#I guess 10 minutes WAS enough

[girl-bateman]

How does one get assigned as sam coded / dean coded ? Do I need a doctors note ? A psych evaluation perhaps ?

#i keep going back and forth on it #bc i used to identify with dean for the longest time bc i was so repressed and emotionally closed off (+older sister) #and at that point id spent my youth very purposefully protecting my younger sibling from our dad #and i guess in my brain i paralleled that with dean staying behind with john while sam took off for stanford #and dean protecting sam from knowing too much abt the supernatural #BUT having grown up ive now become the one resentful and angry at our father while my sister protects him #and our fights remind me a lot of scenes from the show where im obviously identifying a lot stronger with sam #plus the whole thing abt being the families designated academic or whatever #while also feeling cursed from the minute i was born and crushing at the guilt of everything wrong with me #and trying to be a good person and saving others to make for the fact that i feel an intrinsic evilness about myself #so like... yeah sam is very very relatable too in that sense #bc he also has that hope in him- the belief in god. in angels. in goodness. and i have that too ! #im just also a miserable cynic at the same time :) #so ???? #i havent been in the fandom for long enough to know the full requirements of being a sam or dean girl #(and by that i mean i havent been in the fandom for long AFTER i rejoined from my 10 year hiatus) #i literally would love to read someones page long explanation of what sam coded vs dean coded entails #someone with a spn hyperfixation or special interest needs to provide me with the goods fr 😭 #spn

[coochiekrab]

Im already sick of that euro pop video

#its just another one of those videos that everyone goes insane for while i can’t stomach more than like 10 seconds of #its not bad just. it makes it point within the first 5 seconds and isn’t interesting enough to last a whole minute #like that one video of the…i guess shirtless guy with the axe wiggling in a backyard #never seen the end of it. never will the point is made within the first 3 seconds #is it tiktok attention span? or is it just because they’re Just Okay

[soldier-poet-king]

i am now remembering why i put down knitting and took up cross stitch & embroidery in grad school (besides my irritation with stitch tension)

THE RSI FLARE UPS 

ive cast on for a gauge piece and my hands already hurt. ALOT. wtf.

this doesn’t happen when i embroider because i have a hoop stand and am generally only using my dominant (non rsi) hand. and i have an ergo set up for video games. im either gonna have to teach myself continental (the picking stitch method maybe will put less stress on my left hand?) or im going to have to switch entirely to crochet which, for whatever reason, puts less strain and tension on my hands

#franposting #MY BODY IS JUST. NOT HAVING IT. FUCK THIS #i NEED to do smth useful and good and create to help #but \geez louise 10 minutes is enough to make it hurt wtf #i have only ever crocheted once in my whole life #but it was INIFINITELY less tension inducing #maybe i will just become a beanie fiend. make infinite hats to donate. you can churn them out real quick #and i have soooooo much surplus yarn #scarves too i guess but they take longer and are hit and miss wrt donating bc safety concerns #socks are out. crocheting socks never works #mittens MAYBE.

[mejomonster]

I wrote 6000 words today!

#rant #tbf #idk if its gonna bite me in the ass or not but like #oh well. my goal is a first draft done by end of year #even if it sucks or its good or whatever i just want a draft completed !!! #i have been hung up on 2nd guessing my own writing for a month ;- #so i switched stories to one with a pov character narrator whos a history nerd of the world (and blackmails/spies on others a lot) #so like. hes a guy who knows a lot of info and happily rants anyway about exposition stuff to other characters #(like. hes literally an ambassador and explains perceived social norms differences between faeverse countries and facilitates cooperating) #so like. i figure at least i wont beat myself up for mentioning exposition #cause i guarantee however much i write. this character would be dumping 10 more page than me per minute. if he could sjdjdj #so ill likely have enough content included in the draft when im done. and itll be easier to cut some stiff #rather than needing to add missing stuff later

[flecks-of-stardust]

slightly different route:

the legendary one cycle sprint to ascension! route suggested by @sevenrs which i decided to try. the route is honestly pretty similar to what i was doing before, with a few minor tweaks that ended up making it faster than my original route.

as you can see from the score screen though, it's not actually 'one' cycle; i starved twice to bring my karma up so i could go to pebbles. but the game doesn't know any better :) tbh this was pretty fun, particularly because i'm more familiar with the route now. if you're okay with navigating drainage system and filtration system in the dark, you can give it a whirl!

#sky i am so sorry for the three tags now but i cannot in good conscience not tell you about this #or credit your (and your friend's) route planning #speeeeed #yes game i totally have only 1 minute and 56 seconds of playtime ✨ #rain world #for anyone legitimately interested in trying this out: #skip the tutorial by not entering any of the tutorial food rooms #and get food elsewhere. exactly 5 is enough so don't bother hunting bats for too long #save in the outskirts shelter near the industrial complex gate #upon cycle 1's start: starve #do NOT touch the karma flower before you starve. i had to restart because i realized i fucked up #once you enter your starve cycle eat the karma flower in the room below the den #then die. quitting out might be faster but i need to check if it works; it should but just to be safe yknow #repeat with industrial complex flower and den #once you hit karma 4 reroll your rain timer until it's long enough to run all the way to pebbles in one cycle #yes it's doable. it's fun and scary and you will feel so cool #and then die or quit out once he gives you karma 10 #so you'll be back in the outskirts den after that. just book it to filtration system through drainage system #you will have to deal with dark rooms but it's like. fuckinnnnnnn uhhh four or five rooms that are pitch black #and then you're in depths! and nothing matters anymore :) except fall damage i guess #don't die in depths to fall damage #i'm excited to see if anyone can beat my time. most of my speed comes from running away from enemies and chaining roll pounces #nothing fancy movement wise. so anyone better at movement than i am could probably beat that time easily

[lavender---sunshine]

in all seriousness i 90% sure im going to quit my job tomorrow and for a while i will have just enough money to live on and will have to spruce up my resume and job hunt and stress but MY GOD i need to do something else because this is making me suicidal

#like actively suicidal. wanting to die in a way i have not since highschool. literally woke up and thought 'i dont want to be here anymore' #and then couldnt make myself get out of bed until like 10 minutes before i had to leave the house for job 2 #i know its unprofessional but i pretty much...quiet quit i guess. i worked from home for like a month straight without telling my boss #and she called yesterday wondering about it and the whole time the only thing i could think of was 'you didnt even know for a MONTH #thats how little people communicate around here #the office culture is toxic. the people are self absorbed and shut me out. ive gone through like 6 big life events and no one knows because #no one in that office cares enough to ask. and even if i volunteer the most i get is a 'wow that wild look at this tiktok yeah anyway' #im so burnt out. i have 1 day of rest and i dont get to do that at all. so no like im not going to get up get dressed sit in traffic park #on the street because a year later they still havent given me a clicker for the parking lot and sit in the back of a warehouse for hours #talking to no one. ive literally gone days without talking to anyone there. its so lonely. #theres only so many audiobooks and podcasts and albums you can listen to before you think 'i would be ok getting hit by a truck tomorrow' #im going to hate these next few months but i just need time #and the lord works in mysterious ways because my other boss just started talking about hiring for mon/tues which are the days i work bad jo #so i would at least get those hours until i find something else stable. im going to try very hard not to be mean about it but im like... #hey girl this place sucks ass and you know it. im not negotiating #but thanks for that raise 9 months late #im giving you three weeks for find a replacement and i dont care if you fire me in that time #il work from home or panera or starbucks or library but im not stepping in that office again unless its for my minifridge and heater

[girlscience]

i could have been home two whole hours ago. instead i am sitting, bored out of my mind, in the truck while my family wanders around scheels. literally why???? there is nothing in there that can't be got elsewhere. i just want to go home

#we ate breakfast in the tiniest loudest restaurant ever #comments were made about how good i am with kids because i played with my cousins baby #and got told i would be a good mom and had plenty of time to have babies of my own and that i'm still young #and then we stopped to get a shirt at old navy for my mom for an angel tree thing #there are like 10 old navy's within an hour of my parents house #why did we have to stop at the one in springfield #and then i thought finally i was going home but nope #stopped at scheels. thought it would be a quick trip fucking why idk. i had hope i guess #i've been waiting for my family to come back for the last 45 minutes at least #and now it's late enough i know they are going to want to stop for food somewhere #😭 i just want to go home and see my baby kitty and go to sleep in my bed #EDIT: they just got back and all they bought was DOG TOYS AND LICORICE #WHY

[quitedisastrous]

i think holding a cat of some sort would alleviate most of my issues. but alas i will not be home for 93 hours

#queued rambles #i have a stats exam and a french test tomorrow and girl i do not have faith in either of them. gonna study from ~8 to 10:30 #take the stats test (as it's in class) #study for the french test for 20 minutes. and then take the french test with just enough time to get it done before the 3pm due date #and the uh. whammo. done. i can go work on my website i guess #hehe i should have enough to snag a domain for 2 years tomorrow. excited for it. should be pretty sick since i'm actively taking web design #anyways ourgggg i'm going to eat something and then go to sleep (lay in bed and browse reddit until 11-12) in preparation for tomorrow. #3pm will be here before i know it.

[lecliss]

Why is ff8 trending???? There's nothing in the tag implying a reason and it's not super active rn either. Nearly had a heart attack for a second thinking a remake was announced or something.

#i guess while im on the topic. why do people think 10 is getting a remake? was that legit announced?? #i think from what i saw it was just rumors #and like. why??? the 10 stuff already got a remaster and it looks good enough even nowadays that i dont think it needs one #and yeah sure i hear people dont like the downsides of the remasters but like. its all good enough for me #fr for a 2001(?) game. with the remaster it still looks gorgeous #and the fmv custscenes would lose a certain uniqueness to them with that era of cgi just being like. actually realistic #like in ways the early 2000s cgi is more appealing to me. i dont wanna see tidus look more realistic than he does in dissidia NT #anything further than that for 10 would just not look right ya know? #personal #edit: it was trending for like 2 minutes and isnt anymore #but that just begs the question as to wtf happened for like 10 minutes until it stopped????

[imwritesometimes]

'one hour to kill before I am expected to be somewhere' is actually the worst kind of torture there is

#like ok. guess I'll die for 45 minutes idk. #did my makeup cause I thought like oh that'll eat up some time! #joke's on me I can fill in my brows & apply eyeliner and mascara in 10 minutes flat with curling my eyelashes #cause that's been the extent of my makeup use for over a decade now lmao #not enough time to fire up the sims for any real purpose. dishes are done. fckn kill me #erin explains it all

[cantsaythetword]

I hate how overwhelmed I get in loud alcoholic social situations

#i am currently hiding in the bathroom of the bar that we're at for my gf's 22nd #i was meant to go pick up our friend to come here #but he said he would uber to make it easier for me #which is lovely #BUT THIS WHOLE TIME IVE BEEN HOLDING OUT FOR THE 45 MINUTE BREAK ILL GET FROM NOISE AND PEOPLE AND DRUNKENNESS #so im just sitting on the toilet seat in the stall #trying to calm my body down from its lil sensory episode #its not really a meltdown but im not vibin #and i feel bad cause my gf was originally gonna go to the clubs but cause she knows about my noise thing she changed it to a bar #and its definitely 10 times better than the clubs i hate going there but im still wanting to hide away from everyone #and its gonna look weird if im hiding out for like 30 minutes and DONT come back with her friend #but oh well i guess im gonna look weird lol #i hate parties like this but im doing it for her #cauae i love her #and i do like the friend thats coming so maybe that will help #anyways enough of my lil rant #hope your day is going v well #im also gonna add a slight #tw: alcohol #just in case... i dont think it would be a big trigger but better safe than sorry 👌 #on this episode of crow hides in the bathroom

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

i would LOVE to stop having dreams forever actually

#surprise surprise guess who it wss about #i was in a mall w my brother and we were soooo chillin #found a cool hoodie that i want irl now. was walking to the checkout and guess who walked in with a group of her friends #(who used to be my old friends. btw.) #and we. locked eyes and i looked away and scurried up to the register like a fucking prey animal #and after i paid for it there was like this barrier thing between the register line and the rest of the store #and as i was goinf aroundnthat i ran into her by accident and dropped my stuff #and i had to sit there and listen to her indirectly speak about me to her friends even thiugh i was right there and #jghughgughh writing this out makes it feel like the most stupid high school drama thing but #i remember looking up from the floor and seeing one of my old friends and like. pleading w her for any sort of help #and she looked. sad but didnt do shit #so i just had to. run out tail between legs like a fucking coward #and the entire rest of the dream walking aroundnthe mall they would come into every store i eas in like. 4 minutes behind me #just enough time for me to. forget abt the experience and try to enjoy myself #only to see yhem again a minute later and remember why im running for my goddamn life #ughghghghggghghgh #dont. look at me. #and now its like 10 am which means ive slept in and i fucking hate sleeping in bc i lose like half the day #this is valuable time i could have spent being productive or something. fuck

[crowcryptid]

The IT guy from my previous job messaged me out of nowhere and is asking me to apply. Yay.

But even if I apply and get accepted it’s still up to my complete asshole of a boss to approve me leaving before June. I don’t trust her. Not yay.

#I was worried about her even if I wait till June #cause they’re still going to call her #and who knows wtf she’s going to say #I don’t see her most days and when I do it’s less than 5 mins #but I guess that was enough for her to decide she hates all the people she hired in the last year :) #I’m still going to try anyway #but I really hate that a lady who I see for like 10 minutes a week can literally ruin my life

[naynah-pinsence]

lmao got rejected from the one (1) job anywhere near me that has anything at all to do with my fuckin degree boy i die

#dinky coconut #IS MY BA NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU #IT WAS LIKE 10 MINUTES FROM MY HOUSE TOO THINK OF THE GAS MONEY I COULD HAVE SAVED #like ill be FINE i guess but like al;kdakncD;LKFNA hate

[fabulouslygaybean]

god. my time management skills are so bad. it took me almost two hours (two!! fucking!! hours!!) to make a premade pasta thing

#i was severely delayed though bc my mom wanted chicken in it but we only had raw frozen chicken #so i had to go thru the motions of thawing and cooking raw chicken which is kind of time consuming #THEN i had issues with the fuckin pasta so it took an extra 5 minutes to fully cook #then i found out that apparently there wasn't enough starch added to the sauce packet bc just as it was starting to thicken the starch - #- started breaking down and it got even thinner so i had to rush and add some flour and make sure it was a high enough temp to cook said - #- flour to get rid of the salmonella risk #so it was just. longer than necessary #a solid hour of the cooking was just waiting for the chicken to thaw so i guess it could've been worse #but just. ack. its 10:45 and i only just now have dinner ready.

[immortalsins]

i’ve got an old friend i haven’t spoken to properly in a few months (this is normal, she lives in the netherlands) and i just saw she’s following one of those ‘old money aesthetic’ pages on instagram that posts photos of exclusively rich white people (and rich, hot boys) in their fancy houses. is she joking

#those pages are so strange #i don't visit them obviously. i'm normal. it just appeared as recommended #because my friend follows it #she's got a very well-off mum #has a nice house and horses #she lives in university accomodation but it's 10 minutes from her mum's house #(this is unthinkable to me) #but you wouldn't guess she's 'rich' #she's the only horse girl i've ever known who's not annoying #i love her lots and obviously i'm not going to judge #but maybe i will a little bit #idk its just?? not something i expected from her? #i've tried to get in touch with her #i'm wayyy overthinking this but maybe i'm not good enough for her anymore #she's seen my parent's house #falling apart #shdjbckweyucjvhsdhg