#ALSO !!!!!!!!!!!! THE GIRLS ON THE TRAIN TODAY

[polarsirens]

rot, waste, and hunger

#look i have no time but i watched this ep on the train today and i had to. i love this girl so much i’m terrified of (for) her #dimension 20 #the ravening war #the ravening war spoilers #karna solara #fanart #my art #(karna: is doing a ritual/stalling a curse by removing her rotting flesh) (me: oh? mononoke reference?) #(also maybe i’m a bit in my totk feels. just a bit) #body horror #(just in case)

[yohankang]

it's my last day of work tomorrow... i'm happy and relieved but also sad and terrified

#sad bc of the friends i'm leaving and terrified bc i absolutely need to find a job this month and it's not going well #also so stressed abt tomorrow... there's so many things i need to do before i leave #and i'm training the new girl and there's really not enough time to teach her even the most necessary things... #today i brought cake and food to say goodbye to my favorite department #and they surprised me with flowers and a goodbye gift??? they got me really pretty earrings #and they all gathered to thank me for these past months and i started crying before the manager finished the first sentence lmaooo #and i'm probably going to cry tomorrow too #i will miss them so much. i'm not even from their department but we got so close #i just started crying again agkdfjdfjd i'm a bit overwhelmed #like i said i'm terrified that i don't have a new job yet but at the same time i really need some time to rest. both physically and mentally #goddd i really hope i can secure a job soon and just chill for the rest of the month..... #k.txt

[soulmvtes]

imagine the cafe i was working in had a fire alarm so i was stood outside for ages in the rain shivering but then they just closed LOL

#diary #tiyas thoughts #also today is so eventful this girl who is kinda famous on tiktok is literally like opposite me stood on this train... #wanna say hi queen but like scary

[sisterofficerlucychen]

FINALLY S6 POSTER AND SNIPPETS OF NEW S6 SCENES, I'LL TAKE IT ♡

#the rookie #i'm cackling at the fact that most are the same pictures we've seen before?? #like that picture of tim is literally the same from s5 poster #don't get me wrong i am 100% here for it like i am so happy with what they gave us today #but i find it so funny that these promo pics aren't new like angela and nyla are wearing the same outfits from s5 poster #BUT THEY PUT CHENFORD TOGETHER AND THAT'S ALL A GIRL NEEDS #also time for me to get on my delulu train bc a. i love that chenford is together and wopez is together #but b. i'm like 👀 at aaron and celina being together like are they hinting something? #i'd be interesting ngl #brb still laughing at tim being the same exact picture #but also them not putting him in the promo pic in metro uniform is such a missed opportunity rip

[youjustwaitsunshine]

lowkey having such a good hair day today?

#shortened the bangs earlier and it's so nice again #also so glad hair is looking good bc we're going to a cool classic car thing today #yea i love taking train selfies what else is a girl to do on a train ride

[condraws]

these are two separate images BUT. gnomies is having a great time in red markets! (she got shot by a friend @/cino-checker) (and bit)

#red markets #ttrpg #oc tag #isabelle #isa #others ocs #okay i really gotta figure out a tagging system but not today satan. not today #so right so SO this is technically just the prologue to the season and we were all meant to make throwaway characters #but i got attached. I GOT ATTACHED. so sue me #jordan made her story very strong very powerful #james bond ass father spoiled rich girl growing into a hard jaded professional #mmm yummy i love angst #also so if she is infected (don't know yet #it was a cold bite) #she's done for bUUUUT #she could still be immune #i love the idea of having two tough spots #we started right in a red zone but it's cool. it's cool #we're gonna move #our enclave is a train bitchessss mobility is key. #once we can get the parts to get it moving anyway #anyway every interaction with michael hurts her #it's >:)

[innocent-until-proven-geeky]

Owner training a service dog is like, I have days where he amazes me and days where he’s a menace.

Sometimes, those are the same day.

#today he did a task we haven’t properly trained #today he also stole my brother’s girlfriend’s sweater and then stole a glass of milk from the counter while I was filling up my med box for #the week #get you a girl who can do both #blue the service dog

[lightspren]

Ok so I keep freaking out about if I can actually do this dog thing, if I’m actually enough. I love this dog dearly but i’m so exhausted all the time and that’s made worse this weekend by being sick. and I know that love is not enough to give a dog what she needs to be happy and healthy.

however. look. my big concerns are not being able to give her the exercise and stimulation she needs and wanting to be able to just Chill and cuddle my spouse and cats in calmness. and like. she’s almost certainly a great pyrenees mix. Relatively (as in, relative to other dogs I like, aka shepherds), she doesn’t need that much exercise. A good run in the yard a few times a day should do her, especially once she’s not so much of a puppy. And that’s the thing too— she’s a puppy. She’s excitable and chewy and a Lot because she’s 12mos old and still growing up. that takes time. and the cats are unhappy and won’t come cuddle— because she’s been here four days! they’re still adjusting!

i really need to take a step back and calm down. four days is not long enough to throw in the towel on this. she’s a puppy and we’re all adjusting but there is room in our lives for her. we can do this. i just need to fucking chill for maybe like five minutes and understand that this is an adjustment for the humans too, and that’s okay. I just need to chill.

#kit talks #she’s such a good dog y’all don’t even understand #she is SUCH a well behaved dog to both be a rescue from neglect and still a puppy (albeit an older puppy) #she’s a sweet and good girl and i just need to calm down and not be a perfectionist #this was a godawful time to get sick bc it’s shit my ability to cope with little things all to hell #i owe it to her and to myself to give it some time though. just have to give it some time #anyway i have like ten minutes til i have to get ready for work then i have GOT to try to not think about the dog today #so i don’t start crying at work lmfao #i’ll have enough to deal with due to still being sick and catching up from yesterday sigh #also i am increasingly sure she is def a pyr mix #she doesn’t have the long fur but the shape is there and the behaviors #quite territorial - not towards us or the cats but anyone who even looks at our property #very fucking stubborn. just Sits and Won’t Move if she doesn’t wanna do something #keep trying to train her and she looks at me like she completely understands what i mean by ‘down’ #and just thinks it’s stupid and not worth the measley little treat i’m offering #and yet quite smart and likes puzzles and incredibly affectionate #still undecided what she’s mixed WITH but pyr seems very accurate

[patchodraws]

someone PLEASE give me the strength to work on my wips 😩 next pmas has to be out for the holidays

#my writing #play me a song #i can feel my strength fading (slept in today) #i also have a paper girls wip and horizon to work on too #but also i just need to get back on the pmas train #even if my writing has fallen off lately #i just gotta Do It

[bensiskos]

(…)

#WUAG. ok. Complaining ahead ignore it’s whatever #We got a dog last week bc my mom really wanted one #the dog is fine she’s a good girl #But I really don’t want to be responsible for it #and my mom said “Ella don’t worry you don’t have to be responsible for the dog” #Even though a. She works 9 hours a day and won’t be home 5/7 days a week #b. My dad also works full time #c. My sibling will be the one home full time & I don’t want to make them do dog stuff all by themselves on the days I am home #d. SINCE WE’RE ALL TRAINING THE DOG ITS MY FUCKING RESPONSIBILITY #It’s just another thing I have to worry about on top of math classes AND work AND cleaning the house AND planning for my 18th bday #and it’s a lot #and I wish we didn’t have a dog because it makes life so much harder and I don’t really think it’s worth it for me #but I can’t say no at this point because like augh my mom would be so upset #we took a training consultation today #and obviously it’s a lot of work training a dog #and I don’t want to be the one worrying about it #I just wish I could tell myself the dog isn’t my problem BUT SHE IS because my mom isn’t fucking home to do the work herself #I’m just tired and I know I’ll feel better tomorrow but I feel insane about this like is no one else worried about this ????

[daisywords]

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#ended up one on one with our intern today #she was like ''so what year did you finish your undergrad again?'' #um. 2023 #''like? this year?'' #yep #''so...how did you get this job?'' #girl. I applied #idk what to tell you #weird vibes bc she like has a master's degree and stuff #but is a newcomer to the field #vs. I did a college major and two separate internships that are directly related to this job #which is more or less what I said to her #but yeah she asked me if I thought our team would hire anyone new full time anytime soon #and like. the true answer is. no and also if we were you would probably not get hired #but obviously I did not say that #anyway idk what my point is #perfectly normal things for an intern to be asking and also good for her #maybe just set off some more imposter-syndrome-esque feelings for me #and also idk just in general. don't like when people have the mindset that something I have trained and studied and practiced for #is something that anyone can. just do. with the same level of quality #especially bc I am still so inexperienced compared to my coworkers #and also. this girl has less experience than me but is very confident and well spoken and I still feel like a frightened deer

[vote2]

Anywayyyyssss finally manager is w me tmr I'm bitching abt two of these coworkers augh

#i feel bad though cause ik one of them is dealing w some shit but also. you cannot be taking a third of the time im supposed to be #cooking to finish your stuff. it worked out today cause i was training yhe girl who didnt come in til 3 but like. oh man. #i also just feel like bitching tmr. pls dont let her leave early or im spending my breaks tecting her

[brainfondue]

This time my autism got me. I just came home and realised theres a girl at my gym class that wants to talk to me and i didnt realise that ☠

#i also want to tall to her but i kept thinking that if i did that mid training itd be awkward #and by the time we stretch she leaves #but today girl looked so happy having worked up the courage to say bye to me 😭 i hope im not THAT intimidating #brain storms

[feluka]

i'll say it again. every SWANA girlie should be entitled to one free patricide per lifetime no charges no jail time no nothing

#devastating news today. #i learned that 1- my dad wanted to start a bet on me dropping out of uni before the end of the year. #he was serious too. thankfully my mom told him to shut the fuck up :)that's exactly what i need while struggling with my studies thanks dad #2- he's now spreading lies about me to my mom to make me look bad #he told her i lie when i say I'm going to sleep and instead i keep the lights on and stay up all night #and that he sees me frolicking around playing and having fun while claiming to be asleep #my mom called him out on being a shitty liar because when i can't sleep i still keep the lights off because i fucking hate the lights #and also she comes to check up on me at night and sees that i am asleep so she told him he's a liar #and now 3- he's claiming my whole mental health lapse thing was me faking depression to get away with having poor grades #which is funny because he took me to the psych hospital himself and told our entire extended family that I've gone crazy. #funny how he changes his story all the fucking time! #and his proof? he 'sees me chatting with people and laughing all the time so i can't be that depressed' #what people you fucking dickhead. do you know how debilitating lonely i am. do you have any idea how much it kills me. #and when my mom tried to stand up for me and say that i don't talk to people #his reasoning was that i'm being secretive about it because i must be talking to boys 😐😐😐😐 #i truly dont understand him. like my guy YOU put me in a girls school and follow me outside everyday to make sure i take the girls' train. #like what boys have i conjured out of thin fucking air. literally what the FUCK are you on about. #also now he's using that as an excuse to 'keep an eye on me' and look in my stuff and follow me around #i know he opens my phone because that absolute idiot accidentally took a photo of himself with it #and i know he follows me this isn't news to me. i just. idk. i thought we were on better terms these days???? #like i truly thought we were being friendly and cool with each other lately??? #then he explodes out on nowhere with this stuff and goes on and on about how much of his money is wasted on me!!!!! #i'm just so sad all the time and i'm truly trying to hold on and not end everything and i dont need him to do this to me right now #i'm so so sad and tired! really i don't see an end to this! #one day i'll walk into the ocean and have him fish my corpse out of the water

[kordbot]

wow. I am going to die tomorrow

#im supposed to be accompanying the girl ive been training for her horse riding exam #but its SO FUCKING HOOOOOOT IM DYING #i was in the stables today just to practice loading The Beast™ into the trailer and practice the dressage part w her one last time #and the head exhaustion has taken away ALL of my energy ive literally been running in low energy mode since morning #and tomorrow ill have to be there for a good couple hours OURGH #especially since we dont know if her other trainer will be there so i have to help her warm up just in case #also just generally be there to help w getting The Beast™ ready #if i dont survive this i want jacob to take over my selfship blog. goodbye

[nomaishuttle]

ive discovered i donot work well with strangers

#im training the new girl and im trying so hard not 2 be bitchy but ive got a headache my ears hurt from the mask glasses conbo and its also #so fuckjng hot in the vuilding today for some reason AND my mouth is consrantly sry no matter what i do AND im cramping . #and she like. brenda was like yas sooo were having you train her so she can see how everybody does the rooms differently #but she isnt listening to me when i tell her how i do rooms shes just doing the rooms the way nee does and its like . annoying me abit #and also just now i was like Ok hokd off on vacuuming and if yiu could just sweep the bathroom bc theres tons of litter #and then i went to drop off recycling #cane back abd shes vacuuming . and didnt sweep the bathroom. and its like . ok girl listen 2 me now im going to sweep the bathroom and #there will be litter all over the carpet you just vacuumed do you understand. AUGH #ik its not her fault but im like. screams. i just want to be alone 2day i think. but i cant i have to train her til i go home. but whatever #its my lunchtime now.. hers isnt jntil 2 bc shes got a weird ass 10-6 shift. which is crazy