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[carmzzjk]

My love for you will forever be our secret.

I’ve fallen in love more times then I can count. A simple hello and my heart drops with the urge to hold. Eyes meet at the same height, with matching dark hair that seemed to shine lighter in the sun. Dimpled smile with eyes as bright. Deep talks into the dark of nights, expressing our fondness. Conversations that lead to nothing more then a mere kiss. But as you showed more I pull back. The constant tug of war my heart pulled with yours. A battle of fear and want as our limbs interwind on the soft covers. As the sun rose you looked for me, but as you searched the covers I disappeared. Gone as far away from you as I could. As you sat there in despair wondering if it even happened at all, I watched from the night sky. Watched as you shed a tear but continue to move on. Your warmth felt nice and I think of it often; but could I call it love if you are just another object?

Author note:

- A Intro to a collection of love letters I’ve written in my time🌷.

- thank you @joomchu for being my proof reader 💌.

- tell me your thoughts baes💗.

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[carmzzjk]

Second chance at love 🤍

Warnings: ☆smut ☆insecurities ☆bulling ☆manipulation ☆eating disorder ☆body shaming ☆depression ☆ toxic

- 🤍Pure fan fiction meaning not real. Original characters made by chenn. Hope you enjoy, follow and tell me your thoughts🤍

Chapter 1: ☆ It starts with a name ☆

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Walking around endlessly in a hall filled with tall figures and small whines of torture. Jane felt her self grow hopeless, why on earth was finding a classroom so difficult? Shouldn’t it be the easiest to do if everything was labeled? Then why couldn’t Jane find it, close to giving up she let her eyes wonder to the lines on the floor.

Counting the lines, letting herself relax and ignore the world around her. As nice as it felt, she didn’t realize it would cost her. Her body hit warmth and soon hit back down to freezing cold. Groaning as she allowed her brain to register the world once again, her eyes were met with a hand.

A long and a shade lighter then her own waited in the air. Tempted to feel the warmth once again she allowed her hand to reach. Grabbing a hold of the hand she felt her body receive such warmth she hadn’t felt in a while. It felt nice, but she couldn’t stand in silence like she so desperately wished.

“I’m so sorry!” She quickly apologized,  her voice sounding pitchy and unrecognizable. But she couldn’t seem to care after he heard his, “it’s okay.” His voice was nothing but absolutely perfect. A sweet like honey pitch but at the same time deep like the ocean.

But his voice wasn’t the only deep like factor. His eyes where something far more beautiful then she could ever imagine. A pretty dark blue that reminded her of the beaches down at her parents home town. But along with such beauty came a sense of familiarity. “Have I seen you before?” She couldn’t help but ask, his eyes bought such warmth it wasn’t possible this was the first she’s seen them.

“I’m not sure, I can’t recall ever seeing you before.” He simply answered but the warmth was still very present. Could he be a new warmth? All so soon?

“O-oh never mind then. I must’ve mistaken.” She felt embarrassed but she swear she’s seen him before. Why else would she feel that feeling after pushing it deep inside for so long?

“No worries, are you knew?” He asked kindly as he moved them both closer to the wall and not in the middle of the hallway.

“Yeah, I was just in a hurry since I couldn’t find my classroom.” The girl said offering a smile and her schedule, hoping he would help her.

Taking a look at it he smiled “it looks we have the same class. Maybe I can take you?”

“Oh yes please!” She spoke excitedly as she followed right behind him. It felt so right yet so wrong all at the same time.

They walked a peaceful trail and occasionally asked questions. Maybe he could be her friend. She was knew after all and lost. Maybe he could be her lead?

Reaching the classroom he left her and went to sit down. Going up to the teacher she asked softly for a seat. Getting to sit just across the boy she felt giddy. Maybe she could get closer to her new friend.

Class was obviously boring, what did you expect when taking college algebra? Luckily for her the boy next to her spoke to her kindly. He was handsome and had a sweet smile. Maybe this school wasn’t too bad. :)

Lunch rolled around and the girl could feel the loneliness seep into her. She made a few friends here and there but none she could converse outside of a lesson. Looking down at her locket she held it close and whispered. “Please help me do better.” With that said she threw her lunch away and walked out. Not wanting to witness the close nit friendships that parade their groups like they owned the very same cafeteria.

Walking around as music played in her ears she let her mind drift from many things, like her old school, old friends and lastly something different, something new…

Then suddenly the boy from earlier this morning stood in front of her. His soft lips moving but no sound was heard through the loudness in her ears. Quickly taking the one out “I’m so sorry what did you say?”

He chuckled at her but nonetheless repeated himself “I was wondering how your day has been going?.” Should she tell him honestly? That he entered her mind and hasn’t left soon or should she-

“You shouldn’t play the music so loud it could damage your ears.” He softly said using his hand to lower the volume of her headphone. Sweet was all she could think from his words. Displaying such kindness to a person he just meet made her awe in foundness. The people here were oh so kind to her, almost made her miss her old place. It felt nice to be cared for once again. “It’s going okay just a little lonely.” She never liked to share her true feelings, never wanting to feel like a burden but feeling herself feel that warmth once again let her spill. How would he react if he saw her spill so easily to another cup. Would he feel jealous? Or would he be proud?

“Oh I’m sorry, it’s a bit tough to make friends here. Everyone already knows people from the beginning. But I’m sure you’ll find a tight group to call your own. But if you’ll like maybe after school you can hang around me? Im not the most fun but if it eases your loneliness I’d love too.”

Without even thinking she couldn’t help but agree. Give a hurt animal some warmth and it will jump right in without a second thought. She wanted and craved such warmth that it didn’t matter. “Yeah I would love to hang out with you after school.” She answered honestly and let her heart feel at ease.

“Awsome. I’m Eliot by the way.” A soft smile that seemed so sweet and innocent, she felt herself mirrored it perfectly.

“I’m Jane.”

A introduction to a new life Jane hoped allowed her to stay. A life with no regrets or second thoughts. A life without “him”.

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