#I am so goddamn excited about this

[silverserpent]

OKAY SO

Tomorrow, me, @atak-achrativ and @freshlybakedpigeons are going to stream Star-spawned, roleplay made by @prokopetz!

EDIT: time will be at 6:30 Central European Time!

This is a GMless roleplay. The core concept is that we are playing eldritch beings who were just born, therefore we have no idea about what our stats mean.

So, we are applying the scientific method to it. We are gonna make hypotheses and test them. We are very smart eldritch beings.

#roleplay #star-spawned #i am so very excited about this #the game system is really cool #the people are also very cool #also Prokopetz made me get back into programming. ...because this godDAMN SYSTEM OF FAILURES AND SUCCESSES #ill explain it on stream and the link takes you to the rulebook #but essentially it makes use of prime numbers for calculating successes and failures and also the highest or lowest rolls #which together with the ruin/glory system makes it possible to make to get a hypothesis refuted and get ineffable glory as a result #and i think glory gets more likely as you get more dice but proving the hypothesis gets less likely. I think. #anyways calculating this for two dice needed pen and paper. and at this amount of player we got four maximum dice. #so i am writing a program because i wanna know the god dang chances

[its-tortle]

help to make the season bright

read on ao3!

~20k, shrunkyclunks, strangers to lovers, christmas fic

There’s anxiety gnawing at Bucky's bones, so he tries to make a list of what he knows and has. He has some groceries. He has his gloves, and his lip balm. He has his wallet, and he has his phone. What he doesn't have is his keys, and thus, a way to get into the house. It’s after eight pm on Christmas Eve, and it’s below freezing outside. His mother has his spare key, and ordinarily he would call her, but right now she’s nearly 4000 miles away. There’s no way she would be able to help him.

“Fuck,” he proclaims out loud.

A pigeon on the sidewalk across the street flutters away.

Another voice cuts through the cold. “You okay?”

Bucky looks up to see a silhouette on the balcony two floors above him. Clearly, he had been swearing louder than he intended to. The figure is clearly male, and built like a fucking brick house, but the light behind him makes any other features vague and indistinguishable.

“Uh, yeah,” Bucky says dumbly. “I just- I forgot my keys.”

“I’ll let you in.”

The silhouette disappears from the balcony.

Bucky steps forward to retrieve his groceries from the steps of the building, and has just picked up the last can of cat food when the door opens. He looks up to meet the man who saved him from hypothermia.

And what a man it is.

#eek #i am making myself announce this so i actually fully finish it this year #i've already made so so much progress #and i'm feeling good about it #so get excited and hype me up!! #and feel free to slide into my ask box with questions etc #i'm going to post one goddamn fic this year if its the last thing i do #stucky #stucky fic #fic announcement

[gingerbreadmonsters]

not even panicking . idek what ur saying why would ever be worried abt this

#head in hands #trial practice for tap class is in about 20 minutes and im just about remaining sane #GAHHHH this is so stressful #they do not really speak english and i do not really speak japanese so this will be exciting #plus the class is like..... 2hrs long lol #BUT WE FUCKING MOVE OK IM BEING SO BRAVE #IM GOING TO GO TO THE CLASS AND SEE WHAT ITS LIKE #ITS GOING TO BE FINE IM SURE THEY WILL ALL BE NICE AND LOVELY #tap people generally are i find #i will go to the class and do some tap and not die of a stress induced heart attack because ITS SOMETHING I LOVE #AND ILL DO IT #and if it sucks and i hate it then fuck it. i never have to see these goddamn people ever again if i don't want to #hopefully i WILL want to. bc its gonna be great and im gonna love it #I HAVE FAITH #I CHOOSE TO BELIEVE 😭😭🥳 #i will update u guys when i get back 🫡 #if its fab i will recommend it #and if it sucks we will roast it mercilessly #either way i am being very brave today and i am sharing this bravery with u as well 🫶🫡 #the little gay people in my phone believe in me and i will not disappoint #just the same way that i believe in you too ✊🥳

[organized-chaotic-disaster]

Okay but fr I hope Dan and Phil don’t feel pressured to actually do a 25-day gamingmas bc that’s like. SO much work for them. They don’t need to upload every day leading up to Christmas. They can just do like 5 days or a week, but even then they don’t need to do that, that’s just if they wanna do some sort of gamingmas-type thing

I just want them to take care of themselves and not burn themselves out 😭

#dan and phil #dan and phil games #dapg #idk feel free to reblog this I guess?? #I mean I know I’ve seen some people excited for gamingmas and all that and I can’t tell if they actually mean like #they want daily uploads until Christmas or what? #or if they just want something like gamingmas but not necessarily every goddamn day #I just remember them mentioning that like gamingmas could be a LOT on them #and I don’t want them to feel like they gotta do that again 😭 #I’m just happy the channel’s back tbh I have no expectations #I just feel like I haven’t seen this sentiment? #but then again I’m not like super active in the community/fanbase so idk if that’s why I haven’t seen other people expressing this #and I’m not attacking anyone btw!!!! you’re all totally valid to be excited ;v; #I just am Concerned about the boys eosnridbiwjd

[artheresy]

Opinion on Myriad Celestia Trailer: Cloud Knights Martial Doctrine, On Swords

Just finished watching it, goodness did I really like it

Admittedly, didn’t present as much as I would have loved it to tell me about Jingliu though I suppose that is more to drum up hype and leave more of that information for her upcoming companion quest in this new version.

However, even if it didn’t present as much as I would love to know about Jingliu, it did present something VERY important, that being the mindset that is carrying her through all of these actions. This path she is choosing to walk is influenced by her beliefs and attitude and said beliefs and attitude are influenced by the state she is in.

I also really love this continued use of juxtaposition for establishing Jingliu’s character, a swordswoman in the final stages of her story with her being marastruck and all, by setting her alongside Yanqing, a boy in the beginning of his story setting off for a path of glory directly inspired by tales of who SHE once was even if he doesn’t know it’s her. It does a lot for establishing his character as well and I really enjoy it. There is just such a striking contrast with Yanqing’s naivety and in all honesty arrogance, thinking he can handle more than he can, against Jingliu’s cold hardened skill and experience, knowing he truly can’t and not really being afraid to knock him down whether with her sword or with her words.

It really just makes me all the more excited to see what they have in store for her and where she’ll end up, even makes me a little interested in Yanqing’s character as a result.

So again, not necessarily as much lore as I would love to learn about Jingliu and in some ways, a little anti climactic when compared to some of the other Myriad Celestia trailers, HOWEVER, the art style used for the Xianzhou Myriad Celestia trailer continues to be absolutely remarkable and gorgeous and I love the differences between the art when she’s with Yanqing, when it’s explaining his reasons and showing images of her that parallel, and then when the imagery that shows with her own beliefs. It’s just really good.

ALSO GOD DAAMNN DOES MADNESS LOOK GOOD ON JINGLIU, I am sweating this woman is so gorgeous

#i really do hope we get something good with jinglius release #i am so excited for her character and her story #because she really seems so goddamn tragic #also didnt mention it in the post but #seeing her beliefs laid out and just #thinking about how similar it is to blades BECAUSE he got his mindset from her and from her ‘teachings’ #makes me insane #jinglius impact #im so excited for her #so excited for her fight #im just #RAAAAHHHH #I will be going insane during 1.4 I told yall #I will be going mad #honkai star rail #hsr #jingliu #yanqing #high cloud quintet

[whoneedsgenderanyway]

NEW CRANE WIVES DECEMBER 5????????????

#losing my goddamn mind #the scream i let out #absolutely going insane #i am so normal about this band #so excited #the crane wives #first new music in almost 8 years!!!!!!

[sweetshire]

So, @silv-paru sent Sherlock Holmes for the character opinion bingo. thanks a bunch for this (and for your patience. my god, i’m answering this a week late. typical me behaviour). you’re a darling :D

Did you know, i used to tell these stories to my friends? they delighted in them AND i got a chance to sort of ramble on and on abt him and watson. it was a win-win, really. ah, those were the days! now i haven’t reblogged much of him this month at all. i miss him. I MISS HIM.

Onto the bingo: well. he’s The quintessence of gender™ to me. and i relate to him so so much. fav character of all time fr. i want to carry him in my pocket at all times & study him. like. do i want to BE him OR am i IN LOVE with him, ykwim? pssh who knows? certainly not me. uh-huh ‘a beast unleashed’ -does this refer to me or him? you choose. oh re: canon, i’m ignoring the part where holmes dies (or y’know, is dead for 3 years). that’s too angsty.

#sherlock holmes #my dearest blorbo #he’s my belovedest chewtoy basically #if i think abt how modern adaptations *looking at you bbc sherlock* have ruined his character i get so angry i have to take deep breaths #*mutters darkly* he is NOT an arrogant cold-hearted bitch like he’s portrayed; well he IS a bitch but not a cold-hearted one!! #see. the thing abt holmes is that he’s SUCH a sweet boy okay. and he’s compassionate #he cares sooo much. that’s the reason people come to him when they’re distressed. they trust him #he hates the police. he is a jester at heart. loves his watson #he’s here to help the truly desparate helpless people even if they have no money to pay him for the case. no questions asked. But- #he fucking despises obnoxious rich men. the first time he meets watson a total stranger he *very excitedly* tells him abt his experiment #it’s very adorable. he never stops trying to impress ever. infact blushes furiously when complimented by him #my guy has 0 knowledge of our solar system but he’s written several monographs abt different types of ASHES. go figure! #OH i almost forgot the most important fact he’s special to me bc holmes is an audhd gay disaster bastard. sometimes he’s even bisexual #but mostly he’s acespec and in a qpr w watson. he’s VERY adhd. behaves like an excited cat and oh so cute when he stims. everytime he does #i go SQUEEE. when he’s depressed it’s a goddamn hashtag big mood. as in many other ways he is me i am him #he’s PASSIONATE and KIND that’s all you need to know #acd stories are about just some guy who loves his job (which he invented himself btw after quitting college) that’s it #i am overcome with an almighty need to squeeze his cheeks #he’s everything to me <3 #alright if i don’t stop now i doubt i ever will LMAO bye #acd holmes #if u read till the end u get a cookie and a kiss on the nose i love u #silv tag 💞

[neversetyoufree]

The trumpets at the end of that song —that’s what love feels like to me.

Cringe is dead. Watch my amv

#this video is my goddamn magnum opus #I'm so pleased with it and I hope you like it too #It's been living in my brain so long and I FINALLY get to share it #share the video and gush about that florence quote #bc yeah. that *is* what love sounds like #vnc #vanitas no carte #the case study of vanitas #amv #florence + the machine #how big how blue how beautiful #is it obnoxious to use flo's tag in this context? maybe. #but hello I am doing it anyway bc I'm Excited #not described #video

[pettyprocrastination]

do you guys know how long i’ve been waiting for somebody to put this bitch in a horror movie. do you know how i feel right now 

#tj talks #pedro pascal #bet your ass im finding a screening in my town *if it will be availabe* and dressing UPPPPP I am so fucking excited for this #its about goddamn time they put this man in some horror im ready to EAT

[daddy-long-legssss]

no thoughts. only feelings.

#the energy is PALPABLE #and I’m so goddamn nervous and excited and sad #what are we gonna do when it’s over #you mean I have to get back in touch with reality and think about something else for my entire waking hours? #every day I’ve been waking up and getting caught up on the concert footage like I’m reading the goddamn newspaper #and now WHAT #really it’s been a thrill #arctic monkeys #the car tour #the car era #am Dublin

[cannibalisticskittles]

god, it's fucking over for me, target has started listing this years halloween collection and there are So Many of those birds

i can no longer let myself view the passage with time with anxiety, i must let myself be borne away

#i mean obviously it is WAY too early for Halloween. #but i have to search target for Halloween shit super early #bc every fucking year there's something cool that sells out in fucking july and never comes back in stock #i still miss you ceramic pumpkin candy bowl..... #anyway this is both a joke and also not #i am So nervous about school starting again #idek what i did at the start of school last year. it's lost in a haze of panic. they doubled my class size last minute. i don't remember #so idk what to do this year #or how to begin assessing #or how SOON to begin assessing #and i have been Real Goddamn Nervous #and also excited bc bg3 literally the same day!!!!! #the clash wasn't helping!!!! #seeing Halloween shit makes me realizes that this is inevitable #its all gonna happen regardless of how ready i am #focus on what i can do. and screw panicking about the rest. #but also ask to be notified of when that dracula bird is in stock bc god DAMN i want that

[stars-inthe-sky]

...

#so in some fairly big personal news: boyfriend accepted a new job! #we are leaving the goddamn cornfields and okay prairie behind for the hills and rivers of pittsburgh pa! #i am so excited about many many many aspects of this #a little daunted by the cost of living change but i think it'll be well worth it for a real airport. and theatre. and neighborhoods. #and actual bagels and a bigger jewish community #and just to live in a place that i maybe won't walk around wishing i could just go 'home' in some ambiguous way all the time #also being back on east coast time #and did i mention bagels and shows? #is this the real life? #stars + steel city

[dredshirtroberts]

finally tackled the absolute mountain of laundry in various states of cleanliness around my room. now all of it is sorted and put into its respective zones of "away".

#98% of my room being clean with visible floorspace is just finally handling the laundry #i am ashamed and embarrassed that i always have so much dirty laundry #eventually i'll get back to the point i was at when i was the coach of laundry where i'll have like a week's worth of shit to get done #and not a backlog of several months #eventually #and i will be working on not feeling so much shame about the state of my laundry #i don't *like* that i do it but there's nothing inherently immoral about it like the voice of my mother that shouts in my brain thinks #the put away laundry plus the effort i've been making to Make My Bed before sitting in it has helped me feel more settled in the space #so that's good #when i am not as concerned about blocking the various registers in my room i will be in business #(mattress on the floor only fits in one specific corner right by the intake) #(output register is awkwardly directly in the middle of the opposite side of the room which makes arranging the furniture where i'd like it #an interesting endeavor that i'm not super excited in attempting to orchestrate in the future) #i know where i'd *like* things to go #whether or not that'll actually be feasible is another story #also i think i'm going to have to just go through my clothes with the mindset of actually getting rid of things #i threw out a couple pairs of socks because they were worn so thin i'm not sure mending would have fixed the holes #like that that point i'm making a whole new sock and you know what i could do instead? not do that #i also have a lot of Baggage Items i haven't quite gotten around to divesting myself of #(as in the items of clothing have a lot of emotional baggage tied to them that i may or may not be using to negative effect on myself) #lots of old shit lots of things that don't fit lots of things i don't even like actually #but it was free or nearly so and i've just held onto it because free #only a few things are kept because i like wearing them and the texture is nice #so we'll just. go through some stuff and eventually i'll get to the point that even if *all* of my clothes are dirty and on the floor #it doesn't take up my WHOLE goddamn room #that said this has in fact been a problem my whole life and so i don't imagine it's going to be quick or easy to fix lol

[cognitosclowns]

I’m floating into the sky like a weather balloon

#inside job #inside job part 2 #part 2 #AAAAAAAAA #LESS THAN 24 HRS #IM GONNA CRY IM SO GODDAMN EXCITED #OH and be sure to block the tag #inside job spoilers #since that'll be the tag im gonna use to scream about it MSNDMSDNM #I'll probably hide most things under a Cut but just in case #probably not gonna do a liveblog but I AM gonna take some detailed notes #>:) #IM SO EXCITED GRKGKRKG AAAAA

[crimeronan]

i am so miserable these days it's unreal. let's hear it for the misery folks everyone give it up for the misery 👏👏👏

#i do nothing but sleep and then overeat out of stress and pain and then become more stressed and pained and sleep more #nothing excites me nothing is worth waking up for nothing makes me passionate or happy #i wake up every day after awful nightmares and the first thing i notice is the agony in my hips and it does not improve #i cry 2-3 times a week when i used to never cry at all while on my bipolar meds #i have stories i fall in love with (like the silt verses) but they only fleetingly hold my attention compared to the past #every time i flap about headcanons it's a little more desperate a little more transparently trying to escape my body #having more and more days where i simply play phone games all day because i'm in so much pain that #even merely scrolling tumblr or trying to watch tv / youtube makes me feel pukey #i need to see a doctor really bad aha. except theyre just going to say #you're fat and out of shape. stop eating everything and take a walk #completely disregarding that my hips are both subluxing with every goddamn step i take #it's fucking horrible. it's fucking horrible in here and if i was an animal they'd put me down out of kindness #unfortunately. i am a human being. #negative #disordered eating / #food / #i GUESS. #autoimmune tag

[scare-ard--sleigh]

my ai closet styling app giving me push notifications (that I asked for) vs what happens to me during late july-mid august (barely ever getting Dressed) 🤧🤧🤧

#silver jelly #the danger days or something lmao <3 #i've been trying to wear my (weather appropriate) faves when i leave the house but then i get down bc it Doesn't Feel Like It Counts #and it's like a feedback loop and anyway!!!! i had wine and im being VERY honest on main and i gotta stop <3 #anyway im very excited to see where i am in 3 weeks and i think im either through the worst of it or almost #scare-ard--sleigh followers can have a little honesty as a treat <3 bc it is important to talk #about these feelings even if i Truly Hate It So Goddamn Much #anyway i have therapy next week and it will all be super duper gucci but yeowza i forgot how Much late july was 💖💖💖