#Here comes a thought (Musings)

[crybaby-bkg]

cw: this got long sorry 😔 but creepy/perv bakugou, recording, film major bkg x art major reader, masturbation, coercion, dubcon before it just becomes con, voyeurism/exhibitionism

as an art major, you typically did some works for a few students on campus; for their plays, as background pieces while they danced, a cover for their released songs. it wasn’t out of the ordinary for people to ask you to create something for them, and you enjoyed it more often than not. but, you weren’t usually the art itself.

Bakugou is a friend’s friend that you’ve seen a few times, ran into at the library or at coffee shops. he’s a film major, and always looks so unhappy about the whole thing, as if he didn’t choose it himself. you joke to Mina that you think he’ll graduate and become one of those directors that hate everything and yell at the actors constantly and later on get sued for being a dickhead. you never say it to him though—you’ve never spoken more than a couple words to the man.

it’s why it shocks you when he approaches you one day. it’s after one of your painting classes, and he stands outside the door with a frown and his hands shoved in his pockets, his eyebrows scrunched as if pissed at the mere sight of you. he asks you, in that low and gruff tone of his, if you could star in his final project for the semester. says it’s supposed to be a film made with this criteria and that, but, you’ve kind of checked out on the conversation after the first sentence.

“You mean, you want me to create something and that be the star of your film?” you ask him, feeling so intimidated at his stature. he always seems to loom, his hair shadowing the lights above, creates a cast over a portion of his face, makes his eyes look…unsettling. like they’re looking straight through your flesh, can find the marrow in your bones. he scoffs like you’ve offended him, rolling his eyes into his skull, mouth pulled tight.

“No.” his voice is firm, gaze concentrated only on you, like the halls are empty and you’re the focus of his lens. “I want you to star in it.”

his words confuse you—you’ve never presented yourself as an actor before, never alluded to wanting to be in the spotlight if not for what you create with your hands. but he shuffles on his feet, looks desperate even. there’s some hemming and hawing for a minute or so—why not choose Mina?—she’s busy—why choose me?—‘cause you’d be perfect for my short film—what’s it about?—you’ll find out once you get the script.

and even after you hesitantly agree and get the script—you still don’t understand what you’re doing. why you’re here, why you’re the only person, why it has to be a solo film, why there’s damn near zero lines in the entirety of the have-to-be forty five minute film.

the scenes are all so long, and maybe it’s because movies aren’t your forte or chosen major, but you just don’t get it. one scene; you’re staring at yourself in the mirror while Bakugou holds a small, black camera over your shoulder. he’s eerily quiet behind you, whispers out a faint fuckin’ go when you have to wash your face in the sink, makes you do it over because your movements are too jerky and unnatural.

the rest of the scenes go that way; you doing regular at home activities, being put under a lens, quietly barked at to do this and move that way and fix your hair and remember to frown.

“Isn’t there another way to film this?” you ask him on the fifth day of shooting in his spacious loft. there’s a bubble bath scene coming up, one you dont understand the importance of, but Bakugou tells you it’s the most necessary part of the entire thing.

“No,” he grunts out, looking at you from under his lashes as he sits on the lid of the toilet. “But I’ll make it soapy, so the camera won’t see much.” the camera? much? you weren’t worried so much about what the camera captured as you were the man behind it. he looks at you with such intensity, you feel naked already despite the robe you wear that’s suspiciously already your size.

he leaves the bathroom when you sink in the hot water, returns before you can say it’s okay, hears the water splashing and thinks that’s good enough. he kneels on the floor beside you, camera pointed directly in your face, makes your chest hot and your skin feel prickly. the scene passes on regularly enough; you run the water over your arms, tilt your head back as you sigh, whisper the few lines scripted, lean back and close your eyes, sigh again. it’s almost relaxing, makes you forget about the friend of a friend recording you naked right now. almost.

“Touch yourself.” Bakugou suddenly demands, hushed and quiet behind the camera. your eyes immediately shoot open, looking to him in question, how he’s eerily still in his spot hovering over you.

“Huh?” you ask, unsure if you heard him correctly, looking around the rounded lens in your face, trying to ignore the red blinking light. but Bakugou only frowns.

“It’s a masturbation scene. Touch yourself.” he repeats, voice louder, more demanding this time. your stomach twists at the thought of doing something so intimate in front of him. he’s a handsome guy, for sure, even made you consider asking him out after this, figured he was just serious about his work and awkward about certain things. but…something had been off about this entire thing since the start.

“But—but I don’t, I’m not,” you stutter, sitting up a little, the bubbles covering your chest starting to disperse with your movements. but Bakugou only sits a little higher on his knees, finally pulling the camera away from his face for the first time since he’s asked you to do this for him.

“You want me to fail?” he asks, booming voice eerily quiet in the silent bathroom, carmine eyes dull, shaded over with something terrible. “Then do it.” he tells you when you shake your head quickly.

you stare at him until he gets back into position again, camera back pointed at you. when he doesn’t say anything else, you swallow thickly, wondering if the art that will come out of this will be worth it. so you listen, sneak a hand under the water, start touching yourself in a way you never have in front of anyone.

is it bad to say that it’s exhilarating? being watched and recorded by someone who breathes so heavily every time your voice hiccups? being directed to touch your chest next when the suds start to disappear and your nipples start to peek through? is it bad that you want him to send you this portion of his film, only, just so you can watch yourself again and again? make a portrait of yourself with your fingers on your nipples and your knees raising from the water and your head thrown back from the intensity in oil pastels?

“That’s a wrap.” Bakugou announces when you finish, head spinning and still panting. you look over to him, how he closes the camera, the obvious bulge in his pants. “I’ll get you a towel.”

you wonder when’s the next time he’ll need you. or better yet—maybe he could be the star in your final drawing project? you had finished it already but, what was the harm in starting over with him as your muse? as naked as you are? camera not blocking his face so you can paint the similarities of his blushing cheeks and eyes when you direct him to look at you? to touch his chest? to play with himself just like that?

#this got. so long. sowwy #but I thought about this ummmm Sunday night #but I was DRAINED from writing 7k words of scorned past midnight and then having to edit it skdjfkf #so I was like. okay. put this idea in the drafts. NOW ms dory memory #anddddd I love this so very much #would’ve loved to turn this into a full fic #but it’s so exhausting trying to write long fics recently bc of this multichap #I’m just not used to it and I can’t do two things at the same time #and I already have like 9 fics on my list to write!!!! lol #but there is something so alluring about film major bkg 2 me #I think hes awkward and comes off as mean but he really is just that serious about his work #but he’s #also a creep for you LOL #definitely think he agrees to become ur muse for art as like a trade off #and you get that boy into SO many humiliating positions 😵‍💫 #I need. to lie down. anyway. #I wrote this at 1am and was scared to post it then cause I didn’t think anyone would see it #so here it is in the morning :) #bakugou treats! 🍬 #—new treat in the streets! 🍫

[relicsongmel]

Reblog if you love this girl ❤️

#mel's musings #iris hawthorne #iris fey #iris of hazakura temple #aa #MY IRIS DOC IS FINALLY DONE Y’ALL #TWENTY SEVEN PAGES AND COUNTING OF THINGS I LOVE ABOUT THIS WOMAN #soon enough i'll be converting much of it into meta that will be posted here because good golly do i have Thoughts i want to share #assuming i don't get overtaken with other shit i need to do in the coming weeks. but that's future mel's problem #today we celebrate HER. my wife my love my everything 🩷💞💜💝💓💕❤️💗 i don't know what we did to deserve her but i am SO glad she exists #local woman going feral over sister iris ace attorney for the 261478th time. more at 11

[fenkko]

cant believe i reached 30 tags in prev post rambling about homestuck i didnt even know there was a limit

#i usually save word diarrhea for twitter but hope someone enjoys the huge dump i took here for once #anyways tldr homestuck orv and taz are all special stories to me in kind of similar ways #that i would elaborate on if i thought i could piece together my words that would entice people rather than scare them off lmao #so i'll just say IT's COOL.. I SWEAR #and also genshin which is an outlier i suppose bc its the only capital P Popular thing #but i'd also put genshin w those first three stories in terms of how interesting i find their storytelling methods and narrative themes #i love the pockets of genshin fandom that are ppl obsessing over fragments of lore and making big conspiracy boards #i dont really interact w main genshin fandom but i like peeking at the other pockets haha. like the people investigating khaenri'ah lore.. #very cool.. and people invested in sumeru gang. the sumeru characters are so interesting #whole city of eccentrics you can bash together and examine #i'm scara and childe fan forever idk what they did to my brain but i think they were a psyop #made specifically in ways they knew would target me and the things i like damn ‼️ #someone at genshin HQ put crack in these guys and i cant stop drawing them and coming up w ideas to draw my beautiful muses that ruined me

[ride-a-dromedary]

Wyll's relationship with alcohol/Halsin's relationship with alcohol...

#BG3 Musing #there's a point somewhere here that i am circling #in a way that it's interesting that it's in a conversation with wyll that halsin admits that at some point in his life #he had an unhealthy relationship with alcohol (and he still might) - the extent of which we don't know for sure #but interesting in the way that wyll's response to halsin admitting that he did was that he would buy the first round when it was over #(in the determined way that they would come out of this on the other side but an intriguing response nonetheless) #(that that was his first thought to respond with) #there are hints that wyll's relationship with alcohol may not be the healthiest either #though he is still at the point where perhaps he hasn't realized the extent #interesting how wyll and halsin could have very likely both had the face scar and eye difficulty (if it weren't a glitch) #AND potentially an additional conversation regarding alcoholism #two different points of life same catch in the thread #current potential alcoholic/recovering alcoholic

[iamnmbr3]

the moment when you realize an ai would've written a better larry show than mike waldron bc an ai would've been trained on previous loki content and thus, unlike mike, would've actually watched the films

#still not over the interview where he didn't even know that loki killed laufey even tho it was a pivotal character moment for him #or how neither he nor kate seem to get that the sylki romance could be read as selfcest or incest bc they thought it was just like #miles/gwen bc they didn't realize “loki” is a name not a title #so sylki isn't like miles/an alternate spider person. it's like miles/an alternate miles. #originally posted this in the discord but im salty so its today its going here too #I genuinely think Mike Waldron is the worst writer I have ever come across. his lack of talent is truly staggering. #Not that the others like Eric Martin are much better #still wild to me that he basically copy pasted his abominable og script and changed a few names and no one cared #or that he could get away with openly messing up basic facts about the character in interviews and showing he never even watched the movies #(The point of this post is to show how abysmally poor the quality of the Larry show was. not to advocate for ai writing) #the point is. mike couldn't even clear that very low bar. the answer is not ai. the answer was hiring actually competent writers #and not making the show with the express intent to undermine loki. bc the show wasn't just bad. it was actively malicious #loki show #loki tv series #loki season 2 #loki tv #loki series #loki tv show #random musings

[djsangos]

swore i didnt have any pics of me as a kid but somehow found this hiding in an old jacket that doesnt even fit anymore and thought id show tideblr

look its me age like 9 with the family shrimp chowder and my ass is NOT holding him very securely

#ic img #ic text #mun art #muse selfie #this is probably the closest im ever gonna get to talking about my childhood on here lbr but i do sometimes miss chowder so thought id shar #//look i know this rips ABSOLUTE ass but i just felt like doing a quick little doodle of a baby squid with their dog okay #//there are a million ways in which i could have improved on this but the urge to draw doesn't come very often so i try to just vibe with i #//and not stress myself out about the details to the point it makes me give up #//and for SOME reason every time i DO want to draw it's always this fucking squid. i guess bc they're easier to draw than like a human #viewable ic #rebloggable ic #except for non rp blogs non rp blogs please do NOT rb

[debtsunpaid]

#OOC. #ahem. help? help. #my lil perfectionist ass is spinning its wheels over here i might as well just peer review this shit already #bc trust me i'll write the novel for each & every one of my OCs but i can GUARANTEE i will not get any writing done for at least a month #because i have TOO many thoughts on those bitches and i am ENDLESSLY coming up with more #which means that i perhaps need to trim the muse roster (gasp! shock!) but in the meantime? this

[bi-krama-dick-ya]

y'all are so nice

damn i wish we could know each other irl

#desiblr #mutuals<3 #mutuals <3 #vent #ramblings #come here y'all #random thoughts #random musings #venting

[dragontamer05]

Emil and Ratatosk and complicated relationship;

Here is kind of a headcanon/thought I had of an alternate ending for these two after talking with @lady-quen

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As Emil was originally formed by and from Ratatosk as a way to hide from Richter while they regained strength, and to remain hidden administered self amnesia and false memories of a life not lived.

With the unfortunate consequence of this new personality growing and becoming their own separate being no longer feeling a part of Ratatosk, yet still a part of them none the less.

Because of such trying to separate into their own beings would likely be dangerous even with the powers of a such a god / god like being as Ratatosk himself nor is he ready to just give up this body and form they created.

However Emil has more then proven their capabilities and impressed Ratatosk who is willing to admit that they have earned their respect and a right to keep their life, for now. They've created their own real memories, friends and relationships and while they may not be the nicest fellow they can acknowledge they've earned the right to keep what they've gained on their own.

They are of the same body and soul at their core (cores) after all, Emil would not exist if were not for him so it's only right that in time they will become one again but, perhaps not soon but eventually. It's how its meant to be.

Besides being of Ratatosk means that even with a body of his own there's know guarantee he'd age or change like everyone else, while everyone else grows old and dies they may still remain unchanged barely touched by the sands of time maybe not immortal but living in a different frame of time from everyone else.

So he remains silent and patient, an old deity who doesn't mind waiting until the time is right knowing full well it would cause more harm to the both of them to forcibly assimilate and become one again but that their souls still cry out and need each other, one can not survive without the other.

For the most part Emil keeps control, while Ratatosk sits back allowing Emil to tap into their shared power at anytime its needed though he can be fickle and every so often should the need arise Ratatosk will be the one to come forth and take over- Everyone knowing when the change happens do to the Red eyes, his voice deepening and becoming louder brimming with a confidence not held before.

Ratatosk is far less merciful so you best hope not to come facing them in a fight as they hold no qualms against killing.

Now Emil of course is the only one to see or hear Ratatosk although some like Marta who's made a contract with them might be able to sense his presence in some way.

As Lord of Monsters it also allows Emil a strong connection and control over beasts barely needing to create a pact to get them to listen.

Both Ratatosk and Emil rather dislike being misnamed / called by the other's name and will correct you.

Ratatosk would never be that cowardly he argues and Emil will quickly deny that he's nothing like that monster.

In some way Emil has become accustomed to Ratatosks power and while still not fully to terms with the fact that they are in a sense Ratatosk/part of them perhaps finds the idea of not having them around strange. They are two halve of the same whole.

Emil's kind and gentler demeanor helps to tame and reel in Ratatosk brutality and violent nature, however the confidence and aggression of Ratatosk does help bring out a boldness in Emil not had before and helps push him to fight when he otherwise wouldn't.

#Will I make him into an rp muse idk but I am having big thoughts after talking with a friend so here me out #tosdotnw #tales of symphonia dawn of the new world #emil castagnier #Ratatosk #tales of symphonia #dawn of the new world #like some combination of Yugi and Atem as well as Yuya / Zarc and the other yu boys trying to merg to be come one again

[flockrest]

it is very important to me that cooking is communal, as so many things are, with rito village. it is very important to me that there is only one kitchen shared between this entire flock, where time spent preparing and creating food — already a process underlined by love and connection and cultural homage — is made all the warmer when you can be joined by anyone at anytime. gripping my knees at the open air quality of it all because you are cooking with everyone, and eating with everyone, and it's a shared intimacy of we are alive. we keep each other alive.

( now contrast that with the imagery of a rito who purposely seeks solitude in cooking, in eating, as he does with everything...the pot at the flight range is there for convenience, but is it convenient or is it essential when you spend more time there than in your own aerie? and when you eat out there, beyond your nest, sharing meal-spaces with warriors like you because you have to, do you wonder if this is like the we are alive you might feel back at home? or is this we keep each other alive in the barest definition? maybe it's the same, if only for the way you feel too out of place )

#* roosting / ooc. #is this something < please keep in mind i'm exhausted sldfjkl #is this something and if it is i hope it's not coming across pompous slkfjdf #last minute muse thoughts before i conk out.... #lonely guy. i don't think he was spurned or even spurned himself really it's more like...he denies himself of a lot of things #maybe he had connections but they were fleeting or superficial and it wasn't always his fault but sometimes. when it counts #it /was/....pre-calamity re.vali is Interesting (in that he feels like a tragedy that thinks himself an odyssey) #(and the truth is he's really neither. he's just a song-in-composition) #here's to hoping i get to the inbox tomorrow!! hope you're having a wonderful day! #be seeing you <3 #* vanes / study.

[solcarow]

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#mayb for yhk week i should draw that painting au that’s been stewing in my mind for a while ….. #zulmiro if you see this dont look there’s some major spoilers in here -> #not much story to it tho i just really like the idea of kdj being into painting restoration #it fits really well with his love for abandoned stories .. #yjh could be some forgotten myth whose history’s been lost to time that hsy used as her muse …. #kdj finds all these battered paintings and recognized there was a story being told so he starts trying to piece together thousands of #artworks wishing to see what the original artist saw .. #i’m making no sense but do yuou see my vision ……………. #unfortunately this means hsy had to have lived in like . ye olden times for this but COME ONN #love that transcends time ?? understanding that comes too late ???? it’s just so very hankim ………. #the image of kdj being surrounded by a bunch of torn up paintings of yjh has been haunting me for ages o(~< #but damn i dont think i have the time to make it #if anyone wants to steal this idea from me PLEASEE steal this idea from me but only if you show me whatever you make with it 💥💥💥💥 #solar-talks #also !! the repetition that goes into restoring paintings .. got some orv thoughts on that for sure …….

[expvrgction]

Kahann is a prime definition of "I have seen way more than some shit" and isn't surprised that even beings taking their scum and villainy seriously would join in on humor such as cat boops, but...

What. The fuck. Is a CHAOS entity doing here?

#Welcome (IC) #Here comes a thought (Musings) #Crop Cord (Crack) #Cerulean Heir (Kahann) #(i see rp blogs new to this one booping the main it's tied to adfhdjkfhdj;l) #(with that said) #(hi i'm charger and i was taking an indefinite break until the boopening happened)

[clemencetaught]

"Miss Nakamura's friends are quite an...eclectic bunch."

#( open. ) #the knight ( dash commentary. ) #the knight ( verse two. ) #guess what?? myungdae's muse is coming back with a vengence :) #well sorta! it's just a silly little dash commentary/thought i've had #since suki ( my aa oc ) is charismatic and doesn't realize it #and accidentally ends up befriend some...very powerful or unusual ppl #and i love that for her #patrick her acquiantance is....mildly amused if not a little worried #considering that he knows a lot of the ppl she does and he...doesn't quite like them as much FJSKLDJFSLK #also i have like?? a meta i wanna post that involve both patrick AND suki bc there's just?? #a lot i've been thinking about them both and how it parallels one another #anyways. i have a few hours on here to write b4 i gotta head out #don't mind me using his 2d fc for this too :'D

[tvrningout]

i dunno if it’s happening today bc i am so low on energy i could fade into the ether, but expect my muse list to be edited soon as well as certain muses to be revamped! it really just needs to be done uvu

#get ready to ramble | ooc #it’s probably not gonna come as a surprise but we’re fr dropping kny muses except maybe kaigaku bc i put so much thought into him #maybe i’ll try to give him verses? #bc the thing is i just am not feeling kny atm #so it’s not fair to have my canons on the roster — same for spiderverse #love miguel and pav but i don’t ever get to write them much less chiyo’s atsv au or yuzu #and i hope that doesn’t come off upset? bc i’m not i’m just kinda like #there’s no point having certain muses on my roster if i have no muse/can’t use them #i’d rather clear the way for other muses like delwyn and arata #and i do appreciate the people who let me write these muses 💜 it’s just time for a change #especially bc i wanna revamp hyouka satsuki and yubari!! #hyouka and satsuki are getting properly thrown into jjk and yubari babyyyy #he’s finally getting his modern deity storyline #i’ve rambled enough so i won’t get into it here but i’m very excited for him!! #anyway i hope y’all are having a good monday 💜 #i’m just relaxing for now but maybe i’ll get online properly later!

[djhallyboo]

"I LIKE MEN."

#DEVELOPER NOTES. ooc. #HERE I COME! ic. #GRAB YOUR STYLUS. thread. #CONNECTED TO DISPATCH. asks. #SCURVY SCALAWAG. anon. #THOUGHT YOU COULD DO WHAT YOU WANT BECAUSE A PIRATE IS FREE. memes. #THE DJ SPINS PUNISHMENT FOR YOUR SINS. music. #A GOOD HOST DOESN'T LET THINGS SLIDE. visage. #THE WEIGHT BORE BY SISYPHUS' SENTENCE. aesthetics. #THE FUN OF NINTENDO SEES ALL. musings. #DODGE THE BALLS! DODGE THE BALLS! crack. #A LITTLE MESSAGE THAT'LL GIVE YOU DISTRESS. psa. #THE RULE OF THE CIRCUS. headcanon. #PARTY WITH THE BROTHERS. tagged by. #SHOULDA LISTENED TO THE SIGN. dash comm. #UP AND DOWN ON THE CHERRY-GO-ROUND. drabbles. #CRIMINAL RECORDS. saved. #BAD TOP. guest muse. #MONTY MOLE. guest muse. #SHY GUY. guest muse.

[always-together]

🖋 ~~does Harold Hill count? I feel like you'd do a great Harold Hill XD~~

LET’S TRY SOMETHING ENTIRELY NEW!

(It’s like I’ve spend the past year and a half writing a conman nonstop that you think Harold Hill would fit me 😂 Honestly though, I love The Music Man! One of my favorite “old Broadway” shows! Let’s see how this goes)

It’d be hard for anyone to ignore him, the way he talks with such a charismatic, self-assured air and the way he walks in such a non-slouched way that could almost be considered someone with morals. Not to mention that pork pie hat with the ribbon and his giant suitcase with his name stamped right on the front: Professor Harold Hill. But he takes it as a side-effect of the sleepy nature of the ironically named River City when the general store manager fails to register him coming over right away.

“Excuse me, sir! You’re Ewart Dunlop, yes?”

Don’t ask him how he got it; he probably saw it on the sign out front! Or more likely he’s old business partners with a man who now lives here, a good kid willing to help him with the ring he’s about to start running. The stern but clearly caught-unawares store owner has just enough time to fumble out a “yes” before the traveling salesman sets down his suitcase on the counter and speaks with full seriousness, like he’s an oracle delivering a vague prophecy of doom. As loud as he can, so the whole town can hear his swindle.

“Well sir, either you’re closing your eyes to a situation you do not wish to acknowledge, or you are not aware of the caliber of disaster indicated by the presence of a pool table in your community!”

He meets his eyes as he slaps the desk for effect, like the downbeat of some unheard song. That’s all a sales pitch is. Find your rhythm and they’ll listen to anything you say.

“You’ve got trouble, my friend!!”

#(honestly? I would not mind if shifty conmen became my trademark lol. they’re fun to write!) #(I am considering adding a few theater muses! perhaps Harold hill will be one of them) #(because this was heckin fun to write. Spamton but he’s not a mess and knows EXACTLY what he’s doing) #(oh and he’s coherent 😂) #asks and submissions: here comes a thought #test muse: the new crystal gems #codenamejudas