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twisting my words so you can say that i hurt you. you have so little faith in me?? am i really a horrible person? you make me feel awful for wanting to live, for trying to live, for making space for myself so that i can live.

i wanted to have dinner with you, i wanted to talk and catch up.

i lasted one hour in that ghost ridden house.

#god what am i meant to do. #in the moment i want nothing more than to leave it all behind; but i know ill miss them. they are my only family i have left #what am i meant to do #i can’t choose between peace and family #maybe i’ll just choose us for a little while instead #ineptias loquor #musings

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I’ve been told to hide love in my closet but I’ve never been good at keeping my heart off my skin. I reek of longing. It’s the only way I know how to live.

youadan teddy // please, let me live

#<3 #dearest honeybee #i love you i love you i love you #poems and quotes #txt

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i love her a substantial amount to the point that loving her feels completely natural, as if i was made to love her.

#sobbing over here #i love you #dearest honeybee #<3 #god i love your articulation skill #if that makes sense haha #<333

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1000 year old cherry tree // 三春滝桜

#media #pretty #<3 #cherry blossom

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“it’s up to you” no thanks, i’m indecisive

#dearest honeybee #i will get better at decision making lol #txt #poems and quotes

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our love is much deeper than our bodies intertwined and our lips meeting

something so beautifully wondrous about loving you without ever laying a single finger on your skin

something so undeniably deep about knowing your heart and mind before ever knowing your touch

but will i really say goodbye without ever kissing you?

#its funny the way we are #our love was built on something much deeper than the need to intertwined ourselves #we needed to intertwine our souls #<- that says it soooo perfectly #and shes going to see this and im going to be completely embarrassed #<- i was in fact completely embarrassed xD #for the record im not certainly opposed to kissing you at all... i just chicken out. every. single. time. xD #dearest honeybee #<3

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By François Schuiten from "Les cités obscures"

#pretty #art #media #<3 #tag later

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I love you so much I hope we get reborn as housecats who sleep together like puzzle pieces

#dearest honeybee #i love you #<3 #cats <3

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I love you so much and I don't know where to put it all.

i worry that when you leave the weight of it will crush my ribs, all my oxygen leaving with you, robbing me of breath till you return.

#dearest honeybee #this isn't me stopping you #i'm just going to miss you a lot <3 #i love you #ineptias loquor #musings #anyway yeah point being this is the dramatic version of 'im going to miss you' lmao

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#media #giggles #tag later

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the stoic teenager to being on the verge of tears anytime something slightly inconvenient happens adult pipeline is very real

#it's the bottled up trauma lol #giggles #tag later

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i forget sometimes that this is my life, i forget that i don't exist purely for the service of others, i forget that i am my own person.

thank you for bringing me back to myself.

#this means i forget i am my own person #i forget who i am #i forget i exist #and i forget i have my own goals and dreams #it wasn't until you reminded me of that #thank you for seeing me when i can't see myself #dearest honeybee

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i wish i could take all of your sadness and hold it for you.

#say this better later #ineptias loquor #<3 #dearest honeybee

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“let me love you, my love is not finite”

thank you <3

#i love you i love you i love you #thank you #dearest honeybee #<3 #this type love seemed so fairytale to me #genuinely didn’t think it was something real or something i was deserving of #i’m learning

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@beemintty

#<3 #dearest honeybee

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i am both happy and anxious that i have felt what true stress is like. like i could never identify it. and now i can. and i am stressed.

#i want to pull an all nighter #my cfs said no #:( #ineptias loquor #<3 #tag later

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not to be serious in my little jester fest here, but do you ever think a little bit too much?

#i spend 24hrs with her and i’m left feeling like i have no sense of self #if that makes sense #i feel left like i was stripped naked and had rotten fruit thrown at me #… #brb going to journal clean and pinterest till i find the shattered remains of my identity #tag later #ineptias loquor #on life