#with all the kids this time

[scoups4lyfe]

SCOUPS BAAAAACK *tackle hugs Scoup*

MY COMRADE IN ARMSSSSSSSSSSS

HAHAHAHA I **AM** back >:D

I feel great. (Ironically LOL)

☆⌒(ゝ。∂)

Update wise:

My psychiatrist upped my mood stabilizer dosage.

I was taking 50mg,,,, now I"m taking 100mg,,, and this Saturday It'll be upped to 200mg. (Wild.)

Hmmm. When I first started the 100mg --11 days ago-- I fell out of my manic episode like a jester falling down a steep cliff. (ghjnsdkghgsf)

And by that I mean I lost all of my emotions LOL!

......:D Calling it depression feels wrong. Like, I couldn't feel anything. Not sad, not depressed, just nothing 😛. It was to the point that I did exactly what I was NOT supposed to do and started drinking caffeine (which I never drink) just to feel alive.

I mean,,,,, it WORKED (LOL). But the moment it ran out, like a snap of the finger, BOOM. Immediately empty. The kind of empty where you can't even fake a smile. Honestly-- I felt like an empty glass cup more than a human.

This last for about 5 days, then I started to normalize and have felt normal (ish) since then. But while my mental health was stabilizing my physical health said:

So at like 7 PM today I went to the ER (as one does) and got home maybe 2 hours ago (it's like 4:30 AM rn); and apparently I have a kidney infection and what not.

The reason why I went to the ER: Eating 2 spoons of rice made my stomach feel like I had eaten burning knives. I ate 3/7th's a banana like ....6 hours later (mind you this is ALL I had to eat today, and I'm being literal about the 2 spoonfuls of rice) and the banana made me feel like my stomach was gonna implode or something. So I was like 'well well well. So it's come to this.'

(The stomach pain has been for like weeks LOL. I gaslight myself into thinking I'm bonkers and then it's like 'do I want a $20,000 hospital bill, for nothing?' 😛)

Took some medication for it (the infection) and I feel...fking fantastic rn >:].

Med wise --as I said above; this Saturday my dosage get's upped to 200 MG. And I have absolutely no fkin idea how this will affect me.

IDK if I'll become an empty shell again; or if it'll repeat what happened last time

(when I took 25 mg it did this same thing; but when I took 50 MG like...literally went manic LOL.)

Which means my 3 options Saturday onward:

Nothing happens. My mood is stable. I'm normal and human.

I tank and lose all my emotions and ability to feel anything.

I go manic (and at 200 MG????? dawg I'd just become literally not even on earth anymore).

Like if I wanted to eat / lick book pages when I was manic during my 50 mg arc,,,, wtf would 200 MG do to me if I went manic????? Lortd.

LONG a$$ recap. But yeah. Now that I'm being treated for my physical whatever-the-fvck; guess it's just on what these mood stabilizers do to me.

Either way I'd love to go stupid and crazy live-blogging again >:]]

#that and my older sis DID get into another serious car accident #with all the kids this time #got T-boned by someone going 70 MPH #AND the car hit the kids side. #No one got too badly injured. My niece had to be taken in an ambulance #just had a cut on her face (and half of her face bruised) ;'( #my thougts #fvcking moodswings ⚡️✌️ #bipolar disorder #a scoup of life 🔫🦆 #neurodiversity #manic depression #man my life literally sounds insane LMAO #but yeah all this happened. crazy my niece and nephews aren't badly injured #literally my nephew's car seat unattached from the thing and flew through the car....but he was fine (thank fvck) #kongu 992 #asks

[ardri-na-bpiteog]

Also increasingly aware that a LOT of people "manage" getting through the 40+ hour work week by sleeping less than is healthy and relying on stimulants like coffee and energy drinks to keep them going.

For people who are unwilling or unable to do this...work really does just dominate your life. Like we really should not have to rely on unhealthy practices just to have a social life or keep on top of housework or whatever.

I know I post about this a lot but I'm so TIRED all the time and it's just so depressing that this is how we're expected to spend the one life we have.

#i have to get at least 8 hours of sleep a night to even barely function #with sleep #getting ready for work #commute #cooking #and errands #I typically have maybe 2-3 hours to actually do what i want in a day #and I'm usually too tired to actually do the things i want to do #and that's with a very short commute #if i actually had a long commute I'd basically do nothing but work #i see my friends like once every few weeks or months #because we're all so fucking busy with work and have such little time for socialising #and none of us even have kids or anything!!

[redsray]

the funniest part of any Robin meeting the JL is that every Robin is so distinctly different from the previous one in terms of personality and vibes that the league literally gets backlash. and like, I don't blame them. not to mention that they are non-meta children that dress as a traffic light and fight crime alongside batman in gotham on a nightly basis. i'd also be a bit concerned. Batman, literally The Night of Gotham personified in the League's eyes, coming into a JL meeting: This is Robin, my crime-fighting partner. 11-year-old Dick Grayson, dressed in the brightest primary colours possible, vaguely hidden murder behind those eyes, never stops moving even for a moment: Hi! Superman: That's a child. That's-- Bats that is a child. You let a child--? Batman, deadpan: You try to stop him. Would you rather he try and murder a grown man with a wire?

Batman: This is Robin. 12-year-old Jason Todd, with the biggest grin on his face, about 3 books in his hand, stars in his eyes and a distinct street-kid drawl: Hey!!! Green Lantern: That's ... that's a different child. What?? Jason: I stole his tires :) Batman: Tried to. Jason, stage whispering to the League: basically did. Green Lantern: that is a different kid, right?? I'm not seeing shit??

Batman: This is Robin. 14-year-old Tim Drake, bo staff clutched in his hand, a wary and tired expression on his face, more on the quiet side, the literal walking definition of don't judge a book by it's cover: hello Flash: Where do you even find these-- Tim: I found myself.

Batman: This is Robin. 17-year-old Stephanie Brown, literally blonde, with a shit-eating grin, eyes full of nothing but mischief and the most explosive personality you've ever seen: hiya!! Superman: I give up. Stephanie: I know, I have that amazing effect on people.

Batman: This is Robin. 13-year-old Damian Wayne, a literal wet cat that will hiss at you, has a sword, the most judgemental stare you'll get from a teenager, ready to jump anyone there: Green Lantern: WHY DOES HE HAVE A SWORD?! Batman: ... he came with the sword.

#batman #batfam #tim drake #jason todd #dick grayson #damian wayne #stephanie brown #dc comics #icb i posted this w/o tags the first time #what is wrong w me #superman: where do you find these kids #bruce: they just show up tbh #especially tim. he LITERALLY just showed up #anyone: so which one is really robin? #bruce: they are all really robin. #bruce: dick wanted to kill a man. #jason tried hijacking my tires in CRIME ALLEY. #tim just appeared and made himself robin that was NOT me #stephanie also wanted to kill a man. #damian did kill a man. or two. #YOU try to parent these kids then come back to me clark

[xekstrin]

One of the most memorable interactions was Saturday. Into our booth strolls a small family, tempted by free samples of freshly brewed tea. We chatter and give them the spiel, that the tea is character merch and we’re a cozy health-based app called Forage Friends.

The young girl zeroes in on our pride pins.

“They have my pin!” She says excitedly. “They have my flag!”

The dad blinks. He is surprised, but also calm and positive when he sees it’s the lesbian flag. “Oh. That’s… different from what you told me.”

“That was months ago, dad.” And she rolls her eyes. Definitely a teenager.

I turn to him and say, “Yeah, dad.” And we share a little laugh about it.

He says, “No, it’s great. That’s amazing, honey. It was just news to me.”

“Well, I guess I just decided to stop lying to myself. About liking guys. Like right now.”

A little lesbian just came out to her dad and he was super cool about it.

I’m standing there in my tie-dye mask and my cheery blue apron pouring tea and making small talk and I’m trying really hard not to cry or compare it to my experience, the fire & brimstone, the disgust, the conditional acceptance as long as I never bring it up.

So as this beautiful bonding is going on, the girl’s even younger brother turns his gaze around. He’s in a snorlax hoodie and bored and wants to go look at the swords across the hall. But on the other side of our booth….

“WHY DO PEOPLE DRAW THAT?” He asks loudly, and we all turn to our neighboring booth.

Our neighbors were extremely lovely people. Every time we had a break we would talk, and we became good friends over the weekend. They kept apologizing that their booth was next to ours and we kept repeating that it was totally fine. Their booth was great. I even bought their merchandise.

The thing that was so contentious, that they felt the need to apologize for, was that they were selling explicit titty hentai stickers of popular characters. They were censored with little yellow R18 labels but the content was very clear.

So back to the family: I freeze and immediately go somewhere else to let dad handle this question. With adult customers I’ve been loud and positive about our neighbors. (“Man, how has it been boothing next to them?” It’s been great! They bring a lot of foot traffic and they’re kind and wonderful professional neighbors. If anything it’s a fun juxtaposition. We believe in artistic freedom. I bought a sticker too!)

But this is a kid, it’s not my place to explain anything…. But I was extremely curious about what this chill dad would say.

“Well,” dad says with a long measured silence between each word. “Sometimes people are horny.”

#IT WAS SO FUNNY #the kid was like GROSS #and dad was like its art :) #maybe one day you will feel that way too son #and he was like NO NEVER GROSS #and the dad was like you know what thats true :) not everyone feels that way #but maybe some day you will and you’ll see it’s totally fine and normal #A+ dad #dad of all time #dad champion #forage friends

[theshadowrealmitself]

I like to think that Vulcans who come to understand that Humans just can’t try to process emotions the same way as them, it’s just healthiest to let it out in harmless ways, decide that venting and stuff should be taken just as seriously as Vulcan’s meditation time, and will encourage the Humans around them to complain about what’s upsetting them

People who are used to aloof Vulcans who avoid Humans at all cost running into one comforting a Human

“-and then they said my cheesecake was subpar, and they didn’t even bring a dish!!!”

“The purpose of this event was that every participant brings a food item of sorts, correct?”

“Yeah!!”

“And they did not follow this rule while insulting dishes that were brought?”

“Mostly just my dish but yeah >:(“

“How illogical”

“That’s what I’m saying!!!”

#star trek #Vulcans #Humans #not based on a specific thing #but I used to know this annoying couple that were ‘family friends’ #who would show up to potluck dinners and the like and would either bring nothing or bring something really just. out of left field? #like a bag of frozen chicken to a bbq #and then proceed to make sure they are first even if it was stated to let kids go first #would take HUGE amounts before anyone else got a chance to get a plate #and then make off with the leftovers again even if they were already claimed for #and it wasn’t a food insecurity thing trust me I would never speak bad about a person getting food if that was even a remote chance #the adults who raised us knew them really well and we’d been to their house a ton of times #they were just dicks #and yeah. they’d occasionally insult the food. while eating the MAJORITY of it. #it was so weird at their home they would go out of their way to get the healthiest options possible #you know the really bland tasteless expensive stuff that apparently was healthier #but then if they were visiting our house they would. eat all our unhealthy snacks. #that always pissed me off so much as a kid because we actually had a food insecurity thing going on #and also a variety of other reasons that are a bit too depressing to bring up on this post #but anyways we’d hardly ever get to have nice snacks #and this couple would just take them all??? even after we’d tell them repeatedly that it was ours and those snacks weren’t gonna be #replaced #hated that couple #if you’re wondering why they were ‘family friends’ it’s because the couple who raised us #(it feels weird to type it out like that but apparently legal guardians doesn’t fit since they never finished petitioning 💀) #liked having them around because it made them look like ‘such great Christian’s’ being nice to the people #that no one else wanted to be friends with #I always thought that was a really weird and fucked up reason to be friends with someone #this got long sorry 😭

[bakedbeanchan]

Drawing from a mini comic where the timeline is reset but Zuko still has all his memories

Minicomic here

#baked bean originals #I just like drawing sokkas mortified face and then checked out #absolutely humiliated by some fire nation ponytail freak and then your little sister and that stupid bald kid want to befriend him after he #starts lying about how you all were friends in a parallel universe or whatever #that's rough buddy #just realized it looks like zuko's doing some pathetic little thumbs up here #avatar the last airbender #atla #sokka #zuko #katara #aang #zuko time travel au

[t4tails]

theres so much happening here

#og post #scene of all time honestly #i remember never understanding the joke at the end as a kid 😭😭

[saradiation]

Hey it's that time of the year again :D

HAPPY 413! 🎂

#my time zone is a little early haha BUT HAPPY 413 EVERYONE <3 #this is kind of a redraw of last year's 413 illustration and I'm so glad I could see some progress :) #I tried to make them look their age + keep their personalities and also give them cool GT outfits instead of the pjs ones I often draw #idk how much of that you can see though 🫣 #ANYWAY I had so much fun drawing them all together again! #homestuck #homestuck fanart #homestuck art #beta kids #413 #happy 413 #john egbert #rose lalonde #jade harley #dave strider #my art

[colinprovolone]

the low quality children

#FINALLY. ALL OF THEM #it’s fun how the colours on this ended up similar to the only other time i drew them all #d20 #fh #fhjy #fantasy high #my art #riz gukgak #fabian aramais seacaster #gorgug thistlespring #adaine abernant #fig faeth #kristen applebees #the bad kids #i’m so glad i don’t have to draw tiedye i’m eternally thankful for kristen’s new outfit #god what is fabian wearing. i do not know

[gouinisme]

#signed a former muslim in a mostly muslim area who didnt know people were actually taught that santa existed for the longest time #throwback to the time our white primary school teacher asked what we wanted from santa claus and we were all like. ma'am what do you mean #santa's not real did you think santa was real? #and she had to try her best to protect the like 2 white kids in the class from learning santa doesnt exist #poll #christmas

[scoups4lyfe]

Updates —-

I’ve been having a real ☠️🔥🦆🔥☠️🔫🔫 time these last few days.

The episode I’m in has me awake almost 24/7; I can’t focus, I feel like my insides are burning 🔥 (literally) — and the burst of energy I have is suffocating me 👻🤝🦆.

hhhggggng h gngnfgffggbgggnkggajdb

A visual of what these three days have been like (on infinite repeat):

Honestly don’t know what to say LOL.

Liveblog-wise I specifically set Friday as my ‘chill day’ but who knows who I’ll be a day and a half from now ☠️.

I **do** also see my psychiatrist on Friday — so I guess we’ll see how that goes.

I don’t really have any more updates.

#the intimately infuriating feeling of haunting your own body 🔫🔫 #I’m getting realllll irritated with myself rn #the sensory stimuli I’ve been experiencing has me up the fkin WALLS yo #I think my older sister just got in another car accident #with all the kids this time #writing these tags as my mom frantically calls ppl in the other room #my thougts #manic depression #fvcking moodswings ⚡️✌️ #dpr ian #bipolar disorder #what is my family’s luck. I swear #a scoup of life 🔫🦆 #insane

[ao3-shenanigans]

Hi, reminder to not infantilize autistic, asexual, or aromantic people and characters.

Thanks!

#Sincerely someone who’s tired of being treated like a little kid all the time #fanfiction #writing #fandom #autism #aro #ace #aroace #ao3 shenanigans

[liquidstar]

adventure time lore is insane. it starts off just being a goofy kids show that has magic for no reason, but then you learn that all magic users are manic and/or depressed (what betty calls sadness and madness). because it turns out magic is actually a cosmic force beyond mortal comprehension, that itself was learned from cosmic entities that predated the existence of time itself inside a sea of monsters. and "magic" really is just understanding more about the nature of the universe than most people. that, in a way, reality isnt "real" and understanding that allows you to mold it. and thats magic. but that drives you to insanity and/or apathy. and there are beings who hold significant cosmic importance who are more prone to magic. and the reason magic became prevalent on earth is because of a nuclear war a thousand years ago, which released the entity that represents the destruction of all life onto the world. and after a nuclear apocalypse this gave way to a new earth, where magic could thrive. but a lot of the beings we see arent even magical, theyre just mutants from what happened 1000 years ago. and humanity as we know it has been all but wiped out. but everything stays the same because cycles of war and violence continue. and it doesnt matter if its nukes or magic. everything stays the same, but still changes.

#adventure time #and this is literally just barely the tip of the iceburg #theres so much lore for literally everything #as a kid watching it i thought it was cool. but i feel like i really appreciate just how much went into it as an adult #esp knowing how much was improvised! its genuinely so fun and has such cool concepts #and its still a silley show. its fun. its so much fun #cartoon of all time #of all. adventure time

[astearisms]

fionna and cake drawings before and after watching the episodes so far. it’s nostalgic and somehow cathartic and poignant and relatable and—it just started

#i’m part of the demographic where i was a kid when adventure time started and now watching fionna and cake as an adult makes me emotional #because did they keep us in mind when writing fionna and her attitude towards life #the dissatisfaction #the hoping for something more #something more magical than this dreary life filled with working to live and living to work #it’s so reflective of how life feels for me and perhaps many of us #and also Simon’s episode was so sad but so well thought out #exploring his feelings after the events of the adventure time finale is something I’m glad we get to see #there were already so many layers to his character in AT but now it feels like we get to dive deeper #I also felt emotional hearing Rebecca Sugar singing and writing a song that encapsulates his feelings so well #😭 it’s been awhile seeing her work exist alongside these characters #and all of these emotions get stronger because I remember AT being the one to inspire me to be a storyboard artist #when I was younger I used to follow many of the board artists here in tumblr and would get so inspired by them #to create simple but powerful boards that can capture the feelings of characters so well #Rebecca Sugar’s songs for the AT characters inspired me so much too #I’m sorry this is long I’m just feeling so many things experiencing all of this again as an adult #my art #fanart #adventure time #fionna and cake #fionna the human #cake the cat #simon petrikov

[ruegarding]

one thing abt thalia and percy's dynamic that is often overlooked is that percy was punished for the same things thalia was rewarded for. there's a prophecy abt one of the big three kids? percy is treated like a liar and thief and ppl refuse to talk to him. thalia? everyone respects her (including gods!) and assumes she'll do a great job saving the world. thalia is accepted immediately at camp and threatens the place percy spent two years proving he deserves. percy wants to go on a quest to save his friend? he's an attention seeker and glory stealer. thalia? well, she's the obvious choice. thalia comes up w a plan to win capture the flag that's basically "leave everything to me" and percy comes up with a plan that's basically "if you see a good opportunity, go for it," but percy is viewed as the control freak.

what i'm saying is percy had every reason to resent thalia and he didn't. he chose not to. and thalia had every reason to look down on percy and didn't.

even when they were fighting, i never saw it as a power struggle. they were being pit against each other, and instead of doing what everyone expected them to (kronos was fully expecting thalia to kill percy), they chose to love and respect each other. because they're not their parents. they're just two kids who started cracking under the pressure but refused to break.

#i think the most telling moment of their dynamic is when thalia is seduced by the power kronos offers her #and rather than viewing her as a threat and fighting her #percy talks her down. bc he knows her. bc he respects her. bc he loves her. #and she chooses him(them) over kronos and the power #anyway i miss thalia so much she should've been in every story all the time #thalia grace #percy jackson #percy jackon and the olympians #pjo hoo toa #big three kids #percy #thalia #min talks pjo

[beybuniki]

in hindsight, i rlly like that some of their inevitable conversations aree left covert i love to fill the gaps myself i love to think about their awkwardness :)

#i am plagued by visions i need them to talk some things out at a playground they shoo some kids off and it gets dark by the time they #break the ice #some things cant be said while its bright outside and you can see the shame!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #they talk about all might and deku's burden and bakugo getting stabbed for him i find it so crazy and funny that they dont ever mention tha #boys rlly dont talk about shit #bnha #deku #midoriya izuku #bakugo katsuki