#I have so many shoes now

[bigolgay]

Took a silly pill.

Silly pill is working because I don’t wanna die anymore.

Looked at the shower and fantasised about having the motivation to shower, which is basically the same thing as actually showering.

Put on my binder.

Put on proper clothes.

Drank some water because haven’t done that today.

Ate some food because haven’t done that today or yesterday.

Feeling fine, fresh and funky and I’m ready to fight or fuck god. Up the butt.

But instead I have to wash clothes and pack for leaving tomorrow.

Which is not fine, fresh or funky👎

#I have so many shoes now #I used to have one pair #I now have 4 pairs #I don’t know if I should bring all of them #but I like them all #black ones? sex. white ones? sex. my boots??? sex. my walking shoes? not sex but useful cos walking #I walk in all of them tho #I don’t just hover everywhere #but walking shoes do good walking that don’t (in theory) hurt #I don’t know where I fit all of them tho #me and mum doing a ✨business delivery✨ tomorrow and I don’t have much space in car #(<-not drugs) #so have to pack conservatively #call me a Tory the way I be packing #actually don’t call me a Tory I will cry #silly pill isn’t that silly #sorry anon I won’t be sleeping early tonight!!! gots to pack #and I’m professional procrastinator so have to do it all tonight #tomorrow! (maybe) #idk if my anon will see this #we’ll see!!!! #wait I leave a message for anon #don’t read!!! this for anon only!!!! …hey🫣you’re cute😌 #who threw the tennis ball!?!🎾

[luck-of-the-drawings]

so REVENGE, HUH? or justice, if that makes you feel better. it tastes the same when cooked just right. 'I REALLY WANTED A BROTHER.' such a shame to burn a bridge you so desperately wanted to keep, especially when it wasnt even you who started the fire. especially when you hope that not a single fragment of that bridge ever washes ashore.[MAY IT ROT FAR FROM MY SIGHTS] an unfortunate loss! atleast he has his friends.

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi prime defenders #jrwi prime defenders spoilers #jrwi pd spoilers #jrwi pd #william wisp #vyncent sol #THIS ONE IS FUUUUCKIN OOOOOLLDD RAAAHHHHH i made it like. a year ago. but didnt finish it for so so long bc i just wasnt happy w it. #BUT LIKE A CENTURY EGG the decades of being encased in salt n lime n ash have done WELL to bring out the flavores of this piece #i sorta recently cleaned it up and posted it onto twitty. didnt tag it bc it was SO OLD AND SCUFFED(i see so many MISTAKES NOW) #that i didnt want to expose it to the open air just like that #if i show smth to my small circles then it shall only be understood in those small circles. #open air and open interpretation from minds i cannot predict are NOT something i enjoy the thought of. usually. i am brave tho #BUT EVERYONE ON TWITTY WAS SO NICEEE i was like damn... i guess it IS good enough to be enjoyed by the masses... #lets work on being nicer to our art together. THAT BEING SAID. i really love my colors here HELL YEAHHHH #FIRST TIME IN A WHILE COLORIN THESE BOYS.... i dont use proper color enough..I ALSO RLY LIKE MY BACKGROUNDS HERE #i LOVE when the bg is hyperrealistic (i frankestiened stock photos) and when the subjects are all flat colored n cartoony #recently rewatched Making Fiends and they do that similar thing!! soft shading! lotsa details! almost painted? ill paint one day #ive already rambled so much abt the art im runnin out of ROOm to ramble about WWWIILLIAM GODDAMN WWIIIISP. its been a minute since i saw- #-this episode..but i DO remember the funny smoke trick that will did to his funny brother. EVERYTIME U GIVE AN ORDER. THAT BRINGS HARM- #-INDIRECTLY OR NOT. YOU WILL HEAR THOSE SCREAMS. YOU WILL FEEL THAT PAIN. OHHH WHAT A COOL PUNISHMENT THAT IS #its still an olive branch in a sense! a final chance for big bro bell to show that hes NOT an irrideemable piece o shit. and if not #well. to the wolves of psychosis with him!!! i really think william did the best he could here. if i was in his shoes i have no doubt i- #-woulda done the same. IM ALSO GLAD THAT VYN DECIDED TO STICK AROUND N SUPPORT HIM! thas character development baybe!! #i loooove prime defenders.. its been so long since i watched any eps of it but i KNOW it still has such a grip on my heart..GOTTA rewatch i

[nedeii]

wip X2

#i never post them but maybe it wouldn't be all that bad idk #still having some weird mental hurtles to traverse >_> #and explore #and learn from #kicking my perfectionism to the other edge of the universe would be step no 1 #i used to be way less scared and going through my oooold stuff there's a sense of freedom i kind of like #and now i visibly lack it #SO MAYBE I WONT FIX THOSE WONKY SHOES WHEN RENDERING #WHO KNOWS #anyway #hello tumblr #I'll try not to be a coward and post something sometime #thanks for sticking around #sky 星を紡ぐ子どもたち #thatskygame #wip #skyblr #are these too many hashtags am i going to face THE CONSQUENCES is this instagram if you post more than x you PERISH ohnoohno

[tabbi-mysteries]

Episodes 1-500 Mouri Ran's Wardrobe!

+ Films 1-11 & OVAs 1-8

(better quality images under the cut)

Wow what an update! This took a while because uh she does not rewear her outfits very often in this segment of the show, still it was fascinating to see how the style of clothes changes over this time period. Also new to this update I went through and added the smol Ran's that have appeared that I skipped over before :)

This project has been a lot of fun and I intend to continue so they'll be more to come in the future too. In the meantime I want to know people's favourites! (Or least favourites are fun too) let me know in the comments/tags!

As a final P.S I've learnt that some of her merch/promo looks are unique and I was wondering if anyone knows if there's any archive or something of references of those cause some of those are really cute and I'd like to include them.

#dcmk #detective conan #mouri ran #detco #case closed #my art #ran #okay so maybe technically this could be called 1-495 or 1-504 because she doesn't appear for a while in that arc but uh 1-500 sounds neater #I gave each outfit it's own number to make referencing them easier but i worry I maybe now have too many numbers and it looks cluttered? #opinions on that too would be great pls #usual disclaimer regarding details/colours/shoes etc. where references where difficult and I took my best guess #personal favs include 484 skisuit absolutly adorable with those pompoms on the hat #also outfit 399 is super cute shame she only wears that for a short while #finally gotta mention the amazing 407 panda onesie obviously a winner #least favs include 475 why are those trousers under the dress??? #463's jacket is great but the episode ends on a reveal of her shoes and socks and I was... surprised #442's collar is weird too

[tennessoui]

silly soulmate au where everyone has the first words their soulmate said to them on their body somewhere and anakin’s are “excuse me sir, your shoelaces are untied” so he walks around with his shoes untied as a way of trying to bait life into giving him his soulmate

But one day he’s like super done with it and cranky after a bad day and someone taps his shoulder while he’s waiting at a crosswalk and says “excuse me sir your shoelaces are untied” and anakin snaps “your shoelaces are untied”

and obi-wan “afraid to submit to the mortifying ordeal of being known enough to be loved” kenobi says “I’m not wearing shoelaces” kinda flabbergasted because he’s spent like 30 years wearing untieable shoes so no one can ever tell him “your shoelaces are untied” only to be thwarted by a beautiful, aggressive soulmate of a stranger

#obikin #Kit’s silly lil AUs #before you ask yeah my shoelaces are untied #and many many strangers have told me #anyway I think it would be funny if obi-wan is so gobsmacked #that the light changes #and anakin is like ‘congratu fucking lations then’ and storms off #OR neither of them really notice/clock the other person is their soulmate #and then meet at a party a year later with no memory of each other #because it was just a brief interaction with a stranger at the end of a long day #over and forgotten #but then they fall in love and date after the party where they meet #and it’s an amazing relationship and very strong and perfect #and anakin starts wearing shoes that don’t have shoelaces because he’s terrified of meeting his soulmate now that he has obi-wan #OR maybe they meet again and become close friends but they don’t date #and they pine over each other for months but don’t want to risk their friendships #and anakin starts lacing his shoes/wearing boots because he doesn’t want to find his soulmate when he’s so in love with obiwan #only for obi-wan to start wearing shoes with laces because he needs to find his soulmate because he’s in love with anakin and that’s awful #will ruin him #(in that version they don’t know what the other person’s mark says)

[anominous-user]

full versions of my de-sticked/hsr'ed version of triple threat

types + paths

#thsc #the henry stickmin collection #ellie rose #henry stickmin #charles calvin #triple threat #honkai star rail #a-u art dump #thsc x honkai #using honkai as a general franchise term here cuz. brainrot (this is technically hsr related but my actual aus are honkai impact stuff) #so consider this a placeholder tag for whatever this is. anyway #a lot of this was thrown together as this was meant to be like “what if they were designed like mhyv characters” #hence the assymetry and the eyes and. basically everything. #though theyre not littered with too many details though even im not that mad #but the idea of taking literal stick figures and turning them into complicated ass designs was funny to me so ofc i had to do it #i do have reasons for why some things are like That though.. #the stick poses were drawn before i completely figured out the style so if they look wonky…thats why #and for the record while i have these now i still wanna draw them with orb heads so. just imagine these fits but simpler and orbed for that #i jsut havent figured out how i wanna do that just yet… #anyway designs may and probably will change over the course as i figure things out... cuz the shoes arent cutting it for me #this was already done a bit ago right after the “warm up” i just needed to fix stuff and write the ID #writing outfit descriptions is difficult when you are NOT good with words... #ellie puts the harm in harmony

[omppupiiras]

oopsie......

#olin mainoksen uhri #pötsi made me do it #käärijä #i have bought so many stupid things because of kä it's getting ridiculous 😂 #now i gotta hunt down the lidl shoes so i can wear the pirkka socks with them #just to amuse myself #omppu jorisee

[fallout-lou-begas]

genuinely i love how two back-to-back experiences with non-aggressive wasps and a new interest in the r/WhatsThisBug subreddit have made me so much more interested and endeared toward bugs. like i'll literally see a house centipede and i'll know it's my friend and keeping other pests away, or a yellowjacket outside and i'll know it'll be nice to me so long as i'm not near its nest, or a wolf spider with a swarm of babies on its back and think "awww it's a single mother supporting her family :)"

#bugs #louposting #so many bugs are basically harmless and knowledge really is power #also: never ever touch a fuzzy caterpillar even though they 'look' more like a friend #i've always been a 'leave it alone or just take it outside in a cup' woman to counterbalance my very scared cohabitants #but now i just love bugs even more :) #except infesting bugs. sorry. i don't have room for a whole swarm of you in my apartment or my heart so roaches etc. get the shoe #i know you're just trying to live but brother so am i

[silenthillbunni]

things i want but cant ever afford; tattoos, certain books, noise cancelling headphones, a few plushies, a polaroid camera.... yeh thats it those r my dream things to buy if i ever have money :((

#ngl it's starting to get to me #im 25...... and i've never been able to buy anything i want (or need sometimes) #and like im 25!!!! and i dont even have money so that i can save up to things or anything #ig thats why i buy so many necklaces even if i dont need them.... its the only thing i can afford sksksksk #:((( #i dont even want a lot of things but like it sucks to have gone my entire teens not being able to afford anything #and now im halfway thru my 20s and i cant even buy new shoes even if i rlly need them #let alone saving up for a polaroid. it's like $100 nd i'd easily buy one if i had a job #but the money i get now is $300 and all of that goes to food but barely covers that :D #anyway whatever im just feeling a bot sad

[suffarustuffaru]

ok but im getting emo over heinkel again so im gonna talk about him again because yeah hes yet another sad character in a sea of sad characters and i love rezero for that but like he is a character consistently characterized by one loss after the other. it's a rollercoaster and its going straight fucking down and he is so miserable and absolutely alone and its both his fault and not his fault at all. but the way it starts is - its all out of his control. the more you think about the trajectory of his life the sadder it gets.

imagine you are heinkel and your parents are the sword saint and the sword demon and you come from a long line of knights and sword saints so thats almost definitely where youre headed, right? thats whats expected of you. you are nineteen years old and youre a knight in the royal guard, which was expected of you, and you have a wife and a beautiful baby boy, which was also expected of you, but at least you have so much joy and love for the latter while the former is just another chain on the astrea family line of people who are stuck to knighthood whether they like it or not. but your family is also just another chain because youre nineteen and your mother is still the sword saint and youre playing with fate here because either youre going to be the sword saint or your son will be.

your wife, the only equal you have, falls asleep one day and never wakes up. you are twenty-one years old and a single parent and then you are twenty-three years old and your son's fate is so much bigger than youll ever be. having the worlds love means that your love pales in comparison, doesnt it? everyone knows about your comatose wife because you keep searching so much for a cure that its just another thing to gossip about. every year that passes by she just continues to look the same as she did when she was awake and alive and loved you. (you dont know it yet but your son is going to reach the same age as her, because you dont find a cure for another sixteen years and you know that she wont love you anymore because who does? theres no one left because your son doesnt count.)

and everyone knows about you because of your family. because yeah, youre a good swordsman, but youre not liked by anyone in the knights. youre not a friend and youre certainly not a sword saint or sword demon. your son mind controls someone because he loves you so much that he would do anything for you and looks up to you like youre some hero, but youre just a wreck whos scrambling to keep what little you have. youre twenty-four and you lose your mom because you were too scared to go on the mission you were assigned on, because youre a coward and youre in over your head and you know, because everyone knows, that you dont measure up. you could never be prepared for this. in a long line of people who have to carry the weight of the world, you crumble easily. your mom goes on that mission and dies and your son becomes the sword saint like this was always going to happen. this is what being loved by the world means. you just killed your mom because you just couldnt suck it up and die on that mission instead. on top of that, your dad says that your five-year-old god of a son killed your mom. its just you and your son and the two of you both killed your mom but youre the worlds biggest laughing stock and your son is the up and coming hero and monster. but you still love your son. you really do.

right?

#rezero #heinkel astrea #i have. many feelings on him always. no i do not condone his abuse and i never will. but he is such a fascinating character #and this is not even getting into like. post-reinhard being five years old. cries. there is so much happening my god. the tragedy of it all #i swear theresia and wilhelm act like they dont even like heinkel fr sometimes too i swear aldfjldfjl theres just implications behind that #relationship too. and implications to heinkel and reinhards Everything with what little we've seen of them. like little kid reinhard truste #his dad SO MUCH heinkel was very loving in the beginning. it hurts how badly it turns out later alsdlfj bc you just Know that reinhard is #internalizing this like. my dad used to love me and now he doesnt anymore and its all my fault. #BUT HE STILL DOES LOVE REINHARD DEEP DOWN BC WHY ELSE WOULD HE HAVE SCHULT AS A REPLACEMENT. GOD. GOD. #arc 5 spoilers #i always like. theorize that heinkel used to be someone who tried to follow the rules to the T. try his best. try to be a good perfect #knight. a bit of a people pleaser. WHICH IS LIKE REINHARD RIGHT and it explains why heinkel is so bitter and jaded and angry now. god. i #hate it here. the astreas make me sooo crazy #like heinkel really does seem like a guy whos just trying to be a goody two shoes in like the once upon a time from lugunica ss but he fail #miserably bc hes too Emotional and also going through a lot of stress aljsdlfj

[jacksprostate]

sorry this is once again my monthly 'i'm in love with people and our capacity for compassion even in the face of deep deep cruelty, even though i've seen worse and worse things, come to terms with so much, it's my love of humanity that has let me avoid rotting, encouraged me to grow and chase my own place in helping everyone around me" post

#im really excited for the job im starting. still about a month or so out but heading towards a career change sort of that im really excited #for. im just... i actually used to be very cynical and i struggled to see the point through all the terrible things in the world #but for many reasons #even as i discovered worse and worse things #ive developed... resiliency i never thought id have #born out of this appreciation for those and the world around me #and i wish i could share it. i see so many people in my old shoes #im still growing. so much to do #but im at a level of contentment.. idk. i couldntve dreamed of #and it took effort #it is not /easy/ to face things and believe in good regardless #but. its rewarding. i wish it for all of you #on a similar but different note ive been reaching a point of being more myself in social situations rather than just a chameleon #and ive been lucky enough to have the people around me the past two years or so be very supportive in a way that has truly let me grow and #become a better version of myself #and its sort of been this positive feedback loop. because the more confident and passionate you are the more people are delighted by your #eccentricies #i used to be so beat down #i still struggle so much #but. im at a place i never thought id be #no doubt there will be struggles in the future #hell its not like things are perfect now #still so much. major things to improve on #but idk. i am happy #and its a very full sense of happiness. #full and aware and strong #thats what i wish for all of you :)

[rivilu]

Everyone's on about Miguel beefing with a 15 yo, which sure it's funny, but y'all are letting the Spot, "I now declare this child that MY INVENTION inflicted this anomalous occurrence on, my lifelong nemesis", the ULTIMATE beef haver, to go unchecked.

#spireverse spoilers #across the spiderverse spoilers #you know at least miguel has the excuse that 15yo or not Miles's actions might cause TWO whole dimensions to collapse #assuming both pavitr's and miles' own dimension have a similar population to ours #thats SIXTEEN BILLION LIVES at stake babes #yah like no i'd also be going kooky crazy in his shoes #ofc his handling of Miles' situation wasn't good but that's not. precisely his job? Breaking the news shouldve fallen on Peter and Gwen #yanno. his actual friends? but they skirted around the subject too much so woops it falls on Miguel now #the most emotionally unsuited for this task guy possible. woopsies. #get ready for the most projection filled fight of your life kid cause it sure is cheaper quicker and easier than therapy! #I jest and the projection part is true but tbh i think too many people in the tags are interpreting Miguel being antagonistic to the rest- #as him having personal beef with children instead of him focusing (too much) on the bigger picture. like..isnt that his entire personality? #the 'fate of the multiverse' guy? cmon now. #the main issue is that miles Does Have To TRY- that's part of the canon event in the first place #trying and failing. if his plan of keeping him trapped until jeff died had worked then his dimension would most likely also collapse #if anything the way things are set up rn is sooo interesting because miles IS precisely on the way to fulfill a canon event #the question is - are they going to play into that- or is there going to be a twist. Gwen's realization that Her dad could in fact Quit - #comes to mind #i for one would find it really funny if the plot of the next movie is trying to convince jeff to quit his job but i doubt it jxnsn #my guess is that since this is basically the variation of the trolley problem where the singular person on the tracks is one you care about #(but said person is simultaneously also on the 5 person rail because if they don't die everyone does) #and miles has decided to just go and stop the fucking trolley itself fnsjsj #the plot's gonna go a bit more all out . /Beyond/ the previous scope- if you will #the only sticking point i have with this movie in general though is pavitr sticking with the group like. #“obviously he would've stuck with miles- he wouldn't want the guy to die!”so you think he prefers the version of events where everyone does #his friends? his aunt - whatever family he has- his girlfriend? EVERYONE? #yeah like nah until he can solidly know that shits gonna be fine in his home world i don't think it makes sense for him to fuck around more #yanno? #not that I dont want to see more of him- on the contrary I fuckin love his design to bits #just saying if miguel drops the bomb that his universe collapsed and my guy switches sides i would not be surprised

[abirddogmoment]

bitches love an empty trailhead parking lot and other shots from our lunchtime 12km walk

#dogblr #maverick #pike #waaaaaay too nice of a day to pass up a hike #we have a sniffspot tomorrow morning so the dogs get TWO extremely enriching days in a row #they were thrilled btw #and shockingly good at staying on the trail despite many a squirrel and rabbit signs #although i forgot how hard it is to walk on snow/ice and now im SORE #looking forward to not moving for the rest of the day #(for those who dont live in places with ice - those things on my shoes are crampons #theyre little metal pieces that stick out and grip the ice so you can walk/run in slippery conditions. #they are one step less intense than microspikes which are usually much sharper and used for glaciers/ice climbing)

[temeow]

shout out to media ..... its really interesting to look at how graphics and layouts and stylisation develops over time and what influences it (lots of analysis in the tags)

#temtalk #i was comparing 1957 vogue to 2023 vogue #and u can see its very much based on pictures now #rather than back then it was lots and lots of words #esp in the first issues where it was so many paragraphs #and its also very fpcused on advertising despite when the article itself isnt #for example one on margot robbie (photoshoots n stuff for barbie) managed to work the branding into the little snippets of text #which ur bound to read bc of how small they are n how they stand out on the page #as being the only text so naturally ur gonna read them #its in the same paragrah no line break or anything #backstory on the image then BOOM brand name #and it has the brand name first which is interesting #like [brand] shoes rather than shoes by [brand] #bc if u were reading for backstory on the image itself u would see 'shoes' and stop reading #but by having thr brand first . boom . right in ur face wether u like it or not #which id obviously what a lot of advertising does bc yk. no one likes it. so they have to force it at u #also also also. i was considering #yk how tumblrs layout look so much like twt now #thats fascinating to me #bc why would u want to go with the crowd rather than maintain ur image which already sticks out somewhat #lots of social platoforms are looking more and more similar #which. is fascinating like i mentioned #bc being unique is a big part of marketing #so its probably playing to the popularity of twt? possibly hoping to draw in more users with a theme thye already recognise #which i mean. this is known as being a 'dead' website #heavy on the quotation marks #so maybe its a case of trying to revive it somewhat by pushing it into the crowd #even tho. its not dead #IDK IDK its all rlly interesting to me!!taking media in school at the moment #and im rlly enjoying it so

[androideql]

do u have an opinion on . yakumond re: bugs my mind is in factions, warring . edmond brave, yakumo baby. BUT yakumo farm boy. edmond city kid. yakumo destroying farm pests with his bare hands? out of habit? it's on SIGHT?? but nothing scares vice captain, right? so what if yakumond just turns my trope upside down and NEITHER of them are scared of bugs. what then. what do i do

I spent a while thinking how to reply to this ask. And. OK. Bear with me.

I honestly don't see either of them being afraid of bugs. I can see them not liking them, with Edmond being a more indiscriminate "bugs have no place in this house and should be squashed" compared to Yakumo's "will remorselessly kill pests but not harmless insects."

That being said... I kinda like the idea of Edmond having a very specific weakness to just one (1) bug and being utterly fucking embarrassed about it, and Yakumo (being the anxious baby he is) somewhat mirroring Edmond's response to it despite usually remaining very calm. They can be a disaster together. They've got that potential.

In fact, I liked the idea enough that I have this deleted short scene from a fic that I'm working on and that I will be releasing it into the wild now. Mind you, it's a draft so it's way more functional that it is polished.

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“Sir Edmond, why don’t you go to sleep right away? It's already very late.”

Edmond looked up from the blank paper. At the lack of a desk, a small wooden crate he'd found here in the hayloft would work just fine. Until he saw that he'd finished writing the letter, he was not going to be able to calm his nerves enough to sleep. It didn't matter that it could be done the next morning. Why leave it for later if it could be done now?

“I’ll be finished in a few more paragraphs, don't worry,” he said, dipping the pen in the inkwell. "You shouldn't stay up longer than necessary, either. Is something holding you up?"

"Ah, well..." Yakumo looked at the lamp on the crate. It would be rather difficult to sleep with it still on, and he couldn't ask it be turned off if Edmond was still writing. "It's fine. I can wait a little longer. I'll make sure the tent is properly set up."

"Haven't you already done that twice?"

There wasn't much else left to do here. Maybe he could go outside or look around the barn for things that might be useful next morning? His eyes tried to look around. It would be rather difficult to do this in the dark... Besides, he didn't want to do anything that would be too distracting. Edmond was very particular about this letter.

As Yakumo looked around from where he was sitting, he could see something scuttling up one of the sides of the crate. He frowned at the presence of the insect. People commonly referred to those as "claw traps." They had a crab claw-like pincer and a nasty habit of biting people in their sleep and hiding in boots. What if there were more around? Thankfully, he'd had the foresight to bring some repellant.

Yakumo crawled closer to the tent, where he'd left his belongings. He rummaged around his bag for the repellent and something to kill the insect with. However, Edmond was so absorbed in writing his letter that he hadn't noticed yet. It was probably better to warn him before he got bitten.

"Sir Edmond, there's a claw trap going up your desk."

At the mention of the bug Edmond haphazardly grabbed all his things and scrambled backward in panic, spilling black ink on the wooden floor, splashing some of it on his shirt.

Yakumo's heart made a jump. He dropped his bag and reacted without thinking.

Squish, crack. He immediately squashed the bug with his bare hand.

For a moment, there was silence. He stared at his hand, at Edmond, who looked way too tense over a single bug. When Yakumo realized what he had done, a shudder ran up his spine. He lifted his hand. It was wet and crunchy, and he probably just stuck the claw into his palm because it hurt. He looked at it. Yes. There it was. Like a massive splinter.

He was more worried about how Edmond hadn't taken a single breath ever since he'd killed this thing, though.

"S-Sir Edmond, is everything alright?" He asked as he shook the remains of the claw trap off his hand.

Snapping out of his panicked state, Edmond nervously cleared his throat, his cheeks burning red. He looked aside and took a deep breath with an angry expression on his face.

"Y-Yes... I... Oh, how embarrassing... I need a moment."

With a nod of acknowledgment, Yakumo rushed to wash his hands in the basin, just the get the gooey and feeling off his palm. Now he was going to have to go back into the house to change the water. He was not about to wash his face with cold insect soup when he woke up in the morning.

The act of cleaning and removing the pincer from his palm helped him calm down and think about what just happened. He turned around to look at Edmond, who examined the stained sleeve of his shirt with an air of inconvenienced embarrassment. That ink stain was not coming out, and he probably knew that.

"Umm... Do you have something in particular against these insects? I've never seen you react like that to any others before..."

For sure, they'd been toiling in the fields for most of the day, and this wasn't the first time they'd dealt with a bug problem before. Usually speaking, Edmond didn't hesitate. He looked at the offending creature with disgust and slammed the first hard thing he could find against them, making it abundantly clear that, while he didn't like them, he could handle them perfectly fine on his own. While claw traps were unpleasant, this seemed a bit excessive.

Looking tired all of a sudden, Edmond took a long breath and let out a deep sigh.

"I don't like those."

"Ah... Well, yes? It's... not hard to see that at all..." He waited for Edmond to continue, and he was about to nervously change the topic and run away to change the water when Edmond cleared his throat.

"We saw a lot of them back when I was still in training. There was one summer when they were everywhere, wherever we set camp. They barely let us sleep. I've had an... aversion to them ever since. But I can handle them on my own next time. I just need a second or two to calm down."

The last part was a quick attempt to save face, but Yakumo wouldn't have minded it at all if he had to get rid of one of these pests again. He merely hoped Edmond's panic was a little less contagious next time.

Hoping to help Edmond retain some of his dignity for now, Yakumo tried to make the atmosphere a little less stilted by subtly shifting the subject away from how Edmond felt about these insects.

"You must have stayed within the Light Territory that summer then?"

Edmond gave Yakumo a surprised look.

"How do you know that?"

"Claw traps can only really survive there. The Water and Wood territories are too humid for them."

Hold on... Yakumo's brow furrowed deeply once he realized what he'd just said.

"How did it get here, then?" Edmond asked. And he was right. They were right in the middle of the Water territory, weren't they? But Yakumo didn't really have an explanation.

"M-Maybe they're mutating...?"

"No."

Edmond snapped at the suggestion. Yakumo reflexively lowered his head in response.

"Um..."

"Don't make me even entertain that idea." He stood up, slightly agitated. "I'm going the search the hayloft in case there are more. I won't be able to sleep otherwise."

"W-We have repellent myrrh. We can burn some inside the tent. It doesn't smell bad or anything..."

His voice was barely a whisper, but the night was already silent in the village and the fields. Edmond had no problem picking up what he was saying, or the tone in which it was said.

"... I apologize. My tone was too harsh."

Yakumo had never heard Edmond talk to him like that before. There was no doubt that these bugs were a touchy subject. He chuckled nervously.

"It's... fine. Don't worry. I understand."

With his cheeks turning red once again, Edmond let out some unintelligible noise that maybe, in some corner of his mind, had been words at some point. Eventually, he gave up, huffing in frustration.

"Tha-Thank you for handling it..."

"Oh. I... could do it again if we find another one."

Not enthused by the idea of seeing more of them, but still looking somewhat relieved, Edmond's voice and face softened just a little.

"I seriously wish we didn't... But I'd be quite grateful if you could."

#the reason why i waited to answer this was to make sure I was not going to use the scene at all #turns out that yeah i don't need it #should i put this in the main tag? #new fic coming to you... #... eventually #just bug squashing for now #i couldn't think of a good name for the insect also but it's not like i have to anymore #ok so here's my thinking process: #i've known enough people in the military to make me think that Edmond probably had to put up with some shit as a new recruit or trainee #and that he probably has things that he really really doesn't like as a result #the klein kingdom probably has a bunch of natural nuisances depending on the season #but a trainee probably wouldn't be sent out in the middle of winter right away cause they don't have those survival skills yet #so if those first excursions happen in spring or summer... then bugs are a problem #and Edmond IS a noble anyway. he was probably not expecting that many bugs much less for them to be bite-y #and as for yakumo i just dont see him minding bugs as long as they don't sting #he basically grew up in a cave first and then in a farm; he's super used to them #some kid probably tried to put a spider in his shoe once to try to scare him and got a very underwhelming response for his efforts #i do think he gets nervous when he sees something venomous especially if it moves too quickly #and he probably gets easily startled by jumping spiders if he hasn't noticed them before they jump in front of him #but that's more him being a nervous mess in general and less about bugs #ok enough rambling #i can't do concise answers for shit im sorry

[softguarnere]

Kind of hypocritical that if I slept until 9 (!!) as a teenager my dad would act like it was a war crime, but now that he sleeps until noon every day we're all just supposed to go with it and not disturb him :/

#might have to break out my old tap shoes and see how many of my routines I remember #dove overshares things #to be clear: he's not sleeping in because of working late or anything #he just sleeps for like 14-15 hours a day now for unexplained reasons #✨why is my life so weird✨