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God this is me

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If I feel like this for another 3 months I'm going to attempt again. I'm deadly serious this time

#suicidal #actuallytraumatized #bpd #depression #anxiety

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Ever been so sad and broken that you can’t move. So you just sit there, frozen, paralyzed by your pain and suffer. Because that’s all you can do.

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i feel too much or nothing at all // from my journal

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Reasons to continue losing weight

1 So I can stop being called a pig

2 So my boyfriend can continue telling me how I look smaller again

- so he can continue telling me I look even better than before

- so he can continue loving my body shape

- so he can be proud to show me off

3 so I fit all of my clothes again

4 so I don't have to worry about having rolls still

5 I can wear what I want and look good doing so

6 so I can get asked have I eaten today

7 so I can get congratulated on how I look

8 for my sunken cheekbones back

9 so I can be even more pale

10 so I regain control over at least one thing in my life

11 so I don't have to be embarrassed about what I look like

12 so everyone finds me attractive- people don't love me for my personality, they love me for my body and looks so its important I strive for perfection

13 to get that high of not eating

#myweightlossjourney

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thinking abt how pretty my face would be if i were thin .... </3

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all it should take if you’re disciplined enough is three to four months. you’ll be at you goal weight in four months.

the food will still be there in four months. mcdonald’s will still exist in four months. that donut place will still be there after four months. food won’t leave, it’ll still be there when you’re skinny. why eat it now? why not eat it when you’ve reached your goal?

[ what i tell myself every time. ]

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boyfriend thinspo. to be light enough for him to constantly be picking you up and so small that you’re drowning in his t shirts in the cutest way

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My parents checking to make sure I’m not starving myself:

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Me: *lowkey starts eating more and feeling better about my body*

Life: *tHROWS FUCKING BULLSHIT THAT FUCKING TRIGGERS ME INTO FALLING INTO BAD HABITS*

Me: welp guess I’ll just fucking die

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Who else gained quarantine weight. Interact with this post if u did, because I feel alone. It’s been a year and I feel so misplaced and not myself. Here I am starving myself because I am so done. I am fed up with all those false hope fake diet bs. All i want is to be 80-86lbs again. I’ll never complain again. I wanna feel and be skinny, not worrying about how fat I look when I sit or see my reflection. Please please please interact with this if you feel the same way. I cant take fatness anymore

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Wish I could edit my appearance as quick as I can edit my Tumblr appearance

#vent #weightloss #actuallymentallyill #ed #disordered eating #depression #body dysmorphia

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The thoughts have gotten so fucking loud again and I don't know how to make them stop anymore

#depressed #death #depression quote #depressing quotes #disordered thoughts #thoughts

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i don't want to be like this, really, but it's all i've ever known and anything else seems impossible to me

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i promise that my promises mean something

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you wouldn’t have done what you did

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