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One day do you think you'll write about the "Au family Sokai" again? I mean, that would be really cool! (although of course that is if you want it or not) and I really must say that I became very fond of Miyu, Haruto and Emi, I could even sometimes identify with them, and it would also be interesting to know about the new brother or some interest romantic of Miyu 👀 I don't know, but any decision you make will be fine 💗

Awww thank you for asking! I do have a few more story ideas for the AU that I want to write at some point: Keyblade training shenanigans with the kids where Haruto accidentally gets everyone but Kairi turned into a cat, and then a more angsty + fluffy piece involving Sora's Heartless form (since the kids have never seen it before). And then of course I want to do something for the youngest brother ❤️ He has a name, personality, appearance etc. I just want to figure out the perfect intro for him.

I'm really glad you like the kids so much. That's such a huge compliment, and I really appreciate you letting me know ❤️ I had a lot of fun creating them, and it's always fun revisiting the AU!

As for Miyu's romantic interest, I always thought it would be highly amusing if she started crushing on the son of one of Sora and Kairi's friends...who should it be is the question though 🤔 😉

Thank you for the ask!

#answer #miraxelymlb #sokai family au #sokai family

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Touch Cravings Chapter 2

~1320 words. Set post-KH3. Terraqua, Aqua and Ven friendship, and background Sora/Kairi. Grief, Angst, Fluff, Hurt/Comfort, Touch Starvation, Friendship, Romance.

Summary: Aqua is dealing with the effects of her time in the realm of darkness and then the grief of losing Sora. Thankfully, she has Ven and Terra to help her get through this chapter of her life.

Chapter 1 | Chapter 2

(Companion piece to Touch Hunger [Chapter 1 | Chapter 2]).

“Can I come in?” Terra asked. 

Aqua’s face was flushed with embarrassment, but she nodded. She had wanted to see him, after all, even if she would’ve preferred less awkward circumstances. 

Terra had to stoop a little to get through the door. Their rooms were in an old wing of the castle, which meant they were built back when people were shorter, and Terra was not a short man.

Aqua gulped as he drew closer. She was wearing baggy sleeping clothes and didn’t look very put together. Her bed had about five crumpled blankets on it too. These rooms got drafty at night, which was why fireplaces were in each of them. To distract herself, she quickly summoned her Keyblade and mumbled a quick Fire spell under her breath to light the fireplace. Now there was a warm, crackling fire in the corner, and its familiar sounds were relaxing and soothing.

Terra stood awkwardly by her bed. He likewise was dressed more comfortably than his usual attire: simple sweatpants and a t-shirt that still managed to be form-fitting because his muscles made it impossible not to be.

Her face flushed again, but for a much more pleasant reason this time. She patted the spot next to her, and Terra carefully sat down, making the bed creak.

“I’m sorry I’ve been so standoffish lately,” he said. “I’ve been thinking about everything and getting lost in my thoughts. But I want to be here for you and Ven.”

Her lips parted. She still wasn’t used to him being so open and honest. But he and she and Ven had talked about what had driven them apart, and bad communication was at the top of the list. So now they were all trying to get better at good communication. Which meant she should be honest too.

“Thank you,” she said. “I want that too.” 

“To be honest, I don’t really know what to do next,” he admitted. “Being back feels better than I could’ve dreamed. Being myself again, being free of Xehanort for good, being whole…it’s like I’m getting a second chance at life. But with Sora gone, it feels wrong to be happy.”

“I know what you mean. Why are we here when he’s gone? I keep replaying what happened in my mind, over and over again, thinking about what I could’ve done differently.” She smiled bitterly. “Something I’ve always been good at. Ruminating over past mistakes. I don’t need other people to torment and torture me, I do it to myself just fine.”

“You and me both,” Terra said, his head drooping and his voice heavy. “I can’t help but feel like Sora’s death is my fault.”

“I feel the same way. I told Ven earlier that that means we’ll just have to save Sora. But I have no idea how.”

A few long moments of silence passed as Terra searched her face. “We could…we could go to the realm of darkness,” he said at last.

Aqua shuddered. It was a possibility she’d considered. That place had so many ties to death that it would be silly not to at least check. But the thought of returning to that hellish place where she’d been trapped for over a decade? Her stomach roiled at the thought of it.

Playing with one of the blankets on the bed, she said, “I know it isn’t rational, I know you and Ven would be with me, but I…I’m scared of going back. I’m scared of something happening and getting trapped there and winding up alone again.”

For so long she’d been on her own. Going back to that existence was her worst nightmare. She hoped Sora wasn’t alone. She wouldn’t wish the solitude on her worst enemy. It ate you up inside, made you crave something, anything from another living being. A kind word. A gentle touch. After a while she started hearing voices and fantasizing about past touches, hoping they would happen again. Haunted by the ghosts of her own memories. No wonder she’d created a phantom out of her fears.

“You won’t be. I won’t let that happen,” Terra promised, his voice low and determined. The look on his face as the flames from the fireplace flickered across it…she knew he was deadly serious and would keep this promise with his life.

Oh how badly she wanted to touch him. Her hand twitched as she restrained it. She hadn’t realized how much she would miss human touch during her time in the realm of darkness. But after returning, she realized it wasn’t just any touch she craved the most. It was his touch.

“It’s messed up, I know,” she admitted, “but after a while…even a stray Heartless brushing up against me during battle felt good. I sometimes…I sometimes let them, even if it meant I got clawed. Just to feel something.”

He rested his hand over hers, and a pleasurable shudder went through her whole body. She noticed his hand trembling a little too. Maybe he’d been touch starved in his own way too. He’d been in the realm of light, sure, but not as himself. His heart had been trapped inside that guardian, and how often had he really gotten any sort of physical affection?

“Thank you, that feels nice,” she murmured. He tenderly stroked her fingers, and it felt even better.

“You’re not alone, Aqua.” He caressed her arm, and her breath caught. She was no slouch in the physical strength department, but his hand was so much bigger and stronger than hers and yet so gentle.

“I know.”

He cupped her cheek, and now her breathing really was shaky. It felt so good and he was being so bold and everything was overwhelming. But a good kind of overwhelming. So very, very good. She just wasn’t used to touching again yet, especially not like…like this.

He smiled as he caressed her cheek, and she rested a hand over his. She wanted to touch him too. Wanted to give him what they both craved. They weren’t alone anymore, and why not celebrate that fact? If it would help her face her fears and go back to the realm of darkness to search for Sora, then there was nothing wrong with enjoying this closeness with Terra.

No, that wasn’t it either. She wanted to be close to him for the sake of being close to him. Might as well be honest with herself about it.

“Aqua,” he murmured, running a thumb over her lips, and her breath hitched. A part of her felt like this wasn’t real: the look in his eyes, the feel of his hand, the warm fire crackling in the corner. The fact they were in her room, alone, together. That he wanted her and she wanted him and they both craved each other’s touch and company. But it was real. It was real, and she wanted to savor every moment.

He leaned close, and her eyes fluttered shut. His lips brushed against hers, and all the bad memories fighting for her attention melted away. In this moment only the two of them mattered. She wasn’t alone. She was here with him, and in these stolen moments they could make up for lost time.

She wrapped her arms around him as he deepened the kiss, and he did likewise. Embracing at last. Oh, they’d hugged before, but never like this. If she’d been starving for all those years, she was now at a banquet for two and not entirely sure where to begin. But they would figure it out together, she was sure of that.

She’d saved him all those years ago, and now, in his own way, he was saving her. Or maybe it was more accurate to say they were saving each other. Ending the loneliness and solitude and longing for affection that had plagued them both.

Whatever it was, she was glad they had each other.

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A/N: Thank you for reading!

#kingdom hearts #terraqua #terra x aqua #terra/aqua #aqua #terra #kh aqua #kh terra #angst #fluff #hurt/comfort #touch starvation #touch hunger #touch hungry #touch-starved #friendship #romance #kh fanfiction #phoenix writes #phoenix-downer #touch cravings #chapter 2 #long post

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Happy 5 years of Kingdom Hearts 3. ^v^

Here's Sora and Kairi in light form sharing Oathkeeper. ^v^

No matter how far apart I know that they will find each other again.

#kingdom hearts #kh art #sokai #sora #kairi #normaleeinsane

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Based on the manga "Veil" 💗

#kingdom hearts #kh art #sokai #sora #kairi #miraxelymlb

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Sharing the Paopu Fruit in-game and manga - Sokai

#kingdom hearts #kh3 #kingdom hearts 3 #kh manga #sokai #endlessskymaster

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glow

#kingdom hearts #kh art #rikunami #namiku #riku #naminé #jaysosillyart

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Heyy, just wanted to say I appreciate you putting nice interaction between Aqua and Ven in your Touch Craving fic

There's so little Ven to Aqua appreciation because everything is just Terra and Ven. Which is good too but it would be nice to see the lil chocobo pay attention to his blueberry mother once in a while, so thank you!

I couldn't reply or message you so I decided to post here instead.

Thank you, I'm glad you enjoyed their interactions! It was really sweet of you to send in an ask to let me know, too. I honestly really love their friendship and love writing about the two of them supporting each other. It had been a while since I'd done that though, so it was nice to revisit it.

Also I love your nicknames for them, lil chocobo and blueberry mother al;sdkfjdsf those are great nicknames lol.

#aqua #ventus #kh aqua #kh ventus #answer #xekutozoren

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What is your favorite sokai hug and why? (I don't know if anyone else has asked you this but I'm always curious to know the different opinions)

I don't think anyone has asked me this before! Honestly it's so hard to choose because all of them are good a;lksdjf and happen at such important turning points for their relationship.

There's the KH1 hug where Kairi protects him and he regains his humanity and the first thing he does is embrace her and thank her:

Then there's the KH2 hug where he's feeling ashamed because he didn't accomplish what he'd promised, but Kairi doesn't care and gives him a hug anyway, and it takes him by surprise but then he closes his eyes and hugs her closely:

Then there's the KH3 hug which is like a reversal of the KH2 hug where this time he's the one catching her off guard. I also just really love how he's guarding her with his body because it's his last ditch effort to protect her no matter what:

And then this beautiful hug when they're reunited in ReMind and it's just so satisfying to see them embrace after everything he went through to find her:

I think, lining them all up like this, I'd have to pick the KH1 hug and the ReMind hug as my favorites? The moment in KH1 is just so iconic, and I love how he thanks her. And then the ReMind hug is just so beautiful and satisfying, and they're both so happy and content.

I am also really hoping for a beautiful reunion hug for KH4, so fingers crossed on that 🤞 I think I'm gonna be an emotional wreck the moment they reunite.

I'm curious though, what's everyone's favorite SoKai hug?

Thank you for the ask!

#sokai #sora x kairi #sora/kairi #sokai meta #miraxelymlb #answer

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#kingdom hearts #kh art #sokai #sora #kairi #melkymelkii

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Touch Cravings Chapter 1

~1400 words. Set post-KH3. Terraqua, Aqua and Ven friendship, and background Sora/Kairi. Grief, Angst, Fluff, Hurt/Comfort, Touch Starvation, Friendship, Romance.

Summary: Aqua is dealing with the effects of her time in the realm of darkness and then the grief of losing Sora. Thankfully, she has Ven and Terra to help her get through this chapter of her life.

Chapter 1 | Chapter 2

(Companion piece to Touch Hunger [Chapter 1 | Chapter 2]).

The events of the Keyblade Graveyard haunted Aqua. When that Demon Tide had come after them, she had frozen up like a coward. Locked in the past, stuck in a memory. It was like all those Heartless were her phantom selves, taunting her, tormenting her, reminding her of all those years she’d been stuck alone in the realm of darkness and her inability to do anything about it.

They all should’ve died that day, but Sora and Kairi had come to the rescue. Kairi by stubbornly refusing to let go and lighting Sora’s way, and Sora by tracking down every single one of their hearts until he reached her. Together they’d brought everyone back. And then Terra had finally broken free of Xehanort not long after. Hugging him and Ven again had felt so wonderful that the harrowing experiences of that day faded slightly.

Until they’d lost Sora. The price he’d paid to rescue them, to rescue Kairi…to go against what fate had ordained…he’d settled the debt with his own life.

Aqua sighed and curled in on herself. That brave, kind boy, risking everything to save her and Terra and Ven…she sometimes asked herself why he’d done it. She could still see his big bright smile in her mind’s eye, still picture the hand he’d offered to lift her up out of the water, out of the darkness and into the realm of light again. It didn’t feel like he was really gone. It had happened so suddenly. One moment he was sitting on the paopu tree on Destiny Islands, real as can be. The next he’d simply vanished. 

Aqua still couldn’t get Kairi’s cries out of her mind, and it had already been a week. Everyone’s tear-streaked faces would forever be etched in her mind and heart too. Some things you just didn’t forget. 

The other things you did. Time seemed to flow differently, much like in the realm of darkness, and Aqua felt like she was in a strange fog. The days blended into each other, and though Terra and Ven were here, she felt distant from them. They all grieved differently. Ven cried a lot, Terra withdrew, and she ruminated constantly. On and on and on, over and over again, wondering what she could’ve done differently.

There was a knock on her door. She sat up, the blanket falling off of her, the chilly night air making her shiver.

“Come in,” she said, and a moment later, she was greeted by Ven’s hollow expression and red, puffy face.

“Need a hug?” he asked softly. 

“I think you do, Ven,” she said softly, holding her arms out. “And yeah, I think I do too.”

They had an agreement: Ven would give her as many hugs as her heart desired. He’d figured out pretty quickly how starved she was for human contact after all that time spent alone in the realm of darkness.

If only Terra would offer hugs like that. At first he had. At first he’d been overjoyed to be reunited with her and Ven and had given them so many hugs it made her heart sing. But then Sora had disappeared, and she wanted to give him his space as he grieved. For the years lost, for everything he’d been powerless to prevent, for what she and Ven had gone through. For Master Eraqus’s final goodbye. And for Sora’s cruel fate.

The three of them had already made plans to search for Sora, but picking up the pieces was still tough. So she gave Ven a hug, and the ache in her heart and the years of loneliness faded a little. No matter how many affectionate touches she got from friends, it felt like she was still paying back a debt to herself she hadn’t realized she’d owed.

She wondered if she’d ever feel “normal” about touch again.

“I can’t sleep,” Ven admitted. The dark circles under his eyes were proof enough, but she was glad he was being honest with her. Irony of ironies that the boy who had spent so much of his life in slumber was now struggling to sleep.

“I’ve heard it’s common to either not be able to sleep or to sleep too much when you’re grieving,” she said, gently ruffling his hair.

“I wish I got the sleeping too much version of this grieving stuff then,” he muttered. “Then I could escape in my dreams for a little while at least.” 

“My dreams aren’t much better,” she told him sadly. “And then I wake up and I remember all over again that Sora’s gone. It’s like waking up in a world I don’t want to be in.”

Master Eraqus’s passing was heartbreaking, but he’d lived a good, full life, and Aqua had had a decade to come to terms with it. She’d gotten to say goodbye, too. But Sora? There was nothing she could rationalize about his disappearance. There was no closure. He was young and had had his life cut short due to the machinations of a cruel, selfish old man.

“Yeah, me too,” Ven said. “He saved us all. But at what cost?” He pulled away a little to search her face, as if she might have the answers. But she didn’t have the answers. How did you bring someone back who hadn’t died a normal death but had been completely banished from this entire realm?

“We’ll just have to save him too,” she told Ven, because it was the right thing to tell him. “That’s how we’ll make it up to him.”

She didn’t see how else they could do it. Maybe the collective strength of their hearts would be enough to save him. His heart had been enough to save all of them, after all. Granted, that heart was strengthened by all the connections he’d made, but she and Terra and Ven and all his other friends were those connections. They were his living, breathing legacy. Surely that counted for something.

“Yeah,” Ven replied. “It’s the least we can do.”

She and Ven comforted each other for a while after that, talking about what had happened and where they might find Sora. Ven went to bed a few hours later, exhausted at long last, and she couldn’t help the queasy, panicked feeling that rose in her gut as he closed the door behind him. 

Alone. She’d spent so much time alone. Terra and Ven’s backs were always to her. They were always walking away, always leaving her behind. She could reach and reach for them all she wanted, but they wouldn’t turn around and grab her hand. The one person who had grabbed her hand and pulled her out of the darkness was gone. He was in a pit of despair of his own now that no one could reach. Their savior needed saving, and she could only imagine how scared and lonely he must be. Cut off from everyone and everything he knew and loved.

She couldn’t help herself. Hot tears stung her eyes and wove sticky trails down her cheeks. For Sora and for herself. Sora deserved all her tears, but crying for herself was completely selfish. Irrational. The more she thought about it, the more frustrated she got with herself. Why was she crying? Terra and Ven were still here in the castle with her. They hadn’t left her behind and hadn’t willingly abandoned her to the realm of darkness for all those years. And yet she couldn’t help but feel completely and utterly isolated and alone.

“Stop that, Aqua,” she muttered, scolding herself. “You’re not alone. You’re back here in the realm of light with your friends. Sora’s the one you should be crying for, not you. You don’t deserve any tears. If you hadn’t frozen up in the Keyblade Graveyard, Sora wouldn’t have had to rescue everyone, and if he hadn’t had to rescue everyone, then saving Kairi later on wouldn’t have killed him.” She scowled angrily at the teddy bear holding a red heart that Terra had gotten her to make up for being such a downer about her Keyblade Master ceremony.

“Some Keyblade Master I am,” she told it. “I’m nothing but a failure. A weakling.”

“I disagree,” came a soft, low voice from the direction of the doorway. She squeaked and dropped the teddy bear. Ven must not have closed the door all the way, because she could make out someone else standing in the doorway.

“Terra?”

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A/N: I posted Touch Hunger a little over two years ago, and at the time a guest commenter said I should write a companion touch starvation fic about Aqua. Well, that stayed in my head ever since, and I finally found the time and spurt of inspiration to write it. The next chapter will be posted next Friday. Thank you for reading, and I hope you enjoyed!

#kingdom hearts #terraqua #terra x aqua #terra/aqua #aqua #terra #ventus #ven #kh aqua #kh terra #kh ventus #angst #fluff #hurt/comfort #touch starvation #touch hunger #touch hungry #touch-starved #friendship #romance #kh fanfiction #phoenix writes #phoenix-downer #touch cravings #chapter 1 #long post

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✨Happy Valentine’s Day from Naminé’s sketchbook journal 💕

#kingdom hearts #kh art #sokai #sora #kairi #rikunami #namiku #starfiresky #happy valentine's day

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Happy Valentines Day! 💝✨

#kingdom hearts #kh art #sokai #sora #kairi #lightwithinthedarknessu #happy valentine's day

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𝕊𝕠𝕂𝕒𝕚 🐚💘

I'm making a Valentine themed profile row on IG and I included this art trade made with @/paopuandseasalt 🥺 She asked me to draw Sora and Kairi, giving me freedom on their outfits, and in the end it turned out like a Valentine themed art to be posted for the event 💜

I love Sokai to the bone 🌸

#kingdom hearts #kh art #sokai #sora #kairi #tambermizukiart #happy valentine's day

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My gift for @mageofspace924 !!! Happy Valentines Day girl, I love you!!!! <3

Guess who's back it again with canon embellishment + canon divergence :DDDD

#kingdom hearts #kh fanfiction #rokunami #roxas #naminé #aquariusshadow #happy valentine's day

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happy valentines @aquariusshadow !! ilysm ❤️

for the rokunami server valentines exchange! we need more soft intimate rokunami ✨

#kingdom hearts #kh art #rokunami #roxas #naminé #mageofspace924 #happy valentine's day

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Happy Valentines Day everyone!!! Here’s rokunami being cute and playful to celebrate the day! ❤️

instagram post here

#kingdom hearts #kh art #rokunami #roxas #naminé #aquariusshadow #happy valentine's day

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♡Happy Valentine's Day! ♡(*^^*)♡

#kingdom hearts #kh art #sokai #sora #kairi #kh comic #tamtam88