xasherahx

[xasherahx]

I feel pathetic. I have no control. All I ever want to do is sleep and cry and I can't even do that. I keep waking up and having nightmares. I can't even cry. I feel disgusting.

[xasherahx]

I’m Fine by paintausea

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[xasherahx]

I heard that song today. That song you sent to me. That song that represented so much for us. That song that showed me that you valued me. That I helped you. That I was your reason to stay strong. But now you are gone. That song means nothing but heartbreak now. All it does is make me feel lost. Empty. Alone. Hated. It makes my chest crunch up. My eyes tear up. And it makes my head mad. It makes me want to hit my head against the wall. I hate myself. I hate myself for making you leave. You said you never would. Yet you did.

[xasherahx]

I've never felt this empty and alone before. I feel like I'm breaking more and more and I don't know how to save myself this time.

[xasherahx]

I feel a lingering pain inside my chest. It feels like I'm going to puke. The burning sensation from crying fills up my eyes, yet no tears show up. My chest feels heavy and empty. My arms yelling for that sting. In my head a thousand questions echoes. But you are the loudest one. I need you but I can't have you. And it's hurting my soul. I feel empty. Disgusting. Hated and lonely. Stupid. Craving. Craving for you to be mine.

#sad #sadness #love me #love #pain #anguish #heartbreaking #heartbreak #heartbroken #heartburn #question #questioning #questions #empty inside #empty

[xasherahx]

There's a rip. A tug. You hear a slight crack. It start to sting. It feels like someones digging sharp claws into it. The pain grows. The tug gets harder. Rougher. Your vusin gets blurry. You clutch your chest Your eyes start to tear up. You feel as it slowly get ripped to shreads. As it gets worse you grow used to it. It becomes the new normal. You walk around with that cutting feeling in your chest, acting like it's all the same. You try to hope that it will be okey. That the pain will fade. But deep inside you know it won't. The pain is there to stay. Heartbreak is constant. Feelings never fade.

#love me #love #in love #hurting #hurt #hurts #hurt you #hurt them #heartbreaking #heartbroken #heartbreak #feelings #feeling #hide feelings #normal #suffer #suffering #hatred #pain #torn

[xasherahx]

i love you

[xasherahx]

I dream of how I put a gun to my head. Every night I blow my brain out. Is it a cry for help? I wake up feeling empty, not scared. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm already dead.

#bad dreams #dream #dreams #nightmares #nightmare #night #guns #gun #brain #empty #i feel empty #empty inside #dead #cry

[xasherahx]

Tired of being lonely. Tired of pushing people away. Tired of getting hurt. So ill keep being lonely. So ill keep pushing then away. Tired.

Asherah

#tired #im tired #i am tired #sad #sadness #im sad #lonely #pushing away #i feel so alone #alone #always alone #depression #depressed #love #forever alone #noone for me

[xasherahx]

Some of the most wonderful people are the ones who don't fit into boxes.

Tori Amos

#people #don't fit into boxes #boxes #weird #weirdo #sad #alone #tori amos #special edition #special person

[xasherahx]

The hardest thing in life is missing someone you know you never will see again.

#love #sad #alone #feelings #emotions #lonely #depression #life #abondoned #confused #heart #heartbreak #lonelyness #sadness #hurt #friendship #pain #missed #missing #miss #trust #heart broken #i miss you #suffering #family #death #ignored #hated #abondonment #abondond

[xasherahx]

When you hit me I say sorry for being annoying. When you tell at me for no reason I say I'm sorry for being wrong. Sorry is my most used word. And I'm sorry for things I don't even cause. I apologise for the weather being bad, for you having nightmares, you missing the program you wanna see. Most of all I'm sorry for saying sorry all the time. Because I am legitimate sorry when I say it. And not in the I feel bad for you way, but in the I am a fucking moron I should be able to fix this kind of way.

[xasherahx]

The days pass by one at a time. Until my deathday arrive. When it is nobody knows. But I won't be missed.

Ash

#sad #depressed #alone #feelings #upset #emotions #broken #lonely #depression #anxiety #life #hate #help #lost #mental illness #selfharm #abondoned #giving up #lonelyness #sadness #tired #hurt #selfhatred #death #emotional #missed #missing #miss #sorry #thoughts

[xasherahx]

You know that awful stench that comes from week old food that's been in the sun? That's how I feel inside.

#sad #depressed #alone #upset #feelings #emotions #broken #lonely #depression #anxiety #hate #heartbreak #mental illness #mask #selfharm #giving up #lonelyness #sadness #tired #hurt #pain #fake #selfhatred #death #emotional #given up #hatred #hide #numb #stupid

[xasherahx]

And all i feel is tears down my cheeks and a lingering feeling of disgust in my chest.

#depressed #alone #feelings #upset #emotions #broken #lonely #sad #depression #anxiety #hate #confused #heart #lost #abondoned #heartbreak #help me #mental illness #selfharm #giving up #lonelyness #sadness #tired #heartbroken #hurt #pain #scared #lies #fake #selfhatred

[xasherahx]

I miss having someones lips against mine..

Ash

[xasherahx]