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03/27/2024 2:45 AM PHT

It’s been a while on my consistently inconsistent blog hiatus. A year has passed and I’ve got a lot of story to tell. I’ve grown a lot again, but some things just really stick by.

It’s been two months, since my twitter got hacked so better to stick with the OG then.

I hope all of you are doing well and living your life meaningfully by your own standards.

#personal #back at it again

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Self improvement is great but ultimately? you have to accept your self. Yes you can eat better, exercise more, read more, set boundaries, love your self, but it all comes down to this. Some days you won’t have the energy to do any of these things. And you’ll look in the mirror and think that this is not enough. That’s a lie. The biggest love for self is to live slowly. To rest. To really rest. Have a nap. Eat what makes you feel good. Read if you want to. Embrace yourself and accept that you cannot and will not be ever be perfect. Accept that you are good enough. You don’t need to keep busy all the time. you don’t need to go out all the time and post on instagram. You don’t need to journal if you don’t want to. You don’t need to make art if you don’t want to. Breathe, give yourself grace and compassion. Give yourself the love and tenderness you so badly need. Be gentle with yourself. You are trying and it is good enough. You are good enough.

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07/30/2023

Never too late to join the gen z’s aesthetic photography take. I like how visually creative these kind of photos are. The so-called lowkey photos. It’s really cute.

#personal #life update

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“I’m beginning to recognise that real happiness isn’t something large and looming on the horizon ahead but something small, numerous and already here. The smile of someone you love. A decent breakfast. The warm sunset. Your little everyday joys all lined up in a row.”

— Beau Taplin

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07/22/2023

Depression looks good in pink and glamour!

Halos mag iisang taon na din since last kaming nagkasama sama ng college circle ko. Hanggang sa nagkaplanuhan na manood ng mga barbie, kasi walang bakla samin talaga at trip lang namin. Char. Perfect timing na rin since nandito na ulit ako sa Metro Manila at pwede ko na sila kitain ulit.

Sobrang saya & fulfilled ulit talaga ko. Maraming nagbago at maraming same pa rin. Iba iba na ang responsibilities namin pero same pa rin ang ugali (oo, ako pa rin pinaka late samin) nakakatuwa lang din na kahit papano di na kami takot sa budget at pera namin kahit papano. From 10 pesos na iced coffee na sobrang tabang to paminsang cafe na pag nagkikita kita.

Hindi na ko masyadong magkwekwento about Barbie, ang rating ko lang ay 5/5 dahil si Greta Gerwig ang nag direct. Hanggang dito dinala niya ang kanyang mommy issues at pagbibigay sakin ng existential crisis, sama mo na yung mga pamatay niyang monologue na masasabi mo na lang “felt hard, slayed hard queen” napatulala na lang ako kung paano talaga nagwork ang Barbie as a live action film.

Noong nag dinner kami naghahanap lang ng sabaw yung isa samin, dito kami nag end up sa Ramen Kuroda, coincidence na lang na gustong gusto ko na rin kumain ng ramen talaga. Noong parang ginto na sakin presyo niya as a college student, ngayon kaya na kung minsan lang lumabas. Nakaka iyak lang yung price difference noong college pa ko at ngayon. HAHAHA.

#personal #life update #friends #friendship #adulting

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07/22/2023 4:10 AM

Definitely surviving work thanks to hybrid setup. Two days ago I was working a pharmaceutical company, now back to mining company. I still ponder how communication works with data & analysis, but I’m here now and I’m enjoying myself with work. Wonder what I’ll be studying next week on my training? I swear I’m going to cry if it’s an American Pharmaceutical company again.

Also, 40 more minutes & it’s lights off!

#life update #work #corpo

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07/21/2023

In my broke employed era as a young adult, who has a high chance of contracting UTI from all the instant ramens to be consumed in the following days till the next salary roll.

100% na sa sarili kong bulso nanggaling yung pinangbili ko ng ref ko at hindi yung so-called na savings sa allowance from my mom. Ang sarap at bigat sa feeling na ikaw na mismo namimili ng mga gamit na kailangan mo para sa sarili mo. Nakaka fulfill na a step forward ito sa pagiging independent ko, sa totoo hindi madali at natatanga pa rin ako minsan; lalo na sa pagbubudget ng sahod sa needs over wants.

Nasa stage na ko ng buhay ko na minamake sure ko na my money is going to something worthy, which is difficult since marami tayong pangangailangan as a person; iba ibang tier o placement lang talaga. Nasa beginner & broke level pa ko na aaray ako sa theoretical na gastos worth at least ₱150 o ₱200 sa Starbucks dahil pwede na rin yon pang carinderia sana o medyo bougee na fast food.

Malayo pa, pero malayo na from my college self who’s doubting about their future. Balik tayo self na naghihigpit pa ng bulsa from budget constraints, pero ang mahalaga tayo na mismo ang nag eearn ng pera na ibubudget. Hopefully in the future ma expand natin ang ating experience and knowledge sa current job role & magkaroon ng specialty or leverage from the competition. Manifesting & claiming na natin na sa susunod meron na tayong budget allocation for leisure or hobbies & interest.

#personal #life update #adulting #adulthood

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05/19/2023 5:30 AM

It’s been a month since I started working, yet it feels like breezing by. There’s probably still a lot going internally at work, but I won’t stress about that; instead, I’m trying to live in the moment and live my life meaningfully day by day in my own standard.

Also, independency means taking care of myself when I get sick as no one’s going to come and look out for me; last week I thought I’d drop dead from diarrhea. Definitely, a shitty experience (pun intended)

Working at night and going home in the morning is definitely not for the faint of heart, it’s not healthy even for a self-proclaimed night owl like me. Though, I enjoy the peace and quiet of it but not the commute to work; the best moment is seeing the sunrise as I go home.

Hopefully I still like what I do in the following months. Cheers for a month at work for now!

#personal #life update #adulting

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07/12/2023

It’s nearly a month ago since I started working and a lot of thing has been going on with me lately. I finally got my own place to crash after my night shift, I’ve been enjoying learning a lot about my job role, I’m making new acquaintances at work, and I finally got my first ever salary from my first ever job!

I was really caught off guard, since I was expecting to receive my salary by the fourth week of July. Well, it’s here. It’s not much, but I want to log this day for my core memory. Something that I want to remember throughout this lifetime, the memory and feeling of my first salary. Everything about today is something that you cannot recreate.

So, where am I going to allocate my first salary? Other than my mom and coffee, most probably stuff for my apartment living.

Here’s to better days and for the wins I’ll be getting in the future!

#personal #life update #adulting #independent living #corpo #core memory

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06/25/2023

Being a working adult by your own is a different kind of loneliness. Growth really comes at a prices of discomfort and having to be alone most of the time. I have a lot of opportunities at my hand, but I’m still uncertain about the future. Being an over thinker and overachiever isn’t fun these days.

Maybe, I still have a lot of adjusting to do as it’s just almost a week at work. I’m in a new team being developed, I don’t have a manager yet, teammates are still nowhere to be found, and it’s a new environment for me. I just really want to say, I’m lonely, I miss a few people at home, I miss my dog, I wonder what my life would be like in a few months time?

I can only hope for better days.

#personal #life update #adulting #adulthood

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06/18/2023

2021 Rome, I hate to break it to you. We hit a wall in our journalism journey. We decided to take a break from pursuing our passion because of our desire to grow as an individual. It wasn’t an easy choice, but we would crash and spiral if we pushed it too much. For now, we’re resting and trying to be better.

We choose to focus on the different aspect of our personal lives. We got better from this, and we no longer hate or spite some relatives; we are civil with them for the sake of healing our childhood wounds. We grew so much as a person, that I’m proud of you for surviving all the heartbreaks, lows, breakdowns, and suffering. I’m far from being a wise person, but I learned a lot know; not just theoretically, I learned a lot about life and adulthood.

I don’t know if the “outgrow” is the proper term for our relation this 2023, because I strayed from the path we wanted. A part of being a struggling adult, so I guess we’re in a compromise. Still, everything becoming better is worth the sacrifices.

You’re not pursuing journalism, the media field, but you are still practicing language and communication. You’ll always be a student of life, but you are competent enough to lead one. I’m proud of us for up skilling ourselves. We have a new purpose to fuel our resting passion, new goals, and new adventure to take.

Whether people will clap back or be inspired about our current self is not the priority. Our main one is to live a meaningful life defined by ourselves. I still feel soft & validated regarding the messages we received, years apart. We are still thriving, and will persist no matter what the universe throws at us.

10/03/2021 6:39pm

Around September I was invited as a speaker for Feature Writing  in a journalism workshop hosted by a local campus publication in UPD. I accepted their invitation since I have nothing better to do and to see how much I’ve learnt and progress as a campus journalist, writer, and public speaker. 

So the event just wrapped up earlier, but I still can’t get over my progress. For the past few years in my college life, I would just ace reports and public speaking because I cannot for the life of mine gather my thought into a single complete structure. Today I finally overcame my problem, I was able to talk about Feature Writing with clarity and good amount of expounding my points.

I used to wonder if I’ll ever be a good lecturer or just bound to be a student of life that continues to only just learn. I also felt warm and happy today as I got this message from one of the attendees of the workshop.

A simple message, but I feel validated as a campus journalist. I was reminded of my excitement and drive when I started studying journalism. As the past few months had me reflecting everything I studied and if I’ll ever get the chance to practice it. 

Who knows what I’ll do after college? 

What matters is at the present I choose to share all the lesson I’ve learned in journalism. I am still a student of life and journalism, but I believe I am pass my day one and in a new stage that I’ll also outgrow again. 

#personal #life update #passion #adulting #progress

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06/17/2023

One of my mother’s former student turned teacher, toured us around her neighborhood since we were around Manila for the weekend. Suddenly, I felt my pupian slapsoil ass shiver. It’ll take me a long time to feel like I fit in or at the same level as the bougee people around Newport or even BGC.

Anyways, I’m really squeezing in my last free time before reporting to work on Monday. This really feels like a different era from attending my first days in high school with my mom to going to work for the first time ever.

#life update #personal #family

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06/15/2023

Still haven’t packed or moved my ass. It’s my mind mentally sabotaging me from moving out or reminding me that I’ll miss all of this. Funny how I’ve been dying to move out and now it’s just. Guess I’ve got a long way of living alone independently. Gotta just mentally and physically prepare myself for my first day at work by next week. :))

#personal #life update

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06/11/2023

Always grateful to spend time with Rea. Despite the inclement weather, we pushed through watching Spider-Man: Across the Spider-Verse. I was so immersed all throughout the movie, the animation is so fucking good as this is what you get when you properly compensate artist. I just really can’t wait for next year to come and see the third movie.

Also finally got to try out Life Four Cuts booth, IDK why but I just had to do ITZY’s hand pose; I definitely got a reaction from Rea.

For dinner, we ended up eating at Natalia’s. After like minutes of strolling around the mall deciding where to eat. When we got there, it felt like we rented the place. It wasn’t as crowded as it usually is, maybe because of the weather or people flocking the mall. It was nice though, almost having the cafe to ourselves.

I’ll definitely miss this and hanging out with Rea. I’m glad I met her during my transitional stage of my adulting life. Having someone who’s into the stuffs that you also like. I hope she also gets to pursue the things she wants in life. She’s really soft and kind for the world, I hope it treats her gentle and nicely.

#personal #life update #friends #friendship #cinema

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06/03/2023

Dorm Hunting Shenanigans, Catching Up With An Old Friend & Future Workmate

Dahil malapit na yung starting date ng work namin ng kaklase ko, nagpasama na ko kay Daniel para mag apartment/room/dorm/unit hunting. Sobrang distant memory na ng murang room o unit na halos pasok ang mga basic necessities mo. Natagalan akong pumili kasi yung iba shared space pala, bawal magluto via stove, shared cr, walang aircon, malayo sa workplace ko.

Sobrang struggle nito para sakin kasi first time kong maghanap ng dorm na independently ako lang & sinamahan lang ng friend ko. Unlike noon na family or kami ng mom ko. I guess this is part of the adulting stage.

Hindi ko alam if fond or annoyed ako sa isang apartment room na nakita ko. Kasi potaena naman parang 8 or 7sqm lang yung room at pinagkasya lang ang toilet doon di man kakasya ang single bed sa kwartong nakita ko. Nakakasakit ng ulo yung nakita ko.

In the end may nakita ako na accessible yung lugar kung saan sobrang cinontemplate ko at tinawagan ang buong pamilya ko bago mag down ng reservation. Sobrang proud ako sa sarili ko kasi nagawa ko to almost by myself, maliligaw na siguro ako sa dorm hunting kung hindi lang dahil kay Daniel. Sobrang lakas ko nga sa kanya eh, dahil ako na lang daw yung ka-org or friend nyang di niya nalilibre noon kaya ngayon bumabawi siya. Medyo nakakahiya, pero thankful pa rin ako sa kanya.

Sobrang bait lang lately ni lord at ng universe sa pag guide & pagbigay sakin ng path na tatahakin ko. I know na this highs will come with another low, pero for now gusto ko lang i log o alalahanin na sobrang grateful ako sa araw na ito. Niremind ulit ako ng katotohanan sa paninirahan sa NCR, kung paano maging slowly independent sa buhay, at sa mga low maintenance friendships na nagtatagal din. I might contemplate about this wish soon or expression, pero I’m glad to have bagged a job at excited na din ako makapagsimula.

#personal #life update

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SHOPLIFTERS 万引き家族 (2018) ⌊dir. koreeda hirokazu⌉

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SHOPLIFTERS ‘万引き家族’ dir. Hirokazu Kore-eda