#DAMN I MEANT FIX.

[mattodore]

playing with dionte's hair bc i'm procrastinating

#river dipping #dionte duval #lykos #ts4 #i do really love how dionte and nicholas kinda have a b4b (bald for bald) thing going on.... but that first hair........ #he looks so good... the urge to keep it is gonna make me develop a twitch under my eye... #i love the shadows the locs add btw like i personally loveee when hair creators add shading #like the DRAMAAA it adds!!! #also don't look too closely at him here bc i actually haven't updated him yet hence no proper edit of him (tho i probably won't change much #i'm really just supposed to be cleaning out the hundreds!! of duplicate households in my library dkhjnkfgh i just. get so distracted #i also have to fix mattodore's households bc i think i accidentally deleted the updated version of them at 20... #like there are multiple other saves?? but they're all with matthias's old chin??? like literally WHERE did the updated version go #so i need to clean out my library from the top down and fix their sims #i really messed my sleep schedule up the day before yesterday when i was working on those edits of delphi btw #but i did enjoy rewatching secretary and watching charade while staying up all night to do them <3 #also listened to the first two chapters of freedom is a constant struggle! editing may take me forever but i do do other things as i do it #...........talking a lot in these tags bc i'm seriously procrastinating jdkhnf i do NOT ! want to clean through my library it's a mess #OH. ALSO GOOD MORNING I FORGOT TO SAY THAT ‼️ #seeing this again two days later and seeing the amount of notes....... y'all weren't meant to reblog this kjhdkfjhndkjgnh #now i'm like damn... is there any reason to make his intro edit like i did for ria and delphi 😭😭😭😭😭

[joltning]

please come out and play with us now!

#colorpicked from the mamas boy mv #you can BARELY tell it’s them Omg. my bad. I cant do thsi. #this is meant to be grif and simmons after they accidentally kill grifs mom. Bye. sorry #rvb #red vs blue #rvb simmons #rvb grif #simmons looks so damn busted up I had to go back and fix him after this #this is a post I’m definitely gonna remake in the future because I just don’t have the capacity rn #simmons rvb #dick simmons #grif rvb #dexter grif #art

[mothman-did-nothing-wrong]

Okay was anyone gonna tell me that I was like actually shadowbanned or was I supposed to just find out after my friend jokingly brought it up

#beanman has left us 😔 #I mean I asked them to because I wondered if that was what was causing the problems my blogs has #(invisible to everyone; interaction nonexistent; cant tag ppl; ect...) #but then they were like ''mothman blog shadowban.....'' and it just fucking occurred to me that #I don't know what shadowbanned meant lmao so I looked it up and whaddaya know #someone made a post about what shadowbanned meant and a list of things to look out for if you believed your blog was affected #and damn I had all the symptoms y'all #ughhhbbb I already sent a thing to staff we'll just have to see if I can get this fixed #or if my blog is just gonna be fucked forever I guess #whatever happens happens

[indecisive-dizzy]

Looking at a sketch I did a few days ago-

The Sketch:

Me: :/ *adds a tiny dot for a belly button*

The sketch: 💥💥💕💕✨💥💕✨💕💕💕✨✨💥

#the wonders of tiny details! #the sketch itself is tiny. was meant to visualize something real quick #so it's a low effort bad sketch but damn #adding the belly button fixed it #wait. hold on to clarify something! bc i realize how this sounds #I was visualizing tattoo placement. Its a half body sketch #additional note #sometimes I draw hair really good and im so happy with a different sketch i just did #typing out loud

[bumblingbabooshka]

Tuvok is no doubt the best off amongst the main crew when it comes to his life post-Voyager. His wife and children are still there, he won’t have any personally complicated feelings to sort out about Starfleet (other than its treatment of the Maquis he served with and Seven of Nine but again he seems to be very loyal to Starfleet as a baseline and generally willing to give them the benefit of the doubt) and he’s got that Vulcan emotional control. However, I do wonder what being seen as the one who’s got it all together would have on him. I can easily imagine other members of Voyager’s crew casually asserting that Tuvok is doing well, better, the best compared to all of them. He’s got nothing to complain about, does he? Now that his illness has been cured. I can imagine this was also the case on Voyager. Tuvok’s gonna be fine in the end, he’s Vulcan and he never seems to be affected by all the weird and disturbing shit that happens to us. Tuvok himself likely adds to this perception of himself because I imagine it’s easier to lean into the idea that you’re above any potential damage you might’ve sustained when there’s so much of it. If you assert hard enough that you’re fine, you’re mature, you’re Vulcan, and everyone around you seems to affirm that then maybe you don’t have to work through everything. Especially when there’s so much, more than you’ve ever experienced in your life, and time is so limited.

Vulcans have very volatile emotions and have to process them carefully in order to function. I can’t imagine that Voyager, the horrorship with ten disasters a day, (all of which concern you as its inhabitant and security officer) is conducive to being able to completely internalize and accept your emotions especially when you’ve just lost essentially your entire support network (immediately after being undercover) and are surrounded by aliens who you’re not allowed (culturally and also because you’re sort of stubborn and reclusive) to be fully honest with and lean on for that support. (It would be a weakness, you might think. Not for them, they’re humans but you are not human. You can handle things on your own.) It’s just you and you alone really. No one to turn to, no one who you think might understand and help you the (Vulcan) way you need.  But also again I don’t think Tuvok would dwell on this much on Voyager because there’s nothing he can change about it so it’d be illogical and very unhelpful. Also because the idea that he’s unaffected is ‘good’ for him (better than the alternative which wounds his self-image and also to an extent ship morale <- latter is somewhat of an excuse, in his nightmares he can hear people gossiping that even the Vulcan’s losing it.) and his general personality is one that is obviously prideful to the point of others calling him arrogant or holier-than-thou. Tuvok would definitely take being seen as unfaltering and unflappable (undamaged) to anything else. Anything less. He can do a bit of unintentional self-mythologizing as a treat instead of therapy. It would help him feel like he’s still himself, still Vulcan, still whole. However, when he’s back in the alpha quadrant and amongst other Vulcans, people who are allowed to and do know him intimately (or even strangers who are just the same species as him and thus are not encumbered by preconceived alien notions of Vulcans) I bet this facade of being unaffected by everything would come crumbling down fairly quickly. 

#Tuvok meeting any member of Starfleet to get a quick fix of 'Tuvok you're so damn lucky your life's perfect and you're doing great' #before going home to his family who all say 'Tuvok you're so damn stubborn please get help we can see clear as day you're doing terribly' #you might say that 'ship morale' is positioning Tuvok as more important than he actually is to the average crewman #which is true but also I can imagine Tuvok having a bit of a self-importance thing - it's a trait he and Janeway share and it becomes #exacerbated in the delta quadrant where they really are to some extent INCREDIBLY important #People tell T'Pel she's lucky she & Tuvok are Vulcan so they're pretty much fine and she sort of looks away and slowly says...mm....... #st voyager #Tuvok #STARFLEET?? I meant Voyager #one day Janeway & Tuvok are gonna turn on each other #'once loyal enabler betrays friend by suggesting therapy' style

[young-prince-firefly]

I am sinking into a hole in the floor forever

#this is because somebody decided to appeal to his boyfriend's inherent motivations for existing #they make me ill #now i know for a damn fact kill atsushi is an order hes been given but is choosing to ignore #he is ignoring said order because atsushi is breaking through to him #he even responded #i can't do this #also wtf fyodor? #not the stabbing #that makes sense #i meant the just letting sigma read your plans #what do you mean if he has the guts? #also fukuzawa has lost too much blood! #hes gonna die and ill have to write a fix-it fic to cope #bsd 108 #sskk #help #firefly posts

[ambidexedition]

I love finishing an excellent book or game or show or whatever and just knowing, deep in my soul, that the fanfic is going to be so incredibly bad

#personal ramblings #this isn't about anything specific it's just a common pattern I've noticed #I think fandom flourishes with more 'mediocre' media bc there's more plot holes to poke at and characterization gripes to fix #and dropped threads to be picked up #whereas if you finish a show and you're like ''damn that was good! would not change a thing!'' #the fandom's kind of at a loss and all you get are like. 'what if the angst here was... WORSE' or plotless coffeeshop aus #entirely divorced from the original context bc you can't really improve upon the original context #no offense meant to coffeeshop aus they are just not my cup of tea. cup of coffee?

[perilegs]

It's not an immediate change. When the party arrived in Baldur's gate, Nøkk became quieter. Bit by bit. You could hear him sing to himself or tell tales by the campfire less and less. If he didn't need it to cast spells, Nøkk's violin would have started to collect dust. The night before the journey to the Bhaal temple was dead silent.

#there was a tweet about what your tav/durges questline would be called if they were a companion and #i wanted it to do something with both bhaal and nøkks class as a bard and started thinking about canaries and #that one reddit post where someone was so sad bc they hadnt heard their roommate sing in a while #and idk i just love nøkk so much. he cares so much about how he presents himself but you cannot get that man to shut up #he's deathly afraid of the tadpole in his head but that won't stop him from humming to himself as he does whatever around the campsite #and i know he and wyll love telling stories back and forth. maybe they both know the same story and tell it together #and he's always on that damn violin #but the proximity to his father makes is a deer feeling coming straight from his core #humming to calm himself down while seeming nonchalant to others isnt an option #this is the kind of thing that paralyzes a man #as for most magic users. magic is nøkk's very essence. his soul. but as a bard. that magic is a melody. music. a hymn #bhaal smothers that. #under his influence. nøkk and his music. the essence of his soul. has been nothing but a tool for murder. #he's been reclaiming it bit by bit #but old habits die hard #auugh i love nøkk so much #oc: nøkk #oc: nøkk text #by makes is a deer i meant makes it a deeper #ill fix that when im on my computer and can edit tags

[fredthedemonpartner]

Relistening to the Magnus Archives for the fifth or seventh time, I’ve started using aspects of the show to describe my feelings about relationships and traumas. Today I told my therapist that “I think that the lonely would be tempting to me, and I would probably fall prey to it. But the one that really appeals to me is the stranger…” unironically despite the fact that they have never listened to it and probably don’t fully understand what the hell I’m talking about.

#I also went on a five minute rant about how romance in horror is more appealing to me than any other romantic subplot #because the idea of choosing someone who could be ripped away from you at any moment #hell someone who is actively tying themself to something that will inevitably rip them away #and saying fuck it all we could run away together consequences be damned #and still choosing them after they say no and after the world ends they become your reason to go on #that is something that makes me believe in the power of love more than anything else #tma #the magnus archives #the lonely tma #the stranger tma #something something maybe it doesn’t matter if i can’t fix them or they can’t fix me #because there’s no one I’d rather be with at the end of all we know #no one who id rather walk with towards something that will almost surely bring our end #no one else who I would trust to take the knife and end me if it meant saving the world

[bookwyrminspiration]

I asked you bc you always seem to know what's up :)

"Why would you ask me??? Fin would give you a better answer" *Proceeds to give the exact page number and context for the scene*

Hearing about all this stuff is making me realise Kenric is like. Lowkey Toxic. I was under the impression that he was Sweet Innocent UwU bean Councillor but everyday that passes and the more that I learn it's actually sounding like Bronte is the sweet innocent UwU bean. Oralie is in a league of her own

-Heathen

grumble grumble I GUESS you have a point. I walked into that one, i'm just too knowledgeable and helpful for my own good and also really really cute on top of all that

I'm not the most councillor oriented person, so I don't have very intimate familiarity with Kenric, but I'd say he's less a toxic person and more a human one. We meet him through Sophie's young eyes, and Kenric treats her like she's her age; he understands there's more going on, but he also remembers she's young. And so we learn a version of him that isn't completely true. Because with kids you're indulgent, you're animated, you're putting on the nicest, most comforting persona you have (obviously not applicable to every single situation in the world).

And then he dies, and Sophie gets older, and she sees memories of him that don't have that child filter. Memories between adults, and we see that he has more to him, and nuance, and complications, and imperfections. He has secrets, sometimes does things for selfish reasons, and is doing way more than he ever let on when he was alive. He has complicated relationships he can't fulfill, and he makes mistakes, and tries to make it up, but most of all is trying.

That's a very brief overview, but I'd personally hesitate to call Kenric toxic. I think he was a person with an invisible burden on his shoulders, and that's becoming more and more obvious the more we learn, especially contrasted with the idealized memory of him. But those are just my thoughts!

#kotlc #quil's queries #heathen nonsie #councillor kenric #someone who thinks more about kenric could articulate this better #also this is in no way meant to be an aggressive or rude argument #just a 'hmm you said this. but I think it could be better understood like this!' #nothing serious #hot damn I need to fix the back of my hair

[yappacadaver]

you know what it makes perfect sense that raymond is not as fucked up as he should be

like yea life sucks and you work like 12 hour days and you have no one and nobody, yea you're getting old and have spent your life committing atrocities against your will, keeping secrets you wish you never had, sure no one likes you, and yea the addiction/family trauma/demons pretty much run your life

but you live near the ocean and can see her whenever you want literally just a fucking. 5 minute drive. maybe not even!!!!! Like you know what??? I'd be willing and ready to forgive people and rationalize their stupid-ass decisions too if I could just. Sit on the beach afterwards.

#I may have never lived in or even visited japan (poor)(american) #but i can feel the fucking. call of the ocean or whatever. I wasn't meant to be this far from a coast I was meant to live near water #this is like a half-joke cause while it absolutely would fix me it's very obvious raymond needs something a little stronger!!! but damn

[elstrange]

Top 10 fix-it fic recs, please.

#good omens 2 #fix it fic #broke my damn heart #aziraphale done dirty #crowley done dirty #maybe ineffable doesn't mean what i thought it meant #or maybe it does #truth #ineffable is certainly a way to describe it. #nonlonger ineffable idiots since Crowley went and #confessed

[nobodynobodyno]

me now after the special episodes ended: you know what it never was? that serious, it was never that serious!

#d rambles #like i've been through such a range of emotions since last week let me tell you #i had no expectations for this and then i actually really liked the first episode and it set my expectations too high and got disappointed #but then after today's episodes i am like #damn it really wasn't meant to be taken that seriously #it's just a couple of silly little special episodes #that had plenty of good monents which i'll look back fondly on #i got to write a fix-it about sth i didn't like too so #i feel normal now #can go back to my life #finally

[typheus]

omg i fixed my themes broken links problem

#other #t talks #fdkjhlshfl #straight up put it in dashboard mode for months cause i didnt wanna see those damn unclickable links 😭😭😭 #but i fixed it! #i had a stray extra /div in there fucking it up #now i have to actually update my toyhouse so i can add my characters links again 😅 #tho i am Finally working on the oc lineup again! #meant to do it last year for artfight but i got lazy :/ #but now this year im working on it early. instead of 3 days before artfight. #cause i have a functioning brain this year 👍😌✌️ #a functional brain that notice the one (1) extra line of coding on my blog 😎

[bisaster-energy]

bitches will hate the later seasons of spn but um...have you considered..no jack? no special sunshine baby you crave ?? sorry but I'd suffer through another 10 seasons of that show if it meant I got to see jack grow and their dads grow with them

#like yeah the lighting in later seasons is terrible #we all love the sexy kripke horror feel #but be realistic. less seasons means EVEN less cas and jack etc #plus seeing those dudes become middle aged instead of kicking the bucket permanently at 30 like hunters do?? mwah #just because the show didn't acknowledge how they changed doesn't mean they... didn't #because there's a difference between where they were and how far they came!! they grew and learned and god they LOVED #they loved each other so much they're family #if it meant i got to see that I'd watch another 5 seasons and 2 reboots #because fuck it'd be worth it it'd be WORTH #FULLY seeing dean go from ''why would an angel rescue me from hell'' to ''i do deserve to be saved'' #to see sam go from desperately trying to be ''normal'' and good and accepting that he isn't just some evil thing #and he IS worthy he's not tainted and he deserves to be a total freak and love it #and cas ohhhh cas will be loved he'll be wanted and be ALLOWED to want and love in return he'd be soft. he'd be happy. #jack can grow up to be whatever the fuck they want. through him their dads will find their shortcomings and try to fix them for his sake #they'll get to experience emotions be a CHILD #get driven to school have movie nights with their family and feel like the luckiest god damn kid in the world #i deserved to see that family dont end in blood #wow this got long #supernatural

[boy-above]

i love my dick even if it doesn't exist, pretending it does is self care i think. just like i started taking care of myself so i look nice for a boyfriend that doesn't exist. imagining what Could be helps me in the present i guess. even though i know it's not going to happen

#i got my teeth fixed and started taking care of myself for a hypothetical boyfriend #i don't think doing any of those things is going to make it More Likely that somebody will love me #because it's just kind of a given that i'm not going to have someone no matter what i do #but taking care of myself makes me feel less silly for imagining it #yknow #the idea of someone being attracted to me. it makes the notion feel a little less ridiculous #and sometimes that's all i need #so in a way i guess despite it being for a hypothetical boy it's still for Me in a way? #makes me feel a little better somehow #wow damn marshal crying in the club tonight #i just wish i had a dick and i wish i had a boyfriend #and i wish nobody would ever see me as anything other than a man #no matter how i looked #is it so bad to want to be cute and pretty and small but still be man? #is it so stupid to dream abt a world where i could be that? #i know it's not happening because the world just isn't meant for people like me #but yknow!! #i do wish i could think about it without feeling like an idiot even in the privacy of my own thoughts #like damn stupid dumbfuck marshal thinking he can be a pretty boy and someone could love him #fuck me i guess lmaooooo #anyway sorry marshal seems to be having a Moment™️ #marshal gets harshal #i guess