erickgranttie

[erickgranttie]

“So what are you gonna say at my funeral now that you’ve killed me? Here lies the body of the love of my life, whose heart I broke without a gun to my head. Here lies the mother of my children both living and dead, Rest in peace my true love, who I took for granted, most bomb pussy, who because of me, sleep evaded. Her shroud is loneliness, her God is listening. Her heaven would be a love without betrayal.”

[erickgranttie]

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[erickgranttie]

I'm in an inaccessible hole let the sky fall over my head I want to see the light again but I can't get up I need help I wanted to make a house in the hills but I would throw myself with the pills I should be at the top, but I would fall I would fall alone on my own Everyone is watching me alone So they're saying they didn't see the sign I need to let myself go, but I have no courage, I must do, I need to be the brave and finish with that, let me be the final game This dark room keeps me from seeing These relationships keep me from breathing This life keeps me from saying everything I need to say My mind is empty I don't feel my spirit I feel like I lost my soul Have I ever had one? My empty and miserable life God, will there be another one? Or will I end up in front of you? Maybe my plans are better than yours Have you ever been by my side? or was it just an illusion? Will the grass make me so tall that I will see your son Jesus? Someone shoots me and hits the target Turn me into something useful, and make me stop falling I can't look myself in the mirror I can't see myself, who am I? Sometimes I feel like giving up But I just can't, but what if I do? I held my breath I counted to ten I begged for guide but it did not work when faith is lost things stop happening I should be the king of clouds and be dancing with my queen but i am a fucked up I'm falling, I'm trying I'm going up, but I'm just human Trying to be a hero, a role model When I don't even know if I want to go my way I should have a friendly shoulder In my bad times But my only friend is my pillow wet with my tears I need to talk to someone Is anyone there? Could you hear me? I need to vent with someone they are all here, but nobody sees me if someone sees my scars would you stay by my side? or would you just go? will i be loved someday? Will I have strong enough relationships? probably not. I wanted to love myself how can i love you I swear I wanted to leave this abusive shit but it is so comfortable be unstable and have no one to count on one day i will get out of this shit, i swear to god but we both know that I just want to be yours and you were the son of a bitch who put me in this cycle and now I can't get out I don't want to leave, did I? I don't remember, the way you touch me makes me forget but remember when I'm thrown against the wall and I feel you holding my neck I want to be loved in the dark Even when there is light in the room Even if an ocean keeps us apart let me be part of your heart Help me out of this dark hole Give me a light, help me fix myself please i just ask you to change dear me, just change.

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