#I'm too emotional for this rn

[dollya-robinprotector]

i think the demanding lines hit the hardest, usually they're more mean or assertive, like Whitney's is "You can't just fuck me whenever you want, Whitney!" Or for Alex its: "Alex, you idiot! Control yourself." but Robin's feel desperate and like you know they won't listen

To me, it's the "not you too".

"N-no... not you, too..."

That phase straight-up broke my heart. Why? The sheer amount of disbelief and desperation contained in that one single unfinished sentence. To could only manage to utter out so much, what kind of pain must lie beneath?

They grew up together knowing no one than each other. PC also realized they're Robin's only friend when they re-visited the youthward. They're basically "family".

Romantically or platonically, they TRUST each other. In that hell of a town, if there is only ONE good person who would never, ever, harm them, they will no doubt know it's the other. They only have each other to lean on and keep hope alive.

Now imagine that only one good person, their only sparkle of light in the dark, their only "family", one day, betray them, violate them in the way every other demon in that hell would and did.

How would that feel?

#I'm very very VERY EMOTIONAL RN #I'm #I'm not okay #They only have each other sob sob #yes you - PC can develop meaningful relationship with other love interest too #but no one KNOWS PC like Robin does #Even if they don't develop romantic feelings they will forever hold a very special position in each other' heart #dol pc #dollya art #dollya ask #robin the orphan #dol robin #degrees of lewdity

[beeholyshit]

My little bebes ❤️

#spesilverweek #IDK IF THIS COUNTS BUT I DON'T CARE #(☆) ｡⁠.ﾟ— Red #(☆) ｡⁠.ﾟ—⁠ Silver #THEY ARE SIBLINGS #I've been thinking about them lately.... wiwiwi #I did this super fast since I'm kinda busy today BUT I NEED TO MAKE MORE THINGS WITH THEM WAAAA #imagine little Red telling Silver about his journey... big brother but it's still a baby too 😭 #I'm so emotional about them rn #MY HONI TOLD ME 'IMAGINE RED TEACHING SILVER TO RIDE A BIKE' AND THAT IS JUST 😭😭😭😭😭 #ughuhguh my bebes... #I feel like Silver respects Red A LOT and it's still kinda shy talking with him the first days he started to live with Maroon.... #Red it's just excited to know he has a little brother now but he gives him his space but tries to be friendly and make him comfortable #I love my bebes that's it #I should make a tag for Silver too #mmmm #I'LL THINK ABOUT IT LATER #pokespe #pokemonspecial #🖍️ —⁠ Silly doodles

[lunarharp]

the flash and the flood

#witch hat tag #orufrey #god this is so scrappy..ugh.. -_-'''' uagh.. ability to draw drains away when im tired..UGH..i prefer drawing soon upon waking. #i wanted the last 'page' to be them looking back at each other but im too tired..i dont think qifrey can look at anyone rn anyway. #maybe this is the first time oru seriously burnt himself. maybe this is the first time qifrey truly cried. #i think of him in this era as non-responsive and unable to process emotion correctly after all. #so qifrey taught him what fire feels like - oru taught him what it feels like to create water #i like you because you feel safe - i'm scared because the depth of this feeling is unpredictable and can hurt me. can hurt you

[stillcominback]

really underestimated how much i missed rick grimes let me tell you

#NON-RP BLOGS DNI PLEASE #// #that episode was so good like asjkdgfg #getting to see andy as rick again really had a girl emotional #OBVS i'm feral for richonne too so i'm very akfjhdsfdsg rn #but like getting to SEE rick and hear what's been going on and just #god it broke my heart but also was cute and made me so excited again !!!!! #i still don't know if there's consistent or any writing here in my future right now BUT #i def plan on writing and getting into things again in discord #and i'll probably be reblogging and/or doing randome non-writing things here when i can lol #IDK I JUST !!! MISS RICK GRIMES HE'S MY BRAND BASICALLY YKNOW #00. // OUT OF AMMO ( OOC POST. )

[hussyknee]

I've been having a severe PTSD episode for over five hours and it never registered because spending half the day in helpless fits of obsessive, murderous, paralysing rage is the nothing out of the ordinary for me. "Oh, I'm just an angry person like that" yes because I'm constantly triggered, retriggered and retraumatized by living disabled and dependent on Satan, who happens to be my egg donor.

It doesn't seem like I'll ever really internalise that these rages are PTSD episodes, especially since I'm a woman and therefore socially conditioned not to harm anyone except myself (that's a privilege reserved for six foot cis het men in charge of families who do the traumatizing). But in case it does anyone else good to hear: you aren't an "angry person". You have Complex PTSD. The rage outs are the exact equivalent of panic attacks and disassociation that Hollywood likes to show. The need to FIGHT is as a visceral, animal, instinctive and uncontrollable as the need for flight, to fawn, or to freeze. You aren't angry. You're fucking terrified and trapped and very, very ill.

#it's really apparent rn because instead of my usual suicidal ideation at this point #I'm fighting irrational fears of mum hurting or poisoning my cats #to be clear: altho i no longer put anything past her #it's the thought of the woman getting off her ass enough to arrange a poisoning or feeding an animal of her own bat is whats laughable here #also whatever she does it can't be something that would make her face up to the fact that she's foul #poison is too merciful and straightforward. she prefers criminal neglect and emotional vampirism #you wouldn't think a disabled old woman living downstairs could possibly be this much of a festering black rot on so many people's existenc #when she dies they're going to promote her to a head torturer on arrival #abuse #complex ptsd #complex post traumatic stress disorder #anger issues #gaslighting #emotional abuse #child abuse #parental abuse #actually cptsd #knee of huss

[nutklcker]

I'm thinkin abt Anno rn and like

Imagine loving a Masked (romantically, platonically, or otherwise)

Wether you're an employee or a monster or whatever, you have a lovely little masked by your side all the time, and you collect scrap or hunt or just exist until eventually their body starts to deteriorate

And as a person, an organic thingy, you think it's dying and you mourn and spend your last days together, until eventually, one day, they stop moving

And then a few days later you notice the mask has fallen off, and you bring it with you as a keepsake, holding it with you for days, or weeks, or months, or maybe even years. Before eventually you just can't help it, you need to feel them, to see them, to hear them, to smell them, and you just need to be close to them again, and you bring the mask up to your face, it potentially fitting around your features perfectly, and it's like you feel them and see them and smell them again.

And then you feel their consciousness, and from her either can go two ways

Drunk on love and the grief of potentially reconnecting, you can't bring yourself to move the mask away, it feels like they're right there with you, you need to stay like this, because they feel so close. And eventually, the mask connects. And you can hear them and feel them and smell them again, but they're not there, they are but it's because they're within you. You share the same skin, you look with the same eyes and touch with the same hands, and you're perfectly together, whole once again, but in a new way that can never separate you two ever again. (*)

Or, the other option, you manage to pull the mask away, connecting the dots on what's happening, and you realize if you can just find a host you can have your lovely Masked back. So you spend time, maybe you hunt down a different Masked to use their body, maybe you go for the first humanoid thing you see like an employee or a Bracken, or maybe you are an employee and you send out a request for a new employee, recognizing you're dooming some newbie to death but coming to terms with that fate of theirs in order to have your loved one once again

And, there's a third option that's quite a but angsty beneath the cut

(*) Or, depending on your interpretation or wishes for how the masks work in this scenario, maybe once the make takes hold YOU die. And your poor Masked returns, recognizing this smell, these hands, this voice, and it's yours, but you're gone. And you've left them there, in your body, your decaying body. You had their mask, and their mask was basically immortal. But now? For them? You're gone, and the only physical remnant of you is theirs now, and because of the way their life works, that remnant is decaying, rotting, and eventually turning to dust. And once again they'll just be a mask, slowly falling off a body, waiting for someone to put it on.

#host #anyways I'm normal rn /lying #angst #vent #kinda? #we've been switching so much recently and I haven't had a lot of time to live my life so I've had a lot of pent up emotions #but some creative writing helps #especially when I think about option one and the possibility of basically cuddling Anno forever #but now I feel Rend tugging at my brain cuz he wants to think abt the prompt too #sigh #I love my brain guys #they make my life better #but also I miss being around sometimes #oh well #say la vee or whatever /lhj #also ignore any spelling errors I'm so so tired /pos /nm

[creative-but-hairy-man]

Just watched the last episode of Fionna and cake, and man were these 2 last episodes such a great reminder of like, your life mattering. While I hated Jerry for the existential dread, the last episode made me cry of happiness. It's kinda like nihilism, where you could suddently die and no one but a killing machine would care, and existentialism, you can find your way even though your life isn't magical or really that special.

These were the best 5 weeks of the year by far, watching our old man come to his senses, and fionna come to terms that you can just be ok without needing to change everything in the world. It is kinda cathartic you know?

These last two episodes were so conforting idk, go watch it if you didn't yet, go cry.

#fionna and cake #fionna and cake spoilers #adventure time #simon petrikov #ice king #golbetty #jerry #idk what more I don't want to seem to use too many tags #I'm so emotional rn #like damn #Whie I do hope this is the last of adventure time #I also wish we could see beth and shermy's adventures #what changed in a thousand years y'know? #but yeah I hope warner doesn't milk adventure time

[fortes-fortuna-iogurtum]

..

#hi back for now bc it's fall break and I'm stuck on campus #trying not to complain about it but I've been having stomach issues for at least the past couple of weeks #it's been acting up since I got here but the past few weeks and specifically the past few days it's become a lot more intense #I made an appointment with the medical clinic here on campus and they're treating me with something for a possible stomach ulcer right now #I have a follow-up in a couple of weeks #I'm struggling to keep on top of all my thoughts and feelings and emotions right now too #which may be causing or compounding the stomach issues. honestly who knows. #all I know for sure rn is that I feel very tired and worn out despite it being fall break #and I wish I didn't feel this way #kinda sad and very tired #it's a perfect opportunity to catch up on school work that I've fallen behind on. and yet I feel completely unable to even think #about school. hhhhh. 🙃 #it's been such a hard year guys. and I don't want to complain or wallow but I wish I could just break down have a good cry #or a screaming fit if needed #just get it all out #and then maybe I'd be able to cope a little better #unfortunately I'm not sure that's how it works. so I guess I'm stuck feeling like this for now.

[ruelpsen]

horny and sad and wishing that fucker was real so he could bang me

#i am straight up not having a good time alone in my thoughts tonight #idk what's going on but i'm feeling very hhhhhhhhhhhh (in a sad/empry way) rn #i want him to hold me and tell me that everything's going to be alright too #sigh. i should not feel like crying over this but the emotional exhaustion is hitting #that's maybe enough oversharing for tonight #not sfw #londarling

[tvrningout]

IMAGES OF CHIYOKO HISAKAWA : 1 of ???

once gaining steady income as a mangaka, chiyoko seriously contemplates a more elaborate tattoo; rather than the cute little images she's imagined here and there, she wants something truly stunning to look at. the idea strikes her one morning after managing to spill paint all over her favorite pair of shorts, a deep green running over the blue material and down her calves. wouldn't it be pretty to paint her skin much like a canvas? chiyo eventually settled on a design that looks similar to watercolor, and though the visuals above lack much color, chiyo's tattoos are deep blues, purples, and reds that fade into each other, similar to what you see in these images here ( nudity warning, though nothing explicit ). the shading would most resemble the bottom right image, filling empty space with shadow or colored gradient. her tattoo curls along her right arm, across her chest, and down the left side of her waist, hip, and leg ( as depicted in the bottom left image ). getting to this point has, of course, taken quite a bit of time, especially as chiyo had to grow comfortable enough with her tattoo artist to allow them near parts of her body that are typically concealed. the whole thing has cost her a lot of money and tears, but she's pretty proud of the art she and her tattooist created. she plans to keep adding to it in the future.

#i love how i always think i won't have much to say and then i proceed to talk a ton asdfg #btw chiyo is now too powerful i was already weak to her but now i'm a goner i'm done for and i don't wanna be saved #ASDFG #and honestly the idea of her always wearing hoodies and tshirts that kinda cover it up vs when she wears tank tops #or dresses that reveal it........ smooching her rn #headcanons | chiyoko #visuals | chiyoko #btw i'm now so tempted to really rip the bandaid off and embrace the shorthaired blonde fc #kinda makes sense too bc in her 'adulthood' verse she's in a emotional and social slump she's falling backwards #and chiyo attempting to change herself outwardly in hopes of fostering some inner change too? yeah #but also seeing chiyo now vs when she was younger and thinking she's drastically changed and yes a lil but also #she's found herself back at square one my guy #I DUNNO I GOT A LOT OF THOUGHTS AND I'M JUST!! I LOVE HER :' ))) #tw body image #is that the correct tag? y'all let me know if i need to be tagging something else bc i'm not sure

[chibifox2002]

@cosmicwhoreo

You have too much power with your ability to draw/design cute babies... Connie is me rn...

#I usually try not to tag people in something more than one time in one day... but I'm emotional over a fluff ball rn... #AND SO IS CONNIE #YOU'RE TOO POWERFUL INK #TOO POWERFUL #Prince Taffeta #Connie Dot #others ocs #my character(s) #my art #kirby oc #kirby series #krbay

[fourteenthz]

LOVE AND PEACE ON FUCKING PLANET EARTH

#kelly plays ykz #yakuza 0 spoilers #I'm stopping now its like 7am I prefer to believe they are going to have a dinner and plan a trip to Europe and never come back actually #IM SO OBSESSES WITH THEM IT'S MAKING ME SICK IN THE HEAD #i didn't start this game expecting anything other than brother^tm but you know what. IF #they every single one of majima's old boss can say tell this guy has feelings maybe i can too. yeah. YEAH. #OBSESSED SO BAD with chapter 16 first cutscene... he has absolutely NO hesitation in running up to her. #and the second she goes past him he immediately refuses to let her go. #ITS SO INSANE how he has been so lifeless the last chapter and accepting his fate as a pawn for the next one #to show that fucking face he makes while looking at her. ITS SO WEIRD IN A FANTASTIC WAY my man is having too many feelings he can't #she** can't even see it and it KILLS ME bc he is making the world's puppiest eyes at her IM SO AUAAGAHHAHH SLAMMING MY HEAD ON THE TABLE #I NEED THEM. TO BE. SO NORMAL RN. I NEED THEM TO HAVE SUCH NORMAL DINNER RN. #I'm stopping playing bc i'm not sure that's going to happen so enough tears for today but I JUST. REALLY NEED THEM. #TO HAVE DINNER. HOLDING HANDS. AND THAT'S IS. CAN SOMEONE HEAR ME. #she really is like my top3 favorite characters in this damn game I adore this woman to death. #feeling so majima by his sigh in realief as soon as she stopped walking away when she tripped. the way his damn face changes from pained to #'IDEA!' and imediatelly offers to take her out........................... i'm so unwell at this momento. #I thought if they met again I wouldn't be able to trust majima bc he was so set in being a damn pawn in the previous chapter but man..... #the amount of thoughts behind his eye everytime he looked at her. if they end up playing that as him bring in pain #bc he has to win her over im going to kll a guy. there's no way NO WAY U HEARD ME #thry are literally my everything. there is NO way she is going to survive this game and I'm trying sk damn hard to get #used to that idea but it just sucks i love her so much. and thw worst part i have no idea what's up with majima on the other games #is her dying being his villain storie??? his hero redemption? HELL IF I KNOW. IS SHE EVEN DYING FR?? #i truly think they could get away wih shipping her to another country. and it would make sense for majima to insist her to go. #but oh I doubt so hard they are giving me anything but pain with my favorite relationships in this game. i really do. #until then..... lying down in bed.... thoughts abt majima soft expression at her.... abt the weight her voice #carries rn.... abt the way he said 'hey' and she said 'you think I'm emotional because I'm hungry again'..... they. are. so. #the way they dont even give a choice to walk faster when she is accompanying majima. #I have such low standards at this point. if they don't at least hold hands again i will cry. #he doesn't need to guide her around anymore so... u see my vision? him asking for her hand bc he wants to... hello?

[sysig]

My kingdom for a "So you say” (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #ZEX #Dexter Favin #Hhhh they ;; Their ''first'' interaction! #Officially up to three cryings - not that I'm surprised I love Dex <3 #My head was fully abuzz during this scene there are so so so many interesting details! #So interesting to see which ''held true'' and which were left behind - which ones became Helix while others didn't! #At this point I almost see Helix as an alternate timeline - kind of like how Defeated is a branching arm off the main body #Not terribly dissimilar but the details that are different are too interesting to let go of so just make it all canon in its own way! Hehe #Especially since Helix is largely from Max's 3rd person perspective so the way he tells it is different than Dexter haha #Very interesting what he leaves out in his retelling hehehehe ♪♫ #Anyhow enough of Max he's not even here rn sheesh ♪ ZEX! And Dexter ;; #Hghhghh it's all set up so deviously <3 That fact that up to this point ZEX has been relying on Zelnick especially to give him credence #And then as soon as someone he ''knows he trusts'' comes to throw a wrench into things - Dexter has as much weight or more! #He's specifically engineered to sow doubt and confusion! Gosh what a place to grow his character from <3 <3 #ZEX's pride undoes him completely it's So well written ♥ Truly a fatal flaw for VUX and the way he's picked apart aghh <3 #And?? The fact that I can hear ''Max's'' voice in ZEX's syntax as soon as he doesn't have a good argument??? Hello???? #I know they come from the same base but like!! How!!! Masterful 💖 #As I drew it it's a bit out of order - Dexter says he can't protect Max (😭) before ZEX starts crying it all got a bit mixed in my head #I was very emotional at the time you understand haha #It's all so sad! They're so close in some ways to being or having what the other wants but both fall just short #No wonder they took what little comfort in each other they could <3 ZEX comforted by his voice and Dex comforted by caring for his body #They have so little to offer each other trapped as they are ;; #It's all so interesting and distressing!! There's so much to think about as everything falls into place!

[fanvoidkeith]

"high empathy autism" this, "low empathy autism" that. you don't even know how fast my empathy can switch on a dime

(*update to this post before i even post it: the day i wrote this, i forgot to take my anxiety meds. oops. this still applies, though)

#void keith talks #autism stuff #it's like. i care so so so much. and then i don't like an hour later. and then i'm back to caring so so so much and th #i think my empathy runs on a spin cycle #or like. one of those wheel pickers like on wheel of fortune #i get so much secondhand embarrassment from everywhere in my life but sometimes i just couldn't give less of a fuck about shit that happens #i'm getting emotional whiplash. every day #and ofc it depends on how i feel. and how i feel rn is that i don't really care about anyone's problems #unless it's 1) a friend or 2) a fictional character. or 3) an animal #empathy is hard sometimes honestly. kindness too. and sympathy. and compassion #mental health stuff #neurodivergent stuff #huh. maybe my anxiety meds do more than i thought. even though it's a pretty low dose #anxiety stuff

[stuckinapril]

loving the therapy vibes u have planned and i have 1 single piece of advice for u: the things you truly, sincerely, DONT want to say out loud, are the most important to say ❤️

got it, thank u so much my divine angel <3 i do have an issue w obscuring the ugliest things out of fear of judgment or being misunderstood, but if she's as good as my friend says she is she'll hopefully see through that and help me navigate it. i'm rly excited :)

#it'll also always hold true that the ppl i met thru tumblr will alwaysss be my first therapists omg #i remember being 19/20 & CONFUSED & coming here to talk ab emotional things and the ppl on here had so many helpful takes and perspectives #i always say this. and it's true. that tumblr houses many gargoyles who j want to make people feel bad #but i've also met some of the most incredible people ever on here and i am so grateful #def going to therapy a much more mature me than i would've if i didn't have this silly blog to dump my feelings on #also so many people in my life r on borrowed time rn <3 i'm trying to gain the clarity to see whos's worth keeping around #the first time i seriously considered therapy was when a few anons sent me their experiences w it #which helped destigmatize it a lot in my head and that's why i even took the plunge #am i too attached to my anons? yes. is it unhealthy? also yes. will i ever stop? unlikely. #we'll see IDK i'm saying sm but i'm very emotional and insane and can never shut the fuck up #🫂🤗🥰💕🫶

[norrussell]

HIS LIPS YA ALL 😭

#I bet he kisses so softly and gently 😭 #Also let's go lando bracelet 🥹 #I can't do this I'm way too emotional rn #lando norris #ln4 #british gp 2023 #silverstone gp 2023