast actually celebrating the LGBT community and openly showing support means so much. the environment they've created felt so safe that even one of the actors decided to come out at a live show. this is actually so huge for so many different reasons. this is the change i wanna see.

#sorry for being emo #but that makes me so happy #and they've done so much more than just waving flag actually #they've always been very vocal about marriage equality in Thailand and donated to the lgbt organisations #more bl actors and productions should be like them #kinnporsche #kinnporsche cast melting my heart

[akechi-if-he-slayed]

so high school is shuake actually because of the fact that goro never had the chance to just to be a normal hs student with a frivolous classroom romance so when he’s with akira he finally feels like he’s getting some of that stolen youth returned to him

#GUYS !!! #weugh ill sob #‘get my car door isn’t that sweet?/then pull me to the backseat/no one’s ever had me not like you’ #finally being at a state where he can have true peace and overwhelming sweetness + domesticity with someone OH !!! #sorry for being emo about shuake it will happen again #shuake #persona 5 #so high school

[saturn-s-moon]

Finduilas for @finweanladiesweek day 4: later generations

Longing makes girls prettier

–Akogare, Yukiko Okada

#this is . very late sorry #but i got art block aaa #anyway the idea here is that shes looking longingly towards the soldiers #looking for turin (or gwindor if u choose to believe so) #but also idk shes longing for freedom #i always interpreted her love for turins emo ass as a way of rebellion #and part of that attraction might also be bc of her desire to be free of the restrictions of being a princess #yknow? #anyway #finduilas #finweanladiesweek #tolkien tag

[comptonboole]

Sorry still on my Collin with space worms grind (I'm cringe for making my fav a weird but I'm free)

#pikmin #pikmin 4 #snail art #blehhhh whateverrr blehhhh #sorry for being emo but i think parasites are cool so its fine

[aroaceleovaldez]

I'll complain about this until the end of time, but I cannot stand the characterization of nico listening to emo music. please give this kid some metal to listen to, if you wanna keep the silly level of darkness that people try giving him with emo music let him listen to some pretentious black metal or something, but there's no way in hell nico would listen to fucking fall out boy

I respect you anon but I am so sorry, I am the exact opposite.

I love the idea of Nico listening to normie emo music cause it's just easiest to find and he's technologically challenged and also he almost definitely got into it because Thalia handed him her ipod one time when he was 10 to get him to shut up for 5 minutes and he ended up binging MCR's entire discography. Also, he's too nice to be pretentious about anything and he's a huge nerd. All that + Rick saying Nico likes technopop, Nico definitely has like a solid couple hundred plays of Rolling Girl on his probably stolen ipod and if you hit shuffle it's a weird combo of emo hits of the early 2010s, Porter Robinson and Mika, and anime OP jumpscares. If circumstances were slightly different he'd be a scene kid.

#nico di angelo #headcanon #headcanons #pjo #riordanverse #Anonymous #ask #i do have some FOB on my Nico's Ipod Playlist but not a lot #sorry to disappoint you anon [pensive emoji] #i simply think Nico should be a huge dork once you get past his edgy exterior #he does not listen to emo music to be dark he listens to emo music cause hes a nerd and thought thalia's aesthetic was cool hope this helps #he's exactly the type of kid who listened to early 2010s emo hits and went ''THIS MUSIC UNDERSTANDS ME'' being 100% genuine #him trying to mimic thalia though is funnier cause he's not punk he's emo. he tried but just veered into emo immediately #i know Rick probably meant like 80s synth-rock but that is not what he said #He said technopop and Nico's functionally a 2000s kid now so he listens to Owl City im sorry Rick you made the rules but you said it wrong

[daydreamycrustacean]

being into doctor who is so embarrassing. silliest campiest sci-fi show ever but if I think abt it too hard I start crying.

#auauauagh #this funny 900-year-old alien can fit so much love and suffering and kindness and loneliness inside of them. #sorry im being emo bc its been a hard few months and I barely have the time to make fanart #and so the Images are staying in my head making me sick. #rtd dr who is simultaneously the only thing keeping me afloat but also its ruining my life #still havent started to watch the rest of it properly bc 9 and 10´s runs impacted me so emotionally that I'm apprehensive to start- #the rest of the series. like yes its the same show. but also it isnt

[salmon-sushi-monster]

It’s hard to engage in the new PJO show fandom because I have to constantly fight against the urge to talk about just how much this series means to me, like.

I remember the exact moment I started reading the books as a 9 year old. I was in a boarding school and had finished the assignments early. As I was walking back to my seat after handing in my homework I saw a classmate reading Sea of Monsters. I borrowed it from him as I was already interested in Greek Mythology and started reading, and was so confused because it was the second one. The next time I went to a book store I made sure my mom would help me find the first and the third books. And at the time there were only three because even though the PJO series had finished the books were slow to be translated to Chinese, my 1st language.

This series saw so many of my first times. I engaged in online fandom for the first time, by finding an online Sci-Fi & Fantasy forum, to share the news that the Battle of Labyrinth were about to be translated to my language, and people there made fun of me because they had already known for a year. The PJO fandom was where I made my first fandom friend. It’s the fandom that got me into writing fanfics and making art. I started venturing into international websites - sites that are not in Chinese - for discussions and fan content. I became interested in the world out there because of PJO.

When Mark of Athena first came out our side of the fandom was enraged. To me, a closeted queer 12 year old troubled with ADHD and depression in China, Nico di Angelo would be the first ever character that I could see myself in, a gay character that I would actually be able to read about in a published book. A gay character that’s normalized, who was troubled by his identity. Someone who is just like me. And his confession about Percy was censored in the Chinese translation.

I started translating fanfics - and translating content in general - because of this. I didn’t want other Chinese fans to have to wait years for new content like I did; and I didn’t want them to read a filtered, censored version. In high school I would finish a non-official translation of the first Trials of Apollo book. It took me more than a year, but nothing was censored. I hope it is still up there.

I chose my English name - a name that I tie a huge part of my identity to - because of a character in PJO. I started going to my local foreign language library and began to read, read, and read because of PJO. I picked my college major - anthropology - partly because of PJO. Heck, I decided to study abroad in college in the US because I had a crush on a girl who was also into PJO in high school and she was planning on going to the US.

When RR started writing the series I’m sure he did not intend for it to have this big of an impact on a little Chinese girl’s life. But it did, and I’m eternally grateful for that.

#percy jackson #pjo #percy jackon and the olympians #pjo series #how do I tag lol #so confusing #sorry for being emo

[u3pxx]

is this anything

#sunnysidewips #<- i would love to finish this actually but im so busys help #welcome back to me thinking WHAT IF SHE WAS FREAKISHLY TALL . INHUMANLY TALL . DO YOU EVER DYOIU EVER THINK ABT GIGANTIC WOMEN DO Y #I THINK ITD BE FUN . GOOD FOR MY MENTAL HEALTH EVEN /J DFGHD not for harry's mental health tho sorry king #also smth smth about being larger than life about being revered about being statuesque #[starts foaming at the mouth] #girl im so emo abt harry rn im in shambles DFDGHJD #ME AND MY HUSBAND WE ARE DOING BETTERRRRRRRRR #idk if its that obvious but better to be safe #cw implied noose #tw implied noose #horrific necktie if ur out there hor #was also thinking abt incorporating the skills as lil fishies in the bg #idk man im so tired had to take a break from finals again bc i was going insane whoopsies #starry don't look

[preciouspiastri]

// the wolves - amy shark // outcast - kimberly heart // go home - julien baker // homecoming by logan sargeant

#idk if this ended up more emo than i wanted to be but there's something so special about logan to me so <3333 #have him in relation to the ocean and blue and wanting to go home and feeling like a bit of an outsider in f1 #this came to me last night before i went to sleep and i just needed to get it out of me lol #i literally cannot read the line he wrote about being home without tearing up KKQNEJKQBE #i hate this blond florida man (affectionate) #f1 #logan sargeant #login #also the wolves is so logan coded you don't understand!!!!!!!!!! #williams racing #the quality is Terrible on mobile and i'm sorry idk how to fix it #m #williams

[riot-control-camp]

thinking about trans milo, who deserves gender euphoria as a treat actually!

his firsts. first scruff first bottom growth first voice crack that he cherishes the memory of asher teasing him about. david giving him hand-me-downs in that studied careful not-a-big-deal way of his that are a little too big in the shoulders but fit him in a way nothing else he's worn before has. gabe taking him along with asher and david and christian to go prom shopping and he picks up this emerald green tie asher botches tying so badly gabe has to come into the fitting room to fix it for him.

after college, getting the set of scars he's proudest of, tied only with the ones he got battling that shade with his sweetheart the first time around. his name a sweet echo in his ears, a burning thrill in his chest still hitting him sometimes when someone new calls him that without a second thought. he picked that. that's him.

not just early in his transition but years afterward. looking in the mirror realizing he's exactly the man he wanted to be. or sometimes not even that profound a realization, sometimes he's just walking home with sweetheart from the movies, hand in hand with the person he doesn't know how he used to live without and then he remembers. sometimes he's kissing them and he gets struck with the wonder of it all over again. he's a man.

he's a man. he made it.

#sorry for being emo on main but trans milo is someone who matters so much to me actually #oli oscillates #redactedaudio #redacted milo

[ferncloud]

hmm i wonder if tumblr user ferncloud likes ferncloud...

/.\ MAYBE...

#LOL #when i first got this username in 2014 i liked her just fine but in a sort of whatever way #over the years ive grown quite attached HAHAHA i love her shes so kitty of all time #her mother is killed horrifically and left outside her home & she immediately offers herself to lead the dogs which is a near death sentenc #& weeks later she participates in a massive battle to the death with bloodclan... these events r often credited as traumatic experiences #explaining ashfurs terrible life choices but ferncloud went thru the same thangs. & then dustpelt.... was an adult hovering over her through #out all of this. & then she just wants to have kittens & if were reading into it maybe she wants to raise kittens the way she wishes she was #raised but many of her kittens die early or make it to adulthood but die b4 her. & on top of just what we know about her life shes hated by #thousands of readers for being a woman who wants to raise kids. & SHES KILLED CUZ SHES SO HATED... #i notice even now ferncloud is still reduced to motherhood by a lot of ppl #& thats ok its not that deep shes a bg character its nobodys job to think about everything. but she can be so personal & special & emo too #she is to me 💗 im proud to be a ferncloud. if ferncloud has 0 fans it cuz i died 😁 #Oh i also have the handdrawn comic page from a shadow in riverclan by james that has ferncloud blushing at feathertail LOL #i am sooooooooo sorry for this miles long tags rant #ask