I love Sora SOOOOO MUCH, that finally we're turning her alive in this world! Rn I'm working on wings, but now I wanna show you the process! I love it!!! Can't wait to perform with her this April!!
I'm still trying to get back into normal drawing, durtying the paper... But tonight I really wanted to sketch Piko, as he's my light for 13 years already...
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Down here I want to write some thought and things, why rn I'm so thankful to Piko and how his music still helps me 🤧
It's like I wanna start with the fact, that it's around a year since I got tuberculosis.. (according to doctors)
Since October I started my treatment and it's difficult, I had another surgery and I hope to get back to normal life by June, but there are no any forecasts for now(
It's a difficult thing to live with, but because of stereotypes, discrimination and you're alone against the world 🫠 for real, I can say that the pressure is hard and you have to keep struggling and fighting just to be part of society..
And here is the thing that only one thing can make me happy and calm - listening to music, Piko's music! I remember the day Piko and Sekihan performed together, I was preparing for new analyses at the hospital and I started to cry, cry hard, feeling if I'm the happiest person in the world! For the first time in few months I felt the will to fight, I was feeling myself alive... I really don't know, how to describe my emotions, but at very least I was thankful to them! Seeing how they work rn makes me work hard too!
The second thing happened in 2021, it was already hard time for my health, but looking at Piko and his health problems I made myself look forward and be strong! And I got a thing to be strong! Once in my life I got reply from Piko to my question... Idk, I was about to cry, when I saw it... I got advice I use even rn in 2023, leaving one hospital for another. He told me, that you should think about what you'd do, when everythings is over, when you're healthy again... Every day, when I start to feel down again, coz I have pain, problems with ppl, coz some of them does think that I'm not a human anymore, ignor me... I remember these word, I look at that message and start to calm down, get my will to live again... I think there no words to describe, how thankful I am, how just a simple sentence bring me to life again and again...
That was a lot oh my god ahahaha
But, all I want to say, if someone reached this point - stay healthy, take care of your health - it's one and only thing which is important in this life! Remember it!