#I hope we can celebrate many more birthdays together heheh

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What are your favorte jshk fanfics? also where do you like reading them the most?

Hi Anon!!! today is the day I can finally answer this question😈 ahaha you know how much I enjoy making fic recs so 👀 Let’s go!!!

To answer your second question first, I like reading them on AO3 the most! Mostly because I get almost unlimited number of characters to rant in the comment section........... 😆but also the tagging system is very helpful.

Okay, now to the fun part of this ask😏

You said JSHK, but I mostly read Hananene ones so all of my favs include that pairing... as  I already did a fic rec here of my favs, this list will continue that one, so please check that one first hehe ((I apologize in advance..., I would love for people to recommend me some mitsukou ones tbh... I’m really lost when it comes to other pairings orz)) 

If I’m completely honest with you anon-san, my favorite JSHK fic right now is the one Roxanne ( @istoleyourboat )  wrote based of my art and her snippet:

Star-Crossed and Falling- Where Stars Go to Die by lilaflo

Hanako is Princess Nene’s personal knight 👀. A tale of forbidden love. They slowly fall in love as they exchange a series of gifts, one that includes a pair of matching earrings that remind them of their love when they’re apart. Also, jelly Hanako of Nene’s suitors😏... Oh, but nothing lasts forever and those sweet moments will come to an end when they have to face their cruel reality, in this world, they don’t get to choose neither their battles or the ones they love.

Now more of Roxanne, because I seriously enjoy her work so much (I’m sure everyone knows by now lmao sdkj) 

Night of the Phantom King by lilaflo 

This one is a spooky one. Nene’s regret for never realizing who she truly loves takes her to mourn her deceased friend Amane and cry on his grave in a Halloween night, then suddenly the Phantom King comes to take her away👀 & he looks suspiciously familiar... Beautiful world building btw, also the ending is just, excellent. 

12 Year Romance by lilaflo

Amane meets Nene at the Tanabata festival, she’s older than him, but he falls for her instantly, fast forward, Amane is now in middle school, he’s a troublemaker, & gets constantly into fights, but he swears the new school nurse looks familiar... he then realizes it’s her and thinks it must be fate!!!... This one hits close to home bc I’ve been in this situation irl, so I can confirm all of Nene’s struggles are real (and ofc how a love with an age gap should be handled the correct way, this fic really teaches you many life lessons hahaha) 

took a sip then another sip, then you turned and said to me by chivalrousamour 

This autor has a bunch of good JSHK fics!! I recommend you check their AO3 out, bec you may find something you like for sure! But, this is my absolute fav from them. Nene is a mangaka, celebrating the finishing of her long serialized manga, while Amane is a delivery boy who happens to find her in a very questionable state in her house👀 (it’s all family friendly ofc, anon, I’m not a slimy pervert like some ghost boy)

Maid for Each Other by corologs ( @corologs )

Courtney has this amazing College AU collection series that I encourage you to check out!!! But Maid for each other is my fav!!! So it’s the Yugi twins birthday, and it’s Tsukasa’s turn to choose where they go to celebrate it... you can already tell where this is going... (let the chaos begin) & as the title said, it involves maids!!! (it has Kaicho wa maid sama vibes if you liked that anime~~)

If I Could Tell Her by corologs

What if the picture perfect arc plan was successful??? Well, this fic explores this idea, and it’s very interesting to read. I like how Amane and Hanako are two separate people here.

the horizon tries but it’s just not as kind on the eyes by sincerelyand ( @sunlightinourheadlights ) 

(Oh my sweet Karen, she writes such good fics, so go check her AO3 out as well!!) Amane and Yashiro are friends that share an apartment (& they were roommates-- OMG they were roommates), even if Amane has its complains, because Nene can be a handful sometimes (and in denial of her true feelings as always, are we even surprised at this point?) he loves her dearly anyways😭.

for real, this time by sourlemoncandy  ( @sour-lemon-candy )

Did somebody say fake dating AU?????? Because hell yeah I did asajj I loved reading this so much!! Nene and Amane are childhood friends, and Nene overhears some girls talking about Amane and how one of them plans to ask him out... but she senses these girls are up to no good so she... well, you gotta read it to find out more~~ it’s no fun If I tell ya everything hehe... so go go go!!

lemon cream by sourlemoncandy

Amane and Nene, just two good friends having a road trip and sharing donuts... what could go wrong??  😏 seriously, I loved this fic so much!! Instant fav! Also makes me wanna try some good sweet donuts...

Trip Down Memory Lane by insipidenvy ( @insipidenvy )

This fic is so sweet. I have such a huge attachment to it, because I read it when I really needed some fluff in my life hahaha. It’s sort of a collection of memories between Amane and Yashiro’s relationship over the years. So heartwarming... if you need the fluffs you’ll enjoy this very much!!

The Radish Princess and the Toilet Prince by insipidenvy

This is my favorite fic from insipidenvy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You know how I am a slut for Royalty AUs so that’s why!!!!! Also Toilet Prince!! hahahaha such a good nickname lmao. I love how they bond over their insecurities, it’s very relatable tbh. 

Between Wind and Water by WingSongHalo  ( @wingsonghalo )

My beautiful Wing always delivering the good Hananene content, as she should!! This fic is so fun to read!! I laughed so hard at Nene and Hanako being awkward with each other!!! So you know how Hanako is super clingy with Nene, he’s always touching & hugging her, but this time something weird happens and he’s so distant~~ Nene doesn’t want to admit it at first, but she misses his clingy ghost boy~~ you’ll have a good time reading this for sure!  

The Monster's Bride by Hammsters ( @uglierdaikon )

Have you heard about the myth of Cupid and Psyche? Well this fic rewrites it in a very Hananene way <3 hehe I loved it so much (as I’m a huge fan of mythology~) To sum it up, Nene is fated to marry a monster that lives in the mountains so she’s devastated... to her surprise, her husband is far from what she expected... she only had one rule to obey and well... we all know how reckless Nene is so... you go find out what happens next now!! hehehe

Morning Reflections by FalalalaLa  ( @miss-sternennacht )

So you’ve heard of Hanako watching Nene sleep, but what about Nene watching Amane sleep???!! this fic offers you this and so much more fluff <3 Also Nene remembering how they met and how their relationship evolved during the years, aww <3 

Cursed Coin by DaikonSenpai  ( @daikonsenpai )

There’s a school dance, Yashiro’s supposed to be dancing with Kou (since she can’t go with Hanako, which causes him to be jelly~~ and bitter), but she loses a coin Aoi gave her for good luck so she goes out and searches for it on the last place she saw it, the school fountain. Suddenly Hanako spots her, what’s she doing outside??? is she drunk or something?? what happens next you may find out when you read it~~~

Between Love and Hope by Baronesscmd (SweeterThanYourDarkestSin) ( @baronesscmd )

Oh to be Nene and get to sleep between the Yugi twins... God really has favorites uh... ISTG, this collection of fics is so cute. I love how Nene loves the twins so much in this AU, they have their little cute family. She ofc is in love with Amane, but their relationship with Tsukasa is so tender... it’s mostly this trio having fluffy moments together to heal your soul... if you need some, you’ll get it here for sure hahaha. 

Ghost of You (And All the Futures We've Forgotten) by Indigo_Floof  milkteamoon  ( @indigosienna , @spades-queen )

So anon you may have been wondering, well this bitch likes fluff only???? how about some angst for a change, uh? DAMN, OKAY THEN, here you have some angst to rip your soul out and wish you never sent me this ask in the 1st place, bec of the emotional damage this fic will leave you sdajjsa, also if you liked “Erased”, you’ll love this fic too! 

Hanako of the Opera by zxrstan

Finally, but not less important, me being annoying about Hanako of the Opera & POTO AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!! This fic is based of the AU Aidairo created mostly, it’s really fun to read if you didn’t get much of what was happening during the Hanako of the Opera event, it has a nice ending also! very satisfying I must say. 

AAAAND THIS IS THE END OF MY ALL TIME FAV LIST OMG;;;; Kudos for me for searching through all my damn AO3 and Google Chrome history (from both my PC and phone, since I am a FOOL and forgot my AO3 password so I read a lot of these in the past as a guest before recovering my password LMAO, please be patient with me omg, and also if you see me bookmarking them now, you know why 😭) 

Kudos to all of my writer homies as well, I love and appreciate all of you so much!! you have no idea! 💖

I hope you find this list useful, anon!! Thank you for sending me this ask and have a wonderful day! 

Ps. Please everyone feel free to add more fics to this list if you want! this is all my personal picks, but I’m aware there are a lot more fics that I haven’t read and deserve as much recognition as the ones I listed!

#toilet bound hanako kun #jibaku shounen hanako kun #hananene #amanene #jshk #tbhk #jshk fic #jshk fics #tbhk fic #tbhk fics #fic rec #fanfiction #ask #anon #damn this ended up being HUGE #I toned down my extra as well I'm aware I can get annoying sometimes #love you all!!!! #hopefully this helps you anon #and if not I'm sorry u.u I'm a hardcore hananene shipper so...... yeah #thank you for reading!! #Anonymous

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Jade Leech・Voice Lines

Additional Voice Lines

Beans Camo event card

Scary Dress event card

School Uniform - R

Unlock Card “I was just preparing some tea. Why don’t you take a break?”

Groovy “I’d like to enjoy my time here on land.”

Home Setting “Pardon me.”

Home Transitions “Floyd comes to visit my classes every once in a while. He may not look like it, but he’s rather clingy.”

“History on land is quite interesting. It’s very different from the stories they tell us in the sea.”

“Clothes feel so restrictive... It’s been a while since I came on land, but I’m still not used to them.”

Home Transition (Login Greeting) “How coincidental it is that we meet here. ...Hm? What’s the matter? Of course it was only coincidence.”

Home Taps “My grades? Hm... I apologize, but I’m not interested in receiving any judgment from others.”

“Are you familiar with terrariums at all? Caring for miniature gardens is difficult, but I truly enjoy it.”

“Riddle is very dedicated; I respect him as a classmate. I’m not sure what he thinks about me, however.”

“I don’t particularly enjoy having attention on me. I’d say Azul is the best suited for attracting others.”

“Oh dear, you might hurt yourself if you keep acting so rash.”

PE Uniform - R

Unlock Card “I’m not keen on the idea of running around, but... I will do it if I must.”

Groovy “Let’s strive to be neither good nor bad.”

Home Setting “Now then, we must work our hardest.”

Home Transitions “What’s the matter? ...It makes it difficult to keep going when you’re watching me move so intently.”

“Initially, it was very difficult for me to run, much less stand on my feet. But I’ve gotten quite used to it now.”

“I think I’d like to eat something light before exercising. I’m embarrassed to admit it, but I tend to get hungry easily.”

Home Transition (Login Greeting) “Keeping up your fitness is an important factor in enjoying the mountains and all of our surrounding nature. What do you say about joining me?”

Home Taps “My parents trained me in the art of self-defense starting from a young age. That’s something I’m very grateful for even today.”

“I thought we’d be cleaning the Mostro Lounge today... but it seems Floyd has run off again.”

“I picked some odd plants I found in the mountains to grow in my terrarium. I hope I raise them well.”

“I’m not the best at Flying. ...Heheh, who am I kidding? I’m not as awful as Azul.”

“Are you perhaps...? Nevermind, it’s nothing. Bravery and recklessness aren’t the same.”

Lab Coat - SR

Unlock Card “If there’s something I’m interested in, I’m going to want to thoroughly research it. I have a passion for learning.”

Groovy “If you’re curious about the Mountain Lovers Club, feel free to stop by to take a look anytime.”

Home Setting “Conducting experiments is one of my strengths. ...Do you have any questions?”

Home Transitions “Magic Potions requires intelligence, not so much magic power. As someone who has no magic, this is the perfect subject for you, don’t you think?”

“Heheh. Perhaps you should consider having a talk with Azul if you hate studying for exams this much.”

“I’m rather confident in my ability to brew potions. ‘Why,’ you ask? Who can say?”

Home Transition (Login Greeting) “I was completely engrossed in a sketch I was working on, that when I snapped up, I saw everyone had already left the lab. How cold-hearted of them all.”

Home Transition (Groovy) “Would you mind telling me your preferences for the Mostro Lounge menu? I will use them as a reference.”

Home Taps “I enjoy the thrill of never knowing what’s going to happen next whenever Floyd is around. If only we were put in the same classes...”

“Heheh. Whenever I see someone heavily concentrating on something, I get the urge to start talking to them. ...Is that cruel of me?”

“Carrying out an experiment is a race against the clock. Sometimes it’s important to start taking risks and trying your hardest with them.”

“I like the Botanical Garden. ...Oh, is that a surprise? I may not seem like it, but I’m always brimming with curiosity.”

“Have you heard of the phrase, ‘Haste makes waste’? ...No, I suppose I shouldn’t even ask.”

Home Tap (Groovy) “In the Mountain Lovers Club I founded, we study the plants we pick as well. ...Oh my, are you perhaps interested?”

Ceremony Robes - SR

Unlock Card “The entrance ceremony is truly nostalgic. Have you grown accustomed to Night Raven College yourself yet?”

Groovy “I hope your time at this academy is a pleasant one.”

Home Setting “There’s so much to do on the day of the ceremony.”

Home Transitions “I’m not used to outfits with so many layers. After all, I don’t come from a race of fish with fluttering tail fins, such as the ones they keep in aquariums.”

“I enjoy observing people, however I get uncomfortable when it’s done to me. I suppose this would mean I’m shy?”

“If you have any spare rooms in the Ramshackle Dorm, how much would you charge to lend them to other students? I think I’d enjoy living somewhere with ghosts...”

Home Transition (Login Greeting) “It’s nice how quiet ceremony days are. Normally everything is so wild.”

Home Transition (Groovy) “Are you nervous? I’ll brew some relaxing tea for you. It will almost put you to sleep.”

Home Taps “I was quite surprised when I learned which dorms the Mirror of Darkness had sorted us into. Although, I had thought Azul and Floyd would be in the same dorm.¹”

“Floyd caused a bit of an uproar during our entrance ceremony as well. Just like you and Grim. Heheh.”

“The custom humans have of changing their clothes depending on the circumstance is very interesting. It’s similar to fish who change the color of their scales to blend in with their surroundings.”

“I often lose track of time while gazing at the stars. I’m not necessarily into astrology, I just find them interesting.”

“Heheh, that isn’t very nice of you. Please don’t mock me.”

Home Tap (Groovy) “Are you familiar with the history of Night Raven College? These ceremony robes have a greater impact on you once you know.”

Dorm Uniform - SSR

Unlock Card “There’s no need to worry; I only want to help you.”

“Heheh... I’m truly honored you called for me. There is something I could do to make all your wishes come true.”

Groovy “I will take care of any requests you may have. Please don’t worry; I’m very familiar with self-indulgences.”

Home Setting “I will show you around Octavinelle any time you wish.”

Home Transitions “I’m employed as a waiter at the Mostro Lounge. I’ll strive to receive you with the utmost hospitality.”

“Should you ever find that something is troubling you, I recommend paying a visit to Azul. He could make any wish come true. Heheh.”

“Merfolk must be prepared for all sorts of problems when living on land. This lifestyle is so terribly different.”

Home Transition (Login Greeting) “It must be fate that I ran into you like this. Would you care for a spot of tea? I will prepare some.”

Home Transition (Groovy) “Azul would do anything to achieve his goals... That is to say, he truly works his hardest. It’s easy not to perceive him as such, though.”

Home Taps “Pay what you owe. Even a baby fish should understand this, but every once in a while I run into some unreasonable people.”

“Contrary to what some may think, I’m not exactly interested in earning money. I simply enjoy anything that entertains me.”

“We may not have enough legs to say ‘Just like the Sea Witch’s,’ however the deep, glossy black of our dorm uniforms certainly gives off the impression of her hidden power.”

“Floyd always whines ‘I hate it so tight!’ and undoes his bowtie. I keep tying it for him, but it always ends the same way.”

“This will certainly cost you a heavy price. ...Only joking. I would never say that. Yes, ‘I’ wouldn’t.”

Home Tap (Groovy) “I always welcome the unknown. Please, I encourage you to play an even more active role in everything.”

Duo Magic Jade: May I ask that you entrust me with this today, Floyd? Floyd: ‘Kay~ Jade. What’re you going to do~?

Birthday Celebration Outfit - SSR

This card was only obtainable during Jade and Floyd’s birthday event (Nov 04 - Nov 11, 2020).

Login on Birthday “Welcome to our birthday party. I’m certain Floyd will be very happy to know you’ve arrived. Now, I’ve prepared some food. Heheh, there’s no need to be shy. I’m simply doing as I please.”

Unlock Card “I’m looking forward to seeing how you’ll receive me as a guest.”

“What day is it today? Let’s see, what is it...? Only kidding. I know. Floyd and I have our birthday today.”

Groovy “I’m very pleased you came to celebrate for me. You have my sincerest gratitude.”

Home Setting “So this is the outfit we have to wear today... I will try to pull it off.”

Home Transitions “Azul gave me a large aquarium for my birthday. No, it isn’t for me to swim in. I’m using it for my terrariums.”

“Simply watching everyone put together this party didn’t sit well with me, so I contributed one dish. Do you know which one?”

“It’s surprising that I eat so much? I hear that a lot. But it’s because of that that I’ve grown this tall.”

Home Transition (Login Greeting) “I enjoy parties. They allow you to hear many unusual stories from those who always have dynamic surroundings.”

Home Transition (Groovy) “Should I pour some tea? ...The star of the day shouldn’t be the one doing that. Well, let’s just say it’s my thank-you for coming to celebrate.”

Home Taps “Ruggie gave me two wild plant recipes for my birthday. I believe I still know how to cook them... I’m very curious.”

“Our parents ask us what we want for our birthday every year, but Floyd and I have never asked for the same thing. Even twins have different tastes.”

“I received special tea leaves blended by Vil himself. The flavor is phenomenal; you can tell it’s a high-class product.”

“What do I want for my birthday? ...Art supplies. Lately, I haven’t just been collecting fruits and herbs from the mountains; I’ve started working on field sketches as well.”

“How playful you are to fire a party cracker without warning me first. It’s only right if I return a surprise to you... isn’t it?”

Home Tap (Groovy) “Hm? What was it you just said? Could you repeat that one more time? Only joking. I just wanted to hear you wish me a happy birthday over and over.”

Duo Magic Jade: Oh, you came to wish me a happy birthday as well, Jack? Jack: Yeah! Happy birthday, Jade!

Tutorial “May I ask what your plans are for today? Wherever you go, I shall accompany you.”

Lv Up “Oh my, you seem to have taken a fancy to me.”

“My apologies. I’ll strive to live up to your expectations.”

“Heheh. This feels rather nice.”

Lv Up Max “Brimming with all of this power... I am shocked to say the least. Heheh, it’s certainly not a bad feeling.”

Episode Lv Up “How strange. At first, I thought you were nothing but a drab human, but... Ah, don’t get mad at me. My impression of you has changed since then.”

Magic Lv Up “Magic on land is so interesting. I absolutely want to try it out.”

Limit Break “How very kind of you to have gone this far for me. I will do my best to live up to your expectations.”

Groovy “I seem to have gotten ahead of myself and acted rather unsightly. Heheh.”

Lesson Select “Please, choose any class you like. I will join you if I’m interested.”

“Trust that I will aid you in any of your classes. I am always prepared for anything.”

“Would you like me to choose my most recommended class for you? As you can’t make up your mind.”

Lesson Start “Let’s enjoy ourselves again today.”

Lesson End “Good work everyone. Let’s do our best next time.”

Battle Start “Please don’t be too rough.”

Battle Win “I had hoped I could keep having fun with this... Oh well.”

Other

Profile Quote “It’s your own fault that you didn’t fulfill the contract you signed.”

January 2020 Trailer “If you ever have any problems, then we will help you.”

Countdown Poster “If you’d like all your dreams to come true, then come here.”

Login Bonus Greeting “Since you work so hard, I’ve prepared a gift for you. I won’t request any compensation for it. Please, go ahead and accept it.”

Player Birthday Wish “Happy birthday. This isn’t much, but here is a present from me. Oh! But don’t open it here. That wouldn’t be fun at all. You must do it in secret, when you’re all alone... Understood?”

#twisted wonderland #jade leech #voice lines

[zu-is-here]

Happy Easter Zu! How's the celebrations been? How was the food and things?

You did that egg fighting right? I read your response, I'm sure you will win next time.

Oh well I didn't have bad aerophobia at the time. It was alittle scary, but the views as we few over the alps were amazing! I got some beautiful photos.

Other then the egg fight, what have you been doing today?

Thank you, Gayfish! <3 Oh, that's was wonderful, so many delicious dishes, and the whole family together being noisy and having fun, is the brightest holiday for me ♡

Ah yep! ☆ Actually losing is just an opportunity to start the meal sooner while others try to figure out who the winner is XD

Oh that's good *^* I like to sit by the window to enjoy the view too, though I'm not really lucky with the seats XD

Actually we spent most of the day at the feast, chatting, telling stories, making toasts, listening to music, trying different dishes and then desserts with tea, — the time flew by imperceptibly in a good company (๑˃̵ᴗ˂̵)

How are you today? ♡

UPD:

Oh you're right! Such a big holiday for eight of us just like Christmas ☆ How many people do celebrate big holidays in your family? *^*

My grandmother and father made it to the finals (òwó) He always wins buuut she beat him this time! and was so proud (≧∀≦)☆

Ah— oops XD

We had some types of kulich as we made them as presents for each other, paskha and paska (sounds similar yet looks different xd) and chocolate eggs with bergamot tea ☆

Awww that's so cool! ✿ Did you choose the dress? How do you plan to celebrate your birthday? And how old will you be? (You don't have to answer if you don't want to)

Once ya pop you can't stop is soo true!! xd What flavour this time? Don't forget about truly healthy food! <3

Oh yay!! Got some new headcanons? (ﾟωﾟ)☆

You're doing amazing! ᕦ(òwóˇ)ᕤ Can we see a bit of wip, or not this time? *^* Anyway, no need to rush, take your time <3 (Oh idek actually xd it's just like a merciless inspiration when you can't stop until finishinggg)

P. S. Can't stop looking at your Anomaly of Notre Dame doodles (〃ω〃)♪

Awww that's so good when the whole family and even more relatives are together╰(*´︶`*)╯ Heheh thanks! <3

True, it does taste like cheese cake! It's made from grated cottage cheese, whipped sour cream and butter, and poured into a mold named pasochnitsa for a night. Worth it! *^*

You're really attentive (ﾟωﾟ) The difference between them is that they're made from different dough! So they usually look the same but taste different ☆

Hope you can reach a compromise with your mother! (ówò) Guess you have final word since it's your birthday and your dress though ☆ Oh these mothers xd

Sounds like fun! *^* Hope the weather will be great and your plans will come true the best way ☆

Sour cream and onion!! The best one for me too <3

Hoo boi I'm intrigued~ Hope to see it one day, I'm sure they would def enjoy the boys together whatever the AU ;)

Dreammm! (*ﾟ∀ﾟ*) Omg I read the "*sn" as "sin", well him holding an apple truly is xdd Spoilers tho,,, sometimes they're so big they can't be shared without being covered by the biggest window XD

For real! Smoke Dream turned out great (*⁰▿⁰*) *dark vibes* Nightmare would love this vision for sure ;)

For the moment I don't remember my own drawing xd Thank you so much! <3

#updated #ask #zu is happy #others art

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Tatsuhiro Nome SSR

2018 ー BIRTHDAY PARTY [BIRTHDAY PARTY]

“Until it’s time for the audition, how about having Tsubasa playing the role of your dance partner?”

Part 1

(The magazine interview seems to progress smoothly.)

Interviewer: ‘The year has passed and Nome-kun will be celebrating his birthday by the time this issue comes out. What year do you want it to be?’ 

(Now that it has been mentioned, Nome-san’s birthday is only a few days away…..)

Tatsuhiro: ‘Let’s see…. I want to refine my performance and make our fans happy. And, if I can overcome my weaknesses….. Ah.’

Interview: ‘Hee, weaknesses, you say?’

Tatsuhiro (nervous): ‘C-Compared to the other members, my talking skills are weak, so I’d like to work on them.’ 

Interview: ‘Aah, I see. Talking skills are important, aren’t they.~’ 

(It seems that I was wrong about it progressing smoothly. But it’s about Nome-san’s weaknesses, so it must be that......) ______________

Mikado (winks): ‘Tatsu-dono, you said it before in the interview, but wanting to overcome your weaknesses is very positive of you.’ 

Tatsuhiro: ‘I-I said it without thinking. I thought that it can’t go on as it has been.’ 

Hikaru: ‘Though, it’s sudden? What’s wrong?’ 

Tatsuhiro: ‘To be honest, in the stage audition I accepted this time, I’m assigned to do a ballroom dance with an actress…..’ 

Kazuna: ‘I see. And it puts pressure on you.’ 

Tatsuhiro (smiles): ‘Yeah. But I want to overcome it, even if it’s just a bit, by taking this chance. After all, I also want to widen my work field.’ 

(That seems to be the case. I wonder how he’ll be able to overcome his weakness?) 

Momotaro: ‘Then there’s a good method for it.’ 

Tatsuhiro: ‘What one?’ 

Momotaro: ‘Until it’s time for the audition, how about have Tsubasa play the role of your dance partner?’ 

Tatsuhiro (shocked): ‘What?’

Tsubasa: ‘Me!?’ 

(You’re quite close to each other in ballroom dance. It must be more stressful than when meeting the actress for the first time. Will I be good enough…..)  

Tatsuhiro: ‘Wait a minute, Onzai. That’s…..’ 

Mikado: ‘As expected of Momotasu! I think it’s a great idea. You sure are used to everything.’ 

Hikaru: ‘True, true! If you need to do a ballroom dance then a partner is necessary, right?’ 

Tatsuhiro: ‘You aren’t wrong but…..’ 

Kazuna: ‘Sumisora-san, what do you think? It’s not part of your work as the A&R, but you’re suitable, in my opinion.’ 

Tsubasa: ‘If Nome-san is not against it, then I am fine. I am also happy if he can overcome his weakness.’

Tatsuhiro (surprised): ‘.......’ 

Tatsuhiro: ‘Since I received this chance, I want to pass. Sumisora, will you cooperate with me?’ 

Tsubasa: ‘Of course!’

Tatsuhiro: ‘Sorry for the trouble.’ 

Hikaru: ‘Of course it won’t be just Tsubasa-chan! We’ll also lend you a hand! One-two-three-one-two-three, was it?’ 

Tatsuhiro (smiles): ‘You’re a big, Hikaru. I won’t dance with you.’ 

(The role of the ballroom partner is difficult. I hope the audition will go well.) 

Part 2

ーAnother day, in the lobby.ー

Tsubasa: ‘This is all for tomorrow’s schedule. If there are no questions, I will take my leave…..’

Kazuna: ‘Everything’s fine. Thank you, Sumisora-san.’

Tsubasa: ‘Yes, you are welcome!’

Hikaru: ‘Thanks~!’ 

Tatsuhiro: ‘I will head to the studio afterwards.’ 

Momotaro: ‘Practice today, too?’

Tatsuhiro: ‘Yeah, the stage audition is close, after all.’

(Practicing at such a time again…..) 

Mikado: ‘Tatsu-dono sure is a hard worker.’ 

Tsubasa: ‘Nome-san, is there something I can help you with?’ 

Tatsuhiro: ‘No, not really.’

Mikado: ‘Oho, didn’t you ask Tsubasa-san to be your ballroom dance partner?’ 

Hikaru: ‘That’s right, Tatsu! Let her accompany you~!’

Tatsuhiro (blushes): ‘T-This….. I was going to ask when I improved a bit.’

Mikado: ‘If you say so, then it will be the day of the audition in the blink of an eye, you know.’ 

Tatsuhiro: ‘Anyways! I want to practice alone for now. I’m going now.’ 

Hikaru: ‘Ah, Tatsu! Aw, he’s gone…..’ 

Kazuna: ‘Well, practice only just started. Let’s watch over him, shall we?’

Momotaro: ‘I agree.’ 

Mikado: ‘Alright, since Tatsu-dono is gone, shall we talk about the plan from the other day?’

Hikaru: ‘Ooh, now that you mentioned it!’

Tsubasa: ‘The plan from the other day, what do you mean?’

Mikado: ‘Hehehe….. You’d like to hear? If you listen, then you will be our accomplice and can’t turn backーー’

Momotaro: ‘It’s about holding a birthday party for Tatsu.’

Mikado: ‘Momotasu!!??’

Tsubasa: ‘Waah, this is wonderful!’

Kazuna: ‘Because we want it to be a surprise, keep it a secret from Tatsuhiro, okay?’ 

Hikaru: ‘Ah, come as well, Tsubasa-chan! Pi-chan and Mikachin will serve us lots of delicious food!’

Tsubasa: ‘Thank you very much. I am happy about your invitation, but if I am present, Nome-san will not be able to relax…..’ 

Momotaro: ‘No, Tsubasa is fine.’ 

Kazuna: ‘That’s true. If Sumisora-san comes, too, Tatsuhiro will be even more pleased.’ 

Tsubasa: ‘If this is the case, then please let me celebrate with you!’ 

(Nome-san’s birthday party, huh….. I need to buy him a present.)

Part 3

ーAnother day, in MooNs’ room.ー

Hikaru: ‘Tsubasa-chan, welcome! What’s wrong?’

Tsubasa: ‘I am sorry for coming so late in the evening. I am here to deliver the materials for the stage audition to Nome-san. The office entrusted me with this task.’

Mikado: ‘I see. Even though you came all the way here, I have to apologize. Tatsu-dono went to the practice studio.’ 

Tsubasa: ‘Is it for the audition?’ 

Mikado: ‘Yes, this is what I assume.’ 

Tsubasa: ‘He really is working hard.’

Kazuna (worried): ‘Yeah. He really seems to do his best but…..’ 

Momotaro (worried): ‘Yeah…..’

Tsubasa: ‘Is there something the matter with?’ 

Momotaro: ‘Because he’s been practicing without a partner, he’s struggling to grasp the image.’ 

Tsubasa: ‘I see…..’ 

Hikaru: ‘We said so many times to ask Tsubasa-chan.’ 

Mikado: ‘Asking you to be his partner was too high of a hurdle for Tatsu-dono, so it seems.’ 

(You can’t simply ask someone to be your partner in ballroom dance, huh. But I’m worried…..)

Tsubasa: ‘I will go take a look at Nome-san’s condition.’

ーAt the studio.ー

Tsubasa: ‘Nome-san, good evening.’

Tatsuhiro: ‘........’

(Even though I came in, he didn’t notice. He looks like he’s concentrating…..)

Tatsuhiro: ‘I need to turn here…..’ 

Tatsuhiro: ‘......., Sumisora!?’

Tsubasa: ‘I-I am sorry. I surprised you.’ 

Tatsuhiro: ‘No, I exaggerated. Since when were you here?’ 

Tsubasa: ‘Since a bit ago. Because you were seriously concentrating, I thought it would be bad to interrupt…..’ 

Tatsuhiro: ‘Is that so.’ 

Tsubasa: ‘Ah, because additional audition material came in, I am here to deliver them.’ 

Tatsuhiro: ‘Understood. Put them over there for me.’ 

Tatsuhiro: ‘Is that all? Sorry but it’s distracting, so could you leave me alone. That would be a big help.’ 

(As I thought, when it’s just us two it’s awkward, huh….) 

Tsubasa: ‘...... I understand. Please do your best!’

Tatsuhiro: ‘.......’

Tsubasa: ‘Then, I will ーー’

Tatsuhiro: ‘W-Wait!’

Tsubasa: ‘Eh!?’

(Nome-san is holding my hand……) 

Tatsuhiro (perplexed): ‘Ah, my bad……’ 

Tsubasa: ‘No, is something wrong?’

Tatsuhiro: ‘...... So, is it alright to ask, after all? I want to ask you to be my dance partner.’ 

Tsubasa: ‘Nome-san……’ 

(His hand that held mine was cold, he must be nervous. Despite this, to overcome his weakness, he’s trying his best…..)

Tsubasa: ‘Of course! Let’s work hard together!’

Part 4

Owing to the nature of ballroom dance, Tatsuhiro and Tsubasa are extremely close to each other during practice.

Tatsuhiro: ‘ーーIt must be like this. Okay, that’s it for today.’ 

Tsubasa: ‘Yes.’ 

(I had my doubts at first but during the second half, it became pretty good.) 

Tatsuhiro: ‘It’s a completely different feeling with a partner, after all. Thanks to it, I was able to grasp the image.’ 

Tsubasa: ‘Yes, it’s getting better and better.’ 

Tatsuhiro: ‘You’re right. ….. Uh.’

Tatsuhiro (blushes): ‘....... Uh!?’ 

Tsubasa: ‘Ah…….’ 

(Right, since we stayed like this when the dance ended, we stayed close to each other.) 

Tatsuhiro (blushes): ‘My bad, I…..’ 

Tsubasa: ‘No, please don’t be.’ 

Tatsuhiro: ‘Haa….. Even though it was fine during the dance.’ 

Tsubasa: ‘No, it’s amazing how you overcome your weakness during the dance!’ 

Tatsuhiro (smiles): ‘Now that you said it, until now it was hard for me.’ 

Tsubasa: ‘If you keep up practice in this condition, the audition surely will be fine. Please be confident in yourself!’

Tatsuhiro: ‘Yeah, it’s a step forward.’ 

Tatsuhiro: ‘Sumisora, you must be busy, too, but will you join me during practice from now on?’

Tsubasa: ‘Yes, of course!’

Tatsuhiro: ‘That’s a big help.’ 

Part 5 

ーAnother day, in the evening.ー

Tsubasa: ‘The recording for the Variety show program earlier was very lively.’ 

Hikaru: ‘Absolutely! I also had tons of fun! During the quizー.....’ 

Mikado (sighs): ‘Hikarun, it’s time to go.’ 

Hikaru: ‘Eh? …… Ah~, okay, okay!’

Mikado: ‘Because we have a business to take care of, we will excuse ourselves now.’  

Kazuna: Sumisora-san, we leave Tatsuhiro in your hands.’ 

Momotaro: ‘Goodbye.’ 

Tsubasa: ‘Ah, yes. Take care……’

(It was obvious that they went ahead to prepare for the birthday party…..) 

Tatsuhiro: ‘Geez, if you lie then do it more naturally.’ 

(As I thought….. . I wonder if it can be called lying.) 

Tatsuhiro (smiles): ‘Then, let’s take our time going back, huh.’ 

Tsubasa: ‘Nome-san…….’ 

Tatsuhiro (surprised): ‘Hm?’

Tsubasa: ‘No….. Fufu, let’s do that.’ ______________

ーAfter coming back to MooNs’ room.ー

Tatsuhiro: ‘I’m home.’ 

Hikaru: ‘HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!’ 

Tatsuhiro: ‘Uwaah! Are these crackers…..?’

Mikado: ‘Tatsu-dono, Happy birthday!’ 

Kazuna: ‘Happy birthday, Tatsuhiro.’

Momotaro: ‘Happy Birthday.’ 

Tsubasa: ‘Nome-san, Happy birthday!’

Tatsuhiro: ‘Thanks, everyone.’ 

Kazuna: ‘Come in. We prepared your favourite food.’ 

Tatsuhiro: ‘...... Wow. When did you even prepare all this?’

Mikado: ‘Hehe, we used KitaKore’s kitchen.’ 

Momotaro: ‘We put all our skill in making all the dishes, so don’t hold back and eat.’ 

Tatsuhiro: ‘Thanks.’ 

At that moment a phone call comes in.

Tsubasa: ‘...... Ah, please excuse me, I will answer the call.’ 

Kazuna: ‘Then, shall we start when Sumisora-san ended her call?’ 

Hikaru: ‘Yup! Alright, I will prepare the drinks.’ 

Tsubasa: ‘Nome-san!’

Tatsuhiro: ‘Hm? What’s wrong?’

Tsubasa: ‘The result of your taken stage audition the other day came in just now…..’ 

Tsubasa: ‘You successfully passed! Congratulations!’

Hikaru: ‘Ooh! Tatsu, congrats!’

Momotaro: ‘Your hard work paid off.’ 

Kazuna: ‘You stayed up late to practice so hard for this audition, after all.’ 

Mikado: ‘Tuunk! It's a piece of information perfectly suitable for this kind of day!’

Tatsuhiro: ‘It’s thanks to everyone. I’m especially indebted to Sumisora.’

Tsubasa: ‘No, that’s….. It’s the result of Nome-san’s hard word.’ 

Tatsuhiro: ‘No, it’s thanks to you playing the partner role that I could take the challenge without being nervous on that day.’ 

Everyone in MooNs is astonished by this information. None of them expected this when they suggested the idea back then.

Hikaru: ‘Eh, what does that mean?’

Mikado: ‘T-Tatsu-dono, did Tsubasa-san really play the partner role!?’

Momotaro: ‘It’s my first time hearing this.’ 

Tatsuhiro: ‘Haa? Didn’t you all say I should ask her.’ 

Kazuna: ‘We did say it, true but…. To be honest, we didn’t think you would actually do it.’ 

Tatsuhiro: ‘What’s with that!?’

Hikaru: ‘A one-to-one practice with Tsubasa-chan, how unfair~~! I also want to take a ballroom dance audition~~!’ 

Mikado: ‘Kuuh……! To think Tatsu-dono would take such bold action…..!’

Momotaro: ‘Mika, Hikaru, calm down.’

Kazuna: ‘Momo’s right. Shall we celebrate both Tatsuhiro’s birthday and his passing first?’ 

Hikaru: ‘Oh, oops, you’re right!’

Tatsuhiro (smiles): ‘Good grief……’ 

(Fufu, Nome-san seems to be happy while saying so…..) 

Tsubasa: ‘Nome-san, once again, Happy birthday. This is my present for you.’ 

Tatsuhiro: ‘Are you sure?’

Tsubasa: ‘Of course. They are mobile warmers. If your hands get cold because of the nervousness, please use them to warm up your hands.’ 

Tatsuhiro: ‘I see…..’ 

Tatsuhiro: ‘Thanks, Sumisora. I’ll use them with care.’ 

END

#b project #b-project #tatsuhiro nome #moons #myps #card:2018

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Count Magnus Van Bylant & Kanoa Makau join the Event of decade.

Both formally RSVP to Ivy and Rivers Birthday Bash of the decade.

Count Magnus van Bylant is from Den Haag. [inspired by the real “van Bylandt” here] 

His family has a very long tradition. For over 700 years this family has been part of the European nobility and is one of the oldest noble houses in Europe. The House of Bylandt is the name of an ancient house of nobility originating in the Lower Rhine region. Many of their ancestors were active in the military and politics. Magnus is a little arrogant snob, as he loves the benefits that come with his title. Nevertheless he appreciates love and knows its value. For this he even risked to get caught.

He hired a personal trainer to get fit to participate in the "North Sea Regatta" sailing competition in Scheveningen. He fell in love with the very attractive Kanoa Makau, who originally comes from Hawaii. Kanoa lives in San Myshuno in a small very industrial apartment and loves especially crossfitness and surfing. Maybe he wants to return to Sulani one day, but that is currently written in the stars.

Kanoa is a bro who also loves to play World of Warcraft, listens to Hip Hop and enjoys to discover the world, he is a very curious and contagious personality, a traveler. Magnus on the other hand is the pool of calm, he loves nature. He always wanted to have his own botanical garden, which he can create with his own hands. Since Kanoa is in his life, he finally feels complete and free, more himself.

Unfortunately, Gossip Observer caught the two of them kissing during a training session in San Myshuno. Thereupon Magnus took Kanoa by the hand and appeared in the palace with him. He revealed to his family that he loves Kanoa and gladly renounced his inheritance. The family is extremely outraged and doesn't want to tolerate this. Secretly they hope that he will give up this relationship.

It's not official yet, but the Van Bylandt’s will soon have to give their official statement about what the future of the Van Bylandt's will look like. Will this family still have a future?

So yeah, this is my entry to the wonderful party ;) How can I not want to join?

@cyberth0t​​ Duuuude, hope you love them! I do, hehehe! Their Love Bar is skyrocking - just sayin’...

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Read the scandalous blog post under cut with proof picture ^_^

Not perfect, ignore eventual grammar and typo mistakes, please! LOL 

* Ik hou van je = I love you. ** Je bent zo mooi. You are so beautiful.

Hey there Riddlander’s,  Gossip Oberserver here, your one and only source into the scandalous lives of the Royal’s Elite. And thus, the “Hot Ginger Lord” River is hosting with his Twin Sister Ivy the most lavish but elegant Costume Birthday Bash Event of the decade.

SPOTTED: The Dutch Count Magnus van Bylandt, Landlord Owner from Brindle Bay was seen kissing in San Myshuno with his “hot” Sulanian personal trainer Kanoa Makau. What a hot workout, right? Oh how beautiful love must be, but what a scandal for the Dutch crown. Magnus will probably have to say goodbye to his title and his lands soon. Oh so tragic, see this is how “stiff” the elite can be. Looks like the last van Bylandt will soon be living a “non-noble” life.

Magnus was professing his love for Kanoa in the foyer of the palace in front of his family and he confirmed that they are in fact TOGETHER. The jaws dropped, the van Bylandt lost their last hope to extend their heir and keep the legacy going. But will this bliss last? Every happy ending is just a new beginning. Because here in the Riddlelands, the good times never last forever.

After all, every dynasty dies out one day, no? What’s 700 years of noble history worth these days? Bye, bye Count Magnus.

Our Magnus and his +1 have been invited to the event of the decade, where he can hide angelically under an elf mask as the future fictional Nightelf king and enchant his sweet elf prince. Will our elf ears hear anything? Can we expect a scandal at the event itself? As we know, the Chirsle House is even more conservative than the Bylandts. You never know… but love goes its own way.

According to insider sources, I was told that Magnus Van Bylandt once had a crush on the “cinnamon cutie” as a teenager. As we all know River is “officially” single, but what does that mean? He’s been spotted quite a bit lately with star chef Rowan Falemalu. Wouldn’t it truly be a bigger, sweeter scandal to see the next aristocratic house succumb to the charm of true love?

HOT STUFF: Have you checked Rowan’s Insta yet? He’s been posting a lot lately about our “Hot Lord”, so you could guess, what if? They are very close and spend a lot of time together, yet there is no woman in sight. Some would say they became good friends, best buds whatever. Who am I to guess, right? A celebrity chef and a lord, who knows? Could this be the next aristocratic fairy-tale scandal? The question should be allowed, as our “Hot Ginger Lord” might not be a single after all, but who would dare to stir up the rumour mill?  

Just imagine our fallen Count Magnus would inspire the “Hot Ginger Lord” to make his voyage into the aristocratic tower, defending Rowan with courage like warrior on horseback in ancient times. He would  confess that they are officially a couple, and they will live happily ever after, riding into the sunset. Good thing is River cannot be disinherited like our Magnus. But we all know still waters, run deep!

XOXO, you know you love me Gossip Observer

#cyberth0t #simblr friends

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Unwavering (Ignis x Reader)

for the anony who requested iggy angst!!! with the following prompts:

#2: “Not you again”

#3: “Why do you hate me?”

#34: “I don’t deserve to be loved”

actually nonnie just said i could choose from either of the three but lol i am a Greedy Bitch™ who wants Validation from online strangers so i integrated all of the prompts (((they all worked out for the piece anyway hehehe)))

i worked on this nonstop bc idk i wanna make y’all happy with requests!! ironic bc this has some angst but uh.... i’m a sucker for happy endings so don’t worry everyone is happy in the end yay!!!!!!

(((thank you also to everyone who has sent love for The Way to a Man’s Heart like wow??? i thought it was shitty but a lot of y’all seemed to like it so thank u very much for being such darling angels mwah))))

here’s a more developed piece because i wanted to explore some character growth for iggy and his devotion to the throne whoop

word count: 5.8k+, unrequited feelings bc i LIVE FOR THIS SHIT, angst maybe, spoilers for ffxv

Ignis Scientia was a man known for many things. To those who frequented the Citadel, he was known as the young retainer of Prince Noctis. To some of the staff serving the royal family, Ignis was known for having a magic touch when it came to the kitchen. To his peers, the young man was regarded as hardworking, refined, and immaculately patient.

He had to be, if he was dealing with the stubborn prince, after all.

But, if there was one thing Ignis Scientia wasn’t known for, it was for losing his composed front in public. You, however, were an exception.

As a relative of Prince Noctis, you were a frequent — though not necessarily unwelcome — presence at the Citadel. Every summer, without fail, you would pay a visit to your “Uncle Reggie” — who would always welcome you with “the best hug in all of Eos” — and play with your cousin Noctis.

Though not much for socializing, Noctis — for the most part, at least — often looked forward to your visits, if only because you could get him out of his tutoring sessions and other princely obligations. “I have to go entertain the princess,” he would say whenever you arrived. “Duty calls.”

Having Noctis avoid his lectures was a headache enough for Ignis on any normal day, but with you in the picture? It was nothing short of a nightmare for the young Scientia.

You were hard-headed (more so than Noct, which was a feat in itself), obnoxiously loud, and awfully careless in a palace such as the Citadel. Noctis would argue that you “lit up the place” with your endless supply of energy, but if Ignis were to be frank, he thought you were a bit too much for him.

Though you had no bearing on the throne, you were still royalty under the Lucis Caelum line. Thus, as a member of House Scientia, Ignis was bound to you regardless of how often you got on his nerves.

Which was pretty often, and you weren’t even at the Citadel for the entirety of the year.

“Hi, Iggy!” you chirped at him during one of your summer stay-ins at the Citadel. “Whatcha doin’?”

“Not you again,” Ignis muttered under his breath. Time and time again, he couldn’t fathom what it was about you that grated on his nerves. Was it the lack of control in the volume of your voice whenever you called at him? Was it how reckless you ran around the Citadel, thus posing as a threat to the many valuables that decorated the palace? Or was it simply because Ignis had merely accepted Noctis as his sole responsibility, and so the added weight of you in the picture only placed more pressure over his delicate shoulders?

Whatever it was, Ignis had to remind himself to retain his cool composure, lest you throw a tantrum and cause an even bigger ruckus at the Citadel.

“What was that?”

Ignis cleared his throat. “Nothing.” Adjusting his glasses, he regarded you coolly with a nod. “How may I help you, Princess?”

You beamed, thoroughly basking in the royal retainer’s attention. “Sleepy Boy’s taking his royal nap, and I’m bored! Wanna play with me?”

“I’m sorry, Princess, but I’ll have to decline,” Ignis replied. “I have other things I must attend to.”

“But-“

“You can wait for Prince Noctis in the gardens, if you’d like. I hear the lavenders are blooming this time of the year.”

“Ig-“

“I’ll see you at supper. Good day.”

With his back turned to you, Ignis had failed to notice the tears welling up in your eyes that day.

*

Despite the fact that Ignis was only a year older than you, his poise and elegance made you feel like you were always lightyears behind him. It was due to this that you looked up to him a lot — a confession you had confided in Noctis many times during your yearly visits.

“How does Iggy do it, Noct?” you had asked after the festivities for your 10th birthday had wrapped up. You had opted to celebrate the day with your favorite people (“Sleepy Boy and Iggy! Oh, and you too, Uncle Reggie!”), and in the aftermath of the festivities, you and the prince were sprawled on his bed, too worn out to even bother getting changed into sleepwear.

Glancing at you from his handheld gaming device, Noctis asked, “Do what?”

“Do everything!” you cried, flopping down next to your best friend. “He’s only one year ahead of me, but he seems so much more…”

“Ancient?”

“No!” You whacked Noctis on the head, earning you a snort from the prince. “More mature! Iggy is so mature! I wanna be like him someday.”

“I dunno (Name), being Iggy doesn’t seem like a lot of fun.”

You frowned, brows furrowing at Noctis’ comment. “Why not?”

“He’s always doing stuff that the adults do. All the boring things.”

“Isn’t he allowed to hang out with us and take a break?”

“He is,” Noctis insisted. “But he’s always acted more like mom to me than anything. I’ve never really seen him slack off. Not even once.”

“Huh.”

“Yeah.”

*

The next year, you made it a point to visit Noctis much earlier than your usual scheduled arrival in the summer. You had wanted to surprise Ignis on his birthday, and that was exactly what you did when you showed up at the Citadel several months earlier than expected.

“Hi, Iggy!” You wrapped your arms around him in greeting, ignoring how stiff he was at your embrace. “Happy birthday!”

“What are you doing here?” was all that came out of his mouth, but you were more focused on commemorating his birthday than dwelling on his lackluster response.

“I’m here to celebrate your birthday!” you replied happily, shoving a small box into his hands. “Sorry it’s only store-bought, but all the other cakes I tried to bake kinda… deflated, heh.”

Ignis offered a short bow. “I appreciate the sentiment, Princess, but I have a meeting to attend to.” He handed the box back into your grasp almost apologetically. “You can share that with Noct. I’m sure he will enjoy it immensely.” Turning on his heels, he nodded at you before offering a few more words. “I hope you enjoy your stay.”

And with that, he left you there, standing dumbfounded with a box of cake in your hands and a hurt heart in your chest.

*

When it was time for you to enter high school, you became a permanent fixture at the Citadel. At this age, Ignis had already grown accustomed to your rambunctious personality, though that wasn’t to say he particularly sought out your company on his own accord. He liked to think that he simply tolerated your presence.

You always wished he liked you more, though, especially with your growing feelings for him.

“No fair, Noct!” you whined. “Now that I get to stay here at the Citadel, you’re gonna go and leave me to find a place of your own?”

The prince rolled his eyes at your antics. “I’ve been stuck here all my life, (Name). Don’t you think it’s about time that I at least get some time away from home?” You pouted at him, which only caused Noctis to chuckle. “Don’t dwell on it too much. We still have a year together before I’m off to high school anyway.”

You sighed dramatically. “At least I’ll have Iggy all to myself while you’re gone.”

“Well,” he drawled, “not exactly.”

Your groan sounded more exaggerated than the norm. “He’s gonna trail after you even when you’re away?” you complained, crossing your arms in frustration. “How am I going to get to use my womanly charms on him now?”

Noctis blanched. “Hey, it’s not like I asked him to dote on me. And since when have you been a woman?”

“Since puberty, you dweeb!” You made a motion to smack him on the head, but after years of training, the prince’s reflexes were much quicker now. You made no comment on his fast movements, but you were definitely impressed — and a little proud — by how much Noctis had grown over the years.

“Really?” As proud as you were of Noctis, you had to admit that the smirk on his face was still a little annoying. “I hadn’t noticed.”

“Loser.”

“Brat.”

“Says the Sleepy Boy who gets cranky whenever he misses his nap.”

“I’ll have you know that we all need sleep to function properly.”

“Not in excess like you do, Sleepy Boy.”

And thus commenced a wrestling match between you and Noctis, your bitterness over his impending absence — and the lack of Ignis’ company, no less — long forgotten at the back of your mind.

*

High school was not what you thought it would be.

As a member of the royal family — never mind the fact that you weren’t even interested in inheriting the throne, nor were you even technically eligible to take over after King Regis, especially with Noctis having been groomed as the heir since his youth — many of your schoolmates flocked to you without any regard for your personal space.

Ignis had presumed you would have thrived in the spotlight, as revelling in people’s attention was something he had seen you enjoy during your many summers at the Citadel. It thus came as a surprise when, on what he was told was your first day in high school, you came knocking at his apartment door, looking rattled and frightened.

“Hi, Iggy,” you greeted shakily, your eyes lacking the usual mirth Ignis had always seen you carry. It was rather unnerving, having you suddenly show up at his doorstep looking all sullen and downcast. “Sorry for coming here unannounced. I didn’t know where to go, a-and…”

Your voice began to crack. Ignis was alarmed by the sudden manifestation of tears in your eyes; in all his years of watching over both you and Noctis, he had never been privy to your teardrops, so this was a sight that clenched at his heart rather unexpectedly.

“Please, come in.” He ushered you into his home, gingerly leading you to sit on the nearby sofa. “Tea?” he offered quietly, being careful not to aggravate your already bleak mood.

You shook your head. “No thanks. Can… can you just… stay here for a bit? With me?”

With the way you were looking at him so pleadingly — desperately — Ignis knew he wouldn’t be able to decline your request even if he wanted to.

What Ignis found rather odd, however, was that he didn’t want to deny you of your wish.

It had been a good while since the Royal Adviser last saw you. While he still wasn’t particularly fond of you, per se, his patience at least grew the older he became, and with it came a more formidable tolerance for your presence. He had a duty to the Lucis Caelum line — and in effect, to you — and he would stick to this commitment to the end of the line.

Today, though… today was decidedly different. For the very first time, he was seeing you not as a member of the royal family, but simply as you were: a young, vulnerable girl seeking comfort in his familiarity.

The two of you stayed there for the remainder of the evening. Not talking. Not touching. But you were together, and that was all you needed.

*

Ignis later found out from Noctis that your… episode on your first day of high school revealed your intolerance for crowds, especially with the likes of fanatic, hormonal teenagers — who wanted nothing but to rub elbows with royalty — swarming you left and right.

You had kept to yourself for the remainder of your high school life, but ever since that unforeseen visit to Ignis’, you noticed a drop in students harassing you on campus.

You liked to think that a certain Royal Adviser had something to do with the shift in treatment from your schoolmates.

Ignis never said anything about it. He deemed it unnecessary that you be aware of his involvement with campus officials and the warning words he had uttered regarding your safety and well-being.

You were his responsibility, after all.

*

A few days before Noctis was set to leave for Altissia, you decided to throw a party in celebration of not just his engagement, but your new assignment in Accordo as well. The small get-together — which consisted of you, Noctis, Ignis, Gladio, and Prompto — was mostly for your own enjoyment. You were being sent off to Altissia ahead of Noctis’ departure, so it would be a while before you would get to see your favorite people again.

“I don’t understand why you can’t just wait a while and come with us, (Name),” Prompto commented with a pout. “We’re all going the same direction anyway.”

You shrugged. “As they say: duty calls.” Taking a swig of your drink, you gestured for Gladio to pour more wine into your glass. “Besides, we’ll see each other soon enough. Don’t worry about it.”

“I think you should slow down on the drinks, (Name).” Noctis attempted to swipe your wine glass from your grasp, but just like the prince, your own reflexes had also improved over time. “Don’t want you hungover on the trip to Accordo tomorrow.”

“I’ll be fiiine,” you sang, leaning onto Gladio for support. “Live a little, Noct-Noct!”

“Prince Charmless is right,” Gladio said as he attempted to steady your swaying form. “Drink too much and you might fall asleep waiting for your boat.”

You scoffed. “If anyone’s falling asleep, it’ll be Sleepy Boy over here.” You poked Noctis on the nose, causing him to scrunch up his face almost reflexively. “You better not fall asleep before your wedding, Noct. Can’t keep sweet ol’ Luna waiting too long. She’ll be expecting a proper prince waiting for her at the altar!”

“Tell me something I don’t know.”

“We don’t have enough time for that,” Ignis deadpanned, causing the rest of your party to erupt in laughter.

As the night dwindled, your group fell into a comfortable silence. Noctis was already dozing off, while Gladio and Prompto were in their little corner, with the former teaching the blond a few “tricks” up his sleeve on how to “charm the women.”

That left you with Ignis.

“Hey, Iggy,” you called softly. “Could I talk to you for a minute? In private?”

Ignis was in the middle of taking Noctis’ glass from him — as his charge was bound to lose his grip on the drink, what with him going in and out of slumber — when you asked for him. “Certainly,” he said, and the two of you wandered off a little ways away from your friends.

“Can you believe it?” Your words broke the quiet between you and Ignis, the moon and stars serving as your spotlight. “Who would have thought that our Noct would go and get himself hitched? And to the Oracle, at that! I never even dreamed that he would be the first of us to get engaged, let alone start his way towards married life.”

“Indeed.” Ignis adjusted his glasses, a habit of his you had grown fond of over the years. “Granted, the engagement was brought on by the treaty, but regardless, it’s certainly enough reason to celebrate.”

You nodded in agreement. “Definitely.”

“So what was it you wanted to discuss, Princess?”

You felt yourself grow warm even beyond the effects of the alcohol in your system. Under Ignis’ intense stare, you couldn’t help but fidget a bit. The Royal Adviser had grown all the more refined in the past couple of years, making him even more attractive than he already was to begin with.

Not only did he now tower over you with his height, his jawline became more chiseled, giving him a sharper and much more striking face. You also took notice of how much his shoulders had broadened, providing him with a much more masculine build.

Simply put, Ignis Scientia was a work of art. That’s all there really was to it.

“I…” You gulped nervously. “There was something I wanted to tell you before I left.”

“Yes?”

It was now or never. “I… I love you, Ignis. I’m in love with you.”

You shut your eyes almost immediately, too scared of what Ignis’ reaction would be. Had you kept your eyes open, you would have registered the shock on his face. There were tellings of tenderness around his eyes at your confession, but you remained blissfully unaware as you waited with bated breath for his response.

Finally, after what felt like an eternity too long, Ignis spoke. “This is…”

“… yes…?”

“This is highly improper.”

Your stomach fell at his words, eyes opening in shock. “What… what do you mean?” Already, you could feel the tears threatening to make their appearance, but you willed yourself not to let them escape. Not yet. Not until he explained himself.

“What I mean is that you must dismiss this nonsense at once, Princess.”

“Nonsense?” you croaked, hurt by how savagely Ignis was taking this. “How is this nonsense? I love you, Ignis!”

The sharp glare Ignis had sent you that day would be burned into your mind forever. “No, you don’t. You’re not mature enough to know what you’re talking about, (Name).”

“And you are?” Though your tone was scathing, the stray tears that managed to leak from your eyes betrayed you. “I know you’re smarter than me, Ignis, but I’m not that far behind you in age.”

“What you manage to keep up in age speaks nothing of your wisdom, Princess.” He looked away from you, the deep frown seemingly aging him beyond his years. “You’re not in love with me. You’re drunk.”

“Stop calling me that!” you snapped, rubbing at your eyes furiously. What was going on with Ignis? Your gentle, sweet, patient Iggy? “Don’t tell me what I feel, Ignis! I’m sober enough to know what it is that I feel for you, and it’s love! I love you! Why can’t you accept that?”

“Why can’t you accept rejection when you see it, Princess?”

You fell silent at his remark. The tears were flowing freely now, and you did nothing to conceal them any longer. Defeatedly, with your voice barely over a whisper, you uttered, “Why do you hate me?”

“I don’t-“

“You do,” you asserted tearfully. “You’ve never liked me. Even when we were kids, you’ve always hated me, Iggy.”

“Princess…”

“But me?” You laughed mockingly, the chuckles being drowned by your overpowering sorrow. “I’ve always loved you.”

That was the last Ignis saw of you, for the next time you met, his eyes could comprehend nothing but darkness.

His only regret was having your heartbroken face — from pain that he had been the source of — as his final memory of your time together before everything fell apart.

*

Several things revolved around Ignis’ mind as he processed the loss of his eyesight. What use was he now if he couldn’t even see his prince? Would he ever be able to cope? How was Noctis handling the passing of Lunafreya?

No matter what he thought of, though, you continued to remain at the fore of his mind.

He wondered where you were now. After that night, you had left for Accordo very early in the morning. Ignis had failed to see you off, as did the rest of his companions, Noctis included. It was as if you had made it a point to avoid all of them on the day of your departure.

He couldn’t blame you if you were avoiding him specifically, especially after how badly he had handled your confession.

The silver lining in your prompt expedition to Accordo was the fact that you were safe from the fall of Insomnia. Ignis at least had that to tide his worries over for the time being, though it did nothing to ease the gaping hole in his heart at his actions from your final conversation.

He had attempted to contact you countless times during the duration of his travel to Altissia with Noctis and the rest of their party. In spite of his efforts, you were adamant in rejecting his calls, though this was of no surprise to Ignis. Noctis, Prompto, and even Gladio had tried calling you as well — and they were especially consistent after they caught wind of Niflheim’s betrayal — but they were always redirected to either the dial tone or your voice mail.

You were simply unreachable.

“I pray that you are safe, Princess,” Ignis whispered softly into the air as he wobbled off the edge of his bed. He reached out for his walking stick, feeling the frustration of everything that had occurred become incredibly overwhelming. “There is so much I have left unsaid.”

*

“I told him not to fall asleep before his wedding.” Though your message was said in jest, your watery voice was telling enough of the grief you felt. “But did he listen? Of course he didn’t. That stupid Sleepy Boy.”

“Yeah.” Prompto chuckled sadly, wiping a tear from his eye. “That’s Noct for ya.”

“He’ll be back soon,” Gladio said, though the waver in his confidence was painfully obvious. “Or I’ll bring him here myself.”

You sniffed and turned towards the one who had remained silent during your tearful reunion. “And what about you, Iggy? I swear to the Astrals above, you really spoil Noct too much. Now look where it got you!”

Ignis frowned, expecting a comment or two on his eyesight. Or rather, his lack thereof. You were sure to offer pity for his handicap. In fact, he even expected you to mock him as a means of retaliating over the hurt he had lashed out on you that fateful night. It wasn’t even that long ago when you went your separate ways, and yet, it felt almost as if decades had come and gone since then.

He would have accepted any form of punishment from you, really, so long as it would mean he could obtain your forgiveness once and for all.

But, it seemed some things never did change, including the way you had never failed to render Ignis speechless and catch him off guard. What you said next made his cheeks burn — a sensation he never thought he would ever be able to feel anymore, particularly at this point in time when everything seemed bleak and hopeless.

“Look at what you’ve done to yourself.” Your voice was so sweet and so gentle, it made Ignis want to cry. The delicate graze of your fingers over his damaged face made him shiver in delight. “Not to worry. Scars or no, you’re still a work of art to me, Iggy!” Lowering your voice enough for just the two of you to hear, you murmured, “I’ll always love you no matter what.”

Everyone thought Ignis broke down into a heaping mess in your arms as his way of grieving for Noctis, but what no one knew was that he was crying over the love you still held for him even after all this time.

*

With the lack of communication between the two of you since your disappearance, Ignis had barely held onto any hope of possibly finding you again.

And yet, here you were, safe and sound with the rest of civilization at Lestallum. Not only did you look well — rather, you sounded well to Ignis’ ears, at the very least — you had even welcomed him into your loving embrace.

He knew he was entirely undeserving of your kindness and affection, especially with the memory of how he treated you still haunting him, but he allowed himself this momentary reprieve of selfishness. Just this once, Ignis gave himself this small window of putting his own needs before anyone else’s.

He needed you, and here you were, ready and waiting to catch him at any given moment.

“Shh, Iggy, you’re okay,” you cooed into his ears that night. At that very moment, Ignis knew he could go on — blind or otherwise — so long as he had you to lead him through the darkness.

Had you always sounded this angelic, or was his improved hearing warping his memory of your voice?

Or, could it be that he was hearing you not through brand new ears due to his lack of vision, but through the new development of his endearment towards his princess?

“You’re safe, Iggy, you’re safe,” you repeated like a mantra as you soothed his distress with your presence alone. You combed your fingers through his tresses as he held onto you desperately, not ready to face reality just yet. “We’re here. You’re not alone, Iggy. We’re here. We can do this.”

Ignis knew that you, too, were crying as well. He caught the soft whimpers that were scattered between your warm assurances. Even then, he couldn’t bring himself to be strong enough for the two of you for the time being.

Here, in your arms, he was safe, and he wasn’t ready to let go of the safety you provided just yet.

*

None of you addressed Ignis’ breakdown that night. It was a breakthrough for sure, but if Ignis chose not to bring it up, then neither were any of you going to forcefully pick at the wound he had opted to bury.

With both Noctis and Lunafreya absent, darkness surged into the everyday. Ignis, ironically, was one of the first to adjust into this nightmare of a world. He had lost his vision a little before the darkness took over, after all, so the lack of daylight didn’t make much of a difference to him.

What did make a difference was your constant companionship.

Ignis had yet to formally discuss that dreadful night before your trip to Accordo. He owed you more than an apology at this point, and yet, he kept mum, faltering at each opportunity whenever you greeted him with that sunny disposition of yours.

“How do you do it, Princess?” Ignis had asked one day, nearly a year into this life of darkness.

“Do what, Iggy?”

“How have you kept your light so brilliant all this time?” He readjusted his grip on his walking stick as he felt you settle yourself next to him. “Not even Prompto has managed to remain this bright, and he has always been the most cheerful out of all of us.”

You slipped your hand into one of his gloved ones, giving it a squeeze before explaining, “Well, I gotta be the light for you, Iggy. It’s the least I can do while all of you are out there fighting to protect us.”

“But why me?”

“Why not you?”

“I don’t deserve your compassion, Princess.”

“Of course you do! What you don’t deserve is getting your eyesight taken from you, but you’ve always been the selfless one, so I guess I’ll let that slide.” You released his hand in order to caress his face. “You best believe Noct’s gonna get a whipping from me when I see him! He owes you big time.”

“He owes me nothing. I live in his servitude.”

“Well, I guess that’s always been the case, but still-“

“However, I do owe you an apology.”

“Huh?” Your light touches on his face halted. “An apology for what?”

“An apology for how I treated you that night before you left for Accordo,” Ignis explained, a hint of regret lining his words. “I handled the situation inappropriately, and I hurt you in the process.” He blindly reached out for your hands, and you met him halfway, offering your grasp in his shaky one. “For that, I beg for your forgiveness.”

“Iggy, it’s okay. I… I got over it a long time ago. I shouldn’t have sprung something so big on you before I left anyway.”

“Regardless, I am deeply remorseful for how I treated you that night, (Name). You did not deserve to have your feelings regarded so poorly, least of all by someone such as myself.”

Much like that night, silence enveloped the two of you for a few agonizing moments. Ignis sat there, waiting patiently for what you had to say. Eventually, you let out a sigh, leaning a little into his side.

“Can I ask you something then, Iggy?”

“Go ahead, Princess.”

“You… did you ever really…” You were struggling to find the right words. Ignis gave you the push you needed by wrapping his arm around you. “I always felt like you hated me, Iggy. Did you?”

His answer was instantaneous. “Never.”

“Then how come you were always so… how come you always gave me the cold shoulder?” You traced patterns into his thigh as you said this, and Ignis struggled to focus on your words more than the tantalizing feel of your touch. “I mean, I always knew your duty was to Noct, and I was never jealous about that or anything, but…” Another sigh. “Why is it that you were never really friendly with me? And why… why were you so adamant about shutting me down when I confessed to you that night?”

There it was. The hurdle Ignis had to face if he wanted to garner your forgiveness.

“Truth be told, Princess, I was young and naive, and I simply did not know how to handle two Nocts at once.”

“Hey! I object!” you exclaimed. It wasn’t long before your protests fell into a brief wave of giggles. “Yeah, we were a handful together, weren’t we?”

“I wasn’t always as wise as you thought me to be.”

“Still, you were pretty mature for your age. I always admired you for that.”

Ignis felt himself blush at your praise. “As for that night…” He took a deep breath before turning to you. With his lack of vision, Ignis tried to keep his gaze trained towards what he surmised were your eyes. “I… I was afraid, to be frank.”

“Afraid?”

“The very idea of having a member of the royal family hold a great deal of intimate fondness for me in such a manner was terrifying. I did not consider it to be appropriate for me to pursue any inklings of romance with you, especially with my obligations to Noct.”

It took you a few moments to process what he said. “I see.”

“Unfortunately, I was much too brash in my dismissal of your feelings. I was blinded by fear to even consider a possibility with you. You may think me mature, but at the time, I was anything but. I was frightened by the prospect of having to entertain my already conflicting feelings for you.”

Ignis’ voice began to falter, but he continued nevertheless. “Since then, I have lived in regret over my actions. If I had opted to voice my thoughts better, then perhaps we could have…” He shakily reached out for your face, surprised to feel wetness seeping into his gloves. “I am truly sorry. Please, please don’t cry, Princess.”

“S-sorry.” You hastily wiped away your tears, only for Ignis to beat you to it. Instead, you clung onto his hands, which cupped your face in a tender hold. “Sorry, hah. I guess I’m still an emotional mess, huh?”

“There is no need for apologies, Princess. You are sublime just the way you are.”

“Ignis, I…” Your grip tightened around his hands. “I still love you. I love you, Ignis. I love you.” You couldn’t help but cry now, the sound of your wails tearing into Ignis’ heart. “I-I’m-I’m sorry, you don’t have to reciprocate or anything. I just… I just wanted you to know that I never stopped. I never stopped loving you, Ignis.”

How? How had you remained so unwavering in your devotion to him even after he had hurt you so? He didn’t deserve you.

The look of sadness on Ignis’ face made your chest tighten painfully. “I don’t deserve to be loved. Not by you. Never by you.”

“Ignis, no-“

“You deserve everything, Princess,” he said brokenly. “I can’t give you anything. Not anymore.”

“Ignis,” you interjected, “I know you’re blind, but don’t you see? You are my everything. You always have been.”

Ever so gently, you pressed your lips to his, finally breaking through the last of the walls around his heart. To your utmost joy, Ignis gave in and matched your passion.

Propriety be damned, he at least deserved this one thing, didn’t he? His entire life had been dedicated to Noctis and the royal family. For once — just this once — he could let his guard down, could he not? Did he not deserve his own piece of joy as well?

Surely he was allowed to find a happily ever after with you, right?

Fervently, Ignis melted into your kiss, expressing all the dormant feelings he had suppressed over the years.

With his lips merely a whisper away, you murmured, “Will you say it, Ignis? Do you love me?”

“Always. Forever.” His lips sought yours in a frantic dance. “I love you.”

*

Noctis wanted to say he was surprised when he found you and Ignis, many years later, sporting matching bands on your left ring fingers. However, he knew such a union had been a long time coming, even before he was absorbed into the crystal.

“About time, Specs,” the prince — now king — said. He turned to you, gaze turning just a touch softer. “Your womanly charms worked, eh?”

“At least I made it down the aisle,” you quipped, though your damp eyes were evident even in the darkness. “You just dozed off, like I knew you would. You always were one to oversleep, Sleepy Boy.”

“Hey, I’m back now, aren’t I?”

“Better late than never, I suppose,” Ignis remarked with a small smile. “Good to have you back, Noct.”

“Good to be back. Did the princess behave while I was gone, Iggy?”

Your laugh was watery. “Are you forgetting that I’m older than you?”

“It’s only by a year, (Name).”

“That still means she has 365 days over you, buddy,” Prompto teased. “You’ve been gone so long that she’s eons ahead of you now.”

“You’re making it sound like (Name)’s an old granny,” Gladio said, giving Prompto a light punch on the shoulder.

“I will be in no time!” you joked. “Having Noct as family really ages you prematurely.”

“Tell me about it,” Ignis added, joining in on the banter.

“How’d you do it, Iggy?” Prompto asked, the air surrounding Hammerhead feeling lighthearted for once thanks to the return of Noctis. “How’d you survive looking after these two all this time and lived to tell the tale?”

Ignis’ gaze turned much warmer as he glanced in your direction. “Unwavering perseverance is a must in this job, Prompto. I’m only fortunate enough to have learned from the best.”

He might not have seen it, but Ignis could feel just how brilliant your smile was at that moment.

A smile that was reserved just for him. All for him.

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[purplesurveys]

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Name 10 friends.

1. Rita 2. Laurice 3. Lui 4. Angela 5. Kate 6. Jo 7. Blanch 8. Aya 9. Leigh 10. Kaye

Number 1

Who was 1's first boyfriend/girlfriend? I don’t think Rita’s ever dated anyone before? She’s probably had crushes, but she would definitely share with us if she were seeing someone.

Has 1 ever made you cry? Nope, as far as I know she hasn’t.

What's 1's natural hair colour? Black.

When was the last time you saw 1? Sometime in February, I would say. Before the pandemic. We both served terms in our org’s board so we definitely had a meeting together sometime then.

How many siblings does 1 have? 4. Three sisters - two older and one younger - and one older brother.

Number 2

Is 2 in a relationship right now? I don’t believe so. We used to tease her that she’ll for sure get a partner before she graduates college, but that seems murky now because online classes :( It’s probably not a priority for her anyway.

What are 2's parents called? If I remember correctly her mom is named Malou...as for her dad, I don’t recall anymore but I’m pretty sure it starts with an E, haha.

Can 2 sing, or play any instruments? She sings, but I’m not sure if she plays an instrument. Most likely the piano, if anything.

Who does 2 live with? She lives with her immediate family and maternal grandmother.

The last time you hung out with 2, what did you do? I genuinely have no idea. I know I didn’t see her on my last Real day in campus, that’s for sure. If I had to guess, we either got street food or studied together. Or both, heheh.

Number 3

When is 3's birthday? April something. I just could never remember the exact date, but I know our birthdays are close to each other.

How did you meet 3? They were serving in the executive board when I was still applying for our org, so they were one of the people who had to be super active in entertaining and getting to know the new applicants. As far as I know they also briefly had a crush on me but I obviously couldn’t entertain them given the circumstances back then.

Has 3 been in love before? Yes, I’ve heard them talk about their ex before and they had a good run, so they’ve definitely been in love. They also have like a billion crushes apart from that relationship.

What was your first impression of 3? They were an executive in the org when I first met them so I viewed them with utmost respect, and for a time I treated them as a superior until we eventually became closer friends.

Have you ever lied to 3? Eh probably, but just small lies. We’re not close enough for me to have to lie about anything crucial.

Number 4

What kind of music does 4 listen to? Mostly pop, pop rock, pop punk, and R&B.

What's 4's middle name? I know what it is, but I’m not sharing that.

Does 4 live close to you? I’d say she does, but I still have to travel around 15-20 minutes by car. It’s no sweat for me though, given how most of my friends live a lot farther.

What's 4's star sign? Virgo, I think?? Yeah, I’m pretty certain she’s a Virgo.

Describe 4's appearance. Black hair, a beauty mark on the left side of her face, big eyes, a bit of on the heavy side but not super, always has her pearl earrings on.

Number 5

Do you/did you go to school with 5? We were coursemates and were part of the same journ org, but we only ever had like one class together since she’s a year above me which made our timelines different.

Have you ever held hands with 5? Yes, she’s pretty physically affectionate so she’s held my hand and played around with it at least once.

Tell me about the last conversation you had with 5. LOL this is kind of my fault, but I had been asking for help for a work-related thing. She only got to reply like 3 hours after and was super apologetic since she had been presenting slides at work using her laptop, but I never got back to her since I myself was super busy; and I don’t think I’ve even opened the messages, either. Whoops.

Would you ever consider being more than friends with 5? Oh my god no hahahaha. I love her to death but I view her as a sister more than anything.

Have you ever got into an argument with 5? Nah. She knows I’m not the type to get into an argument and if she had a problem with me she would simply tell me.

Number 6

Who is 6's celebrity crush? Most likely someone from BTS, though I’m not sure who her bias is. Judging from her tweets she’s also recently gotten into Jessi, but idk if she’s won celebrity crush status.

How old was 6 when you met him/her? She wassssssssss 18. She was a college freshie when we met.

Do you have a favourite photograph of 6? I don’t think so, and idk if I’m in the place to have a favorite photo of specifically her lol.

Is 6 attractive? She’s very pretty, yes.

Have you ever made 6 cry? I hope not?? She would for sure tell me if I have.

Number 7

7 is coming to your house for dinner; what will you cook? I’d order some pizza, get a tub of ice cream, and prepare a vape pod for her as well since that’s our favorite thing to do together.

The last time you saw 7, what was he/she wearing? No idea when that even was. She didn’t really spend a lot of time in the org hangout because she only had one or two classes, so I didn’t get to see her much to begin with.

What's the first letter of 7's last name? A.

What's the age difference between 7 and yourself? She’s a full year younger.

Is 7 capable of breaking your heart? Sure, if she like broke my trust or something.

Number 8

What do you like the most about 8's personality? She’s friendly and has always been supportive of me. I know she has shit to fix about herself as I’m well aware of her abusive behavior...but she’s a friend and I will always be behind her as she tries to improve and get better.

When was the last time you spoke to 8 in person? Jesus...maybe all the way back in 2019? She hadn’t come back to campus ever since she graduated, so that must’ve been the last time I saw her.

Have you ever had a dream about 8? She’s probably appeared in them but she was never a focal character.

What colour is 8's car? She doesn’t have one.

How old is 8? She will be turning 25.

Number 9

Has 9 ever cried in front of you? No.

The last time you spoke to 9, what did you talk about? I was asking her about what kind of gifts Andi would like for Christmas since she knows them far better than I do.

What kind of men/women does 9 like? We never really get to talk about this but knowing how Andi is, someone who has a healthy relationship with God and has strong faith, and someone who can respect boundaries, is creative, and challenges her with intellectual conversations. Thought it should also be important to note that Andi’s enby, so this question shouldn’t be limited to just men and women.

Would you go to 9 for advice about love/relationships? Yes, I know she’d be more than welcoming to listen.

Have you ever spent the night at 9's house? Never been to her place nor had an overnight thing with her.

Number 10

Who introduced you to 10? I don’t think anyone did; we just met each other in school.

Do you speak to 10 every day? No. We talk only occasionally but we’re super chummy when we do.

What if 10 told you that he/she was going to be a parent? She’d never tell just me since we aren’t close enough, but if she were to announce anything like that I’d be over the moon for her and would definitely congratulate her.

Does 10 ever come to you for advice about anything? Nope.

Has 10 ever flirted with you? No.

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[lalalisasp]

unconditional bond

this is the only pic of me and him that i've been keeping for so long . lmao look at me i am so happy hahahahaha . he is a perfect guy for me back then , now , tomorrow and forever .

11TH MAY 2015 (OUR FIRST MEET)

it's started on 11th may 2015 , 11 days before my birthday . eventhough we've been a batchmate for 1 year and a half i've never knew his presence untill the day on 11th may . untill now i still remembered the very first time we've met and how we met , the first time i looked inside your eyes . you're not handome enough tho but it's fine 😂 . you have such a beautifull heart and soul , you're so you just like naufal that everyone knew. i still remembered when you offered me a hand to throw out the rubbish . my heart was moved and the butterflies in my stomach had been flying for a sec . but at that moment i just give a fuck about it . i don't even know you .

22TH MAY 2015 ( YOUR MOVE )

it's my birthday . untill now i don't even know if you actually remember my birthday . if you actually remember me . i know , i am nothing in your eyes but i do really like you back then . back to the story , i remembered the very first time you wishing me a happy birthday . it's on messenger hahaha lol we're so lame back then tho 😂 . '' happy birthday shu '' - you . i felt nothing at that moment but your face keeps playing in my head . then we start talking (by messenger) to each other . you're someone who does'nt know how to show a woman with your love , but i guess now you're good enough 😏 . you just being you . talk about study most of the time 😂 it's suck do because i don't really like study and i am not a brilliant girl . i am just a regular girl and i admit it . i don't have any special thing . i am nothing . whenever i think about us , untill now i am nothing compared to you .

18TH OCTOBER 2015

it's your birthday . i am not rich and i have not enough money to buy you something huge something expensive . all that i have is a huge love and it leads me to make a huge efforts for your birthday . i know it seems crazy it seems desperate but i am not . i just wanna show you how much i appreciate you in my life because that's all that i can do to celebrate your birthday . there a so fucking many quotes that i wrote for you . at that moment i knew everyone said that i am desperate for you but i'm not , i am just a girl who want her boyfriend to know how meaningfull he is in her life . i still remembered i buying you a dashing perfume and in that perfume box it have man city keychain . hahaha cute . but untill now i felt guilty 'am i need to wish you a happy birthday' when it comes to your birthday ,i don't really have a enough courage to wish you a happy birthday but i wish you this year tho hehehe *clap for myself .

22TH MAY 2016

it's my birthday again . i have no idea that you will sepakat with my prs team for make a huge suprise for me . thank you for that :) . act ,i don't felt anything whenever people tried to suprise me because i don't really trust a name of 'friend' . from i was a very little girl , backstab is a common thing when it comes about my life . everyone seems very happy with their life even me everyone assume that i am a happy person . yes i am a happy person but i have a lot of dark stories that i can't even share with anyone even my parents . but felt very grateful because of those dark memories makes who i am today . for me everyone is just a person that i need to be kind with . i don't know what act the meaning of friend untill i found najah , mirra ,aimi, yus, fatin, tyrah ,putri and mai . they are the only friends that deserve that tittle. other that that is just a person . okay okay banyak nau berleter , on my third birthday in high school , it was the most romantic thing that you've ever done to me eventhough it seems nothing but it is something . after you gave me the gift then we started to talk and again you ask me about my study hmmmph 😒 . anyways thank you for that ✨.

THAT DAY

few months before our PT3 you change . a lot . you're not someone that i used to know . you're different . you ... you ... treat me like an object 😔 . sometimes you being so kind sometimes you being so heartless . i am confius at that moment . you don't tell me why ,you said nothing . everyday i've been thinking what is my mistake that i've done to you untill you treat me like that . i felt so fucked up . i felt sick . i am running out my mind . wtf wrong that i am doing . i'm doing nothing .

THE DAY I FOUND OUT WHY

it is at the end of 2016 . the time we do a circle (sesi maaf maafan) between our batch member before PT3 start . inside of the circle is male and the outer of the circle is female . i knew that i'm gonna face you . that moment when you stand in front of me , about 50cm in front of me , after a very long time , for you maybe it is just a few months but for me it is a very long time , you told me that you're sorry for treating me like shit and you told me the reason why and what is your problem ( if you read this , i don't know if you're still remembered why and i hope you don't) after a long time i knew the reason and yet you should tell me sooner but it's okay i understand it's your private life .

HIS FIRST TIME

i still remembered the first time you ask me to take a pic with you , the pic that i put at the very first before i start writing . you wanna know what i felt that day ? i was like damn man how do , apa yg kau fikir waktu tu sampai minta ambik gambar . not even once before that day , you ask me that you wanna take a pic with me not even once . i am the only one who will always ask for a photo . and i was very happy that day thinking that you actually seeing me as a woman that i assume you like which actually i'm not . ps you minta nak ambil gambar sesama tapi you suruh i gak cari camera 🤦‍♀. rasa nak gigit je bila ingat balik hahahah.

AFTER A MOMENT

after that , i don't actually know what are we actually . in other people eyes other people heads , all they knew is we're a couple but i don't actually think the way they think . we're just a person who know each other story but sit down under a name of couple . lmao that's on my side i don't even know about your side your perspective. i bet actually you does'nt even think about me even a little even for a sec . i am just a regular person in your eyes . but you know , not even one day i don't see you as a person that i like . i always want to see you even from far away .

The day it's END (2017)

if you're still remembered . before the ujian diagnostik F4 . prep malam where everyone was studying except me hehehe . before the prep malam ends , you lalu behind me where i sit ohh ya that year we're actually a classmate do hahaha . back to the story , you passing behind me calling my name with a very low voice but enough for me to hear it cleary asking me for meet you at the stairs . very polite . very gentle . i knew the time has come . lol bapak dramatic . to make it short you asking for a break up . untill now i still remembered you said ' aku tak pernah fikir pasal kau pun sebenarnya' tbh i don't really felt dissapointed or sad or whatever because from your action back then i already knew it but i keep always tell myself it's okay 😌 . we've been breaking up twice but we're getting back together everytime we're breaking up . but i knew this time we will never going to getting back together . honestly at that moment i felt exactly the same way you felt but i don't have enough courage to asking you for a break up . so i agreed with it peacefully without any regrets because it is the best for us . so both of us follow our own way peacefully.

1 YEAR WITHOUT YOU ( HARD YEAR )

there is another one more year to survive without you . frustating i'm gonna met you everyday on my way to my class. i am not a wise girl i am not clever but not you , you're so brilliant and i adore you so much . it's hard . maybe i don't really felt hurt realizing that me and you are nothing but i always lied to myself , i always felt that we're actually still together. poor shu . not even one week people are not talking about you to me . can you imagine how i can move on if every week or every day there will always have someone to tell me what are you doing , where you've been going , even whatever coming out from your mouth there's always a person who will tell me about you either our friend our junior or even our senior . at class , dm , aspuri , dataran , dewan there always someone who will report averything that you do , how can i move on if i knew 70% of ypur activity ? your favourite song your favourite singer . it's hard knowing that i am still there waiting for someone who have no feeling at all towards me to come back in my arm . one year i sit inside your shadow . one year i pretend that we're nothing . i know you act knew that i still had a feeling on you but i don't give a shit. i stay like that , liking you untill the very last day of high school . STILL same feeling same hope same person . it's not a wrong thing for you to like someone annn . there's one time this one guy a very good friend of you told me that what you tell is different with what you felt , in a short way you're still have feeling on me but bullshit 😂 i know it's not . hahahha stupid why i am so loyal fml .

THE DAY THAT ACTUALLY THAT DAY

the time you told me seriously that you don't wanna have any relationship with me at all . oh it's night and i actually was having fun because i am enjoying munafik 2 , then you ws me told you wanna call me , shit i am enjoying myself watching munafik with my family then you came up making me felt so nervous because the way you talk is like so serious dude ! then i told him that i cannot call him now because i with my family then he just ws me the thing that he wants to tell me , it's about that thing . you tell me you don't wanna involve in any relationship with me and you said you don't want an unhealthy relationship, tbh that's all that i understand 😂 takdelah dia cakap mat salleh dahla aku tak pandai sangat english ni pun siput siput tulis pastu dia nak guna ayat bombasticc eeyy pukul kang end up aku iyakan je . *tarik nafas . to sum up i agreed with him and that was the day i do really really realize that he's not mine anymore . he open my eyes, show me the reality . my fantasy poop , broken .

AFTER THAT DAY

i am trying to move on hardly. it's hard to forget you but it does'nt hurt at all because i'm used to it 😜 . at the end of the day i understand feelings is something you cannot force with . believe me or not it's gonna be really hard but times will heal you . maybe not for a month neither a year ,maybe it takes more than 3 years but it's okay , we got this , whoever read this and you are still struggling to move on , let the time heal you don't force it , it will make you felt more sick :) . i don't believe a word called love anymore untill i met the person that i am with now hehehe. for almost 3 years and a half i am trying to forget you and alhamdulillah i already fully move on from you , i knew we're still very young when we're in a relationship back then and i knew everything happens for a reason . i am just hoping you will always do a very well in your life wherever you are , wherever it takes you stay strong . you're a strong man and i do really doakan every problem that comes in your life you can handle it well .

FOR YOU

if you ask ,

do i wanna be your friend absolutely yes

do i wanna hang out with you i will said yes

do i will always remember you , always yes

but do i want us to get back , it's no

and i knew you felt the same way too . nahh we're good as a friend . anyways i hope you doesn't get me wrong whenever i reached out you . when i said hi to you ,it does'nt mean that i still into you but it's mean that i am still here if you need ears for you to share any stories and i want you to know that i am still shu who you can comfortably talk with :)

i documentary our moments because it is a beautiful moments . don't get me wrong i am totally move on because i'm able to wrote this without feeling sad okiess . talking about us it is a never ending some sweet story , just you and me just both of us knew the storyline perfectly

he is my first love and will always be my first love before , now , after and forever untill the last day of my breath. stay healthy naufal keep your promise not to smoke / vape neither pod :) . i put my trust on you .

[hbdjumi]

𝙵𝚛𝚘𝚖 𝙶𝚊𝚕;

so this must be the, third? second? pretty sure third birthday i have celebrated with you. must i say i can’t wait for more birthday’s and for us to celebrate together in real one day !! but anyways, happy frickin birthday to my special best friend. you’re special because you and i have been through hell and back and yet we always find a home in each other.

through all the shit we have gone through and we manage to get through it. people and i mean more than one person have tried to keep us apart for many many different reasons, all terrible and wrong reasons cause i believe our friendship is pure and always meant to be. you’ve helped me on several occasions, being there for me when i needed you - when i panic and rant to you, you’re always there to listen and help to the best you can. when i’m being stupid you put me in my place as best as you can. as i do for you hehehe, or i try to.

anyway, i love you so much that those words will never fill up enough to the amount of love i have for you. you are a brilliant person with a massive caring heart and i’m so happy you are still here. i really don’t know what i would do without you around, to make fun of and be ugly with rdtgrfyhth. i’m so excited to meet you this coming august cause i know that will build our friendship even stronger. at the end of the day, you are always my yoongi to my hoseok. #sope lmao rdfgfhgjvh the og pair, we can never forget that.

i hope this birthday is a good one, a one to remember, and i hope you get spoiled because that is what you deserve !! i hope you take lots of shots hehehhe and eat tons of cake but save me a piece okies?? enjoy your day bc today it’s all about you. anyways, once again happy birthday to my best fren !  ♡

#jiwoo sevano

[fymellow]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MELLOW’S DANCER JUNIPER 🍇

The month July does not only stand for Mellow’s comeback but also a very important day which is Juniper’s birthday. Celebrating that she is one year older, we have gathered a few messages and birthday wishes from her friends and labelmates to congratulate her on a special day and to wish her the best. We wish Lee Juhee also known as Juniper the best possible birthday and hope she will continue to be our happy and talented grape! ♡

@aekure​ said: Can you believe time flew by so fast, I still remember just meeting you. We hit it off quite easily right away, though we were supposed to debut just a few months after, I never really had a time where didn’t get along with you. You’ve always been someone who talks to me so easily and understands how I feel, and you’ve always been someone who cheers me up so quickly and lets me rant ‘til your ears fall off. I’m really incredibly happy to have met you and to be able to be part of Mellow with you. We’re heading towards a full year together and that’s totally crazy. I wouldn’t want anyone else by my side! I love you so so so much! I hope you have an amazing birthday and I hope you’ll forever know that Mellow won’t be the same without you. Let’s stay together for a very long time! Thank you for everything, you oldie!!  

@hwangsia said: My dear Juniper, Today is a very special day ! Can you guess which one~? I'm pretty sure it's not hard for you to guess since you most likely received notes and wishes by loved ones, but I'll say it anyways: it's your birthday ! Another year passed and you're turning a year older, yet you still didn't age when it comes to your physique. You're still a beautiful and fresh flower with a bright personality, and I hope you will be able to keep your youth for even longer. I know this is supposed to be a birthday message but I also want to use this chance and thank you for being my friend. It's been around a year since we met, thanks to Mellow, and I am so grateful because it's like I gained another sister through this group. Thank you for being my friend, my group member and a person I can always rely on. I hope you will have another amazing year filled with lots of love, happiness and health. Let's keep on being close friends and care for each other, alrighty? I love you and happy birthday, my angel!

@cluelezz said:  MY BABY JUNI!! YOU'RE AN OLD LADY NOW! But you're a beautiful old lady~! I just wanted to take time to think the heavens for birthing you. You're a beautiful young lady with many many talents. Please continue to be your beautiful and amazing self. Happy Birthday, love!! 

@95theokim said: Junibear! Happy birthday to the most important girl in my life. I've never been good at these kinds of messages, but I have to let you know how glad I am that you were brought into this world on this day 22 years ago, and further that our paths happened to line up. I'm the luckiest guy in the world. I love you.

@kimdevl said:  Happy birthday to Juni! I hope your day will be as amazing as you are, and make sure to spoil yourself lots! If there are still pieces of cakes left, please make sure to hold onto some for me. We do not interact as much as before, but assuming it’s because we are both busy, something will probably happen soon that allows us to interact more again. Hope that you smile lots, as it’s your birthday—and that it’s a genuine smile, if not, I’m going to bust down your door and throw you a little show along with June, and we are going to make you laugh. Stay grapey ( see what I did there hehehe ) and keep staying strong! I am proud of you—and again, happy birthday!

@rinikyuu said:  Juni Eonnie! It's your Birthday and that means today is all about you! So make sure you eat cake and ignore your diet because if you're heavier then that means you're harder to kidnap-- I'm kidding ㅋㅋㅋ but seriously- I Love you and wish you the best of wishes that it's magical and all you ever wanted!

@kimoriz said: MY WONDERFUL LIL WONDERWOMAN. You truly are an inspiration to not only me but many others , no matter what the situation is you are always a bright and happy soul and i truly admire that in you, we arent that close but even the small conversations we have make me smile, i hope these little letters make you smile as well HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUNI !

@minny222 said: Hey Juni, it's Minny from Lucid~ I know we don't yet know each other well, but that's okay! Hopefully we will meet properly someday soon. Have a great birthday~

@yuggxm said: Happy birthday to you, dear! You've had one more eventful year of new achievements and memories, more moments to be cherished forever. Today is your special day, and I hope as the day goes on you continue to make many wonderful memories with the people important to you ! We all love you dearly ♡

#juniper #birthday

[casffeine-blog]

misc. 008 / WHEN IT’S OUR ANNIVERSARY.

open when... it’s our anniversary!

i think by the number you should be able to tell what this is for. i’d put this under an open when, except i just felt like it. heheh. it’s the eighth miscellaneous letter i’m writing for you, and this is to be read on the eighth of the eighth month. at this point, isn’t casphanie synonymous with infinity? i’ll be taking a long way down memory lane for this, so expect a long long post ahead! ( maybe i’ll even divide it into two parts, who knows. ) without further ado, here’s my version of the casphanie story! disclaimer note, this account only has some of what i consider the ~* iconic *~ moments, and may be incomplete! feel free to tell me if you want anything added! heh. ( dates are based on my timezone! )

on july 30th, 2016, i came on to a conversation where you jokingly say you’re open to a polyamorous relationship. you should be taking note that this was just a day or two after we met, so i was not fully aware of who you are and what your views are! i wasn’t about to be judgmental about a man who i might or might not be crushing on! so i asked, to confirm, whether or not dating you meant having to share and be shared. you held me possessively in response ( isn’t it cute how you’d react the same way if i asked you this even now? ) and i asked you what dating you meant. 

"i want to write about you, but how could any combination of the 26 letters really accurately describe the ethereal being that is you. but god- i would spend my time writing poems about the crinkle by your eyes as you smile, or the way you hold my hand is one of my frames of reference. i suppose dating me isn’t a simple equation but i want you to know that your smile is like sunshine to me and i savor each moment we spend together because there’s just something about you- i can’t fully explain. but for some reason, i want to hold you, and take care of you.” 

on july 31st, 2016, you were the first to wish me a happy birthday! you’ve referred to me as your princess even before we got together, and though the nickname still does make me blush up to this day, you should be able to tell why i was so convinced you were a flirt! not only did you claim me, you even referred to me as royalty. call me easy, but anyone would fall for a cheesy and great smelling man who calls them a princess!! you couldn’t even tell me you loved me, yet, and only told me you adored me. i remembered vividly waking up to a bouquet of beautiful pink roses, together with a glass of coffee and some very cute ( and very delicious ) cupcakes!

“happiest birthday, my princess! 21 years old and kicking ass, heh. i adore you, and wish you an opulent year ahead of happiness and love, and home. i’ll make sure of it! let’s celebrate. p.s. my heart is full of love for you.”

on august 1st, 2016, you accused me of liking you! this is one of the most adorable conversations i can recall us having! i couldn’t admit to liking you just yet, but you were already so sure about it, pffft. 

- “cheeseball cheeseball cheeseball.” - “you like cheese!!!” - “i do!! a whole lot!!” - “and you like me!” - “. . . . . well.” - “you . . . more than like me.” - “isn’t that you towards me. pft.” - “then how do you feel about me?” - “a lot of emotions at once! it’s a cozy balance of relief, happiness, excitement and elation! i thought i told you this.” - “ngh, yes. thank you, baby.” - “why the sudden thank you? aw.” - “because i’m happy that you feel the same way, ehe.” - “what did i do to deserve you again?” - “you’re being yourself, that’s all you have to do.”

on august 4th, 2016, i made a kakao account for you! eheh. your first message to me was asking whether or not i was the person you were looking for, eheh, and i responded by asking who you were in return!

“OH. WELL I’M YOUR OPPA AND YOUR CAS AND JUST GENERALLY YOURS!”

on august 7th, 2016, we used our first couple dp! and we’ve been using couple dp’s since then, haven’t we?

> feel free to redirect yourself! <

on august 8th, 2016, you became mine as i became yours, also the first time you’ve directly told me that you loved me instead of adoring me, yes yes? hehe. thank you, sweetheart, for making me the happiest ever since. ♡

“my heart beat is a song about you, and i’m just following the music. your hands in mine is my frame of reference. the best of you, the worst of you; i choose both. i am only yours, and i will always be yours. i love you.

truth be told, it’s taken me hours to finish this letter. perhaps it’s the nerves, or the anticipation? no matter what it is, my heart is racing as i type all of this down.

usually, words are my forte. i love writing and poetry but for some reason my mind is spinning so fast that i can’t formulate the sentences; there are so many thoughts in my head, but they’re all about you.

about your smile, and laugh, and the way you look so beautiful naturally as you sleep; how you just fit perfectly in my arms, and how we kiss like we have all the time in the world. i see forever with you, stephanie. it’s scary to say so but god- you make me brave. you are worth all the risks.

i really am so in love with you.

i love coming home to you, and falling asleep with you, and waking up with you in my arms. i adore the way you smile, and laugh, and hold my hand. and i can’t get enough of our playful arguments, and all the cuddles in between.

i love you, stephanie. and i’m asking you to be mine, officially; only mine as i am only yours.”

on august 11th, 2016, we had our first movie date! high school musical 3, yes yes? and that was only the beginning of our many movie dates! thank you for singing along with me and letting me hide in your arms whenever i get all sad or scared, hn. 

> feel free to redirect yourself! <

on august 13th, 2016, we got ourselves our first pup! i remember not being home with you during the entire adoption process, and the story of how flynn was the only one left still makes me sniffle, but i’m glad we got our second pup together! flynn’s presence not only makes me one of the happiest, because he’s so so adorable hn, but is only a blessing to the both of us, isn’t he? whenever one of us isn’t around for the other, we always have an accountable pup to cheer us up! 

- “COME HOME SOON, HE’S BEEN PAWING AT MY CHEST- AND YET SO SHY.” - “ARE YOU TREATING MY BABY WELL.” - “HE’S ALSO MY BABY, HUSH. AND YES, OF COURSE.” - “WHY ARE WE CONSTANTLY ARGUING ABOUT OWNERSHIP.” - “I’M NOT ARGUING. I’M SAYING HE’S OURS.”

on december 8th, 2016, we reached our fourth month together! now, i’d put every monthsary we’ve had here, except, like i always mention, everyday feels like an anniversary with you! the fourth would probably be the one put up here because it’s on december, also the month of our first christmas together! i find it extremely amusing and interesting how you still sound the same whenever you talk to me, despite this being four months ago! just shows how little you’ve changed, right? still the same person i fell for, and am constantly falling for. you were already referring to be as your future wife though, ehe ~*

“you told me that every day feels like a monthsary, that each day is a celebration of this love. and i couldn’t agree more. however, this is a special day! and you always, always deserve the best, my love. on the night we met, i already saw how the moonlight kissed your skin and i had realized clearly, that i am meant to do the same. you are the weirdest person i have ever met and i really love that about you, y’know? you’re SO DORKY. and you’re my dork. i would go on my knees and whisper hymns to your skin, not because you are a holy temple. but because you’re you. i have honestly never felt this secure. my past self was always so doubtful but then i met you and you- you keep me safe. this isn’t much, but i really hope this makes you smile, baby! i still have my christmas gift to you, hehe. to my stephanie, my princess, my mochi bun, my baby (future) wife. happy four months! forever to go.”

on april 8th, 2017, you gave me one of my biggest moments of disbelief and laughter! this day also made me realize just how much and why you enjoy naked cuddles. pfffft. also, it was our 8th monthsary! 8 was always my favorite number, and you’re giving me more reasons to love it. hn. award of the most extra hubby goes to you!

“topic proposal: why steph should let me nuzzle her boobs i. in regards to our eighth monthsary      a. to celebrate our eighth month, it is only fitting that you allow me to nuzzle your boobs in the process.      b. it complements the cuddles we’ll have tonight, considering that we’ll most likely be:           1. naked as we cuddle           2. more sentimental (because our celebration will heighten our emotions)           3. in a teasing mood ii. to enhance my motivation      a. your boobs are divine           1. because of this, being able to nuzzle my face against them will somehow bless me with the capacity to finish all the work i need to do           2. i will worship and adore them, and kiss them as i should. hehe.      b. with my motivation enhanced further, this guarantees more overall productivity. iii. how this benefits you as well      a. i will do my best in ensuring it is a pleasurable experience for the both of us           1. being aware of how your body reacts to stimula, i will use my hands, lips and tongue to make you feel good           2. if we were to cuddle naked, even more so      b. i will be giving you even more kishes in compensation of your permission.”

on may 25th, 2017, the butterflies in my stomach were exercising to their extreme! this is the day i woke up as your girlfriend, and went to sleep as your wife. the day i got to see my beloved in a tux looking as dashing as ever. the day the ring on my finger first settled in. the day it was okay for me to be the center of attention. the day i allowed you to keep staring. the day of many magical moments! thank you for making me the even happier than happiest, my darling. thank you for letting me be the privileged one to receive your beautifully written vows. 

“here’s to my stephanie; my best friend, my darling, my princess, the love of my life, my soulmate, my everything, and soon- my wife. where to even begin, really. you often call me a poet, but you’re the one who can make any word sound so beautiful that you leave me speechless.

i remember the first night we met. we started off talking about our similar interests: from greek mythology to oriental food and comic books. it was so mundane yet little did we know that this instant connection we had grew into so much more. suddenly, i couldn’t help but keep thinking of you, but keep talking to you. perhaps it wasn’t love at first sight, but in just one night, i already knew you’d be important to me.

it was scary at first. my past relationships didn’t really end that nicely and things like those leave scars and i honestly was thinking no relationship i’d get in would work out; that it would always end with broken vases and abandon. but you appeared and i can’t describe it but you began to change my mind and my heart little by little. how else can i say it but that, whenever i was going to see you, i felt like i was going home. i’ve never felt as safe and as secure until you entered my life, sweetheart. you show me miracles every single day. 

you let me into your heart, and always make me feel loved in return, just as much as i love you. i’ve never had that, and it makes me realize that we must have met at that time in our lives because we were finally ready for the real thing, y’know? that we had to go through all those challenges so we know how to love when the real thing happens. we really are each other’s right person, baby. there is no doubt in my mind, there never has been, when it comes to you.

i promise to take care of you, to always love you and keep you safe. i have once felt like each thing i’d hold would break but you let yourself be vulnerable in my hands, you always trust me and i will always keep this trust. let’s continue building this home together.

i promise to love you when you are happy, and when you are sad. when you are in perfect health, and when you are sick. from this moment until we meet again in another universe, and onwards from then.

i promise to love you even when you don’t feel like you can love yourself. i promise to love you even more when that happens. i will pick up any broken piece and we’ll put it all back together. no love is perfect, but that is why i admire it. people are messy, and love is messy. but it is love that makes us see that it will always be worth it.

you are worth everything, my baby. i cannot give you the world, but i am giving you everything of me. i am all yours, my love. infinitely. i am so very in love with you, and i cannot wait to finally become your husband.”

this may not be what you expected for an anniversary gift, but i thought it would be adorable to remind you of some of the moments of our relationship that makes me really really think about how lucky i got with you! happy anniversary, my love, my best friend, my darling, my sweetest, my soulmate, my husband, my life! here’s to many many more anniversaries ahead of us, yes yes? more shared moments, more christmas’ and halloween’s! new year’s and even valentine’s! you make me look forward towards the future, you always have. we’re slowly accomplishing an idea we talked about almost a year ago about traveling around the world together, and i can’t wait to visit the most beautiful places with the most beautiful person. i love you! 

[andreainog-blog]

A Magical Night to Remember ✨

It has been eighteen years since I was born in this beautiful yet complicated world. Time flies really fast. I was just a cute little kid way back then but now I am of legal age. I remember when I was a kid I love watching tv; I saw there how the celebrity teenagers spent their 18th birthday or debut. Most of them have cotillion and etc. I was amazed by those themed parties, the gowns, cakes and everything. That’s the time when I started dreaming of having a huge party on my 18th. I told my mom everything I wanted. She told me, “I’ll give you what you want, but you should study more and get good grades.” That’s why I studied well. I browsed for cute and simple dresses on the internet. Even though I’m not sure that I am having that kind of party still I prepared. It’s funny because I’m just 9 years old and yet I have too many plans for my debut. Since I’m the first grandchild, I thought it will really be possible—all I need is to wait. While growing up I understand all the importance of life—what really do matter. I started thinking practically because I know having that kind of party will cost us a lot of money. I don’t want my family to have a hard time preparing for what I want, so I just decided to celebrate a very simple party in our house. But I guess my family, my parents specially my mom loves me so much that they insisted to have a party for me—not a simple one. Even though I wanted the idea, I convinced them not to continue their plan because it’s just costly. They told me to study and finish college then that will pay off everything; that’s why I became more motivated in studying. I became busy from the month of October to December. These months are really stressful for me. I had to finish so many things. I need to take care of who will organize my party, who will make my cake, who will be part of my debut, when will I practice my special number and etc. Thanks to my aunt because she helped me in everything. I won’t forget the day that I had my first photoshoot. I’m so shy, I can’t pose and smile properly because many people who I don’t know are looking at me but after few hours I worked with them comfortably. In my mind I hoped for my shots to be good cos I’m not that pretty you know. Hahahaha. I enjoyed that day but I’m so tired to the point even smiling became hard for me. On that day I realized it is hard to have that kind of party; many things need to be settled. For me, the hardest part in preparing was that I need to choose the suited people for my 18 roses, 18 candles, 18 gifts, 18 shots and 18 blue bills. It’s hard for me because I have too many friends and I can’t invite them all. That’s why I only chose the best and true people in my life. I chose my cousin—CJ as my escort. They were all confused why I didn’t chose my boyfriend to be my escort hahaha. We were not in good terms that time and I never regretted not choosing him. Anyway, while the day of my party is coming, I became nervous because I don’t know if things will work out well. I became more nervous because of the gown that my mommy will bring. I don’t know if it fits me or what, I just have to wait for my mom so that I’ll be calm. My mom arrived from taiwan. I’m excited to try my gown and cocktail dress. Luckily the gowns fit in me. Mom brought all the Ferrero giveaways. Woah too many ferreros! I became more excited for my debut. Yay this is the day I’ve waited and prepared for: December 21,2014. I arrived at 10:00am on JW Function Hall because I’ll have a photoshoot. I saw everyone; they are so busy organizing and preparing the hall. The party has not yet started but I’m tired already because of that photoshoot thingy! But it’s okay everything paid off when I saw all of my love ones in the venue. The party started at 7pm. While entering the hall(with background music, A thousand years), I became more nervous. I have too many thoughts like what if I slip, what if I embarrass myself and many more but luckily it didn’t happened. So the program started and I saw that everyone’s enjoying the party. It’s the time for my 18 roses. My first dance was my grandpa and the next one was my dad. I can’t help being emotional on that time. I don’t care if everyone is looking, I just can’t control my tears that time. I don’t know why. While dancing with my 18 roses, they gave all their sweet messages for me. I felt so lucky having those guys as my family and friends. The next was my 18 candles. I know this time I’ll be more emotional because those friends I chose were all true and sisters to me. Everyone gave their greetings and wishes for me. They also have too many revelations about me that most of the people in the party didn’t know. When it’s MJ’s turn, she and I cried because we realized that we are more than blessed to have each other. Among those messages, MJ’s message was the one I’ll remember forever. Having those pretty good friends, I know that I will never be alone. After the candles, we watched a video that is all about me. Photos when I was a baby until now that I’m already a grown up. We also watched my MTV. I can’t help but laugh at myself, I can’t believe that I did such thing that never in my life I expected to do. While watching we were also eating. The program continued, it’s now the time for my 18 gifts. I can say that my friends knew me well because their gifts are based on the things I liked. They need to tell why did they chose those gifts and also their messages and wishes for me. I laughed all the time because of their messages. The gifts from Ate Micah and Nicole were the gifts I will really treasure. I got a bible from Ate Micah and a diy gift from Nicole—the effort though. After the gifts I changed clothes because my dance number is up next. While I’m preparing, the host interviewed my friends like: who is andrea when she’s with you, what are andrea’s favorites and many others; they also gave messages for me. I can say that I’m beyond blessed by having those people. It’s time for my dance number and I know that’s an epic one because I forgot too many steps hahaha but it doesn’t matter since I’m the debutant. After the dance number I changed again, I wore my cocktail dress. While waiting for me again, the host entertained the guests and she asked for some of my grandparents, uncles/aunties to have their messages for me. Before they gave their messages, they told the guests first what kind of person I am. Hearing those words made me cry because I didn’t know that I’m such a good person for them. The next thing was my 18 shots! I saw the disappointment in their eyes because they only drank nestea and not alcohol, which is better hahahaha. Because in our family, I’m not allowed to drink. ‘Twas epic though. And lastly my 18 blue bills. Maybe many people will think that I chose them just because of money, but it’s not. Actually those who were chosen are the ones who suggested to have blue bills. Hahahaha okay, that’s fine with us! They gave their messages and advices. All of it were so inspiring that I’m not the only one who learned but also the guests. I’m blessed to have those people because aside from my parents I know they were the ones that will also guide me on my journey. It’s time to end the night! I thanked all my friends, everyone who attended my party, SP Galleria, Forever Cupcakes and specially my family and God. My family, I’ve got so much to thank them for. Because this event will not be possible without them. I am beyond blessed to have such loving family. And lastly, I give thanks to God for everything because living for 18 years will not be possible without Him. I’m beyond grateful to God. After the program, I hugged and thanked all my relatives and friends for being part of my magical night. And that how my party ended Hehehe but it’s not yet finished because some of my friends stayed with me in the rest house and we spent the night and morning laughing together. How I missed that day. All my true friends are together. Even though I have many circle of friends, that night they became one that’s why I’m so happy. That night was really one for the books and I’m more than happy because everything worked out well. Indeed, that was one of my most amazing and unforgettable day. Sorry if I didn’t detailed everything but I hope you enjoyed reading this! 😊

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