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All Time is All Time...

I don’t need your pitty or meaningless words. Don’t tell me you’re proud of me but go talk about me behind my back. What I need is you to be open minded, understanding, and accepting. The world isn’t black and white and no one can prepare you for what’s out there. I’ve seen horrible things and done horrible things and horrible things have happened to me that have changed my life. I’m not the same person anymore. I move the way I do now to protect myself. Don’t judge me by the way I look and the way I act. I look normal but there’s more to me than what you see in the pictures I let you see. What I say has meaning and I have learned to act a certain way to protect myself. Listen to my words. Let them sink in deep into your soul and let yourself feel the pain and sadness in them so that you might understand a portion of what I feel. Then after you’ve felt that little bit of pain and found some understanding snap back into the present and go out into the world and spread love and compassion and positivity. It’s hard isn’t it? Imagine having felt the full force of that pain and sadness and still going out truly only wanting to help others and show everyone love and compassion and that there is hope. I do this every day. I choose to look for the good in the bad. If I spent every moment thinking about all the bad in this world I wouldn’t be able to live fully and enjoy life. You can’t change the world but you can change yourself and your mindset. Choose happiness and positivity and fill your life with it and live life to the fullest.

All time is all time. It does not change. It does not lend itself to warnings or explanations. It simply is. Take it moment by moment by moment, and you will find that we are all, as I’ve said before, bugs in amber.

~ Kurt Vonnegut ~ Slaughterhouse Five

#life qoute #kurt vonnegut #slaughterhouse five #quote

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Don’t Let Life Get You Down

I have learned that I will not encounter any problem or struggle the Lord has not equipped me to handle. Listen to the Lord and have faith in Him. Let His will be done not mine or anyone else’s. God has given me trials, all of which can be overcome, to test my faith and help me grow closer to Him. Life isn’t going to be fair, but good and bad things happen to everyone and in different ways to each person. Wherever we go in life it is God’s will, and we have to accept that and understand that he does what is best for us. In the end, I think those of us who face seemingly impossible challenges and obstacles in life live the most. We get the chance to grow and learn from our mistakes and to strengthen ourselves with the knowledge that we gain from overcoming our challenges. I have found that my biggest blessings come after I have overcome some obstacle in life and realize how thankful I am for the family and friends I have and become more appreciative for what I have. Where there is sun, there is rain. Where there is light, there is dark. Where there is good, there is evil. I learned to not let the bad outweigh the good. Do not let the bad things in the world trouble you. Focus on the good in everything. Let go and let God. Sure, there will be bad days, but there will also be your fair share of good days. You were put on this earth for a reason. Maybe my existence makes a difference in the world, maybe not. But I know that my life is worth something, and my existence has affected someone in some way. Even God, who has to take care of and watch over everyone, has time to know my every movement, thought, and breath. He knows the number of hairs on my head and the moment I will cease to exist in this world. Just have fun and hope in the future. Life on earth may not be all that great, but we can learn to look on the bright side. God will never leave our sides. With Him, anything is possible. Be kind, love unconditionally, do good, and trust in the Lord. In the end, the only thing that will matter is how we lived. When I take my last breath, I want to know that I did my best and helped spread love and kindness. I want to be able to know in my heart that I did good, not evil.

#spread love #be kind #youareworthy #life qoute

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The first and final thing you have to do in this world is to last it and not be smashed by it.

~ Ernest Hemingway

#quote #life quotes #ernest hemingway

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For then you shall forget your misery, like water that has ebbed away you shall regard it. Then your life shall be brighter than the noonday; its gloom shall become like the morning, and you shall be secure, because there is hope; you shall look round you and lie down in safety; you shall lie down and no one will disturb you. Many shall entreat your favor, but the wicked, looking on, shall be consumed with envy. Escape shall be cut off from them, their only hope their last breath.

~ Job 11:16-20

#biblequotes #hope

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In this you rejoice,

although now for a little while you may have to suffer through various trials, so that the genuineness of your faith, more precious than gold that is perishable though tested by fire, may prove to be for praise, glory, and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ.

~ 1 Peter 1:6-7

#biblequotes

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i hardened under that last loss.it took something human out of me.i used to be so deeply emotional i’d crumble on demand. but now the water has made its exit. of course i care about the ones around me. i’m just struggling to show it. a wall is getting in the way. i used to dream of being so strong nothing could shake me. now. i am. so strong. that nothing shakes me. and all i dream is to soften. 

~numbness Rupi Kaur ~ The Sun and Her Flowers

#the sun and her flowers #rupi kuar #quote

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I am a Survivor

Learning to love is not easy. It takes great courage to trust someone with your heart. The hardest thing I’ve learned about love, is that in order to open your heart and love someone else you first have to love yourself. You have to have respect for yourself and love who you are and know what you want, because there are many people in this world who prey on the vulnerable broken souls for their own gain and to feed their egos. These people end up doing more harm to their victims and eventually break them down to nothing but brain washed servants. I should know how the cycle of abuse works, I’ve been stuck in it for almost three years with the same abuser. It is not easy to break this cycle and leave. I have tried many times, and my abuser always managed to get back in my life. I have dropped charges and no contact orders against him many times, because I thought we were in love. People who have never experienced this abuse don’t understand that leaving isn’t as simple as just walking away for those of us who are being abused. Our abusers have a power over us and have made us believe that they are the only ones who love us and care about us. They isolate us from our friends and family, and hurt us if we speak to them. My abuser took away my phone and gave me one he bought to further keep me from talking to people. I was always scared to make him mad or argue with him. I always felt like I was walking on eggshells. If I didn’t want to have sex, he made me still have sex with him because I was too afraid to make him mad. I constantly had to feed his ego, while he continued to break me down. Now I have to rebuild my self and get back control of my life. I have to learn how to love myself again. Because of everything I've been through, I have come to realize that I am so strong that not even the devil himself could break me!

#domestic violence #survivor

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if you have ever suffered from…

• depression

• anxiety

• eating disorder

• self-harm

• ocd

• bipolar

• feelings of guilt and hopelessness

• suicidal thoughts

can you please reblog to show support for people who also suffer.

you are not alone.

#mental health #depression #anxitey #abuse #addiction #emotional abuse #bipolor

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“There are friends who bring ruin, but there are true friends more loyal than a brother.”

- Proverbs 18:24

#bible quotes #true friends #loyalty

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I Just Need Time

-Something I wrote a while back while struggling with relapse and being accepted

I feel like it’s never ending. I fight the urge until it consumes me and I give in. This is the last time I tell myself. I have finally come to the realization that I am an addict. I can’t help it. If you knew what it feels like to get high when being sober you’re so low it’s hard to even smile. When I’m high my anxiety fades, the depression is gone, I can enjoy life and truly experience it. When I drink I can let loose and be the fun me. When I’m not high people are always asking me what’s wrong and why I’m so down. My anxiety has me in panic mode 24/7 it seems. I’m too busy thinking about all my worries to enjoy the life going on around me and embrace it. Life seems so much easier and I can think clearer when I’m high. I know it’s wrong and I’m killing myself and hurting my family in a way, but how can I be expected to just say no and stop? How can I be asked to check myself into rehab when I know it won’t work. The trauma help centers and rehab centers have spit me out feeling like I’m a lost cause. This is my way of coping. Everyone has their own way. Maybe my way isn’t the best, but nobody but me can decide that I need to stop. Even if it does kill me, I have realized that sober me would kill herself sooner. Maybe the drugs aren’t my problem. Maybe it’s the people stressing me out and pushing me to the point where I feel like I need to get high just to deal with them and the rest of my problems. Pushing me to do things I’m not ready to do and trying to stop me only pushes me in the wrong direction. Supporting me and sticking by me and accepting my decisions whether you like them or not is the only way for me to let you in and tell you why I do what I do. When I let you in then you have a chance to positively affect my life and maybe help me change. As of right now, I feel like a lost cause with almost no support and no one to accept me the way I really am. Because of this I have put up walls and chosen to hide who I really am. I feel like no one wants the real me. If you knew what goes through my mind and what I deal with every day you’d understand why I chose to get high and drink. You’d agree that the sober, depressed me isn’t any fun to be around. I’m not ready to quit and your opinion doesn’t matter, because if I’m not ready and willing to quit then I won’t. I’ll just hide the fact that I’m using from you. I’ll lie to you and tell you I’m fine and sober. So do you want me to let you in and tell you the truth about what I’m doing and dealing with, or do you want me to sit there and lie to you and tell you I’m getting better? It’s up to you how I show myself to you. It’s easier if you just accept me and wait for me to decide on my own when to quit rather than spend a ton of energy making up lies and stories to get you off my back and to get you to stop forcing me to do something I’m not willing or ready to do.

-How it feels to be pushed and forced to do something you’re not ready to do. It will only end in relapse. Learn to accept others for who they are and understand they’re struggling more than you could ever know.

#addiction #drug addiction #mental health #depression #anxitey #trauma

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“Everybody has a dark side. I feel embarrassed when they see mine.”

-NF, Let Me Go

#nf music #mental health #depression #addiction

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On a good day enjoy good things, and on an evil day consider: Both the one and the other God has made, so that no one may find the least fault with Him.

-Ecclesiastes 7:14

#bible quotes #enjoyinglife #ecclesiastes #good day #bad day #good and bad

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We are not perfect. There will always be room for growth.

#narcotics anonymous #addiction #growth

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To be truly humble is to accept and honesty try to be ourselves.

#narcotics anonymous #addiction #humble #accept yourself

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We are not going to be perfect. If we were perfect, we would not be human. The important thing is that we do our best.

#nobody is perfect #we are human #do your best #narcotics anonymous #drug addiction #addiction

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Being human we will wander off course.

#only human #mistakes #narcotics anonymous #addiction

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We can no longer blame people, places, and things for our addiction.

We must face our problems and our feelings.

#narcotics anonymous #addiction #drug addiction