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still can't comprehend the fact that we lost sese :,)

thank you for everything captain.🤍

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this is just a random fun fact about me.

i grew up with football and ballet. you can guess which one of these two sports affected me more. i didn't get much support for being who i wanted to be.

i wanted to play football all day but i was a girl and school was always more important. my grades were more important. my mom never believed i could make something out of football so it was a risk she wasn't ready to take. so, when i started school, she made me stop playing the game that was making me so happy. i started when i was only four and stopped in the winter when i was turning seven.

as i got older, i got more responsible. my dad somehow talked my mom into letting me attend football practices again. i was in 5th grade then and my biggest idols were iker casillas and luka modrić. my coach would sometimes tell my dad that i was dancing with the ball. i was literally playing games out there on the field. once he put me to play with the boys, since their team was stronger, and i did as good as they did, even better than some of them. i loved being a centre back/centre midfielder, my idols here were mostly sergio ramos, dejan lovren, ivan rakitić and luka modrić. (i am obviously a real madrid fan from croatia)

iker casillas is somehow the love of my life. i did try being a goal keeper a few times (never worked out). but he was my inspiration since i was five or six, it's hard to explain why. everything about him made me believe i can do it even when everyone else was telling me i couldn't. my coach was sure i could make a great footballer one day if i keep fighting my way to the top. he made me believe i had everything that's needed to become someone like alex morgan. except he always used to tell me not to try to become like someone but to try to become the best version of myself. a person other kids will want to become like.

now im in highschool, 10th grade. i dont play football anymore because my parents dont let me play it. they think its distracting me. ever since they took it away from me im struggling with anxiety and ive developed some kind of depression.

but something i always look back to is my coach saying that im dancing with the ball. dance is art. and with enough effort, you can turn football into art. thats why i love it so much. you can spend 87 minutes running around but in the end, the minutes that matter the most are those last three minutes. football had shown us how every second matters, how the smallest ones can be the biggest ones, it showed us that enemies can be friends for 90 minutes, it made us cry both sad and happy tears, it made us look up to someone. it had shown us how the smallest mistake can result in a defeat and how the smallest bit of luck can turn the tables within seconds.

when my coach once told me: "youre somehow not even playing football, youre living it" i didnt understand. i understood it only when it was taken away from me. a year after he told me that little thing i will remember for life, hans zimmer's "living football" wrapped the world cup 2018 in its hands, lead croatia to the finals and made me one of the happiest people alive. its kinda creepy how he pieces had been put together, i mean the 'living football' thing. during halftimes i'd go out, even when it was raining and when we were losing against france in the finals, and i would just dance ballet with the football. i would dance with the ball.

hopefully, one day i will again. on the field with 10 other girls or boys. something so little could make me so happy. even if it was the one last real dance.

#football #soccer #real madrid #sergio ramos #hala madrid #luka modric #croatia #ivan rakitic #dejan lovren #iker casillas #hrvatska #love #omg

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This sparks joy 🥺

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i'm homesick. šime makes me homesick. i want my nt back.

Oh my god there was just a shot of šime on the bench watching joão felix have a temper tantrum he’s so beautiful even with a mask on

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so, i will always support sese no matter what but I honestly think he should bring this look back. it looked ✨cleaner✨

#sergio ramos #real madrid #football #hala madrid #luka modric #ucl #ramos #bring it back #pls

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i thought we could appriciate the red color today because it's a powerful color and because the boys rock it <3

#they do be hot #sergio ramos #raphael varane #marcelo #luka modric #james rodriguez #real madrid #isco #marco asensio

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Angels in the Bible: “Hey do you - stop screaming I’m sent by God - do you need help getting out of this situation?”

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nac: it's funny when ppl are like "soft bunny luka uwu" when probably this dude could rip the legs from your butt (and keep this awkward smile in the middle of doing this)

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this is actually me when someone asks me how am i doing, so i laugh just to make them less worried bc i'm about to say so many dumb shit and then yell at them for bringing it up :)

#it do be like that #lol #omgpage #football #liverpool #croatia nt #croatia #dejan lovren #6 #soccer

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sergio was lowkey jealous of the kid

#sergio ramos #iker casillas #real madrid #football #spain #soccer #hala madrid #zinedine zidane

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Basically, this is the reason why blue is my happy color.

#real madrid #croatia #football #sergio ramos #iker casillas #luka modric #dejan lovren #sime vrsaljko #mateo kovačić #hala madrid #hrvatska #inter milan #marcelo #spain #brazil #toni kroos #james rodriguez

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Happiest birthday to our Capi <3

#sergio ramos #ramos #real madrid #its just real madrid #football

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You can tell how someone’s mental health is doing by paying attention to how much emphasis they put on the line “I sometimes wish I’d never been born at all” when they’re singing bohemian rhapsody

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I should have reazlied clown Madrid would come back

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lonely at the top babeyyy

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Vini crying after his goal. James taking off his shirt and running to the fans. Madridismo runs through their veins and it's what I absolutely love to see