#and now i visibly lack it

[nedeii]

wip X2

#i never post them but maybe it wouldn't be all that bad idk #still having some weird mental hurtles to traverse >_> #and explore #and learn from #kicking my perfectionism to the other edge of the universe would be step no 1 #i used to be way less scared and going through my oooold stuff there's a sense of freedom i kind of like #and now i visibly lack it #SO MAYBE I WONT FIX THOSE WONKY SHOES WHEN RENDERING #WHO KNOWS #anyway #hello tumblr #I'll try not to be a coward and post something sometime #thanks for sticking around #sky 星を紡ぐ子どもたち #thatskygame #wip #skyblr #are these too many hashtags am i going to face THE CONSQUENCES is this instagram if you post more than x you PERISH ohnoohno

[byronicbrit]

be strong everyone, keep living your best you

(combination with recent national events and a coworker calling T “steroids” just makes me nervous and scared for everyone’s safety and well being)

#trans day of visibility #sona #beeble #okay but fr tho i had to explain to this man that T doesnt cause fucking roid rage #like bro? #you can't OD on T because it TURNS INTO ESTROGEN #i had to tell him my medical doctor and not my therapist told me that before he believed me #the lack of understanding and misconceptions is what scares me the most with people #im just furious #trying to tie it to gun laws and the recent tragedy in tennesee #trans people shouldn't own guns until they're stable bro that's horrible wtf #anyways 2 years on t and my gender is great #ill stop rambling now #done diddly doodle #lmao i cant spell anyways

[radisyn]

Day 4 of @hot-glenn-holidays-2023 them "Naughty or Nice". idk why the first one wound up so Grinchy but I figured it fit with the theme. I imagine a rock version of "You're a Mean One, Mr. Grinch" over it

(also: what are butts anyway?? personally I have never heard of em nor do I apparently know what they look like despite using a photo reference so yes I am aware he is like *ludicrously* caked up but I tire of fiddling with it so here goes lolol)

#okay #i have no idea why I am posting these exactly #they are... very silly #and also really show my lack of grasp on fundamental anatomy #but ah well I've made it this far and I must carry on #sorry anyone who follows me for like #normal stuff #back to regularly scheduled programming in like a couple days #also I wish I had felt more inspired to do a Nicky drawing but I have yet to really connect with his character tbh #so here I am on my glenn shit #everyone look at my dumb naked blorbo #glenn close #dndads #anyway good night lol #my art #I guess #these will eventually be improved upon but for now I am tired and just trying to get them posted #also idk if this really counts as mature since there is no visible ding dong but I marked it anyway #just to be safe #hot glenn holidays 2023 #or cold glenn really #and no i do not know why I am so obsessed with this concept of “guitar over naughty bits” so if youre wondering #so am I haha #it has been educational as far as digital art goes #myart

[icewindandboringhorror]

examining a seemingly normal image only to slowly realize the clear signs of AI generated art.... i know what you are... you cannot hide your true nature from me... go back where you came from... out of my sight with haste, wretched and vile husk

#BEGONE!!! *wizard beam blast leaving a black smoking crater in the middle of the tumblr dashboard* #I think another downside to everyone doing everything on phone apps on shitty tiny screens nowadays is the inability to really see details #of an image and thus its easier to share BLATANTLY fake things like.. even 'good' ai art has pretty obvious tells at this point #but especially MOST of it is not even 'good' and will have details that are clearly off or lines that dont make sense/uneven (like the imag #of a house interior and in the corner there's a cabinet and it has handles as if it has doors that open but there #are no actual doors visible. or both handles are slightly different shapes. So much stuff that looks 'normal' at first glance #but then you can clearly tell it's just added details with no intention or thought behind it. a pattern that starts and then just abruptly #doesn't go anywhere. etc. etc. ) #the same thing with how YEARS ago when I followed more fashion type blogs on tumblr and 'colored hair' was a cool ''''New Thing''' instead #of being the norm now basically. and people would share photos of like ombre hair designs and stuff that were CLEARLY photoshop like #you could LITERally see the coloring outside of the lines. blurs of color that extend past the hair line to the rest of the image #or etc. But people would just share them regardless and comment like 'omg i wish I could do this to my hair!' or 'hair goallzzzz!! i #wonder what salon they went to !!' which would make me want to scream and correct them everytime ( i did not lol) #hhhhhhggh... literally view the image on anything close to a full sized screen and You Will SEe #I don't know why it's such a pet peeve of mine. I think just as always I'm obsessed with the reality and truth of things. most of the thing #that annoy me most about people are situations in which people are misinterpreting/misunderstanding how something works or having a misconc #eption about somehting thats easily provable as false or etc. etc. Even if it's harmless for some random woman on facebook to believe that #this AI generated image of a cat shaped coffee machine is actually a real product she could buy somewhere ... I still urgently #wish I could be like 'IT IS ALL AN ILLUSION. YOU SEE???? ITS NOT REALL!!!!! AAAAA' hjhjnj #Like those AI shoes that went around for a while with 1000000s of comments like 'omg LOVE these where can i get them!?' and it's like YOU #CANT!!! YOU CANT GET THEM!!! THEY DONT EXIST!!! THE EYELETS DONT EVEN LINE UP THE SHOES DONT EVEN #MATCH THE PATTERNS ARE GIBBERISH!! HOW CAN YOU NOT SEE THEY ARE NOT REAL!??!!' *sobbing in the rain like in some drama movie* #Sorry I'm a pedantic hater who loves truth and accuracy of interpretation and collecting information lol #I think moreso the lacking of context? Like for example I find the enneagram interesting but I nearly ALWAYS preface any talking about it #with ''and I know this is not scientifically accurate it's just an interesting system humans invented to classify ourselve and our traits #and I find it sociologically fascinating the same way I find religion fascinating'. If someone presented personality typing information wit #out that sort of context or was purporting that enneagram types are like 100% solid scientific truth and people should be classified by the #unquestionaingly in daily life or something then.. yeah fuck that. If these images had like disclaimers BIG in the image description somewh #re like 'this is not a real thing it's just an AI generated image I made up' then fine. I still largely disagree with the ethics behind AI #art but at least it's informed. It's the fact that people just post images w/o context or beleive a falsehood about it.. then its aAAAAAA

[soldier-poet-king]

started another bg3 playthru bc i Am Sad TM, draconic bloodline dwarf street-urchin sorcerer bc i am making this as Sad as possible for a gale romance <3 i probably will not actually play it for a bit, but i was cooking in the character creator for like 3 hrs

#WE LOVE TO SUFFER!!!! #what's one lonely autistic mage without another lonely autistic mage #now with two different flavours of childhood isolation and grooming! #two different kinds of magical lack of control over appearance and powers! #two different kinds of visible markings of your magic that you cannot erase! #anyway her name is euphrosyne which is a misnomer #but abandoned as a kid and growing up an urchin bc she looks Like That #draconic blood?? in MY good dwarven family?? (her bio fam was clearly awful) #raised partially in a tiefling orphanage. the outcasts and misfits of it al #so she gets a virtue name. like tieflings #and is now like. clerk at a shop. very boring. just trying to stay out of ppls way. so lonely. doesnt rlly understand her magic #sees it largely as a curse #AND THEN. WHAM. HERE. HAVE THIS SWEETHEART WIZARD. #YALL ARE GONNA LOVE /AND/ HATE EACH OTHER #her dream guardian looks like the tiefling woman who was sort of her mom #i want at least one pc to trust the dream guardian. at least until much later in the game #my first tav and my durge were both suspicious mfs #euphrosyne is just. a little bitter and world weary. but kindhearted in a way the others werent

[thirdtimed]

ive never had engagement to this extent on my art cross platform between tumblr And twitter before... it's so surreal to me. thank you all for the kind words!!!

#i'm almost tempted to plug my main LOL #<- won't. because i'm shy. #i'm a tumblr native at heart so posting on twitter is very new to me but i see why artists might prefer it over tumblr now #it feels more... visible? #as opposed to here where it feels more like i'm allowed to exist within my own bubble... #i much prefer tumblr for talking/rambling... i love talking in tags.. #also i realize now ive been spoiled by tumblr's lack of automatic crop. fighting for my life over on twt trying to get those images to work #i feel like i can't. touch too many things on twitter. or talk too much. because something will break. #i also feel way too highly visible there like an ant being hit with a beam of sun through a magnified glass #i usually take to making a side account like this whenever i get a particularly lethal interest to wait until it naturally dies down #but it's normally a very lowkey affair. i never get notes like this! even on main! #so thank you all once again for the kindness..

[jamboreeartsupplies]

YALL I DREW SOMETHING HEHE

don't mind its messiness lol im still getting used to the stylus and also the program

i finally have a stylus to use with my laptop and YES it hurts my hand less than a regular pencil ahhhh

im literally so happy bc i missed doing art soooo much

i'm sooo rusty plus i've never used this art program before but im just happy i finally drew something i kinda liked!!

#looking at it now i think their feets are like. they look like they are not facing the right way lol #not looking for critique tho guys i know its not that good haha but its not that bad either !! #my art #furby art #my furby #jamboree art supplies #furby community #furby fandom #furblr #furby #furbies #oh yeah also just pretend the lack of their lil forehead sensor was a stylistic choice and not bc i forgot xD #although i do like the idea of drawing furbies like real creatures and not toys so idk dhadjg maybe its better that way?? idk yet #safe furby #i actually used The Unnamed as a reference instead of Jambo bc they are the most visible from where i sat without getting up lololol #but its fiiiiinee

[starlit-mansion]

it's kind of wild that jessie gender used the word transandrophobia in a youtube video. i've never seen that happen before. people gotchaing you know who for blatantly misgendering rebecca sugar and nate stevenson was the most callout of actual transmasc or afab transneutral erasure i've seen from the video essay space in memory, and even that was mostly just to pad out the callout post

#it's nice to hear literally one transfeminine person self-reflect on the way people talk over trans men in the youtube literati sphere #but. to be fair. a LOT of people called the lack of visible trans men out during hbomb's mermaids charity stream years back #there was a lot of scrambling to find transmasc guests towards the end. like.. irrc just tweeting out for guests #and then idk i don't think it moved the needle at all after that #(but also i stopped watching cpoints during the middle of her 'being cancelled for nonbinary erasure' era so idk if she changed) #other than that... in the mask off vid in l.e.'s final yt days she apologized for saying trans men have it easier than trans women #citing (as everyone seems to) elliot page finally showing the world that trans men are treated like dogshit #which uh. hm. i get that saying that doesn't call anyone of lesser visibility out #but frankly i'm shocked that she spent so much time in HER fandoms seemingly without ever encountering trans men lmao #(that's a joak. i remember it was way less visible a decade ago. fandom spaces were very girls club back then) #i'm rambling now lol #it's... a little wild that the misgendering was assigned to misogyny alone if i'm being honest. it was literally in the misogyny section #and it was about classing them as women to say that they were ALLOWED to show 'nonthreatening' wlw stories

[batz]

realizing its almost been 6 months since top surgery:)

#frank.txt #despite all the complications i had w healing im rlly happy w how my chest looks:) #ALTHOUGH. ONE BIG COMPLAINT #i used to use my bras as an extra pocket for my phone or lighter or whatever. but now i dont wear bras and therefore have no extra pocket #:( u win some u lose some :( #anyway all shirts look awesome on me now AND i can wear t shirts w funny text or image ans ppl wont feel awkward reading it:) #also the scars r fading rlly well! they almost blend in w my skin completely! (keyword almost. theyr still visible atp) #the way the scars r shaped is interesting bc theyre like a U shape. but bc of that when i inevitably build my pectoral muscles #the scars should blend into the shadow caused by thr muscle. i also dont have a Completrly flat chest bc im fat:0 #tbh my surgeon did rlly well . i have a lot of problems with him bc hes kind of a dick but from like. idk an artistic standpoint hes good #but the doctor standpoint hes Uhm. well i lost a nipple and had severe infection due to denied antibiotics and lack of aftercare #BUT. the lost nipple isnt visible and it looks normal now somehow AND. i didn't die from the infection so. I mean #i just had to spend christmas with a fever of 103 LMAO #HONESTLY THO i would do it again EVEN if i knew i would go thru hell bc this surgery fuckn saved my life holy shit #i didnt realize just how much i dissociated from my own body bc of dysphoria. now i feel more in touch with it and happy!:) #also now i can Eventually get that chest tattoo i wanted for like 7 years lmao #erm yippee:)

[vvanessaives]

no but thinking of violante's manic state following her murder of ruven and that sick game of association-replacement played by gortash where he acts just like ruven did, picks up some of his behaviours and mannerisms and speech patterns he specifically used with violante and that he knows of well bc he observed and studied them interact, so that he can fill up the now empty spot left by ruven's death.

#rena.txt #LIKE THE LAYERS. vio is visibly not. alright. it's all about 'i'm alone without him' so he plays a role. takes advantage of the weakness so #to devote her to him like she was devoted to ruven. vio could've killed for ruven and now more than ever she's a powerful asset to have on #your side. plus she showed she can and will kill. she took out the only person she cared for (in their twisted ways) in the world so she's #useful but dangerous. a double edged blade. no better moment than now that vio is so unstable and lacks purpose and a sense of community #to lure her on his side for his future plans. there's smth about the manipulation in it that makes me lose it like #i know this is what you desperately need rn and i know you know you will never have it back so what if i showed you i can be that thing #you're missing? that sense of loneliness is what he's pressing on the most. and the loss too. and vio notices ofc she recognises when he #speaks or acts in a certain way. she's aware but willingly letting his plan work bc god. she does miss ruven so sickly much and the comfort #in a lie is preferable to what's going on in her mind in that moment. #there's exploitation and there's a lil touch of loneliness on his side too and it's bitter to pretend to be someone else to convince her to #stay but he won't ever admit it. genuinely think that if vio didn't leave without saying a word his plan would've worked. she'd willingly #pretend he could replace ruven. it would hurt less probably #that devotion that could lead her to do great horrors...both her weakness and strength 👍 the illusion of free choice 👍 #it's past 3am if i could elaborate better i would but i feel like i'm having visions at this point.hit me with a giant hammer so i can slee #i 🫶 toxicity in my characters dynamics btw

[brodudepants]

So idk if this will help anyone else

BUT

I have one (1) medication I have to take twice a day

And my memory is so shit that I'll either forget if I took my afternoon pill, or forget to take my afternoon pill

(The pills are to help with my memory too lol)

So I finally decided to look into pill organizers a while back, and because I had in-person work up until recently, I wanted to find something mobile/less conspicuous than the pill bottle

Well I only managed to buy this after I started working remote, but I got an am/pm daily pill organizer and it's been SO HELPFUL!!

Each day is a different color, they come out of the organizer bin to travel with me if I need, and now I can visually see if I've remembered to take my meds! We'll see if I can remember to refill it once a week, but this has been HUGE for me

I got this at CVS I think they carry them at Walgreens too and I've def seen this exact organizer on Amazon (but I don't shop on amazon)

So if you needed a push to get an organizer for your meds or a different accessibility aid, here it is!

#when i tell you i look at my pill box of the day 10 times after lunch to see if i took my meds #im underestimating that number #lookibg at it is what spurred me to make this post #idk what its called #but now i can also keep track of what day of the week it is too lol #my fiance was all #“why do you need an organizer you have 1 pill” #and then he realized the visibility opportunity #i always text him when i realize ive forgotten my meds #if a side effect wasnt lack of sleep for 8 hours then id just take it when i remembered that i forgot #but alas #i like falling asleep before 2am

[wonder-worker]

"The feast of the Nativity of Saint John the Baptist being appointed as the day upon which the coronation of the king [Edward V] would take place without fail, all both hoped for and expected a season of prosperity for the kingdom."

-Excerpt from the Croyland Continuator / David Horspool, "Richard III: A Ruler and Reputation"

Even though Edward IV’s death was unexpected, after twelve years of peace there need not have been too much of a sense of foreboding about the succession. The great dynastic wound from which the Wars of the Roses had grown had not so much been healed as cauterized by the extinction of the House of Lancaster. There was no rush for London, as had happened in earlier, disputed successions. The royal party didn’t set out from Ludlow for ten days after hearing the news of Edward IV’s death, while Richard took his time, too. And the new king had [his mother the dowager queen and] two uncles to support him: his mother’s brother, the sophisticated, cultured, highly experienced Earl Rivers; and his father’s, the loyal and reliable Duke of Gloucester, to whom Edward IV had entrusted unprecedented power and vital military command.

... [Richard of Gloucester] had achieved his goal by a mixture of luck and ruthlessness, and if he made it appear, or even believed himself, that destiny played a part, this only made him a man in step with his times. Modern historians have no time for destiny, but sometimes the more ‘structuralist’ interpretations of the events surrounding the usurpation can come close to it. When we read that ‘the chances of preserving an unchallenged succession were . . . weakened by the estrangement of many of the rank-and-file nobility from . . . high politics, which was partly a consequence of the Wars of the Roses and partly of Edward IV’s own policies’, it is hard not to conclude that an unforeseeable turn of events is being recast as a predictable one. But without one overriding factor – the actions of Richard, Duke of Gloucester after he took the decision to make himself King Richard III – none of this could have happened. That is, when the same author concedes ‘Nor can we discount Richard’s own forceful character’, he is pitching it rather low*.

Edward IV had not left behind a factional fault line waiting to be shaken apart. Richard of Gloucester’s decision to usurp was a political earthquake that could not have been forecast on 9 April, when Edward died. After all, Simon Stallworth did not even anticipate it on 21 June, the day before Richard went public. We should be wary of allowing hindsight to give us more clairvoyance than the well-informed contemporary who had no idea ‘what schall happyne’. This is not to argue that Richard’s will alone allowed him to take the Crown. Clearly, the circumstances of a minority, the existence of powerful magnates with access to private forces, and the reasonably recent examples of resorts to violence and deposition of kings, made Richard’s path a more conceivable one. But Richard’s own tactics, his arrest of Rivers, Vaughan and Grey, the rounding up of Hastings and the bishops, relied on surprise. If men as close as these to the workings of high politics at a delicate juncture had no inkling of what might happen, the least historians can do is to reflect that uncertainty [...].

(*The author who Horspool is referencing and disagreeing with is Charles Ross)

#wars of the roses #edward v #richard iii #edward iv #my post #I'm writing a post on this topic but I have no idea when I'll finish it so I figured I should post Horspool's epic analysis #or should I say epic takedown? <3 #friendly reminder that Richard's usurpation happened primarily and decidedly because of Richard's own decisions and actions #we need to stop downplaying his singular agency and accountability by casting the blame on others #most of all Elizabeth Woodville and her family but also the bizarre interpretation of historians like Ross and Pollard (et al) #who somehow hold Edward more responsible (through a 'structuralist' view as Horspool says) even though that literally makes no sense #also friendly reminder that actual contemporaries did not view Edward V's minority as a sign of worry and potential discontent #quite the opposite - they expected him to have a prosperous reign. which made sense since Edward IV left his son a far more stable #country than any former minor king (and most other adult kings tbh). The irony is that it was his son's usurper who benefitted from it. #also I added Elizabeth Woodville to the list because Edward V himself specifically said that he trusted the governance of the country #'to the peers of the realm and the queen' as quoted by Mancini (likely relayed to him by John Argentine) #and this is supported by evidence. After Edward's death the Croyland Continuator substitutes Elizabeth's role in the council #for that of the King: 'the counsellors of the king now deceased were present with the queen' #we know Elizabeth presided over all the council's decisions and initiated proposals (the size of her son's military escort) on her own #She was clearly the one with the most authority in the council (who were described as being present with *her* not anyone else) #Hastings made demands but he couldn't enforce them at all (and was in fact worried). It was clearly Elizabeth who had that power. #She was likely going to play a very prominent role during her son's minority and imo it's problematic to assume otherwise #(Lynda Pidgeon assumes otherwise but she's based her assumption on objectively false information so I don't think we should take her #seriously)(see: she claims that EW lacked influence compared to her male relatives in royal councils when EW HERSELF WAS IN ROYAL COUNCILS) #That's not to go too far the other direction and claim EW tried to dominate and tactlessly exclude others - we know she didn't #The impression we get by this first council and by Richard's own actions indicates that she Richard and Anthony would likely #work *together* when it came to governing the realm #I do find it frustrating when people disregard the fact that based on the impression we have she would've had a very visible #and powerful role

[97-liners]

y’all fr need to stop reading fics that you know contain a topic that might hurt you. not everyone has the same stance on certain topics and that’s ok, if you’re hurt, you’re hurt, no one can tell you to feel otherwise.

but to assume a person did it to harm you and others is crazy. especially when that person spoke out and said they didn’t intend harm and accept critique.

you're making enemies out of good people because you don’t know how to shut the fuck up, and enjoy tsking and giggling about people without actually warning anyone else it could hurt. keeping the blog name a secret but shouting about how awful they are? what good did that do for anyone? That just proves you were doing it for the fun of it then turned around and pumped each other up in your own anger making all the writers in your circle feel insecure and on thin ice.

learn how to log off, learn how to express your hurt without causing a such a huge amount of insecurity in your community. the world isn’t out to get you, but you seem to be out to get any person who writes something you could take as harm. it’s a goddamn fic.

there’s literally no way for anybody to know what that story is about when the warnings are limited to this:

“mentions of body image issues” is way different from explicit descriptions of thin bodies as more successful and attractive.

fine. you want me to stop keeping the blog name a secret?

@bitchlessdino your fic “healthy bodies” is missing warnings for major themes of fatphobia and bullying. you need to update the warnings. you also need to disclose in the description that y/n was formerly fat but is explicitly described as thin in the fic after weight loss.

psa: i would also advise people not to read that fic, because it starts out with a very detailed description of how the y/n character’s life improved after losing weight and becoming a fitness influencer. post weight loss, y/n and hoshi are both better-liked and more financially successful. furthermore, there are many descriptions of y/n and hoshi as thin, and are described as more attractive, and those descriptors are tied to their thinness.

more details under the cut because they’re potentially triggering to many people regardless of body size

tw obviously for institutional fatphobia, but also for descriptions of disordered eating

1. both main characters are described as very fit (ie thin). this is particularly troubling for hoshi’s character, who is repeatedly described as having a cut figure with abs, which requires very low body fat percentage and constant dieting and monitoring of macros and calories. additionally, these characters are repeatedly described as attractive in connection to being thin and fit.

2. their lives are described as being better after weight loss. they are financially successful, and their success is tied directly to weight loss. they are more popular and well liked, which is also tied directly to weight loss.

3. it’s convention for y/n fics on tumblr to disclose any character details that could be exclusive for readers at the very top. this fic doesn’t do that. y/n is someone who has undergone dramatic weight loss and is currently thin.

4. this is a fic centering on dramatic weight loss and thinness. the title is “healthy bodies”. even if the intention isn’t to draw a line between weight loss and thinness and health, that line is still there and there isn’t a single line that refutes that concept. hoshi even describes the current (thin) y/n as “happy and healthy.”

this user has been aware of the accusations of fatphobia since yesterday and has been active on tumblr but has provided no updates to the warnings on this fic.

#like i’m not kidding. i’ve had bulimia on and off for over a decade now. i started restricting my eating when i was 13. #you have to be blind not to see how potentially harmful this is and the clear lack of appropriate warnings #seventeen scenarios #seventeen #hoshi #seventeen smut #<- since you want me to be public with it anon #might as well make it visible

[aria0fgold]

I don't know why my body refuses to acknowledge that today is tuesday and that it isn't, in fact, monday. It's messing with my already messed up sense of time even more.

#aria rants #ive been going the whole day reminding myself that its tuesday #cuz id frequently forget and think its monday #i think the lack of sleep is being visibly Bad #which is fair cuz its alrdy bad from the very beginning #i slept at 3 today and considering how i slept at 6 yesterday... yeah its bad bad #i NEED to sleep before 3 i need proper sleeeeppp #also i woke up at 9 today #so now that i think about... its still like yesterday but a lil to the left #yea i need a better sleep sched

[hopeheartfilia]

i dont know if ill survive getting to the end of mo paths are bound.. im almost halfway and i have no clue where ill go when there isnt a next chapther

#im holding on by a tread and that tread is currently this fic #..... i uh. didnt have any antidepressants for a few days due to pharmacy stock issues #and it hit and i dont know how i couldve dealt with it in any other way then completly just. reading #ive been reading this fic for several days #and if nothing else ive been wlking and feeding the dog #not... yeah okay i think ill need to reread it several times #but like processing the lack of emotions emotionally #dealing with the apathy and all that #no paths are bound #xie lian is sometimes what you need to keep going in life you knoe #also it IS visible that the autour loves mu qing especially right now and im. here for it in an emotionally consitpated way #yeah its the xianle trio flashback part weee. chapther 66 #the butterfly man dreams are. a touch i think its kinda hilarious but yes! youll meet him soon #and like. its so fucked up they really need to tlk this out #and i know they dont but damn i want them to #im back in I just want you to have some very serious conversations where all of you actually understand eachother and #and #.... ah

[girlscience]

I hate finding a fandom that likes to take a slightly emotional character and makes them cry and have panic attacks constantly in every fic. Least favorite fandom trope ever

#leave my man Kirk alone 😭 he's a little sensitive. he's in tune with his feelings. #he's not sobbing every episode or having breakdowns every time something stressful happens in screen #I don't WANT to read about his trauma feelings when as far as I can tell they are Grossly exaggerated in every instance #sure. I will accept he was traumatized by the shit that happened in his childhood #however if he was acting like he is made to in half these fics he quite literally would not be fit for command #ack. this isn't just a kirk thing though #I really have so little patience for visibly or over the top emotional characters to begin with #I know it's my low empathy talking but it's so annoying #shut up!!!! put it away!!!!! I don't want a character sobbing every time someone treats them nice for however many chapters #suck it up and move on!!! get into more interesting shit! #I know people use fanfic as an outlet or therapy or whatever but I wish they would write about more interesting feelings #or find more interesting ways of having characters express them #like idk. give Kirk weird issues around food cause of starving as a kid #give him weird attachment problems that make him over protective but also distant to avoid being sad when they die #make him work extra hard to keep the enterprise safe because it's like the one consistent home he's had #make him relentlessly curious because his education as a kid was inconsistent so he works to learn everything he can now #or like he over compensates for his lack of childhood education. have him perceive failings there where there aren't any or something #make him have lots of issues with dictators #I mean fucks sake even in the episode with the man who killed half the people on the colony he was on as a kid #he kept a level head and was the only one trying to actually work through it logically and didn't immediately jump to trying to kill the guy #unlike the other characters #it just makes zero sense to have him falling apart over essentially nothing all the time #it's just stupid!!!! and annoying!!! and I don't want to read it!!!!