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flutteringfable · 2 days

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thinking about how sylvie straight up used molly’s trauma against her without even realizing. like yeah it’s supposed to be the person’s greatest fear but i’m just imagining the conversation they had after that.

“yeah the reason i dont like fire is because my mom died in one”

“OH. OH MY GOD. MOLLY IM SO SORRY I DIDNT KNOW—“

#fable talks 💫#LIKE HE FEELS SO BAD ONCE HE REALIZES 😭😭#epithet erased

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erikatsu · 4 months

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okay, i had my laughs last night but i feel like this needs to be said because im still a bit irate and this is serious. rant about plagiarism under the cut.

if you are going to accuse someone of plagiarism, you need to be 100% sure they actually did it. you need to have your proof ready before you even say a word. as someone who has had 4 different blogs + 29483929 urls, i have reposted some of my own works at least twice.

receiving a comment asking people to report my work as stolen nearly sent me into an anxiety attack my mind was thinking, “i wrote this fic a year ago and bc im just now reposting it, im going to be the one who gets the hit for plagiarism… not on my watch. i’ll call them out before they do it to me.” so i scoured ao3 for any trace of this fic and found nothing besides a toji fic with the same title but different premise, because the comment was made that it was originally on ao3. so i figured “what are the odds this ao3 poster has a tumblr” and went to the accusers blog. low and behold– and only after two minutes of scrolling– i find they had reblogged it when i had posted it on this account for literally an hour. i don’t even rmr why i posted and priv’d it that quickly but i did.

i originally posted this fic on. april 24th 2022 on my blog first nsfw blog, touyaphoria. reposted here when i was tumblr user bladiez, for a split second on august 1st 2023 (which i forgot until i saw their rb). i reposted and left for good on the 8th of this month on my now writing blog tomuras. it was stated in the final repost that it was a repost (i have since changed the note to specify which blogs it was posted on beforehand). and it would’ve taken them less time to realize both fics were posted by the same person had they scrolled their own blog instead of me figuring it out myself. it could have been totally avoided.

now, i do appreciate someone looking out for my work like that, i really do. but on the other hand it felt so shitty to be somewhat publicly accused of something that i didn’t even do. and it felt even shittier that i received no apology for it. i didn’t even send them the pictures i posted here as proof, i sent them proof straight from google docs + my initial idea being discussed with a friend of mine and that seemed to be enough because they never responded and they never made a callout post like they said they would. the usual tumblr drama and discourse i can let roll off my shoulders. but an allegation like that is heavy and not just on tumblr. if an actual published author was accused of plagiarism the backlash would be outrageous and have extreme consequences.

tdlr: please heed the notes on posts, not just warnings. do your research before falsely accusing someone. or, if you can be bold enough to accuse someone, at least have the decency to apologize for it if you are wrong.

#tw rant #tw vent #sorry ndidnsos i was howling over it last night #but now im rlly 😐 about it #like. idk i feel like you shouldn’t just be throwing out allegations without at least doing looking into it first.#if they had gone back to their rb of it #and went to my blog #they would see ‘main blog for @/tomuras’ on my nav #again i do sincerely appreciate being looked out for like that #but they could have sent an ask to my side like hey #i think this work has been plagiarized. i dont remember exactly where i saw it but i have read it before #would have been so much better than a comment #like. oh yeah well i have had 4 different blogs and have reposted that work once or twice. here are the blogs ive used #an easy and private clear up vs a threat to handle a situation like this on the authors behalf… without even telling said author about it #AND THEY DIDNT EVEN BE LIKE OH IM SO SORRY I DIDNT REALIZE #THEY JUST. IGNORED ME??#considering i sent the dm literally four minutes after they posted their comment #i think its safe to assume i was ignored #and i stayed up for two hours waiting for at least some form of acknowledgement not even a sorry #i didnt want to govto sleep until it was resolved

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dsgustng · 1 year

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I do want to say altho I'm very pro shoplifting it is not something to take lightly. it is something that can and WILL get u in a lot of trouble if you get caught at the wrong place and wrong time. I know a lot of people will get comfortable with it and not think much of doing it but u really do have to be careful and smart Abt it . The best case scenario of getting caught is u get banned from a store you probably really like and worst is you get arrested and have charges pressed against you

#best thing 2 do if u get caught play dumb liek 'oh my god i forgot!! im so sorry ill pay for this i didnt even realize i was holding it"#most places say we literally cannot make assumptions we arent allowed to accuse someone of shoplifting #and this isnt always like. a gaurentee most places arent allowed to prosecute u but some will #its good to always b careful and prepared

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heartorbit · 5 months

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a mob of emus for an artstyle game on twt! ^_^

#project sekai #emu otori #the usernames are all their public twts so if you use that evil platform check out their art ^_^#many of them are on here with the same users even.. be gone from my sight vile bird #the one on the bottom right is Mine but ive never had an artstyle in my life so it may not be obvious to the viewers. sorry.#pjsk #prsk #proseka #only my beautiful mutuals beautiful art can make me do LINEART #i was going to ask on here but realized i dont have mutuals bc this is a side blog. sniffle. hell on earth #I dont have much to scream in the tags. semester is almost over. Im sleepy. I designed emu a huge seord for an assignment #but the 3d model turned out Bad. it looks ok from the top but you turn it and see Problems.#its been a month or so since i modelled that and i have gotten better so i want to try again with no time crunch + pressure #its a fun looking sword. magical girl sword type shit #EVERY TIME I THINK ABOUT THE LITTLE PRINCE WXS STUFF I END UP AWAKE UNTIL 3AM BECAUse it GETS TO ME #WAAAAAAAAAUHGH. I HAVE CLASS IN 11 HOURS #GOODNIGHT. IT WILL BE AS IF ALL THE STARS WERE LAUGHING.#oh my god wait i did this this weekend bc i was like yaay i have a weekend without any assignments due #I just forgot abt one. Bc my email hasnt been working properly and didnt send me the reminder for it. i will spend my tuesdah drawing a gun

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skitskatdacat63 · 7 months

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Hey do you remember all those videos of Fernando smelling flowers? Haha yeah....

#posting this both while im asleep and after whatever bee event ends up happening #so who knows what will happen! will we get nothing? will we get eye contact? will we possibly get an interaction? its a surprise!!#anyways this is basically me hearing about seb's bee event and he said the drivers will be there #me deep in my vettonso brainrot: OH MY GOD THEY'RE GONNA BE IN THE SAME VICINITY #will be so funny for me if when i wake up i find out fernando didnt even go 😭#but we remain hopeful 🙏#also this is just very funny to me bcs like both seb and fernando have very specifc quirks #and what are two of their specific quirks? seb and his bee thing. fernando and his flower thing from this season #so this fanart is perfect y'know 🥰🥰🥰#also screeching over how this is the first canon au drawing ive ever drawn. ive literally never drawn non-au until now 💀💀💀#okay and now some horrible jokes thay happened during the process of this:#thesis of this drawing: whats Fernando gonna do? Pollinate him? 😏#C. why did you have to make me think of bees that produce sex pollen 😭😭 this is gonna haunt me forever. but also vettonso post-japan fic-#and then also the barry benson thing. im like what do humanized bees look like and then realized 'oh no....oh no.'#fernando to seb at the bee event: 'ya like samurais...?' SORRY 😭#also having to pick the colors from one of my historical au drawings was haunting. just the sheer difference btwn them yknow......#anyways please take my old men yaoi. took a break from historical yaoi to draw this 😭😭😭😭#this is my peak vettonso fanart cannot improve from here. also a fever dream #vettonso #f1 #formula 1 #sebastian vettel #fernando alonso #catie.art.#*not gonna edit the tags bcs i like the time capsule of it all but like. yeah. we were fed.#*catie from 2 hours prior(atm its 3 am) would be so pleased right now i think

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carnivalcarriondiscarded · 9 months

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damn... kinda mad i didn't die in my dream last night... could've added another method to the list

#all that 'oh god im gonna die' dream stress for Nothing smh #got stabbed... i mean it was kinda my own damn fault but also was it? was it.#it was absolutely fault when the blade had to be removed but yk. didnt die so it was whatever #shaking a fist at last night's dream like COWARD!!!#what was Interesting though was upon waking up #i was still kinda dozing and i held my position #and i was very careful moving as to not jostle the knife. Not Realizing Yet. that that was a dream and was now awake #there is no knife in ba sing se #but damn. gnarly #usually i dont have to go through the whole 'coming to terms with my imminent demise' in these sort'a dreams #its typically Fast #the longest dream-death ive ever had was that one where i got shot #but even that wasnt That long #its just that the others are usually immediate. and non-wound based #absolutely unprompted #sorry to dream post but Hey tumblr blog is my personal diary. To Me <3 #its weird tho that this is the second time ive had a death or death-adjacent dream #where i woke up convinced that it was Real #knife wound.... legit asking myself if im dead after another... fun stuff!#these dreams are very interesting. in a morbid way i enjoy them

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todayisafridaynight · 13 days

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I’m fairly new to the fandom, but I do have a question if you can answer it! Why do people ship Daigo with Aoki / Masato? I tried looking to see if they’ve interacted before, but couldn’t find anything! Sorry for asking I’m just </3 dumb AND I LOVE YOUR ART OF THEM!!! Nerd looking ahhhhhh

hi ! welcome to the community i hope you're having a lovely time so far and ty for enjoyin my stuff :) no need for apologies it's a very fair question to have :]

i cant speak for everyone (all. ten people into masadai anyway) but Personally To Me i just think the idea of them together is very funny. thats quite literally it im afraid..

#snap chats #//twenty page google doc in the background// ignore that. it's mostly for comedic purposes #might also be my fault idk sorry about that. allegedly. idk ive had like three people tell me they started to ship them cause of me 🧍‍♂️#@mementoasts is another person who's drawn masadai and whose stuff i love and am inspod by .. i love their disneyland fic sm ...#there was another artist on twitter who posted a neat drawing of them but i cant remember who they were and i didnt bookmark it //screams//#recently there's been ANOTHER masadai artist ive started following on twitter - @wifekiryu. his account's n/s/f/w fyi before you go looking #he has a tumblr too @foxdies. i say cause i realized as much recently vjeaKLGJALKGJ #oh but I GUESS ill get deeper into why. /i/ personally ship masadai or whatever #first off they're opposing factions yet their character alignments Do Not Match their roles. stereotypically anyway #aoki who leads the 'surface' of society and is meant to be an admirable figure and someone 'just' when really. he sucks LMAO #though that's not atypical of politicians but just from a stereotypical This Is A Respectable Individual perspective of his role #daigo on the other hand leads the 'underbelly' of society- yk comprised of dangerous criminals and outcasts and whatnot #yet as we know him daigo's compassionate and considerate of his men- he doesnt treat them like tools like aoki does #if put in a room with the two daigo would be most people's choice of person to hang out with. probably open a trapdoor on aoki tbh #and i think thats really cool and epic i always love that kinda Subverting Expectations thing #theres also the fact they both started off like. edgy/angsty in the franchise and then brush up down the line #masato does a stronger 180. publicly. obviously but its still really funny they both have to get their act together #if you wanna talk about in-text reasons. there really is none LMAO I TELLS YOU masadai is pure crack #but if i wanted to pull a muscle reaching then there's daigo being on aoki's side while everyone else is on arakawa's during the funeral #im lying of course. mitsu was behind him. rgg tryna make me forget mitsu exist .... put him back in y8 ....#and ofc ichi joins that side to even out the seating but moving on another Goofy Reason is arakawa being like #'the chairman and my son are like p much the same age Surely he knows how he thinks :)'#and then i just think daigo being all smarmy about outsmarting aoki is really goofy and im choosing to interpret that as personal #they both also have issues with their dad. s. dad/s/. anyway.#tbh the google doc tag was a joke but i really could sit here and list every dumb reason why i think theyre funny together #like i started going over the tag limit so uhhhh yeah needless to say i have a lot of. dumb reasons 💀💀💀💀#one day ill use the main text for long rambles like this but todays not that day Point Is my imagination is rampant im afraid #so the short and sweet of it is I Think It's Funny. And They'd Be Terrible Together. Which Is Why It's Funny.#and the unfortunate part is anything i find funny i obsess over for a year so. //gestures to the mountain of bullshit thats my masadai tag/

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themyscirah · 1 month

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Thinking about current continuity Vanessa and just getting pissed off again

Like one, LET HER REST oh my god dc you ruin her FUCKING life like an asshole only to bring her back as a villain after she finally got out oh my god-

But also like its just so bad. This is a whole other woman with her name like why are we doing this. Like first you kill her mom (JULIA NOOO) and erase her YEARS of history growing up around diana (the thing that actually made her villain turn [if you can call it that w the level of manipulation involved] interesting and fucking heartbreaking) for some shitty "oh I saved you we were friends" run of the mill whatever. Then to use that and say Nessie had a crush on her OWN SISTER (Diana, so like informally adopted, but still 😡) now????

And then they took away her curls and made her a redhead but not even the realistic kind. DC SHE DOESNT LOOK LIKE THAT

It just makes me so mad. Freaking guys. They could have used another name like oh my god. She's not even the first silver swan why the fuck would they do that if they're not going to explore her history w diana (which she no longer has!!!!) or how intensely fucked up everything got for her. What is even the fucking point of this then other to drag a main character of the ww supporting cast through the mud again for genuinely no reason. They could have easily had her be Valerie Beaudry (sorry Val) instead or just MADE UP ANOTHER NAME because it's obvious that no one actually cared about her as a character they just wanted the wondy villain back so like !!!!!!!!!! Why even bother

#her entire treatment just makes me so angry #like in general it makes me mad and sad and a million other emotions #but the fucking robinson version just makes me enraged. beyond pissed off. because theres no fucking reason for it its bullshit and its the #one in current continuity right now. so i get to see tom king ww panels put on my dash that have this stupid fake vanessa and its so #infuriating. like thats NOT her!!!!!!! oh my freaking god people #her hair is BROWN and CURLY and shes dianas BABY SISTER who she lived with for YEARS like she was a MAJOR supporting ww character for the #longest time. like shes got about 100 appearances (just checked) preboot this is not a minor character #so freaking frustrating #blah #ALSO. FUCKING ALSO. THE FACT THAT THE WHOLE CURRENT VANESSA TURNED EVIL BC SHE REALIZED SHE WASNT SPECIAL TO DIANA BS. FUCK YOU THERE LIKE #OH MY GODDDDD “isnt special to diana” im going to fucking kill you. what do you mean she doesnt care about her specially. thats her FUCKING #BABY SISTER. not to sound like vanessa herself a la silver swan but those clowns at dc would never say that shit about cassie oh my god #not special my FUCKING ass. nessie and her mom were literally the first people invited to themyscira in post coie continuity #like yes diana trevor and steve trevor and even baby julia kapetelis washing ashore but like the kapetelises (and you could even say just #nessie bc again her mom had been there before) were the FIRST ones invited there like you cannot say diana didnt care about them more than #the average joe dc i fucking despise you.#this girl has been through so much why is dc incapable of throwing her a bone ever. nessie i am so sorry they did that to you sweetie.#gonna tag it bc her tag deserves the traffic #vanessa kapatelis #just makes me so mad #doing all that to the normal teen girl character in a wonder woman comic is so fucked actually like dc comics i should not have to explain #that to you. what message do you think you are sending here be serious

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mroddmod · 1 year

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perenlop · 14 days

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pokeani moments that exist purely to make Me miserable:

the line where they call ash's oshawott a throwaway pokemon in the unova league so they're just flat out saying they think it's a worthless pokemon

to thine own pokemon be true (extra angst points for me bc ambipom was my second favorite on the team at the time)

the granddaughter of the guy who trains gliscor calling gliscor pathetic and weak to her face despite gliscor being an extremely sensitive pokemon

pretty much everything about that gible

blue episode (favorite color but they made it a fetish somehow and also dewott and brionne and meowstic are all there and its so bad)

boxing heracross immediately. also that battle frontier episode where it's literally the only returning ash mon (barring torkoal i think but i dont count it bc its native to AG) to get humiliated onscreen

pidgeot returning but gliscor didn't even show up in the miniseries despite being an Actual Character

#sorry ik i keep bringing up the throwaway line but like. its SOOOOOOOOOO bad holy shit #the heracross one isnt aaaaaas bad tbf bc they really make up for it in the sinnoh league #but aside from one ep in the miniseries we never quite get an episode where oshawott proves itself in a battle #i still love that episode bc it still kinda feels like an apology for all the oshawott bashing in bw but i am a little :/#that battling didnt even come up once #ive kiiinda eased up on gliscors benching episode bc at the end of the day it isssss pretty good to her. also its the best animated one #but its treatment like what i mentioned that still really drags it down to me #and also like. i know ppl praise gliscor being so powerful after the episode but i really dont get why we couldnt have just #had a gliscor training arc onscreen. but ig we wouldnt have that stupid ass gible plot that went nowhere now would we #but like.... we had such a huge stretch between that episode and the league. i really dont get why we couldnt have had a mini arc #where gliscor realizes shes not pulling her weight that well and really starts hauling ass #she doesnt really even sweep in the paul fight. she gets beaten immediately by ninjask #the drapion part was awesome tho yayyyy #but my point is that it wouldnt really change much if gliscor just stayed and got stronger on its own #have the bench episode be a wake up call for gliscor rather than a goodbye one and she becomes super competent #like im not just saying this bc gliscor is my favorite character in the entire show. i feel like its straight up kinda lazy and less reward #rewarding #imagine how the drapion fight could be EVEN MORE cathartic if we saw gliscor struggle and fight to get better throughout the show #as much as i like that specific battle and ash vs paul as a whole... it just kinda proves my point that sending gliscor away at all #was kind of a shitty move #like ohhhhh ash's team is all getting revenge for lake acuity yay!!!!! oh one of them was kicked off for the sake of a shitty gible plot th #which really only served to make shitty piplup bashing jokes and only actually had a conclusion in the league itself #by which time it was too late to actually do anything else with it. yeah we kicked someone off for that. but shes back now!!!#like it doesnt weaken the battle THAT much. in fact theres some value in how ash went out of his way to make sure gliscor could be there #so her defeat could also be avenged. and its still my fave battle in the whole anime. but it just proves to me how pointless that was reall #echoed voice

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nextstopparis · 1 year

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i have 95 unanswered asks. i am so fucking sorry oh my god

#I THOUGHT IT WAS 20 AR MOST I DIDNT REALIZE IVE BEEN IGNORING THEM FOR SO LONG OH MY GOD #IM SO SORRY IF YOUVE SENT ME AN ASK IN THE PAST YEAR #OH MY GOD. I FEEL LIKE SHIT NOW #thats not even counting the ask copy paste things. and when i kms then what.

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elegyofthemoon · 2 years

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damn this is so silly bc i was rambling so hard yesterday about how excited i am to finally be on the field DOING things and getting to experience what itd be like in my field of interesr

but now that its coming so close i feel more pukey and anxious orz

#snow speaks #hello im talking about my life dreams blahblahblah #like!!! everything ive worked so hard for is leading up to this !!!#but im also deathly afraid of the possibility that like. what if the dream ive worked so hard for isnt actually for me #and im not talking about mistakes and being a perfectionist thats a different story jdjdjd #i just mean like. what if its only then i realize i dont actually want to go into this and it makes me eek a bit djjddj #crushed dreams are always a sad sort of grief. its the worst kind i think lol #but yeah anyways #my team is talking about fields we each wanna go into so we can switch roles for when we do those specialties #BUT IM SOOO SCARED I JUST DONT WANT TO MAKE A FOOL OUT OF MYSELF #and moreover i just dont like. what if i just go in and realize i dont want to do it #its like walking a tightrope and falling either way.#like would i fall more in love with the work ??? or would i just fall and be crushed entirely ?? who knows #okay enough anxious talk fjdjdjd #vent #oh god im so sorry i didnt even tag this

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snekdood · 1 year

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Bitches on here be like "haha! I read this callout about you and i told everyone around me to ostracize you and ignore you and the reason you're alone is divinely orchestrated karma, of course, surely not me and my hand in manipulating people to hate you, surely this is some sort of divine intervention and not a smear campaign that i try to justify my actions with "its gods will" with"

#do yall ever consider the karma *YOU* will acquire for treating me this way over someone elses lies about me?#bc something tells me whatever im going through rn. that you think i shoulda killed myself over... well babe.#i got some bad news for you and how karma works. lmao #and oh baby it hurtsm oh mam am i just suffering so hard.#my body aches all the time. i dissociate constantly.#well. when it happens to you and you're all alone with no support yknow.... hope you figure it out :/#hope the karma doesnt hit you too hard :/#at least im strong enough to not let all of this shit make me go fully insane. doubtful for yall tho lmao #and im going to give just as little fucks about yall writhing in your mental agony as you have for me :)!#oh and uh. dont think karma will be light on you just because 'you didnt know you were being lied to 🥺'#aww.. poor you... but anyways yeah when you fuck w someones life even if you realize you did it over someone elses lie... kinda feel like #you're not gonna get out of hurting someone else so much that easily. kinda feel like thats not gonna happen for you.#kinda feel like the energy is eye for an eye not eye for an acknowledgement of your actions and regretting them.#but who knows. i guess it really depends on who you are. how sorry you actually am. how much you understand what you did and how you hurt #someone. all of that sorta stuff will decide how bad your karma is.#so ig. hopefully its nothing too bad !

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universalsatan · 1 year

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sometimes i forget how distinctly american my mother is, and how we are generally a product of our surroundings

#personal #just found out she’s pro-military!!! and she was accusing me of being anti-military because of watching x files. like girl i am 10 episodes #into this show. i have had these views for a Long time (VERY specifically about the us military). and im just like. damn. like yeah of COURS #it’s not plastered everywhere. ‘give me some peer reviewed articles’ i would but i just cant bring myself to get the energy to get stuck in #this exhausting npd abuse loop again (sounds exaggerated but im basically falling for exacerbating the situation. which is why it’s always #hit me the hardest i guess. because she Will just straight up either not mention it ever again or just simply deny it. and i’m not exactly #educated enough on the subject to remember specific points. my memory has been destroyed BECAUSE of this kinda shit and i cant recall decent #argument points anymore. not that i even particularly want to!!! read up on all this shit!!!! oh and even realizing that she was Definitely #seeing me as an Extreme. like girl what. i forgot that npd does that #reminds me of how. she’s very liberal. she was the one who got me out of the closet in the first place (bc i wouldnt do so myself)#and yet the other day. i swear she said something that was almost terf rhetoric #FUCK i HATE that my memory has already scrambled it. fuuuuuck and here i thought my memory was coming back #but it was something along the lines of implying that men Would try to get into women’s shelters etc in a skirt or smth and i #i just stopped talking i was so shocked #god. sorry didnt mean to vent lmao but im. hhh im just Tired yknow?#mandont

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skitskatdacat63 · 8 months

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Everyone in The Talented Mr Ripley is just the physical embodiment of a Leyendecker painting(including the homoerotica!!)

#my god guys that movie!!! THAT MOVIE!!!!!!#i was only watching it bcs i wanted to watch more Matt Damon movies and i saw him talk abt it in an interview #and hes very cute when he was younger so im like ooo sure ill watch it!!#and my mom was like oh okay ill watch it! i havent seen it since it came out #DID NOT EXPECT IT TO BE SO GAY?????????(/pos of course)#for like the first 20 mins my mom is like 'youre reading into it too much. its not gay'#AND THEN THE BATHTUB SCENE 🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠#what if we played chess except you were naked in the bath and i asked if i could get in along w you 😳#and from then on proceeded to become increasingly homoerotic #i will pretend the last 5 mins didnt happen 🙏#matt damon 🫢 i didnt realize he could play a queer chara!! he was soooo fucking good!!#its mostly bcs i didnt expect it to be homoerotic at all so i kept screaming every time it just got more #also bcs my mom denied it bcs she didnt remember it being so queer so i had to just keep looking at her like 😏#i think i liked his second male lover more they were very cute and even more explicitly queer #like with him and jude law its homoerotic but like also youre like huh is it just a close friendship? its a different era so?#but nope nope nope #very great movie very fantastic loved it so much. so sorry for the amnt of gifs im abt to reblog #catie.rambling.txt

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this-doesnt-endd · 2 years

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Not passing the vibe check at the moment

#i cant fall asleep even tho im tired and got sad like outta nowhere #i was just vibing chilling and then i was like #i will never recover from being like a teenage girl and my brain was like so fucking true bestie #lets get horrifically sad and start over analyzing everything about urself from birth to now #so im just having a time #also like this is a completly unrelated topic #but i got coffee 2day and they used oatmilk and i didnt know cause like i didnt ask for it but it had like a weird cinnamon taste #and i had my friend taste it who figured it out and it was whatever cause like i was trying figure out why it had a cereal oatmeal quality #before i figured it out #and like it was fine i drank it had my coffee but it worried me for just a second later cause like it was prolly an accident #but like i have food allergies and it was like damn what would have happened if like hazelnut syrup accidentally got used #and this is a flaw of mine but i go out virtually unprepared if i was to accidentally get something im allergic to #cause theyre easy things for me to avoid and im good abt being like nah if im not sure abt something or like asking #but i realized out of most places coffee is prolly an easier one for that to happen at and it was like oh damn #anyways sorry 2 be dramatic but i am #i just want like 2-3 days rot alone in bed but its summer break which means my mom is home and thats not happening #i also have a few new sudden bruises one that is very dark and like im a simple man somwthing happens and i google why #and fucking google is like lukemia and i know its not but like dont make me anxious but then its like vitamin defeciences #and i have like a few other lik things that ate annoying me that could also be from vitamin defiences and if they are like????#i just got a b12 shot not long ago and they usually make me feel pretty better for a few weeks and this one felt like it did nothing #am i that defiecent? how do i get to not be like is this a problem? can it become one?#and ive been waking up feeling overheated 2 a bloody nose which is odd cause the temp never changes im usually always a lil cold #and the blanket i use is super thin and its only been recently despite me changing nothing #my feet also hurt bad and i still havrnt gotten that referal for a physical therapist which like im not excited to go to at all but also #like damn my feet hurt and my ankle hurts and i swear im on the verge of rolling my ankle at an given moment like almost all the time #and ive broken both of them can they get some slack #and ive ruined my sleep schedual #and i want to scream cause im feeling all mixed up

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