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me every day without fail: I'll do [chore] when I get home

me when I get home:

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Unexpected House fandom moment in the middle of my eternal battle with blue book citation. Chase is surprisingly with it on prisoner's rights.

#house md #hatecrimes md #robert chase

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I have negative four executive functioning, two large assignments, and it's laundry day. So I'm wearing a weirdly fancy dress to class and everyone else will deal with it.

#college #student #student life #autism #executive dysfunction

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reblog to give the person you reblogged this from a fucking break

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God, I loooooooved doing this challenge with them. Cabenson✨

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When you see it, REBLOG IT.

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Saw a story of a rabbi talking to students and was reminded of when my old rabbi visited my Hebrew School class. Everyone else had very normal elementary schooler questions, such as "what do rabbis eat?"

However.

My father is an atheist, and had been talking to the rabbi for a while about his place within Judaism when he didn't believe in God. So he decided he would play a little prank on the rabbi. And I was the medium of said prank.

So he asked me casually after dinner, "If we're supposed to believe in miracles, why did God not use a miracle to stop the Holocaust? And if miracles aren't real and we all just have free will, how are we supposed to believe in Torah stories like Passover?" And 5th grader me thought this was a very good question (it is), and I was like "I'm going to ask the rabbi when he visits" and my dad was like "aha the next phase of the pla--I mean, good idea sweetie."

So the rabbi is listening to the normal elementary school questions "why do we have a whole holiday for trees?" "why is pork not good for us to eat?" etc and then....

"If we're supposed to believe in miracles, why did God not use a miracle to stop the Holocaust? And if miracles aren't real and we all just have free will, how are we supposed to believe in Torah stories like Passover?"

The rabbi took like a full minute to respond and was like "I---uh---it's an ongoing question in Judaism." Then he left pretty quickly (I never got an answer to my question bc I don't think there really is one).

My teacher told me I was thinking very deeply about Judaism, I was very proud, and I imagine my dad laughed his ass off.

#judaism #hebrew school #elementary school #pranks

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One time my rabbi told us, “imagine you had a box with a little bit of god in it. What would you do with the box?”

So we were like ?? “We’d protect it and keep it nice and clean and polished” and he was like “your body’s that box. Stop eating markers”

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Anyway my School for Good and Evil thoughts I will publish so far that do not require several paragraphs of explanation I think (though I certainly could provide if questioned)

Lady Lesso is the best I love her so much she is my favorite and was one of my first full-blown character hyperfixations so she holds a special place in my heart forever and ever she can do no wrong please ignore the atrocities

Clarissa Dovey, for at least 30 years, enforced a school policy that systematically destroyed all queer students who could present as cishet. This is never acknowledged in the same way Lady Lesso's Evil tendencies are and she never wrestles with it, and she stands by it until she dies. She can therefore kick rocks and does not deserve Lady Lesso.

Despite its many, many, many, many issues , this is a superior magic school for AUs because 1) way higher intrinsic stakes (no need to make up new scary monsters or evil overlords when the system is this scary and fucked up) than certain book series that shall not be named, and 2) it is not created by an evil transphobe who uses the proceeds from her work to fund hate movements. I hope to prove the valor of SGE AUs forthwith.

Someone needs to tell this author that fatphobia is bad actually.

This magic system makes no sense.

A pen is probably not God (though I don't remember the end of the sixth book so maybe it is idk) [and yes non SGE knowing followers: "is this pen literally a Christian-style omnipotent God" is a very serious philosophical mystery in the books, I really love this series sometimes]

This series is especially ideal for a House MD AU because of the sheer level of chaos it can reach in any given chapter. The "Is a pen God?" thing is in fact representative of the kind of nonsense that happens. Really the only two pieces of media I am very confident I could describe the chaos of and then be certain that someone who consumes the media based on that description would not be disappointed are SGE and House MD.

#school for good and evil #lady lesso #clarissa dovey #clarissa dovey is terrible and i will die on this hill #I used that tag years ago and it still shows up for me so that's cool #leonora lesso #house md

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Returning to the School for Good and Evil books to do a full reread via audiobook. On book two. This series is just as strange and problematic as I remember (good to know some things never change) but now I have Many Thoughts and am debating whether I should post them. Two reasons to not are: whenever I go to post analysis it always ends up like twenty paragraphs long, and that most of it is critical, and I don't want to hate on something people like (though some of it is I think important notes about how it propagates fatphobia and ableism at the very least) (let's just say the movie's choice to show Sophie's "ugly side" by prominently enlarging her nose was not against the spirit of the books) (but hey foolish of me to think we could have a magic school book series without antisemitism)

#school for good and evil

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Tw child abuse

"As we all know, boys respond best to beatings and the withholding of food."

---Evelyn Sader, School for Good and Evil book 2, having apparently graduated the John House School of Parenting

#school for good and evil #evelyn sader #a world without princes #house md #john house #tw child abuse #why yes I am relistening to the School for Good and Evil audiobooks #I have to to prepare for this AU I'm going to write #And also because I haven't done a full reread/listen in years and wanted to see if it's as batshit and problematic as I remember #Which yes it is #But that kind of makes it fun if you don't take it at face value #(Kind of like House MD but with much less actual purpose on the author's end) #I just got to that quote in the audiobook and I was immediately like “John House” #This blend of hyperfixations will produce a very good AU I am confident #Once every so often I return to the world of SGE and am like “...what is going on there” #And then “what a fascinating dystopia I must use it to put blorbo in situations” #And so here we are with AU planning almost complete and awaiting final peer review

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Okay here goes nothing. I usually listen to the same albums or songs over and over again, and have a limited range of artists as a result (I don't usually go exploring for new things). Yes I am aware some of my artist selections are extremely angsty teen girl but 1) that's what I was when I was forming the foundation of my music taste that I have rarely strayed from since, and 2) there's nothing inherently wrong with that.

Time to tag people! @esmeraldablazingsky, @gean-grey-blog, and @clowngender, feel free to try this if you want!

I Follow Rivers- Lykke Li

Ride- Lana del Rey

Everybody Wants to Rule the World- Tears for Fears

Never is a Promise- Fiona Apple

Edge of Seventeen- Stevie Nicks

Shake It Out- Florence + the Machine

Periphery- Fiona Apple

River Lea- Adele

It's Not Safe - Aimee Mann

Numb- MARINA

Girls Against God- Florence + the Machine

doing that trend where u name a song for every letter of ur url except i wasn't tagged and one just popped up on my dashboard and i rlly wanna do it

D- dog days are over by florence + the machine

E- egg and soldiers by cosmo sheldrake

A- abbey by mitski

D-daylight by david kushner

C- come along by cosmo sheldrake

R- revolution by the score

O- only ones who know by arctic monkeys

W- weapon of god by the taxpayers

C- cold cold cold by cage the elephant

A- au revoir (adios) by the front bottoms

L- lonely eyes by the front bottoms

L- lipstick covered magnet by the front bottoms

I- is this it by the strokes

N- no surprises by radiohead

G- ginger by the front bottoms

tagging mutuals (lmk if u don't wanna be tagged in this kinda stuff) @syntax-error15 @neil-kinnie @i-am-in-love-with-todd-anderson @desire-mona @askthedeadpoetssociety @flaming-green @amorisastrum

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Hey. Hey you. The person aimlessly scrolling, stuck in an immobilized standoff with your brain

It's not your fault. You won't be stuck forever. I know you're trying. I know you hate it. It's ok.

And tell the Mean Voice in your head that it's not helping. It knows as well as you do that you would get up and Just Start the task if you could. You're not doing this on purpose.

Take a deep breath. Relax your jaw. I see you trying so hard to break out of it, but you can't force it. You'll get Unstuck eventually. All you can do in the interim is be kind to yourself.

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Choose your figther. I'll disclose what the fight is when the poll ends.

#choosing wilson #because he's so unpredictable and batshit that he can pretty much show up in any situation

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I wish i didnt have opinions about House M.D. and the characters and their arcs. But i do. I have a lot of them.

Anyway, it does actually make sense for Chase to turn into House and Foreman to turn into Cuddy/Wilson and explore the homoerotic subtext between them. In this essay, I will

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New fic published which means yay feelings of accomplishment, but also anxiety that when I respond to comments and people see that I reply with similar starts and think I'm just going through the motions. I promise that it really is just my autistic ass having no idea how to express the exact magnitude of gratitude I feel. Each comment really does mean something individual and makes my day better/helps me to write in its own way.

#fanfiction #archive of our own #autism #I really am so grateful for each comment I receive I just am bad at translating the feeling into a reply #And then I feel guilty

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House M.D. Fanfiction: "Replication" (House/Wilson)

My bird is home from the animal hospital, so readers can thank her presence for finally making me able to finish this fic! Readers can also thank a no good, horrible, very bad week for providing with Motivating Spite. Anyway, here is the high school reunion fic!

I had to reorder the series because this is set before the cancer fix-it fic, so if you see a next work button, that's for a previously published fic.

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Fic summary:

Wilson was a happy kid, and then he went to high school.

Wilson is now finally happy again, and yet here he is, bent on returning to his high school.

But at least this time he has House with him. Maybe that will be enough to salvage this. Maybe he can even eke out some peace.

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Thank you so much for reading!!! And please heed the tags for trigger warnings.

#house md #hatecrimes md #fanfiction #gregory house #james wilson #hilson #angst #hurt/comfort