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Mom how I wish I could tell you the news

Don’t worry I’m doing okay

I left home to find my own

I think you’d be happy to know

I’m still writing and singing songs

Mom I wish I could tell you the news

I never knew it could feel this way

I’ve met someone he’s got sweet eyes

He opens doors, pulls out my seat

and don’t make me cry all damn day

He’s not where I’m from but mom

I swear to you for me he is home.

I wish you knew I like him a lot

And I know you would too

It’s crazy I know but we even went and got ourselves matching tattoos

He’s got a smile that makes me forget

All the shit I’ve been through

And I just wish he had been given the chance to meet you

Mom how I wish I could tell you the news

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Shelves covered in dust

Hearts ripped out and left to rust

Nowhere to go but home

But I left home long ago

Now the road is all I know

Steel and iron

Hearts grown tired

The rust has remained

Leaving scars on the surface

Love turned to dust, rusted heart

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You’re the turning of the page, you’re the final chapter, you’re the chorus in every song.

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I’d always say to make sure not to fall sleep mad at night but what does it matter anyway? Every time I’m anything other than happy or pleasant, you just walk away.

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If you can’t stay by my side through my bad days, what makes you think you should be there on my good ones?

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I’ve never wanted to taste anything more than you when the sweat glistens in the sunlight running down your perfect skin.

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hey man I discovered your body out in the mountains a couple days ago. just thought id give a heads up

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pansies love being photographed

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I knew of love, but it wasn’t until I met you that I got to know love.

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I really hate myself right now.

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Living in the memory of her -

I’m unsure of whether or not that will ever change but I hope for the day that it does because I am tired of walking in a shadow that is not my own.

I’m worried that the things that broke him will forever hold him and no amount of love I give will mend the broken pieces; the broken pieces that I thought fit with mine so easily it could possibly make us whole.

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