#spn + loss

[shallowseeker]

This 12x22 episode with the Bane twins is seriously heavy to revisit...

WOMAN: When your mother found me, and when I realized what she was, I offered to teach her. (Flashes of the woman coming into the cellar and talking to Tasha as she lays on the table.) I offered her my power. Flash of the woman talking into Tasha's ear. Of the woman carrying a heart. Of Tasha spitting in the woman's face as she rejected the woman's offer. Of the woman wiping her face and turning and leaving. WOMAN: But even dying, she was rude. So... I made her into one of my creatures. (Flash of the woman cutting out Tasha's heart while she screamed. Of the woman holding her heart.) That doll has all of your mother's memories. Image of her placing Tasha's heart into one of her dolls, and reciting a spell. The ring on her finger glows and the doll transforms into Tasha. WOMAN: It's her. Mostly. (She releases Dean and Max from the vision.) Just like the others. Rick, Andy – They do what I want, when I want. I'm old. I like things a certain way. (She seems quite pleased with the way she has arranged things for herself. She smiles at Max and Dean.) MAX: No. No! (He casts a spell at the woman, but it does nothing more that blow her hair back. Max is puzzled that the woman is still just standing there.) WOMAN: Nice try. If you kill me, well, then all of them just fall apart. (She starts to edge closer to Max as she speaks.) So here's the offer. You take my power. You take my burden, and my doll – your mother – will stay with you and your sister forever. Just one big happy family. (Max seems to be considering her offer.) DEAN: Max, no. Listen to me. Your mother is gone, okay? (The woman is not happy that Dean is talking.) It's awful and it sucks... but that's – Aah! (The woman snaps her fingers and Dean is in sudden pain. Max looks quickly at Dean and then back at the woman. She takes her ring off her finger.) WOMAN: So... do we have a deal? She seems quite pleased with the way she has arranged things for herself. She smiles at Max and Dean. MAX: No. No! (He casts a spell at the woman, but it does nothing more that blow her hair back.)

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ALICIA: Mom! (The Tasha creature pulls out a knife and stabs Alicia through the stomach with it. She collapses with the knife still in her. Sam is horrified.)

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The elderly woman is standing with the ring in her outstretched hand, staring at Max. WOMAN: Take it... and the deal is done. Max seems unable to make a decision. Dean tries to grab his gun. WOMAN: Take it. Max reaches out to take the ring. The woman looks gleeful at how things are going. Suddenly a shot rings out and the woman bleeding and stunned. Dean has managed to reach his gun and shot her with a witch killing bullet. WOMAN: Nice try. If you kill me, well, then all of them just fall apart. Take it.

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(Max seems stunned that Dean shot the woman.) MAX: Why did you... (Max turns to Dean quickly as he manages to stand, before looking back at the woman on the floor.) DEAN: Max, listen to me. Hey, hey. I had to, okay? That deal wasn't with her. It was with a demon. You even touch that magic and you lose your soul. (Sam yells from the other room.) SAM: Dean! (Dean pats Max on the shoulder.) DEAN: Come on. (Dean leaves the room and heads back to Sam. Max stands there confused as Dean leaves.)

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(Alicia is writhing in pain. Sam doesn't know what do to for her, but is trying to calm her down.) SAM: Don't fight. Don't – Shh, shh. Just take it easy okay? Take a breath. Shh. (Alicia takes a quick breath and then is still.) SAM: Alicia? (Dean walks into the room. Sam looks up at him and stands up.) SAM: She, uh.. (Max enters the room and sees his sister. He pauses before going to where she lays on the floor.) MAX: Alicia? What? Please. No, no, no. Hey. Hey. Hey! Please, no. No, no, no!

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(Scene opens outside the boarding house. Max is standing by himself, as Sam and Dean approach him.) SAM: Hey, Max, um, this is, uh... Look, you – you're probably in shock right now, but it's gonna pass. DEAN: And then it's gonna hurt. MAX: I could've saved them... my mom. If I had just... taken Alicia seriously.

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DEAN: Yeah. Yeah, he seemed super saved. You know, I was watching them, this loving family. The kind we should've had. And now just like that, it's gone.

12x20 Twigs & Twine & Tasha Banes

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There's something to be said here about the resurrection of Mary, the reborn-hunters-as-dolls, and the whole Jack-taking-Chuck's-powers thing. I'm just not yet sure what words to use.

Other things:

A Twigs & Twine Doll is a creature fastened together with twigs and brought to life by placing a human heart in its chest cavity and reciting a spell.

I think of these meanings:

The phrase, "as the twig is bent, so is the tree inclined" = proverb = one's actions as an adult are dictated by behaviors learned in childhood.

The meaning of to twine around (someone or something); To encircle, wrap, or coil around someone or something. Like an ouroboros, perhaps?

#spn 12x20 #spn twigs & twine & tasha bane #spn + grieving #spn + loss #the banes twins #tfw + the burden of power #jack + power of god

[backroadboy]

they are all the same btw

#they are mirrors etc #they all mean the world to me!!! #i mean they are their own characters obviously #and they are all amazing #but they are the same also #iykyk #spn #it's all about loss and grief #it's about being driven by love even despite of it all #but also the daddy issues the being forced into a role etc #anywayyyy

[winchestress]

#supernatural #dean winchester #spn rewatch #14x12 #prophet and loss

[an-android-in-a-tutu]

I think I would like the bunker more as a concept if they were squatters rather than legacies, you know? Like the the like inherited secret society birthright thing doesn't do it for me but two crunchy regular dudes who find an abandoned secret society hide out and go Aw Shit Free House? THAT I'm into.

#spn #the bunker has some not great effects on the structure of the show #and there's the loss of a certain roadtrip style charm that comes with the characters getting a permanent home #but like I'm fine with it and I think giving the boys a secret base full of magic stuff is kinda fun #I just don't like the whole legacy thing #they should be little thieves about it actually

[catchinghammers]

#destiel meme #destiel news #twitter #elon musk #genuinely at a loss for words here #spn #castiel #dean winchester

[badwolfarcadiabay]

#Percy pay your child support Jackson #Percy no thanks to immortal godhood Jackson #percy jackson #percy jackson show #pjo #pjo fandom #pjo series #meme #percy jackson memes #demigods #the fact that Percy’s beef with ares transcends memory loss sends me #how’s your ankle #it’s Tuesday!! #which still gives me spn Tuesday trauma lol but if I hadddd to wake up and everyday was Tuesday rn it’d be chill cuz pjo airs #it’d be an eternal watch party

[valeron99]

The Loss.

#dean winchester #dean #dadstiel #Destiel #dean and jack #Jack Kline #baby jack #Jack winchester #jack and dean #they miss cas #the loss #grieving Dean Winchester #grief #castiel #supernatural #SPN #dad!dean #post canon #angel #nephilim #they are family #they deserved better

[naughtystiel]

yanno what always fucks me up? dean staring in the mirror trying to remember who he was

#despair? nah #gimme the memory loss episode and imma go feral #spn #vin.txt

[jasmines-library]

Blood Bag

WHUMTOBER DAY 11 - prompt: captivity.

Fandom: Supernatural.

Summary: you are captured by a group of vamps whilst on a hunt. They take their time trying to kill you, draining you of your blood in an old warehouse. For the Winchesters, it’s a race against time to reach you before something fatal happens.

Warnings: Captivity, blood, blood draining, vampires, near death experience, pain, gore.

Word count: 1.5k

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The door was bolted shut. Three golden padlocks sat on fat silver chains that lay across the door, strung across the frame like bunting. You stared at it from where you sat with matching locks confining you to a chair in the middle of the room like some sick form of friendship bracelet. There was no light entering the room besides the slither that managed to squeeze out from under the door and from the square window made of frosted glass on the metal door. It was what allowed you to see the glint of the metal on the door. Consisting of only thick, concrete walls ridden with rot, the room was barely 8 x 8, but with no windows you felt as though the room around you never ended.

The gag was thick in your mouth. It tasted of oil laced chemicals and dried blood. You tried to spit it out but it was tied together firmly, much like your hands and your ankles. Whoever had you was experienced and you were truly and utterly trapped.

You weren’t quite sure how it happened. One second you were on a supply run, grabbing food to bring back to the Winchesters who were cooped up in the motel, and the next there was a heavy blow to your head and you woke up here, tied helplessly to piece of furniture in the middle of who knows where unknowing of what time it was or how long you had been missing.

The locks on the chains rattled before landing in a heap on the floor and the door flung open to reveal a pale looking woman with blond hair that cascaded over her right shoulder. Something about her face was forbidding.

The blond eyed you greedily, stepping towards you. Her heels echoed in the silence of the concrete cell as she leaned in close, trailing her long nails along your jaw. You tried to pull away but weren’t very successful.

“Isn’t this a nice surprise?” She mocked. “The Winchester’s little bitch. I had to say when we saw you all alone it was far too tempting. Far too easy.”

She laughed an evil laugh as you tried to speak, only for your words to be muffled by the foul tasting gag. She reached around you and untied it. You spat it from your mouth.

“You’re a dead woman.”

She hummed, baring her teeth. They were needle-like and protruded like a thousand knives from her jaw. Vampire. “No, honey. But you will be. See, when we heard there were hunters in the area we were on high alert. We began to stock up. When you killed one of our own… well. That changed things, didn’t it? But now, oh now the tables have turned.”

She moved, stalking around the chair. Gripping your hair, she yanked your head back sharply, tilting it to the side. She pressed her face into the side of your neck breathing in the scent of your blood beneath your skin. You could feel her breath on your neck as she murmured. “We are going to have so much fun together.”

It was then that she sank her teeth into your neck. You howled, consumed by a relentless, excruciating agony. You squirmed in her grip struggling to press away, but she only sunk her teeth in deeper, eliciting another painful response. You thought you were going to black out as the blond kept draining you of your blood, almost drunk on the taste. But then, she slipped her fangs out from your skin, agonisingly slowly. When she dropped her hold on your head, it lolled against your chest. She wiped away the blood that smeared across her lips like chapstick and looked at you again with that sick smile.

“Oh, Yes.” She beamed. “They’re going to have to have so much fun with you.”

“Go fuck yourself.” You spat at her, craning your head to narrow your eyes and snarl at her.

Once again, she just laughed and moved towards the door.

“Remember to scream all you want, No one will find you here.”

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You weren’t sure how long it had been since the first woman left. Your head throbbed and your neck was sticky with your own blood. Your whole body felt weak; like someone had turned down a dial on your body to dull all of your senses. It hurt to keep your eyes open despite the darkness of the room. They felt so heavy that the idea of lifting weights seemed easier than trying to force them open.

Once the woman had left, two more vampires crept into the room. One a short man who wore a green hoodie around his waist, the other an older woman with a pinched face. You had tried to fight against them, but with your already weakened body and with the chains keeping you frozen solid, you stood no chance. And so you were subjected again to the bitter pain on their fangs as they sliced into your neck. By the time they were done and had left your neck in a bloody pulp. you had succumbed to the numbness of unconsciousness.

Unsure how you managed to drag yourself from beneath the bliss of nothingness, your eyes forced themselves open. Your neck burned as you surveyed the claustrophobic room. The chains on the door had been chucked in a pool on the floor, though the door was still sealed shut. It was almost as though they had been removed in a hurry.

A round of gunshots drew your attention to what was happening outside in the hallway. There was a loud raucous accompanied by the howling of the bloodthirsty vamps. You weren’t sure how many there were in the pack to begin with, but from the rumble on the other side of the door, you were sure they were beginning to drop like flies.

“Sam! Dea-“ your hoarse cries were cut off by a heavy hand around your mouth. The clanking of your binds stilled as you froze.

“Quiet.” He barked in a hushed tone. The figure moved to untie the chains around you. Given normal circumstances, you would have taken this as a chance to grasp the guy and gut him, but your body refused to move as your vision doubled.

He hauled you to your feet, wrapping his arm around your neck to not only support your dead weight, but to use you almost like a human shield. There was a harsh banging on the door which ceased almost as suddenly as it had started when the door came flying open. In its frame, you managed to make out the lumbering frames of the Winchester brothers equipped with machetes. Sam paled at the sight of you, kicking himself for not being able to reach you sooner, for letting you go out alone.

When they took a step forwards the grip around you tightened. The man behind you stiffened. That was when you realised he had a knife pressed to your neck.

“Ah ah.” He chided. “Not another step.”

The two brothers stopped abruptly. Dean kept his eyes fixated on the vampire before him, narrowing them to try and hide the worry within them.

“Get away from her.”

The vamp tutted. “No. I think I quite like it here.”

“We killed your nest. Not her. This is between you and us.” Sam told him.

“Hmm. I suppose.” He removed the knife from the front of you neck momentarily, but then tilted your head once again, revealing the mess of bloody flesh beneath it which caused Sam to stifle a gasp, before running the point of the blade down the side of your neck. “But I like this much more.”

You whined at the pinch on your skin, but your body had gone numb. You hated being in this position. Compromised.

“You know what I’m gonna do once I kill too and get out of here?” He hummed, trailing his finger down your open wound, collecting the blood on his finger and licking the crimson from the digit. “I’m going to keep your little friend as my own personal blood bag, drain her nice and slow so that she feels her life slipping away from her. Hunter blood on tap. What else could anyone ask for? And then, when she’s on the brink of death…I’ll turn her.”

“No!” Dean charged suddenly, catching the vamp off guard.

He stumbled backwards, his grip faltering. Without another supporting your body weight, you dropped to the floor with a sickening thud. You were barely aware of the toppling of the vamps head as your eyes dropped closed.

“Y/N?” Dean shook your shoulders firmly. He was kneeling over your limp body. “Y/N?”

You whimpered quietly.

“Open your eyes sweetheart.” Dean begged. “Please.”

He had begun to sound so far away as you drifted in and out. His voice began to morph with Sam’s as you lost sense of everything. His words began to sound like a blur of noise, until eventually, you drifted far enough away that you stopped hearing them at all.

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<- DAY TEN ⛤ DAY TWELVE ->

🏷️ Taglist:

@senjoritanana

@deans-spinster-witch

@amaryllis23

#whumptober #whumptober23 #whumptober2023 #no.11 #captivity #no one will find you #supernatural x hurt reader #supernatural x reader #spn x reader #supernatural x sister reader #supernatural x injured sister reader #Dean Winchester x reader #Sam Winchester x reader #Winchester #blood #gore #vampires #blood loss #cliffhanger #fanfiction #supernatural fanficion #Dean Winchester #Sam Winchester

[annmariethrush]

Season 10: dean wants to be alive. He wants to retire. He wants to go hang out on a beach with his loved ones. Sam wants to keep hunting. He doesn’t want to “go back” to his “normal life” with a wife and kid and no hunting.

Finale: you’ll never fucking guess what happens

#spn 15x20 #can rot and die #stupid fucking finale #did they watch their own show??? #does jarpad have memory loss #literally who could be happy with the finale #it fucks all of the evolved goals of the characters #justice for dean Winchester #spn #supernatural #dean winchester #destiel #salmon dean #sam winchester #spn season 10 #spn finale

[carebeardean]

religious trauma sold separately! 💅✨

#supernatural #destiel #dean winchester #castiel #deancas #spn #jimmy novak #Barbie #Barbie meme #supernatural edits #Barbie edit #the Latin says honor/virginity/of the father #& male characters written by men projecting hypermasculinity & conformity (a box if u will) #who are metaphorically taken out of the box by queer & gnc ppl & girls who decide actually were not staying trapped in the cycle of violence #& ur gonna play with gender & gay kiss & maybe heal some trauma on the way #that’s playing with Barbies!! fanfiction & editing & fanart is playing with barbies!! #it’s a transformative act to take something not made for you & make it yours. & it’s also play!! :) #also deans trauma is (unintentionally) Very girl/queer coded #so we have girlhood as a prison. as a loss of faith. as a horror movie. as a monster transformation. as a hero complex. #being made into an object; a blunt instrument #being praised for how well you obey how much you repress how well you care for others how well you internalize misogyny #jeans spn stuff

[lovealwayssay]

Loml is so Destiel. Dean was the love of Cas’s life and Cas was the loss of Dean’s.

#loml #love of my life #loss of my life #ttpd #the tortured poets department #destiel #dean winchester #supernatural #spn #supernatural fandom #castiel #deancas #dean x cas #loml by taylor swift

[all-yourn]

destiel & zach bryan feat. kacey musgraves "i remember everything"

[on youtube]

#yall know i am always thinking about dean winchester and lot's wife and how he is haunted by and paralyzed by loss #anyway its the fifth so happy despair #“theyre trapped caught in the same loops replaying the same tragedies over and over” #quotes are from feeling backward: loss and the politics of queer history by heather love #and a substack by amelia k "i: vision - eurydice mangans sister and lot's wife #nov 5th #destiel #destiel confession #spn #supernatural #spnamvarchive #zach bryan #kacey musgraves #i remember everything #deancas #castiel #dean winchester #lots wife #spn edit #web weaving #lots wife coded #15x18 #2x16 #e #my amv

[sillywillybillywilly]

People need to realize that Micheal was broken was when he lost Adam. Adam was with him for over a thousand years and was the only thing on all of earth and heaven he ever felt genuine love with no fear from. Obviously he's not going to be ok when Adam gets killed

I feel like chuck knew how broken Micheal would be so he took advantage of that because Micheal was in a vulnerable state so chuck figured that with enough lying and manipulation, Micheal would be running back to daddy.

Micheal needed a sense of normalcy and the only real normalcy for him was Adam and Chuck but obviously he can't go to Adam anymore so chuck was the only person he could depend on. Understand that even though chuck is a bad guy that's Micheals father, his cunning, manipulative, lying, deadbeat father, that he served since the beginning of time (literally)

Also for all we know Chuck also could've also promised he'd bring Adam back??? Oh he could've very well been like "so you're like Lucifer now? Do you not care for me? Love me? I'm your father Micheal I'm very disappointed." or some shit like that because let's be honest, Chuck would

Also I don't think Micheal really understands how to process loss??? As an angel he most likely wasn't allowed to show any emotion because he's the great archangel Micheal, so obviously not being able to fully process what happened he couldn't see through Chucks lies and manipulation tactics

Anyways Micheal was never a villain it was always Chuck and I want justice for Micheal 🗣️🗣️🗣️‼️‼️‼️

#adam milligan #spn #supernatural #archangel michael #midam #<3 #midam spn #sillyposting #chuck shirley #micheal is just a daddy's soldier who doesn't understand #How to get through loss 🙁

[wormieapple]

cas immediately took that deal with the empty cause he never thought he could be truly happy cause he thought he couldn’t have dean. he was constantly miserable cause he thought couldn’t have dean.

#spn #supernatural #castiel #dean winchester #destiel #i don’t know y it never fully sunk in that he was literally suffering the entire time *because* not only did he want dean #he thought he couldn’t have him and thus could never be happy #and it’s not just that he has an absence of happiness he’s suffering feeling the loss of something he can never have #but he can #he could have dean #he didn’t just have to have happiness in being and saying #he could have happiness in having as well

[snebulae]

girl help the horrors got so bad i started a 15 season long show and cannot stop watching it

#binged s2 yesterday #worth the slight loss of sleep tbh #supernatural #spn fanart #my art #fanart #dean winchester #sam winchester #these freaks are so ridiculous (affectionate)