#I am still so heated over this

[hypervoxel]

Okay some people talk about asexuality in a way that makes me really wonder about their views on allosexual people too. Like. Some of the things people are saying or writing are so weird. This is too vague, oh well. It's the framing of one-sided unwanted attraction or unwanted romantic/sexual actions like they're worse, so much worse because Alastor is ace. Like, you know harassment is still bad even if the victim could be attracted to the perpetrator, right? Even if they are attracted to the person harassing them, it's still horrifying.

#yikes™ #vent #okay so. i read darkfic‚ that's on me. i have seen multiple - and noped right the fuck out each time - that implied #it even Blatantly Said - that Alastor being sexually assaulted was worse bc he's asexual and would never want that at all #like if you're trying to rant about the idea that having sex will 'fix' an ace person‚ that is still sooo poorly phrased #why should other characters feel that suddenly the act of rape is worse because the victim was sex repulsed and got no enjoyment from it?? #what do you think they feel about allosexual rape victims and survivors??? #are they dismissive of anyone who was raped by their partner while they were in a relationship? #I am still so heated over this #and some things people say like Alastor being so uncomfortable with Vox's obsessive crush on him *because* he's ace #like anyone else has never had to deal with someone else having unreturned feelings for them #I'm not phrasing everything beautifully in my vent post either but ugh #personal

[icewindandboringhorror]

... why he sit like this

#in this position his face is extremely 'cartoon cat' shaped.. like the perfectly round cheeks and little #rounded bump of a snout.. big round eyes. etc. stretched over the arm of a chair like a weirdo #cats #It's still Hot Evil Summer time and I have so much to do so am just aimlessly hopping between various projects but not actually #getting anything done. as usual. Also so so so so tired. I almost fell asleep in the middle of the floor like 3 times today lol #Trying to finish some costume photos and also another poll adventure thing. plus I do really want to do a sculpture sometime #I haven't finished one in a while. Hopefully my tiredness is nothing bad. #Maybe I'm anemic again so that's making me tired. Or maybe it's just a Listless phase. not that I'm ever really THAT productive considering #all of the health problems and etc. always holding me back. but still. I'm not usually 'sleep or just stare at a wall literally all day' ty #e unproductive.. at least not for multiple days in a row so. hmm... Sometimes especially in the summer though I will have periods of time #that are listless like that. I am under low level phyiscal stress for months at a time due to summer heat so I guess it makes sense #that would eventually take a toll. I just have SO MANY THINGS I WANT TO DO!!!!! AAUUGhhh #I also came up with a new idea for a game that is so so cool and I wish I could make it but I have to finish the other one first lol #which I will NEVER do. if I spend all day just sleepy unfocused barely able to do anything #I also really need to sell some clothes and sculptures because I'll probably have to buy a new computer soon so I need money. (plus still #recovering the costs of having to euthanize my other cat.. wehh) There's nothing clearly wrong with it right now but it's getting gradually #slower and there's more weird glitches happening randomly and idk.. just weird things that make me think 'hmm... bad.. possibly.' #ANYWAY... I just have so much to do that I both REALLY want or need to do - so it's perpetually frustrating that I just can't for whatever #reason like. Time is always mving forward. every day I waste is a wasted day. The year is already almost half over. I havent finished #any of the projects I wanted to .. and there's only more and more things to do each day. It's overwhelming and stinky #and thats not even considering having to do all of my tasks also with the background noise of economic inequality. everything increasingly #going into an even scarier political direction. active climate change crisis. pandemic that still exists and is insane to act otherwise. et #etc. HOW am I supposed to solo make two whole games . write 3 book series. finish sculptures. do costumes. make outfits. game videos. make #stable network of social connections. do my little side crafts. take care of myself and cats. pay rent. manage health issues. keep a routin #.try to make some sort of money. go to doctors appointments. handle regular maintenance like cleaning and cooking and self care #and buying new plates when old ones break or etc. make sure to do other things like backup my computer data regularly. do shopping lists. #take care of plants. pursue like 6 different academic interests. do the other side side projects I have for fun (like music or carving avoc #ado pits). eat in a healthy way thats okay for my Special Health Issue diet. exercise so i don't die early. etc. etc. etc. AND all while it #82F in my apartment all the time and I have tiny income and also need to move to another country/climate somehow??? lol...... #ANYWAY.. ..very frustrated today over my chronic Tired Sleepy.. time for Cat Photos - which cure all of life's ailments lol

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

and thus begins the season of 100+ degree heat every single day...

#i will be digging a hole and crawling into it thanks. i will Cover myself with dirt and not come out #the sun is almost completely down and its still over a hundred out. sigh #~its the most wonderful time of the year~ #im placing personal bets whether or not itll hit 120 (im strongly betting Yes) #maybe i should go live in antarctica #vibe with penguins. get killed by a leopard seal. you know how it is #instead my options are: the dirt / walk off into the desert and perish #i wake up every morning miserable and sweaty <3 this is so fun <3 #so jealous of the puppets rn. they dont have to deal with this #put me on a temperature regulated set bois #my laptop: heat warning in effect #YEAH NO SHIT. HONEY. #gonna need to start using my ceiling fan soon just to get some fuckin Sleep #the ac is not enough during the day #absolutely unprompted #i was wondering 'oh why am i more irritated than normal why am i more fatigued than normal' #OH YEAH. BECAUSE ITS MISERABLE OUT. #melting into a puddle of bog... goo... that's just water. hm. #turning into an actual physical bog #sphagnum and tannins and everything #i wake up. i drag myself out of bed. i sit at my desk and dissolve. rinse and repeat #this has been my routine for Days now <3 #i hope yall are having a cooler more tolerable summer! #but given the absolute state of this planet uh! i doubt it! still! i have hope! keep cool guys

[the-jam-to-the-unicorn]

Considering what NATO did (ot the lack of action), we have to give Ze credit for not screaming at them and calling them names five minutes straight in his latest nightly video.

#congrats nato for fucking up big way #and dont get me wrong i am thankful they stood by israels side and of course its good they supported israel #but for over fucking two years we hear “oh we cant close the sky because (insert dumb reason of your choice)” #and now NATO countries closed the sky over a non NATO country #and guess what absolutely fucking nothing happened #none of them became a war party #no one declared war to these countries #missiles and drones and rockets are not flying down on them #just imagine how many ukraines could still be alive and not injured #how many cities could not be so much destroyed or exist at all #if nato would have closed the ukrainian sky #instead they let russia continue to bomb a major city to the grounds #terorrizing people in all parts of ukraine #destroying energy and heat and water #torturing Ukrainians with sleep deprivation #get your shit finally together NATO or you have to close the skies over your own countries

[dimiclaudeblaigan]

Honestly though, this (what Ashe is pointing out) is exactly why I don't think GW could possibly end well. There's no "talking it over" after all the bloodshed (especially bloodshed started by them, and especially bloodshed started by them that didn't have to happen).

The way the narration leaves it "open" too at the end of GW just comes across as "it failed". It feels like... a kind of pointless story?

And I know some people might think that since Dimitri personally isn't as deeply affected by losing Matthias and so might be willing, that's still no good if his people and closest allies aren't. Rodrigue and Sylvain wouldn't be so forgiving, and I do think Dimitri would follow suit because that's his father (Rodrigue)'s closest friend and one of his own closest friends' father.

Add that to the fact that they have Sreng to deal with still (and I imagine sooner or Sylvain would figure out that Leicester had a hand in provoking Sreng to attack Faerghus) on top of losing Matthias and I imagine all the stress and aggravation wouldn't bode well for Leicester as far as Claude's thinking of things working out goes.

I just really can't see where GW goes afterward that would be "good" or works in Claude's favor at all. Maybe that was the intention and it was meant to be a route with a completely tragic ending, but apparently there are players who think it would end well and whatnot and I just can't see that happening (both from Faerghus' end and from Adrestia's end, the latter of which Claude discussed within GW itself).

If their intention was for a totally tragic ending, like yeah, I can see that... but as always the writing muddies the waters to make it sound good while something bad is happening. It keeps trying to have a positive spin on bad things as if they're just afraid to commit to a fully bad ending.

#DCB Three Hopes Run #also to be specific the reason I just call Rodrigue his father outright is bc he refers to him as a “second father” in Houses #but I'm not gonna literally write “his second father” every time I mention it and honestly “adoptive father” doesn't work for me either #bc him being an adoptive sort of parent doesn't make the fact that he /is/ a parent to him any less valid #like a parent is a parent and I don't feel the need to point that out and the feeling is mutual between them #if Rodrigue is literally calling him ''my boy'' it's a pretty cut and dry parent/child relationship #obviously I'm using Houses context in this case but it's still accurate in Hopes #and I just can't see losing Matthias going over smoothly at all and things getting better with time #I mean Matthias is such a major player in Faerghus and so important that I just can't see them being like #well it was only /one/ important bigwig who died. like no it was one important bigwig saving a whole lot of lives #who is also very intelligent and has a deep say in politics. that's ofc not counting #as Ashe says here in AM in reference to Adrestia that they've killed so much on both sides bc of the war #that he can't imagine just sitting and talking now. just because we as players only saw one named character die #and just because that character wasn't a playable character nor a returning character we already knew and loved #doesn't mean hundreds if not thousands more didn't die in Leicester's invasion #like Ashe says here I just don't see how both sides could sit and talk after all that #esp since Sylvain would prob be involved and uh... Sylvain is... a very emotional and angry person #and extremely vengeful (and they rly leaned into that side of him in Hopes in all routes) #I canNOT imagine talks with him involved not getting heated and aggressive #and he'd /have/ to be there bc he's the Margrave now in GW. if they want to have important talks like that #they need all their major players which like even if Felix say wasn't there #Rodrigue has basically equal authority as Felix bc Rodrigue has the respect of experience and has proven himself #so they could be swapped out for talks and Felix being the ''official'' Duke wouldn't affect talks in the least #if Rodrigue was/had to be present instead. with Sylvain you've either got no other options #or you've got Miklan who I can't imagine would want to even get involved with all of that #both bc of his mixed feelings on Matthias but also bc he's been out of the political atmosphere for so long #so yeah I uh... can't... see talks ever going well unless Claude legitimately makes amends somehow #or Houses Claude gets in there smacks him around and fixes some shit before heading back to his own verse lol

[ctl-yuejie]

#only friends the series #actually I am a hater and will tag the show this time #because apparently boston is an abuser and the show is portraying the beginning of domestic violence #well aware that this is an extreme opinion but surprisingly a lot of people believe that top had no choice but to sleep with him #and that he violated nick #first time I blocked someone over an opinion over a stupid TV show #but I have to admit it did get me heated #so I'm putting Boston away until people can be bothered to remember the scenes he was shown to have emotional reactions in and maybe analys #e what that might mean #feel free to still hate this bitchy man afterwards but at least I can be certain we're watching the same show

[kingdomoftyto]

...BIG FEELS AND BIG PLOT DEVELOPMENTS AT THE END OF THAT BOOK, HUH

#Tyto reads WoF #i know it's not the most pressing issue what with the vengeful ex-Queen and the murderous sister and all #but I still want to point out how alarming it is that the new crew are all going to be wearing seemingly radioactive rocks as jewelry now #Turtle please don't pick up strange rocks that give off their own heat for the love of all that's good #ANYWAY yeah what the actual frick is going on with Darkstalker huh. I genuinely do NOT know whether he's trustworthy or not #desperately lonely and unfairly demonized? absolutely. truly cares about Moon as a friend? I think so. #capable of integrating peacefully into modern dragon society without letting his own ego turn him into the monster he denies ever being? #....... 😬 remains to be seen #god and there's Scarlet's mysterious new accomplice(?) with the maddeningly vague physical description and also THE SCROLL(!!!!) #and i just realized we failed to get resolutions in this book for EITHER the vision of Turtle attacking Anemone OR #Flame's unique and frightening ability to sense and/or attack mindreaders???? #where the HECK are we going with Flame I am going lowkey INSANE over him #ugh frick and Umber and Sora are both on the run too...!! this book is nearly as cliffhangery as Dark Secret #(though thankfully i prepared for this by checking the next book out ahead of time so i wouldn't have to wait LOL) #uhh buhh final thoughts before i force myself to go to sleep: #I love Moon and everything going on with her but I do feel like on some level it's even more of a slap in the face for poor Starflight #that the only tribe to get multiple POV characters in this first. like. extended arc(?) appears to be the NightWings #and Starflight himself doesn't get any of the tribe's unique defining features or abilities #i mean i guess the same is sort of true of Sunny and yes i know it was the POINT of book 4 that the tribe had no powers #but still idk it just feels like kicking the poor boy when he's already down. in addition to him literally getting beaten up again #(... now watch me be a total fool and the arc actually extends past book 8 or something making this point moot lol) #(I'm only assuming it ends at 8 bc that's where the previews in the back of the previous books have stopped) #EDIT: LOL yep turns out this arc does extend out to book 10 and the other POVs are Turtle and Qibli so I stand corrected. #that's what I get for nightblogging

[ragsy]

Is it considered a victory if I can finally say "what a week huh" and it's actually Friday this time

#ragsycon exclusive #Monday was short staffed on the busiest day of the summer #Tuesday and Wednesday were wildfire smoke AQI nightmare #Thursday was derecho 70mph winds leaving hundreds of thousands without power (including me) (still no power since noon cst on Thursday) #(and the house i am also catsitting at lost a big tree and subsequently all the power wires going into the house) #Friday was Having to go to work and be the one place in town with power and wifi so we were extra extra busy #plus managing the aftermath from Thursday #still no eta on when I'll have electricity again at my house #the catsitting house has power though so i at least have a place to stay and keep out of the heat over the weekend #literally 9000 degrees of joy and light to Wednesday night dnd for being an anchor of good times this week lmao

[stellardeer]

I like to eat these packaged pasta thingies (they're called Pasta Sides but, well, they are a meal to me) and you have to boil water with milk to make them and it's always so scary because the milk rises when it starts to boil and I have to watch it very carefully and turn the heat down the moment it starts to boil otherwise I just get fucking hot milk everywhere

#there has to be a better way but i hate things that take too long so i set to high to get it to boil fast #ive perfected turning the heat down so that it doesnt boil over after i add the pasta anymore #but i still tend to sit in the kitchen and watch it the whole time just in case #wise cooks would probably tell me to never leave the kitchen with a pot on the stove anyway #but you see i am beholden to comfort and my kitchen is not comfortable #rly need a couch in my kitchen....

[oatbugs]

you are all wrong!!!

#you are all wrong when you tell me to wait for her how long do i wait how long do i stay asleep waiting for her to wake up #you are all wrong in that the waiting isnt mine to do. to drag someone out of bed you must stand up first #and ive been melding with the linen. you are all wrong and twisted! god what is wrong with your face! angels are walking #in a queue to the electric work building. youve gone all wrong and strange! what is the thing in the mirror? #the thing in the mirror looks wrong because it is mismatched with what is behind it. this is all wrong! #what happened big runner? what happened to all those big words? there is nothing behind you in the mirror #and nothingness is inconceivable so you have to run. either i will run with you all the way to vienna #or else ill be back home in a different country again. ill be home inside books and outside on the water. by the coastline in the heat #i am going to breathe in the sun. for now you are all wrong. you wait for your love to stand up first and then you find yourself #both merged with linen. youre all wrong! you have to leap over this fire. this is all wrong. i am supposed to be devoured by philosophy #and mathematics and love. ive bitten hard enough into your forearm to last another day but if i stay still for a second longer i am going #to rip it all apart. i say this hoping i do. i say this still as a waterside cliff.

[jrueships]

Fav NFL or NBA logo

this might be a controversial onion but my fav nba logo... is the okc thunder one 😭 ... oh and my fav nfl logo is the dolphins !!!

#I AM WEAK TO COMPLIMENTARY COLORS OK IMPRISON ME 😭😭 #they might not even be complimentary i got like a negative in the color theory tumblr test #LISTEN I L I K E THE BLUE OKC JERSEYS!!!! #and the white ones but specifically when they have the heart on them #some of my fav jerseys are the hornets and Vancouver grizzlies tho so i might just be weak to blue in general #but I DIGRESS!!! #other logos like pistons sixers nets raptors etc ARE nice #just a lil simple tho #like the spurs are clean but a lil too clean... that is how the spurs operated back then tho #the pop regime #heat hornets bulls bucks cavs etc like those with an animal or symbol are cool but more dif color would be nice #like complimentary to make them stand out more #but like the bulls cant rlly do that so i understand #the gsw is cool cus i like the gold/yellow on the blue but what okc has over it is the noncircle shape #so basically i like okc cus it's nice on the eyes but still stands out some (unique shape and colors #but still simple enough not to be too distracting #i like the mavs animal art but overall it looks a little much #as for football HELMETS tho i love the rams one #miami wouldve won that as well if the dolphin still had the little dolphin helmet but it doesnt #so now it will be concussed and die #thank u for asking!!!! this was cute <3!!! sorry for being wrong if u think i am except i never am <3 #im buzzbeeutiful ted awesome jrues hips #ted tumbunity things

[naavispider]

Currently thinking about: Spider Socorro waking up at night remembering that he crashed the Sea Dragon and was responsible for a large number of human deaths.

#help why am i like this #but seriously #in the heat of the moment he was like #yeah this is awesome let's crash the sea dragon #but that was the adrenaline talking #after #he realised that lots of men and women lost their lives as a direct result of that #and he has no idea how to feel about it #being a murderer and all #ofc he looks up to jake and jake has never shown any guilt over killing enemy soldiers #so spider assumes he's done the right thing #but it still weighs on him #it GETS to him #and there's no one really to talk to about it #jake and neytiri are seasoned warriors #this is old hat for them #lo'ak has enough grief and guilt over neteyam's death #so the only person would be kiri #and they do have conversations about it #but yeah #it's a lot for a teenager #spider socorro #avatar the way of water

[icewindandboringhorror]

I thought that these inner sections of a pomelo peel thing kind of looked like flower petals with their coloring, so I left them out to dry for a few days, and then glued some of them together to make little "flowers" to hang in my window.

#crafts #I like the see-through ness of them and the color gradient. And pomelos are one of the foods to me that are very fun to disassemble #(like how I enjoy peeling carrots. or cutting cabbage. etc.) I don't actually eat citrus that much but some of the people I know #and live with do. so I'll always volunteer to cut stuff up or peel fruits if I'm over at someone's house or etc #I am.. the Food Prepper .. lol.. I could never be a chef due to the stress and the Hot of a kitchen and me being so heat sensitive #but in a broader sense I love doing little menial tasks like that. especially if there's some element of like 'try and get the sections all #cut as evenly and neatly as possible'.. sitting there like ..ouuu.. a challenge.. i will cut this onion into the thinnest slices known to #man.. this is now my quest and my destiny... etc. gjhbhj #ANYWAY... though I originally wanted to kind of sew them together with string so there wasn't glue visible or anything #I ended up having to glue them for them to hold their positions properly #So it looks weird because they're so trasnparent that you can kind of see the glue lines at some angles... but alas #still nice when the light shines through them

[sovaharbor]

what did i do to deserve an ibs flare-up at 11 pm.......

#i mean i went way too hard at dinner for someone whos getting over a migraine. so. thats probably it #also i wasnt really feeling the snack i ate but i made myself eat some anyway bc i was getting Weird Anxiety so. exposure therapy. #however the exposure therapy kicked my gastrocolic reflex into high gear and now. here i am. #sittin on da bathroom floor. heating pad on my tummy. mourning that stupid stupid idea to eat peanut butter crackers #summer's text tag #also if u want an inside look into how insane ocd and emetophobia can be: #two of our cats puked tn. it was 100% from the cat food they both ate for Their dinner. #but for some reason my brain has been like 'no... no. it was actually the chicken u ate tn.' bc ONE of the cats who puked i gave a teeny bi #of my chicken tenders to. and so. yah. my brains like welp. even tho ur other cat didnt have ANYTHING. u gave em both food poisoning #and now YOU have food posioning. and ur gonna suffer for all of eternity now. this is the worst thing that could ever happen to u #or!!!!! my brain has ALSO been telling me 'you got cat saliva on ur hand from one of the cats that got sick from their food so now YOU are #also sick. from their food. from a single POTENTIAL saliva hand. and now u will suffer. this is the worst thing ever for u.' #but blah blah blah blah i am strong i am brave and even when im not brave im actually still brave for being scared [like rn] #i just wanna finish in here so i can go to BEDDDDD

[quirkle2]

this post will be completely pointless but guys i fucki gng . i fuckin loveart ok

#qktalks #I LOVE IT!!!! #it'sso fun and it's so therapeutic to have a creative release #i fuckin adore Making Things #i love doin lineart sm #i love coloring and picking out which colors go well together (i used to hate that!!!! i love it now!!!!!!!) #i love mappin out poses in my silly little brain #i LOVE makin new designs of pretty much anything . character outfits or creature designs i adore it all #this is literally just me wiggling like an excited dog about a mundane thing i've been doing for nearly 20 years GVAIYGEV #feel free to ignore imjust unstable #i just !!!!!!im very giddy over this all of a sudden #before i got into lu i had taken a break from art for like a year #bc i had kinda just given up ? nothing i made was ever ''good'' and it was upsetting and demoralizing . so i stopped #but then i started drawin again an entire year later and fuckin !!! look where i am now!!!! #people look at my art!!!!!! im proud of a lot of stuff i create!!!!! #granted im still hard on myself and i often end up hating older art but !!!!im so much better about it nowadays #and i just Enjoy the Process a lot more. maybe it's because i've simply gotten better at drawing but #i think it's so fun . this post is a wreck im so sorry GVIUYEAGIUV #okay bye imgonna go play more nfs heat . ty for watching me make a fool of myself

[myownprivatcidaho]

whats tough about like. Having Chemistry and spending time with someone at the start of the spring semester is that valentines day is coming up and its like a make or break point with what you may or may not Be and you have to question what direction things are headed in and its a pressure just Not present in the fall semester idk. idk

#we uhhhh. kinda hit a bump in the road ...... idk. #hes. been very gentle and kind and understanding about where im coming from and so we havent talked in a couple days but just .... #god ok fuck it. we were hanging out saturday night and at some point we were going somewhere where parking sucked so i just suggested we go #in his car rather than separate bc finding parking for ONE car is a Struggle. anyways so afterwards we went back to where i parked my car #and i hahahhaaaaa was NOT leaving. it was just past midnight and so we were just hanging in his car talking for abt an hour #in there at some point i told him about that last crush and how it dragged on and he was like jesus CHRIST sia thats a lot #i was reclined in my seat and shutting my eyes listening to the music and i caught him looking at me a couple times andddddd uh #yeah basically i ended up in his lap and then we were kissing and touching and grinding for like the next hour and a half #and he asked if i wanted to go back to my place and i was like uhhhhhhhhhhhh not now so we stayed in there and just made out & talked more #and then he TOLD me. basically hes in a similar situation i was in this time last year. like a girl he liked and was talking to actually #has a bf. hes sorta in limbo and she still talks to bim and is stringing him along and playing off his hopes theyll get together for. #entertainment ig. everyone at this school is fantastic btw. jesus fucking christ. #so yeah he told me bc he said he didnt wanna hurt me or end up fucking me over and that i deserved full honesty and didnt want to get my #hopes up. which i REALLY appreciate. we talked for 8 days he got carried away once and immediately owned up. i do appreciate that #so like. he said that we can just be friends with or without benefits and i said id think about it. then at like 3 am we went home and he #check in with me to make sure i was alright since he could tell i had a LOT on my mind. i said id call him the next day and so we talked #and basically i explained the reason for my apprehensions and why i said no to hooking up (csa) and he was really understanding #and then like. i just asked him more about what was going through his head the night before & he described it as a heat of the moment thing #(which i agree it was) and like. he was genuinely concerned about me tho. idk #i told him that after i got home i had to shower for an hour scrubbyat every place he touched me and that im tired of feeling used #and he really heard me out and listened. he also asked if he hurt me and i said no but it def could have gotten to that point and i #and so he said 'im sorry for making your life at all hafrder to deal with' and i REALLY really #appreciate him being as honest as he was. so i said its cool we can be friends but i just need some space rn & he once again was really #understanding & said 'for as long as you need. just let me know whenever youre ready to just be friends again & if you need me to stay sway #from [xyz places we hung out] just let me know and if you need anything for class just feel free to reach out' #and. GOD i appreciate him. so that convo closed out on good terms. i was worried id need WEEKS but it rlly was just a few hours after that #i was ok again. traumas all about narratives and before that convo all i could see was another instance i was usee but like. #after actually talking it out all the fear around it dissipated and i can just see it for what it was: 2 friends who got carried away #but i really REALLY appreciate how hes handled this and we're both single & attracted to each other and so the question im thinking now is: #crushposting