#war inside myself

[bleakbluejay]

nobody hates star wars like people who love star wars, i swear on it

like... you can see all the passion and potential that all of it has, and have to look with horror as all that potential is set on fire time after time

it could really be a perfect universe with perfect series... but that's not what we get. and it hurts and it's infuriating.

#eli talks #vent #star wars #mandalorian seson 3 was the worst for this #it made me go from OBSESSED to completely separating myself from it #they found a gold goose that laid gold eggs #and that cut that bitch open to find only rotten eggs inside

[lyhil]

OC-tober 21 - "Grasping the Splinters of My Previous Self"

Cardamomo / Caoimhe belongs to @starlightsuncrow

(SORRY rotated him too much in my mind and got hopelessly enamored)

#gw2 #bweirdoctober #guild wars 2 #gw2 sylvari #other's ocs #art #SORRY SORRY I GOT. I GOT SO INTO MY FEELINGS ABOUT HIM #its the #do you follow me for who i am now or the sylvari i was and dont remember #its the...... do you smile for me or the me in your memories #how do i honor who i was #the one still inside me #and still be myself #can i even becoming someone new or should i tread the path of who i was (who is now a stranger to me) #its the learning to be yourself and coexist with who you were(literally) #sobbing and sniffling and wiping my eyes #anyway hope you like this i had so much fun and i care him so fucking much #sorry for any inaccuracies i wanted to try and show the changes between them (and over time) so i was a little picky and choosy with refs #LOL #i'll draw him so niceys one day im sure #<- tags from a week ago im more ill about them now 🫶

[honeybuns-bb]

here's a fun secret: i've been calling the bad batch "the batch batch" in my head for like years because the first time i saw the episode title from season 7 of tcw i misread it and only realized when cody said his "they call themselves the bad batch" line and i was like oh oops! anyways ive called them the batch batch ever since.

#its like an inside joke with myself #i invite you to join me #i'm only slightly ashamed #batch batch time everyone!! #star wars #clone force 99 #sw tbb #sw tbb s3 #sw tcw #tcw #the bad batch #tbb #the batch batch

[trashfaun]

Got thrown in the Duros Hoes pit for this, but I LIVED Got Bane using a lightsaber for a brief moment, and then there’s the whole Hardeen arc so-... why not just do a whole swap of the clothes, right?

#star wars #cad bane #obi wan kenobi #duros #fan art #my art #kenobane #shitpost #it was indulge myself hour so this exists now #i'm not sorry #ok maybe a little bit sorry #anyway braid chain makes yet another comeback #like a fun lil inside joke in a way

[modelsof-color]

When the world gives a sign telling us that sometimes it's dangerous to believe in love in a world full of war , we better tell the world to get ready because we’re wearing our armor of love and nothing else . Let's stay strong knowing that the frustration , pain and apathy can't stop us , at the end , love means redemption, for us and for others . It’s worth it because it works. it works because it's about us surrendering to our humanity

#text #I was about to start a war inside myself.. I wrote it instead lol

[sillydeadpoets]

hello!!

figured with all these new mutuals and possible friends, i should make an introduction post :)

hello! my name is simon, i'm 19 years old, and i'm a freshman in college. my pronouns are he/him+ (any questions on that, feel free to ask!), and i consider myself genderfluid but mostly transmasc if that makes sense? idk i am confused tbh but anyway i'm also bisexual :)

i am very very fixated on dead poets society (especially charlie), and i also am a major todd kinnie. anyway- i also love other movies and shows, so here's a comprehensive list:

dead poets society (obv)

the outsiders

the breakfast club

marvel (moon knight and anything steve and bucky related tbh)

star wars (literally all movies and shows tbh)

inside job

good omens

supernatural (been a fan since i was in a bassinet☝🏻)

i will mostly discuss dps on here, but if i do post about my other interests i hope that's alright :) as for hobbies, i enjoy reading, writing, playing video games, journaling, and collecting stuff (albums, books, movies, etc etc)

feel free to message me any time! i am always willing to talk about anything at all. as i did say, i am in college so response times vary but i will see and get back to you asap! :) sorry for the long post!

here's some pics from my adventure last week to a cafe and park lol

#introducing myself #dead poets fandom #dead poets society #i'm just a silly little guy #the breakfast club #inside job #i am ron staedtler irl for real #and brett hand is my girlfriend #i also love adam sandler movies shhh #marvel #moon knight #i was fixated on moon knight for so long #i love my moon boys #silly little moon system i miss them so much ANYWAY #good omens #they deserve each other #ill cry #star wars #supernatural #spn #they made my brain rot for years thanks winchesters #okay that's it mostly thanks! #the outsiders

[goldleaf-art]

au where nothing bad happens to anyone ever but Echo still gets to wear that outfit from that one ep of TBB and Fives treats getting noodles like a tactical op

(Background is a screenshot from aotc that I added text to, link to original here.)

#Fives #Echo #Clone Wars #arc trooper fives #arc trooper echo #Star Wars tcw #Domino Twins #unwhitewashtbb #i just want them to have a nice life bros being bros #going through a phase where I cringe myself inside out at every piece of art I produce but I’m sure it’ll pass fskfsjefnsf #i also drew this at a stupidly small resolution so rip but fun was had

[lilyharvord]

Evangeline watching Cal interact with Mare at any point during war storm: 

#red queen #glass sword #kings cage #war storm #broken throne #post broken throne #marecal #this was literally hiding in my fucking drafts #I can't believe I left this her for 1+ years #like thats so rude #it's funny as hell #i'm rereading RQ cause i got my pretty litjoy set and I'm giggling to myself over everything #there are so many parts I forogt #like I completely forgot about the part where mare finds him literally taking panels off the inside of the submariene and shes like: #bitch you're scared of fucking water why are you taking apart the ship?> #and I also forgot about the part where he unbuckles his armor with his teeth #thank you Julia for reminding me that bit exists #cause I'm so sad I forgot about it #and of course who could ewver forget: "and they can even breed #BWAHAHAHA Carmadon saw his opportunity and fucking took it #if Farley didn't know they fucked in the woods before that she knew right after from Cal's reaction

[spaciebabie]

*Points* YOU! YES YOU! Tell me about your ocs please. Any oc. The oc you can never design right, or the oc that won't stop changing, Any. Just tell me about your ocs!

GRRRRRRRARAGRGARGA

ANGIE MY BELOVED

this guy.....i have given him the most amount of trauma At The Start. he's already gone (and is still going thru shit) and b/c he's already had it tough he's gonna end up being the wisest person by the end of the story most likely (in his own way)

fuckin this guy's a tech nerd and if i knew more abt computers n junk i would be more specific but thats rlly. all i can say. he makes funny programs, he can code, he makes robots, aaalll that shit!!

fun fact: angie is a relatively new character that ive created for two! he (along w/ness) were not in the original story, but.....kat had like....NO friends and w/all the shit she was gonna go thru she really needed them lol. it also didn't make sense w/her character ta have her have no friends?? at that point in time i was revamping kat's personality cuz i realized she was too much Like Me and I didn't wanna create a self insert lol 😅

ANYWAYS- angie's got the worst of life w/in the last 2ish years, dead dad, depression caused from dead dad, struggling family b/c of the sudden loss of income (at this point in the story his family is more stable, but that's the reason he originally started working at kat's parent's cafe), anger issues caused by depression from dead dad, and on toppa all that, he's in honors classes!! man's has got it tough!!

he's also the eldest sibling in his houshold n has got 5 siblings!! (here's a wip of them i never finished. this would've been his fam 2 yrs ago)

him n the sister he's smirking at are at eachother's throats a lot lol. she's sorta similar ta ness but a lot more blunt. they shoulder the burden of being the eldest, sort of a team but not really? angie takes the brunt of the burden. eldest siblings (me) understand.

he's got ta deal w/being held ta such a high standard n he's constantly under pressure ta succeed, ta do great ta make his family proud, n now that his dad is dead he feels like he owes it ta him ta do well by him.

beyond the sad stuff he had a major caffine addiction that his mother put a stop ta. he had a habit of procrastinating and then pulling coffee fueled all nighters, except now that he cant have coffee anymore he supplements it w/soda (his mother will NOT allow energy drinks he sneaks some anyways tho. ((his mother is not happy abt him drinking sodie)))

he's a meme king and irl shitposter and a very Big Boi (6ft!) he's got a new york accent as well!

fun fact numero dos: angie is one of the several characters who i am completely unsure of their orientation. i feel like he could be the queerest person on the planet and yet also be the straightest most cis-dude ever. idk ik he likes girls thats the most ive come up w/so far.

he loves his friends so much dude!! they've helped him thru so much and he's done so much dumb shit w/them (like The Bruisehouse, of which the trio of kat, angie, n ness is named after. they're still quite famous from what they did in elementary school). honestly he just wants ta relax. you can see that reflected in his clothing choices (yk besides being a sans kinnie n liking utdr) he's one of those kids in middle school who dresses in shorts n short sleeves no matter the weather n is like, "im not cold"

him n kat met first and were bffs b4 they met ness n she was added inta the group, so they're a bit closer in that aspect!

#spacie splains #hehe #oc: angel galaxio #two #the war organization #oc stuff #another fun fact: i gave angie depression b/c at the time i made him (i was 14) i was struggling w/depression myself #idk why i just....wanted ta give him a piece of myself? #a lot of my characters are like that they all have at least one trait that i do #anyways my Son #fucking idiot i love him #(well i mean he acts like an idiots but i think he's quite smart) #ough the bruisehouse crew....beloveds #i have Too Many Ocs #notice: im speaking abt ocs that have already been introduced inta two b/c a lot of the ocs i havent shown are Lore Filled #okay im goin ta bed #thank you for your ask anon~ #idk why its so much easier ta infodump in a public space #i dont feel bad abt dumping abt them at all here its mostly when i get the urge ta discuss spoilers (which i wont do publicly obvi) #n i just start convulsing cuz im keeping it inside #anyways if you read this far down!! im!! giving you a cookie :3 🍪🍪🍪🍪 #how did you read all this? #zamn!!

[voidfell]

Tag Dump 1 / 2

Still working on Kaz and Marty's tags but consider them added too. Might add my rules + muse list to my pinned post cause it seems easier then updating my carrd every time I get impulsive.

#✧˖*°࿐ Albedo // i’m an ALIEN. ‘cause i’m not of this WORLD. #✧˖*°࿐ Albedo Musings // i have a name but i've been CHANGED & now i can't stay the SAME. #✧˖*°࿐ Albedo About // i'm a MONSTER if that means I'm misunderstood. #✧˖*°࿐ Albedo Interests // it’s TRUE what they say. words are WEAPONS. #✧˖*°࿐ Albedo Image // there’s a war going on INSIDE of me. #✧˖*°࿐ Albedo Ver. // i can't deny it. it's like a RIOT & I can't keep it QUIET. #✧˖*°࿐ Albedo AU // too late for BACKING down. you went & drew a CROWD. #✧˖*°࿐ Albedo AU // my path may be DARK but i see where it ENDS. #✧˖*°࿐ Albedo AU // at the BIG FINALE i would tear my face AWAY. #✧˖*°࿐ Albedo & Ben // the END is where we BEGIN. #✧˖*°࿐ Albedo & Azmuth // what did i do to DESERVE this? #✧˖*°࿐ Ben Tennyson // if LIVES are on the LINE. it’s HERO TIME. #✧˖*°࿐ Ben Tennyson Musings // too much thinking is bad for my health. like FIRE once i start i can’t stop & i BURN MYSELF. #✧˖*°࿐ Ben Tennyson About // shake me to the CORE. make me STRONGER than before. #✧˖*°࿐ Ben Tennyson Interests // here comes a DANGER up in this CLUB #✧˖*°࿐ Ben Tennyson Image // i’ll turn into an ALIEN before your VERY EYES. #✧˖*°࿐ Ben Tennyson Ver. // i’m UNAFRAID of the STORM that comes my way. #✧˖*°࿐ Diisccvery - Ben x Rook // don't got no MASTER PLAN. i don't got nothing at all. please don't THINK LESS of me. #✧˖*°࿐ Diisccvery - Ben & Ben 23 // we’re family & FAMILY looks out for each other. #✧˖*°࿐ Ben Tennyson AU // i’m not afraid of this MOUNTAIN in my way. #✧˖*°࿐ Ben Tennyson AU // so what NOW? all of the walls just came DOWN. #✧˖*°࿐ Ben Tennyson AU // it’s hard to EXPLAIN. but i’ve been CHANGED. #✧˖*°࿐ Ben Tennyson AU // & my heart is RACING. just like a ROCKET.

[lifexxxdeath]

rage & sadness is all i know.

#alternative #aesthetic #sadcore #dark aesthetic #red aesthetic #soft grunge #sadgirl #black and white #actually dpdr #i love you #actually did #i am so angry #war with myself #i feel like im burning from the inside

[nobody-expects-the-inquisitorius]

I think I’m okayish now but everything feels so weird

#idk how to describe it. just weird #‘what would he want you to do’ #not hide in the garden that’s one thing #???? girl it’s raining why are you sitting on the grass come inside and have some chocolate #he always bought me chocolate when I was a kid #when my parents went out he’d come and stay overnight with us #Days I Could Stay Up Late™️ #I wish I was still that age. #i’m a uni as good as this because of him #last time I saw him was star wars celebration. he said he’d think about saving up for japan. now i’ll never go with him #I was waiting until he got back to tell him about me crashing the car #he’d have died laughing and then given me 2728153 unhelpful driving tips #ironic thing is my mum and my other uncle who lives down the road had a massive falling out years ago #and he’s been trying to decrease the awkwardness between them ever since with varying success #and yeah. you can imagine what happened yesterday #if ghosts are real his is definitely fistpumping about getting them to talk #its like everything stopped for a moment yesterday and now its started again #and im distracting myself but its still at the back of my mind #idk when itll go away

[screaming--agony]

Dear Diary,

It’s weird to think how you can look at a person and have no idea how close they secretly almost gave up the night before and the only reason for still breathing is because they cried themselves to sleep.

#dear diary #heart vs mind #empty #anxiety #struggling #weight of the world #it’s weird to think #behind closed doors #it’s getting hard #one step forward ten steps back #you have no idea #depression #war inside my head #alone #sick of being sick #hollow #cried myself to sleep #why is everything so heavy #darkness has a hold on me #it won’t let go #overwhelmed #it’s worse when the sun goes down #immense sadness #cry myself to sleep

[little-laurance]

Not to stir up trouble, but the Aphmau fandom can be so hard to be in sometimes cause all of us have increasingly strong parasocial relationships with characters who kinda sucked

#GUILTY AS CHARGED IM A LAURANCE STAN LMAO #and I'm actually mostly talking abt myself here but I notice similar traits with everyone else here #most of us were obssessed as kids/teens and going back we still like characters in similar ways #like obviously there's maturing and stuff #but I will die a fucking Laurance stan #but like for those of us in the trenches with the shipping wars #any valid critique of characters feels like we're 12 again and someone just said Aaron was better than Garroth or some shit #it's such a weird feeling??? #I don't think I'm describing it well at ALL #but like #when I see someone point out why smth Laurance did was fucked up (and they are usually right) #my first reaction is the child inside of me screaming ''NO THATS MY LAURANCE HE IS PERFECT AND HE WOULD NEVER“ #and my second reaction is ''calm the fuck down they're right“ #its so hard to distance a series so steeped in my childhood from my childhood emotions #ig that's what I'm getting at #we're very prone to drama I think cuz these characters (for better or for worse) have permanent wiggled their way into our brains #and if there's smth wrong with the character there must be smth wrong with us for liking them (not true)

[sillydeadpoets]

a new introduction ⭐️

hello, figured i should update my intro because my interests have changed a teensy bit

my name is simon, i go by he/him+ (feel free to ask about the others any time), and i'm a 19 yr old college student. i'm majoring in atmospheric science :)

i love reading, writing, art, playing video games, and watching movies and such. i have other interests but the list would go on forever, so i'll spare you the reading.

as for movies and shows i enjoy, here's a condensed list of the ones i obsess over the most.

movies:

- dead poets society

- the breakfast club

- star wars (prequels >>> but all are good)

- marvel (spiderman, any avengers, venom, moon knight)

- the outsiders

- jurassic world (the entire jurassic park series tbh)

shows:

- inside job

- psych

- house md

- grimm

- supernatural

- voltron

yeah that's sorta it :) please feel free to message me whenever. i'd really love to make some friends. i do sadly have a lot of classes but i'll try to be more active than i was in the past. take care :)

(here's a collage of my pets for funzies)

#dead poets society #dead poets fandom #dps fandom #voltron #inside job #marvel #the outsiders #the breakfast club #introducing myself #AGAIN #jurassic world #jurassic park #i am an enjoyer of movies and tv #grimm #psych #supernatural #house md #star wars

[guinevereslancelot]

starting to think that not even ibuprofen can save me from the horrors

#they're unending yeah #not a headache post for once tbis is an anxiety post #against which ibuprofen is powerless #anyway #on the outside i am on the couch watching cartoons but inside i am waging a war fr #also my stomach is in knots from the stress and even the mighty ginger ale is useless to me rn #this has been a shitpost #this isn't abt red flag guy btw im just a wreck all by myself l