lostxnyou

[lostxnyou]

I feel so lonely

#eating disoder things #eating dis0rder #clean eating #it's not as simple as just eating #not pr0 anything #ed vent #counting calories #calories #low cal ed #tw ed shit

[lostxnyou]

Why do calories have to make you gain weight? Can’t they just energize you and that’s it?

#eating disoder things #eating dis0rder #clean eating #it's not as simple as just eating #ed vent #not pr0 anything #calories #counting calories #food log #low cal ed #ed workout #tw ed shit #ed stuff

[lostxnyou]

It makes speaking up so much harder when you see and hear how people you love act and talk behind their back. I don’t want that for myself but I also want to see how life is without mental illness. I can’t even remember anymore lol.

#eating disoder things #clean eating #eating dis0rder #ed vent #not pr0 anything #calories #it's not as simple as just eating #food log #tw depressing thoughts #depressiv

[lostxnyou]

A friend of mine and my mom are writing about me on instagram dm. I told my friend that I’m pretty overwhelmed with everything thats going on rn and what did my friend? They told my mom although I told her that I’m rarely talking about my struggles. My trust issues are greeting…

#eating disoder things #eating dis0rder #anxi4ty #anxious #mentally tired #mental problems #depressiv #l0w c4l #clean eating #it's not as simple as just eating #ed vent

[lostxnyou]

maybe I’m, maybe I’m, maybe I’m the problem.

#eating disoder things #eating dis0rder #it's not as simple as just eating #clean eating #calories #not pr0 anything #ed vent #low cal ed #depressing post #depressiv #tw depressing thoughts

[lostxnyou]

“we fall apart, as it gets dark” - Billie Eilish

#depressing quotes #kinda depressing #depressiv #depressing post

[lostxnyou]

the feeling when meeting people makes you so nervous and anxious… well if you don’t have that, lucky you

#anxious #mental instability #mentally tired #positive mental attitude #mental disorder #mental problems

[lostxnyou]

Just did a 16 h fast🙌🏻

#eating disoder things #eating dis0rder #clean eating #it's not as simple as just eating #not pr0 anything #ed vent #counting calories #low cal ed #calories

[lostxnyou]

“I keep thinking that if i could just unzip my skin, step out of this body, then I would see who I really am.” -wintergirls

#wintergirls #eating disoder things #clean eating #eating dis0rder #it's not as simple as just eating #not pr0 anything #ed vent #counting calories #calories #ed workout

[lostxnyou]

I crave that state of feeling not hungry anymore although I knew it wasn’t normal or good for me when I had it…

#eating disoder things #clean eating #it's not as simple as just eating #not pr0 anything #ed vent #calories #counting calories #low cal ed #food log #eating dis0rder

[lostxnyou]

The other day I went out for lunch with my family which stressed me out. I went to the bathroom after we ordered and there was on of those signs which explain one certain word. It said: „calories; tiny creatures that live in your closet and see your clothes a little bit tighter every night.“ why the hell would you put up a sign like that???

#eating disoder things #clean eating #it's not as simple as just eating #ed vent #eating dis0rder #counting calories #calories #not pr0 anything #low cal ed

[lostxnyou]

Recently I feel soo extremely emotional, even more than normally. I was accused to have done something wrong I actually wasn’t involved in. Then I felt so sad and weird that I wanted to skip lunch as well (I skipped breakfast). I ended up eating salad and as soon as I came into the room where a bunch of my co-workers were sitting, they asked if I was cold because I wore a jacket and everyone else wore tshirts. It’s a normal question and I immediately feel accused, what’s wrong?

#eating disoder things #clean eating #it's not as simple as just eating #eating dis0rder #ed vent #calories #counting calories #not pr0 anything #low cal ed

[lostxnyou]

Do you guys have a clean meal plan? Or what’s your go to food you don’t feel that anxious about?

#eating disoder things #eating dis0rder #clean eating #it's not as simple as just eating #ed vent #calories #counting calories #food log #low cal ed

[lostxnyou]

Is there any gc where you chat and support each other? No pro ana but at least you don’t have to go through this shit alone. Would love to be in one! Let me know!

#eating disoder things #clean eating #eating dis0rder #it's not as simple as just eating #ed vent #not pr0 anything #counting calories #calories

[lostxnyou]

I just had to eat a whole pizza. You ask why I had to? Well, so that my dad won’t yell about how complicated our family would be. I‘m sick of being the one who has to do everything to avoid all of that although in the end I’m the one who feels so freaking out of control.

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[lostxnyou]

thoughts are back. one part of me me tells me I got back some control, the other part is scared and recognizes my mood swings again. The thing ist I know it‘s not right but I just can’t stop. well, bad habits✌🏻

#eating disoder things #it's not as simple as just eating #clean eating #not pr0 anything #ed vent #calories #counting calories #eating dis0rder #tw ana thoughts

[lostxnyou]

need to work on my flappy legs

#eating disoder things #eating dis0rder #ed workout #ed stuff #daily workout #tw vent