#Self Destruction Instinct

[nugothrhythms]

“Dance With the Walls” off of 2020 debut album Self-Destruction Instinct by Mtvaris Dabneleba, a post-punk goth band from Tbilisi, Georgia (as in the country in the Caucasus Mountains, not the state in the USA)

#gothgoth #goth music #post punk goth #post punk #Mtvaris Dabneleba #Dance With the Walls #Self Destruction Instinct #music #Georgian #debut album #2020s #2020 #2020s goth #Tbilisi Georgia #Georgian goth #Caucasus Mountains #Eastern European #Western Asian #it's a transcontinental country #Georgian post punk

[strqyr]

it's... interesting, to see discussion about the relics, especially highlighting the staff of creation and the sword of destruction as the gamebreakers, that now with the staff salem can create just about anything so it's basically game over—

yet, in-universe, salem prioritized going after the lamp and the crown—knowledge and choice—first.

#every telling of the blessings too like #creation and destruction come first #they're basically the 'default' #but it's knowledge and choice that are given importance of a different level #those are what makes you *you* #you can destroy and create all you want #but do you know why or what else you could do with the two? #what all choices there are beyond the basic instincts? #idk if i'm explaining this well but it's like #yeah creation and destruction are great and important #but knowledge and choice is where it's *really* at #it's the exploration of self

[sskk-manifesto]

MITCHELL AKUTAGAWA EPISODE!!!!!!!!!!

#MITCHELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #///AND/// AKUTAGAWA EPISODE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And Yosano and Kenji spotlight too. Episode written precisely for my personal liking #Too bad no Atsushi then it would have been perfect (╥﹏╥) At least we got his voice in the episdoe preview #Alright I **LOVE** Mitchell. This is not the space to talk about it properly but I just really like how flawed she is‚ #but also in a way that results funny and endearing. And I love love love how much she cares about her family and is loyal to it!!! #It makes her so noble and virtuous. I know she has so little screentime but really the way she's so harsh and in apparence self-absorbed– #But in reality so kind and altruistic... The way her hearsh ways are implied to be only a consequence of a life of struggles and her will– #to save her family's name through a noble behavior and appearance too... It makes her so complex and multilayered imo #AND just how her innate tendency to defend people spans out of her family too!!!! #In my interpretation she did NOT care for Hawthorne or like him. But she still gave her life for him because she just instinctively– #protects the people around her. I don't have any strong feelings for haw/mitch but like how to blame Hawthorne I would have– #fallen for her right that istant too. #Now to Akutagawa. I'm really endeared by this episode because I'm pretty sure that's when I started sympathizing with / liking him :') #Like that's the moment when the things Dark Era showed us and the canon Akutagawa behavior click together and the watcher goes “Oh. OH.” #At least I'm pretty sure it was for me. It's bittersweet but especially sweet. #One more thing is... Wow bsd really has been like *that* since the beginning hasn't it. It's kinda silly to think back to all the criticism #the latest arc got now. #The criticism regarding how the ridiculously high stakes have been solved seemingly effortlessly in a way that resulted very anticlimatic?? #That's ALWAYS been there. “Oh no the ada is done for if they found out our base!!” *holds literally ZERO consequences* #“Oh no the Guild is done for if they destruct Zelda!!” *holds literally ZERO consequences* #“Oh no the Guild knows were our clerk is!!” *holds near to ZERO consequences* #And #“Oh no Akutagawa died!” “Oh no half world population was tuned in vampires!” “Oh no Fukuchi obtained One Order!” #“Oh no Chuuya is a vampire siding against Dazai!” #It's really the same‚ isn't it? #But like‚ we're still glad all of it happened right? Because it makes the experience enjoyable lol. #It's really about enjoying the ride I suppose. #I have more to ramble about but I've ran out of tags so I'll be doing it on my main blog reblog later #random rambles

[talentforlying]

i'm about to run off to class but i've been going positively apeshit about shakespeare for the last three hours so like: what shakespeare play would y'all most associate your muses with?? in terms of story themes, related aesthetics, character arcs/tropes, etc?? or see if i can assign them one that fits if you'd like, idk, i'm vibing

#( ooc. ) OUT OF CIGS. #putting shakespeare muses on my ''hellblazer & constantine characters only'' multi? it's more likely than you think #i've already got a character from ER waiting in the wings who do i think i'm kidding #ANYWAY instincts say that constantine is aligned with macbeth bc Spooky but hear me out: Hamlet #never sure if the descent into madness is real or an act. sending your friends off to get killed. called in to solve a problem for a ghost #mourning the father. the abandonment of the love interest. natural imagery symbolism with snakes and flowers and water #accidentally making things worse when you're trying desperately to make things better #self-destruction layered over and over and over itself in a thousand forms both intentional and unintentional. guilt and grief #wee bit of goofing and gaffing thrown into the mix for good measure. main character needs a fucking cigarette #like BRUH. do we see the VISION #this is totally optional ofc i'm having brainworms about literature #SHIT that reminds me i gotta go back and do that song post too!!! i've had that tab open for like a month #but that's a problem for a later me. away to class i go

[lady-ika]

hands you love and peace

#trigun #trigun stampede #vash the stampede #no trimax bc i hadnt read it yet and cannot decipher his hair in any vers apparently #also why is 98 vash's glasses wiggly #my brain is infected with this blonde twink fr #im sorry everyone who follows me im having a mental breakdown and vash is the only thread keeping me sane #weird that my brain looks for a new blorbo every time its about to self destruct #anyway hope yall enjoy #drawing #art #digital art #i should post my fave lil panels from the manga #also what do vash and wolfwood have going on bc its not straight but i personally dont see it as romantic #but they sure do have cain instinct embedded in them #i think about the scene in tristamp of of vash sneezing and getting caught and wolfwood fucking bashing him #its v funny to me #its more obvs w meryl and im rooting for her but im headcanoning that its unrequited regardless of if vash is aware of her feelings or not #mainly bc i think of vash and the sex workers and him pretending to be asleep bc he doesnt feel like he deserves uhhh any of that #so tldr either wolfwood or meryl having any romantic feelings for vash its v sad for them regardless of if theyre returned or not #hey why did i start talking about this #uhhh i forgor anyway #hey spoilers for trimax/stampede #does it fuck anyone else up that wolfwood is like. probably still technically maybe a teenager bc of all the shit #bc it fucks me up #poor wolfwood #also is badlands canon bc im trying to stick w canon shit for now bc fan shit (affectionate) poisons me and i need a functioning brain #for work yknow? i printed vash stickers to put on my phone so i have a reset point when i get overwhelmed but boy do i not like having #an anime character prominently on my phone where people can see him #i saw a patient glance at my phone bc i had coloured it in bc its black and white

[sapphire-draw]

random doodle i cleaned up

[I don't know if the drawing is readable??? I put a description on it if not]

Malroth being menacing/scary by virtue of existing.

#dqb2 #dragon quest builders 2 #dqb2 malroth #malroth #i am quickly oscillating between 'this sucks' and 'this is cool' at very rapid speeds so idk #Malroth's an incarnation of destruction i think he would trigger some primal instinct on people #Not on Builder 'cause Builder has 0 self-preservation skills and a one-track mind (building)

[raiiny-bay]

learning a lot more about my OCs than i thought i would while writing these lil bios

#i am realizing that. in the real world #dhestyn would probably be really unpalatable #like he is very intense & even maybe intimidating? to some? #& like. yea. i knew that. he's got his issues yk. & he just comes on way too strong most of the time #but he's also very gentle & thoughtful (particularly with kelly but with others he cares about too) #but for him being gentle has to be like. a conscious choice #he is constantly in fight mode. his instinct is to fight. always. #even when he's older that's still the case. he's just better at managing it #bc years of therapy lol #he's just my self-destructive lil baby #he means well. he's just afraid of everything & he does not like feeling afraid #he probably has the worst anxiety out of any of my characters. it just manifests as unrelenting rage #n e way. the boys are mostly done. i have to fix a few things & finish dhes' relationship section #& then it's onto the next! #progress! woo! #rainyrambles

[reitziluz]

got rid of the migraine only for it to be immediately reactivated by a combination of shock, forgetting to eat, and drinking too much energy drink.

i have to find a new place to live, because the landlords need my flat for family use.

uuuugh

the only good part is that i have six months to deal with the Ordeal so cruelly thrust upon me.

#tbh i'm p okay because it's a grandkid who needs their first place to live #because i go absolutely feral whenever i run into well-off people who DON'T make sure their kids and grandkids are taken care of #knew a guy who was self destructing trapped in a downwards spiral largely because of poverty n instability it brings fucking him up #and his mom was like. a hospital ceo #she had the means to singlehandedly pluck her own damn son from the hell he was trapped in #but of course she didn't. she had put him in there #like sure there are the super rich super spoiled children of rich people. but at least i can get their instinct. as a human #i find it reprehensible when even Ordinary well-off people just like. buy their own bullshit and don't care for their families #anyway #silver linings i was kinda on the lookout for a new place to begin with #might be able to live together with a good friend! #there's just. so much to get done now rip me

[turtlecleric]

I am so high and so sad and so WORRIED about Vi

#how would you fucking react to that? bc I would... spiral. bad. #it's been HOURS and I'm still so sick with rage #if I were her I know. I KNOW. I would do some really self-destructive shit #I'm so worried for her she already has terrible self-preservation instincts #she's already exhibited some slight self-harm #god #symphony

[kelpiemomma]

i really need to draw khan and emmet hanging out bc they would be such buddies. ingo hates how quickly they bonded bc khan took one look at emmet, at how excited emmet is to battle, and seemed to Immediately like him (it only bc khan had already bonded w ingo, but like hell will he ever admit that. that proves he has emotions! he has to hide those.) khan & emmet battling each other. khan takes over for ingo sometimes on the multi trains except he and emmet get so into battles that they need a chaperone to keep them from getting too rowdy bc somehow (???) they've managed to destroy a couple of train cars??? khan challenges the subway himself (he battles using himself but also his pokemon. he'd rather battle using himself, but ingo and emmet get awfully concerned when he faints so he stops doing it so much). khan and emmet discuss battle tactics (khan insists "offense is the best defense" and "go balls to the walls immediately on attack" and emmet argues for better strategizing and well rounded move pools) and help each other train, offering suggestions and tips and "hey, let's try this maneuver" or "i think it would be better if you did this move first".

not that they don't enjoy an off day, but they definitely bonded well over battles.

#khan a. #just some thoughts #ingo is a little jealous over just how quick khan seemed to take to emmet but khan saw how ingo behaved around his brother and knew #he didn't have to worry. he based his reaction off ingo. not that he still liked emmet immediately (he didn't even immediately like akari- #he's been burned too many times to so quickly and willingly open his heart like that) but while it took him at least a year to go from #dubiously tolerating ingo for akari to hanging out with ingo with the excuse of 'having nothing better to do' and even longer to say #'yeah these are my people and i will protect them' (bc admitting he likes them?? that he loves that they love him?? that he would #keep them safe at the cost of his own life without hesitation? oh he'll admit he'll protect them but he would not say out loud #just how far he'd go to protect them.) it took him a few weeks to go from eyeballing emmet still suspiciously to going out of his way #to engage emmet in conversation and approach him. ofc he still approached emmet by way of 'i saw your battle. try me >:)' and challenging #him. but he wasn't threatening to kill him or anything. akari saw how khan watched ingo for his cues tho (bc she was doing the same thing. #that may have been her dad's brother but he was still just a stranger to her. she's been hurt by enough strangers.) #and she thinks its funny that ingo will grumble and complain about khan not threatening emmet like he'd threatened ingo in the beginning #(when khans not around ofc) but won't say it to his face. ingo is an Adult. he's Above Tthat. he's NOT jealous and upset that this #feral bastard has left him behind for a new treat (his OWN TWIN.) nevermind that khan will turn down emmet if ingo has a task for him #and that khan still drops in for dinner with them (drops everything if ingo invites him (through akari) for dinner). #ingo is still khan's preferred twin (unintentional human pack instinct & dog instinct bonding to ingo) but #he's glad that emmet exists as well. he's privately glad the twins exist and that ingo ended up in hisui and that nana yeeted him to arceus #bc what a sad & pathetic existence he'd have otherwise had. fighting w nana and getting his mind wiped. arguing w customers. #he'd have stagnated until he self destructed. #ANYWAY. i love my OC and the family he accidentally got himself inserted into.

[nugothrhythms]

"Ill" by Tbilisi, Georgia (the country, not the state)-based post-punk goth act Mtvaris Dabneleba off of their 2020 debut album Self-Destruction Instinct

#goth #post punk #goth post punk #gothic post punk #Mtvaris Dabneleba #Ill #Self Destruction Instinct #music #2020 #Tbilisi Georgia #Georgian goth #Eastern European goth #West Asian goth #Bandcamp

[boyheros]

its like I wanna make little infographics for my mvrck oc lore cuz I love it and wanna share it theoretically but I know I should start small lest the motivation flee from my feeble body. but there's so many THINGS I could explain I don't know where to start. like I would try a poll somewhere but truthfully I'm not sure if any of it would make sense enough without explanation for people to even vote on

#like. humans vs clones vs facsimiles vs mizrieta* or what it means to get 'mizrieta sickness' #or base black & souls & 'pure white' which may or may not be real #or Mizrieta scar rules and abilities and the theoretical self-destruct instinct and weaknesses and hiveminding and #URGH. blows up. whatever #phx news

[ranvwoop]

cooing over my own ocs part 282737. listening to songs abt teenagers like woaah ..... they're teenagers

#vwoop.noises #They pair off nicely. In more ways than just their respective romances #Like when you can mix things and you get bonuses .. in video games... But that's just how people are they should draw different things out #But. agh. Max and Ethan... My little guys #Max is depressed and has will to live imparted onto him via an obligation to others. Ethan does not #Ethan fully believes everyone is better off w/o him #Together they are... A Force. thats for sure #+ Matt who has more interesting things wrong with him but self preservation isn't one of them #They are a trio before Max dates Matt and it goes spectacularly wrong. #Anywyas. They're so teenaged #Bridge burners unite #(Chrys gets in on the nihilism but she internalizes it more. She has 2 be a rock for the friend group (this is a cry for help). She can - #level w Max on this front) #<- This is a Strong Woman trope subversion on purpose. She wants to be the trope. She can't do this she's ~17 #Forgets to let herself be a person first. Etc #But she does have more self preservation instincts than whatever they get up. She doesn't socially self destruct she does this on her own

[finitevoid]

I’m writing a yyh au where everyone lives long happy lives and then dies at peace (but don’t worry they all come back! It’s reincarnation) and of course hiei had to outlive everyone because the irony of the one who spends a good portion of the series suicidal being the last one to die was too good to pass up . But anyway. hiei and mukuro’s relationship post-the rest of team urameshi dying really is that “why did you cut the sleeves off of your shirt” “they were like 90% of my impulse control” except it’s mukuro finding hiei perched on the handle of his sword in front of a forest that is a) actively on fire and b) littered with corpses being like, if you wanted to fight someone I could have arranged that for you, and hieis like I Wanted to feel the burn of suffering. I wanted to break myself back down to my base instincts of survival. And Mukuro’s like ok it’s time to come back to the castle now and grabs him by the scruff of his neck

#hiei is not suicidal here but he is sort of Testing himself to see if he is #coordinated self destruction (not eating not sleeping not resting between fights) in order to see if his survival instincts will kick in #they do! yay! #suicide ment

[mousegirl-cheerleader]

The unfortunate cycle of Get Sad -> Feel Desire to Self-Isolate -> Get Lonely -> Get Sad

#for whatever reason when I'm at my worst and feel just intensely lonely my instinct is to like #cut ties? #I think it's due to the fact that it feels less painful to be lonely when you're alone than to be lonely when you're around others #luckily we can recognise the fact that it's a self destructive urge to just leave all the discord servers I'm in and stuff like that #but still tough to fight that urge too #and I hate going to people directly if I have issues I need help with especially now #plus I don't always have the energy to talk to people #oh well #I'm miserable currently but gonna give myself a little while longer to feel those feelings and then I'm going to actively work on like #the usual choosing joy and stuff like that #I'll be okay #I'll always be okay #I'm a tough gal

[oysters-aint-for-me]

my brothers dog is one of those Big Dumb Fast Strong (BDFS) Dogs. sometimes the dog stays at our place. we have a yard and the dog is usually out on lead-line thing, whatever they’re called—basically he’s on a leash but he can still run. ever since my brother got him, i have been worried about this set up, because again, the dog is BDFS and has busted out of his collar more than once. i have expressed my worries but no one did anything. i’m no stranger to that reaction to my worries in general, and over time i have learned that it usually means “you’re overreacting, there’s nothing to worry about here.” except the past ooooh 8 years it has become increasingly clear to me that some of my worries are actually quite legitimate and just because they are ignored by others doesn’t mean that they aren’t an issue!

anyway my brother’s dog ran away today. 😞 i feel so useless. don’t worry we’ve done a whole bunch of the recommended stuff so we’re hopeful he’ll come back, plus he’s microchipped and we’ve got fliers and have alerted various town officials posted on social media etc. i’m just pissed off. at my family, because they didn’t take my worry seriously, but also at myself, because i really need to start trusting my gut instincts about this stuff and push harder.

#i was right about covid interrupting life for much longer than two weeks and i even thought it would stick around for three years at least #i also was right abt DT getting elected even though everyone else said it would neve rhappen… #i love to be right of course but ​i do NOT like being right about these things in particular #but like how can i tell when i worry is legit and when it’s an overreaction?? #i can’t!!! no one who makes predictions knows what’s gonna happen #i just. i always feel so lost like my #instincts are compromised by my anxiety #and i don’t want to look stupid or insane by worrying about useless things #but then when something bad DOES happen i feel bad if i saw it coming but wasn’t able to stop it #UGH actually no this IS all my fault because on wednesday i was feeling happy for once! #and i told myself ‘hey you’re feeling happy right now! hmm that must mean something awful is around the corner’ #lo & behold #(i’m kidding btw i know that is irrational and a harmful self-destructive thought pattern!) #(but also it’s completely true lmao) #(jk i know it isn’t) #(or do i?) #(i do) #(maybe) #(no i do)