#Alhamdulillah for not having that urge

[iphijaania]

tears are streaming down my face.

#Alhamdulillah that i live alone bcs im genuinely sobbing #ugly sobbing #love always means something! it always means something!! #and the urge to comfort a child when life inevitably causes pain… #thats the proof #we have so so so much love and we’re capable of doing so much with it #fuck #i am in literal tears bc of this thread #lettos says #cats #twitter #poetry

[nektaarr]

ah finally weekend i feel so dead like a ghost… i decided to do nothing this evening except eat and watch movies. Maybe get some popcorn even

#decided on watching new moon lmao #dont judge ok i‘ve been listening to a song that is used in one scene all week and the urge to watch the movie grew very big lol #i‘ve been feeling kinda dizzy all day long #i think i really might have iron deficiency again #but anyways #my parents finally came back from turkey too so tomorrow morning i‘ll be going home to them over the weekend inshaallah and soend some time #but nowww lets relax! #alhamdulillah #yxc

[sabrgirl]

how to maintain a tahajjud routine

trying to wake up for tahajjud + fajr is something that i've been trying to do consistently, especially as it's winter and the days are shorter. this can be hard with my uni studies/lectures and other commitments when I just want to sleep for longer and not wake up. however, these are some things that help me form a routine:

sleep early this means that you're getting enough sleep to not be as tired when you wake up. try and go to sleep around the same time every night so that when you do wake up for tahajjud, your body adjusts over time to this new routine. i tried to be asleep by 11pm and my body naturally started to wake me up around 5-5:30am because of this, alhamdulillah.

setting multiple alarms i am that girl who will wake up her whole house with alarms before it even wakes her up. if i want to wake up at 5:45, i set them for 5:40, 5:45, 5:50, 6:00 and eventually i get tired of snoozing them all and just get out of bed.

repeating 'prayer is better than sleep' in my head sometimes it is so tempting to say 'i'll get up in 5 minutes...' and then that 5 minutes turn into 2 hours. when having the urge to say this to myself and close my eyes, i try and battle it by repeating that phrase in my head which reminds me the blessings of salat and helps me get out of bed.

waking up 30 minutes before fajr by the time i finish praying tahajjud, it is fajr time and i get to complete the first prayer on time as well. this will make it feel easier as you're not waking up in the middle of the night and then going back to sleep and missing fajr or having to wake up for it again - you get to pray both around the same time.

doing something after fajr before a nap sometimes it's hard to go back to sleep after fajr on the days where I start university late/it's the weekend but i still want some rest. i started to do some reading after fajr to make me sleepy so that in an hour or two, i'd go back to sleep for another 2 hours and wake up feeling well rested and continue with the rest of the day. i'm always the most productive on these days. of course, it depends on your life schedule and what is going on in your life as well.

reading about the blessings of tahajjud understanding this makes me want to pray tahajjud even more as i know the benefits and beauty of waking up in the middle of the night when everyone else is asleep and Allah has descended to the lowest heaven in the third part of the night. it makes me want to wake up and be close to Him.

these are just what work for me. if these do not work for you, try and see what does and Insha’Allah you will form your own routine. may Allah make it easy for us all, Ameen.

#islam #muslim #quran #tahajjud #prayer #allah #muslims #sabrgirl #muslimah #islamic reminders #islamdaily #fajr #tahajud #hadith #islamic #dua #du'aa #du'a #qur'an #holy quran #allah swt #religion #ramadan #praying #righteousness #zikr

[seoafin]

😢 !!!!!

Torn because gojo getting cucked is delightful, devious, and totally deserved but also I low key feel like I kin stsg because who else is going to hydraulic press ripmc like they do...

I have sadistic urges and cute aggression towards ripmc I want to spoil stsg with her deeply hungered for presence like I'm feeding a little worm to my favourite praying mantises she's like my helpless little larva I watch squirm between my tongs it's just so cute to see stsg's nab her up into their bundled spider web god willing she will be devoured soon alhamdulillah 😭🥺🙏💯

how could i stop writing for ripverse when i get comments like these

#sometimes i want to just retire ripverse but i swear you all keep so entertained #HELPLESS LITTLE LARVA #i kinda need you....like biblically #ddao

[alhamdulillah10]

Alhamdulillah for the blessing of being alive. How many have died while they never expected it or they never had the possibility or the urge to learn and follow the Islamic teachings we nowadays have available to. Alhamdulillah for the life and the possibility to do good deeds still while we are alive. Alhamdulillah for every moment Allah can take our souls but He holds us alive. Alhamdulillah for the health and the rizq especially the rizq of guidance which is incomparable to anything else. Alhamdulillah for the health ya Allah and so many blessings we can never count.

[mashriqiyyah]

Asalam alaikum sister, I am a woman (28 years old) and I got married 8 months ago I did my engineering and was working before marriage but now my husband says to leave my job (alhamdulillah he earns more than enough) but I don't want to stop working I have a maid too she does all house tasks, how do I convince my husband or should I listen to him? (This will be very hard for me to sit at home useless 😢 I feel it is very dominating for man to order his wife like this)

Walaikum assalam wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuhu.

Okay, what I'm gonna say might not exactly please you. But, I'll try being as real with it as possible. In Sha Allah.

Look sis, your husband has whole right of *allowing* you to work outside your home or not. Allah has made him a Qawwam over you and trust me with it, but men DO know how the outside world works especially in Co- environments (free mixings). It might sound patriarchal to you when I say this, but let him lead the way. If he provides for you Allahumma Baarik which you said is more than enough, there's absolutely no need of you to tire yourself up especially when he doesn't want you to. He has the right to it. And yes, it might seem dominating, but maybe have an open conversation with him why he is saying no, if the reasons seem logical to you...then listen to him. I'd say why you should,

1. A woman's safe place is her home, and you wouldn't be idle sitting at home, you can nurture your home with your hands n skills. Your education can help you lead a thriving family In Sha Allah. Education never goes in vain. There are plenty of women I've seen n heard from who would give a tooth n bone to have what you have rn. Because you too might know how hectic it is to work outside your home especially if you're a practicing muslimah. Your househelp cannot take care of your home like you can do. The more you'll invest in your family/home/religious education of your future kids, the more you'll feel at peace because it is in our fitrah. A wholesome nurturing habit. I too worked for three years, but trust me, working from home seems so much comforting. It'll save you a lot of hassle. If there's an option or an opportunity where you can work from home, do so. I'd encourage you for it. But for now, focus on your family. This will go for long run.

2. The urge to be independent, and do it all at once will eventually exhaust you. If motherhood comes to you, In Sha Allah...you, yourself will think all the time about your kids back home.

3. As a woman, yes, do have househelp, but invest yourself too. When we go according to our innate nature, life's much more content n fulfilling.

I hope it clears your confusion. May Allah ease your affairs. Aameen.

[beykhabarr]

The muslim urge to say Alhamdulillah every time someone asks you how you're doing, because honestly you have no idea how you are doing and the answer is probably not good but you don't wanna say it.

#alhamdulillah and inshaAllah

[imaginationbeyondreality]

So, what’s new?

These past few weeks have been hectic. I feel so tired but for some strange reason, I do not feel sleepy. Well, maybe it’s because the board exam is pretty much just around the corner. So, I don't have the time to dillydally.

This year has been rough for me and… for my baby. I know she’s kinda old. We’ve been together for like seven years. And maybe, it’s about time she shows how much she has aged.

For starters, I do not even remember when was the last time I had her washed. Yes. Yes. It’s so irresponsible of me but I just don’t have the time these past few months.

I had to pay someone for a scratch (about a foot long) I caused in her car when I was leaving the parking lot. I’m not sure actually if I was the one who scratched her car but the security guard insisted. Though, what baffles me is that I have no scratch in mine. I mean, if I was the one who caused it should my car have a paint transfer of some sort? I don’t know. But because of this incident, I now have trust issues with security guards.

I stupidly left my car with the engine on for 20 hours. That’s almost a day! I wasted my fuel which I tanked up that day. Seriously, how stupid can I get?

For the first time in seven years, I had to visit a vulcanizing shop. I was alone and scared and skeptical. I mean. Is he doing the right thing or he’s just after sales? Silly me.

I had a mishap with a motorcycle, twice actually. Different instances. Alhamdulillah, no one got hurt. So yeah, I have new scratches on both sides.

One of my brake bulbs busted last year and now, two of them are not working. Back then, I had a hard time finding a replacement in CdeO so I gave up. But I realized, I have to replace it. So we searched again in IC but we still got no luck. We ended up asking someone to buy them in Manila and get them shipped here. So, yes. I got new bulbs but to my disappointment, both brake bulbs just stopped working. I think something is wrong with the wiring. And it’s definitely something that I cannot solve.

Next. Three of the warning lights on my dashboard are now persistently illuminated. I read my manual, did some research, and I found out that those warning lights are kinda serious and warrant a visit to an auto shop.

And just recently, my windshield cracked. I don’t know how and why, but it happened. I felt so sad and sorry and stupid. ‘Coz I think I am the only one who got her windshield cracked for no apparent reason. I did not see any other damage exteriorly, just the crack. Something might have hit it. Accidentally or not? I don’t know. Or did it crack because of too much heat? Or because she’s worn out? Well, I can’t tell.

But you know what’s funny? I religiously hang my sunshade cover every time I park and leave my car out. But strangely that day, I did not. Looking back, I remember having the urge to hang the sunshade cover before I leave but I dismissed the idea telling myself that I will leave early the next day so I don’t have to do it. But I did not leave the next day. I did not! And it totally slipped my mind that I did not hang the sunshade cover. So I basically left my car out in the scorching sun for two days. When I got in my car the next day, I did not notice the crack. I turned on my AC, as usual, and lowered the temperature. And it somehow occurred to me at that time that if I set the temperature too low, will my windshield break? And, AGAIN, I dismissed the idea. ‘Coz it’s what I’ve been doing for years. I turn my AC on immediately. I only noticed the crack when I was outside the compound. Wait. Did I really notice it when I was out or was it when I turned my AC on? Did something fall and cracked the windshield when I left the car to close the gate? Ugh. I don’t know. My memories are playing tricks on me. They’re confusing me.

I can’t help myself but be bothered. I keep on thinking that I was the one who made it happen. It’s my fault. I feel stupid and irresponsible and broke. ‘Coz the repair, you know, would definitely cost a lot. I know it’s wrong of me to wallow in sadness, but I couldn’t help it. I have this feeling that none of these could have happened if I was careful. I might have prevented it had I listened to my inner self. But really. Whom am I kidding? They are bound to happen. They happened for a reason.

Ya Allah. Grant me wisdom and strength.

Sigh.

#3 #2022 #sorry #broke

[nightowlpostsstuff]

How do people accept the life they have. Like yes, Alhamdulillah. But how do i get rid of the urge to rip my heart out at the thought of the person I couldn't become

[religiouslife]

At the time of #rain.(End)

We have to pray to Almighty Allah to save us from extensive damage due to excessive rain. Rasulullah (PBUH) once prayed 'Allahumma Hawailaina wa Alaina' during heavy rain. That is, 'Oh God! Make it rain around us, not here.' (Sunan Nasa'i, Hadith No. 1527)

When the rain ended, the Prophet (PBUH) urged the Companions to recite a special prayer. The prayer is 'Mutirna bifadlillahi wa rahmatih' (look up the Arabic wording). That is, 'by the grace and mercy of Allah rain has fallen on us'. (Bukhari Sharif, Hadith No. 1038)

Note that at that time the infidels of Mecca believed that the stars in the sky brought rain to the earth. But this is a complete misconception. Rasulullah (PBUH) recited the dua at the end of the rain which proved that it is Almighty Allah Ta'ala who rains on us on earth. Alhamdulillah.

Finish.

(N.B. To write this article, the necessary information has been collected from many domestic and foreign holy Islamic books/Kitabs and the writings of experienced experts in the related field. I sincerely express my gratitude to all those writers who are experts in the related subject. If I have unintentionally mentioned any information wrongly or distortedly, I humbly apologize to everyone including the readers.)

#আল্লাহ #বৃষ্টি #দোয়া #rain #পানি #water

[sassynachomilkshake]

Hi! Been a long time not seeing you

These last few days i felt not that good but also not as bad as two weeks before ipp. I'm not chosen to go to the next phase of IPP, as I want. But also not that happy knowing my salary is UMR, decreased 25%. I feel the urge to search other company but i still didnt apply2 yet :(. Actually it made me down and felt bad with me like why i choose to be comfort on stuff i didnt like.

I tried to manage my money better but i think i couldn't let me think from the point of lack of blessing. Alhamdulillah I still alive, could breath easily, i have no back pain, could rent a small private room for me, have many books i havent read, also have freedom how i could use my free time. Idk why im lazy to do yoga and meditate eventho i need that.

I think im lack of looking up so i could have spirit more to attract what i want or search deeper what i want and connect deeper with Him. Also looking down to know that im that lucky actually to have income, not that bad family, also me. Also looking in to see clearly what i actually need and want, like why im staying in chaotic and kobam self. Also looking to the past and gratefully could leave what wasnt meant for me behind. So i could make conclusion im not groundy enough or strong on my feet. I think i should meditate even i don't want. Bye

7.30 p.m. march, 10th

[shashawww]

the pain, the sacrifices, the heartbreak, the betrayal... all these things that i faced alone is quite a reason to be more gentle towards myself.

to give myself the biggest & warmest hug because i never gave up despite feeling so hopeless when i first started stepping onto the reality world of an adult’s life.

2 more weeks till my new journey commences... without the prayer of my parents, without the support from my families, without the recognitions from my boss/clients, without the cheering from my friends who’s close to me, without the confidence that i have for myself, and last but not least, without the willing of the God’s Almighty; who is The Most Loving & The All-Embracing – I wouldn’t be able to experience this dream.

i’m more than grateful. it’s unexplainable, this feeling of gratitude. when i was feeling lost, sad, betrayed, hurt, guilty, confused, and many other negative emotions... i seriously thought that my life is gonna be stagnant for quite a long time. but really, thanks to the Most Merciful Lord who offered me His blessings & forgiveness & unconditional love, i managed to fight the urge to give up and just move on with life (which made me learn a lot about acceptance and the concept of redha, alhamdulillah)

one thing nowadays that i will always remind myself of is to never stop being thankful towards everything, but most importantly, towards God & also yourself. and if there’s people who has been by your side, who has never doubt your capabilities, who has never keep any scores, who has always want the best thing for you – keep them close & always express your gratitude towards them. it’ll keep you humble, seriously. i have so much love and warmth inside me now ever since i practice this habit of expressing my gratefulness towards the people that i love. should’ve practice it sooner, but hey, better late than never.

never once in my life have i dream of becoming rich/wealthy. all my life i have always said to myself that i want to achieve peace. i want to live in peace. even in the Holy Quran, peace is the ultimate goal that we should be aiming for. once you are grateful and content, only then you can feel the peace. and that is what i’ve been striving for. i want to be in peace, live in peace, meet people in peace, and practice my deen in peace. InshaAllah, hopefully all the dreams & goals that i’m currently working on, may Allah put barakah in every steps that i take so that i’ll feel content in everything that i achieved. amin ❤️

#mypost

[pegasus-ghost]

I’ve been crying a lot.

Yeah, I said it.

I’ve admitted the problem to myself that I have been suppressing my emotions, and that had grew into deep resentment and bitterness inside of me, that it became part of who I am.

I hate that about myself. I hate that I’m resentful, bitter, full of anger and hate.

I’m trying to change that. It’s fucking challenging, but I’m trying my hardest.

I’m trying to change to be a better person. I’m trying to allow myself to feel my emotions more, allowing myself to cry more. I am trying to train my mindset to see this world in a different perspective.

That this world is temporary, that I need to care more of what’s gonna become of me in the afterlife.

And the road to that is to be a better person. Im training myself to be more patient, to watch my words more, to curse less and recite zikir more often. Im training myself to think of Allah and His blessing in my life as often as I can.

There was this one time where I told myself that I wanted to sleep in, and I already planned to fap the night before, sleep in during fajr prayer, and qada my prayer the next morning, just because I didn’t wanna wake up in the middle of the morning to shower on a weekend before my prayers.

I knew it was wrong, but it got the better of me. I did it anyways.

And the next morning, fuck.

The overwhelming regret and shame I felt to Allah for that.

For doing that on purpose knowing all too well that Allah knows it.

The fucking shame.

It’s hard. To give up on sexual desires. To give up on fapping to me is the biggest challenge in my life.

But I need to remind myself that I NEED to do this, I need to fight back the urge. For my own goodness sake after I die. I don’t wanna end up being in hell for eternity just because I can’t keep my hands off my privates for a few years.

It’s hard. But I’m trying.

Also, I found myself crying often after my prayer is done. I cried a lot when making dua to Allah, begging him to forgive me. I feel worthless and I feel like I don’t have anyone else to turn to other than Him when it comes to giving me guidance. I feel like my heart is dirty and black as fuck, that I don’t deserve heaven, but I desperately want to be saved from hell. I cried often when begging him to save me.

And I always broke into tears whenever I begged Him “Please don’t give up on me.”

At the same time, I felt closer to Allah than I ever did for the last 20 years. And I don’t know why, I started feeling this…. I don’t know how to describe it. You know when you’re away with your loved one, and you miss them so much, that you feel this lovey dovey feeling whenever you thought about them, and the excitement you have whenever you thought about meeting them?

I felt that way for Allah. I felt like I miss Him so much that I wanted to die just to end this worldly life to move on to the next stage of life.

I also feel more at peace now that I have faith in Him always listening to me and willing to help me anytime I needed Him. I feel at peace knowing that He loves me dearly and is helping me in being a better person so I can go to heaven.

I don’t know. I just feel like He is closer to me now more than ever and I love that feeling. Makes me feel fulfilled and never alone.

Alhamdulillah. That’s all I can say.

[whatnowhaya]

Randomness but not really...

I'm noticing more and more, that whenever I tell someone about something that is bothering me or more specifically, something that causes me to "vent", I cause them to laugh or I, accidentally humour them somehow, and hey, I'm not saying that it's bad or my life isn't this big "tragedy" ( yes, I am dramatic but I like the word thus I used it 🤷🏻‍♀️) but still, it would be nice to have someone to understand where you're coming from without feeling the need to "light" things for them, you know?

I do notice that I make serious situations more "delightful" but I wish I don't, like when I'm asked how my day was, I'd like to simply say, " it was shit, I cried for only a few minutes cause my brain said, snap out of It; to say, I fought the urge to do any destructive acts against myself again, or to say, I failed to not "harm" myself today... But instead, I say, "😅 Alhamdulillah I'm good, I did cry a bit, but what's new🤣 how about you lol"... I think without emojis I'm a different person...

What bothers me is that I'll stop myself from saying or sharing much, even tho I'm talking to the person who knows quite a lot about me; do I wanna protect them from weighting them down with "me" or deep down, I don't feel like my share of shit is that important... Maybe I know that I'm being dramatic and it's not that bad, that I'm just doing this to myself, so it's all lies...

Or maybe the word "dramatic" was said so much to me that I see it as a fact or whatever...

Idk, where I'm going with this, so yeah😬

Tuesday

18/7/2022

#inner thoughts #noticing #personal entry #guess im having it a bit tough

[curryaboo]

i did it lads!! i finally finished that 5000 word essay!!!!

#ALHAMDULILLAH ALHAMDULILLAH #not quite at 5k words but i am SO over it i can’t even tell u #i can finally stop this bitch from dragging me down now i don’t even care what my grade turns out to be im so #spiteful rn 😭😭 #fighting off every urge to even think about committing miss piggy’s amphibious lover during it was the hardest thing i’ve done this year #the catch is that I can’t even catch a break i have a psych test today and need to stay up to finish revising 😭😭😭😭😭 #and then this law admissions test tomorrow then a bio test on wednesday yah Allah what stopped u from making me into a fly #🥭