#( I MEANT WOODWORK )

[aidaronan]

The years go by. The retail jobs that Steve thinks are temporary keep piling up, but he has no idea what else to do with his life so he just keeps on keeping on.

Until a large tree falls on the lawn of the little house he managed to buy and he gets the quote on removal and the number literally hurts his soul.

He buys a small chainsaw instead. Over the course of a few weeks, he gets most of the branches cut up. He collects some large rocks from down by the quarry and digs out a fire pit in his backyard. On his days off, his friends come over and they sit out back and have a few beers. The pile of wood dwindles. The giant trunk is another story though. His chainsaw isn't big enough for it. Burning it would take forever, and Steve's terrified he'd disappoint Smoky the Bear. He's at a loss.

Until he sees another giant trunk in someone's yard carved into a bear.

He knows what to do then. Not a bear, but something else. Through trial and error, the trunk becomes the rough shape of a woman, the remnants of the branches like a crown on her head. It's not as amazing as the bear he saw, but it's his. He finds he loves the smell of sawdust and the feeling of creating something.

Just like that, Steve realizes what he wants to do. It takes several months and a lot of yard sales, but he scrounges up the tools he needs to start woodworking. He learns to measure twice and cut once. He makes tables and chairs and carves them with art and designs that get better and better the more he learns. Shockingly, people actually buy his pieces.

Even more shocking comes the realization that he's making enough money to do it full time. He puts in his two weeks notice at Melvald's and hands in his assistant manager badge.

He's not sure he's happy, but he is content. It feels good to work hard and actually have things to show for it. It also feels good to work muscles he hasn't used since high school. He carries on for a few years like that, creating and learning and creating some more. Then Eddie Munson blows back into town. Invited back so Hawkins can have their most famous alumnus sing the national anthem at homecoming. Steve's honestly surprised he shows at all. "Can't believe you didn't tell them kiss your hairy ass," Steve says. Because of course Eddie ends up around his fire pit, sipping on Steve's cheap beer like he doesn't have three Grammy awards on his mantel. The years fall away with each drink, reminding Steve of just how much it had hurt when Eddie left. He'd wanted Eddie so bad back then, more than he'd ever wanted anyone. He can feel the echoes of that deep ache across time.

"Pfft. Don't you know all famous people wax our asses now? All the rage in LA." Eddie cuts a look at him and smirks when Steve rolls his eyes, grateful for the lighthearted moment to snap him out of his maudlin nostalgia. "Really though I thought about it, but then I thought it would be way funnier to donate a metric fuckton of money to Hawkins High with the stipulation that it go to the theater and band programs. Kind of bummed they couldn't honor my other request though."

"Which was?"

"My old Hellfire throne. I miss her, but apparently she's not around anymore. Something about water damage."

"Oh yeah. Water main busted a few years back and flooded the theater. I remember that." "Yeah. Had to settle for the promise they'd make a game lounge and stock it with all the supplies a budding young nerd needs."

"That's really nice, Eds."

Eddie shrugs. "I've been known to be nice on occasion. You'll come to homecoming, right? Moral support?"

Steve hasn't been to homecoming in years because he sees the other people who stayed in town all the time, and he has no interest in seeing the people who didn't. He can only answer the same questions so many times. Oh, I'm doing woodwork now. Yep, I still live right here. Nope, still not married, no kids.

He goes though, and he answers the uncomfortable questions. Because Eddie asked him to. Because no matter how long it's been, Steve can't deny that some part of him still...

He says goodbye after, and Eddie leaves again, and Steve tries not to think about that too much in the following days.

He's halfway into the project before he realizes what he's building. He'd seen Eddie's throne quite a few times back when. What he doesn't have memories of, he makes up. He adds his own touches too, making it a throne fit for a rock star, a nerd, a friend.

He carves ornate patterns, he creates scenes of dragons being beaten back by a man with a guitar, crowds of people that could be knights or concertgoers.

It's his favorite piece he's ever done, and his hands are shaking when he dials Eddie's number. He gets an answering machine and stumbles through a message.

"I made you something. I guess it's kind of silly, but it's here in Hawkins if you want it. Or I'm sure you can afford the shipping if you don't want to come. Just, I made you a chair. It's more of a... Well, you'll see. Unless you don't want to... It's Steve by the way." He hangs up before he can embarrass himself even more.

Eddie doesn't call him back. One day passes and then another. Steve tries not to let it get to him. He works on orders and new projects. He enjoys his little backyard oasis. He rents a few movies and thinks they're okay.

He's debarking some wood in his driveway when the rental car pulls up, Eddie stepping out in ripped jeans and an old Metallica tee. "Hi again, Stevie."

"Oh." Steve clears his throat. "The thing's in the garage. I'll..."

Eddie doesn't say anything for a long time, circling the throne, running his tattooed fingers over each little detail.

"You made this whole thing?"

"I did."

"For me?" Eddie looks at him then, one hand still touching the wood like he doesn't want to let go. Even under the harsh lights of the garage, his eyes are such a warm shade of brown that Steve forgets to breathe.

He nods. "For you."

"Why?"

There are a hundred answers Steve could give, but he spent so long not knowing who he was or who he wanted to be. Too long. "Because you'll always be the one that got away. Because some part of me will always want to make you smile no matter how long it's been."

Eddie falls into the throne like he just got the wind knocked out of him.

"You don't have to respond to that," Steve says. "You can just say thank you and take the chair."

"I can." Eddie blows out a breath. "But that would be incredibly stupid considering half my early ballads are about you."

"What?" Unfair. Steve doesn't have a chair to fall into.

"Oh sure, I changed the hes to shes for a while there because..." Eddie waves his hand. "But they're about you, Steve. God, I should've asked you out. I just thought..."

Hearing those words is a lot like seeing that carved bear all over again, something clicking into place that wasn't quite right before.

"Go out with me now then," Steve says. "Or stay in. I've got a frozen lasagna and I rented Contact."

"Steve Harrington? Asking Eddie 'the Freak' Munson on a date? Did hell freeze over?"

"Pfft." Steve takes a step closer toward what he wants most. "Hell froze over in 1986, Eddie. You were there."

Five months and a lot of long distance phone bills later, Steve opens Harrington Woodworking in Los Angeles. That same day, Eddie takes photos for Rolling Stone posing in an ornate throne in his living room. He tells the reporter exactly who made it and what he means. At concerts, he starts singing those ballads the way he always wanted to. More often than not, Steve stands in the wings singing along.

#steddie #fanfic #mine #woodworker steve #rock star eddie #i meant for this to be a drabble but 😂

[midnightsslut]

i know swifties are known for appreciating taylor’s lyrics, but i’m starting to wonder if the fandom has grown so large and her music so dense that a lot of people don’t understand what she’s saying at all. add the general trend of media illiteracy, the weird handwringing about whether her lyrics are autobiographical, and the increasingly popular view that you cannot see the author in the work, and a lot of people (largely not on here) are starting to have zero appreciation for the meaning of her lyrics beyond ‘this sounds pretty. that’s such a good metaphor!’ a lot of people are genuinely amazing at analyzing her music and post insightful takes, but the opposite is becoming prevalent as well imo.

#there was a thread on twitter about a month ago asking people to reply/qrt with the lyrics they didn’t understand #and it was just. the most basic stuff. #I remember the argument about what ‘maybe it was egos swinging / maybe it was her’ meant even on here when I thought that was just obvious? #syntactically it makes no sense for the her to be taylor’s ego #idk this fandom is unmanageable #and to be clear there are a lot of great takes on here and on twittergenuinely #but it’s hard to discuss anything without someone coming out of the woodwork to criticize you because they don’t understand

[jabberwockprince]

apparently it's way easier to plan scenes and plotpoints for a fanfic if i draw them first, so here we are <3 featuring me rambling abt this scene under the cut!!

i was specifically thinking about Haym and Rikki's entire relationship?

especially very early on, right when Rikki is properly assigned as Neon J's apprentice and whatnot. this was meant to be the moment Rikki realizes they're not coping very well with leaving Ban behind in Beachside Archipelago, and how they're actually gravitating towards Haym because of how similar he feels to Ban - yknow. being the same model and all

cause Rikki has some serious issues with needing absolute control over every aspect of their life. and right now, they're stuck with a job they don't exactly care for, trying desperately to suck up to Neon J so he'll actually promote Rikki to a DECENT job designing security bots for Vinyl City, not BABYSITTING 1010

(which isn't even babysitting, moreso than being monitored 24/7 in a localized space where they can't be shady since Neon J doesnt. trust them. at all. for various valid reasons)

so witnessing Haym pull some stupid but well-meaning stunt to force Rikki show off how good they are at fixing and repairing shit makes Rikki go????

A LITTLE FERAL????

BECAUSE THEY UNCONSCIOUSLY PROJECT ALL THEIR UNRESOLVED FEELINGS ABOUT BAN ONTO HAYM

but they only realize this when their body shuts down and cannot act the way they would've wanted, seeing Haym entirely fucking wrecked being very similar to how they found Ban when they first met makes them spiral a little

Haym doesn't even KNOW he's not the original Yellow model, he has his suspicions but is overall kept in the dark. befriending Rikki is something he does entirely out of genuine curiosity, motherfucker has no clue he's in the middle of a 4 year long unresolved break-up between two losers who are constantly pining after each other both romantically and platonically

im thinkingggg Haym might be seeking out Rikki's presence mostly because he's noticed that they treat him slightly different than the others. not necessarily better, just different enough to get him curious. so the need to build an identity away from 1010 as a group/unit and his inherent curiosity just gets him into this mess

#no straight roads #no straight roads oc #nsr oc #nsr yellow #nsr haym #rikki nsr #ban nsr #purinsu art #this was meant to be my selfindulgent fanfic where the polycule is happy and shit #but its the most annoying slowburn ever bc 80% of the time is dedicated to just. #everyone sorting out their emotional baggage and learning to tell the difference between who they are #vs who they want to be vs what the world expects of them #haym and rikki probably have? the most confusing dynamic out of all #which is so fucking funny to me because aside from these really loaded moments?? theyre chilling most of the time #the total opposite to rin and rikki's dynamic. where they wont stop arguing and never see eye to eye #but are one of the healthiest dynamics in this mess. cause they get each other on a level that they CANT understand #anyway its pretty hard to portray a genius engineer when youve never. touched a wrench in your life #ALL I DID WAS WOODWORK IN SHOP CLASS LEAVE ME OLONE #anyway rikki's workplace is not osha compliant bc they dont care abt electrical hazards #bc they Cant Be Affected By Them

[foxxology]

Is it possible to see what Mumbo does after he sees Grian's new form?

Yes! If you go buy the PDF uwu /silly

#foxx just got a letter #it spreads talk #stop asking about mumbo in it spreads #he wasnt apart of the plot and i wouldnt have put that last line in if it meant the mumbo girlies would be coming out of the woodwork lmaoo

[bonestrouslingbones]

btw big shoutout to that woodworking class i took in my final semester of high school for allowing me to 1. not constantly sound like i'm talking entirely out of my ass and 2. hide some very niche secrets because of the like 2 full months of paperwork & osha training before i got to actually build anything

#dont click see all on the tags i accidentally went insane over woodworking Its Not Worth it #god that class was such a mess. it took so long bc we couldn't all go to the shop unless everybody passed the safety test #and. well i'm pretty sure only i and like 3 other kids actually wanted to be there . im still a bit angry about it yeah #i wanted to build a table for my mom for mother's day and didn't finish it til JUNE and then it fell APAAARRTTTTTTTT!!!!! but its FINE #I WAS GRADUATING LIKE A WEEK AFTER BUILDING THAT TABLE BUT ITS ///FINEEEEEE//// #THE actual knowledge that i still retained from it is really funny tho tbh #the only thing you can call a guard on a bandsaw is the lil 2" radius circle printed around where the blade goes through the table #if you put your fingers inside of that circle they will be Swiftly Removed #i am more comfortable with that fucking thing than a hand drill #however drill presses are fine. kinda fun actually #walnut smells really good when it's being ripped but the dust gets fucking everywhere somehow even more than white oak #that was my last class of the day that semester and i would constantly go home with my black clothes having turned brown #and i'll say. most fulfilling class i've ever taken to be completely honest #ik i am not attending a trade school but WHYYYYYY DOESNT MY UNIVERSITY OFFER WOODWORKING AAAAGGG #WHAT IF I DROP OUT TO BECOME ONE OF THOSE YOUTUBER GUYS THAT MAKES TABLES THAT ALL LOOK THE SAME HUH. WAHT THEN!!!!!!!!!!!!! #WHAT IF I WANT TO MAKE 32 TABLETOPS OUT OF MINIMALLY TRIMMED SLABS AND EPOXY THAT ALL SOMEHOW LOOK BORING. WHAT IF I MAKE BANK ON THAT #ITS! BETTER!! THAN ALL THESE ESSAYS!!!!!!!!! #ahegm sorry folks. what i meant to say is that whenever ebony looks like he's creaming himself over furniture that's me talking through him #all that being said if i ever have to look at autocad ever again i will start huffing the polyurethane

[vivi-scera]

why lie. i shipped toph and zuko

#mostly bc i didn't rly have a concept of shipping back then i thought it just meant pairing the characters i thought were the coolest #speaking my truth because zutara shippers are coming out of the woodwork like they've just been hung on the cross it is never that serious #'the perfect enemies to lovers' if you saw the enemies to lovers i shipped you'd hurl etc etc

[corkisms]

so I saw your headcanon about Duke being called over by the heisters to size up new stray cats. does that extend to other animals or is he just a cat guy?

re:

i get the sense that hes completely capable of dogsitting for a friend once in a while but he is NOT pest control

#not pictured is duke going 'i didnt know dc even HAD cougars' n jimmy starting to say something b4 joy specifies he meant the animal #also a little obsessed w/how much dukeposting gets tossed in my inbox. truly the duke appreciators r coming out of the woodwork in droves #not complaining tho! still working on jimmy stuff + throwing some wolfhox doodles at the wall to see what sticks #payday 2 #payday 2dles

[merkerlerspeaks]

I don't know what's happened in Miraculous Ladybug after the New York special but I have a feeling they took Gabriel and made him even worse so if they did I am simply ignoring that and deciding that he stops being a little punk, asks Ladybug for help with Emilie, apologizes to Adrien and becomes the father he needs him to be and also Nathalie is able to heal both physically and emotionally from the whole "assisting in terrorizing Paris because she's to smitten to say no" situation that happened.

#Gabriel and Nathalie were the primary reasons I ever started watching Miraculous #And I feel like Gabriel had SO much potential in being an iredeemable-but-redeemed-anyway villain #And I am a SUCKER for an antagonist who's done horrible awful things #feel immense remorse for their wrongdoing and trying to correct it #I just think that Gabriel should have been the first Miraculous villain #and after he is redeemed is able to prove his remorse by fighting against another even bigger baddie #Like I have this whole story idea basically #Gabriel asks for help with Emilie. Ladybug has a moment of weakness because she sees the pain he is expiriencing #the wish very specifically is meant to revive Emilie and make it so that Hawkmoth never existed #But Emilie is even more sinister than he ever was so he has to actually reverse the wish #And set the timeline back to normal and deal with the consequences of his actions #And someone else comes up out of the woodwork with a powerful miraculous after a couple months #You know give everyone some months to process everything. Get some therapy. #Then Ladybug realizes that if they are going to fight this villain they need not only all the miraculous users #But an adult with expirience battling and can actually maintain the whole suit-form thing for a good while #And who fits that bill but Gabriel Agreste #Badabing Badaboom he has an Opportunity to prove that he truly regrets what he did #Say what you will about Gabriel #Im just a sucker for a good redemption story and I think that Gabriel could have had one of the most delectable ones since Zuko's #give adrien a good dad dang it #merkerler speaks #miraculous ladybug

[the-chickenshit-oddity]

most impressive thing about the americans i watch on youtube is when they measure things. how.

#stupid #have i mentioned i'm bad at maths? #not this month i haven't yet #but seriously #like i know how to divide or multiply fractions #but ehhh not that fast #also #i think their system is shit #watching a video and the guy honestly just said 'nine thirty seconds' like it meant something #but the way they get on with it is impressive #still dont know what a yard fucking is #ah for context maybe #i watch woodworkers sewers (is that what they're called i'm blanking) knitters carvers whats the name of those people who do pottery #oh yeah and chefs too and painters and all kinds of artists and ehhhhh i think thats it

[nymph1e]

Impossible challenge for star wars fans: stop fucking correcting my statement about CANON with EU or even FANON stuff.

Like, I get it, EU is infinitely better than disney canon, and where disney canon has left gaps we obviously LIKE to add the EU explanations. But guys if it's not stated in disney canon it's not disney canon so stop fucking correcting me about it when i talk about disney canon.

If I get another "um, actually" that's NOT relevant on a star wars post im gonna scream

#literally every time i post about star wars three or four people come out of the woodwork to correct me #star wars #which would be FINE if the corrections MEANT anything #but 99% of the time its people coming at me with eu or FANON stuff #no #i was talking about disney canon #i was CLEARLY talking about disney canon #you can't just make something canon through wishful thinking #rant #if i get one more person lecture me about the jedi code or the mandalorian creed or whatever #I KNOW #I KNOW THESE THINGS #I LOVE THEM TOO #but he versions you guys spit at me are NOT CANON

[oglegoggle]

I really think that textile arts are severely undervalued in the day and age of mass manufactured textiles. Legit someone just asked me what the purpose of knitting is because you can just buy an equivalent thing for far cheaper, more polish, and less effort than making it?

The purpose is the joy of creation, dipshit. It’s the expression of my skill and labor and imagination. It’s the love for those around me. It’s for the desire to have something that is totally unique. It’s for the memory of those I loved whom aren’t here anymore and the connection with my ancestors. It’s to nourish my human heart, bitch!

Have you ever made anything once in your life other than someone upset?

(Maybe that’s why you’re 58 and never been married and very obviously regretting it.)

#this is goggles #I wholeheartedly believe that we humans gotta make stuff for our sanity and well-being #like craft is an inherent human behavior #I’ll teach you how to knit or sew or woodwork or any skill I have if you want #these things are meant to be shared and I promise you will feel enriched by doing so #No? You have your own hobbies? what sitting in front of the tv and drinking beer by yourself and feeling sad?

[korinthiakos]

It has been made and y'all need i'mma eat it all 'cos the cravings are real today

#[ ooc. mun — i need a cuppa tea ] #( have i ever told u the tale of when i made perfectly square cream and jam scones back in high school? ) #( that part of school was fun when u got cooking classes that are part of this four system tech thing ) #( like: you had cooking. fashion design. woodwood and uhhh-- something /w computers ) #( DID I PUT WOODWOOD??? ) #( I MEANT WOODWORK ) #( anyway so glad for my asthma 'cos i hated woodwork but i couldn't do much )

[winter-spark]

It's so annoying when people are like "this she have more representation" & the replies are people saying "they just pick the best person. Why does it matter if it's cis straight white male dominanted? They shouldn't include someone just because they're in a marginalized group."

Like first off Shut up, no one asked for your opinion. Secondly why are you assuming that finding someone of a marginalized group means they won't be a good fit? Like not every cis straight white male is a good fit but evidently some of them are bcuz they're there, why would it be any different for marginalized groups? Like them not being there now doesn't mean they're not a good fit, just that they haven't been considered yet most likely. So why are you acting like if they included someone from a group it'd just be for that reason and that reason alone, that they wouldn't be good at what they're picked for, huh? Maybe think about that before replying to something that has zero to do with you. Your prejudices are showing and it's quite embarassing for you.

#Messages from the swamp #<---tumblr never saves that tag am I typing it wrong or something #Idk I'll figure it out later but it's making me more mad #I just came from twtr #Not even my post. someone else's and they made a good point #Then people came out of the woodworks to be annoying and show their complete lack of understanding #Adding representation doesn't take away from what's already there #And it really would help the issue she's talking about #Would it solve it completely? No but it would a good step in the right direction #But of course some people hate us too much to understand that. even if subconsciously #Oh sorry I meant #they just want people to be picked out of fairness & if it's unfair their automatically at the end of the line well that's not a cause to #consider making the playing grounds more fair. Because then that would be injustice of course. #i'm sorry #I'm not normally so mean and sarcastic #It's just something that keeps popping up and it's frustrating me

[botanyshitposts]

agricultural engineer at my work grew up on a farm in a time when being a farmer also meant being a carpenter (his words) and a couple days ago a piece of stupidly crucial wood equipment broke in our lab and i helped him build a new one in like 2 hours thats actually very sturdy and looks like it was actually done right on the first try because it was and i realized how incredibly powerful of a skill it is to be able to make like, a competent set of shelves, a piece of handmade equipment to specifications, etc and be able to at least have an idea of how to make bigger things and i cannot stop thinking about it now. like he was telling me about how when he was in college it was required for engineering majors to learn how to make the stuff they were designing so he had to take proper woodworking and metalworking classes too and they dont do that as much anymore. and how he has relatives that run a woodshop and build like tables and standing clocks and stuff. imagine somebody asking you for a table or clock and you can just make it and it looks nice and works well for a long time and you can fix it if it breaks. maybe im just gen z but whoa

#INSANE.

[blushedfemme]

feeling nostalgic bc i just remembered my very first crush on a butch and it was the most closeted teen longing shit imaginable because they weren’t even presenting butch at the time and i thought i was straight. i could not explain why i felt so drawn to them. they were just the quiet kid sitting next to me in english class who hunched their shoulders and tried to get away with the most nondescript and baggy girl clothes they could. they were desperately shy. there was something so sweetly boyish in the way they moved, they way they sat in their chair. they had weird music taste and a soft laugh. me and my other friend in that class instantly scooped them up and included them in our elaborate inside jokes and made a nickname for them and they would stare at their desk and blush and smile when we gently teased them. i had the most specific thoughts about their thick dark hair and their even darker eyes and the way the corners of their lips moved. i made them a cd mix that i never gave to them because i was too nervous. i didn’t know why. i burned cd mixes for my friends all the time but i knew this one meant something different so i kept it instead and my stomach felt funny when i listened to it.

and it wasn’t until like six years later that i found them on instagram and they had shortened their name and were posting about their woodworking and wearing masculine clothing and their smile was so much bigger than i ever got to see when we were 15. and isn’t it amazing how we find each other even in the pitch dark of the closet in a homophobic surburban high school without having any words without knowing anything just two weird kids at the back of the classroom making silly jokes and talking about studio ghibli and blushing at each other

#blushing #sfw post #unsexy post #butchfemme #sorry for all the sfw posts lol i’m sure our regularly scheduled hornyposting will resume soon

[eternal-moss]

Christ, the whole Wilbur situation is so fucked. Already the things that are coming out of the woodworks so quickly are so sad.

tw for abuse and misogyny. If you aren’t aware of this yet, Wilbur Soot has been revealed as a prolific abuser

My heart breaks for all the people he’s harmed. I think Shelby was really intelligent in the way that she’s brought this to attention, without naming him. This meant that even though some people denied it or lashed back at her, the repercussions were minimised.

Wilbur responding proved it was him she was talking about, although the details she provided made it so patently clear it was him from the start, it made it so that he had to admit he was the one who had been committing essentially serial abuse on young women by the nature of him responding to the description of the unnamed abuser, although he didn’t mention that it was *multiple women* in his absolutely pathetic excuse of an ‘apology’.

I’ve been thinking about this deeply from pretty much directly the moment after Shubble revealed it really. I’m not going to pretend that I’ve ever watched any of Shubble’s stuff, and I’ve not watched streamers for a couple of years now, but the courage she had to do this is fucking immense. Wilbur is very well off financially with a massive and loyal fanbase, the influence he has is very large and not to be underestimated. His ‘apology’ reeks of PR pressure, although it fails to meet the mark on all levels of even a basic apology (which is not even the bare minimum in this situation) and omits some very important details.

It’s so sad that abuse and grooming is so common amongst streamers/YouTubers, but the response to this time (from the community) being genuine support instead of victim blaming does make me feel hopeful. Wilbur’s condescension of women and younger ccs is absolutely disgusting. This recontextualises so many moments when he’s been dismissive of and made jokes at women’s expense. What he’s done is abuse and it’s misogyny. He’s picked on people he knows are less able to fight back from all parameters. Misogyny is massive in the gaming scene, and he’s relied on all these women (it really is a lot at this rate, even an ex-trumpeter from Lovejoy) staying silent out of fear.

Shubble saying keeping their silence protected him more than it protected her is very true, and this will absolutely wreck his reputation. Rather, he’s fucked it up himself, and there really is no one else to blame in this situation. The people who knew about it and were subject to this were typically smaller, younger or female streamers. It’s disgusting that he had relied on their silence for so long.

This is a bit of a mess, but ngl so am I. It’s been eating at me for as long as it’s been going on, I found out almost immediately. I was quite a big Wilbur fan for a damn long time, since his early days of streaming (when skyblock randomiser was made etc). I was emotionally invested in his original music and looked up to him a lot.

The worst thing I think is that I resonated with his online interactions with Tommy (which makes me feel vile), and his adoration of Wilbur, always calling him ‘like a big brother’, and it fondly reminded me of me and my younger sibling. Except Wilbur would sometimes do some unexpectedly cruel things. Like stomping on Tommy’s hand and causing it to bleed. That alarmed me at the time, also when he revealed that he was relying on Tommy to talk him out of suicide, which really made me concerned about how healthy their relationship was. The worst thing is, this didn’t surprise me that much at all when it was revealed. Shelby’s descriptions could fit no other person, and it made sense and lined up with his past behaviour, but that doesn’t make it any less wholly awful and horrific.

I wasn’t going to talk about it on this blog, but I just feel angry. Angry for all these people he’s hurt. Angry that he’ll still be living comfortably off of his fanbase for years to come, young people who trusted and idolised him, the vast majority young girls themselves. Angry for Shubble, angry for Niki, angry for the women’s names we don’t know yet, angry for those who had been intimidated into silence. Angry for those who had been abused and brutalised by him. The main thing that’s coming up again and again is the biting, the bruising, the physical abuse, the way they were scared into saying anything, left traumatised by the way they’d been treated. As if that could be brushed off in any way by some disgustingly shallow and self-centred attempt at self preservation of his reputation. Fuck off.

Like Aimsey said, this isn’t some light cancellation from Twitter, these are reprehensible serial misogynistic crimes, and it’s only been days since the initial reveal and hours since his response and the influx of victims speaking up. My heart breaks to know how much more is going to be unearthed.

So yeah this is basically it, I treat this blog mainly as an archive for fan creations of things I like, but also as a collection of my thoughts. I have been unable to stop thinking about this, and I know that I’ve barely talked about mcyt on here, but I was heavily into dsmp and streamers for a long time. Shubble is insanely bloody brave for doing this, I wish them all the best (and the other victims) in recovering from his behaviour, as well as applauding her for the sheer fucking bravery to make the decision to speak up.

***I’ve seen some people saying Shubble uses they/them pronouns, but most people I’ve seen refer to her with she/her. If I find out she doesn’t use she/her I’ll change this post < Shelby uses she/they

#Wilbur soot #< for people blocking this tag #Sorry if this is a mess but wow yeah it’s not good