ghoulpoole

[ghoulpoole]

ashes

long past burning out,

i am ashes.

my soul is ashen red sand

that stretches miles in all directions.

it’s too hot to touch,

yet it meets your feet as honored guests.

it’s that upon which

only your shadow rests.

its defies your perceptions

when you see its shimmering valleys

from the recalcitrant hills up which

you keep traveling.

it’s this secretive thing

before you unraveling,

empty but huge,

lifeless but wild,

silent but true.

fires burn out

and ice sheets will crack,

but my relentless desert soul

will persist to the

end of the world and back.

will you?

#poetry #queer poetry #trans poetry #autistic poetry #neurodivergent poetry #writeblr

[ghoulpoole]

waiting.

if i shout,

will you come to the sound of my voice?

#poetry #queer poetry #trans poetry #autistic poetry #writeblr #queer #transgender #trans #solidarity

[ghoulpoole]

open letter to OHSU urology

permanent hair removal for bottom surgery is unnecessary, expensive, and painful. it is an arbitrary barrier to care. if you seek bottom surgery and your surgeon expects you to do this, push back. they will only give us the care we deserve if we demand it.

#bottom surgery #gender affirming care #gender affirming surgery #trans rights #medical injustice #stop gatekeeping #trans #mtf trans #transfemme #portland #oregon #ohsu

[ghoulpoole]

"feelings are not facts,"

my emotionally abusive father used to tell me.

prick.

#fuck the patriarchy #angry women #daddy issues #poetry #queer poetry #trans poetry #trauma #rage #trans rage #female rage #feminist rage

[ghoulpoole]

"resentment is like taking poison and expecting somebody else to die,"

my first therapist told me. i was 16.

if it is indeed poison, then i have built up immunity

with constant small doses.

those i resent have no such luxury.

so, i know

when i spit that poison

right back in their face,

they will not take it

with my level of grace.

#fuck the patriarchy #angry women #queer poetry #trans poetry #anger #poetry #writeblr #female rage #trans rage #feminine rage

[ghoulpoole]

body parts - zine coming may 1st.

do you like queer poetry?

do you want to see a mediocre artist trying their very best?

do you hate the medical system? do you want to be seen as a whole body and not just a pile of body parts?

or maybe you just wanna watch the world burn.

then this zine could be for you. i cant say it cures or treats a disease, but the FDA can't stop me from saying it will make you healthier.

dm me if you want to know more or want a paper copy.

#trans zine #zine #art zine #queer zine #queer art #trans art #audhd #trans #queer #transgender #poetry #queer poetry #trans poetry #autistic poetry #writeblr

[ghoulpoole]

art from "Body Parts" (coming in may)

i am releasing a free zine of poetry, essays and art called Body Parts in early may. it is about living in a trans body and what it is like to be medicalized.

if you like this piece, i will be dropping more previews soon!

#queer poetry #trans poetry #writeblr #trans zine #art zine #autistic poetry #neurodivergent poetry #poetry zine #trans artist #trans art #queer art #zine #zine promo #digital zine

[ghoulpoole]

trans folx, dont forget to wear your hi-visibility gear today 🦺 safety first.

#trans day of visibility #tdov #safety first #brought to you by osha #trans #transgender

[ghoulpoole]

portland trans medical resistance

if you are seeking gender-affirming care in Portland, OR and are frustrated by mismanagement of care, DM me. I want to start a local resistance group around the issue.

#portland #pdx #transgender #trans #nonbinary #queer #oregon #gender affirming surgery #top surgery #bottom surgery #facial feminization surgery #gender affirming care #trans hrt #hrt #ftm hrt #mtf hrt

[ghoulpoole]

when we lose another sibling

CONTENT WARNING: death. proceed with care and be kind to yourself.

when we lose another sibling

(and we surely will),

i want you to go outside

and cry

and cry

and cry

and cry.

when we lose another sibling

i want you to scream 

at the top of your lungs:

THEY DID NOT DESERVE TO DIE.

when we lose another sibling

i want you to shout yourself hoarse

at this vast 

indifferent abyss:

IT DID NOT HAVE TO BE LIKE THIS.

when we lose another sibling

i want you to gather flowers

and palm fronds

and fill the street with mourning.

when we lose another sibling

i want you to say their names.

when we lose another sibling

i want you to give the world

a warning:

THINGS WILL NOT BE THE SAME.

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SAY THEIR NAMES.

Over the past year, these trans and nonbinary people died under violent circumstances in the United States.

Eden Knight - 3/12/2023

Siyah Woodland - 3/24/2023

Ashley Burton - 4/11/2023

Koko Da Doll - 4/18/2023

Banko Brown - 4/27/2023

LaKendra Andrews - 4/29/2023

Om(e) Gandhi - 5/16/2023

Ashia Davis - 6/2/2023

Chanell Perez Ortiz - 6/25/2023

Jacob Williamson - 6/30/2023

Fernielle Mary Mora - 7/6/2023

Onyx John - 7/16/2023

Camdyn Rider - 7/21/2023

Jean Butchart - 8/4/2023

DéVonnie J’Rae Johnson - 8/7/2023

Luis Ángel Díaz Castro - 8/12/2023

Lovely Page - 8/16/2023

Thomas ‘Tom-Tom’ Robertson - 8/17/2023

Alexa Andreevna Sokova - 9/5/2023

Codii Lawrence - 9/5/2023

Bre’Asia Bankz - 9/5/2023

Kylie Monali - 9/7/2023

Charm Wilson - 9/8/2023

Sherlyn Marjorie - 9/17/2023

YOKO - 9/19/2023

A’nee Johnson - 10/4/2023

Chyna Long - 10/8/2023

Dominic Dupree - 10/13/2023

Lisa Love - 10/17/2023

Nova Dunn - 10/17/2023

Skylar Harrison Reeves - 10/20/2023

London Price - 10/23/2023

F.L. “Bubba” Copeland - 11/3/2023

Kejuan Richardson - 11/14/2023

Amiri Reid - 11/14/2023

Kejuan Richardson - 11/14/2023

Shandon Floyd - 11/15/2023

Savannah Ryan Williams - 11/29/2023

Amber Minor - 12/24/2023

Meghan Riley Lewis - 12/27/2023

Kitty Monroe - 1/1/2024

Tristan Bustos - 1/25/2024

Nex Benedict - 2/7/2024

Ash Clatterbuck - 2/27/2024

Righteous TK “Chevy” Hill - 2/28/2024

Reyna Hernandez - 3/8/2024

Diamond Brigman - 3/16/2024

Alex Franco - 3/17/2024

Meraxes Medina - 3/19/2024

AND THOSE WE NOW NAME.

#cw: death #say their names #tdor #remembrance #transgender #trans #nonbinary #protect trans lives #protect trans youth #nex benedict #alex franco #tdov #trans day of visibility

[ghoulpoole]

give them their milk

desperation is setting in

#craigslist #missed connections #almond milk #give them their milk #desperation is setting in

[ghoulpoole]

announcing my first zine!

you might notice that a lot of my recent work has had Body Parts for titles.

this is because i have been working on a Zine, which will contain versions of all of those pieces and more.

the Zine is called Body Parts!

it will contain revisions of my recent poetry and essays, and visual art done by me.

there will be a print and a digital version. it will be FREE.

i have not set a due date and i don't know when it will be finished. but when it's finally done, i will post a link here. i might post some previews here, too.

if you would like me to mail you a physical copy, DM me and we can arrange something.

Much Love. Free Palestine.

June.

#body parts #zine #art zine #poetry zine #trans zine #queer zine #free zine #digital zine

[ghoulpoole]

shoutout to people who lay in bed all day when they get home from work/school, people who can't go to loud or crowded places or concerts, people who change into pajamas because other clothes are uncomfortable, people who can't consistently participate in hobbies, people who have to turn down hanging out with friends, people who have lowered their standards to improve themselves, people who need affirmations, and people who struggle to stay healthy. you deserve so much love and I hope things get better.

[ghoulpoole]

nex Benedict

Pretty bad drawing so take it easy but rest in power nex, we love you

[ghoulpoole]

dear nex,

your school failed you.

your peers failed you.

the hospital failed you.

authorities fail you,

adults fail you,

words fail you.

i fail you,

and i'm so sorry.

#poetry #queer poetry #trans poetry #transgender #trans #grief #loss #nex benedict #nex #protect trans kids #protect trans lives #protect trans youth

[ghoulpoole]

what you gonna do, ban me?

#fuck your terms of service #trans people are allowed #transgender #trans #ban me i don't even care #predestrogen #justice for predestrogen

[ghoulpoole]

this is a poem to me