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Urge to tweet in lyrics only has intensified again so here is my monthly "why can't I just return to Tumblr"

#about a girl

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So what's the big deal with MIDST? Of all the islets of the Fold, why is our doomed spinning sphere so interesting to the powers that be? 🌕🌊

Let our excellent Junior Lore Keeper Keeper Jared Deiro be your guide in his latest explainer straight from the Cosmos! 🧡

#this is my favorite podcast y'all #midst podcast #midst

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Philosophize

The urge to return to Tumblr to rant and rave in poetic vagueness

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The urge to return to Tumblr to rant and rave in poetic vagueness

#about a girl

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I didn't log in for a month wdym I didn't miss anything

#are you even functional

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HYUNA Attitude, 2023

#hyuna

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I wanna make a music blog

#about a girl #girl I forgot my new tag for my posts so we're using the old standby

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#thank you Tumblr for recommending this post

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Happy 2024!

Good things I have already done and it is 1:37 AM:

Played Uno with family

Ate a brownie

Listened to music

By 2:42 am:

Showered and washed my hair

Briefly discussed astrology but remembered I haven't studied in a long time 😭

checked in on mobage

Other good things I did on this day:

woke up with no alarm!

Dressed

Ate happily

Drank tea

Drank coffee

Was with family

Played some games !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Worked successfully and without stress

Began to do a tarot reading for a long-time client <3

Took care of myself as best I could

Watched wrestling

I saw someone say you should do the things you enjoy doing on the first day of a new year to manifest doing that for the rest of the year...

Anyway... success!

#I'm a bloggin' girl ✨ #i'm gonna add to this #happy new year

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having a ponder about being aromantic and the kinds of friendships or qprs I might want to have

#ohhhhhhhhhhhh I love this so much #love

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the commodification of friendship is the most annoying thing to come out of the internet in ages. like actually i love to break this to you but you're supposed to help your friends move even if it's hard work. or stay up with them when they're sad even if you're gonna lose sleep. you're supposed to listen to their fears and sorrows even if it means your own mind takes on a little bit of that weight. that's how you know that you care. they will drive you to the airport and then you will make them soup when they're sick. you're supposed to make small sacrifices for them and they are supposed to do that for you. and there's actually gonna be rough patches for both of you where the balance will be uneven and you will still be friends and it will not be unhealthy and they will not be abusive. life is not meant to be an endless prioritization of our own comfort if it was we would literally never get anywhere ever. jesus.

#friendship

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Bells Hells as textposts 3/???

#critical role

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[Dance Video] Dreamcatcher(드림캐쳐) 'Shatter'

#IT'S NOT RECENCY BIAS THIS IS ABSOLUTLEY MY NEW FAVORITE DEUKAE SONG #Dreamcatcher #Deukae #Shatter #BANG IT ON ME BANG IT ON ME SHATTER #BANG IT BANG IT BANG IT BANG #youtube

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I STILL THINK THIS WILL BE A GREAT IDEA I JUST HAVEN'T GOTTEN MYSELF TO FEEL COMFORTABLE ENOUGH DOING IT YET

I have an idea on how to trick myself into fitting gaming into my schedule hold on let me articulate my thoughts

#justine's brain please come home your games miss you

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me being an insane enough person to want to ask my friends to tw their gym posts vs me being sane enough to recognize sane people don't need that (and I won't bring it up) (mostly because it requires a follow-up and "I'm jealous I can't work out like that but I had to stop because it was hindering my ed recovery" is not something I want to be saying still SEVEN YEARS INTO THE RECOVERY)

#i really will be in ed recovery the rest of my life huh that's so sad #lmaoooo

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add this to the list of Mamamoo pics I am obsessed with

#2018 #mamamoo #ot4 #loml

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Okay so like... it is so hard for me to fit gaming into my schedule because even with a chaotic family life, I really should have a few hours a day to play!

But I have severe unmedicated ADHD so...

So my usual issue is "I can't do anything because I have work to do" but I also spend a lot of time in executive dysfunction and ADHD paralysis which means I will sometimes do nothing, not even work, even though that's all I can think about, until I absolutely have to work and I panic that I'm running out of time….

So that's a whole lot of nothing - or a whole lot of doom scrolling, getting sucked into a youtube rabbit hole, etc

So what if, instead of getting stuck opening and closing apps for no reason, I just start playing a game !!!! Like... what if I make it so that the reason I run out of time is not because I sat in a state of dissociation and ADHD paralysis but because of gaming!!!

Right like I should just start playing a game and then after a few hours I say "oh shit I need to work!!" - WHICH IS SOMETHING I WOULD SAY ANYWAY, whether I have been playing a game or not! So I feel like I might as well get some game time in if I'm gonna be panic working at the last minute *anyway*

I have an idea on how to trick myself into fitting gaming into my schedule hold on let me articulate my thoughts

#it feels kinda too genius like I think it might not work #gotta outsmart the adhd though #like I have to win the race !!!!!!! #does this post count as a blog #it's just crazy talk really but hey it works if you work it #i'm a bloggin' girl ✨